#idk i wish i could be more like that to my online friends but typing thigns out is different then in voice

[cock-holliday]

Idk man it’s so easy to get bogged down in all the bullshit online but when my then-6 year old cousin found out I was trans he said “ok” then corrected my grandma when she misgendered me. I was once the third between a gay man and a lesbian. Two lesbians once invited me back to their place when I presented as a man. I met an AMAB nb butch who looked strikingly to outsiders like a cis man and it was one of the more sapphic experiences I’ve had. I nervously wore a boydyke shirt to pride and got 3 different cis-looking femme folks tell me they loved my shirt. I once told a trans group at a protest that any pronouns were fine for me and one person said “wow, I’m impressed and intimidated by people like that. I don’t know that I could be that chill with pronouns.” I once told a GNC friend I wished I could wear a type of “opposite” gender clothing after I had already transitioned and so it would be associated with my AGAB and he said “You could just do it.” I’ve had cishet men fight cops for me before. The first time I had a doctor ask me if my name was different than what was on my forms I had to try not to cry. Last week, a phone call with a doctor’s office where I am generally cis passing asked unprompted if my name listed is what I want to be called. It touched me then too. I told a lesbian friend once I felt like my attraction to men AND women both felt gay. She said “makes sense.” And we moved on. I go by different pronouns in different circles. I’ve had gay women love my facial hair. I’ve had gay men like my tits. It’s all out there, I promise. It can be hard to find it but I promise there is community like you and community who likes you. And it’s more messy and beautiful than tumblr discourse makes it out to be.

#LJsm

[aguineapigcouldntdothis]

a general guide on how to research things online beyond just looking at a few tweets (this doesn't apply for every single thing you search but i hope it's helpful for anyone researching current events, history, science, or anything that's complex enough to warrant something more than a quick google search):

have inspiration for what you wanna research. doesnt matter where it came from it could be that random tweet you just saw! now, find a source that relates to what that inspiration said

find at least two more sources that are directly related to your first source. i like to use the "two is a coincidence, three is a pattern" rule.

examine the people who created your sources! who wrote them? are there any other prominent figures included? what are their credentials? what is their expertise? do they have enough experience in this topic to be discussing it? you can use these questions as a guideline but please please feel free to diverge. the main thing you wanna see is: is there anyone involved in this source who knows enough about this topic to be talking about it.

examine the places in which your sources are published! what are their biases? are those biases present in these sources? what type of information do they usually release? one question i like to ask is "how badly would they be fucked if they got a major fact wrong" this can range from a blogger who may get a few angry comments, to a writer of a huge news source who could be fired and not hired again for a similar position ever. this can help judge how important fact-accuracy is to that specific source.

☆ 3-4 are good steps to use google a lot, which you can honestly do in any of these steps but these particular ones lend themselves nicely to googling the fuck out of things.

5. analysis time! this is my favorite i love it but it can be a fucking pain especially when you're still figuring it out. basically what you want to know is what are these sources trying to do, what are they actually doing, and how do they tie together. sometimes this is really easy! sometimes all of your sources have the same overarching story, the same fact included, etc. however that's not always the case and sometimes you've gotta dig a little deeper to find those strong connections. and other times you'll have a source you thought was good but it just doesnt fit in, so it's time to scrap it and find a new one. this is your time to be super fucking nitpicky about details in the spirit of high school english classes.

6. now put all that together! you have your sources, you have overarching information you learnt, and possibly some specific information too! now you can share that if you wish or not share it.

"my guinea pig loving friend", you may be asking, "doesn't that mean I'll have less information to share"

abso-fucking-lutely it does, yet the information you do share will be a lot more carefully thought out and most likely better. every piece of information you share has the capacity to affect someone and being mindful about sharing proper info can reduce negative impacts. you will fuck up sometimes and that's super normal however you can avoid fuck ups by being careful about the information you believe and share.

i hope this helped someone! idk if it will this is just shit ive used and i think it works well. i might include an example in a reblog if i can find a topic to base it on sadly i am tired and that's not my problem rn

#information #information literacy

[pinkeebunnie]

Just venting cus my dad came to visit in the weekend...

Having to fight SSDI for so many years to no avail and now Im having to fight to get more food stamps. I'm not able to ever live independently because I'm multiply disabled. It's hard to live here with the lack of services/resources or I just outright wont qualify for most(Texas sucks), Idk if I should even bother anymore.

Having no close family or ever having friends irl, and just lost two online friends cus of me being too dumb and scared. It gets so lonely and frustrating being bed ridden and in pain everyday :(

Atp I don't have much hope to get away from being financially dependent on my father who controls so much of my life for the worse. Recently he took whatever independence I have left by denying me access to a wheelchair unless I prove that I am disabled enough for him to get me one. When he has personally seen me struggling to walk and become incredibly ill during the summers... He blames me for not "getting my life together" even though I've begged for help for over a year and him ignoring me, so I just stopped asking at all. He acts like he's done so much for me despite the many types of neglect and abuse he's put me through my whole life.

I'm just so tired, I wish I could just live in roblox games I love playing instead of being stuck in this situation. ;(

DNI If: anti-agere/petre, nsfw,("sfw")kink, fetish, ddlg+variants, abdl, dualcom, (no)maps, zoos, proship, pedos, bigotry, anti-LGBTQIA+/exclusionists, fatphobic, pro- ed/sh

#agere vent #chronic illness #mexicanagere #chronic pain #sfw interaction only #cpunk #age regression #pet regression #actually disabled #vent post

[strobarium]

erin's thoughts on "paper angel."

the first post on the strobarium! how nice. (SPOILERS AHEAD.)

(eyestraining colors ahoy, dereality-type stuff is mentioned)

youtube recommended me a video i really, really enjoy by this youtuber named Mara. it's well over an hour long and she talks a lot about her experiences with outsider art and mixed media, among other things. its worth a watch if you do like long-winded video essays about...STUFF. i guess

thats only partially relevant, though. i bring the video up because within it, she talks about the game in question today, briefly. the visuals struck a chord with me, and the seemingly abstract narrative being more or less promoted my way was very intriguing and had me interested in getting my hands on it.

you already picked up the title from the title of the post but i like using big font!

"Paper Angel," by Slitherbop.

(love that title screen, wow.)

Slitherbop, or, Slither, is a 25-year old surrealist illustrator based in Sasketchewan, Canada, from what his Neocities homepage states. he has an absolute ton of really colorful and trippy art spread out across several pages, but i feel the most of them you'd find on his tumblr page. i'd recommend looking into if you're...well i mean if you're even READING THIS you're prob into the same type shit i be on, yeah. lol. anyway,

Slither has OCs. (commonplace amongst contemporary illustrators online, if you've noticed) One of them, is the focus of the game i'm going to write a lot about.

