#idk my mind is weird

[captainshadowgirllostfan]

I just read the wiki on Charles Xavier’s mother and found out she wasn’t really all that neglectful to her son, and that she and her son didn’t really have the complicated relationship implied in the movie First Class.

Though on thing in common to the movies is that Sharon Xavier did become an alcoholic, but idk if you didn’t read her backstory and because of what little is shown of her aside from a picture, Raven shapeshifting into her, and Charles’ comment that she would never make him hot chocolate, I got the impression she was a cold woman... maybe the movie was trying to portray her that way.

But in the cannon Sharon descended into alcoholism because of her abusive husband who is Charles’ step-dad, whom she married so Charles’ would have a father figure in his life. In reality, the guy just married her for her wealth...

Idk why but it kinda reminded me of Hamlet. Can you imagine Charles’ as Hamlet?

There’s probably no relation since his stepdad was only a colleague of his father’s and also wasn’t responsible of his father’s death but the marrying his mother for her wealth is kinda similar...

#what i mean...is you can write a fic about it like that #idk my mind is weird #Charles' isn't the revenge kind like Hamlet is #but it would certainly be interesting I think #Charles Xavier #Sharon Xavier #Charles' Xavier's mother in the movies and comics

[welcometogrouchland]

I've been binging Batman Beyond recently (Terry ily so much) and thought about how- bc of the JLU twist which I think isn't even canon to the comics BB verse but shhh bare with me- he'd technically be Damian's half brother??? Which is just so ridiculously soap opera to me. I need them to interact in a silly time travel adventure so bad you don't even understand (ID in alt)

#dc comics #damian wayne #terry mcginnis #batman beyond #batman and robin #mine #also feat the mild damian uniform redesign i like playing around with. it's fun i like her. i love u classic robin colours #the backstory for this image in my mind is that Terry knows of Damian/has maybe met him #in the future (whether we're going w the rebirth ''damian rejoins the league'' angle that i. don't love conceptually but can't judge- #-bc i haven't read. or if we go w/ some other potential future route for damian) and Terry is like. experiencing whiplash at meeting him- #-as robin. like you are 5 feet tall why r u so bossy. where is your dad good god. this is why i don't have a robin (?this is pre matt-robin) #but Terry's in an unfamiliar time trying not to cause a paradox so he puts aside his indignitude(?) at being bossed around by a kid #just long enough to make sure nothing goes horrifically wrong. hence this image takes place #<- i could've been a lot more eloquent explaining this but it's very late and i should've been asleep ages ago #anyway. absolutely crazy to me that Damian has had multiple flavours of secret brother plots and terry is a potential addition. rip damian #(also in my ideal future damian took up the nightwing mantle (EVERYONE READ NIGHTWING MUST DIE!!!) before retiring( #idk what his future career is. lowkey hes a webcomic artist in my brain but that's so horrendously self indulgent i can't condone it #also i decided to try my hands at lineart again. evil. how are you so stiff looking and difficult to do. waughh #anyway if things look weird. no they don't

[myuminji]

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #myuminjiart #cw blood #idk i've been in my funky mood for weird poses in weird perspective don't mind the wonky anatomy

[queewp]

#prohibited wish #prohibitedwish #scarab #the scarab #scarab the god auditor #scarab fionna and cake #scarab adventure time #prismo #prismo the wishmaster #prismo adventure time #they're at some weird god offic gala or smth idk #still dont know if i like scarab's fit or not #lmao #also #just love the idea of his gen being able to turn into other stuff- like ofc his cane but also like jewelry <3 #exploding them with my mind as we speak

[chloesimaginationthings]

(continuation of previous ask) I looked at their blog just now and they actually might be a bot? idk tbh

Thanks to everyone who’s brought this to my attention!

