#i'm proud of my younger self for writing and posting her stuff

[julietasgf]

hey its the plinth family anon! i really enjoyed and appreciated your long answers to my questions! I guess only Suzanne knows why on earth Ma stayed with Strabo... I am curious about whether Ma's parents and siblings would have taken her in if she had left Strabo though. In the book, she had one sister who still kept in touch with her so I wonder if that sister would have been willing to take her in if she had left Strabo? Tbh I'd be pretty confused if Ma's parents and siblings didn't want to take her in if she left Strabo because she may have married a scumbag but by leaving him, at least she kinda sees the light and is escaping him? why wouldn't her family want to help her then? I'm so curious about your hcs for how Ma and Strabo met and why Ma is so loyal/in love with him! you mentioned sejanus and coriolanus and keeping the cycle going, so does this mean you hc Ma and Strabo to have met and befriended each other when one of them was going through a hard time? seeing Ma trying to ignore all of Strabo's wrongdoings is making me think of this tiktok i saw where it said something like "you don't have to lie to women, if she likes you enough she'll lie to herself"...it's kinda mind-boggling to me how tightly Ma is clinging onto Strabo, like did this man save her from certain death when they were younger or something???

hello anon!! I'm so glad you appreciated the long answers bc I'm too talkative and if you let me, I'll talk endlessly about this stuff, I actually have to look back and be like "okay, now I'm talking too much, let's stop here" 😭 but I saw that it got accidentally sent your other thoughts, so I'm going to answer both in only this post, I hope that's okay by you :D

there's some stuff in the book that makes me feel like suzanne collins is the type of writer to make the whole background story of side characters, but not show them bc they're unnecessary story wise, you can't tell me she doesn't know exactly what the hell is the plinth backstory in D2 (I think she did it but I just can't prove it....)

I hardly think her family (except, maybe, the sister that still talks to her) would take her in, imo. D2 seem like a district that it's full of proud people, and that's not necessarily a bad thing, but strabo being a dick is not the worst part of this marriage: is that he betrayed the whole district. the plinths are despised back in two. I think ma's family didn't like him from the start, but he was not the worst; he was the worst when he betrayed everyone, and when she chose to not leave him, she made her choice of who her loyalty lays with. it's with him, not with them. and besides, taking back a plinth (even if it's an ex-plinth) and welcoming her in their home would definitely not be seen with good eyes.

(maybe it's a bit of self-projecting, but where I live, it's much more common for the woman to still keep in contact and close with her family, not the man; I grew up with my cousins from my mother's side and I hardly know anyone from my father's side. siding with your husband in a situation like this would be seen as a BIG offense, something that's very much unforgivable. I could see that being the case)

now, from now on, there's a lot of my personal headcanons and thoughts bc I'm OBSESSED with the plinths and their life in D2:

OKAY SO there's a very, very small and discreet line on the ma plinth study I wrote that goes like: "vesta had dreams, even if her father rolled his eyes at most of them." I actually plan to write something from strabo's pov and explore more about this, but basically, I think ma plinth had a not very good relationship with her parents, and most of all, with her father (the cycle keeps on cycling). I think her family was overprotective and she felt suffocated (I think she was the youngest, the baby sibling, and this just made everything much worse). now, I have exactly in my mind how I think they met: ma plinth went with her father to the city center, and her father was searching for a gun to buy to leave at home as a way to protect the family. the plinths didn't have an industry yet; it was little more than a small thing, where they built some modest models to sell. strabo was there. he was talking to her father, and then turned to her and asked if she would like anything. her father made a comment diminishing her, saying that she was too dense to understand about guns, and poor ma was so embarassed even though used to it because her father always do that kind of thing, but to her surprise, strabo plinth didn't laugh. he looked at her father very seriously and said that she looked smart enough to understand about it, and if someone has hands, that person can shoot well.

he was the first person to actually defend her in front of her father from these kind of "jokes" and comments. not even her sisters or her own mother had done that before, all too terrified to say something. and that was enough.

about strabo and his siblings: fucked up shit happened. let's go about my personal hcs about him and his family: he's the only son of his father and his mother, but his mother died and his father married again when he was around 5 or 6. his father and his stepmother had two other kids. he never had a good relationship with his stepmother and he resents his father very much for marrying shortly after the death of his mother (omg cinderella hiiii). strabo was the eldest, he had to basically raise his half-siblings as his father was always at their small industry and his stepmother worked for endless hours. he learned to shoot from a young age to know how to protect them. he didn't hate his half-siblings, but he was tired of having to carry all the responsability on his shoulders, especially when they still had a loving mother while he didn't. it seemed so unfair.

(the sad part is that his half-siblings did look up to him. they loved him. they saw him as an example.)

his father got sick when he was a teen and he started to work hard on their small factory. and strabo has a lot of flaws, but let me tell you something: that man works hard. he worked enough to make their small shop rather famous in D2, and worked enough to pay for everything his father needed to while sick. his half-siblings never were interested in the industry, and neither was his stepmother, so when his father died when strabo was in his late teens, he was pissed off that his stepmother wanted to inherit the factory. they never worked a single day on it while he kept it going on. his half-siblings tried to reason with him, but he was just so angry, and a lot of hurtful things were said. in the end, strabo got the factory, but he left home and never came back. he said things that were too cruel to his half-siblings, the kind of thing that they could never really forgive.

ma is very family-oriented and couldn't really understand why strabo resented his half-siblings so much (specially because she also had family issues, being close with her sisters was what kept her going on), but she tries to have empathy with it, knowing people react in different ways to different things. I can totally see her one day trying to bring the subject of in-laws and strabo just looking so annoyed and resented that she knows that there's bad blood involved.

