#idk maybe things have changed since like.. 2015

[themyscirah]

Wait am I stupid omg is Aphra ending

#NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #honestly very confuzzled abt things bc locg says yes but i cant find any news about it or shakeups in the sw comic sphere #which like id think smth would say smth bc aphra is like. a thing #like even if shes niche shes a fan favorite character so like.... #idk shes been showing up in comics p much constantly since 2015 like youd think thered be smth #either way i have like 50 backissues to go through for her plus the 2 more left in this run but like... huh #maybe this is another thing where theyre gonna start a new book #but then would the author change or....???? idk #also havent seen talk of a new aphra book sooooo #blah #star wars posting

[quinton-reviews]

Hi Quinton!! I have been a HUGE fan of your stuff since a friend sent me the Tobuscus Fallen Titans (I used to watch him back in high school and was like "huh, wonder what happened to him after those allegations") and I gotta say, it is REALLY FUNNY every time my fiancé and I watch the iCarly videos again, because when you cover Gibby's stunt double breaking his ribs, you cut to a clip of The Official Podcast. I used to play D&D with one of the main dudes from the podcast, so when he talks during that clip I do a goddamn double take literally every time.

Anyways, I remember an original Patreon stretch goal being a Fallen Titans on Homestuck! I was really big into Homestuck in my early 20s, and was wondering if that's still on the table at some point? If not that's fine, I understand plans change! I just love Fallen Titans lol, the Fred episode and the Neil Cicierega unFallen Titans are some of my favorite videos of yours!

That's a real funny story!

So here's the rundown on the Homestuck video. When I first started making long videos, they were actually inspired by the relationship I had with other YouTubers at the time. I used to watch, like, H3H3 and Filthy Frank, etc; and I'd always see people obsessed with the versions of creators from the past. Like, "Oh 2015 H3 was the best" and "Oh 2012 Frank was peak." So I had this idea that it would be crazy if H3 posted, like, a video he spent a decade on and you got a new video with 2015 H3 10 years on. (I don't watch H3 anymore ironically)

So the original idea for the "long video" format was that it would be cool if, throughout a long, analysis/review/recap video, you kept noticing someone get older. Maybe my months, maybe by years. That's why I always like to get a haircut when I start one of these videos. If you scrub through and you see my hair get longer and messier as it goes on I think that adds something magical you can't fake.

So... My pitch to the Homestuck video was that it would be funny to work on it just once per year. To record one segment, say "That's it for 12 months", and then come back around to it. And when I was making the iCarly and Victorious videos I actually recorded a few minutes of the video! I think it was two segments in total. But then I had a bunch of personal stuff happen and my work drive has been much lower, so any "back burner" video hasn't gotten much attention since then.

Now that the iCarly mini-series is done with, I want to focus on some short one-off videos I can make before April. But once that's done with, I would REALLY love to start work on a few more long-term projects which will take months or years to finish. I think returning to work on the Homestuck video, to at least get the first 20-30 minutes done, would be a great idea this summer.

Now, if you want to know my pitch for that video, here it is. The video is not a recap of the creative history of the franchise. I do not get into drama, community hell, lawsuits, or other YouTubers. My idea is this: you always hear about Homestuck as an outsider but you never hear about the actual content. Most franchises on Earth I know something about, even and especially if I've never been interested in them. I can tell you a bunch of facts about wrestling and MLP and the Fast and the Furious simply through cultural osmosis and having friends who are into those things.

I can't tell you the plot of Homestuck, who the characters are, what the themes are, nothing. I've known a lot of people who were into Homestuck but nothing about the series!

So I thought it would thus be funny to make a video about a bunch of people who know nothing about the series starting from the beginning and giving their reactions, even if it's been years since it all started. I call this part of the video the "Homestuck Book Club." So the next step is me picking out the members (who all have to have no history with it) and making sort of a podcast setup. We'd then read and record every six months or so, IDK.

This is why the video has been stuck in production hell! Everyone who wants to work on it and messages me about it already knows the franchise. I don't want spoilers, I don't want people writing for the video who get it already. I want to capture the "what the fuck is this" energy of three dudes just getting in the middle of it.

Also, I think that I really like the theme of the video capturing our lives as they go by, capturing us aging and changing. If you came back from the future and told me this video comes out in five years, I'd say great. If you told me it comes out in ten years, I'd say awesome. Until then, the latest edit will always be on Patreon, even if you have to dig a little.

#homestuck #quinton reviews #long videos

[melrosing]

Ok speaking of changes GOT made… is there any changes you like? I struggle to find big moments, but there are small additions I love. Like Ned praying before he dies, Robb hitting the tree when he finds out, the chemistry that Kit Harrington and Rose Leslie have…. But there are very few structural changes I think improve the story.

hmmm so I can't lie there is a LOT I just don't remember anymore about the show, so wringing my mind a little to come up with something.....

