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kylo-wrecked · 2 years

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okay big ramble time:

my second viewing of the batman has brought my love for gotham city and its characters back from the grave i buried it in almost a decade ago* and i am fighting the desire to make a multi-muse blog or throw myself into the boiling pits of various 1x1 rp sites and start another eleven threads i will not have time to write.

WHY.

additional thoughts floating around in my mind-maze:

the filmmaking here... it's Just Such a Mood. The Right Mood, and its politics Align with The Character and The Pysche of Batman. (Nolan's trilogy may make better 'films' in a sense, but i've always felt that the tone is a bit off, the politics are skewed, and: Gotham is a suspiciously clean Chicago, Bale's Batman is way too comfortable in his Bruce Wayne persona: he is rarely ever at odds with the Bruce mask and Upholds and Enforces the Status Quo, which could have been interesting for the character if it were ever explored and resolved with nuance, but this is just who Nolan & Co.'s Batman is at face value - arguably that might be the point, insert Chaos King Joker as challenger, pero - Bale es un payaso y no me gusta nunca nada).

everything about Robert Pattinson's batman/bruce reminds me of my once-upon-a-headcanon, from his oil-slick eye makeup to his Not Showing Up in Public Like an Actual Billionaire (and Not Waving His Cock and Wallet Around). he's quiet, he is a detective, he is tragically weird and alone, compulsive and obsessive, but he ultimately realizes that being Mr. Vengeance is Not Enough.

BRUCE HAS TO LIVE WITH THE FACT THAT HIS DEAD PARENTS WERE NOT PERFECT OMG THANK GOD, THANK YOU MOVIE, THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING THE VIEWER TO MAKE UP THEIR OWN MINDS AS TO WHETHER THOMAS WAYNE WAS A HUMAN MAN WHO WANTED TO DO GOOD AND MADE SOME MISTAKES (HOW VERY PROTO-BATMAN OF HIM) OR ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE DADDY and MARTHA IS AN ARKHAM, what A RICH and TERRIBLE HISTORY with ROOTS THAT GO DEEP, that BRUCE *MUST* RESOLVE, like NO, ZOE KRAVITZ AS YEAR ONE CATWOMAN WHO I WILL PERSONALLY RUN AWAY WITH, he CANNOT LEAVE, he is TIED TO THE CITY. FOREVER.

this is a gothic story, ya'll.

the aesthetics of this movie are blade runner vs. early 80s new york vs. victorian glasgow feat. The Crow. so, perfect. (they did film in Illinois, and Chicago is renowned for the L, but try telling me that the claustrophobic subways and crusty green elevated platforms didn't absolutely smack of gravesend and other areas in south brooklyn, bushwick, washington heights, or cypress hills in certain scenes, and i will gladly turn off my listening skills — the L is too central, the trains in liverpool are actually nice. gotham city has the mta.)

i will forgive the riddler for assuming that bruce wayne opens his own mail. or that he opens mail at all. that was his fatal mistake. it's just funny.

i will also forgive Mr. J for showing up in the film's final moments because a. it leaves viewers with questions, not ham-handed answers. b. character design. killer klowns from outer space meets yo my dude actually fell in a vat of acid. i will take it, thank you.

i cannot forgive the hilariously long, overly-scripted, "reveals all in a ludicrously timely fashion" voice-mail but it only took up two and a half minutes of blessed screen-time. it's a far cry from TDK's "commissioner gordon is dead – and now he's back, having tricked no one" juncture, which gave audiences absolutely nothing. plus, it didn't take me out of the story for the rest of the movie's duration.

the bat-suit symbol is actually PART of batman's weaponry. beautiful, sense-making design. i weep.

i weep for the flying squirrel apparatus. bruce clearly came up with this on his own. no high-paid wayne enterprise personnel were involved or loaned him government weapons. (no hate @ lucius fox, but this Whole Thing works so much better for this particular story).

FINE, IT'S TRUE. i just want to be batman. i put it on my kindergarten application under "what do you want to be when you grow up?" and i'm still waiting on that call. reality be raked across the coals and damned. THIS MOVIE HAS AWOKEN THAT PART OF ME LIKE A LONG-SLEEPING DRAGON WHO MUST HOARD NOW.

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*the new 52 was a grave and serious turn-off for me but the truth is i still follow what goes on in the comics. okay i also watch the harley quinn show. don't @ me, i'm in a happy place.

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sleepypurpledandelion · 5 years

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Soooo, dad got home and found dog piss and shit in laundry, I didn't wanna clean it up cause I had to scrub it off my carpet for months, so instead of my brother just doing it he told dad that I wouldn't and I get screamed at, then for no reason at all, dad mentioned how I haven't left the house and I'm not doing anything for my mental health, despite having seen 3 pyschs and taken two different kind of meds just this year, I also went for a walk this morning. Today was going okay till that shit

He said he wanted me to do something other than sit in front of my laptop (bro does nothing but sit in front of his tv but thats okay i guess) I just today decided to go for a walk every other day but now hearing how I’m not doing enough for my anxiety, that isn’t enough, I don’t know what else to do though. He screamed that I need to be part of this family. The family where all the men constantly made fun of me and my mother abused me for years? Okay, he said since I hated it ehre I should go -

- go live with mother but, seeing as she’s part of the reason I hate myself I’m not doing that. As a minor, I can’t move out yet, and as someone who struggles so much and has only started getting help this year, a job isn’t going to happen for a while. During all this he mentioned school. The program I’m doing is real chill and lets me not go as long as I hand assignments in, I nearly finished my first one in months this weekend. Was pretty proud of that till now. I’m seeing the lady from -

- school tomorrow, my psych the day after and the GP the day after that, Kinda freaking out cause that’s a lot of people and talking but OKay. Today was going so well. I feel so stupid for crying and just, being in this whole situation. I can barely leave my own room when my brother’s the only one home. Why am I like this, I’m sorry for bothering you with all this but I really needed to vent and I don’t have friends so

Oh my goodness lovely I’m so sorry. You didn’t deserve any of that. That behavior was completely uncalled for from both your Father and Brother. You have been trying, and you’ve been doing well. He clearly does not understand just how difficult mental health can truly be. It really is a slow going process, and the fact that you’ve tried different psychs and different meds shows you’re trying. You can’t just take a pill once and know it won’t work. You can’t talk to a psych once and know it won’t work. It takes time.

You should be able to be proud of yourself, you deserve it for all the courage you’ve shown to be able to push forward. To try and get better. I know I’m proud of you!

You’re not stupid for crying, and it isn’t your fault you’re in this situation. Not in any way. You are allowed to feel and express your emotions as you need to, and anyone who tries saying otherwise can suck a sock. You’re not bothering me lovely, never could. You’re always welcome here. Especially in moments where you need to talk/vent. I am happy to listen and talk.

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