(it's so ironic to me that she didn't understand how he was so resented with his half-siblings, but in the future, her own sisters were as resented with her)

strabo is genuinely so interesting, I really wish to know what went through his mind, or just know more from his canon backstory, what made him make the choices he made. he's ruthless and cold, he sold guns to people that hated his guts and hated where he's from. he didn't betray a single person, he betrayed his whole PEOPLE. but he seems to care about ma and sejanus to a certain level, in his twisted way. he moved to the capitol thinking about giving them a better life, and still, he's hated by his own son, the one he thought he was protecting by moving to the capitol. ouch.

#tbosas #tbosas movie #ma plinth #strabo plinth #sejanus plinth #plinth family #hcs #headcanons #if there's someone who'll overthink about the plinths that's me #this is so long #sorry

[resmyx]

The time has come for me to write a pinned post I guess...

I love Tumblr!

I grew up in a restricted conservative christian environment, away from the representation, acceptance, and support I needed. It's took me a long time to find those things. Every day in the past 5 years I've been grateful to be out of the closet, all queer and proud!

Tumblr reminds me of everything I needed but didn't have growing up. If I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be, "Go find wise trans youtubers and follow them on Tumblr!"

Trans body positivity? Lovely poetry? Sapphic trans-inclusive conversations? Politics discussed in a reasonable rational way? Neurodivergence and disability awareness? Cute stuff? Happy stuff? Sad stuff that meaningfully touches my heart?

Tumblr has got it all... like Reddit only pretends to have.

Unfortunately, there's a TERFy CEO in charge... 😩 We'll miss you Predestrogen!

Anyways...

I love my Girlfriend!

Although my likes are my own, basically all of my reblogs are for my girlfriend's benefit. When we're hanging out, all gay, comfy and calm, I like to scroll through my profile and show her all the cool things I reblogged recently.

I'm fircely devoted to her, so I'm not here for the sexy network of horny trans folk... even though everyone is really damn cute and hot and wonderful and beautiful and aaaahhhh!! Anyways, DNI if you're curious about me sexually or romantically.

For anything else though, I'm an open book. Feel free to message me, reblog my stuff, ask me things, etc.

[insert-witty-user-name-here]

Unconventional writer ask game: my answers

Thanks to @knuckleslove for this fun game. Thank you @queen-of-meows @dewdropreader @starport-seven-five and @lgwilt for the tag! I feel so honored to be thought of by amazing authors such as yourselves! Here are my answers. (and I hope you all tag me in your answers so I can read about your writing process)

How long have you been writing fanfiction?

Honestly as long as I can remember I’ve been writing drabbles and outlines. But last year was the first time I ever completed and published anything. 

Do you have a favorite word? (One that you love. Doesn’t necessarily have to be one you use all the time.)

Hm… I know my favorite themes are those surrounding love and hope.

Share a favorite run-on sentence that you’ve written.

Lol idk about a favorite. Run-on sentences are my baseline though. Here's one from Between the Golden Arches. I definitely cheat grammatically by adding in periods when technically I shouldn't.

Loki had seen and been with many men in his lifetime. Men in various states of dress, in various positions. But for reasons beyond his immortal comprehension, this man, in his ill-fitting suit, boring blue dress shirt, and only slightly above mediocre forearms, was going to be the death of him.

Share a bit of a scene that you’ve written that still gives you FEELS.

As much as I want Lokius to be canon, I think if I were to choose any scene from one of my fics to be in Season 2 it would be the scene where Loki meets Sylvie’s younger self, Princess Loki who has no fear transforming into her Jotun form.

Loki did a lot of changing and growing in the Loki series but an area still left unexplored is his deeply internalized hatred of his Jotun heritage. I’d like to see that addressed next season.

Passage at the end of this post (I couldn't cut it down- I love it too much). This scene is from the end of Rising From the Ashes.

What is your favorite kind of character interaction to write?

I really love writing inside jokes or light banter between characters. I also really love when you can see one character taking on traits or habits of another character, showing their impact on one another.

Do you have a hyper-specific genre?/ Any personal or frequently used tags?

"Slow Burn" specifically "slowest of burns because lots of individual character growth needed" and "Idiots in Love"

Share a joke or funny moment that you’ve written that still makes you laugh.

I do enjoy how I wrote Thor and Sylvie meeting in Here.

“Lady Loki-” “It’s Sylvie,” Sylvie corrected. “Oh, of course, Lady Sylvie.” “No. It’s Sylvie. Just Sylvie.” “My apologies.” Thor grabbed Sylvie by the shoulders and looked deep into her eyes. “Sylvie the Just, it is indeed a great honor to meet you.”

Best editing tip?

Read your own stuff as a reader. Once I get my fics to a place where I’m not actively cringing I like to put the editing pen away and read as a reader. Purely reading allows me to notice frequently used words, pacing issues, repeated sentence structure, etc. I don't notice those things if I'm solely focused on editing individual sentences.

What drives you to write?

My favorite stories are the ones where I learn (or am reminded of) something about myself as I watch the character struggle to overcome their internal hurdles. 