I won't mention things that I think were adapted well (like Ned's execution) as those aren't adaptational changes. and I also won't mention things that I like the idea of (e.g. Jaime's dyslexia) but not the execution (they made out it was part of the longrunning 'stupidest Lannister' joke).

and like.... well I'm stuck already lmao?? I'm not even trying to shit on the show I just feel like it was a consistent exercise in either understating GRRM's work or butchering it entirely. so I can think of only a few things:

I can't find the link to where I talked about this at length but the scene in which Jaime and Ned duel in the streets of KL was a good one imo. I think it was more in character for Jaime to just recklessly fight Ned himself, and a neat parallel to what I suspect will happen between Ned, Arthur and Howland - in that when Ned is attacked from behind by one of Jaime's men in the midst of their fight, Jaime angrily ends the duel bc his man has essentially dishonoured it. I think Ned's fight with Arthur will end as it did in the show (with Howland stabbing Arthur from behind and Ned finishing the job, bc he needs to reach Lyanna), and this is like a parallel to show Jaime and Ned have the same principles, yet each have broken them in times of desperation. My personal theory is that this was a change GRRM recommended - the parallel seems notable to me, and not one that would've even occurred to D&D, esp. given they never gave any particular shit about Jaime's story. And this may sound spurious but I recall that GRRM remembers in an interview, saying the weather was different in the show version of the scene than in the books.... which makes me think he was maybe onset for this one, possibly because of the rewrite??

I'm v much in favour of ageing up the youngest characters. My ideal starting ages for the youngest characters in AGOT would've been Jon/Robb/Dany - 18, Joffrey/Sansa - 14, Arya - 12, Bran - 10. To me they all feel much too young for the roles they play in the story, and it occasionally kills my suspension of disbelief

I way prefer the book’s version of the Red Wedding but I do feel like Catelyn's single cry of despair works better than the book's manic laughter. maybe the laughter was a more vivid image for the books idk

I do actually like how we see Robb's grief onscreen it's very movingly played by Richard Madden. I also love Catelyn's expressions as Robb rides back from the Whispering Wood, like both these scenes are great reminders of their mother/son relationship in a setting where they aren't really allowed to be just that. and like just Michelle Fairley tbh I really like her work as Catelyn even though I don't like how the character was adapted more generally

Breaking the 'concept but not execution' rule just to say I think it was definitely a good idea to explore the High Sparrow as this weirdly charismatic figure so we can see how others might be taken in by him, even whilst we see the extremes of his faith. but that subplot was not executed well at all so fuck it

Yeah I agree that Jon and Ygritte having a slightly more charged romance also works. In the books Ygritte comes and goes quite quickly and I think there is something to be said for lending a bit more gravity to that relationship. I don't think they necessarily had to be the grand romance that the show makes them out to be but I didn't hate it

I might be forgetting other things that worked because some seasons I haven't seen since like 2015, but honestly it just doesn't work for me as an adaptation. things I liked in the show before reading the books feel completely naff in hindsight, knowing how they were supposed to play out, so..... eh

#ask #anti got #asoiaf #edit: sorry this originally said I prefer the show’s red wedding I do NOT 💀💀💀

[elanorpam]

Hey, ive been a fan of your cultstuck series since i first read it 10 years ago and its one that i hold dear along woth toastyglow and their siblings' works. Given that we are all adults now with very busy lives, i dont expect you to kerp up with an old project like writing a fan novel fpr free, but i am curious as what ur current plants for earthbent are, if there are any atm.

(Tbh id be happy with any answer you provide, whether its a detailed outline, an unsure shrug, an excited wink hinting at a deadline or an announcement of permanent hiatus. Youve given so much with your writing, thst i just want you to be happy with whatever plans u have)

hey there! i'm going to go with unsure shrug as an answer here.

see, I did have a detailed outline for cultstuck-- i wrote it all down at around ...2015? very soon after the second eridan chapter, and sent it to my beta, who then proceeded to ghost me forever. I was already sensing she was growing disinterested in the fic/the fandom, giving constant excuses, and I myself was dealing with an anxiety/depression combo that would sharply nosedive by the time the finale came around, so i just... let it go. She didn't care. I wasn't in a good mental place to care. We went our separate ways.

I decided to take a mental health sabbatical, and now, after a few years of sertraline and therapy, the thought of picking it back up is very, very far down my list of priorities. I have so many other fics I want to write, for media which hasn't let me this profoundly down! And also, Cultstuck was conceptualized in the post-cascade hiatus, in chat logs and rough outlines, and was never supposed to take later canon into account unless it dropped any interesting, matching lore...

...but late act 6 took such a dump on the characters and the setting that it took the joy right out of playing on my patch of sandbox, fenced off as it was. And I couldn't connect with the Retcon timeline at all, but some of its developments are so popular and so deeply entrenched that I hesitate to contradict them even though i kind of hate the whole thing and never meant to take it into account?

Let's take the strongest example: Davekat. Dave and Karkat in Cultstuck were never meant to be anything more than mutually annoying acquaintances connected only indirectly via Terezi-- Dave was to be her moirail, and aro-ace besides. This was because for the entirety of the comic, that was the only vibe I got from Dave as a character, and from his interactions with Karkat as a whole-- he and Karkat felt too similar in mutually unpleasant ways, like a cousin that's just enough like you to give you second-hand embarrassment. So by the point the comic was playing coy with pushing the New Dave and New Karkat action figures together, you couldn't get me to care about Davekat if you put a gun to my head. This really hasn't changed in the least. And that means whenever I think of dealing with disappointed Davekat fans in the future of the fic, I just feel an all-encompassing, soul-deep exhaustion.

but i also don't want to drop the fic altogether, for some reason? Like, I might not feel this way forever. So idk, i'm keeping my options open i guess. Subscribe to the fic/series and maybe 10 years from now you'll get a notification like a holiday miracle. Who knows.