Spinwhim! (they/them)

(god, look at them.)

taken from Slither's toyhou.se (toyhou.se is more or less an original character database tool that illustrators like to use, a lot, to log their OCs and stuff)

"Spinwhim is a powerful healer and grand storyteller. They’re very kind, outgoing, and wacky. They like to travel all around to help others. Their intense curiosity and passion makes them meddlesome. They can focus and see the world on a cellular level, which is utilized in healing and creating. Good :-)"

they, are more or less the focal point of the entire visual novel. it's a treat that they are, their design is great (much as it does change over the course of the game,) and i generally do like their demeanor and how they interact with me, the player.

speaking of the player, i don't really know who i play as! it's a blank-slate type deal. i speak very vaguely and generally i think im depicted as rather confused seeming/"out-of-it."

competent enough to prepare soup for an ill spinwhim though. OH right. plot stuff. i should get into that-

...well, actually the plot's not really super complex. you're there with spinwhim in this house within this elaborately colorful world and you're essentially nursing them back to health. its said in game you spend about a week with them.

...

i didn't even get to experience the whole week but i just. i have this incredible draw towards them.

it's not really a surprise to me that any motherly (well, or even fatherly) figure with this type of benevolent, reassuring and friendly aura just resonates with me: as i kind of allude to in the preface, i've had familial...struggles in the past and i more or less continue to, especially as it relates to how i feel about my biological parents. its complex and i don't think i could really get into it fully no matter the medium, idk.

spinwhim is just nice to experience speaking to me even if it is confined to the limitations of a RPG Maker VX Ace-created visual novel. (shoutout RPG Maker also, wow, interactive outsider art people love this program a lot i have learned LOL.) as i'm taking care of them, they note how good of a job i'm doing, and even how helpful i've been to the recovery process they're going through relating to the unknown illness they have. i'm even just complimented in general regarding my demeanor and whatnot... i really do wish they were someone i could come to for comfort like i do a fair amnt of my friends, or romantic partners. it would be nice.

what, really sealed the deal, was the twist.

after seemingly, fully recovering from their illness, they're up and at it and in a different fit than normal, to boot. they say they cleared a path to head into town (the whole duration of the game, some apparently severe snowy weather was hitting your gen. location) and that they're excited to go.

they ask me if i want to come with.

so, OF FUCKING COURSE i hit go with. lol

after expressing excitement that i actually did want to go with, they ask me to come closer.

they recount how horrible it was living the way they were, prior. that their head was "caving in" and that they were "boiling" and "lethargic." sounds pretty tough. but after that, they hit me with this revelation:

i was... CREATED???

(the actual verbiage and whatnot they use to talk about everything from this point forward is genuinely just breathtaking also as a side note)

it especially explains the demeanor they've had toward me throughout the game, like i kinda said earlier, very motherly overall. i felt loved. it was sincerely nice. but then it gets even more emotional frm there for me...they say this:

"When I say I want you to come with me, I mean I want to absorb you back into me. You will be returning from where you came. Your thoughts will be my thoughts again, and it will be like a dream to me. It will be wonderful…"

was given a choice.

ONCE AGAIN. OF FUCKING COURSE I HIT YES.

this part just made me tear up a little-the response i got:

"Oh, my beautiful apple. You will no longer live in this confusion of yours. You will be safe."

i basically immediately realized what was happening to me and why it was hitting me so damn hard.

...

it's basically no secret at this point (i make sure its not) that i'm, dissociative. to the extent i fucking formed 10+ people in my head about it. lol. that being said, i'm all-too familiar with what it's like to just be, broken, split apart, fractured.

Its Not Great !

i lucked out, with my system. (there's a lot to it but this dissociative disorder shit can REALLY BE TOUGH depending on a lot of circumstances. well its tough Already, but yeah) i only (at the time of writing) deal with one alter who more or less has it out for me, and the rest of us. that makes it so that i have pretty much 12 additional friends just kind of in my noggin at every given moment. it's pretty cool-things are even such a way regarding how we work that they can just talk to me and my friends rather fluidly. it can result in a lot of shenanigans.

but the road to which led them all to forming was fucking crazy and shitty. i won't go into details i guess here but dissociative disorders are most of the time traumagenic, to give you an idea. its not great, as i said earlier. theres just a lot to OSDD that i don't like, the memory issues i regularly have come to mind, along with me feeling detached from the world, other things. blegh.

that considered along with , complex (negative) feelings abt family shit considered it's probably just, obvious as hell why this scene resonates with me so much.

(had this revelation while getting screenshots for this post but the character they're hugging which i can only assume is the player looks alarmingly like one of my oldest sonas. made everything hit a lil harder for me)

i feel like a broken soul. and i yearn to be whole, again.

i don't think i would have taken up this oppurtunity irl if i was granted it given how much i do enjoy about being my own person who does things and whatnot but the thought lingers. getting to live it out to some degree thru this lil mini interactive artpiece just proved very therapeutic to me. i discovered it very early in the morning, and didnt really talk to anyone about it until after i experienced it. going through all of that solitarily, in my blue-lit room (thank you phillips for the hue bulb. Lol) just did a lot for me. i'm very, very thankful.

(should also note the same day i played the game i also took a phone call frm my mom and we talked about life stuff. it kinda hurt. to quote frm a more primitive form of this writeup "she used to bring me great comfort in my youth, during times i really needed it. complex feelings have led to a rift between us, that she can't even see. that i don't even, know if i want her to see." kinda says everything ig)

it was a nice escape from everything i'm generally going through at the moment, broadly. the process of recovery has proven to be fucking insane and full of all sorts of surprises on top of a very unpleasant yet expected amount of moments ive been faced with my absolutely, less pleasant qualities to my personality and bad habits and such. it sucks, but im at least...well i like to THINK im at least angled toward being better about shit but i don't know. i'm still learning. it's tough and i know i'm not alone when it comes to CPTSD recovery or dissociative disorder coping or bipolar disorder coping or whatever the hell else, but it really just, feels cold and solitary a lot of the time regardless. it's tough. it really is tough.

im just glad i found this little game. any sort of respite that appeals to me to that degree is just very appreciated.

i almost thought it was some strange divine shit going down in my life that led me to even stumbling upon it, the way it hit me. didn't lead to any i guess new revelations about my life or whatever, which is fine!

but. i liked it. it's nice.

i'm grateful. :)

slitherbop, if you're reading this, thank you. sincerely. from the bottom of my heart.

also plz more acid glitch parenting moment's plz (lol)

~ E.K.S.G.

#erin experiences #slitherbop #visual novel #outsider art #Youtube

[starsmuserainbow]

Sorry for going so very, very much off-anyrealtopic here. This is not IC, not about anyone here but myself, I just need to get something off my chest about, well, in a way personal stuff but also, societies or idk what exactly, and this is my place to get stuff out.

Idk what I should tag this as, so consider this the only "warning" I can give. Simple said, it's probably better if you don't click the readmore. I probably won't feel comfortable having shared all this by tomorrow or at least next week or something, anyway.

Why. Why why why do things always have to be about money? Always, everything.

