#idk maybe Im just weird lol

[bestiarum]

idk how to properly articulate it but recently whenever i watch a show or movie i get this strange sense that the characters don’t belong in their environment. and i don’t mean it in an artistic choice sort of way (like when characters are purposefully isolated etc) but rather that they’re not really people in a world but actors in a place. and this maybe doesn’t break immersion per se but it always feels a bit off. cause in a play for example you get a similar thing but there it’s natural. in movies it is not. and this might be connected to the continuous decline of set designs and the omnipresent green screen but i think i got a greater sense of immersion when the skies were unmoving and the rocks were made of polystyrene so. maybe the problem lies elsewhere

#idk maybe im just weird lol #but yeah #black sails ofc is an exception to this

[tomboyyyaoi]

#i need to draw a post trimax vamery every so often so i dont explode #i was trying smth new here excuse that its a bit weird #ok so allow me to ramble in tags a bit #imdesperate to push my art in a different direction im getting really sick of how it looks and feels at the moment #im so so so thankful for everyones support but i feel if i cant make art i like then im going to struggle making it #so i want to make art i love looking at and making #so expect either a bit more inactivity on the art front maybe. or maybe the opposite if all goes well idk #coz im just not having fun making what im making rn #anyway lol vamery #trigun #vashmeryl #trigun maximum #meryl stryfe #vash the stampede #my silly art #id in alt text

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[buwheal]

eeeyyyy, got bored and tried to draw you from memory.

how good is my memmory?

#goldfish equivalent /j #Love this one too lol hes so shapely #as neat as these types of asks are they are SO HARDDD to create a response for cause i dont want him to be a total asshole about it #because that'd suck and im not THAT THAT evil #anyways we're (kinda) back in it #i finished this yesterday but didnt have dialogue written yet lol #man this ask is oooollld #sorry i took so damn long with doing the askbox again :-P #if this one seems off then its the dialogue idk what whats up with it but i was struggling cause something was weird but no clue what. #Maybe its just been too long since i did the last one so im thrown off idk. #spamton #[you've got mail!] #spamton g spamton #deltarune #deltarune spamton #deltarune chapter 2 #spamton fanart #wtf Bu actually does the askbox for once?? outrageous.

[surlifen]

new sona ref at long last! and I named him finally (sort of) (was stuck between two so I've uploaded different versions of the ref in different places LMAO)

just in time for artfight teehee

#character design #am i allowed to say i listen to mcr if its literally exclusively danger days #god tumblr when i tell you i struggled HARD with names. #i like finlo because it can be nicknamed fin‚ it's irish‚ and it means fair haired sun god #and im blond. and im suncoded. and im irish #but i also love salt because it's weird‚ i like the sound better‚ and it has more of a furry name vibe #obviously both have beachy vibes because “fin” and seasalt #so idk maybe finlo is his Real Name and fin and salt are nicknames i just worry i cant communicate that clearly lol #BUT ANYWAY. HES ME. i traced pics of myself as studies for this #its cool to have a sona w my actual body type that i really like! not that i have a particularly stigmatized body type not even close but #IDK. FURRIES ARE LIKE TWIGS USUALLY and i am STOUT #real bleedy ink pen

[rewritingcanon]

no girl tell us what you think about jegulily!! im so here for it (tone is weird but I mean that genuinely, I don't ship them so I'm not here to be weird)

dw bae ur tone is fine ! (i’ve been waiting for an ask like this 💀) i think jegulily is... yeah its…. like usually as long as its legal idgaf as long as shippers portray their characters right but regulus fans are literally incapable 😭🙏 WHY WOULD U PAIR A MUGGLEBORN AND A BLOOD SUPREMACIST IM SO DONE WITH DIS FANDOMMMM!! that actually goes for a lot of lily ships like bartylily as well (no clue where that came from either but it’s equally as stupid lmfao).

