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#id dress like this if i looked like gerard
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rosyronkey · 5 months
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hi! i wrote an essay about rosy ronkey and her clothes, and i hypothesized what time period i think shes from/inspired by ^^ below if you wanna read more :))
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ive been fixated (or had a special interest or whatever you want to call it) on rosy ronkey for a YEAR today. i've always been pretty interested in her outfit from an aesthetically pleasing point of view, but recently i wanted to see if i could find any trends and time periods in the inspirations of her clothes, which is what this essay is about! it’s going to be an explanation of most of her clothes, top to bottom, from what i can assume with the research i've done. i say research, but i probably don’t have the best sources? they’ll be linked below, but it was really more cross-referencing than anything else lol
i reached out to annie montgomerie for comment/criticism, but she’s obviously very busy and i enjoyed my research from a subjective point of view :)
basic specs on rosy (no one else but me cares): looking at rosy, the only zoomorphic, or animal looking, aspect of hers is her head. judging by proportions and cross-referencing, she looks to have the body of an american girl doll. this is just what i’ve noticed, but annie’s most recent stuff is way less anthropomorphized compared to rosy and the group she was made with. looking at annie’s most recent exhibit, hand me downs, every single piece is completely animal, with hand-sculpted claws, paws, wings and hooves. some of these dolls legs still look like american girl doll legs, but most everything else is animalistic. this isn’t important, but i just thought id mention it because artists’ growth over time is cool!
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starting with her coat, it looks like a double-breasted red childrens’ coat with two rows of two buttons each. these kinds of coats are still available today, but i could find the closest matches by looking at 1920s childrens’ coats, specifically rothschild coats. the rothschild family has a long and complicated history, but all that’s important to know is that they are new york based (which doesn’t totally fit my assumptions about her; in general i assume all of annie montgomerie’s dolls are british because of her nationality) and they’ve been in business for over 100 years. by cross-referencing the growing style of double-breasted coats in the 1920s, and the style of rothschild childrens’ coats in ads from the time, i feel like it’s easy to assume rosy's character has this coat, or at least was very heavily inspired by it.
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a theory i’ve seen before is that the ticket on her coat is a luggage label. these were used during WWII to evacuate british children during the blitz. the history press site says luggage labels listed “name, school and evacuation authority,” and is also where i got most of my information. i want to tentatively deny this theory. i'm pretty sure the ticket is an annie montgomerie staple opposed to a part of rosys' character. she's shown with the tag in the yorkshire sculpture park video, and on gerard way’s website, but she’s missing it in all the photos posted by annie montgomerie herself on facebook and instagram. almost every single annie montgomerie piece on display or for sale has a tag as well. i love this theory, and it’s probably what got me interested in researching her outfit in the first place, but i don’t think i could prove it if i tried.
other than the ticket, she has white roses on the left side of her coat and some smaller twigs? sticks? pinned to her collar. white roses symbolize purity, youthfulness, innocence, and in some contexts, respect for the departed. i couldn’t find any historical photos of children with roses in their outfits, but across the board that was the result i got for their meaning. i can’t discern what she has on her right collar for the life of me, if someone else can figure this out, PLEASE tell me
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her dress is pink, with a cinched embroidered waist and a peter pan collar. peter pan collars became popular in the 1920s, and have been a staple of childrens’ dresses since (sources for this one were a few blogs and wikipedia, but also some ads, so i feel pretty confident with it.) some ads for girls’ dresses in the 1920s had the same soft pleats and embroidered waist as seen on rosys’ dress. i don’t think there’s a meaning behind the color, except that it compliments the red coat and her fur.
her stockings are standard, I couldn’t find much special meaning behind them, british children have been wearing stockings forever, and for girls especially, stockings became more popular in the 1920s as dresses got shorter. usually they were sheer and nude, and rosys’ look like the gray kind kids wear today, but i think it’s still period appropriate to an extent. her shoes look like red mary janes for american girl dolls, just more scuffed and dirtied. mary jane shoes themselves have been around for a while (called “bar shoes” originally,) but they got their name in 1904. in one of the first drafts for this, i read the fairy tale “the red shoes” to see if it offered any insight. i thought it’d be fun to relate, but it’s just a popular danish fairy tale, and it was hard for me to entertain the idea for long.