#cultstuck #homestuck #homestuck thinks

[plegg-culture-is]

Fannish plegg carton culture, specifically protogenic-endogenic plegg culture that later finds itself to be full of permanent resident soulbonds is —

In very very early childhood:

*Projections literally playing H.O.R.S.E or whatever that basketball game is. Of course the main fronter never played, because they are too short.*

"Huh!! Well I mean those barbecue sauce was spicy before but it's 0.05 seconds later and I feel completely different as a person and also this barbecue sauce is no longer spicy. Oh well. The teacher called me a liar over barbecue sauce so I'm gonna be a shithead to them and have a meltdown"

In middle school:

"What would Gohan do if he was in this world???"

"What would Jayfeather do if he were in this world??"

"OMG. WHAT WOULD. IZAYA ORIHARA DO IF HE WAS IN THIS SITUATION JIST SOME MIDDLE SCHOOLER NOW"

*Has full-ass slow changing "see through my eyes" quasi-ceremonies based solely on vibes since we didn't have innerworld completely built yet*

*Chasing each other in hallways and all people saw was a small autistic child running for no reason lol*

"Why the fuck can I never feel my face when something horrible happens to us me? Also I relate too much to Silver from Pokémon HeartGold/SoulSilver"

In high school:

"Yep just Gon and Killua from Hunter×Hunter chillin' over there. Nobody can see 'em and these feel pretty distinct from hallucinations considering I can't literally see them. Eh. Maybe just imagination."

*Checking out a pro-endogenic blog in 2015* "Yup I am just a curious singlet"

*Still chasing ourselves through hallways just less or more hidden because people are stupid.* Why the fuck am I so angry all of the time. Why the fuck do I feel like there should be more to all of this.

"Hhhh Illumi Zoldyck from Hunter×Hunter patting my head is completely normal. So is pretending I am Ethan from Pokémon HeartGold/SoulSilver I'M NOT PRETENDING ThOUGH??? I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO CALL THIS all I know is I am definitely Ethan, , not Ethan? And Illumi Zoldyck is petting my head and we are working at a McDonald's right now. What the fuck is happening" *Proceeds to ignore this and never tell anyone until we are today years old*

"My vitriol for Hisoka Morrow of Hunter×Hunter has three sides to it. I hate him and his canon. I have no clue how to explain the other two sides to this and I cannot stand my friend obsessing over this character" *Proceeds to also ignore this one too, and never tell anyone until we are today years old*

In university:

"Hey 30 year old Gladion idk if you're actually a figment of my imagination anymore but yeah sure your sister Lily and her daughter Mei can chill in here in this brain for awhile. Does this mean I'm genderfluid lol?" (Narrator: this is, in fact, NOT what genderfluidity is supposed to feel like.)

"Oh well I guess Itonai from Assassination Classroom is just decided to sleep in the bed tonight. Get the fuck off of my bed ya lazy bum. Noooo it's just wei — get back in our head you freak (//lovingly, platonic)"

*Just feeling fucking uncomfortable around sysmedicalists but especially the sysmedicalists who were anti-endogenic as well (yes there are pro-endogenic sysmeds!! Uhm but definitely not plural, nope)*

"I am now talking to these projections while brushing my teeth. Lucifer from The Devil Is A Part-Timer has literally crash-landed into our brain along with Emilia Justina. Wtf?"

*Discovers the word endogenic yet again and gets the weird euphoria again*

*Maybe our late second year at university, at fucking 11PM, after anime club finishes — Kusuo Saki just fucking chilling on top of the table via projection* "Heeey so remember that one time in high school where you had weird daydreams about that pink-haired psychic boy and the blonde with drills? Welp, Mami Tomoe picked me up on the way here —" *Queue freakout of the main fronter at this point*

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SO ANYWAYS that is. Uh. Some Stuff(tm) yaaay, anyways the good thing about this is we don't think our queer shit would ever, ever be as fucking weird as our plurality shit in the context of the societal context and chronological context we, Rusanya, live in, so figuring out we're aceplex (since we found the plurality first and asexuality is more of a veil) was mostly just an "AHA okay then lol" and we just kind of slap every label on the planet onto us that we like that we think applies, both on an individual and collective level. :D

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#plegg culture is #pluralgang #plurality #actuallyplural #plural system #egg carton #submission #anendoandfriendo #protogenic #endogenic #fannish #long post

[smalltimidbean]

I forgot I even posted earlier, and I got jumpscared by Giant Bean and got-put-through-a-taffy-stretcher-Bean jhfdjhfd

But I was thinking about changing Bean a little bc they have had that design since uhhh 2015, and they kinda don't represent who I am now - although it is mainly the clothes, since the only thing I still wear that Bean wears is the shoes (and they probably need to be replaced soon bc they are 10 years old)

But that being said, I still pretty much only wear sweaters/hoodies and bandannas, so it wouldn't be too much of a difference - except the skinny jeans, bc I got too fat for them, and maybe the purple streak, bc that was from... 2011? And I haven't had my hair dyed period since 2019, but the hair is kinda iconic (even if I don't currently and have never had a pompadour), so it'll probably stay kjfdlkfdlk

But that all also being said, I did kinda go on a mini spiral today bc idk if an updated Bean would represent me either, bc I Don't Know Who I Am and I Have Made Such A Caricature Of Myself That, To Some Degree, I Don't Know What Is Real And What Is An Exaggeration For Comedy, and There Are So Many Spin-Off Beans, What If The Real One Is Hidden Somewhere

But I'm like fine now, and maybe we will not change Bean for the moment to avoid... That

And once again, I did not mean for funnee text post to turn into a long-winded semi-vent, but sailor bees I suppose

#bean talks too much #vent tag #just for comfort #I also really need to go grocery shopping but it's so dark already and my legs hurt so I guess I will continue drinking this expired milk #it expired as of today so it is not terrible but it is not great #what was the point in this I do not remember #if there was even a point to begin with

[juliapark13]

Idk if it's insecurity or thinking about all possibilities lol but I'm starting to think JK is dating sohee. He could've selected any actress to feat on his MV but he particularly selected her in a sexy mv.