I never mention this on here really, and I don't wanna go into details here either, but basically, I don't have my own income and live through support from my family. Not that my family is rich, very much the opposite, it's basically that everyone gives up some things just for me so that I can live like this. Which, I do feel horrible for, but I also do not want to give up the "state of life" I'm in/having currently. Don't ask me to explain (if you do ask, I might try to explain my thoughts a little, but I don't really wanna make this too prominent a topic on my blog because in the end that's not what anyone is here for), judge me if you must, but I just felt the need to add this for clarification or something. Idk. I wish I could properly talk about this to anyone but if I myself feel horrible about it - not sure if by my own conscience or what, or more because of knowing and having heard often enough what other people think of this type of living - and I know what the "common sense" about these things is, how am I supposed to even consider properly talking about this to anyone.

Why is it so difficult for states or whatever to just make it so everyone, absolutely everyone, gets just enough money to come by? For all these important things like food, healthcare and, idk, power and warmth or something, and like, just the bare minimum. Without any need for anyone to "do" something for it alike applying for jobs or doing side jobs or whatever. Just a general funding to keep people alive and okay. Like, if it's just for really the bare minimum with very little leeway for anything out of the ordinary (maybe if you save up for a while you can afford some new machine or device or whatever, the likes, but basically it takes a while to save anything much), I'm sure not many people would be happy or satisfied with it, and outside of that I think that most people actually want to and "have to" work out of what they themselves feel the need/urge to do "with their lives" or something anyway, so "everyone would do it then" is not an explanation. And like, those like me, that just want to live and experience some (small) things here and there that I can save up for if I do so really carefully, could live in peace with that and without having to be forced into things and suffering through like idk shtty work or not being able to pay for whatever necessary stuff, or something.

I just, I just. I just want to live in peace, be able to eat and survive and play some games and/or do my writing and iconing and watch shows or whatever. I don't need travels or big events or anything like that, I just want to live my life on my own - well, with my family, but, yknowwhatImean. I don't want much. I don't need much. I know I'm not social. I never was. I always was a loner, I never liked being among people (except for family, which is different). I have no (RL-)friends. I like my online-"friends" or contacts, I don't need more or anything else.

I wish there'd be an easy way to have like a little bit of (passive?) income through whatever online or the likes way so I could live this life I want, without having to live off of others. If it would be possible, I'd rather live "off the state" than off my family, but it's not as simple as it might sound.

If anyone actually reads this, I'm already expecting to get/hear, idk, insults or mean comments or something about being lazy and whatever, or who knows if I get especially unlucky many of you will decide that they don't want a person like this on their following/mutual-list and I end up having like no mutuals anymore by tomorrow or whatever, but, something brought all this back up inside of me today and I just have to scream it into the void somewhere.

#✫ Out of Characters ✫ | OOC

[cookinguptales]

I found you through AO3 bc your nandermo fics devastated me and really helped kick off my newest special interest and I enjoy your metas a lot. I was sad when I saw your post about being disheartened by lack of interaction. I really struggle to communicate, especially online and especially when going through things, but I wanted to say that I really like what you write and your insight and thank you for creating. I wish I could interact more often and more specifically than leaving kudos. I had a moment of social energy and I wanted to use it to send this since I’ve been thinking about your post for awhile. Sorry for rambling awkwardly, just thanks.

I really appreciate that you put the effort into sending me this message, especially because it sounds like it's not something that's necessarily easy for you to do. That was really kind. Thank you.

I was mostly talking about wider fandom trends and my experiences in other fandoms; like I mentioned in the post, wwdits fandom has actually been one of the best experiences I've had in fandom in years. (Uh. Certain anons aside. lmao.) I get more interaction here than I have in a long time, and it's one reason why I keep writing fic and meta.

I will say that it's still... frustrating, I guess, the way that social media is kind of where fic goes to die these days, even in wwdits fandom. I do still think it's largely because you have to click off the "social" site to read the fic, and AO3 in and of itself was not meant for extensive social interaction. So you do still lose out on the kinds of social interaction that other kinds of fanwork (including meta, for that matter) seem to enjoy.

I would say that the way my meta is received vs. the way my fic is received is drastically different, and I really didn't start making as many friends on tumblr until I started posting it. The fic was definitely not enough, no matter how many people enjoyed it. Again, they might list me as an author that they enjoyed, but not an actual fellow fan that they liked to interact with. I guess that's the part that's a bummer. There is a more collaborative feel to certain kinds of fanwork, and fanfic used to have that feel.

Now, though, it can be very isolating and I do see a tendency to separate author from fanwork. That can feel weirdly like erasure, like people don't want you to exist, only the work you can give them. I've even seen people complain that author's notes exist because they don't want anything to "distract" from the fic. Like an artist existing distracts from the art...? That's frustrating.

I do think it's related to greater trends re: nonconsensual commodification of art, pressure to commodify hobbies, monetization of fandom, art as "content/product" and art enjoyers as "consumer/customer", etc. It does remind me in some ways of the way that people do feel... entitled, I guess? To various artists' output as separated from the artist. (See: misuse of art for AI.)

It does feel extra frustrating to see this forced upon fanfic, though, considering that it's one of the few types of fanwork that still exists in a real legal gray area re: monetization. It's like we get saddled with all of the downsides of commercialization with none of the benefits. I feel like we should be able to opt out of all this commercialization bullshit if we're not even getting paid to deal with the shitty dehumanizing parts. lmao

Ah, I'm getting distracted again.

I guess it's nice to just actually see people talk about something you've created and interact with it. Not just leave a comment to you personally, but show it to their friends, put stuff in the tags, ask questions, start discussions about it, etc. You know, the kind of stuff that happens with other kinds of art on social media. (Meta very much included!) Things that make it feel more like you exist in a community rather than just... idk, putting down something you've made and watching it get consumed absent your presence.

I guess... to extend the metaphor, I may be the cook but I still want a place at the table. The difference between making dinner for your family vs. making dinner for a customer at a restaurant, y'know? I wanna sit down and talk, not just perform. There's a lack of community these days that I really miss.

I guess all this is mostly just nostalgia for an older form of fandom. Fic did used to feel a bit more like an interactive art form back in the LJ days. (And before, I guess.) A conversation, if you will. Sometimes that could be irritating (remember back when reviewers could be put in the fics and such on ff.net? lmao) but sometimes it was really nice.

I SOUND REALLY OLD NOW... There are some things about modern fandom and AO3 in general that I really like, especially the ability to search and filter in ways that really weren't possible ~back in the day~. But... yeah, I do feel like we've lost something, too, by making fanfic almost too easy to "consume" outside of the rest of the social fandom space.

I guess I'll go take my cane and sit down now lmao.