and jegulily just feels like shoving in lily because people feel bad for ditching her, or shoving in regulus because some people like jily and jegulus and want them (for some reason) to coincide even though it makes zeroooo sense for it to. like, idk if i said this with jegulus before (i yap sm on this account i forget what i say), but like it, jegulily can be done well if a realistic dynamic is taken into account, but the marauders fandom is allergic to nuance and so just chalks up everything regulus does and believes to his neglectful homelife. hes not all-bad, sure, i do feel bad for him, but im nowhere close to shipping him with a woman whos part of the people hes trying to eradicate, or with her man who purposefully went against all pureblood tradition (which is such a large part of james’ character— he is a pureblood that chooses to be seperate from that culture hellooooo plz wake uppppp).

marauders fandom has a chronic “i can fix him” mentality when it comes to wizard neo nazis, i have never understood it. but thats a topic for another day.

jegulily should be filled with envy, toxicity and prejudice stop nerfing it to be some fluffy feel-good polyamorous stable marriage where they raise harry together. yall are looking over the potential. this ship has blood and guts in it plz act like it or else idk what to say 😭 if it doesnt end with at least one of them getting murdered i dont want it.

#imho ​it just feels willfully ignorant of all three characters to ship them #this goes with most the regulus ships tbh except like bartylus. bcuz barty is just terrible too LOL #just characterise ur characters right people. not to majority fanon interpretation but to who they are CANONLY #you may think its less fun but to me. that’s honestly what makes those three so appealing #+its generally important to understand the media u consume. and yes. that means harry potter as a book series if ur in the marauders fandom #u are not seperate from the hp books if u are attached to its characters (no matter how far youve spun their personalities away) #on a seperate note people are allowed to ship what they want and im being lowkey serious when i say im not gonna find someone weird if they- #-ship something as long as its legal #maybe some jegulily people follow me so let me just say i dont hate the shippers i just heavily dislike the ship 😭 #worse than jegulus but somehow less annoying idk how to explain it #harry potter #hp #marauders #marauders era #anti jegulus #anti jegulily #lily evans #jily #pro jily #james potter #lily potter #regulus black #anti regulus black #the marauders era #the marauders #ask #anon #rewriting #tyyyy anon for the ask i luv to yap 🫶🫶

[arinmoss]

Lilith wip (he/him!)

#oc #original character #i never posted this here i guess lol #anyways heres my guy Lilith he has a terrible personality and works at some shitty jo bin a seaside town and meets this mermaid creature #life for him gets weird idk it story is v vague as of right now lmao #i just know that he used to be kind of a normal character but then iw as like what if he was kinda horrible #anyways this wip is VERY old and im very mad i never got to finish it cause there is so much i want to fix -____- #anyways i love giving my boys long hair and a bang moment lmao #prettyfying every oc i have #hes also missing earrings -__- #art #digital art #sketch #wip #work in progress #trans oc #trans masc #trans man? maybe? stilll figuring that out #in the story itself hes explorign that sorta thing idk maybe he's a dude but like only a little lol #who knows man

[sea-jello]

Day 21/October 21: Day of the Departed || Reminisce (??)

GRAHH ITS STILL THE 21ST SOMEWHERE i’m apparently using morrotober to try new things this one’s a new lineart brush that i’m sorta warming up to and the POSE and the BACKGROUND and the LIGHTING i’m surprised i finished this at all tbh. and also new morro design

bg lineart and sword vs neither plus the green ghost fog thing i do basically if you zoom in really really close the lines aren’t smooth on the lineless bgs but icba the pedestal can be chipped or something. i kinda like without the sword and fog cause it gives him a more isolated feel yk (that was my original idea lmao)

this one’s my attempt at funky mannequin hands

#i was sorta going for a reminiscey vibe #if you squint he’s looking at the sword #at least that’s what i tried to do #i’m pretty sure reminisce is looking back on good things tho so maybe not #i just now realized the sword would make more sense facing the other way but whatever we ball #alo if you see this these were the hands i wanted to do w your dtiys but i couldn’t figure it out so i stuck the sword onto him lol #SPEAKING OF HANDS I DID THEM MYSELF WITH NO REF AND IM KINDA PROUD OF THEM #LOOK WHERE WE ARE NOW IMPROVEMENT BABY #at least i hope these things are kinda one and done #I ALSO DID THE POSE WITH NO REF although that one may be evident #i actually did everything other than the bg with no ref #i was coloring the bg in the dark so i hope the colors aren’t too wack i just eyedropped and prayed #the texture is weird idk how i did that #deadass i think i was coloring for like 5 hours straight #i actually kinda like the fog thing the outline reminds me a bit of the preeminent #ninjargon just says morro if you want to know about that #ninjago #lego ninjago #morro ninjago #ninjago morro #morro wu #morrotober 2023 #morrotober2023 #morrotober #ninjago dotd #day of the departed #i had more doodles and a comic for previous prompts but i got intimidated by the comic and got stuck doom scrolling instead #i’ll finish them when i have the time #and pick my ass up to tackle the comic #maybe i’ll just post it for myself instead of morrotober

