#idk how I attracted them

[daftpatience]

this post reminded me of this ~scenario~ that happens to me and other fat folks quite often! thin folks that are our friends, support fat folks, but haven’t quite had the time or chance or willingness to unlearn fatphobic ideas in relation to themselves. we know you still think of fatness as inherently unhealthy and unattractive, work on it ♥

#any weirdos are getting blocked asap #and uhh if you come asking for advice or how to unlearn it idk man follow fat creators #listen to fat people talk about their experiences #follow fat instagram models and allow yourself to find them attractive #its fun i promise #youll grow i promise #finding beauty in a wider range of body types has only ever done my brain good #you learn to love yourself through loving others #cw weight #cw fatphobia

[peachfruitcake]

did you hear about what Martin said about Susan and Linda on the Twitter space he hosted on the 27th? i thought of you instantly when he started talking about them and have been waiting for you to post your thoughts! :-)

HEHE YES IM THE ONE WHO’S QUESTION LED TO THAT!!!!!

Now for those who didn’t listen to that space, Martin said that Linda called her to say goodbye but never specified how it went of course. Besides “hey Susan I’m leaving sorry this is really impacting my mental health” “gaaaaaaaaaaey”/j

This is all a personal headcanon but I like to think that their friendship grew incredibly distant ever since Linda married Felix, Susan probably stopped talking to her altogether for a while and it would leave Linda very confused and upset. They might’ve started talking to eachother again a little bit as the series of events began to approach but only very brief small talk, maybe Linda complaining a little and giving Susan a few life updates and them both talking about stuff they’ve been noticing with others lately (especially Felix’s drinking), but nothing deeper than that.

I see Susan being extremely emotionally closed off to most people except maybe a select few that she knows very closely, so if you were to ask her what’s going on in her life she’d give you a very vaguely watered down version and not what’s actually going on or how she’s really managing herself emotionally.

So basically she used to be more open with Linda, but during that period she sort of just started treating her like a stranger.

So when Linda called her first to tell her that she’s finally leaving, Susan acted how she usually would, keeping it calm, understanding and respectful and wishing her luck, but she won’t really show any more than that. Or that she cried later and felt pretty bad that they couldn’t be so close anymore and that she’ll probably never be able to make up for herself acting so distant for the past many years again.

Of course this all comes from how I view Susan as a character myself though and also the fact that I refuse to pass up the idea that she has feelings for Linda. I like to think that she introduced her to Felix cuz Linda was getting more desperate to find a relationship and Susan was getting weird thoughts so in a panic she shoved her off to him so she could avoid the urges. They’ve been boiling within her since highschool and she always was able to push them aside or excuse them as “she’s just my very close friend I don’t have many close friends so she feels extra special” and as the years went by they began distracting her a lot from her work and were growing stronger and more unavoidable aaand they were really beginning to affect how she’d interact with Linda and you see Susan hates feeling like another has any control over her and Linda just wouldn’t shut up about hooooow badly she wants a relationship and hoooow many dates keep failing and Susan was at the point to where she was starting to get the kind of dreams that make you stare up at the ceiling in horror when you open your eyes in the morning so one day when she overheard Felix speaking about being single and wanting to start looking around, she decided to introduce her to him. Susan allegedly never finds a problem she can’t fix in some way so that was her solution.

They hit it off, Susan’s solution isn’t working for some reason cuz she doesn’t feel any relief at all and in fact feels worse but just sucks it up and just focuses on her work and looks the other way. Linda and Felix get married, Susan feels like throwing up the entire day and now feels somehow even more worse by now and suddenly whenever Linda wants to chat she’s suddenly always “busy” every time. Susan’s often busy anyways but you know yourself when there’s a difference between “shit I’m busy that day, let’s do Sunday instead” and “Sorry I can’t, I’m busy”, “I don’t know when I’ll be available.”