#I mean I do actually have a variety of canes but that's due to disability not age haha #replies #praise

[cg-saturn]

I feel really bad about it but I am really jealous of people with caretakers sometimes:( I just really wouldn’t know how to meet someone I could trust and I just feel so alone a lot of the time and then I get jealous which is bad I know but… idk 🥺

Hi anon! Thank you for reaching out about this, it’s totally normal to feel jealous or lonely when it comes to seeing others in relationships. Unfortunately, that’s a pretty common :( not feeling like you have someone to trust or talk to on an intimate level can sometimes feel overwhelming and manifest in jealousy or anger. I’m not always the best when it comes to relationship advice, but I always try to give the best advice on these things that I can…

I wish someone told me when I was younger that being in love and being loved are two different things. No matter if you’re friends or partners, the most important part of a relationship is trust. And for some of us, trust doesn’t come easily. Some people struggle to be open and honest about feelings, maybe from fear of judgement, or maybe because they never learned how to express them in the first place. As one of those people, I can tell you that it’s more common than you’d think to be unable to express feelings, even as grown adults.

It’s almost a good thing to note that you get jealous around others in situations you want to be in. It’s normal to be jealous about seeing someone being comforted by someone who cares for them. For some of us, it’s hard to form those relationships when we have a hard time expressing our feelings and needs to others. It really does help to get to know someone by text if you’re shy in person, but I’d suggest that you actually do meet in person (safely!) when possible to build the connection of learning tones and body language to help yourself assess what someone’s saying instead of jumping to conclusions like I sometimes do.

The only real way to meet someone who’s right for you is to meet and get to know others. Tumblr is one of many places that caretakers and littles can express themselves and be honest with who they are. There are tons of cg’s looking to have a little on this app, and most of them are genuine. Be careful when looking for a cg online however- there are tons of scammers and creeps out there that will try and trick you. Get to know someone- talk to them online, check out their account to make sure they’re a real person, and once you get comfortable, offer FaceTimes so you can be sure you’re really talking to who they say they are.

Unfortunately, there’s not an exact science when it comes to finding someone who genuinely cares about you. Also remember that CGs are people too and have feelings and emotions that need to be acknowledged- it isn’t a one sided relationship. A relationship is formed by trust, by honesty, and by happiness. Don’t settle for anyone who doesn’t try to help when you need it, and don’t be the person who doesn’t help. There’s no such thing as a ‘perfect’ relationship either- it takes work from both sides to make it last.

Okay I feel like I could go on about this for ten more paragraphs but I feel like it’s getting a little long here so I’m going to wrap it up… I’m so proud of you for being able to pinpoint and name your emotion when it came up, and I want to thank you genuinely for sharing this with me. It takes time, it takes work, and it takes communication to form a strong bond in any type of relationship, but especially one when it comes to being as vulnerable as in little space. I hope you remember that you’re not alone!

If this post reaches any caregivers looking for littles, please leave a comment so some of my pals might be able to get to know you better!! Personally I have my hands full with my Star, but I know there are tons of wonderful cgs looking to take care of some kiddos!

Sending love and good vibes always

Pippi Saturn

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Dni: k!nk/n$fw, maps, t3rfs, homophobes, transphobes, anti-agere, f*rries

#answered #little space #sfw little community #sfw caregiver #sfw cgre #sfw little blog #sfw little things #sfw littlespace #sfw cglb #sfw cglre #sfw cgxl #sfw clgre #sfw agere blog #sfw little one #sfw little #sfw smolspace #sfw blog #sfw age regressor #sfw little friends #sfw age dreamer #sfw little stuff #sfw mommy #sfw little post #sfw agere #sfw little girl #sfw regression #sfw little boy #sfw carer #agere caregiver #sfw agre

[softxsuki]

Congratulationson 1000 followers !!! You deserve them all and what to come in the future !! Always wishing you the best !! ♡♡

Here's for the event pls ^^ <3

1. She/her !

2. Obey Me! Haikyuu! And Demon Slayer pls !! ^^

3. Male ^^

4. Romantic Lovers ^^

5. Idk :<

6. Aries >:D

7. Quality time, physical affection, gift giving/receiving

8. Idk uh don't really think I have one ?

9 I have a personality like, well, ok I am VERY introverted, I have low self-esteem and I have horrible anger issues, but I'm also really sensitive(when it comes to arguements, once someone starts yelling or being more aggressive it'll lead me to crying, and I hate crying.). I tend to not be around a lot of people and I stay in my own space, a lot of people irl would describe me as mean and/or cold but I just have a hard time really showing a lot of emotion besides anger :^

10. 1-I like art, it's been something ive enjoyed since- 3? I just always adored it and still pull out some paper and pencils often ^^

2-gaming, I do enjoy playing games, my types of games honestly could be more like, Call Of Duty, Fortnite, Apex Legends etc but I also really enjoy minecraft and sometimes roblo and the sims ^^ !

3‐I could spend a little while watching animes :p I don't really binge as much as I'd want too but I do really enjoy animes ehe

4-I also like listening to music. I don't sing or dance or really do much besides a little lip-syncing when it's playing but I, well, just like it? I have a horrible time explaining and describing tbh...

11. Well, I'm a minor I'm school, I absolutely LOVE plushies, and hugs. <3 I can't live without my family and I love scary stories <3 I love hearing other people's stories and interests (especially if it's similar to mine) I find collections very interesting and I spend a lot of time looking at things to shop for online ^^; I love chocolate but I'm allergic to it >:^ I love overside shirts and hoodies so I WILL steal clothes. I am always/usually cold so I better get my match-ups jacket >:^ I also could get really clingy tbh :°

12. Can it be a walk in the park as friends and then a confession that leads to a café date ? ^^

I'm sorry I'm not the best at describing or anything so idk how good/bad this was ^^; ♡ ty in advance ^^"

1000 Follower Event Matchup #23

This is event is CLOSED. You can view the masterlist here.

Note: Hi Kya <3 thank youuuuu. so sorry it's taken me this long to get to your matchup, but it's finally done :D. Hope you like who I matched you with :)

I match you with: MAMMON, KUROO, TANJIRO

Runner-ups were: Beel, Akaashi, (no one else from ds, tanjiro is perfect heh)

Mammon:

I think Mammon would be a great match for you because he’d make you feel really special

He pays extra close attention to how you react to certain things and makes a mental note of it; such as how easily you cry when someone raises their voice at you, how you don’t show emotions very easily aside from being angry, and how you tend to stick to yourself when in a room with many people

Mammon goes out of his way to adjust himself to fit your own needs (he’d never admit it though)

Whenever you’re at a crowded event with him, he’ll take you to a quiet table and just spend time with you, entertaining you and helping you feel comfortable so you can have a good time!

If you randomly get upset at him, he’d be a little taken aback because he hates that he was the one behind your anger, but he quickly gets over it; he has Satan as a brother after all, and than man is literally the embodiment of anger, so it’s all good

Get all your anger out, Mammon would give you your space and wait for you to reach out to him again when you’re ready

THIS MAN LOVES TO SHARE HIS CLOTHES WITH YOU

Of course he won’t say that, but you’d randomly find one of his shirts or sweaters in your room and you’d just casually slip into it

When you come into the dining room for a meal and Mammon sees you in his clothes, he’d probably die on the spot, but have a proud little smirk on his face as his brothers watch with jealousy

How does Mammon confess to you if you were his friend at first?

