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not-your-fucking-kacchan · 2 years

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yO omg i just found ur page and i love it so hi im requesting : )

can i get izuku x male reader (or gn! idrc) where the reader is pretty stoic, like todoroki times a billion, and is only friends (boyfriends LMAO, i should mention id prefer if they r already in a relationship) with izuku, like mutters to him to talk, n just follows him around most of the time, n is kinda insecure since he has a bunch of scars and his arms are messed up because of his quirk (like discoloured skin and such) and because him n izuku are childhood friends hes kinda clingy, and is only soft with izuku

but then one day izuku is kinda havin a tough time, and snaps at the reader by accident (the reader kept clinging to him cause he didn't know where else to go and couldn't read the social cues of izuku being frustrated) and just the most heartbreaking angst with a nice fluffy ending of izuku after like a day of realizing the reader hasn't been clinging to him or talking to him and him going to see the reader in his dorms and just walking in on him curled up with a plushie or smth that izuku bought him n trying to sleep and izuku just breaking

you dont have to do this!! have a great day/night and stay hydrated!! im gonna go stalk ur bnha masterlist now ;)

ndsjafbiw i love angst sm

And feel free to stalk my masterlist lmfao i get really happy when i put more and more stuff on there and it gets longer and longer...

brheupqbufverpw also i was listening to bad habits by steve lacy and i llove you so by the walters and bjhsbafw it set the scene so good yall omg.

Whew this has been sitting in my drafts collecting dust since I lost the motivation to write when my account was nuked, but it's back, so I'm back and you guys can have this as your peace offering :D

Masterlist <3

Warning: Scarring, mentions of vomit...

Izuku x Male!Reader - Quiet

You were practically Izuku's shadow. Everywhere he went, you went too. At the beginning of the year you were incredibly quiet and didn't really react to much. You just kept to yourself, really. You had been suffering with some pretty damn crippling anxiety at the time, and it almost had you staying home and ghosting the entrance exam because you couldn't stop thinking about what could go wrong.

You had nearly forfeited your dream because you were scared.

What if you're too weak? What if they reject you? What if you humiliate yourself?

What if somebody sees the horrible scarring on your arms and says something? It's not your fault you're so hideous, but that doesn't stop you from feeling like it is.

Things stayed that way until Izuku spoke to you again for the first time in a few years, making your little heart thud in your chest as he mumbles and mutters hypotheses about your quirk and about how glad he was to have seen how you'd grown. The boy is so open and friendly, and so talkative that it more than makes up for your lack of input in the conversation. It had been that way before as well.

You both had been childhood friendsat some point, but for some reason you'd grown apart. It broke your heart, but lo and behold the quirkless boy is entering the exam too. Who knows, when you both fail maybe you could be friends again.

At least that was what you'd thought.

Except, you didn't fail. And neither did he.

You had stuck around him after that, following him to class and for lunch until he started to get a little freaked out when leaving for the dorms only to see you still trailing behind. He confronted you and bashfully asked why you've been shadowing him the whole day with an awkward smile, unknowingly hurting your little guarded heart as you realised that your company was apparently unwanted. Of course it was. What were you thinking?

When he saw your dejected face, and felt you practically deflate in front of him, speaking up quietly for the first time the whole day, he immediately felt bad and invited you to his dorm room to talk at you some more, since he knew you wouldn't be replying much.

"S- sorry... i'll go. 'didn't mean to bother you. I just felt safe..."

His poor little (gay, but he doesn't know that yet) heart melted on the spot.

It was from then on that the two of you stayed as close friends again, and Izuku became your safety net. Every time you would panic or cry and cower away in your dorm room he was there, ready to help you challenge your negative thoughts and give you the confidence to step outside again. You had grown even closer than before despite the rift that had previously grown between you.

When he had gained the patchy, discoloured scarring on his arms from abusing them so much with his quirk, he had smiled, and held your arms close together with his.

"We match! ... You still think we're so hideous?..."

Your heart had skipped a beat when he said "we", implying that he would share this burden with you.

Over time, you started to grow closer and closer, until one day, you cleared your throat to speak while sitting in Izuku's bed with him, some random hero documentary playing on his TV. He immediately shut up at the time, listening to you speak because it's so rare that you'd break your silence unless you were with him and he was honoured that he was the one to make you feel that comfortable, and you would never forget how his cheeks started to glow when you confessed to him that day. He was so proud that you were able to tell him, and immediately accepted your confession of love.

Ever since then you had hung around him at all times, clinging to his blazer with an outstretched hand when the halls got busy and even following him to the bathroom, his blush ever present every time you did. He didn't truly mind though.

But today, he had been in a rather sour fight with Bakugou, and he was reeling. You had never really been privvy to social cues, so when he let out frustrated sighs and huffs, and held his head in his hands during break, you just thought he was feeling a little off today.

Discoloured, scarred fingers reach out to hold onto his blazer sleeve when you start to feel a little unsettled, huddling close to him and showing him your affection, but he does not take kindly to it.

A sharp smack fills the silence of the room as Izuku swats your hand away harshly, growing irritated with and overstimulated by everything around him. You know he must have been having a bad day, but it must've been you. You didn't realise that you had ruined his day and part of you almost thinks of this as his way of breaking up with you, but you don't have much time to think on it before your boyfriend is yelling at you.

He had never yelled at you before.

"What's is it now?! Can't you see i'm not in the mood?! I can't do this right now. You don't have to cling to me every second of the day!"

Everything feels numb when, for the first time ever, Izuku raises his voice at you. He definately wants to break up. Didn't you hear, idiot? He said he doesn't want you near him anymore. He doesn't like you anymore.

It doesn't even take a second for the overwhelmingly depressing and intrusive thoughts to infiltrate your mind and swarm you, and you freeze up as he walks away from you, your throat suddenly closing up as your eyes sting from the salt in your tears.

For hours you sit alone in your bedroom, curled up under your sheets and crying so hard you almost vomit. Of course he doesn't want to be with you anymore, look at you. Your face is bright red and your skin is raw and sore from all of the tears and the wiping of your face. It hurts. And it looks like it does too.