While Linda and Felix were dating, Susan probably assumed that she was just jealous that she couldn’t have a little fun at her age herself. When they got married, Susan told herself that she’s probably so depressed over it cuz it’s making her feel like she’s fallen behind others her age and that maybe she feels bitter that all of these people are moving on and going through these important life stages while she remains behind. Which made no sense otherwise cuz Susan couldn’t give any less of a fuck about starting any sort of family or going out. But that’s what Susan would tell herself that she feels so she wouldn’t have to think about it any further. By the time Susan thinks she’s over whatever it was, she begins having brief talks with Linda occasionally. Not often and still a bit distant, but way better than before.

So yeah can you imagine how shitty and guilty Susan felt that whole time of her weird bitterness toward Linda being in a relationship and not being able to approach her much anymore or how Felix turned out to be such a shitty husband.

If this headcanon is aligned with twf’s canon, she’d probably be dead before she even gets to actually acknowledge and accept her feelings as they are. Such is life though. Not like she could’ve done anything about it.

#tldr Susan is emotionally stunted as fuck and has no idea how to identify her emotions and struggles a lot with strong emotions. she’s the #poor bastard type to stand there light a deer in headlights whenever someone cries around her #you ask her how she feels and she doesn’t react on the outside and is like ‘it’s cool’ but deep down she’s falling to her knees and crying #plus she’s a busy woman and got no time for gay shit like pining #idk if u wanted that whole hc ramble but take it anyways (˘◡˘) #it’s cool that you thought of me though!!! means a lot I like it when I’m the first someone thinks of when it comes to susan Woodings :^) #now if you’ll excuse me my sleep gummy is kicking in #the walten files #twf #sulinda #twf sulinda #twf susan x linda #the walten files susan x linda #linda thompson #susan Woodings #headcanons #I remember after Martin announced them being school friends and that Susan introduced her to Felix I made a post mentioning how I see her #haven done that to push Linda away so she could avoid her attraction fo her and how that blew up in her face lol #and he liked the post heehee obv I know that that doesn’t mean it’s canon but it is to me 😁😁😁😁🌼 #i stg if this is incomprehensible to read #I’m too tired to proofread and I just wanna post this lol

[tallymali]

i have such a morbid fascination with those weird reddit dudes who rate their attraction to a woman by working out the ratios and proportions of her features. i want to know if it has ever occurred to them that this is not how other people experience attraction

#ik theyre awful misogynists but a part of me really feels bad for them #there’s definitely a chunk of them who do it bc they resent beautiful women #and kinda self-soothe by ‘proving with numbers’ that these women arent ACTUALLY attractive and they dont want them anyway #but i always wonder how many of them truly just dont feel attraction when looking at women #so they use the numbers as some sort of proxy #bc We Live In A Society that kinda tells boys that if ur not pursuing and getting women then ur not a real man or whatever #im not saying theyre right but i can follow the lines of thought of that second genre of guy #where ur pushed the idea of Getting With A Woman so much but you dont actually want to get with a woman #so you end up with resentment towards women #idk. #anyway this all mostly applies to the very young ones #i have little time for grown adults who use society as an excuse to continue making society suck

[catoscloves]

so i remembered the scene in book!thg where katniss observes cato's manic reaction to her blowing up the supplies and clove/marvel trying to point to the sky to suggest that the person that did it is most likely dead and try to calm him down... and now i'm just like thinking of a hilarious dynamic established between cato and clove where cato has his anger issues and clove has gotten to know him so thoroughly, having had to experience the arena with him as her ally/partner and being forced to spend several weeks together, that she becomes one of the few people that can use logic and rationality to appease him, and frequently uses these strategies. and he in turn encourages her sadistic side and allows her to give in to her own rage. they would have such a good push and pull dynamic, riling one another up but also bringing each other back down to earth.