As you know Wooga squad always date between their mutual friends. We have Taennie and now Park seo Joon and Jennie's youtuber friend. So hee is also very close with wooga squad and now JK is also close with them. During premieres, there was no need for JK's attendance there, still he went. And you can see he being suddenly so exicted when sohee's name was announced by MC. He literally whipped his head while he was walking away from venue. So maybe he met her through them and is dating her now ?

And if you look without any bias Sohee is literally his female version and ticks all of his ideal type column including being elder than him to feed his ever famous noona kink. Tbh sohee fits it way more than what we thought Jimin is what his ideal type is. I won't be surprised if he fell in love with someone who's exactly like him. And I'm expecting that dating confirmation anyday (tho it won't happen like Taennie didn't) so I'll be less sad about Jikook lol. I think I shouldn't be hyped about Jkk anymore and slowly stop shipping them at all as at the end it will be not positive.

„As you know Wooga squad always date between their mutual friends.”

1st of all Jungkook isn’t part of Wooga squad.

2nd of all I don’t know what was your purpose of sending this, but you have absolutely no logic at all. How old are you?

Anyway if you want to know my opinion ok.

Jungkook said in 2015 if he was a girl he would date a guy like Jimin. His ideal type was always changing and it always looked more and more like JM. In 2015 it was just the beginning.

JK also recently said cute is totally his type and do you know whom he called cute 100 times? Jimin.

We could also see many times how sexually attracted he is to JM.

I obviously don’t think he is straight since I believe he is in a relationship with JM, but in my opinion he is gay and not interested in woman.

And do you think JK would let JM go and decide to date someone else instead? :D He is so happy and proud JM is his, they are so connected and committed, they want to last forever for sure and I keep telling If it’s not you, it’s not anyone is definition of them.

MV isn’t reality and JK likes challenges and trying new things like he’s already said.

If you decided to believe rumours, ok. But maybe you should observe things on your own and make conclusions on your own and not listen to people who desperately want to prove JK is straight and who are making rumours about JK dating A WOMAN every single day.

#ask

[aurorangen]

sims get to know me tag!

@akitasimblr @oasivy @duusheen @druidberries thank you so much for tagging me ❤️

1. What’s your favourite sims death? getting eaten by a cowplant!!

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis mix! and i have a lot of alpha hair too. i can't help it, they all look so pretty...

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? not for weight but for the muscle. idk but it seems funny that they go buff so fast even if you've not made your sims exercise for long

4. Do you use move objects? it's on as soon as i enter build mode

5. Favorite mod? mccc and ui cheats. but for gameplay wonderfulwhims.

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? get to work! and then i got that bundle with parenthood and vintage glamour/bowling night.

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? now that i think about it i've called them both ways.

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? so i made this gorgeous sim in cas and he just became my favourite right there. he will eventually make an appearance in tjol posts, but my favourite sim you've seen it's bryce of course!!

9. Have you made a simself? yep! once i saw that simstrouble hair i had to make myself! but i've only shared it to my good friend @oasivy!! maybe i'll show you all in the future.

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? lazy, foodie and hot-headed. nooo those are awful traits but it's true....ok if i had 5 traits then it's also clumsy and perfectionist!!

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? i love all the blond hair swatches!!

12. Favorite EA hair? when i saw that outdoor retreat hair, the one wavy hair parted in the middle i used it on all my females! it was my favourite at the time, but now i only use cc hairs.

13. Favorite life stage? has to be YA. i always have lots of plans with them and get the most gameplay at that stage (as you can tell).

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? definitely gameplay, but my building is slowly improving! i rarely go into cas unless it's to create a new sim for my legacy

15. Are you a CC creator? nope! no skills or patience lol

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? yes! i have talked to a lot of wonderful people here, simblr would not be the same without you guys!!

17. What’s your favorite game? sims 4!! but sims 3 for the nostalgia.

18. Do you have any sims merch? no.

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? no.

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i was an on/off sims 4 player since 2015 and back then i was completely vanilla, then i found out about cc in 2018! only in 2022 i started using more skin details and gshade. but one thing's for sure, i have always been a legacy player!!

21. What’s your Origin ID? same as my simblr, but there's nothing on my gallery. i changed it bc it used my real first name and i upload sims for ppl to download on simblr, but ive not done that for a very long time.

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? there are too many creators that i have downloaded everything of. i love everything from pralinesims!!

