#if i go to a restaurant right now

[carlyraejepsans]

oh my god I'm living on my own

#this doesn't feel real #MY APARTMENT. I LIVE HERE NOW #my roommate is moving in next week so I'm temporarily on me own #tomorrow i am Going out exploring the city and hopefully finding the local queer youth groups #and probably ordering a pizza at that small place i accidentally went into when i was looking for a different restaurant #(i felt so fucking bad about it LMAO) #there's no complex wifi but the apartment is right next to a convent so #I'm stealing the nuns' wi-fi #eh i was going to hell anyway. at least I'm taking the internet connection with me

[shorlinesorrows]

qpr jean and neil. that's all i'm gonna say.

do you see my vision?

#i might add onto this later but right now I'm too busy crying #“misplaced forever partner” ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT DESTROYED ME #neil ordering a hit to keep jean safe changed my brain chemistry #i need them to be friends #i need them to call each other and gossip and send each other stupid memes that only they understand #i need them to slowly grow closer as they heal until one day they can finish each other's sentences #and they ocassionally make super dark jokes about their trauma out of the blue (they bet on how people will react competitively) #i need them to call each other derogatory names but get Super Upset whenever anyone else talks shit about the other and offer to kill them #and i would love them to reclaim the spots next to each other that riko set #and make them their own #they're not partners on the court but they sure as hell are partners in life #the mcs ever #at one point andrew and jeremy are just looking at each other across a table at a restaurant as these two bicker #and realize they have somehow both become the Third Wheel despite the fact that 1) there's four of them and 2) jean and neil aren't dating #the amount of queer platonic pining i could fit in these traumatized people #the: “i'm lowkey obsessed with you but I Really don't like you romantically and I don't know what to do with it” #and the: “oh thank hell me too i thought i was even weirder than i already am. wanna go harass the fbi with me?" #jeremy and andrew watch this trainwreck both exasperatedly and proudly you can't convince me otherwise #cannot convince me that these four won't somehow end up living in each others pockets even if they live 1000 miles away #kevin pops in frequently as his usual wonderful diva self #anyway i'm going insane how yall doing #neil josten #jean moreau #all for the game #the sunshine court

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

i have yet another work dilemna HELP so i'm working from home today and tomorrow but they like. haven't given me anything to do yet? i've done my laundry and i'm probably going to paint my nails but like. i feel like i should be doing work but they literally haven't given me anything to do

AND the reason why this is a problem is that i booked dinner reservations tomorrow bc i knew i would be working from home, but the only table we could get was at 4:45pm (i'm meant to finish work at 5). but i thought NO WORRIES i'll just do all the work super quickly and then have time to make it to my fancy dinner in style. but that plan is quickly dissolving bc i can't do the work early if i don't know what it is???

#also my superviser wants to have a meeting tomorrow and i'm just dreading her saying she wants to meet at like. 4:30 #when i should be en route to the restaurant lmao #i mean worst case scenario my friend can go alone and hold the table and i'll just rush there as fast as possible #but i just KNOW that she's going to choose the most inconvenient time to have this meeting #they've told me i'm meant to be writing a post for their blog but they haven't told me what about #or any details like word count or whatever #my schedule just says 'blog post' #which like. hey i'm blogging right now lmao does this count #🧃

[sailforvalinor]

…well, turns out changing to a Jo pfp is fitting in more ways than one.

#yeah turns out I’m going to be having a Jo and Laurie on the Hill moment. hopefully not to such a dramatic degree but #I went out with The Boy yesterday and I was dreading it so much #and it was fine but then at the end he asked if we could make it official that we were dating #and I asked him to give me a little bit of time to think (which he was super sweet about he did literally nothing wrong) #but yeah I just came to the conclusion within ten seconds of leaving the restaurant that it wasn’t going to work. like I felt nothing when #he asked me that question. and I wanted this to work so bad! it makes so much sense on paper but I’m just not feeling it #and I talked to my dad about it and he said that because the part of the brain that processes emotions is not connected to the part that #processes language aren’t connected that people who are married struggle to put into words why they married their spouse #so if I can’t put into words why I don’t want to date this guy it’s perfectly valid #and I suppose he’s right I just feel terrible about it. like how often do you find a guy this courteous and genuinely good? and like I #think maybe part of what’s bothering me was that there was almost no romance to this. like never at any point did he tell me that he even #liked me. it was just ‘hey we’ve hung out a few times now should we say we’re dating?’ and I’m not trying to rag on him he’s probably just #shy but it rang a little like a business proposition to me #but ugh. now I have to call (because I’m not going to do it over text) and break this poor boy’s heart #it’s a really good thing I have the play and my novel to distract me otherwise I’d be a mess #anyway prayers would be appreciated