#idk what the point of any of this is i'm just rambling #i really wish we'd gotten more characterization/more of their bond #like obviously the book was from katniss's perspective so she's not going to like give us deep several chapter biographies of the otherkids #but nevertheless it feels like we lost out on such amazing characters that would complement each other so well #especially (but not necessarily) as a romantically compatible ship #them also having known each other before the games/being lovers is unlikely but I can see how they might partially fall for one another #and become attracted to each other as they let themselves bond #the hunger games #clato #cato x clove #anna speaks #cato #clove

[keymintt]

bisexual, but not rly in an "i'm attracted to xyz" way so much as a "whatever the fuck happens, happens" way

#something something abt how sexuality and gender and queerness is 'defined' vs how it's experienced #maybe this is just how my own bisexuality is! idk im a nonbinary guy who's general outlook on life can be summed up as fuck it we ball #i ofc have my preferences and tendencies and attractions but those are broad at best nor am i like. super beholden to them #for instance i'd prefer to date someone who's not cis but if i hypothetically am into a cis person who's chill with my whole Situation- #-then it's like shit. alright! #and obviously anything that's a dealbreaker in a friendship to begin with is also going to be a dealbreaker in a relationship as well #also please don't be weird on this post! this is about my own sexuality and if you relate to it that's epic #but if you don't or otherwise feel the need to 'correct' me on smthin then pls just move on #no i won't shut up #< talking tag #also also its fine to rb this if you want idc

[jewishcissiekj]

thinking about that time Asajj called Padmé pretty... I know what you are.

#daily asajj thought of the day #like idk about them as a ship but god. #also thinking about how legends asajj has literally never expressed attraction/even complimented a man #(as far as i remember and i remember a lot so not for sure but this is probably true) #but oooh she's on coruscant and she stole anakin's communicator tjing #so the senator is pretty #meant to be condescending but just comes off as gay #(half the things asajj does)

[spaciebabie]

does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

#spacie spoinks #bruh #like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭 #i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is??? #cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk #''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing #like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it. #it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why??? #strange as hell. #i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like #a week and that was like the worst week of my life #i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like. #the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy'' #I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP #HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS???? #me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!! #im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche #the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god) #its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful. #so horrid #also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr #idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it) #sometjing 2 think abt i guess? #anybeans. i tire. #hope i never experience that again #ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again'' #NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[redysetdare]

Tbh I don't find other forms of attraction important enough for me to identify them myself. That doesn't mean that others who do are stupid for doing so. It doesn't mean people identifying their inability to feel those attractions are stupid for doing so.

I don't see a reason to say if I feel platonic attraction or not, but aplatonic ppl do and should be able to label that without pushback or ppl saying it doesn't matter. It matters to them and that's the point of these labels. We should support them instead of silencing them.

#text #just because not everyone uses the SAM doesnt meant that Split attractions are wirthless #people can express tgeir a-attraction if they feel its important to them #it matters to them so it matters to me because i respect their want for a label they identify with #we vannot fall into aphobic ideas of 'it doesnt matter' against our own community #we r all in this together #aro #ace #aromantic #asexual #aroace #aplatonic #split attraction #split attraction model #idk any other big a-attractions in terms of how you would spell them #but u are all included #ily my aspec buddies :)!!! #aspec

[8rujaa]

lesbians dont marry or fuck men thats like the whole point of lesbianism lmao

yes yes i agree i don’t think i said otherwise

#i was just thinking like i’m general if i spent the rest of my life with a man i’d feel unfulfilled whereas if i ended up marrying a woman #i don’t think i’d have that feeling of ‘something’s missing’ #i was wondering if other bisexual ppl felt that way and wanted to know how lesbians came to the conclusion of being a lesbian #the asks i’ve been getting kinda make it seem like if you’re not a gold star lesbian then you’re not a Real Lesbian #which like i understand if someone’s dating men and women like you’re obviously not a lesbian #but for me i still call myself bi i was just wondering if i don’t want to be with men or date men and im sure i only want to be with women #and ever since i realized that I haven’t been with men… and don’t want to be ever again… #like would that still make me bi? #idk i feel like y’all are gonna cancel me for questioning my sexuality 😭 i’m not saying i’m lesbian but like where Am I in the spectrum ??? #i’m just trying to figure out if my ‘attraction’ to men is genuine attraction or just like… societal pressure to be with a man #or daddy issues cuz all the men i’ve been with are always like older my last boyfriend was 10 years older than me and Idk #or if my repulsion is actually repulsion bc i don’t Like them or trauma?? #im sorry if i offended anyone i’m not trying to invalidate anyone’s sexuality just trying to figure mine out 🥲 #inbox