It takes a lot to get him to confess

You know he likes you…it’s pretty obvious by how blushy he gets whenever you compliment him

So you might have to step up and be the first one to confess here

Once your initial confessions are out of the way though, Mammon naturally becomes a great boyfriend by spoiling you with beautiful things and getting you things on his way home from RAD

Would try and play it of like it’s no big deal, saying he happened to come across something that made him think of you…Yeah no he definitely scoured many stores to find the perfect gift for you 

His favorite type of date with you is just spending quality time together in his room, playing some video games, and ordering food until you eventually fall asleep 

SOUNDS PRETTY GREAT TO ME

Kuroo:

I find Kuroo very carefree, so your initial impression of being cold, doesn’t affect him at all, in fact he thinks it’s adorable

He teases you about it sometimes, but he just likes getting a reaction out of you, anything to see some emotion behind those eyes

He truly does help you express yourself a bit more since he’s super expressive himself as an extrovert lol

Your love of gaming is a bit exhausting for him, since he already has Kenma to scold about staying up all night playing games, BUT he’d find himself wanting to play some games with you to see what all the hype is about (he does end up enjoying playing with you)

Kuroo is very observant, he picks up on whenever you’re in a particularly bad mood, or going through a rough time and instantly smothers you in affection

He’d throw one of his hoodies over you (whichever you claimed as your favorite) then cuddle up to you, pressing tons of kisses to your face in hopes that he can kiss away your troubles

One of his favorite things about you aside from your wonderful personality and beauty, is your love for art; if he’s ever around while your drawing, he’d watch you quietly, and perhaps would want to join in on the fun and draw with you

How does Kuroo confess to you, his friend?

Very boldly–as soon as he realizes his feelings for you, he makes it well known, physically by always having an arm around your shoulder or teasing you so he can see you get flustered and upset (not seriously upset, he’d never do that)

I don’t think he’d ever officially ask you out, it kinda just happens one day when he excitedly kisses you after winning a game and it was all smooth sailing after that

His favorite place to take you on a date is a cafe and maybe even a museum; some place he can relax with you and see you happy

Idk I just think you’d be a cute pair

Tanjiro:

Now onto the one I ship you with the most, TANJIRO

Your love for your family is so beautiful to him; we all know he cherishes his family as well, so he loves that you’re very close to yours :D 

It helps that you were friends first before dating, it gave Tanjiro an opportunity to truly know you (all the small things that he could have possibly never noticed had he fallen for you as a stranger)

Do you see how cuddly he gets with Nezuko, patting her head and everything? Yeah, he does the same with you, but it’s even better :3 he loves when you cling to him–being close with you like that gives him the chance to show you how much he loves you

Got anger issues? No problem. Tanjiro is friends with one of the most spontaneously angry guys out there, Inosuke, he can definitely handle any anger you have to throw at him

Ever going through a hard time? He can smell the sadness on you before even getting a chance to notice something is wrong, and he’s already running over to you to try and comfort you

HAVE YOU SEEN HIS HEART? HE’S SO KIND AND PURE HEARTED I just know a Tanjiro hug could melt all your problems away as he whispers beautiful things in your ear in an attempt to cheer you up

How did he confess to you, his friend?

He didn’t realize his feelings for you were romantic until one night when he almost lost you to a demon

He could feel the pain in his chest and how abnormal is was to feel that way for someone who was just a friend (of course having anyone in danger was terrible and would worry him, but this was different…)

That whole night and for many days to come, Tanjiro never left your side and eventually confessed to you

Get a little blushy after his confession, and is so overjoyed when you tell him you feel the same way

His favorite place to take you on a date is probably a busy village with many stores so the two of you could enjoy shopping for whatever catches your eye or browsing the many treasures each store has to offer

He loves how excited you look while shopping, one of the rare times he sees your open emotions and he’d never pass up an opportunity to see you happy

HE’S JUST PERFECT FOR YOU. DO YOU SEE MY VISION? IK IM PROB MISSING SOME THINGS BUT ITS 2AM AS I'M WRITING THIS AND I'M FEELING A LITTLE OUT OF IT LOL

EVENT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED

REGULAR REQUESTS ARE OPEN

Posted: 7/24/2023

#obey me matchups #haikyuu matchups #demon slayer matchup #obey me x reader #obey me x mc #haikyuu x reader #demon slayer x reader #mammon x reader #mammon x mc #kuroo x reader #tanjiro x reader

[clown-demon]

TEN Q’S:

1. When are you usually online? 

Depends on the day and how much stuff I have at work. Typically I'm on in the morning from 4am-7am. Then I go to work and usually return around 12pm-1pm. But on holidays I'm usually gone for eight hours or more.

2. What verses are you involved in outside of this page? 

I don't really have other verses? I just throw my muses into another world. I excuse it as Nikolai portaling to another world through his ability. Just cuz he can travel far distances with magic-- I figured I could say it's ~magic~

3. What is your biggest RP pet peeve? 

Just people trying to control who I can and can't interact with. It REALLY bothers me. I had to deal with an ex room mate controlling me and who I can hang with. They refused me to invite my best friend over IN MY OWN HOUSE. And I just HATE when people are like 'oh don't interact with so and so they're bad.' When literally said person has never been mean or anything to me ONCE.

4. Are you drawn to specific types of muses? 

Villlains, psychos, murderers. :) I have a type...

5. Are there recurring themes in your writing that people might not notice? 

Uuuh, not really? Idk man, I can't think of one off the top of my head.

6. What are your favorite RP trends? 

I really enjoy dash com and stuff. I also like when muses are mentioned in other threads!

7. What is your process for starting a new story with someone?  

Idk man, I just throw a muse at someone and we just do fuck ever. I usually just wing things and we create a story that way. I'm only really comfortable with plotting with people I KNOW. Cuz I doubt my ideas a lot.. I think they're dumb...

8. How do you feel about duplicates? 

I USED to have issues with twins, cuz I was really worried I'd get replaced. OR they'd steal my stuff. But then I got better about it and now I love them-- PLEASE GIVE ME TWIN THREADS. LET OUR TWINS WRECK HAVOC. WILL THEY GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER OR HATE EACH OTHER? IT'S SO MUCH FUN!

9. How long have you been involved in roleplaying? 

Omg... uuuuuuuuh, I started on Neopets back in like.. Fuck.. Uh.. 2005? Then I moved to Youtube.. These two I did NOT know what I was doing, I was just fucking around. Then when I moved to Facebook back in like, 2007, and I KNEW what I was doing. After Facebook I moved to Tumblr in.. 2013 I think? It as the day Mario and Luigi Dream Team came out in the US.

10. Is there a muse or verse you wish you could write in, but haven’t?

Uuuhm, I really wanna write Ranpo and or Dazai, but I"ve been really lazy. I also don't feel like getting Ranpo icons and I've been trying to get icons for Kitten of Dazai.