I strive to do the same in my stories. To tell a story that’s deeply resonate and reminds us all about the importance of hope, love, and growth. 

Where do you draw inspiration?

Music. I listen to a lot of music. 

What is your biggest challenge in writing?

Not giving up during that first round of editing. No matter how many times I’ve written something that ends up being something I’m proud of whenever I read a first draft of a new story I get that ugly voice that says “ah-ha so I am a fraud. I knew it. All those other stories were lucky coincidences. I actually can’t write and this is terrible.” Which just isn’t true lol.

Luckily, I know this and move past it. All part of the writing ✨ process ✨ 

What is your immediate reaction when you receive a new comment on a fic?

Happiness EXPLOSION in my brain. And then I’m smiling about those kind words all day. I want to print each one out and put it on my wall.

1-2 sentence preview from your current WIP?? (Only if you are willing.)

From the final chapter of Becoming His Mobius (posting Sunday)

A horn from a commuter train sounded outside the window. Mobius glanced at the clock beside Loki’s bed. It was later than when he normally woke up, mid-morning instead of the crack of dawn. He shifted and rolled his shoulder slightly. It was mostly healed but there was still a bit of lingering pain. He must have slept on it wrong. Loki sleeping atop him probably didn’t help but Mobius didn’t mind. He could handle a little pain. Loki stirred slightly at Mobius’ movement.  “Mobius,” the god grumbled, tightening his arms around the TVA agent, “for once in your life please sleep in. We almost died last night. Surely that has earned us a bit of a respite.” 

What story or scene are you most proud of?

Rising From the Ashes. I've been writing my entire life but this was the first story I have ever seen through to the end. Writing it allowed me to prove to myself that I could write and finish something I was comfortable sharing with the world. It will always have the most special place in my heart.

Thanks again for the tags! Also tagging my dear Lokius friends @mimisempai @loki-is-my-kink-awakening. It's been a joy to see some of your answers and reminisce about your beautiful stories and hope to read about your answers too @rins-love-wins

Share a bit of a scene that you’ve written that still gives you FEELS cont: Loki meeting Princess Loki

The young Sylvie looked at her older self again and let out an exasperated sigh before she changed right before Loki’s eyes. They told me I was adopted. The princess’ pale skin transformed to the bright blue of the Jotun, white markings etched across her face and arms. Her red Frost Giant eyes found Loki’s and she smiled cheekily. Those eyes. Loki couldn’t suppress a small gasp. Loki had always been silently grateful his body was an illusion he hadn’t figured out how to break. Loki didn’t want to look down and see that blue skin tainting his own, those red eyes staring back at him in the mirror. Loki hated this form, his true self. This form showed him what he had always believed to be true. He was the monster parents told their children about at night. Every child of Asgard lived in fear of seeing those bright red Frost Giant eyes descend upon them in the dark. They were the eyes of demons, angry and evil. And yet, looking into Princess Loki’s red Frost Giant eyes, Loki saw none of that. He saw a cheerful, intelligent, kind, if a bit mischievous child. Loki was struck once again by how similar those eyes were to Sylvie’s, how similar they were to his own. In this child’s eyes, he saw the eyes of a hero, of a warrior. He saw eyes worthy of a Princess of Asgard.

#my writing

[anotherghoul666]

Hi do you think 30-almost-31 is too old to realize you might be sorta kinda bi? I’m married and adore my husband and don’t feel the need to be with anyone else but I’m realizing I might be attracted to women/feminine ppl too…gahh feels so scary to say that (even on anon)

It's absolutely not too late to learn things about yourself and accept yourself as who you are. It's never too late for that. There is no age where you're supposed to know everything about yourself and lock that in. Humans change. Humans discover new information, integrate it and change accordingly throughout their whole lives. Sexuality is fluid. Attraction is fluid. Gender is fluid. Identity and labels are fluid.

I've changed labels so many times? You wouldn't believe. And that's 100% ok. I thought I was a lesbian way into my twenties, that's not the case at all. I thought I was a woman until I was 29 bud. That's not the case AT ALL. I didn't know better. I didn't have access before that to the information that made me realize things were not as society said they were or as I assumed they were. I hadn't had the life experience to understand myself in this way. With new information comes sometimes a reevaluation of self, and sometimes that will shift the goal posts for you a bit. That's ok. I've changed my labels a ton. My partner had changed her labels a ton. People changed their labels all he time as new information comes in and they can sit back and look in a mirror and think about who they are deep inside.

If there's one thing I can confidently say, being into my 31th year of life currently, it's that your 30s are your decade of self discovery. The amount of experiences, of trying things, of figuring myself out I've done in the past year and a half are staggering compared to how I grew when I was younger. I hear society say your teenage years and college years and stuff like that are for figuring out who you are but like?? I don't get it. For some people, and for some reasons (for me it was trauma) my self actualization and growth was super stunted when I was a teen and young adult. The thirties is where it's AT.

What you're going through is so valid. Congratulations for facing your newly realized attraction enough to not only write this ask, but have the courage to send it. That's a huge step. Anon or non, you know you wrote it and put it out in the world, and I'm so proud of you for that. You have the right to change. You have permission to explore. You are sen and heard and your emotions are valid. Your process is valid and meaningful. Give the process the time ad space it deserves, and you'll come out on the other side knowing yourself better than you ever did before. Best of luck on the way!