[heartsforhamilton]

hello just stopping by with a rare art post k thanks byeeeee

#flutterdash #fluttershy #rainbow dash #mlp #idk how to tag for like #this fandom #i dont wanna accidentally attract the freak side #but normal mlp fans hi #and ppl who followed me for dt stuff #i swear ill draw them eventually #im just hyperfixated on mlp atm #and also saltburn kinda #and the start of an f1 hyperfix is also brewing #i promise i still love my boys #dont unfollow me #i love you all

[m4ndysk4nkovich]

istg y’all love romanticizing the gallagher’s, milkoviches, and poverty until you meet people actually like them

#i hate shameless fans who are privileged #maybe that’s shitty idk but i also really don’t care #i hate how people think that being poor/mentally ill/an addict is something romantic and aesthetic and shit #like i could make a whole ass post about this shit #y’all love to talk about trauma and poverty and shit when it’s about your fav conventionally attractive character on tv #and then you meet people who act just like them irl and you’re no longer interested #like it’s no longer ‘female rage’ and ‘deserved better’ and shit it’s just something to be mocked #rant #shameless rant #shameless

[cerealmonster15]

sorry 2 lark n sparrow i spent hours on this but all of that time went into the 2nd and 3rd pic lol.

anyway. had this in my brain for ages bc

a. since lark n sparrow do that switcharoo later i have no idea which one anthony was truly describing, but then i remembered in order to do that switcharoo they gotta look The Same Mostly to pull it off.

and b. the 2 ships i see the most with nick are the twins and it's haunted me kfldsjfl. but it's cute and i vibe

if terry jr sounds like hes had this conversation with nicky before it's bc he HAS. in my mind 😌

#dndads #nicky close foster #lark oak #sparrow oak #grant wilson #terry jr dndads #idk how to tag him either actually #like terry jr stampler i guess?? whatever u know what i mean #'attractive to their age group' bro idk what that looks like and also idk how old they were in this scene so ambiguous teen ages jfklsdjf #lark n sparrow kinda laways look Young when i draw them but thats just. skill issue LOL #dungeons and daddies #cereal tries to draw #man. i spent Way Too Long on this lol 🚶‍♂️ #terry and nicky besties my beloved #my propaganda

[wof-reworked]

I’ve been thinking, and I think I’m going to change the way I talk about my headcanons and wof writing to something like a rewrite/reworking. I love wof but it’s become really apparent that the way I engage with it is really more as a world to expand and work in vs a book series I’m analyzing as-is. I think it’ll give me the freedom to actually post the stuff I’m thinking and working on bc I don’t have to keep chaining myself to making it work with all the confusing and contradictory canon tidbits that Tui barely remembers she established. Thoughts?

#this is no shade at all to ppl who do focus on headcanons/analysis I love you all and I’m giving all of you a kiss on the cheek /p #but it’s frustrated me for a long time #I think it’ll also help attract like. the convos I want to be having?? #since like. rn i feel like all I do is reblog art I like bc I feel like I’m on a way different wavelength than my mutuals #idk I write these honestly to see what other people do and think about them and to get out my own thoughts abt a world I do really love #but idk if all of you are here for jobs/canon compliant hcs/fanart it feels like I’m driving an unnecessary wedge in my blog #not to imply a rework wouldn’t be canon compliant #if I wanted to really make my own story with dragons I’d just. go do that #but needing to fact-check everything to see if I’m accidentally contracting smth is getting really tiring #and I know it’s not like. necessary to writing hcs but it’s how *I* do them if that makes sense #I wouldn’t feel right posting things I knew went against the authors world bc like. that matters to someone #even if that someone is only me #anyway rant over #sunny rambles

[meyerlansky]

I have successfully boiled my problem with most of the izzy reads that i hate down to a sentence:

he's not sexually repressed, he's emotionally repressed.