TLDR: i think rosy ronkeys outfit is inspired by british 1920s fashion!
that’s all I have! i apologize if this was underwhelming or overwhelming or whatever, i had no model to base this off of and the only tumblr essays i read are from my friends <3 i hope you enjoyed! i love rosy ronkey!
link to my dumbfuck google doc with all the links and braindump on it :)
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paladinbaby · 1 year
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i think the sig figs could do danger days and mcr could save spyre
[Image Description: A drawing of fig faeth from fantasy high in one of Gerard ways tour outfits. Fig is a pink skinned tiefling with long dark hair blowing messily around her face, rounded ears, and tall pink horns. She’s stood with one leg up with her arm resting on it and the other arm holding a microphone up in the air. The hand holding the microphone is engulfed in blue flame, casting a bright blue light across her. She’s wearing a long sleeved cheerleader dress, with a white upper and a red body and skirt, with heavy black boots. She is smiling with her mouth open and looking up to her mic. Written behind her in glowing blue letters are the words ‘everybody wants to change the world’, it looks like her foot is resting on the word world. End ID.]
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abelllia · 2 years
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Unfortunate Meeting pt1
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[ID: Page 1 of the comic “Unfortunate Meeting” set in The Kids are Alright AU. It is done in a style meant to look like it was sketched with black pen on lined school paper with the shading done in orange marker and watery ink.
Panel 1 is a wide-shot back-view of three children holding shovels over a large mound of dirt in a restricted area of the woods. These three children are Agnes Montague, Gerry Keay, and Jon Sims. Agnes Montague is a white girl with long hair parted on her right, Gerard Keay is a white boy with mid-length hair badly-dyed black with the front parted on his left, and Jonathan Sims is a British-Indian boy with short slightly-curled hair parted in the middle, rectangular glasses, and braces. They all wear uniforms which consist of a dress shirt, a tie, a sweater vest, a jacket, in Jon and Gerry's case slacks and in Agnes' case an above-the-knee skirt with leggings, socks, and leather shoes. Agnes is leaning on her shovel which digs into the dirt, Gerry and Jon are holding it upright. Jon wipes his brow and says “And that’s the last Leitner batch burned and buried.”
He turns around and points his thumb to the exit, looking at Gerry and Agnes who also look at him. “We should head back before we’re seen-”
“Jon!” an explosive voice interrupts him, represented by an explosive text box coloured in orange with the text in all-caps.
The voice is shown to belong to another student who shouts from the entrance to the restricted area along with two other children. The same student shouts “Surprise! Happy Birthday!”
That student is then revealed to be Tim Stoker with the other two being Sasha James and Martin Blackwood. Tim Stoker is a pale white boy with freckles, curly hair, large circular glasses, and braces, Sasha James is a black girl with long twisted hair and large circular glasses, and Martin Blackwood is a British-Filipino boy with a bowl cut and large square glasses. Tim and Martin wear uniforms similar to Gerry and Jon’s while Sasha’s is similar to Agnes’. They all wear party hats. Tim cheerfully says “We know there’s no club today but we wanted to celebrate!” Behind him, Sasha holds a tray of cupcakes and smiles knowingly at a blushing Martin who holds a fourth party hat. Tim continues “We have hats! Martin even made cupcakes! So be nice-”
Tim abruptly stops as the three of them suddenly stare at the scene before them, their eyes all a mixture of shock, curiosity, and fear./.End ID]
Short gag idea that turned multi-page venture. Will probably update weekly since I’m a bit busy! I don’t know where specifically in the story this takes place but it’s probably been a couple months since the start of the school year. Jon joined the Library Book Club (this universe’s Archives crew) in order to scout out Leitners before they become a problem. Jon, Gerry, and Agnes have already been investigating Leitners for a while but this is one of their first mass-burnings. Tim, Sasha, and Martin know absolutely nothing about this and just see Jon as their new (if prickly) fellow literature enthusiast.