23. How long have you had a simblr? this simblr is almost a year old! i started posting on the 13th July 2022!

24. How do you edit your pictures? i completely rely on my personal gshade/lighting mods and don't really edit, i just sharpen on photopea or add the moodlet stuff when needed.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? when cottage living came out it was my absolute favourite!! i made all my families live there including nsb pink gen, gen 4 of another legacy and my 100 baby challenge! by the time i started my postcard legacy i played with too much cottage living so i decided to start on freegan.

26. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? honestly it would be great if the sims team improves the older packs, i feel mostly everything from previous games have been included. but it was family gameplay i wanted before growing together was released.

i'll tag: @weindenburg @raiiny-bay @bloomingkyras @glowbloom @igotsnothing but feel free to ignore ❤️

#rambles #tag game

[coppycatz]

Since many have approached me asking what's happening ajsjkskd I want to give few clarification on my post specifically.

What I mentioned is just my own opinion. It's not meant to blame anyone, like I said it's how I feel. I'm not hurt by the fandom at the moment. I kind of switched to caring about other things and there's a lot happening irl right now. If you want to ask please go to people who made posts about leaving, as it's their feelings that matter.

I am not targeting anyone specifically, a lot of things mentioned has happened back in 2015 and the fact that same or similar things are happening now just means that nothing has changed. Which is dumb, tbh. 🙃

While I support my friends, please stop for a bit and breath. You've been getting very angry lately and yall know what I'm talking about. Remember that friend who quit? Well the deal was that even if they weren't extremely popular, they still got love. Idk how to explain this. It's completely valid to feel neglected, to compare yourself and feel like you're not good enough. I know this first hand. I've cried daily because of my art being shit. I've seen people do "best fandom artists" lists and so on. I know it's hard to deal with, I do. But I've returned and I kept meeting people who were happy about Coppy being active. So as much as I feel like it's wrong that here there's always "top", "middle" and "low" popularity blogs, in my opinion there are also things we notice less because of the hierarchy - like our own fans.

That being said I still think and will always think that some things are damaging and I've made a list on one server of what we can stop doing in my opinion to make people feel more welcome. Which I guess I might post here when I'll get back there, cause I left it 🙃

I personally don't know why many are uncomfortable with new members from TikTok, but I assume that maybe since new members joined old issues resurfaced, since said members were unfamiliar with what potentially could be okay or not to do.

I've been told that people are getting anon hate. Just stop? Talk normally instead. Wtf, honesly. Anon hate is for pussies. I've been called a blunt person numerous times, cause I just say a lot of things straight to the face. Idk why are you so scared of that. It's not always pleasant, but at least it's honest.

I also feel like we all need to talk more. We don't express our feelings till it gets to the boiling point which is bad. Can't we just all be more open, idk?

I've learnt due to past experiences that many people are simply not understandading each other, like as if speaking a different language? Idk. We are also so stressed and on edge somehow, I thought that it's just me, but many seem to be feeling similarly.

Fandom goes to therapy

#Ratz are talking

[pseudophan]

nobody gaf but hear me out

ok we all know i'm never gonna leave this blog to die but should i vaguely rebrand it.. or not..?

like. i'd keep the url for sure, i'm never leaving pseudophan, and i'd still post about the same amount of dan and phil as i do now, like i'm forever a dnp blog to some extent

but i'm thinking of maybe getting rid of the (deliberately) cringe branding and finally changing my title and bio.. but then also my title and bio have been with me since 2015 so it feels wrong, even if by this point they are very much ironic. idk. i'm not sure.

basically i just kinda figured nobody was active who followed this blog these days but i've recently realised a lot of yall ARE active and so i'm like well. might just.. move on.. slightly..

again tho id still be a dnp blog i don't think my posts would change all that much like i already reblog and post about other shit most of the time, i just think maybe if i changed my "theme" i'd feel comfortable posting More. sure it would probably be more bullshit most of you don't care about (no not just always sunny i promise and also sorry for subjecting u to that all the time) but it would also be, yknow.. more content in general and less just a meme a week in between posts saying i want to kill myself LMAO

again the only thing that would change is i might reblog a few more posts u dont care about. or maybe that you do care about! i already do that anyway it's just i'm still hesitant to post too much non dnp shit bc its been soooo long of keeping this a strictly dnp (and my personal mental illness) blog. lol

anyway. in short the changes would be: more posts. not always ones you give a fuck about. more varied. probably arguably less suicidal ideation. maybe

#basically my main point is i love this specific space on the internet more than anything else #and i wanna spill my guts and post about my bullshit here most of all #but i don't want to annoy you all either #so idk #tbh i figured only like 20 people were active on here anymore #out of my followers i mean #but ive recently realised its a LOT more than that #so now im like ok well.

[straycalamities]

no for real the onceler fandom when i was a huge part of it (2015/2016) was so fuckin toxic half the people left bc everyone was praising one or two blogs and acting like everyone else was dirt. it was super discouraging and i ran about 3 blogs and the only interactions i ever got was from people starting drama :(

im not sure what the askblog scene looks like today but im HOPING and PRAYING its better

eughh im sorry that sounds like absolute hell...i barely dipped my toes in because i was recovering from Stuff (stuff that took me to this year to get over enough to even make another personal blog) so i wasnt Too up-to-date with what was going on in the fandom from 2015 tooo 2019?ish? even if i popped in on entre's blog time to time, but i've heard stuff from others and friends

i think the askblog scene is A LOT more chill these days. a lot more lax and there's sooo much just...Less of everything that it makes things easier to like take in stride at least to me compared to 2012-2014 days where everything was so intense, extreme, and constant