You curl up into a large dragon plush that Izuku had won for you at an arcade date the two of you went on. It was one of your first dates and still remains one of the best memories of your life. The fur of the plush is absolutely ruined with snot and tears, and your voice is hoarse and it carries in your cries how torn apart you are. It's sad, the first time you've used your voice this much in such a short space of time is when your crying into a plush over your boyfriend. Or your ex.

Your hair is slick with sweat and tears and a few strands cling to your face as you cry, and you're completely exhausted by the time midday rolls around.

The next day, you skip school and stay in your room, your head pounding from the dehydration of crying out all the fluids in your body. You're only brought out of your trance as you hear a tentative knock on your door. Is the school day over already? Oh...

You didn't even bother to go to dinner, and you haven't eaten all day because you hadn't the guts to come out and face everyone after sonething like that. You may be a strong hero, but without Izuku, your crutch, you felt like nothing.

The last thing you expect to see is Izuku walking in to find you curled up in your bed, in a state worse than any he's ever seen you in. Considering that he's seen every one of your panics attacks since you had grown close, that's saying something.

Immidiately he's by yourside, relising how bedly he had fucked up. You were still cradling your hand close to your chest in an effort to stay close to the last place he touched you.

The freckled boy had come to apologise for snapping at you the way he did, but he never expected it to be this bad, and he truly worried when he didn't see you in class this morning. He felt unsettled not having you there beside him since you were both a package deal, and everywhere you went, you went with Izuku in tow.

His heart just about shatters as you look up at him with confused eyes, the colour in them appearing so much more intense with the flood of emotion and the redness of your sclera. your eyelashes are dark and bunched together with little tear droplets and the image is so etherial to him. He's so in love with you that it hurts, and there's an uncomfortable tightness in his chest and a lump in his throat at the sight of you like this. The second he saw you curled up and crying into his plush his heart had dropped to the floor and he had physically felt it.

In seconds he's apologising and tearing up, crying with you while he gets under the covers to cuddle.

"Baby, I- i'm so, so sorry! I never meant to hurt you like that, I swear! I was stressed and I took it out on you- i'm sorry! I've been a horrible partner- but i'll make it up to you, I promise..."

You didn't doubt him. The boy was torn up about how he treated you and the relief and comfort of finally being back in his arms again, coupled with the realisation that he didn't break up with you had your heart stuttering and racing and a hundred miles an hour while you cuddle the fluffy haired boy.

Your hands are already buried into his hair and he practically whines as you press your forehead against his under the sheets. As he rambles about how sorry he is you just scratch his scalp, still recovering from the heartbreak of what you thought was a split between the two of you, and you say nothing back.

Izuku knows you though, and he knows your silence isn't one of rejection. He holds you close with surprisingly strong arms, holding the hand he slapped away in his and trailing his thumbs over the discoloured scarring there. As much as you see Izuku breaking every record with his astounding strength, he's still just that squishy baby in your mind, with hamster cheeks and big, beady eyes that are like glass windows to his soul.

It brings a smile to your face and fresh tears to your eyes. You're so in love that it hurts.

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cemeterything · 2 months

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i just wanna say every time i see your icon i feel like im going to start kicking my feet and giggling because i love juggernaut star all of her design(s) fuck so hard and her story is so great and the page your icon is from in particular is my favorite scene from any media of all time so thank u. for showing the woman. the most beautiful tragic amazing messy swagful woman. just the imagery of her face being half the identity she wants & half the identity shes "supposed" to be... you know what maybe yes girl we are all vermin destined to be crushed by the wheel of fate time and time again i love you. i know that wasnt supposed to be the takeaway in that scene but sometimes she feels so right & true for saying it. im sorry if this message is nonsensical manic madness ramblings but i feel like a fellow juggernaut star fan would get what im saying.

i mean also youre very cool and i love your posting but just wanted to thank you for repping the amazing woman. who else has done it like her honestly

who is doing it like her! "i'm probably a woman but i'm trying to escape the cycle of violence by killing everyone else so idrc about that rn" - 6 juggernaut star (paraphrased)

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m3nty-chocalatte · 9 months

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Damn cover up 😭

No but honestly guys [rant]⬇️

K this is just me ranting about character design again.

Disclaimer[or whatever]

I'm not claiming to be a professional in character design or anything. I'm just a kid ranting about what I think looks good and why I think they are killing Alastors design

Vivzie...why must you torture me like this. Starting off with the hair, same argument since the moment he came on screen, he looks like some kind of emo boy, who's soccer mom gave the same hair cut as her..

Why are his hands not covered??? Why is he just out here bare handed😭 no protection for himself or others?? Don't think I forgot about the small little detail of him being so grimey the water his sitting in would turn brown immediately. You don't think he should maybe cover those hands he doesn't wash up, even if to keep up his image?

Speaking of his image, wouldn't it make more sense for him to be wearing gloves I mean..it ties together the "dapper" aesthetic he's supposed to have.

Don't get me wrong I like ombre hues on limbs, and non human characters having non human colors, but whyy😭😭 why no glovess

I could say something about what he's wearing but

Idrc.

It's not that deep.

It will never be that deep.

It fits the summer theme...the most I could say if I was nitpicking is it would've been nice to see him in time accurate clothes, like summer clothes they wore back in the 1920's-1930's, but hey maybe Hawaiian shirts and shorts is what they wore back then I didn't do the research who am I to ruin your fun.

And finally, the legs... I am a fan of him actually having hooves, and maybe it's cause it's vivziepop, but I just don't like the execution. It's weird man.

It's not really an art style thing, though. The whole reason I even got into hazbin is cause of vivzies artstyle. It's something else... something off about it😭

Anyways parting thoughts:

Alastor should cover up

If you dont agree with me, THAT'S GREAT, I LOVE THAT FOR YOU, HOW IS IT BEING HAPPY CAUSE IM NOT. Also, comment cause maybe you'll change my mind and help me see the light

If you do agree with me you should comment more critique or just personal opinion, let's talk I feel like we'll get along great😊

If you're neutral...yeah me too

I know I shouldn't care this much, but it passes the time.