[ganondoodle]

back on my zelda thoughts

idk about you but i got sick of zelda running after people with big sorrowful puppy eyes begging them to listen to her(they wont) or to help link in totk pretty fast

#ganondoodles talks #totk spoilers #i just can stop thinking about how dirty she got done #she can be a tragic character without being constantly sad and scared #dare i say she contributed more positive to the game when she was a dragon #the only scenes she didnt look super sad was pretty much when talking about link at the teacup memory bc .. you know she actually knows him #and where shes essentially forced to decide to half kill herself in order to do literally anything for her own time #now that im thinking about it how the heck did anything on the tutorial even work with her giving her powers to you #and you sending the master sword to her #just feels like they scrambled to somehow get you her pwoers and the mastersword to her #some random bubbles of time magic idk lol #if the game went different #wouldnt it have been cool if those had been caused by zelda learning how to reastablish a connection to her own time #creating those weird time bubbles #and through the course of the game you find more and they let you interact with her more and more as shes learning how to use her powers #until at some point she finds a way to return herself #maybe even her spirit as a companion for a time before she gains control of it further #you know so she can actually at least TALK to you #giving her time powers out of nowehre and then not doing anything with it exept send her back in time somehow and time reverse a dagger #like what #wouldnt it just have made more sense when at first she did it unknowningly and then learned how to use it herself #and then .... well travel back again #ham fisted way to introduce a neat lil game gimmick i guess #and nothing more bc how dare she do anything on her own except .. sacrifice herself lol #i guess its meant ot be uwu tragic bc sonia got fridged too quickly for zelda to learn from her or whatever #which is why i said she learns on her own #idk man this game is driving me nuts

[skunkes]

doing figure drawing studies because i know thats what i should be doing right now but also ive been in a very insane deranged state for the past 2 months that leaves me like this whenever i look at a man for too long

#talkys #im gonna say some more stuff here which is i dont think its ever going to happen for me which is like #it should be fine right...i dont think im even meant to be in a relationship it sounds exhausting and like another #constant neverending performance... #but its like that one post...''im happy by myself but also where's the love of my life'' #ykwim...i wish i could at least make an informed decision #but that would also be tragic as it'd require me to go thru more heartbreak so i could know for certain #is it better to do it or not do it at all... #anyway ive also been having a hard time putting this into words #but. i like my alone time! i can live with myself. + nothing will ever beat the peace and romance in my brain #but. it also feels so weird to think this way. in the sense of like. yeah. you're only thinking this way because you Have To. #because that's your reality. other ppl don't have to think this way because they are capable of finding love. #other people dont have to reaffirm themself of this in the wake of not ever being desired and valued.... #does that make sense...? it feels really weird. #like of course u have to like being alone and spending time with yourself. you have no other choice lol. you lost. #and also... idk. idealized romances in my brain better than anything maybe i would like to be held just once by another living human being. #🌺

[skeletorswaifu]

Is it just me or do you also wanna throw up when someone calls THEMSELVES a mama/mother witch?