there's still the like ghosts of the same issues that've been present since day one but its like...on a MUCH lesser scale. i honestly think it's pretty good all things considered :) the only thing that makes it rly hard for me compared to past eras is how split the fandom is uhhh app/site-wise (like its very much spread across tiktok, tumblr, twitter, discord, maybe more...idk) and so it feels like im missing out if i dont keep up everywhere LMAO and each location comes with its own issues either population-wise or site/app-wise

i miss how centralized it used to be to tumblr u_u and obviously having more content to look at back in the day, i got very spoiled on it so when i peruse the fandom content its like a lot less to look at but thats honestly GOOD FOR ME BC I HAVE NO TIME NOW LMAOOOO but its just like strange bc im like woah i dont have to scroll for an hour on entres dash anymore to catch up

well i do, but that's bc i have no time to check it on work days and so it piles up for when i do sit and take the time. cant imagine the hell i'd be in if it was 2012-era activity

ppl who had full-time jobs in the fandom in 2012 damn...i salute you.

unfortunately with a fandom as niche as this, it kinda cooks up the same issues over and over again and it makes me wish there was some sort of disclaimer that popped up as soon as you wanted to join the fandom to give you a rundown on how the culture is, who the people are, what the past drama was (so dont bring it up again), and all that LMFAO like a onceler fandom 101 that was just beamed into your device when you were like hmm what if i joined the onceler fandom LMAO

i kinda wanna do something like that specifically for askblogs? like a dos and donts. or "things i wish i knew when i started an askblog" type of thing but alas..no time. bc i see other mods go through the same obstacles/difficulties i went through and learned to either change my thinking on, or something else to either help me get past it/over it or at least cope better and id wanna pass that on if the fandoms gonna keep getting revived every two or so years and then cave in on itself from the same rehashed drama/problems it always has :sob emoji:

#asks #Anonymous

[constantfragmentation]

hey, just came here to tell you that i'm so so relieved that i was able to find your blog again !! and your jane eyre au fanfic with silco !! honestly, 'bend but not break' was (and still pretty much is) one of my favourite fanfics ever; not aus or silco fanfics, i mean one of THE best fanfics i've ever read. cannot even begin to describe how sad i was when i lost the ao3 link, and when i wasn't able to remember your blog's url.

and it was a shame, because BBNB was just *chef's kiss* 🤌. i literally stayed awake until sunrise reading it the first time, already getting inpatient for the next chapter. and i think it's mainly because you capture silco so so well, and you get 'jane eyre'; and you capture the dreadful air of the novel, and those little acts of tenderness and romance... and your smut it's quite great too. like, i still can't get over The Opera chapter, even after all this time 👀👀

still, now that i did find you, i'm not only gonna read that one, but i'm gonna get started on all your other works !! i know i'm getting repetitive but i just don't know how to express just how great i think your writing is. so for now, i just hope you get to read this !!

hope i didn't weird you out or anything !! please, have a great day, and stay safe <33

p.s.: i'm gonna read bbnb rn, until sunrise if necessary, just like in the good old days !! so if you hear someone's heart breaking, it might be mine !!

Omg?! Thank you! No, you are not weirding me out in any way.

I am so very humbled. You have no idea. I'm still learning as a writer, and I am my own worst critic.

I'm sorry I haven't been online to respond to this earlier because I've been really sick with the flu and binge watching Poldark (again).

I've been technically writing fiction since 2015 and it's been a learning curve with each story. For some odd reason, historical eras seem to fit my style in writing. I can do modern but this era I feel like I can sink my teeth into it.

I'm a huge fan of gothic horror/suspense/romance. So, yeah, I guess you can see that in the choices I make.

I must admit I'm not all together happy with the last chapter of BBNB, I might want to change some things in that chapter before moving on (maybe because it might meld into the next chapter better? idk).

Even though I have approximately 5-6 chapters (depending on how big the chapters get, I'm terrible about posting novel-length chapters) left in Bend, it should be an emotional rollercoaster. There are soooo many things I have left to run with before it ends.

As of the lastest chapter, I'm deviating from Jane Eyre a bit, while still holding onto certain plot-points for context but I want to play more with the Regency Arcane/Silco's world.

I do have other ideas for Silco stories I want to write. One will deal with a younger, hot-head SIlco. Another I'm tempted to play with a Roaring 20's Underground.

Then I have a story that I'm developing into an original gothic novel. I have maybe too much on my plate. LOL

It's moments like this when I wish I didn't have to 'work' a regular job to pay the bills because I would literally write all day, every day.

I can't tell you how much I appreciate you sending me this. It really does brighten my day. That may sound cliche, but it does. I admit I don't have the greatest self-esteem, but I'm working on it.

That someone likes something I've written that much to comment at all and tell me they're re-reading it... my heart is going to explode.

I am working on both Regency Silco stories. When my head doesn't feel like a fog-horn inside of a 100lb bowling ball, I should be in a better space to be creative. It's zapped when you feel exhausted. Working 60hr weeks lately probably hasn't helped my health any.

Thank you again sooooo much for this. Never feel like you're bothering me or weirding me out. I love and embrace all comments, good or critical.