#m3nty rants #cause apparently this is gonna be a thing now #vivziepop #vivziepop criticism #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fandom #alastor #hazbin critical #hazbin hotel criticism #character design

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cosmicdream222 · 28 days

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sorry to be morbid again but do you think we can manifest passing away early? im honestly past the point of wanting to exist and just want to get over this thing that im supposed to be a successful person but im not so idrc if i do or dont live

so many ppl on tarot related blogs ask about their fs but if we dont meet them does it matter and would they just move on with their life? like i think u have to have ur life put together but its genuinely so hard to do these days so i hope my fs wont be sad at all when i die cause i wouldnt be able to make tnem truly happy anyway cause im not happy myself with how things have been

ideally i wouldve done something in a sport or music but that ship sailed long ago and now im so stuck but id hate to be reliant on someone else and i shouldve moved out into my own place but housing is ridiculously expensive where im from and taxes dont help anyone. it takes years and years to pick up a talent so i have wasted those years and ik im just going to struggle to get past 50 if i were to have my own place bc minimum wage jobs suck arse and i dont want to be doinng something lame not that its lame for others to do it, its just not what i wanted to have done at all

you cant even get a degree without needing to fork out hundreds and thousands so yeah none of its easy and sure you can try subliminals but lets face it the systemn we are in is fucked up big time so rn i cant even bother with daydream about how it could have been or the what ifs i had done smth differently or if i had any talent but then theres still the, im too old and too foreign to do any sort of music as most successful groups nowadays are korean and even if i tried to do what they did it would probs end up killing me some way or other

its just either about having to be wealthy or having some type of talent both of which id fail at anyway as i shouldve done it years ago like a normal person who goes from being so so at something to being great at something.

i truly think i was born in wrong generation or i just shouldnt have been born at all then i wouldnt have to fret constantly abt these types of things. i think if the government genuinely sorted shit out for once and helped society ppl would be happier to work for less but im not happy at all with the current state of things. i feel guilty for existing and i hate it sm like god just let me end my life pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee there is nothing worthwhile in store, ik we could try shifting subliminals but have those genuinely worked? like u exit this reality and straight into the one you wanted originally? but then i might as well just pass away cause id have to know what i want in another reality

My dude, take a deep breath. You’ve ranted about all this same exact stuff a bunch of times now and I’m just gonna repeat the same thing I said to you last time:

All of that stuff you mentioned about your current reality is an illusion. Time is an illusion. It does not matter what you’ve done in the past. The economy does not matter. Your present circumstances do not matter.

I’ll add to that: Whatever some tarot reader or TikTok psychic says definitely does not matter. Idk what fs means but I’m guessing something like a twin flame and that is especially 1000% bullshit.

The spiritual community has created an incredible amount of false narratives to make excuses and blame outside forces for why things aren’t going their way. None of it is real. Seriously forget everything you learned about fate, karma, astrology, or anything else that’s saying something else is in control. Reality is an illusion. YOU are in control.

You don’t have to identify with any old bullshit anymore. Stop repeating the old story and think about what you do want. You can have literally ANYTHING! You say you don’t know what you want, ok, but you know what you don’t want, right?

I don’t want to work -> I want to live in a reality where I don’t have to work.

There, you just figured out something you want! It’s that simple.

I totally agree that this society is a horrific shitshow and I don’t want to be aware of it anymore either. But it’s just one version of reality available. It’s not the only reality and it’s not the original reality. You don’t have to be aware of it anymore if you don’t want to be.

You also don’t have to involve death at all. There’s a lot of misconception in the shifting world which has lead to concepts like “permashifting” and “respawning”, but those just all assume this current reality is the original one. It’s not.

Have you watched The Matrix? It’s really more like a documentary than science fiction lol. Just like in the movie, we are being tricked by a simulated virtual reality, controlled by a society that’s using us for our energy. Just think of reality as an escape room. We’re escaping the Matrix. Once you figure out how to leave, you don’t ever have to go back. There are infinite realities available to you, and none are more real or right or original than any others. Remember, death is not an ultimate, nor does it exist in all realities.

I am scripting a utopian reality with my best friend where there is no death, aging, or illness. Everyone is a master manifestor so they always get whatever they want. Nobody has to work and there isn’t even a need for money because we can manifest anything instantly. We can just relax and get massages all day. Everyone lives in peace and harmony and abundance. Animals are treated as equals to humans, we can all communicate with each other, and we can all fly and teleport. Because why the f not? 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

And if you really don’t want to exist (I’m guessing that other ask from a couple weeks ago is you too lol) you don’t have to exist in this reality, or any other. Removing your awareness from all physical reality is known as entering the void. You exist there as pure consciousness, and you can stay there as long as you like. It is you as your highest self. There’s nothing negative about it.

As for the whole subliminal thing, shifting subliminals are just one method. Shifting = manifesting = deciding what you want and experiencing it. It’s something we are always doing and is available to all of us. You don’t need any methods to shift besides intention. We just use methods to convince/calm the annoying human brain that is programmed with society’s limits.