#dash games

[mariska]

hello tumblr friends who live in my phone i just wanted to pop in real quick and let everyone know that I Am (somehow) Still Alive since i mentioned being very sick last month and did not want anyone 2 think i had finally Expired. wish i could say i'm doing better this month but while im definitely nowhere near as miserable as i was in April, i've been spending this month trying to deal with Sickness Aftershocks that have been making all of my long term autoimmune diseases/health issues in general flare up randomly really bad at pretty much completely random times and i also have a whole new fun set of similar feeling but definitely different and 100x worse physical health problems and its been extremely difficult to try and power through all of it like i'm used to doing for the 26 years i have been alive 😔 but i'm still hangin in there. idk how at this point lmao. subconscious fight or flight survival mode i guess. i'm like 99% sure i somehow caught one of the new covid mutations in April unfortunately despite the lifelong Agoraphobia and 3+ years of effort i've done to do literally everything in my ability to stay protected against it but. thats life i guess, u leave the house one or two times masked up hand sanitizer ready to go sweating from being overheated wearing clothes that cover as much of ur skin as u can stand and other people just Dont. so. i knew it would probably happen to me eventually i just was really hoping it would not! but. i will continue surviving as best i can because i dont have any other option or choice. but that is why i've unintentionally been distant here and online in general. it was already extremely difficult getting myself out of bed and taling showers and changing clothes and brushing my teeth and remembering to eat food and drink water before but now its reached a difficulty that i literally can't have any control over most of the time and its a lot of physical/mental/emotional effort to even tap reblog on a post online or respond to a text more so than it was previously. which again was already. very difficult to power through.

anyways! uh! yeah. life update i guess. i hope you guys are genuinely doing much better than i am this year and i hope you're all able to stay safe and as relatively healthy as you can. and please please please please at the very least wear some form of a face mask in public even if you're outside and not in a tiny building. i dont say that to shame anyone here i just feel like there are a lot of well meaning good people who arent fully aware that in the US at least the pandemic is very much not over and people like myself are suffering and dying because of that and we cant be the only group of people that are still doing our best to stay protected when we have to leave the house. if you're able to get some i highly recommend N95 type face masks because supposedly they offer one of the best chances of protection as long as you're wearing it correctly and it fits your face well; there's a really great non-profit organization called Project N95 that has an official website and a huge list of various face masks in a bunch of different sizes and types to order if you don't know where to find some high quality ones and they also have a form you can fill out and submit to request an order of free masks if you can't afford to buy them; their money donation pool goes towards providing masks (and some air purifiers i think?) to low income people/organizations/work places that doesn't have the funds or resources to constantly buy expensive batches of masks and their website is super detailed and well organized and has a long list of visual and written resources and information about different mask types, ways you can help keep yourself/your community safe, etc. so i highly recommend them if you are like me and are very stressed and anxious and confused about all of that information all the time. their site should be the at the top of the search results if you google N95 Project, it has a dot org site url so thats another way you can tell its the official site.

[rainbowcrowley]

your internship post reminded me of something. i’m going to tell you a story

many years ago i got a job i had really wanted. the people were pleasant and accepted that i was a bit different from them, but they were much more ordinary than me. they might have been open to being educated on things, but they’d lived their whole lives oblivious to many disadvantages that had affected me. it wasn’t just that they hadn’t been subject to those disadvantages, they didn’t really know anyone who had. people like me were theoretical to them, and they’d never given us much thought

and slowly i realised that if i educated them, in their eyes i would be making myself more and more weird, and more and more a symbol of specific categories than a person. so in a way, the more they understood the things that matter to me, the less they would see me as an individual person.

they weren’t bad people, but i censored myself around them. often i didn’t say things because i wasn’t up for the effort of explaining myself. and the more i didn’t say things, the worse i felt, especially when i left the office and relaxed. it was fucking lonely.

i was even less open with my friends because i was emotionally tired after a long day with my colleagues. if i’d had someone (or someones) who got what i was going through and helped me talk about it i probably could have made it through if it was a fixed term. but i didn’t have someone like that, i wasn’t emotionally aware enough to realise that was what i needed, and it was a permanent job..

so i left and lied about why i was leaving because i didn’t want to hurt their feelings!

i’m not presuming your experience is super similar, just sharing in case there��s enough we have in common that it sheds a tiny bit of light. just the fact that you can see the danger sign even if you don’t know quite why you’re feeling it is an advantage. that type of self awareness is so valuable. i wish you happiness and success, whether that comes through finding a better way to make it through the internship, or finding another route to take in your life

i got this ask over a month ago and i always wanted to get back to it and answer it, but I couldn't find the right words. idk if the person who sent me this is even going to see it but.. I'm very sorry for not posting it sooner. the first time I read this it actually helped a lot. and I'll forever be thankful for that <3 i hope you're doing well too!

why am I posting/sharing this now? bc my internship is almost over and I have a lot of Feelings.

an update on the overall situation: it got better. i still feel somewhat out of place, but I accepted that. i think it's just the Queer Experience? like I have my lil bubble of queer friends, online and offline, but "the real world" is, in fact, not that. obviously DUH. idk whether I'm just being weird or naive or so out of touch with said "real world" that this fact hit me so hard. I always thought I knew it, but... yeah, experiencing it firsthand brought me down to earth HARD.

anyway.

my supervisor and colleagues are no bigots. they didn't say anything bad or hurtful, but it's clear that the same thing anon said happened here, too, in a way. thing is... I censored myself completely. i was (still am) so terrified of showing the "real me" that I HAVE to censor myself. and it's fine, really. let's say I'm used to it (looking at you, dear extended family) and I can live with that. it's frustrating and tiring sometimes, but it's fine.

so right now there are other parts of the internship that bother me. things that don't have to do with the social aspects of it. things like the long commute, the fact that I didn't learn any new cool things like I expected and it can get pretty boring sometimes when there's nothing to do (which happens in IT support... sometimes things just WORK and you're sitting in the office doing nothing twiddling your thumbs besides being on stand-by). and my teacher and social worker want me to extend the internship bc I'm good at what I'm doing but I just..... UGH. I just don't feel like it. and idk if it's bc of all that happened, or that anon said above, or all the things that bother me or if it's just my depression acting up (again) bc I've not been doing great over the past few weeks in that particular department for reasons that have nothing to do with work.

i don't know what to do or feel and it's annoying. I'm just so tired. (and I need therapy like, right now. meh.)

thanks for reading <3

#no worries I'm on the waiting list for a long-term therapy but I live in Germany so its gonna take A WHILE #also I'm physically safe and in a good support system #it's just... grinding on me. using up all my energy and resources #ugh #ask #answered #Anonymous #long post