[This is the First! || Next ->]
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emoqueervampire · 1 year
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[id: a group of small black pen sketches of gerard way on paper. one of them shows him stepping out from behind closet doors that are covered in scribbles of rectangular and circle shapes to look like stickers, wearing a skeleton shirt and looking to the side. the sketch beside that shows him in a balck shirt and stripped tie looking at the viewer with blood on his face and holding one hand up. there is a “G” drawn beside their head. there are some smaller sketches below those including: one of him smoking with stars drawn around his head, an outline of them, and and a drawing of them dressed as a cat and singing into a microphone. /end id.]
hello! have some sketches of gerard I made in class a while ago <3 I love them <3
art taglist: @leatherfaceboy @loverlesbian @space-bones-official @mythicalmarks
if anyone wants to either be added to or leave the list, just let me know! :)
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angstics · 9 months
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id be interested to hear more of your thoughts on that particular anthony dress, if you'd want to talk about that
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referring to this ^ (2006)
it’s interesting that a woman in the same outfit would be just as scandalous. the fully exposed bra, the revealing dress, the ripped leggings. i call these looks he does the “stereotypical hooker”, who isnt a positive female figure. it’s also unacceptable for its boyishness. ripped, messy, boxy, ill-fitting — with the sneakers and beard.
based on what theyve said and how they approach it, some performers, like gerard way and brian molko, like to mess with straight men’s heads with their femininity. i dont sense anthony is doing that. it just looks like he’s havin a plain good time
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shadowofmoths · 2 years
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chemtober continues! day 13-16. the scarecrow one is definitely my favorite of this set so far.
[id: a set of four drawings done in black ink with bright red highlights. they are all stylized as rectangular boxes with captions underneath them. the first shows frank iero and gerard way, frank in a thursday band sweater and gerard dresses as dracula, as frank yells “trust me!” the caption reads “you really need to listen to me, because i’m telling you the truth, i mean this ever so much that i am—trust me!” the second shows a red skinned devil woman with one leg kicking out of frame, her tail curling around her. the caption reads “you better run like the devil cause they’re never gonna leave you alone.” the third shows the four fabulous killjoys, holding each other and looking somber. jet star has the girl cradled in his arms. the four are highlighted with red light, and flames surround them. the caption reads “heat burns my skin, never mind about the shape i’m in. i’ll keep you safe tonight.” the last shows helena from the helena music video, laying in her casket and holding roses with her eyes closed. the caption reads “what’s the worst that i could say? things are better if i stay. so long and goodnight, so long and goodnight.” ]
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[ID. A mirror selfie of me, dressed like Revenge era Gerard Way. I'm wearing a black button down, suit jacket, and pants, with a dark red tie, a rosary around my wrist, and a small pin on the lapel of my jacket. I've got dark red eyeshadow all around my eyes and my hair is dyed a near identical shade of red. I'm holding my phone up in one hand to take the picture and my other hand is splayed over my hip as I look at my phone. End ID.]
<- birthday boy
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fuckthisshitimin · 2 years
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Thinking about gertim again.
And how if it happened at one point the "archives crew" would have been.
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Hello yes I would like to volunteer for every single trip to the archives for paperwork reasons thank you.
Don't have my tablet at the moment, nor do I have a lot of energy so.
[ID: A traditional pen drawing of Gerard Keay, Timothy Stoker and Gertrude Robinson from The Magnus Archives.