#asks #AnotherGhoul's confessional booth

[blackbird-brewster]

8, 15, 25, 36!

8. Post an out-of-context spoiler from a wip.

Bex, you and I both know why you asked me THIS question but SURPRISE, I'm NOT giving you anything from 'Between You & Me'. Instead here something from 'Blue Heaven Midnight Crush' (takes place in S2)

Derek couldn't entirely argue with her reasoning, yet he registered the melancholy expression that had crossed her face while she had been lost in thought. Emily had turned back to people watch and Derek could suddenly see just how uncomfortable she looked in the situation. He wasn't sure if he had somehow missed her body language on previous outings, or if he was only seeing it for the first time because she was allowing him to. 

"I get your hesitations but I think you should give online dating a shot," Derek said to break the silence that had settled between them. "Why not? If you talk to a woman online and you don't want to meet up in person, so what? What do you have to lose?"

"My already precariously low amount of self-worth," Emily quipped. "Look, Morgan, I appreciate your attempts here, but I really don't need a girlfriend. I finally feel like I'm hitting my stride on the team and I don't need to start dating right now. I'm honestly fine on my own."

15. What’s your favourite time to write?

I'm actually a full-time writer, as in I usually can get a good 8-ish hours of writing in a day! I get writing done at two specific times of day. 9am-4pm M-F and 10pm-4am << these are the hours my partner is either at work or asleep. I rarely write when they're awake bc we spend our evenings together, so I write a lot during the week days or I burn the midnight oil.

25. What’s your favourite part of the writing process (worldbuilding, brainstorming/outlining, writing, editing, etc)?

When I post my words into the void and walk away! No, but seriously, up until I came back in July, I NEVER made outlines and I NEVER edited stuff (sorry readers!) I wouldn't even read my fics. I would pour the words out, post them and never look back. (I have since gone back to all my pre-2022 fics and read/edited them, some of them I had literally NEVER read before!)

Now? I think I really enjoy the actual writing process. I'm actually making outlines or at least a collection of thoughts that I build from, but putting my headphones on with a huge mug of coffee and pouring my soul into a fic for hours at a time feels sacred to me.

36. What fic are you proudest of?

This answer will be a bit long-winded but who cares? I want to discuss not only the fics I am most proud of but WHY I am proud of them. Three fics will always live in my heart as works I am proudest of! When I started writing Jemily in 2014/ish, I was struggling a lot with my mental health so I wrote a lot of fics that dealt with those struggles.

HEAD FULL OF DOUBT: This is a Jemily high school AU, where Emily goes to public school for her senior year and subsequently meets JJ, who is struggling with early onset schizophrenia. It is a story of friendship, patience, hope and understanding following their senior year together. This fic was SO incredibly important to me because the entire thing was basically a love letter to my younger self and to each and every person I have lost to depression and other mental illnesses. After writing this fic, I decided I had nothing else to write because I truly felt like NOTHING else I wrote would EVER be as important to me. So this was why I retired from writing.

2. THE FIVE HORSEMEN OF THE SILENT CHASM: (BE ADVISED OF THE TAGS ON THIS FIC BEFORE YOU READ IT!!!!) This was one of my earliest Criminal Minds fics. Again, it is about mental health, specifically depression and PTSD. This is NOT a happy story nor does it have a happy ending. While Head Full of Doubt manages to approach mental illness through a caring. understanding lens, this is the EXACT opposite. [A Journey Through the Silent Chasm] is now a three part series, detailing what tragic aftermath is left in the wake of suicide. The second part was written by @otahkoapisiakii. Both of us are survivors in terms of our own mental illnesses AND survivors of others who we've lost to suicide. So this will ALWAYS be an incredibly personal story to both of us and I will always be so humbled and grateful to have such a wonderful friend who understands this topic.

3. FOOLED AROUND (AND FELL IN LOVE): Like I said, after HEAD FULL OF DOUBT (which at the time was my longest solo-written fic at a small 24k WC), I retired from writing. I just closed my laptop and walked away. FOR SEVEN YEARS, I never even considered I would EVER return to a) Criminal Minds fandom and b) writing fic for it. But in July a series of events led me to read all my old fanfics and I happened to come across an unfinished WIP that was my take on 'Imagine Me & You' but make it Jemily. I had mapped it out to be about FIVE chapters total, basically a scene-for-scene remake of the film.

But out of that original idea, FOOLED AROUND (AND FELL IN LOVE) was born!! In the span of about a month, I wrote not one but TWO parts of this sapphic rom-com and GOD do I love this AU!! I think about it every day and I am infinitely proud of all 180,000 words of it!!! It' so much fun and it's so soft compared to me older fics, which is a direct comparison to how GOOD I'm doing in life now vs then.

[SEND AUTHOR ASKS]

#bex 🏉 #reply post #about me 2k22 #my writing #suicide mention #criminal minds #emily prentiss #jennifer jareau #jemily #otp: pain cupcakes

[misscrazyfangirl321]

did u ever write any fanfic for the mentalist? ✟☕

I cannot BELIEVE I never answered this ask!!! Yes, I did, although I probably won’t ever share it in a public space. I haven’t touched that fanfiction account in so long... I was very young and had a very odd sense of morality back then, so some of my fics are very strange, and are going to hang out in 2011 where they belong. 