[lexa-griffins]

thanks loads for the quick response, you were so lovely!! 🌸 as i said i’m just starting to educate myself so i don’t want to get things wrong or support someone who doesn’t deserve it. for example, Eliza.. like im still confused about this other topic bc i’m not interested enough, my heart already belongs to Alycia and i mean Alycia only, so… that’s what i’m focusing on. okay so basically that’s what i thought, the “could’ve handled it better” was about her not actually handling it at all, in a way, which i like to believe has nothing to do with her “hating” lexa (it’s something i keep reading online and idk where it comes from) or her fans. Bad advices and likely her trying to save Jason’s a** lead her to shut the discourse. but if this makes sense for the first weeks/months following lexa’s death, what i don’t understand is why she did seem annoyed when fans brought up lexa to conventions etc. but if she hated the fans and/or lexa, i can’t possibly believe she would’ve ever accepted to come back to the show for the finale. she came back bc she cared (about lexa, i mean SHE played her for gods sake, it must be hella important for her as well!!) and knew it was important for the fans, i guess. I’m almost scared to talk about this as i know Eliza’s fans are mad about it and especially Eliza/b0b supporters (i’ve seen enough on Twitter dear lord) but if what some people say is true, that he asked Jason to fire her bc he was jealous of her success, then maybe HIM being fired was also one of the reasons she willingly came back? like don’t get me wrong, i’m sure a big fat paycheck played a huge part too 😅 but trying to add more pieces to the puzzle here, as i really know like 40% of what happened behind the scenes with Jason and all when lexa was killed off, so again, i’m sorry if this always ends up being super long but i’m trying to do my homework here 📋🖊️ (and you genuinely are super kind btw which i’m super grateful for 😭)

I have never opened my mouth about the E and B topic because I am not about to open that can of worms or invite their fans to fight me here. I was a huge E fan and just a week before all the shit came out i was talking to a friend about how i wish clarke and her got the same love Lexa and Alycia do... that came back to bite me in the ass real quick 😅 you guys know how much i love Clarke but damn was it impossible for a bit there for me to be able to watch clexa and clarke scenes again and be able to seperate e from Clarke. We clearly got there tho 😌

In a way, I can understand why she was a little annoyed at cons. Alycia never went to a con with the main intent of talking about Lexa, she was on FTWD, she was probably very excited about it and was sent there to talk about it and yet every question she got was about a character that st that point she had not played in maybe a year if you account for the time between filming and the episodes coming out. And its probably nerve wracking to have a room full of people who care so deeply for a character and that are part of a community that is marginalized and her having to say the right thing. Not to meantion like most actors sometimes the line betwwen Lexa the character and Alycia the actor got a little blurred and i get the sense Alycia is the type of actor who wants a clear separation between herself and the character. Maybe wrongly so she tried to distance herself from Lexa not because she hates the fans but because it was what she and others around her felt was right for her career having just started on a new show.

We know B was most likely fired but I doubt that he was the reason why Alycia left. I truly think Jrot believe he was doing something with Lexa's death and that he was telling a epic story, i really think any other story of B wanting her gone and what is now know its false about her not being able to do both shows (AMC was ready to let her continue on the show, i wish i could link you a source to this) - making Alycia agreeing with Jason probably just PR trying to not cause a drift. Alycia (and Jason) kind of alluded to the fact that there had been chances for Lexa to come back before but that Alycia didn't feel comfortable with it and I do think that shows that she respected the fans and didn't want to be used as a prop to make fans to watch the show again. Her being in the finale was a surprise (well, not to me and many others because it felt like there had been hints being dropped for a good while). While i dont doubt the nice pay check wasnt an incentive Alycias entire message for the shows finale felt very sincere to me and very clearly dedicated to the fans. Blorke/B/E fans (well, B fans, lets be real here they only care for her because shes with him, they used to call her names before that) think that just because Alycia is both rather private and doesnt try to take fans money left and right that she hates her fans and hates Lexa. I just think that Alycia didnt really speak up when it was the time for it for whatever reason - i dont think it was out of malicious intent but i do think she should have said more - and talking about it now would just come across as trying to stir something up unless it was directly asked of her to talk about it. Id like to think she has proven herself an ally and a decent person where i dont think she has to talk about Lexa for me to consider her "forgiven" for not speaking up back then.

No need to say sorry, i totally get trying to understand what the fuck happened in this fandom of ours 😅 i just hope im saying things accurately because i have been here since mid 2015 so some things really get blurry around the edges. There used to be master posts or something im sure that explained things because this was a whole thing that last through most of 2016.

☺️ i might not remember or know how to answer everything but if you have any more questions about the fandoms history and if i can help and respond, feel free to ask me! :)

#letter opened #god it has been a wild ass ride sjdbdjd #what is it about this show that made people foam at the mouth the way they did christ sjsjd

[corals-corner]

Here's a bombardment of random questions:

What is the inspiration/reasoning behind your Tumblr username?

If you could use magic to do one mundane task for the rest of your life, what would it be?

If you could make the ultimate sandwich, what would be on it?

 If you could invent a holiday, what would it be?

What book or series did you wish you could live in?

If you could be the best in the world at something, what would it be?

If you could have a lifetime supply of anything, what would it be?

What's your most unpopular food opinion?

What word do you want to be added to the dictionary, and what is the definition?

If you could, would you go to outer space?

I got all of these questions except #1 off a random website lol. You don't have to answer them all if you don't want to :P

Alright! Thank you so much :D

1) my inspiration for my user name was more or less randome. I liked the name Coral alot, so I began using it as my 'online persona', and my old username was just an acronym of a bunch of fandoms I was in, so "Corals Corner" just stuck

2) This is gonna sound basic, but doing my hair. I have alot of hair, so this would cut down the time it would take.

3) Alright, time for my love of food to shine! It would be on the Italian herbs and cheese bread from subway, bacon, turkey ham, roast beef, lettuce, cucumber, pickles, spinach, tomatoes, jalapeños, chipotle sause, mayo, and any kind of hot sause

4) National writers day! Idk if that exsist, but it would be a day where all types of writers could take a guilt free day(maybe week) off and relax, indeed have all the free time they want, this sounds weird af, but still

5) hmmm. Probably the WaterFire Saga by Jennefer Donnelly. I found her books when I was in 4th grade, and those are the main reason I'm still into mermaids :). I haven't read them all, and I only ever got to the ending of the first book, but I wo uld love to live in a world like that.

6) Art Supllies. I run out so quickly and I always need more.(money)

7)Orange Juice is much better than Apple Juice. Idk if that's unpopular, but I get so much shit about it. Also that dark chocolate is better than milk chocolate. Fight me.