Gertrude is sitting between Gerry and Tim, who are standing. One of her arms is wrapped around Tim's waist, and she holds his hand. She is wearing a sleeveless soft blouse, and flowery earrings.
Tim's other arm is draped over her shoulder. She looks forward smiling, while he looks at him.
Gerard is looking over his shoulder at the viewer. He is wearing a backless dress that leaves the tattoos along his spine apparent.
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butchviking · 1 year
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Ok at this point with the Gerard images… is it that youre into the idea of being mr way?? getting all the mcr loving pussy following an intense study of his methods?
🚬🤨 🔦 🪤 <- me as a chain smoking private eye interrogating u
Ngl if I could conduct myself like that and get that level of interest… Well… that’s a thot for when I’m off duty
🚬🥸📣💭<- me distracted on duty by the concept of what if i could dress myself like mr way and get that much interest from the babes
Except it won’t work for most of them becos statistics means they’re majority straight gurls 😒 but the rest…… 🥸
Other than that idea I’m struggling so much following along with you…. Like I’ll hold back to be nice but I just can’t see it….. yet? besides appreciating like, is this what other women are into??? If I dress this way could I….?
but i love your enthusiasm 😭
I JUST THINK HE'S NEAT 😭
i would hate to be gerard way i mean i kin him and id love to crawl inside his brain or dissect & examine it or something but i like being me :3 sort of :3 and i could never pull off all those outfits like he does. the behaviours we have in common are the strange & off-putting ones and i dont think theyre doing terribly much for me. but if a cheerard dress would get me babes then maybe i would have 2 reconsider 🤔
hes just a little guy im just passionate abt his music and his mission. and his life story or whatever. he sings good songs and writes incredible lyrics and inspires me and im emotionally invested in him and ive locked him up in one of the four chambers of my heart and im not letting him out. the images are just my way of shaking him in your face like a snowglobe and screeching "look what i found" bc i want everyone to share in my passion <3
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suffercerebral · 4 years
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some potential reunion tour looks for mx gerard way : )
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Hi!, thank you so much for finding the stiles wheelchair fic for me🙏🏾. Id been looking for a year but i was wondering if you could find a fic where stiles is the son of loki? I don’t remember much but the sheriff is dating loki and they call stiles mischief… That’s all i can remember
@sleepypink80 found this one.
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souls of mischief by hoars
(2/2 I 2,695 I Mature I Loki/Sheriff)
Stiles’ first memory of his mom is green.
Her green eyes, her green dresses, her green scarves, her green blouses and her green barrettes.
AND
@lovesouthernsweettea suggested this one!
It's not that easy being green by NeverTooOldToBeNerdy
(8/8 I 28,283 I Teen I Sterek)
Set just after Gerard and the Kanima have been dealt with. Stiles is recovering, physically, but falling apart emotionally. His relationship with Scott is strained almost to breaking point, he is finding it harder and harder to maintain his crush on Lydia and his Dad is no longer even pretending to believe the constant lies his son is telling him. Something has to break soon, and it looks like it might be Stiles, If only his mom was here, to help him cope. But she's gone, and all Stiles has left of hers is a recipe book, some old photos and the overgrown mess of her once fabulous gardens in the backyard. Maybe he should ask Derek to help weed them for the first time in years? At least that'd be pretty to watch. Except Sourwolf is more likely to bury him in the garden bed than help him with them, after Scott's betrayal and... all Stiles really wants to do is get some sleep.
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abelllia · 1 year
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I posted 1,774 times in 2022
That's 1,724 more posts than 2021!