#answered #thanks for the ask! #lattes of love #i'm proud of my younger self for writing and posting her stuff #i know it was super scary for her #but... i still don't think i'm going to point to it now

[smutsonian]

Hello love 😺 umm can u pls please please write dark!steve x reader, where he bully and verbally harrases the reader but somehow kind of love her but just treat her bad and degrade her but when someone else tryna make her fun of her then he shows who she belongs to kinda stuff (pls if u gonna write pls make it so it so dark🥺🥺)...... Feel free to ignore tho cause i'm sorry this seems so long 😬😬🧡

2/2 Hey it's me again 👋👋😬who just send u a request of a long one shot of dark steve rogers x reader where he bullys her but i just forget to tell u that can u pls make that a Highschool AU pls , i really forget to tell u 😬😬

bully

steve rogers x reader

summary: Steve bullies you after you rejected him and he soon regrets it.

warnings: dark, non-con, violence, bullying, blood, self hatred, insecurities, psychological trauma, they are of age, please don’t read if you’re not comfortable with any of these. Not proofread.

word count: 1.7k

a/n: just wanted to post something so this may or may not suck

masterlist

Steve wasn’t always a bully.

It’ll probably be because you hurt his ego.

Maybe he asked you out one time but you were new in school and wary of people so you politely declined his offer.

For Steve, he saw that as you humiliating him in front of the school. The new girl just rejected the Steve Rogers. 

Steve would be like ‘who do you think you are?’ and the cheeky flirty guy he was before becomes someone else.

He started spitting insults here and there, never missing a day to make you feel weird about yourself. 

The soft and beautiful blue eyes from before turned dark and hostile towards you.

Sweet words turned harsh.

Flaws that you didn’t see before started surfacing.

Suddenly your hair is too messy and all over the place. Your skin is too dead and it makes you look creepy. Your eyes are too dull and sad that you don’t seem friendly anymore. Your nose is weird, and so on. The list never ended and you started to change from the person you are before.

Steve made sure to make you feel the way you made him feel.

You suddenly became closed off and did everything to be unnoticed. It’s better to be a nobody than be the center of everyone’s torment.

Steve is a popular guy and it didn’t take long for everyone to follow his lead.

You’re just trying to finish your last year and finally leave the hell you created for yourself but Steve swore to make your life a living hell.

“If it isn’t my favorite dead girl!” Steve’s voice booms through the hallway, the chatters immediately stopped to witness the popular guy, and now, the loser of the whole school interact.

“Got somewhere else to be?” His voice was sweet as well as his eyes but you know, everyone knows that his intentions are far from being sweet.

“What? Your tongue isn’t working anymore? Bet it rot with your dead body and now everything is decaying with you, is that it?” He raised an eyebrow at you, waiting for his friends to back him up which they did. Steve smirked as the hallway started being filled with thunderous laughter and they’re all directed at you.

You did nothing but bite your lip in hopes of stopping yourself from crying in front of everyone. You can’t afford another round of teasing.

You fake a laugh before turning away from him and started heading to your last class.

Steve hated the way your eyes looked at his with nothing but sadness.

Your sadness wasn’t even directed at him but at yourself.

He just wanted to make you feel the way you made him feel so you can understand that the both of you belong to each other.

You’re fucking perfect and Steve is far from that. He might be the most popular guy in school but you were way out of his league so he had to bring you down just a little bit.

But it got out of hand.

He had no idea how to stop what he started but then something happened.

He was just on his way out of detention, the hallways are now empty, everyone has already gone home and Steve was used to that. What he wasn’t used to is the sound of whimpering. More importantly, it’s the sound of you whimpering.

He wasted no time and ran towards the direction of your voice and as he turned the corner, his blood turned red hot in seconds. He’s seeing nothing but red at the sight in front of him.

Mrs. Roberts asked you to come to her office before going home to discuss something and you didn’t know whether to cry because of sadness or cry because someone actually cares for you.

Mrs. Roberts shared her worries with you because your once impressive grades started pummeling down to the point where it can cause problems with your chances of graduating.

Mrs. Roberts gave you special assignments to do so you can pass her subject and you thanked her for that. You even hugged her so tightly and dwelled on the affection for too long which worried her.

“Is there something wrong, dear?” She asked, eyes glossing over yours with worry.

You decided against telling her and just shook your head at her. “Do you think I’m failing my other subjects? What if I don’t graduate in time?”

Mrs. Roberts was quick to calm you down, telling you how the meeting with the teachers went and even joked about you purposely failing only her subject which you laughed at.

You left her office with a smile, chuckling at the memories of her jokes when you suddenly felt an impact on your left side and then your right side when you hit the lockers with a loud bang, making you whimper in pain.

“The fuck are you laughing at, dead girl?” An unfamiliar voice says above you.

You look up to see a boy a year younger than you but before you could reply, his foot started meeting your abdomen, your sides, or whatever part of you that he could kick. At some point, he was able to kick your face which made your ears ring in pain so you decided to shield your head with your arms to block his kicks.

“I don’t know why Steve never did this before but I am doing it for him. He’ll be so proud of me! I can take over his place after he graduates.”

You didn’t even realize that you weren’t receiving his kicks anymore but the sound of kicks can still be heard.

You peak out of your arms to see the young boy’s body across from you on the floor, receiving hits from a large man above him.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing, punk?!” Steve’s voice growls in anger and you didn’t know if you were thankful that you weren’t on the receiving end of his growl but it still terrified you.