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ceruelaen · 4 months

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LAST MINUTE COMMISSIONS

SINGLE CHARACTER — FULLBODY — LINED — $15

^^ examples. (my lining has changed over the week but i just havent. finished any lined pieces recently)

ik my commissions are closed & i already complain abt money a lot as is. but i’m just. not having a great time rn (-> bad holiday moods + im just not feeling good & we have like. no food atm; nor did we meet any requirements for christmas food boxes & the like)

i won’t be doing selfship comms like i normally do, bc our phones will but cut off on the 27th & there’s a lot of doubt that my wifi will be stable. so i can’t do anything that requires frequent updates. but i can do some single character f/o pieces, if anyone’s interested. (oc f/os or canon ones idrc)

dw about the prices on my kofi bc for these i’m dropping prices way down, bc christmas is tomorrow & ik people are holding their money for more important things. i just needed smth rn— bc job hunting is failing & i don’t really have anything else to do.

i can’t give updates for these (-> see above), so i’m asking you to trust me that it’ll be done. (i’ll likely finish them quickly. i just can’t send them till the 3rd when the wifi bill is paid);; there’s no limit, i’ll just leave these open until sometime tomorrow.

paypal

kofi (-> if you do it this way, use the tipping feature & not the commissions tab)

#you’re not forced to do this btw #compared to other things its not URGENT #i’d just appreciate it #anyways ramble in tags #no job wants to hire me apparently; so this is p much my only way of making money #& i’d like to at least have food until the 1st when she’s able to buy some #man i probably look #pitiful #but whatever #ik i said i was taking a hiatus but man #i’d like to eat 👍

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moving-to-dreamwinged · 5 months

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cw / ed

it’s just hard for me to genuinely believe u care as much as u say when u keep making “jokes” even after ive explained to u so many times how much it hurts me OVER and OVER when i HATE opening up to ppl so even setting tht boundary was hard asf!!!😭😭😭 u know how hard i worked to get in recovery and how it’s been even harder to actually STAY there. u know all the stories abt how my disorder tore my relationship w my family and my old friends about. yet u constantly say triggering shit ON A LOOP EVERY DAY with no fucking warning. bc i had the audacity to be vulnerable for once in my fucking life and open up to u abt my insecurities? then u say my trust issues in general are unfounded and “crazy” when U PERPETUATE THEM. just say u liked me better when i was sicker at this point instead of beating around the bush. for fucks sake

and these r supposed to be my ppl, the closest friends i’ve ever had in my life yet they constantly make me so uncomfortable with the things they say abt my habits and the tidbits they know abt my struggles w mental health. they’re so so great otherwise but then there’s this and no matter how much i explain it they never stop? it hurts so much. and it comes in sprees too; where they just basically bully me constantly for a week and i hav no idea where it came from or how to stop it. i don’t want to let a few idiotic comments interfere wifh all the progress i’ve made but fuck. i decide to treat myself w a lil dessert and there’s a comment. i walk outside in literally any outfit and it’s “oh u better lay off the [whatever food they saw me eating recently] or that’s not gonna fit anymore lol!” i genuinely. don’t understand. iv explained to them hey im in recovery from anorexia after multiple years of struggling w it, ik it’s just jokes to u guys but it really hurts me. nope nothing. the running gag in the friend group is basically that im fat and ugly. that’s their favorite bit nd when they remember how funny it is Oh am i in for a long couple of weeks.

and idk maybe they dont mean it. maybe they rly just think it’s funny; maybe they think there’s nothing wrong w my body so commenting on it is a funny joke bc of the contrast but idrc honestly. one of them even HAS body dysmorphia (and knows i do too!) and STILL does it. like shouldn’t you understand how fucking DAMAGING tht is? its all so hurtful to me in so many ways nd i can’t stop thinking about it. they know i struggle w sh and suicidal thoughts too yet keep this up. like shouldn’t u know that’s gonna make it worse??? i don’t rly have any interest in seeing them if this keeps up. i don’t wanna eat around them or even exist around them if they keep doing this. i feel rly sick. i don’t want to think this is genuinely how my best friends feel abt me and they think it’s ok but. :( i can’t help it. i rly don’t know what to think

#.vent #cw ed #cw ed mention #tw ed #tw ed mention #cw sh mention #cw sh #tw sh mention #tw sh #long

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wearequeer-andwearehere · 1 year

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hey so I'm a teenager and I've never really thought about my identity all that much. I've kinda been shielded my whole life from this stuff, but lately I've been interacting with some people online and I keep getting asked what my pronouns are. I'm afab, and I'm okay with being a girl, but I don't mind any pronouns. if someone used he/him on me or called me a boy I wouldn't be bothered, but I also don't feel like I'm entirely a dude. if someone used they/them on me that's also cool. and people using she/her my whole life has never bothered me. personally, idrc all that much about labels, if other people use them and are proud of them, thats great, I want people to do and be whatever makes them happy. but I'm kinda curious about where I'd land on the gender spectrum. I've kinda wondered if I'm genderfluid, but that doesnt exactly fit because at any given time I'm okay with being anything. so I found the gender pangender, but I don't feel like I'm "all genders". if someone asked me how I identify I just say I'm a cis female but by definition I'm not. sorry for this really long winded question, but in summary, is it okay to have like.. no labels? or does that make me cis?

hey anon!! hope life’s going okay for you kid!!

see the thing is, i used to stress out about shit like this too, but with different labels. i was like omg am i cis, wait shit am i transmasc, or am i genderfluid, am i nonbinary?

then i realised:

it doesn’t matter. what matters is what makes me HAPPY.

so, don’t ask “what gender am i? am i cis or trans?” ask “what makes me happy?”

if you wanna go by they/he/she, do that. if a label makes you happy, then use it. be happy and it’ll all fall into place.

the thing is, labels are like jackets. you can try em on for a bit. if you don’t like em, that’s okay! try another one, or lots of them, or don’t have one at all!

so basicallt, pick a label you think you’d like. maybe multi gender, in your case (having many genders,) and just, yknow, try it on for a day! wake up, brush your teeth, and imagine introducing yourself, in the mirror, “hi, i’m x, i use these pronouns, im multi gender!” and like go about your day, go to school talk to friends do the dishes watch tv and think at the back of your head “im multi gender,” just try it on, see how it feels! you can always ditch it if you don’t like it.

there’s this misconception that just bc something feels weird the label ain’t right. but that ain’t always true. someone once compared it to new shoes, and that’s exactly how it feels. sometimes, new shoes feel weird bc they’re just the wrong size.

but sometimes, new shoes feel weird bc you’re not used to them, and you haven’t worn em enough yet, but after a week or so, you think, goddamn these are so comfortable, how did i ever walk with the old ones?

