#i've speedran the stages of grief

[bread--quest]

hmmm. um.

i'm not actually that upset about blaseball ending officially. i think for me, blaseball ended almost two years ago now--July 30, 2021--and i've been sort of quietly mourning it since then. so when the announcement happened, i sort of speedran the 5 stages of grief and arrived at acceptance.

but everyone else is saying something, so i feel like i should. um. okay. first of all. the end of something doesn't have to mean the end of its fandom. eventually, yes, all fandoms die. probably. i mean. les miserables fandom is still going strong so who knows. but anyway. don't feel pressured to finish every piece of blaseball art or writing or anything in this last week or so. in fact, save some stuff. keep working on it. as long as even one person is still interested in blaseball, the blaseball fandom still exists. so please don't stop caring, or think you have to stop caring, just because blaseball has officially ended.

second of all...i don't really have anything else good to say, so i'm stealing from my past self, and quoting the end of one of my fics, which is really basically saying what i just said above, but prettier

The castle crumbles. The fire is extinguished. The sun goes black. The screen goes blue. The curtain falls. Houston has a problem. The water drains. The laces are untied. The battery dies. The park has to close. The infinities collapse. There is a pause.

The Black Hole (Black Hole) nullifies Blaseball.

The End.

no, no, we insist, there are more pages after The End. here, look, i'll show you.

Hands flip and flip and flip blank pages in Forbidden Books until--

Ah. Would you look at that. We were right.

Here we are, after the end. Holding hands waiting for final curtain call, frozen in amber, watching the curtain slowly fall. Here we are again, and still, and relentlessly.

We are asking: it was beautiful, wasn't it? (yes.) it still is, isn't it? (absolutely.) it always will be, won't it? (as long as we can remember.)

Love was the most important thing. It always was. The world only ends when we stop loving it. The story only ends when we forget to tell it.

I'll remember if you do, okay? Okay. Thank you.

I love you.

#wow look something original!! #fan: gnym!! #it would be really funny if blaseball ending is what restarted my blaseball hyperfixation

[just-a-queer-fanboy]

Kinda wild to think that despite everything I've only been suicidal once or twice in my life and even then it was only long term once (lasted for like 3 months and then I was on fuckin cloud nine once I got on meds)

Anyway I think I just speedran all stages of grief in like 3 months and then got cured by the ancient practice of "going outside" and "cleaning my air filter"

[arcaneglitch]

not gonna lie I speedran the 5 stages of grief when c!Tommy started agreeing with c!Phil

AND THEN he found c!Dream's "gift" and took it back and I've never felt so smug

#cPhil doesn't know how badly he fucked up by helping break cDream out #sure he didn't want to but he still Went Through With it #and I can't wait for him to finally find out the full extent of the consequences of freeing cDream #dsmp