#they are different and ihave paragraphs and paragraphs of thoughts on it #but dressing like a leather daddy and holding your hand over an open flame and literally everything else he does #is not the behavior of a man who doesn't know or realize what gets him going #he's not closeted. he's not homophobic. he thinks having Any Positive Emotion not related to violence makes you vulnerable #[and he's right for his experience and circumstance but i won't touch that now] #his conflict is emotional; ed's ability to captain isn't compromised by his being attracted to a man. it's compromised by Having Feelings. #their ability to survive a world that wants them dead isn't compromised by either of them being queer; it's compromised by being SOFT #by having WEAK SPOTS #pets are a weak spot. lovers are a weak spot. get rid of them to stay safe. not out of spite. #not out of a disdain for those relationships themselves. out of disdain for what Feelings Do To You #idk man maybe i am simply emphatic about this nuance because i get—more than I would like—the impulse to be SAFE #even at the cost of your self and some chances at being happier #he doesn't even care that lucius is gay in the deck scene and i'd go so far as to say he doesn't really care that lucius is slutty #insofar as. like. he doesn't know him and pete are open. from a monogamy-normative perspective it's a betrayal. #your partner being unfaithful when you expect them To Be is ALSO A THING THAT CAN GET YOU KILLED #like idk i just. i think people don't get how much of him is about safety? #and i know the show's created this atmosphere of 'homophobia isn't a real threat' #but they haven't removed the violence and danger crews other than stede face for Other Reasons #so. he's very security-driven. and that's why he speaks to me. #and it's annoying that people just make 'lol izzy's closeted' 'peak homophobic gay' jokes instead of. engaging. with the shit izzy AND ED #went through to make them emotionally closed off the way they are #THE SENTENCE IS A SENTENCE BUT THE EXPLANATION SURE ISNT

[stainedglassthreads]

Sans: i 'befriended' your mom last night

Sans, accompanying Toriel to her first Pride Parade, both decked out in dozens and dozens of aro flags, approximately twelve seconds before guiding Kris to a car seat with a whoopie cushion: i literally told you i befriended her, kid. what'd you think i meant? wow. good to know you think so lowly of my extremely mature sense of humor. i'm hurt, kiddo. i'm actually in pain. i really thought we had something.

#s.oriel has some great content but that specific line is the bane of my existence #especially when i headcanon them both as extremely aro #i like how undertale's ending doesn't imply that her being single is a source of depression or stress when she's this old #nor does it imply she's alone because she's undesirable #both asgore and alphys seem pretty attracted to her #she's just...not interested. being single is her choice and it's portrayed a valid one #idk. where's all my aro toriel content #or toriel divorced from the context of being a wife/girlfriend/mother just in general #undertale salt #i guess

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

I always say I’m into enemies to lovers but I think I’ve realised I’m actually into people who annoy/irritate each other to friends to lovers

#it’s like the hating but being attracted thing isn’t my cup of tea which is what most people seem to associate with enemies to lovers #it needs to be that energy of THIS BITCH IRRITATING and then they’re still irritating but sometimes they have their moments to #damn it I kinda like their irritating ass #the irritating energy is very necessary #about me #like I enjoy them hating each other but it’s also in a… I don’t like this person cause I’ve assumed this one side of them is all of them #kinda way #it’s like… a more exaggerated hatred #a harmless hatred #idk how to describe it but all my fave ships have got it