so if a label ever feels weird, think: is it bad weird, or new shoes weird?

to answer your question: if you don’t feel cisgender, if u wanna explore other shit, then you ain’t cis. but if u want to ID as cis you can. it’s up to you kid. explore and fuck around with gender, and if you do turn out to be cis, you just know yourself better now.

now go be happy and fuck around and don’t worry too much about labels, alright?

sending so so much love!! i hope i could help you out. take care of yourself, kay? <33333

#ask #anon #helping out a questioning person

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jwowwsboobs · 5 months

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is there any particular outfit piece that ur looking 2 get/is on your wishlist? if so what is ur plan with it & where would u wear it to

the most specific outfit piece ive looked 4 was a leather harley davidson halter top which i found THIS YEAR after abt a year n 1/2 of watching ebay listings n waiting but usually i try not to focus too much on super duper specific items of clothing cuz ill get fixated n do nothing else BUT look 4 it ... most of what i like is just casual clothing, jeans, tank tops n shirts cuz i do literally 3 things: eat, sleep, thrash, repeat. kidding LOL but i really just like being comfy. i do have a couple pieces like my beloved harley top tht i bust out 4 parties n that sorta thing (wore it when i played my last show lol) but other than that ... i am kickin it in my dirty ass sneakers jeans n a tank top LOL !! i always always always keep my eyes peeled 4 things tht remind me of my favorite parts of fashion from the 70s n mid/late 2000s (well like. 2003-12 tbh its not exactly pure mid 2000s cuz of my love 4 jersey shore n their clothes) !! that being said. the top 3 like...pieces im always keeping an eye n an ear 2 the ground (ebay) 4: (read more cuz there r pics <3)

lowrise jeans w fun things on the back pockets / butt, like these super cute jeans from red pepper !!

i love love love the look of big patches on jeans esp in the back i feel like its so playful n fun n a little sexy !! i dont like highrise jeans which totally bums me out cuz most of the flares i find / see r high rise n i exclusively wear flared jeans LOL ... like i said most of my style is pretty casual i am not usually putting in a ton of effort 2 look put 2gether n cute n whatever literally i just throw on jeans n a shirt i got at a show n call it a day but having jeans tht hv exciting details like this get me thru life fr <3 my favorite pair r my flame flares which u cn kind of see in my avi but some better pics r below. i wore out th first pair of them (below) n had 2 make another one but they r literally like. iconic 4 me im almost never not wearing thm. wearing them rn even !

2. vintage band shirts 4 bands tht i cant/wont see in concert ... rn the shirt ive been lusting after is this dope ass etown concrete (BEST JERSEY HARDCORE BAND WILL FIGHT 2 DEATH ON THIS) shirt thats got fuckin mike "the situation" on the back n it says "JERSEY CORE" on the front in the jersey shore font. i am literally so obessed w it u dont get it ... im praying itll still b on ebay in a couple months so i cn get it 4 my bday cuz i am. not prepared 2 drop 124 on a fucking tshirt. yet. but i will. i am not sharing pics cuz i am very paranoid someone will buy it out from under me so i am #gatekeeping. i promise its sick as fuck tho

3. nearly anything thts sort of r bikerish whether tht b theyre vintage or reprinted harley davidson shirts (like my BELOVED "put something exciting between yr legs" tank top) or just from a brand thts demographic is bikers (anjill or not has some CUTE jeans tht im infatuated w!! look at these blinged out jeans like omggggg ... so sad theyre out of the ones w angel wings on the back but honestly idrc im sure theyll come back lol)

4. pretty much anything they were wearing on jersey shore ... ed hardy, rush couture, affliction, yoga pants, furry boots, shirts w obnoxious sayings on them ... great 4 daily life, 4 shows ... rush couture is my fav honestly, i like the tracksuits they hv on their site rn but hvnt bought one yet n honestly probably wont 4 a while from the state of my bank account 😭😭 oopsie! but anyway yeah ed hardys great n all but ppl charge wayyyy too much 4 those jeans n same w affliction its so . ugh !!

5. n speaking of things ppl overcharge 4 ... of course. juicy couture anything !!!!!!! ive been on the hunt 4 an (affordable! please god) hot pink juicy tracksuit like the kind paris had in the 2000s just 2 lay around the house in LOL but im also carefully watching out 4 a daydreamer or just any of their cute bags cuz i love purses but i am pretty picky abt my juicy cuz its SO expensive. kinda hv 2 b tho n its worth it 2 b

thts kind of all i can think of. usually when i pop in the thrifts i look 4 shit like belts or necklaces or rings tht i dig but i cant wear rings or jewelry very much anymore cuz im either 1) at school or work (no jewelry policy <\3) 2) at house parties/shows moshing 3) laying in my bed recovering LMFAO. i also love looking 4 cheap cowboy hats cuz i LOVE a cowboy hat n i usually always end up giving it away 2 someone at a party or a gig LOL currently all out of cowboy hats but im gonna get some in january probably . idk. need 2 save my money LOL !!

#asks #<3 love love love talking abt clothes <3 #therearecowboysinmysoul #🛒#xoxo

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idleiji · 5 months

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♪ ࣪ ׂ IDLEIJI ៵ ࣪

I'm sort of new to Tumblr—? I'm still figuring out how it works lol

(Im unsure what to do on this so I'm mostly following what other people are doing...😭 Do people still make these? Oh well idrc since i like cute stuff)

Definitely overdid this but I just couldn't help it

♪About me

I'm Eijin! You can call me eiji or ei instead, any nickname is accepted!

I'm 21 (still can't believe it) and I use he/him pronouns, I'm a trans bisexual man (with male preference) if you're curious. I'm neurodivergent(audhd) and English isn't my first language, so I may say something wrong without realizing so please tell me :)

Also if I ever make you feel uncomfy or weird then I'm very sorry, I can't control it but I'll try to better myself 🙏🙏 ik I'm a bit weird at times but

I'm been learning English for a year now though but I'm not that fluent!