[rogersstevie]

this season of ted lasso saying sam should forgive racists who vandalized the restaurant and  then you know, dropping anything to do with that storyline immediately afterwards

and the saying jamie should forgive his abusive father bc hating him apparently isn’t good for him or whatever

doesn’t feel great tbh

#ted lasso #like yes absolutely tbf for some people spending that energy hating their abuser doesn't work #and they ultimately decide to forgive for themselves which i get is what they were advocating for #in his and ted's convo #but it's also like i don't even think jamie HAS had a lot of hatred bc so much of the time has been trying to prove himself to his father #and with sam they had that weird bit like 'oh we'll keep the broken mirrors bc it doesn't have to be perfect' #bc he was so concerned about everything being just right with the restaurant like...this was not that #could've kept the mirrors sure but not comparing it to the issue from earlier like....it was intended to be a violent attack #and then ya know. just never mentioned again all wrapped up apparently bc he chose to let it go #which hey they can absolutely go the route of sam choosing to let it go but that doesn't mean the problem is gonna go away #it's just like the whole thing i get forgiveness is a big part of the show but these are two things that i just don't love to see #though at least with jamie they've dedicated a good amount of the show to that particular issue and it's not so with sam #and they gave so much to colin's story line?? which has been pretty well done ofc but they were really like #sam gets a single episode and it's all wrapped up in the end bye like WHAT #ik with so many characters they can't devote the same amount of time to everyone but like....they should've done better for sam #and now there's only one ep left so ya know. i thought they might come back to it but they did not

[shehzadi]

i am so easy to please just take me to the desi shop and buy me all the snacks i want. and aam

#late bday celebration for my mum we went to a restaurant n she wanted to show us the new desi shop she went to w my dad #and because i really wanted to go 🙈🙈 #so it was a family trip to the desi store and i was dressed so fancy it felt funny #but i got kurkure and more lachcha and the indian masala lays i am At Peace. can this also be my birthday celebration when the time comes #pretty please #and we got mithai at another store im soooo 😋😋 right now #m

[twilightarcade]

I love how if you cook something you get to eat it too. Literally the best experience in the world

#wordstag #YOU WERE SO RIGHT ABOUT THIS ME #i love cooking so much like if i lived by anyone i cared about i would invite them to dinner forever #i would leave pies on my window to cool and go up to the children and say 'now don't go eating my pies until their cool young man' and #other stuff of the sort. And they can steal the pies. #i would go around the neighborhood and knock on people's doors and give them baked goods. Literally if #everything were free I would cook for everyone all the time. That could be my full time job #guy who cooks stuff. But not at a restaurant though. That would kill me !

[baejax-the-great]

So the one reason to go to Arkansas is to drive through a town named "Flippin," where everything sounds like a euphemism. Flippin Fire Dept. Flippin School. Flippin Police. Etc.

While that does sound charming, I don't know that justifies a trip to Arkansas

#when I was considering moving to georgia #a place I had not been yet #I was at this hole in the wall thai restaurant with a friend #and the tables were soooo close together #and there was a couple next to us #and the one boyfriend was just like hissing that he was NOT going to move to Arkansas #he didn't care HOW good his bf's job offer was #he was NOT GOING #he could get a job ANYWHERE ELSE #and while GA is not quite on the same level as Arkansas I was like gosh that is what i'm feeling right now #it's soooo far south #anyway I did move to GA and it was fine #although that feels disingenuous #I very rarely left the city and in the city I very rarely met anyone who was actually FROM GA #this one time I stopped for gas in what is apparently a small shitty town #and I'm white but apparently I was OBVIOUSLY not from around there #because there were like five old men sitting at the bar of the little gas station restaurant #who stopped talking when I walked in and just... watched me #as I bought a snack for the road and asked where the bathroom was #just silently disapprovingly watching this outsider... utilize a gas station #the girl working the register seemed apologetic #when i went back out to my car I could see all them watching me from the window #so I do think there are parts of GA that straight up suck #and had I been a different race I think my safety would have been in question that day #but Atlanta was fine for the most part #weirdly full of people from Chicago

[thelastspeecher]

I'm at the halfway point of my elimination diet 😭

#my appointment with the dietitian to get reintroduction instructions is in two weeks #it's a morning appointment so I figure I'll start reintroducing that evening #hhhhh I'm dying squirtle #eating at home is all right and so is when I bring lunch to work #but most days for work I go out to different sites #normally I eat out at restaurants but obvi that's not an option right now #so I've been living off random things from grocery stores and gas stations #mostly rice crackers and things to put on the rice crackers like almond butter or cheese #I've been able to have baby carrots a few days from a gas station that sells them in small packages #(I can't have more than a cup of raw vegetables...) #but man cannot live off those things alone! #speechie sucks at health #speecher speaks

[alpinezro]

loving the sims 3 so far

#luciano didnt go to jail but AURELIO DID and after he was freed i made them buy out the police station. #they own the restaurant/bookshop + the police station now. still broke though and the house is in a constant state of disrepair #i figured aurelio would advance faster or at least they would advance equally as fast but no luciano is already on level 3 #now that i think abt it i shouldntve made them husbands because now theyre legally tied to eachother #and if one gets caught... it would lead right back to the other.... #but thats just me overthinking the narrative. sims are stupid and their cops are stupider