“M-making you proud! I’m doing the thing you can’t seem to do!” The younger boy spits out red liquid before scrambling away after Steve pulls him up by his collar.

“If I fucking see you touch her again, you’ll never be able to see a day again, you understand?” Steve pushes the boy away before looking back at you, all the anger on his face turns into something softer.

He scrambles towards you, kneeling before you and helping you so gently until your leaning on the lockers, heaving at the pain that the boy caused you.

Steve continued to stare at you, eyes observing you before his hands gently prodded your face.

“You’re bleeding…” He murmurs before pulling out a cloth and dabbing it softly on the wound, apologizing when you flinched at his touch which surprised you.

“W-what are you doing?” Your voice trembles and Steve only sighed in response, shaking his head in disappointment.

“Why did you have to reject me?” He asked, carefully putting a band-aid over the scar and kissing it so gently with his pink lips. You stared at him in shock and confusion.

“Wh-What the f-fuck?!” You try to push him off but he only gripped both of your wrists with one hand while the other caress your face.

“We would’ve been so happy together. You would’ve had a great experience but you always manage to put yourself in danger… Why didn’t you just let me in?” The hand on your face goes to the back of your neck and your struggles were no use when he easily pulled you into a kiss, his tongue easily forcing itself into your mouth and coating and mixing your saliva with his.

“I should’ve not given up but you… you hurt me, ya know?” He pulls away before admiring your face.

“I lied though. You’ve always been so beautiful. I just wanted you to give me a chance but then you started avoiding me more.” His jaw clenches before his grip on your wrists tighten.

His other hand goes under your shirt before fondling your breasts through your bra. He leans in towards your neck before sniffing and moaning as he continues to massage your breasts while his hips started to grind against yours in need.

He growls against your neck as his grind started to get violently fast.

“Ahh fuck!” His hips stopped before he’s shaking against your body.

Your eyes widened at him as you looked down at the front of his pants which now had a stain on the crotch area.

“D-did you just—”

“See what you do to me?” He laughs before kissing your lips once more, the hand on your breasts trailing down before he forces it down your pants and under your panties to feel your core with his big hands.

His fingers make a quick swipe up your slit making you shiver at the feeling of him on your sensitive area.

“And I see what I do to you…” He inserts one finger, groaning at the way your walls are tightening around just one finger.

Steve swore he could cum again at the thought of his cock entering your very tight pussy.

“We didn’t start strong but we have all the time in the world now…” He places a kiss wet on your lips, continuing his assault on your core while his thumb finds its way to your clit.

Steve enjoys the way your hips jolted at the feeling and he smiled.

“I will help you graduate with honors and then after that,” he pulls back from the kiss before smiling at you.

“We’ll start over. I’m never leaving you again. I’m never going to give up on you. We’ll finally have what we both deserved.” He feels your walls fluttering around his one finger so he added another, thumb flicking your nub harder, forcing you to release.

“Mmm!” You bit your bottom lip as an orgasm was forced out of you, pleasure showering you as your eyes shut tightly.

“So fucking beautiful…” Steve pulls his hand out of your jeans before quickly placing his fingers inside his mouth to taste you.

“So fucking delicious as well.” He helps you up carefully before guiding you out of the school and into his car.

“I’ll drive you to school and from school from now on. There won’t be a time when I’m not watching over you. I’ll protect you from now on. I’m going to right every wrong thing I did to you, baby…” He leans down to kiss your lips then your head before fixing your seatbelt for you and starting the car.

“Everything will be better now.”

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a/n: been trying to write but it’s just not working rn but im trying to come thru hehe

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[juwon-ah-moved]

Hi Nico!! Just wanted to ask who your best friends on this site are 🥺 through your posts I get the feeling that you’re a really lovely and caring person who unfortunately believes that their friends are temporary/don’t really care about them but I’m sure that’s not true! So that’s why I wanted to ask who your best friends are 🥺❤️

hi friend !!! sorry i'm so late answering this, but it's such a lovely question so thank you so much, especially for the kind words <3

under the cut actually cause it’s long

okay so i could never answer this without mentioning the @giftedgays they are such lovely funny kind people and friends and i love them all so much!!! they welcomed me in their little server/friend group early in the year and it's really made my year so much better!! each and every one of them that i have talked to but especially:

rahul @petekaos we all know by now that i love rahul, he's my best friend and i can never find the right words to explain how dear he is to me !! so i won't try now but i just want you all to know one thing i find endearing about rahul: sometimes when he jokes around he gets like "Fake Serious" and will just say things without emojis or exclamation points or anything like that and i find it so funny like i swear it makes everything 200% funnier. rahul funniest person on earth? maybe!! love you <3

dawn @pangwave i feel like dawn is my younger sibling and i really love them so much and i feel so protective of them, dawn please know i would k*ll for you, just ask, i will fly to where you are and do it. (for legal reasons this is a joke.) you are so funny and kind and you are a precious important person and i'm always so proud of you <33

angel @nanonkorapat my other younger sibling!!! they are so lovely and kind and talented and such a beautiful person and i wish them the best always!! i love how you are so passionate about the things you like and also i wish you would give yourself a break more often because you are doing your best and that's always enough <3