#frags answers #bend but not break #regency silco

[goldenalbum]

Respectfully disagree you saying that Jimin is your ult. You and your anons must be sleeping during FACE era if you didn’t see how vile Jk solos were towards Jimin. Tagging spotify to split LC version, saying the most disgusting and vile things about Jimin because he had 2 remixes, making SA edits about him. Heck forget about 8 months back, it was just 2 days back Jk solos were tweeting that they hope Jimin’s plane crashes while he was returning back from Hungary. They were DMing people and saying horrible things about Jimin just because they praised Jimin after the Stuck With You dance reel. That poor person went private because of that.

That’s how disgusting and deranged JK solos are. And if you didn’t know all this then that it because you are diet solo yourself. At this point I am just going to assume all Jk biased people are akgaes themselves and definitely have an agenda against JM cause tell me why I didn’t see such posts defending Jimin against other solos especially JKs. You are a solo yourself if you are trying to rank which solo is the worst. Where is the post targeted to Jk solos to respect other 6 members since Jk is supposed to love them right? You guys are the precise reason Jk solos get away and have been getting away with their atrocious behaviour towards other members especially Jimin.

bestie you're really unwell if you think you can dictate who my biases are and if i'm a solo or not. that's not how any of this works. i have been a fan of bts since 2015, so how about you respectfully remove yourself from my inbox if youre going to come here trying to tell me about my own damn self.

oh yes look at me the clear jk solo who *checks notes* runs an ot7 blog, talks about how much i love jimin in my private conversations, has jm as my discord pfp, had the url jihopi for years before the temporary change to support jk's album, and plays jimin's songs more than anything else.

also idk why all of yall anons have reading comprehension problems. i never said jm akgaes were worse than jk ones. i never ranked them. for the third time now, i said jm akgaedom has some of the loudest ones, at least here on tumblr which is the only social media site i use. as a fellow jm lover, it really pisses me off. in fact here is me in another private convo almost 2 months ago talking to a non bts friend about how annoying both jm and jk solos are and one month ago mentioning the shit both of them get all the time.

maybe it's BECAUSE jimin is my ult and i am constantly in his tag that i tend to see those posts more, i will admit that much, but for the past few months i can't go one day without seeing someone shit on jk or a post claiming that the world is out to get jm which is just weirdly false. me defending jk, as i would any member, doesn't make me a solo and it's really sad that you think that way.

also where is the post calling out jk solos? literally right here. me calling out all malicious solos is LITERALLY what started the bullshit in my inbox.

but continue pretending like you know literally anything about me and my thoughts. i'm interested in seeing what you'll come up with next.

#ive had like 2 hours of sleep i dont have patience for this #jimin #jungkook #bts #anonymous #replies #discourse #can i get some normal anons lol

[whatthefuckisupwiththat]

i think that maybe we could be getting all of the girls and need as soundtracks for a coming out documentary like how we got only the young in miss americana but that could just be me being insane over them and wanting to hear them really badly

Ugh, I would love that !!!!

I'm thinking the film she's been hinting at is a documentary. And like in the bejeweled mv, didn't she hint that 'exile' was ending? I think this means that karlie is on board with coming out publically and that we're going to get lover era this summer for pride month maybe.

I just can't imagine taylor is comfortable being closeted, I can't imagine she would actively choose that life. I wish I could be openly queer but I can't and that choice hurts me inside everyday. I just dont know if I can look at lover era and think she just changed her mind.

I cant listen to midnight rain, the great war, and right where you left me or dear reader and think she wants this life for herself. I think she knows now that she'll have a fandom no matter what and I think she put out folklore and evermore as a strategic move, because well karlie will definitely listen to them especially with Betty being given special attention.

I think karlie hearing Betty inspired her to reach out and let go of the hatchet. I would love to see them have a public and joint project in this regards because I think the documentary would touch on many important aspects like... queerness, mental health, toxic relationships, and even maybe her ED in more depth. But I also know that taylor wants to be more private nowadays but I don't know if she wants to be private about being forcibly closeted though.

I think the amount of anger she has towards her old label is way bigger than just losing her masters and like if I was to view Taylor's life as a novel, I feel like the masters was almost the inciting incident in a way because I think this situation began in 2014 or 2015, way longer than we think it did. And like idk, if I'm listening to her music correctly- it tells us that we should be focused on more than just the masters situation itself. Like the great war and hoax being 2 sides of the same coin to me is just so heartbreaking to me. I don't know what other I can interpret these songs.

I'm of the belief that if taylor didn't want us talking about it (i.e. her SA) she wouldn't sing about it, so that's kind of where I'm judging her boundaries on what she's okay with us talking about her life online. I think she understands we're reading her lyrics closely, so I think she's been more metaphorical and purple prosey with her lyricism on purpose.

And I think those metaphors just really add so much depth to her songs, like Betty being fictional is great and all but betty being a fictionalized version of events based on a real human is even greater. Like, how do you just dismiss the betty and james connection to taylor and karlie so quickly. It's the kind of thing where once you know, you can't unknow.

And idk, the amount of maturity in her recent albums and especially midnights (as a gaylor who can understand every song on that album accurately, I don't understand why people are calling it mid or her worst album or whatever and I realize that the poppy sound really makes people stop thinking) just points to taylor gaining the courage and strength to hold herself accountable + own up to her past mistakes enough to wear she was able to cross that great divide between the two of them in order to get what she wants. She truly is a mastermind, honestly.