I’m pretty certain @/jyedthrry6 is a bot, they were uploading commonly reposted text posts, until somehow stumbling into lifting from my account. I think the give away to em being a bot is how they’ve reposted not just my comics, but my patreon announcement images, and images I shared on ask replies, so the same cropped images just on its own

My suggestion is just to report them for spam, cause I think it is a legit spam bot who accidentally got wind of my work 🙏🏾

#ask reply #such a weird thing to happen! thanks to everyone who told me #I've blocked em so that might cut off the reposting idk #definitely just report em for spam #and know I only have my one tumblr account #don’t engage with this user just report and go #I don't mind reeposters who credit me btw but I'm certain this is just a bot BAHA #I think the only reason it's putting my tags under the post because it's copying my posts format #again super strange this happened but thanks again for telling me!

[mortysmith]

first time meeting

#rick and morty #rick sanchez #morty smith #in my mind their first interactions are forced and strenuous and awkward #rick is grieving and focused on his “bait” plan and he knows about the whole rick&morty dynamic. he doesnt want to talk to these people #and morty is on edge because like this weird ass old man just crashed into your house and . Is Living here now I Guess #AND THEYRE BOTH BIG FAT AUTISTS!!!! #one day they just start talking randomly idk. rick makes a joke around the breakfast table and asks morty if he thought that was funny #and then theyre inseparable

[ventique18]

Random plot thought

What is Yuu gets isekaid into Twisted Wonderland as usual, meet Malleus as usual, then they scream "What are you doing here?! And what's with the weird horns? Are you cosplaying? Why?" But he just blinks at them in confusion and asks if they've met before.

Then Yuu's shaken and can't really process that their boyfriend is also in this world, but doesn't remember them and is apparently a different person.

Then as time goes on, they get to know him and the two Malleuses are literally the same person except for the horns. That's when they come to a conclusion that this must be the afterlife, and they're probably both dead, and finally lets themselves fall in love all over again.

Then the way to go home to the original world presents itself. And, and the original Malleus is alive and well with zero clue that Yuu was isekaid, because in that world not even a single hour has passed since they disappeared.

Who will Yuu pick? The guy who they spent years loving so tenderly, or this guy who, despite not knowing him as long as the other, they joined in many a tribulation and loved so truly in his most vulnerable of moments? 🤔

#a sudden weird thought invading my mind and idk what to think of it #idk what's the good thing to do #lol moral and love dilemma #twisted wonderland #ventique rambles #malleus draconia #malleus x reader

[harmonictechnicality]

Welcome back to another segment of: Shit That I Can’t Believe I Put on the Internet.

#steddie #lmao like why did I write this and why do still think it’s hilarious #why do I think Eddie is currently creating the blueprints for their sex castle #idk my mind is a weird place to be trapped inside of

[ryssbelle]

Had a silly dream where mine and some of my friends Zelda au characters met up and it was very silly kind of like dnd and in the background there was a baking competition going on lmao

Aus included @linked-maze @hazethestrange @limited-hero

#my art #silly dream stuff #fractured timeline #linked maze #limited hero #totk swap #legend of zelda #loz #tears of the kingdom #totk au #weird dream #the baking part was insane cuz frulle kept spawning illegal baking materials #and Kenny and haze were at war for #also don’t mind how silly mine looks I drew it at five am XD #also don’t mind that 3 out of 4 of them have a prosthetic right arm #idk how it happened okay #is good tho

[bigkickguy]

daanmarcoh doodle - they're sleeping in shifts and keeping watch

#daanmarcoh #daarcoh #kickdraw #funger #i just wanted to draw them and try to punch through artblock ! #as soon as i have the energy to actually render something and draw a background its so over #the eternal struggle of 'do i use daan's portrait or map sprite for hair color' #really just wanted to draw daan with marcoh's jacket #thought to myself yesterday - 'idk why they aren't as popular' so figured i'd throw some art into the mix again #such good fanfiction coming out for them too #I really want to get back into a drawing stride for them :') #the shirt grab is to make sure he's still there watching - if marcoh turns around or leaves daan would feel it #i feel like they're walking a weird line in my mind #they just met and in some cases all they have is each other - but they dont really know each other in any way #they just have to trust the stranger who didn't kill them immediately won't be worse than the fucked up monsters around them

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[soldier-poet-king]

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oppressive, burning, terrible Grace, or, on the divine Absence which is also divine Love