291 posts created (16%)
1,483 posts reblogged (84%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@hisclockworkservants
@ashes-in-a-jar
@samwise1548
@jewishjon
@beesabuzzin
I tagged 1,552 of my posts in 2022
Only 13% of my posts had no tags
#tma - 971 posts
#jon sims - 529 posts
#martin blackwood - 377 posts
#jmart - 266 posts
#abellrambles - 214 posts
#tma buns - 115 posts
#tim stoker - 80 posts
#the magnus archives - 69 posts
#sasha james - 66 posts
#jonathan sims - 62 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#tim's resentment towards him is understandable but at the same time i want to defend jon but at the sane time i it's understandable and at-
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
AU idea I had stewing for a while
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[ID: A digital drawing of teenage Gerard Keay, Jonathan Sims, and Agnes Montague running away from an out-of-frame giant spider that is on fire. They all wear uniforms which consist of a white dress shirt, a green tie, a grey sweater vest, a dull green jacket, in Jon and Gerry's case black slacks and in Agnes' case a black above-the-knee skirt with black leggings, white socks, and brown leather shoes. On the top right is grey text that reads "The Kids Are Alright AU" with a smaller piece of text underneath it that reads "aka Highschool AU+Jon, Gerry, Agnes Friendship+They're Leitner Hunters." Gerard Keay is a white boy with mid-length pale blonde hair badly-dyed black, Jonathan Sims is a British-Indian boy with brown skin and dark brown hair, Agnes Montague is a white girl with long red hair./.End ID]
The vibes are Scooby Doo in Highschool except the ghosts they hunt are Leitners and also they're British (so I guess they're in Secondary School.) I just wanted to see them as troublemaking teens who have a penchant for solving mystery and arson. Luckily the mysteries of Jurgen Leitner provide avenues for both. Who is Jurgen Leitner? Why does he have so many fucked up (if true) books? Why are a shit ton of them popping up in and around school campus? That's what this trio want to find out! Feel free to ask questions since this AU is not like, 100% complete or set in stone. Might be fun.
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S1 v S4 JMart ft. Cat Jon
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[Image ID: Two comics featuring Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood from The Magnus Archives.
The first comic is set in season one. The first panel has Martin cautiously approach Jon who is at his desk, reading a statement while holding a mug. Martin says "H-hey Jon! Here's the files you asked for-" Jon then hisses at Martin and jumps away in his seat for the second panel. He throws his hands over himself, spilling the contents of his mug in the process. Alarmed cat ears appear on him as well as a tail. Martin looks surprised and jumps away from Jon, holding his hand in the air and the files close to his chest.
The second comic is set during the Scottish Safehouse Period. Jon and Martin are in bed during early morning with their arms over each other, Jon's on top of Martin's. In the first panel, Martin is trying to reach for his glasses while saying "Jon...we need to start the day..." Jon then weakly hisses in the second panel. His arm clutches Martin's shoulder and the alarmed cat ears and tail appear again. In the third panel, Martin gives up on reaching for his glasses and instead hugs Jon back. He smiles and says "Fine. Five more minutes." Jon smiles back and two hearts float above him./.End ID]
Jonathan "Mah-tin" Sims is a cat confirmed. Did this instead of working on another piece lmao.
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#3
Concept: Jon's grey hair is actually spider silk from his encounter with the Web
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#2
Thank you to @intr0vrt3dextr0vert who gave me the suggestion "The S1 TMA crew (Sasha, Tim, Elias etc) going on a (regular lol) work bonding trip like going to the movies or something >:]"!