Like, I think she wants to be queer because she's been surrounding herself with very political and very queer people left and right since 2017. I think she wants to be the first bisexual woman billionaire musician film director. Like I think she wants to leave a legacy that is more than just music and that's why she's been branching out and being political and just aligning herself with queer women and black people.

She's making a conscious effort to diversify her surroundings and I applaud her for that. I think she's really tired of her old fandom and her old image and she wants to be her true authentic self because she's just been acting very bisexual very loudly all over the place.

I just would love the heartbreak prince as a documentary. And I would love to hear all of the girls and need because I know they're about Joe's support of her and her desire for him which is exactly the kind of bisexual representation the world needs. 😉

But yeah, I just realllllllllllllllly wanna hear those songs anon because I just always want more lover recognition always. A truly unparalleled era.

#lover #taylor swift #gaylor #toe #midnights #easter eggs #ask and you shall receive #anon love

[solradguy]

I dont get how people switch fandoms n stuff so so fast- I haven't left the creepypasta or like- fnaf fandoms since like 2015-2016- and I doubt I'll be leaving this one either- how do people not latch onto things 2 the point it consumes apart of them n fundamentally changes them as a person 2 some degree 😔😔 ~pumpkin anon

Yeah it's always interesting to me too when people are in like a different fandom every other month, idk how they do it haha For me, when I get bored of a series it's usually because I ran out of new stuff to go over. Like I was REALLY into Berserk for a while but then I caught up on the manga (around the infamous boat arc......), then the 2016 anime came out and it sucked and I just got bored and moved on... It didn't have much of a creative community (outside of Japan) either so there weren't fan works to tide me over between official updates, unlike with GG.

Maybe some people go through that cycle really fast?

#asks #Dude there are SO MANY Guilty Gear doujinshi out there #When I was looking for Sol-O' doujins the other day I found this site that specialized in selling them to western markets (otakurepublic) #And there were like 5 or 6 pages of GG doujinshi. Most of them were sfw too haha #There were a few other Sol ones I really wanted but they're kind of expensive... Shipping was super nice though; $10usd w/tracking #I have so much conflict in my heart when it comes to doujinshi #Part of me really wants to archive them because it's super easy for these works to become lost media forever #But another part of me wants to respect the artists' wishes too by not publicly scanlating them.... #I think a compromise might be just scanlating the ones over/near 20 years old like the Sol/Ky one I already have #Ahh tangent in the tags lol

[jechristine]

I’m not sure if this has been talked about extensively by any blogs yet before but I just kinda wanted to get this off my chest so bear with me—- am I the only one who finds the whole mainstream opinion of “Tom is so lucky / should be grateful she’s dating Zendaya'' a tad bit overblown? I’m saying this as someone who has been a big fan of Z since 2015. I also like Tom, not really necessarily a ‘big fan’ of him necessarily but I like him enough especially since he is literally Z’s boyfriend. It’s also caused me to pretty much be updated with Tomdaya’s extensive history that goes way back up to present day.

That being said, it has always bothered me a bit when people always talk about Tom like he’s so “lucky” to be dating her like she's some kind of trophy like wtf? I’m gonna cut locals some slack coz they don’t really know anything, however I am kind of directly talking to fellow Z stans who are aware of Tomdaya’s history (especially the ones who just tolerate Tom I guess). It always feels like, reading opinions on social media especially twitter, people seem to look down on him or how he’s ‘not worthy enough’ for Z. There’s always tweets of people making fun of him about his height, his lips, looks etc. (or those viral tweets i.e. “How did this mf bag Zendaya??” and the like). Well, I guess I kind of understand why most folks see it that way tho, Z has built up this perfect, queen-like, goddess public persona to the public, and how she's out of everyone's league. Meanwhile Tom is always seen as this dorky and goofy dude along with the traits I mentioned that ppl make fun of him for. But I mean…

Why is almost no one talking about it the other way around or atleast idk, give Tom a little credit? Especially with all the limited information that we have about Tom always trying to make time for her and being a good boyfriend (kc undercover visits, euphoria s1 and s2 visits, photoshoot visits,, visiting her in LA even off work, surprising her in Rome, making the effort to see eachother weekly etc etc.).

As biased as I am for Z like 99% of the time, this is the rare 1% of me trying to acknowledge Tom positively for a change since I am kinda guilty of looking down on him in that way in the past too.I just realized how much we put Z on this high ‘queen’ pedestal, while unfairly looking down on Tom as this ‘little midget British dude with no lips’ like he should be lucky to date her just based on looks. I’m not saying one should be ‘luckier’ than the other, but what I am saying is that they are definitely lucky blessed to have each other. There’s more to a relationship than just physical looks as I have pointed out with the ‘boyfriend material’ info we know about that Tom does for Z.

I don’t really know if I articulated that well (probably not) but I just needed to ramble and get that off my chest, I hope no one misinterpreted all that but if it any one did then sorry lol

Thanks, Anon. Yeah I agree that the pedestal stuff is dehumanizing. It’s really closely related to the Madonna/whore complex that has reduced women to objects for male consumption & use for centuries.

Zendaya’s a whole person. She probably has gross morning breath, and she’s probably in a bad mood and an asshole sometimes because she’s human. Tom’s maybe lucky in that he’s likely found his person and early, but he’s making a relationship work just like Zendaya is, and that takes way more than some initial luck. Luck also often implies that the event is over, but Tom and Zendaya are continuing to grow and learn and argue and compromise and…all the things.