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Casimir Pulaski Day - Sufjan Stevens // Graceless - The National // The Queen of Attolia - Megan Whalen Turner // The Sparrow Duology: Children of God - Mary Doria Russell // The Witness for the Dead & The Grief of Stones - Katherine Addison // Piranesi - Susanna Clarke // The Return of the Thief - Megan Whalen Turner // The Man Who Was Thursday: A Nightmare - GK Chesterton // The War of Vaslav Nijinksy - Frank Bidart // [x] - @ crawfish comic // post by @ intactics [deactivated] // This Hour and What is Dead - Li-Young Lee // Seven Swans -Sufjan Stevens // Hole Theory - Thomasin Francis // First Love/Late Spring - Mitski // [x] - @ slothu // Bad Blood - Bear's Den

#web weaving #faith tag #long post #uhhhh idk i want ppl to see this ive been cooking it in the back of my mind for ages but feel weird tagging it #uhhh?? #christianity #i GUESS?? #faith #god's silence #divine absence #i keep hesitating to post it thinking oh no im gonna think of smthn else to add to it IMMEDIATELY #and i KNOW I WILL. but i cant keep hedging my bets #ive been sitting on this since november #divine grace #divine love #where are the divine silence = divine grace = divine absence = divine love understanders #WHERE ARE THEY #maybe religious despair and religious fervour are adjacent flavours. to me #including mitski lyrics like. yes i am on my make everything about divine despair agenda. even romance. OOPS #medieval mystics who wrote abt god as a romantic lover and that despair and agony and longing. they knew what was up

[sunglassesmish]

!!!!

#idk why my text is so weird... i used a different one yesterday and now it's like this #my gifs #jensen ackles #never mind it’s just because of the size dimensions 😫 #spn #dean #dean winchester

[thecrowsart]

👁️🦎🎯

(crops under cut)

#natsume yuujinchou #matoba seiji #natori shuuichi #horrible exorcists #sorry i couldnt think of a caption i literally sat here for like 2 minutes lol #usually i use a quote from the scene or a lyric from a song but in this scene they're just Looking #anyway FUCK architecture #really though this is csp's perspective ruler's fault. i shoulda just done this by hand #but i made it work. since it wasnt super super complicated lol #ummm i feel like natori looks like a baby ceo but that is what he was wearing at least in the anime version of this scene #and midorikawa's kind of vague about clothes so i made it easy on myself #but why are you rolling up to the exorcist meeting in a navy blazer and tan chinos? #his uniform color is tan so ig the pants could be from that but the blazer...... #tryna represent the natori clan in front of the other exorcists ig idk #meanwhile matobas just in his gakuran lol #hes not the clan head yet so he can just be there as a kid #he even gets told off by takuma and called seiji-kun.....could you imagine like. #it's weird for him to not be matoba #anyway. um i completely kind of fudged the architecture because its hard to tell where exactly in the building this scene is and #i had a specific composition in mind #i only realized i messed up how the windows work like 3/4 of the way into lineart soooo #but thats the kind of thing only i would notice probably #btw i was originally drawing a different scene of them but i was faced with the reality of foliage. #and i remembered this romeo and juliet ass scene existed so #i chose architecture LOL #okay last thing. i feel like natoris haircut is too polished and nice but fr wtf is his canon hair #im doing my best LOL.........but boy #OKAY im done

[asparklethatisblue]

an incident in the Captain's cabin

#fitzier #francis crozier #james fitzjames #the terror #my art #nsft #artistic nudity #no dick no butt leave me alone tumblr #In my mind Francis is a baseline drunk here and it's the first time James is fully naked before him #it's a weird mix of daring him and stubbornness and disdain etc etc #idk man I just wanted to draw James tum for a friend

[stuckinapril]

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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children #In everything I do #Like legit #I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her #And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything #But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious #Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life #But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends #While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury #And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline #Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else #It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk #It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything #But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently #And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians #I’d be so mad #And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief #For losing their loved ones #This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit #This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow #And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything #Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal #And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just #Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off. #Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night #I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this #Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do #or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up #I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think #p