#its just weird i guess #im always suspicious of them #i immediately dont trust them #is that strange? #in certain context surely its fine #but...just...out of the blue #hello! im a mother witch #no thanks #ill stick with my chaotic aunt #idk maybe im being harsh #but like...nicknames are given right? ots wierd when someone gives themselves a title that seems like jt should be earned #the only self given nickname i like #pitbull as mr worldwide #thats it #thats the one #witch community #should i prepare for attack #lol 🤣 #witchblr

[kirbydaily]

not a question but KIRBYTOBER IS ALMOST OVER YOU GOT THIS ✨✨

still drawing him every day once its over. i have to continue my legacy

#not daily #asks #i am pretty happy with all the art i made for it so far though #i tried to put extra effort into the dailies this month for the most part i hope its clear lol #timing is just weird bc i am moving into a new apartment now #but i still want to do something big for the last prompt even tho idk who im drawing yet LOL #maybe i'll set up a poll for that or something

[aphsillyos]

silly lil designs for pf ez and aphelios blending into piltover :]

#me arts tag #i was going to draw smth a bit more substantial but i need a nap :'D #the monocle and glasses are just their visors disguised somehow #and the weird half vest? design for ezreal.. i imagine half of it tears off/opens (like buttons or smth) #to accommodate his arm cannon transforming. actually i imagine both their outfits kinda work like that #tearaway clothes for their pulsefire equipment somehow #although im imagining the pulsefire tech might be able to make some illusion/disguise clothes.. transforming tech? who knows #realistically im sure aphelios would cover up the glowing marks on his face but it also looked odd w/o his face markings so i just left em #ezreal monocle doesnt look as silly as i thought... maybe he should wear one normally #im meh on aphelios's coat design but maybe ill rerereredesign into oblivion... LOL #wanted to give him more of like a pilot jacket originally but idk what his vibe is. goofy lil guy. what fashion even suits you #OH.... I GUESS. HE NEEDS HIS SCARF.... ill fix it at some point probably maybe sure #i think it'd be a bit funny if ezreal is unintentionally a fashion/style person #just bc of how much blending in with timelines and worlds and stuff hes done #he just ended up absorbing so much fashion knowledge #aphelios or ekko points it out at some point and hes like. huh. im not into fashion #(said while reading a hefty book on fashion history for whatever location theyre at) #yeah im sure PEARL probably has built in search engine stuff #but ezreal just strikes me as the type of guy to research and memorize/learn stuff #''just in case i lose access to PEARL's database again'' or whatever #im sure thats probably happened like 100 times #so random but i feel like aphelios has the vibe of a guy you wanna dress up in various outfits #but also hes like :) (just happy to be included/present) so he doesnt mind #you put a goofy souvenir shop floppy hat on him and hes like. :) #my aphelios hcs are nonsense im so sorry. i want him to be happy #pulsefire ezreal #pulsefire aphelios #pulsefire #aphelios #ezreal

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Au idea: Little Naruto raised by a shulk, Kurama made contact very early and kept the boy company and eventually Naruto disappeared into the forest to live with fox summons. He only ever really showed up to steal or pull pranks but he disappeared right into the summons realm before anyone could catch him.

When the Genin are ready to graduate Naruto is just there, with his wild hair and fox aunt.

Iruka doesn’t know how to respond to this, he’s blue screened.

:-)

#u would have to have him vanish maybe within a year of thr Uchiha massicure #say he was in danger. the seal gets messed up so his 9 tails chakra goes all weird andand idk kurama calls in a bunch of foxes to get him #outta there. and bc im an iruka simp we can say iruka was on his way to help but wasnt fast enough. but they still have the existing #relationship bc Iruka's been his teacher for like almost 2 years and has treated him like a human #then he spends like 3yrs? with the foxes. learning from stollen scrolls. and shows up for the genin exam #and they say he can take the exam if he spends a few days in class with the other kids and iruka deems him eligible #then he passes so u dont get the big mizuki scene bit iruka keeps hanging around bc he felt so horrible abt naruto disappearing #so naruto is more competent earlier bc kurama is working with him. but is more influenced by the 9tails anger and has to be drawn away #from thst by iruka and team 7. lol there. thats how i would justify this #naruto #uzumaki naruto #umino iruka #also i just like the idea of foxes buying ramen with money and teuchi just being like. sure. ok. i guess i serve carry out to foxes now #also i feel like fox summons just like normal foxes and only communicate in the heads of those they wanna talk to #sneaky telepaths

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up” #“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “ #“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol” #he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!! #anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy??? #this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment. #anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.” #bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you. #like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously. #but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess. #its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