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[Image ID: A digital drawing of the Season 1 Magnus Archives crew watching a movie in an empty theatre. On the left sits Elias, calmly steepling his fingers together and looking at the screen. An arrow points towards him with the text "secretly Watching the better movie next door." Next is Jon, who is sleeping and leaning his head against Martin who is seemingly watching the movie with a happy expression. The arrow pointing towards Jon has the text "bad sleeping habits finally caught up to him" while the arrow pointing to Martin says "*having an internal crisis rn*." Then comes Sasha who is mischievously looking at Jon and Martin while she hides her phone behind her bag of popcorn, implied to be taking a photo of the two. Her arrow and text reads "never a bad time for blackmail." Finally there's Tim who is staring intently at the screen while he leans over to take a bit of Sasha's popcorn as his container is empty. His arrow and text reads "actually paying attention to the damn movie." There is text at the bottom right corner of the image which says "POV: They're watching a bad movie" there is smaller text underneath it which says "(they bought out the whole house w/ institute money i guess?)" and another that goes "((or the movie really is just THAT bad)) ./.End ID]
The Ceaseless(?) Watchers
I have no idea what movie they're watching but Tim's invested anyway. I thought this was only going to take me a couple of minutes but it actually took a long while because
A. I forgot how hard it is to draw multiple characters in one scene
B. Low angle go brrr
But it was fun! The crew just hanging out and doing normal stuff for a change! Sure hope nothing happens to them ahahaha :)
1,177 notes - Posted July 17, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
One thing about Martin Blackwood that I think doesn't get brought up nearly as much as it should be is his love for "Retro" things.
Just Martin geeking out over things like rotary phones, 1950's dresses, polaroids, and all that stuff. Maybe he wears Cat Eye glasses to work? Who knows.
If you want JMart thoughts too imagine Martin going down to the Archives for his first day and seeing Jon in full grampa attire, wearing a bowtie like he's Carl Fredricksen from Up, and going "That's him. That's the man I'll fall for."
1,635 notes - Posted June 9, 2022
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danikatze · 2 years
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2021 Tumblr Top 10
This is the first time my entire top 10 has over 1k notes, and it’s 70% Critical Role and 30% The Magnus Archives hahaha
I will add short IDs to these pictures, there will be longer ones when you click some of the links to the og posts. If there aren’t any, my apologies: I only started committing to it recently, but I’m working on adding more descriptions. 
1. 3.977 notes - Apr 26 2021
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[ID: a digital drawing of Essek Thelyss and Caleb Widogast from Critical Role. Caleb is presenting an open book to Essek and seemingly talking about its contents. Essek is just looking at Caleb. /End ID]
2. 2.239 notes - Jun 27 2021
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[ID: a digital comic page (the first of three) featuring Jonathan Sims and Gerard Keay from the Magnus Archives. It has four panels. Gerry walks by Jon, who’s sitting on a bench in the park. They make eye contact. /End ID]
3. 2.199 notes - Jun 2 2021
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[ID: a digital comic page (the first of three) featuring Essek Thelyss and Caleb Widogast from Critical Role. Essek stands in a graveyard, looking rather sad. Caleb walks up behind him and says Essek’s name. /End ID]
4. 2.158 notes - Feb 14 2021
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[ID: a digital drawing of Beauregard Lionett and Yasha Nydoorin from Critical Role. They are both dressed in a modern way. Yasha has one arm around Beau’s shoulder and bends over to kiss her on the cheek. /End ID]
5. 2.061 notes - Apr 27 2021
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[ID: a digital drawing of Essek Thelyss from Critical Role. He’s sitting back on a couch with his knees tucked up. He has a green striped scarf around his neck, and holds it up to his face with a soft smile. /End ID]
6. 1.960 notes - Oct 3 2021
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[ID: an Indian ink and watercolour drawing of Fjord and the Wildmother from Critical Role. They are drifting under water, Melora behind Fjord, smiling and holding his hands gently. Fjord looks over his shoulder at her with a warm smile. /End ID]
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[ID: an Indian ink and watercolour drawing of Oliver Banks and Jennifer Ling from the Magnus Archives. Oliver stands in front of a shop display window with the text “crystals - books - tarot” on it. He looks at Jennifer who is just outside the frame, but reflected in the window. /End ID]
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[ID: a digital drawing of Jonathan Sims from the Magnus Archives. He is shown from the chest up from three quarters view. He looks off to the side with blue-ish white glowing irises. Around his head is a glowing halo of same coloured eyes. /End ID]
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[ID: a digital drawing of Vax'ildan from Critical Role. Vax is shown from the waist up, he wears a skull-like mask that is partially broken by the temple. Only Vax’ right eye is visible: looking directly at the viewer. /End ID]
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[ID: a digital drawing of Laudna and Imogen from Critical Role. The two are standing close to each other, looking directly at the viewer. Imogen has her arms lifted, as if she’s about to cast a spell. Laudna has her right hand next to her face, showing her long, almost claw like fingernails. /End ID]
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angstics · 2 years
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i was walking to my classes today and i just couldnt stop thinking: “i feel beautiful i feel so beautiful”. idc if im reducing my own accomplishments: gerard way during this tour heavily directed my comfort in my own skin. when i was a preteen, i disliked how i looked because i “looked like a boy”. rectangular frame, body/facial hair, curly texture, body fat, strong chin. i developed a healthier self-image in high school by essentially ignoring how i looked. but the joint effort of depression, the pandemic, and puberty almost reverted me to that crisis in self-image when university began. in addition to all my Masculine features, suddenly i hated my clothes, my hair, my expression. i just couldnt figure out what i was supposed to look like.