I mostly draw and play in my free time and right now this blog mainly focuses on degrees of lewdity (though may still include content of other things)

I'll give weird compliments like saying your art/writing is so miao miao and saying what ur art/writing taste like... But no exceptions, unless you say so, and I might overuse the :) emote

More info below

♪Contents you'll see

I'll mostly draw shitposts and nsfw content since the game I'm focusing on is a porn game after all but I'll also draw some sfw fluff! I'm also considering gore

I draw certain fetishes that some people may not want to see including : BDSM, size gap, forced feminization, bondage, futanari, pegging, knife play, toxic relationships, dubcon + more but those are the most common one to expect so beware of it!

Dni if you fit the basic dni criteria, if you have any incest stuff, a pedophile and (yes it includes shotacons and lolicons. Don't try to justify it. fictional or not, no. Please get professional help in the nicest way possible) minor, zoophiles or anti, other than that just be a normal person here.

(we fuck with hybrids and monsters and that's all. No real animals will be harmed)

Ofc I don't support actual rape, yanderes and other abnormal things here. The things I depict is fictional and are for entertainment purposes only and should not be supported! If you do I'll personally attack you as a victim myself lmao

Since I'll be posting dol related contents and mostly nsfw-y contents, I'll be blocking Minors and Ageless blogs! I'm very sorry but you guys are not legal yet, or you are but better safe than sorry

I don't really check who interacts with my posts much other than followings so I don't block alot but Ik very well you kids are gonna interact and I can't control your actions anyways so idrc if you like seeing these stuff, it's your choice but please for the love of God, just don't follow me or interact. I don't want kids in my blog.

Make sure you're atleast 18 and you can handle dark content. If you aren't, block me or I'll block you, no complaning. If I found out about it I will block you and I won't unblock. Come back when you're legal. The legal age of consent in my country is 16 but to avoid any problems with it I set it the same as Americans, so 18 above.

if your country's "legal" age is lower or the same as mine and you are technically "legal" I'll still block you, no questions ask!

BTW if you have incest stuff in your blog and I interacted with you first don't mind me I interacted first so it's my problem. It'd be great if you have any tws though, not like you need to but I'd appreciate it. If you are the other dnis criteria however, if I find out I'll immediately block, or you tell me, either way it's a block. It's definitely because I REALLY liked your writing or art which is not as often so other than that reasons, it'd be a mistake then

I'm more fine with stepcest though I'm not keen on that stuff but if I interacted then don't mind me, I probably had the same reason as the others, dd/lg I don't mind as long as it's not THAT explicit

Ik I'm weird and odly specific about those stuff but I have the 'tism and lots of conflicting feelings 🙏

♪About my ocs

♪ My main oc is called melodi/mel! I use him alot to represent myself on my behalf but why is it that we haven't seen him you ask? It's because he's a music note... Always have been... It's kinda embarrassing but I was too lazy to make a character for him so I used a music note since I liked music alot... (Hence why I have alot of music notes in my blog) but I'll make him a character design soon!

One thing to know about him is that he's a tsundere(yandere), don't ask me why but I think it's cute that way... He's just a little introvert who makes music and rots in his bedroom all day and never comes out of his dungeon

He likes pizza.

♪ My DoL PC, Shiki, also known as Kiki. He's one of my main saves (along with one other) and he's a defiant magician who wants nothing more than to leave this fucked up town

Though he's technically a full time magician, his main income is modeling + searching antiques coz the pay of a magician sucks ass lol... (the most he'd get is 20 weekly might get an extra 100 because of his looks... Keyword: might) though he doesn't care since he took that job just for the orphans. He wants to magic himself gone but he only knows children magic, he swears he will do it one day

He mostly does magic shows for children. He has weekly shows to raise hope and most of the magic shows are about Bailey and doing very very mean things to him so it also raises rebelliousness lol

He pretty much hates everyone (he hates all the School LIs, he's softer for Robin but tbh Kiki thinks Robin is kind of a burden sometimes, he uses Avery for money and doesn't give a shit about everyone else) I think he only likes Yami because they're the same and Yami... Helps him out

Kinda an opposite of Bailey! (not really... He's still really mean like Bailey though not towards the orphans and despite acting tough he's a coward)

♪ Another DoL PC is Yami. She could be seen as an older sister figure to Kiki and fucks with remy, alot, and she's just a normal model! (lie)

She models but she does that to cover up the fact that's she's Corrupted :) probably the one who reccomend Kiki to model

She's definitely a green tea bitch/white lotus!! She acts all sweet and innocent but then gets all bitchy

Used to be an orphan at bailey's orphanage and is staying in town to help the other orphans + Kiki. Doesn't give a single shit if she's committing a crime because she hates the town, she likes Kiki since they have the same mindset and helps him with his magic shows as an assistant

♪Status

I may be a bit busy and may not update as much due to personal reasons but I'll try my best to provide as much content as I can! I'll post when I can and I've been meaning to make a dol blog for a long time but couldn't...

Please don't be discouraged to ask! My askbox(?) is always free and I'll try my best to answer your questions (and I like interactions)

Sorry for the accidental rant abt my oc's can't help it they're my current hyperfixation along with dol (also sorry if my behavior makes you feel uncomfortable!! Blame it on the 'tism /j)

♪ LINKS:

Oc Kiki 1 2 3 4

Oc Yami 1

Oc Mel 1

♪ DOL DESIGNS:

Robin the orphan

Whitney the bully

Sydney the faithful or fallen

Kylar the loner

Avery the businessperson

Alex the farmhand

I swear I'll do an actual character sheet

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multitrackdrifting · 1 year

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man ff14 is a fucking great game, i would write a video about it but i dont have the time to do all the side quests and i dont know any hardcore loreheads to fact check my scripts so im not doing all that

idrc that the leveling is ass to be honest, once you get past arr 2.0 i feel like the writing carries how mundane it can be to be effectively playing a single player game and there's duty supoprt through to the end of endwalker so its like, you can effectively play it single player just fine

the thing that sucks though is that new players unless they have friends who will do synced content with em wont see how cool the combat content is at every 10 levels. coils synced, not really required, but the trials are nice, and for old raid tiers there's ultimatesso its not the Worst but its still like yeah try and stop and smell the roses and by god, at least do omega and the coils as they are implicitly mandatory to know what is even going on much later

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unlimitedhorsepower · 8 months

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Doctor's appointment today was a disaster, horrible place, never hear anything good, so wrapping myself up in tinfoil nice and cosy and blowing myself up tae fuck.