roa @pran-pat what can i say roa is so funny ... listen the gifted gays are so funny, maybe it's cause gays have a superior sense of humor you know? anyway roa is lovely and i love her gifs and despite what i said yesterday, i love when she backreads chats that have like 400+ messages and the convo is still ongoing so it's literally just the rest of us screaming and roa just. reacting to stuff we said an hour ago skdkskn never change roa <3

vee @sapphicsharks first let me say your url is great (there, are you happy now vee? skdsmb) anyway vee is another contender for funniest person on earth. also, love her self roasting (that ends up in starboard). you're so nice and cool and i hope you get to run away soon <3 (@ your family this is a joke :) dw) (is it tho) ily gaymer

alexa @honeyaoki another sibling woooohooo can't believe i gained so many siblings through the server, love that for me. alexa is so chaotic seriously ask anyone in the gc and they'll tell you this. whenever they appear the gifted gays descend into chaos. amazing talent 10/10. beside that, alexa writes so well!!! they're funny and kind and always have love for everyone! i hope we get to talk more in the future <3 ily

jo @soulmatelines is so amazing and nice and she always has great recs!!!!! you're the backbone of the server for real and i'm so happy to know you and i hope you always have warm food on your table, people who love you and someone to hug you when you need or want it <33

sam @kaonoppakao king of gifmaking, we all know this, but do we all know he's funny and lovely and the king of gaymers? he deserves the best!! the best should include bop bot, btw. it's non negotiable. love you sam <3

cass @patandpran aaaahh cass is so amazing!! she's sweet and loving and i'm so happy for any of her achievements in life <3 your analysis are always amazing and they really show how smart you are. i hope you're well, love you!!

@tawanv @wjmild @another-country @ohmnanons love y'all too <3333

other friends who aren't in the gifted gays !!!

edo @amasawaseiji is so great and one of my best friends, i hope he knows how much i love him and that i'm always here for him <3 edo i wish you all the best always and i hope we can see each other again soon because i feel so comfortable around you and i miss you :( love you so much

may @burninglilys they're just amazing what can i say!!! i always always appreciate our talks, whether they're about shows we're both watching or about serious things or just sending each other videos of cats/nature. you deserve to see and pet so many cats, all the kitties, and i want you to know you are so dear to me!! love you <333

and now this should be more for my sideblog, but! whatever, the question is on this blog and i can't talk about my friends without mentioning them so: here's to the football server, y'all are amazing and i'm not gonna tag everyone because honestly that'd take so long (and i'm not sure who follows me here) and i'm getting tired sdsdskcn but special mentions to:

the milan squad! daria @samlammers they are amazing and i wish she gave herself more credit :( <3 bestie you are sweet and kind and funny and always ready to be there for others, and all i can hope for is that people can give you the same love you give them! because you really do deserve it. i love how we share so many passions and i love you!!!

@hendos is great and the #1 source for random serie a fun facts. seriously every time they're like "oh actually i have a fun fact about this!" i get so excited. it's always guaranteed to be very nice. you're one of the og milan fans on tumblr i feel and we didn't really talk before the server, but i've always thought you were cool so i'm glad we get to talk now! ily <3

mattia @streetcircuits aka the best! i'm serious mattia is great they are so nice and funny and kind!! i think you're amazing and i am sending you hugs any time you need them <3 you're always such a source of light for the server and you are my mestie (mattia bestie but also marc bestie !!) love youu

okay there are probably more people, surely more football/f1 friends, but i seriously am tired and writing more messages for everyone would be too much skdksm i don't wanna write half assed things. anyway thank you so much again for asking this, it really made me realize how many lovely people i have around me and i do hope you're right and they'll stay around for a long time :') love you anon!!

#have a nice day/night :) #nico answers #i am not rereading this so if there's typos or i said dumb shit i am sorry #i will reread it later #love to everyone <333 #reminder

[intheseautumnhands]

Ooo, I love this writing ask! Notebook, smartphone and rolltop desk.

Yeah, I really like the list! It's so positive, and it's nice to reflect. ^^

notebook: What story/chapter/scene/line did you have the most fun writing this year?

It has not been posted and about 90% of what I had has been eaten, so who knows when I will get around to rewriting and posting it, but story, probably the OxBlades fic where Kasimir's actually a little younger than most of them, was 16 when Zillah debuted as a fighter, had a massive teenage puppy crush on her, and proceeds to desperately hope she does not recognize him from hanging around the ring when they meet up again as adults, also featuring bits of my headcanons and feelings about tiny Kasimir growing up amongst the criminal element of Volisport. It was just a lot of fun! It was a fic premise I sincerely doubt appeals to anyone else or lines up with anyone else's ideas of the character and I was having a blast writing it mostly for myself. Also slightly cockier teenage Kasimir was a lot of fun to try and write while still drawing a reflection that would be recognizable as his older self.

For things that got published, either the Umbrella Academy fic where they're all pirates and mostly supernatural creatures, because that was just a matter of putting Shipful of Monsters on repeat and going wild with that vibe, or the Ox fic for the prompt "to everybody's silent disappointment there are actually more than enough beds", because coming up with ways to destroy the beds in Necropolis-on-Sea was a lot of fun and it was nice to go back to three sentence fic stuff again, it had been a while.

smartphone: Favorite conversation or line of dialogue you wrote this year?

"Yeah, a whole two days ago! Today is a new day, Egbert, and you know what today needs?... It needs a chase, and I'm just the man to make it happen. For all of you. But also, for me."