at the end of 2020, i started realizing that disconnect had something to do with gender identity. long story short, i now know that im comfortable being a woman but i dislike being identified as one. gender ambiguity, bigenderness, agenderness, transgenderism are very important to me. they emphasize self-creation. they prioritize self-understanding. they’re a shield from gender role expectations. they’re beautiful. but i still couldnt figure out what that meant in practice. i didnt see myself in binary transgender people or nonbinary people because i still felt semi-connected to my assigned gender. i was confused and alone. i had no frame of reference.
and like a fucking comet, my chemical romance entered my life july 2022. as nearly everything else in my life, i fell in love with them for how they made me think of Everything differently. the first aspect that enchanted me was the band’s stage performances in both the first and return eras. id never seen anyone so uninhibited. the second was gerard’s unique interaction with transgender people and identity (side note: THEN came the love for the music LMAO). the idea of being perceived as a boy bothered me until i noticed that gerard way is Mostly seen as a man despite connecting to womanhood in certain ways. that didn’t stop him from presenting as femininely or masculinely as he wanted. that never stopped him from celebrating his own gender nonconformity. disconnecting both myself and him from our assigned genders placed us on this even playing field. their facial hair makes them a man as much as it makes me one. wearing a dress makes him a woman as much as it makes me one. i dont know what he identifies as. it’s not my place to decide or ask. and to be fair, i dont know what i identify as. i prefer to express what i like over choosing what i should be. that was the freedom i learned.
face paint over facial hair, mini skirt with shaved legs, mini shorts with hairy legs, messy undyed hair, fat rolls under crop tops, feminine poses, masculine aggression, skin-tight clothes. loving your body for no reason. loving your body without having to say it out loud. without explanation, without statement.
they look beautiful. they look like an indecipherable amalgamation of cultural gender markers. deliberate, not haphazard. no matter if he considers it gender or stage performance — it’s what he chooses to do. that’s beautiful.
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shadowofmoths · 1 year
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ending chemtober the same way my concert ended: with a vampire movie double feature! and a sleep drawing specifically done for my dear cola 🖤❤️‍🩹🖤
[id: a set of four drawings done in black ink with bright red highlights. they are all stylized as rectangular boxes with captions underneath them. the first shows the members of mcr standing with their backs to the camera and their arms around each other, with bright red hearts in the background. the caption reads “i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone.” the second shows the demolition woman praying with a rosary, red tears on her face and red eyes in the background looking at her. the caption reads “and through it all, how could you cry for me? cause i don’t feel bad about it!” the third shows gerard way dressed as a vampire, making themself laugh as they say “good evening!” the caption reads “hair back, collar up, jet black, so cool! sing it like the kids that are mean to you!” the last shows mikey way with vampire teeth, grinning as he plays his bass. the caption reads “as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks, i saw you there.]
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