8) ummm, idk about this one actually. but and my friends just say the randomest shit so probably something fucked up to mess with people

9) Being perfectly honest, absolutely not. I am terrified of the dark and of the unknown, and or large open spaces, so no. I'd be having a panic attack up there :')

Thank you so much for the questionns, I really appreciate them <3

#not any fandom #asks #ask response #respons #this was fun :) #tysm for this!! #also i know the sanwich sound like alot #but i would still 100% eat it

[menalez]

Omg, your mom tried to set you up?!!!!! With butch women no less?!!! Im so jealous idk if that would happene with mine 😭 recently she was ljke "oooo😉" at me about my sisters bf having a brother my age. I actually wanted to just go crazy insane bjork gif in that moment. ☹️ how dare you have men liking headcanons (?) about me. Idk whwtt would happen if she found out i was a lesbian. Like she also told me about how excited she was for me to have babies. When i was 13. :|

Also i live in gender capitol like we get taught gender identity spectrum in school and all. So thats why im not sure about there being butch women (or girls i guess bc .. im still a girl hezjnsjs) where i am and i keep feeling bad about having radfem? beliefs like is everyone going to hate me or is that just how it seems online xhxjd or. I dont know if that makes sense

I wish i could just fit in and go along w it but it feels so wrong to me, ... nopee even if i think youre cute im not going to affirm that youre not actually a woman bc your hair is short and you dont wear makeup or dresses it feels so demeaning for both of us. But then am i just making a big deal of nothing ?

Anywaays. Sending love bc peace and love on planett earth. :)

lmao since ive been out for quite some time now, my mom has gone thru the stages of grief and she reached a point where she’s accepted im a lesbian (she would try to convince me to get into a lavender marriage regardless for the sake of image but im not willing neither is my friend she keeps trying to set me up in a lavender marriage with) but she and my auntie have weird kinda homophobic beliefs on who im supposed to date. according to my mom & aunt, there has to be one “girl gay” and one “boy gay” ie one femme & one butch. they think if im gonna be dating women then they should be butch or otherwise masculine women bc it “balances” both parties of the relationship. they say im more feminine & shy & cute around butches and become more “womanly” so therefore i should be with butches 😭😭😭

SO basically yes my mom would meet butch lesbians in bahrain (they’re v recognisable in my country & have their own label too) and would immediately tell them about me and then exchange details w them. ive met 2 lesbians that way but ngl neither are my type and both have some major internalised homophobia to address. one of them was already in a relationship w a bi woman who’s going to leave her to marry a man (& just waiting until the day they must break up which was sad) and immediately started showing me her nudes (arab butches are the weirdest don’t even ask). the other one told me a fucked up story about how her bi ex left her to marry a man without telling her & when she got mad, her bi ex said “you’re just mad bc no man would want you with how you look”. a normal lesbian might’ve simply said “i don’t want men so idc” but the butch i met took it personally and married a man to prove a point. she got lucky bc he died within a few months of their marriage! he was trying to pressure her into sex and even complained to her family about it so if he didn’t die, who knows what trauma she would’ve faced…. also she told me she takes testosterone & steroids bc she’s a body builder and she has this kind of body smell that men often have (probs bc of the hormones) which were all big turn offs for me so. neither worked out.

my mom also still pressures me to have kids and has been since i was a baby 😭 but luckily she’s been overall supportive of me being a lesbian… hopefully your mom will be the same one day. heteronormativity is so annoying lol i hate how every gay person had to deal with our loved ones fantasising about us dating the opposite sex bc they assume we’d be OSA by default.

also no ur not making a big deal of nothing! it’s a big turn off for me having to pretend that a woman not being feminine means she’s not a woman. and it’s annoying having to pretend someone is my boyfriend or w/e else. i think it only becomes more of a turn off the longer you’re out too bc like damn too many of us already pretended to have boyfriends or to be interested in that stuff so being expected to do that to any capacity is just. bad feelings

#mwah anon ur still so young. you have time and don’t worry too much ur mom may be accepting too in the end!!

[frizzdotbizz]

obligatory new year’s reflections (cringe warning)

ok so sorry if i’m starting out w a downer but now that the new year’s here, i need to get stuff out of my system: i’m trying my damn hardest to look forward to what comes next and overall i think i’ve achieved that. but i can’t help but feel scared as well. scared that my overall mental health and well being has become more fragile then ever before. scared of reaching out to the art community online and worrying about being able to trust again or end up hurting others. i was sent to a breaking point so severe that i was hospitalized for it. i’ve been hurt badly and i’ve done my fair share of fuck ups that i’m never going to be able to fix. all of this and adding on to recent realizations regarding family members on top of everything made 2022 by far some of the most painful, harrowing years i’ve endured in the longest time. i pray that i’ll be able to move forward and never go through what happened during the fall ever again.

that being said, i am extremely, wholeheartedly thankful for all of the ppl who stuck around during all this as well as all the good parts of last year. not only did they supporting me during those hard times, they’ve given me hope for what’s to come and time again they’ve showed me how loving, kind, and wonderful friends they’ve been overall. not to mention that i was able to open up more w their other friends and reconnected to another older friend group i haven’t reached out to in a while. all of this and being strong enough to still be here in this world, alive and typing this very post made everything just as memorable and worthwhile. i wish i could name everyone all of my online bestie’s one by one…..i want to so bad but idk i feel really corny shouting out y’all like that shgsgs. but if you’re reading this, you know who you are! i love you all so so SO much and will love and support you all back as you guys did for me!!💖

happy 2023 guys!!! let’s all move forward to a better tomorrow ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

#AHAHAHAAAA i’m a lil shy posting this but i just gotta!!! #putting this under read more for now but idk maybe if i’m no longer chicken i’ll remove it #ALSO TO THE FRIENDS I HAVN’T TALKED TOO IN A GOOD WHILE AND MY NEW MUTUALS: I LOVE YALL TOO AND I HOPE WE CAN CONNECT 💖 #frizz talks

[sapphic-courtship-for-dummies]

Hey I’m like super bad at social cues so how do you know if someone likes you

Like I have a crush on this one girl but idk how to express it and like I’m hanging out with her a lot and we have a lot of physical contact but we both do that with friends and she even responds when I call her the love or my life but she acts like this with others aswell

Hey anon! Lol yes unfortunately being raised AFAB can result in a lot of verbal and physical affection shared between “gal pals” that can make it very confusing for wlw!! I get asks with this type of problem a lot.

On top of that, neurodivergent folks may have different social cues and not respond the same way as neurotypical people to affection, or do certain behaviors that could be interpreted as one thing but mean another. For example: someone averting their eyes/not making eye contact might mean they’re shy or like someone, alternatively it could just mean they have anxiety or some other neurodivergent condition/tendencies.

That being said, everyone is unique and expresses affection differently. It might be helpful to find out your crush’s love language—which sounds like it could be words of affirmation and physical affection—and compare it more closely to how she treats other friends. For example: does she text you more than anyone else? does she touch you more frequently/for longer than other people? does she have a special nickname just for you? are her gifts for you especially thoughtful and personal? does she stare at you for prolonged periods of time? does she write you subtle gay poetry? These are just some potential signs.

At the end of the day, you can research body language cues all you want, and it could still not be right. I wouldn’t want to steer you wrong especially when most articles and online tips completely exclude neurodivergent behaviors or make generalized and inaccurate assumptions. I wish there was an easier way to tell, but in my experience the only way to ever really be sure is through direct, explicit communication. You might have to just ask. Or send her some subtle signs of your affection and see how she responds.

Best of luck friend, I hope this helps. Aphrodite be with you. 💖

Love,

Sappho 💘

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