Anyway I once wrote a fanfic of Nathan teaching Ryan what tucking is while they're shopping (no its nowhere, it's just in my files bc idk who'd even read it and publicly posting shit is so hard). But I read it just now and was amused despite my various pains bc I love when Ryan makes himself look stupid and is cringe. Ryan and Nathan hanging out is funny in general since they're both so Much. Great job guys.

Nathan explaining anything gender-related to Ryan is philosopher talking to a baby and the baby is actively eating dirt as well (everyone feels this way and has body dysmorphia etc like hey we're celebs, have u ever talked to barnaby abt these things) and you have to slap the dirt out if his hand like wtf and he starts sucking up mud water (it's kinda troublesome to think about so I shouldn't bc im cognizant any gender or sexuality shit would make my life harder and I already have a tough enough time getting ppl think I'm not being a jerk on purpose and am just a weird person)

= I might not be cishet but I'm busy becoming the world's only number one so idrc about that rn. But the magazines love fanservice etc so it's ok to be metrosexual and homosensual. I know what I'm doing

Nathan has her work cut out for her. Or rather the lack of it bc you can't tell Ryan anything. You'll just have to wait and see if he changes his mind. It's worse. This baby is determined to not to learn and is using his time to think up reasons why there's nothing to learn. Stop shooting urself in the leg PLEASE

#gabriels ramblings #stress text post while im developing a headache (again) from crying so hard jfc

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i do feel that with some songs! rarely though i feel it with osts from one piece mostly the strawhats and... law i only heard like 2 snippets he has a different one in the wano card iirc? i might be wrong it played like once unlike the zou one. but the best one for me is to the grand line... when i say i get goosebumps everytime I GET GOOSEBUMPS EVERYTIME. it's so lovely and i really feel like. ascending with that

as for others,, one is jericho from iniko... most of aurora's songs (warrior soft universe and the seed are some of my favourites,, though really she's great) and cochise's songs (who is way different than the previous two but oh well lol everyone has different tastes so idk) - i do go from nintendo soundtrack to beethoven to beats and rap in a second so like. YEAAAAH there's no inbetween (ignore the casual recommendations)

also i never ship anything at all either... other than self-type crap because really. most of the time i just can't find myself to ship the characters at all?? and obviously im not criticising anyone who ships them. for me it ALWAYS needs to make canonical sense (so like if its enstablished and its a cool ship thats not illegal yes 🤝) but the rest? no. and idk about you but the self-shipping is "therapeutic" to me? — cause it feels great like connecting to the characters on an even stronger level,,, idk i get even more curious about them and search shit up (though u can do that normally too) my dumbass even ends up like going "yeah but they wouldnt even like me" and i get sad 💀💀 am i just delusional 💀 maybe lol

and,, for the prompts. u said u wanna make something fluffy right? the domestic stuff with law. or did u change ur mind? i kinda have some sweet phrases and ideas in mind but if u steered from that i wont send em lolol (actually did i just dream of that or. cause i camt find thw post anymore did i not scroll enough or was it a vision damn,,) this got really big again srry 👺🗿😨

1. I love Nintendo soundtracks so SO much too god they just 🛐 (rn my favorites are Breath Of The Wild and Mario Galaxy, and then a few from Age Of Calamity’s ost. I’m sure as soon as I play Tears of The Kingdom that will join the list lol. OH ALSO SOME SMASH SONGS)

But Law’s full theme is on YouTube! The one you hear in Zou is just the beginning/end of the full song, but the part that makes me 🤯 is like the “chorus” of the song (at least where the chorus would be if it was a real song with lyrics lol). I still don’t understand why they never used more of it in the anime lol

2. You’re so right about the self-shipping tho. (The therapeutic thing) That’s the only thing I “ship” but even then I keep it to myself 90% of the time (Law is the only one I’ve ever posted the art I made for him/me lol) And idk if maybe I feel so strongly about Law since I relate to him way more than the others I like?? But yeah I went and spoiled myself looking up his wiki when I first started liking him 💀 I also agree with the “would this character even like me? No” with everyone except Law oddly enough?? He’s just like me fr. What I’m implying is that we’d be perfect for each other LMAO.

And the being fine with the ship when it makes sense in canon is also how I feel, which I guess it’s not totally implied at all but Nami x Vivi is cute and makes sense. But yeah as long as it’s not morally wrong/you’re not shoving it down everyone else’s throats, idrc what you ship. (It just so happens that my least favorite ship seems to get shoved down everyone’s throat tho smh)

3. I do kinda remember wanting to do a fluff/domestic event? I think I ended up doing the virgin Law stuff instead tho? Or I just forgot lol. BUT I could use some suggestions for the 1k event. I’m probably gonna do both fluff and smut for it, so I’ll take whatever lol 👀

#ask things lol #law

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flockofdoves · 1 year

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help why is it so hard to find a webcam for my pc :/

its so weird bc every half decent webcam brags about having a wide field of view ans its like. why would i want to clean my whole room just to not feel embarrassed using my webcam????

but also simultaneously was thinking abt how wider fov would actually be useful if i brought my webcam to work meetings when people are sick and join by zoom..

so like. would be so cool to have adjustable fov that starts at 65 or less (my laptop webcam is 54 degrees apparently and i think thats great) but also has wider options. but i guess wider isnt Necessary but i def want narrower

and similarly, since its for my pc which im dual booting i want it to work well with both windows and linux. and then by the same optional criteria driving me wanting the option of wider fov for in my jobs meetingroom, since i have a macbook, mac support would also be nice

my current webcam on my laptop is a little grainy but fine idrc and is a 720p facetime hd camera (idk abt fps) so i guess i dont really care about stuff as long as its at least 720p but the option for 1080p could be cool too. beyond that just feels like overkill

autofocus seems cool, not necessary tho, and id ideally like the option to toggle off stuff like that and color correction and stuff too

microphone is nice but not entirely necessary i could use my gfs podcast mic but something more casual built in does seem convenient

any thoughts…

#cpost

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berry-hwa · 1 year

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my upcoming genshin impact comparison issssss

star crossed myth MC and nahida!!!