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

my mom asking me why the gay website case had to be taken to the supreme court because ‘why couldnt they just go somewhere else’ and ‘what about the reverse? what about the one where they refused to make a cake with the confederate flag on it?’ i need to jump out of this fucking car and just let you run me over

#you know how thats different right. ‘its his heritage!’ bitch it didnt last long enough to be one generations heritage and it damn well isnt #being used like that now. you fucking know what its being used for. you just cant fucking bear to let anything in society progress you have #to have a thousand whatifisms #i was like okay. so civil rights movement. if a black person wants to eat in a restaurant and it wants them to leave because theyre black. #would you say the same thing? that they can just go to a black restaurant instead? #‘well they could because whos to say that if the restaurant is forced to serve them that they wouldnt spit in their food or something’ #THAT IS NOT THE POINT. DO YOU SEE HOW MUCH THAT ISNT THE POINT? IM GONNA KILL MYSELF

[fruixtii]

it’s so hot i think im going to pass out

#just had to sit in the scorching hot sun for like 5 hours 🙂 #and now i finally came home just now #but i have to shower cause i sweat literal bottles like wtf #and right after i shower i have to go to a restaurant thatd an hour away (i just went there yesterday) #looks like theres no hope for finishing my father’s day piece today #sigh

[cinna-bunnie]

omg all the closest shari's are like 12+ miles away... well. a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do (￣⁠ヘ⁠￣)

#it's not far per-se... it's only a 20m drive if i go Right Now #just v used to things being like 5mi or less lol. #still feeling from spending literally an hour doing 3mph coming back from a nearby restaurant 😬 #the roads are undrivable around here from like 3-7pm on a workday (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) hate The Automobile actually #(still reeling* not feeling lol. though the embers of my rage do still smoulder slightly this is true)

[mejomonster]

Someone please tell Me if aiming for 1 date a week when single is realistic

This book How Not To Die Alone gave such advice and while I realize where it's coming from good intentions in theory (making dating Hesitators who always feel they need to be more perfect before dating to just Go Date), i also frankly don't know how I'd meet 1 vaguely stable vaguely compatible person to ask out in a year let alone weekly.

#rant #like. if i were to meet the once a qeek quota right now? #id basically HAVE to ask out someone with nothing in common or whos in a poly relationship even tho #tyats not what im looking for (so the relationsgip would go nowhere and id waste both our time) #or with red flags (overt ones... which i simply refuse to do) #and then... if somehow i disregarded all boundaries and asked out virtually Anyone #and thats assuming ppl say yes. and i matxhed 10k people once and 1 single incompatible person said yes in a whole year. #well even IF it all worked out and i found one date a qeek. #im chronically ill and have gastroparesis. so SITTING hurts a lot and EATING food is not always possible for me #if i have a bad day i cant eat foods for a few days or week #and even on good days... one bad food choice can mean puking and pain and unable to eat for a WEEK following #so im scared of restaurant food a bit. #because even when i order very safely and barely eat. a restaurant might make a mistake and add food im allergic too #or forget to remove what i asked. or i didnt realize they used dairy in a salad dressing #and then im puking and bloated and in oain and starving for days :/ #so like. a coffee date? a tea date? id be up for that. resonably safe its jyst flavored water. #but ANY restaurant or long movie (sitting) or something involving food and im quite scared i would be #very sick the remainder of the week. #and i have othef things to save my energy for vesides dates: WORK MEETINGS. work so i dont call in sick VOMITING. #my family wanting a nice dinner including some bread (and me reallt wanting the bread and to not have to skip dinner so i want to risk it) #my 2 times weekly PT where i cant call in sick and if im exhaustsd and vomiting and in intense pain PT is VERY hard. #my friends who (like dates) often wish to grab food. which as mentioned is always a huge risk and #i always sacrifice Getting to see friends i love with May Be Utterly fucked up for a week :c

[antimnemonic]

the facebook memories thing is great bc whenever i start to doubt my decisions re personal life i get a reminder of a time my parents reamed me out over something inconsequential and im like Oh Right

#like at some point my friends and i were jokingly obsessed w a novelty sandwich restaurant #assumed my mom hadn’t heard of it and i suggested we go #but she did and she went on a rant about it being garbage #and i felt so stupid and beat myself up about it. ur right how could i be so foolish as to suggest funny sandwiches………. #and with a decade of retrospect it’s now like #damn sorry for not having the psychic foresight to know that mini novelty sandwiches pissed in ur fucking plants apparently

[enluv]

GOOD MORNING

#TEHEHEHEHEH #im sick right now which sucks because #i have to go out tonight to celebrate my moms bffs graduation into being a nurse #so we’re going to this big fancy restaurant #so I have to dress up 😭😭 #but im congested so I can’t taste anything 😒 #anyways sorry tmi of the day ig #chit chat with coco <3