[MAJOR spoilers here][be warned]

When I woke up, I was riding in a flower carriage. I'd just had a dream...I dreamed it was my birthday.

In the dream, the Knight of Flowers and his retainers found me, "Oh Archon, we've finally found you! The people can't wait to meet you."

In the end, I'm just the Moon. The real Sun is long gone.

to be frank i dont remember much of mcs personality because its been so long since i played it lol so this comparison might not be very accurate but idrc because this has been my brainrot for weeks and i love these characters a lot so lets begin

theyre both incredibly compassionate, caring and wonderful in their own way — mc as the former goddess of fate and nahida (lesser lord kusanali) as the god of wisdom. funnily enough the aranara that are considered to be nahidas friends and the children of the forest can be considered as the zodiac gods bc theyre all very silly silly😍

to start with, the goddess of fate chose to sacrifice herself by offering the stars in her eyes to save the earth(even this information is a bit fuzzy im sorry💀 scm fans will know) and became a mortal in her next life. greator lord rukkhadevata chose to sacrifice her power in helping the scarlet king eradicate forbidden knowledge, causing her to exhaust her powers and her form to turn into that of a child's.

by being there for irminsul as the cataclysm happened in khaenriah, she knew irminsul was plagued by the forbidden knowledge because she too, was infected by it. being connected to irminsul meant that unless she herself was removed from it, forbidden knowledge would continuously flow into the world in forms of eleazar and the withering. so - she chose the healthiest branch on irminsul and broke it off, creating a new form of life with it — now known as nahida. the message and clue she left all the way back, amidst khaenriah's destruction, explained how she full heartedly knew that she would have to disappear from this world and from irminsul to save it.

mc's selflessness i feel would lead her to do this exact thing before choosing to disappear, "let the world completely forget me". though she knew it would be heartbreaking for everyone who knew and loved the goddess of fate - especially for the new form of herself that she would've created, she would stay until the very last moment, comforting the new goddess and reassuring her, (rukkhadevata telling nahida that nobody can know what kind of archon she would grow up to be, telling her that she might just become even greater than she was because nahida looked up to the greater lord so much...it just screams goddess of fate for me) telling her that she's found her own answer and can lead her nation with great power and kindness ("I'm the one who posed this question, yet also the one who sought a solution...saving the world with the dreams of the people used to be my answer, and now, you've also found your own answer, and I shall return all the dreams to the people"), it's all so...mc to me. both as lesser lord kusanali and greater lord rukkhadevata.

if you read through that all THANK YOU idk what came over me this is so long 💀probably because ive been so in love with this lore dump aNd because its about one of the major characters im talking about lol

#love 365 #love 365: find your story #voltage inc #star crossed myth #scm #i would have LOVED to draw mc as rukkhadevata but like...yk. lazy #imagine how heartbreaking it would be to let hue forget about her entire existence :( but still being okay with it...#because she created another form of life that resembles her perfectly. so even though the entire world would forget her #including all the gods and mc herself...she would be at ease because in a way #shes still with everyone :)though no one remembers her previous form all that matters is she still exists in a different one #sidenote: the aranara as ot12 is very funny to me

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i-just-want-to-destroy · 2 years

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…deku …..for the ask game 😳

send me a character and i’ll list:

favorite thing about them very ficcable, also kind of pathetic, which is great, and the way hes drawn is v cute

least favorite thing about them hes in bnha. i also dont feel his narration is strong enough its kind of patchy. i get hes the surrogate for the audience but still

favorite line "dont take it personally, i lie to everyone.." oh wait thats yesterday upon the stairs its that one where hes like "dear diary i want to kill kacchan so bad today like really really bad like i want to do it so bad i want to punch him in his fucking face" or something like that

brOTP hes so malleable, u can put him with everyone. but him with shinsou as friends is like. theyre the kind who just doesnt say anything when they hang out theyre jst playing some lame shit like league of legends with each other on their phones in complete silence. and i like that v much. i think him w todoroki is v good, obviously, but the awkward phase between them has to be emphasized really well like him n tdrk is two people with very shit and very little socializing experience they will be doing the whole friend thing wrong, but endearingly. do i make sense. like they have to be shit at being friends, but together

OTP izuocha is cute tbh. hes a good blend with any characters i can picture him w anybody except bkg. i do think hes the kind who gets friendzoned (not in a "bad" way! this is actually his superpower) bc hes friend-shaped n sweet. his peers look at him and see "friend" first before they see "potential crush" oh wait wiat wait oh my goddd him with that guy from that fucking movie HIM WITH RODYYYYY !! THAT SHIT WAS SO REAL that it was RIDICULOUSS that was so so so real

nOTP its been years but i still cant see the dynamic between bkg n dk change into anything resembling romance. but also like, idrc

random headcanon watches documentaries ... yk i actually dont think he likes sweet things that much. i think he has odd slightly lame hobbies like he can solve 10x10 rubik cubes or some shit, ykwim. edit: also im not saying this jst bc i wrote him like this, but i think he CAN do small magic tricks. he learned it all by himself pre-OFA. bc its the closest thing to a quirk he can do. i think he cant sing for his life

unpopular opinion hes not actually that boring

song i associate with them everybody wants to rule the world, boys will be bugs

favorite picture of them that picture where hes standing all sasuke like on the rooftop with his shitty torn up costume gazing soulfully and mournfully to the city skyline. his iconic dropout era you know the one.

#ask

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