I don't know if anyone else can hear this very clearly in Luke's voice but I absolutely could while writing it and it's one of the few times I really cracked myself up writing fic.

I also liked the very pointed horoscope in the TUA/Night Vale fic -- "Libra: Remember that we all make mistakes, that yours are miniscule compared to countless others, and that Intern Michael is perfectly fine, so there's no reason to stay away any longer. Also, the stars want you to know that they are so very, very proud of you. You're doing so well, Libra! So don't worry about the little stuff, okay?"

rolltop desk: How did you indulge yourself in your writing this year?

I think basically everything I wrote this year was self-indulgent! Writing every Kasimir ship I possibly can has definitely been a huge self-indulgence, of the "I want this, so I'm gonna make it happen" kind. Writing backstory for Sky from Mamma Mia was hugely self-indulgent as he's kind of accidentally become my favorite character over the years and I don't think anyone else cares! And everything I did for MerMay was very much a 'because I like it', but especially Ben/Siren!Allison. I have had a hugely self-indulgent fic year where most of what I've done has been for things I wanted to see more of in the world, or that I didn't think had much of an audience at all, and I am honestly greatly enjoying myself.

( year end writing asks )

#memething #by grace and grit

[hollenius]

I'm so so sorry but I have to: Werner for the character meme (and/or Chuck McGill, if you can't think of anything!)

What the hell, I'm gonna do Werner AND Chuck

Werner

Fav thingabout him: He is so sweet; if I had a German uncle or grandpa or something, I'dwant him to be mine. He obviously takes his work very seriously too. He(initially) seems like a very cautious, careful sort of guy...unfortunatelythis attitude does not extend to all aspects of his life.

Least favthing: He's too sweet, dammit. His naivete and trusting nature made megenuinely angry, because I couldn't believe anyone could be so stupid aboutanything when he seemed fairly smart about everything else. I don't think youhave to be "street-smart" to understand that breaking out of an enclosedcompound without permission isn't the sort of thing you'd be allowed to getaway with. I was annoyed at how he felt like a plot device at the endthere--that he just existed to force Mike to have to kill him. It's a fault ofthe writing more than the character. Everyone could see the end coming from amile away, which is (as far as I can remember) unprecedented in the series.Even things that were heavily telegraphed and seemed obvious usually carriedsome sort of unforeseen twist, i.e. everyone thinking the lantern was going tobe involved in Chuck's death, but not knowing it was going to be a suicide. Thesecond they showed Mike building up a relationship with Werner, everyone knewexactly where it was headed. Also, this is a weird pet peeve, but I hate how healways called Mike "Michael". Bro, you've been working with him formonths, you are the only one who calls him that.

Fav line:(agh, unfortunately I can't recall any because I don't have any way ofrewatching season 4 at the moment. I love that he was courteous enough totranslate into English that he felt like he was going to throw up in the bumpyvan ride.)

brOTP: Him& Mike as cute old man drinking buddies.

OTP: Werner& his unseen wife, I guess. (That phone call before his death was so sad. I hope nothing happens to her, but this is the Breaking Bad Cinematic Universe, so bad things often happen to innocent people.)

nOTP: idk,Werner/Kai? I haven't really seen him shipped with anybody so I can't say Ihave any strong opinions on the matter.

randomheadcanon: (again, I need to rewatch all of season 4, because I remember thestory arcs, but not enough of the little details in dialogue and stuff.)

unpopularopinion: I have to admit, I don't know enough of what the popular opinions onWerner are to know what an unpopular opinion would be. I liked him, I just wishhis character arc felt less contrived and that he was treated like less of adevice. I also have seen some people in some places comparing him to Walt,which doesn't really make sense to me, because personality-wise they're justtoo far removed from each other. (Then again, people were even comparing dopeyPryce to Walter White, which was also a stretch!)

song Iassociate w/ him: I...I have no idea! Sorry. (So long, farewell, aufwiedersehen, goodbye?)

fav picture: the cute little drawings @callmcgills did of him! (Also, ugh, the shot where he is, uh, shot...is beautiful. Depressing, but cinematically beautiful. I’m not posting that here though.)

 Chuck

Fav thingabout him: Honestly, as a fellow cowardly, anxiety-ridden, socially maladroit, perfectionistolder child, aspects of him are extremely relatable, frightening as that may beto admit. (My younger brother is of the slacker/moocher variety, rather thanthe con man variety, though.) I don't agree with everything he does, but I understandwhy he does it. (This is actually pretty similar to my attitude towardsSkyler's actions in Breaking Bad--I don't necessarily agree with her decisions,but I mostly understand why she acts the way she does.)

Least favthing: I think he should've been willing to at least put Jimmy on some sort ofprobationary path to HHM after he landed Sandpiper. HHM was under no obligationto hire Jimmy after he passed the bar (a lot of fandom seems to feel otherwise,which makes no sense! I don't think any other firm would've wanted to hireJimmy either!) Jimmy probably would've still managed to screw something up, butat least then if Chuck wanted to officially bar him from working for HHM forgood, Jimmy would know why, and what it was that he had done to cause that. Itdoes no good to punish someone if he doesn't even understand he's beingpunished, which is what the whole issue is in the first place with Chuck goingbehind Jimmy's back and using Howard as the perpetual bearer of bad news.

Fav line:"Because if there's one thing kids love, it's local printjournalism."

brOTP: lmao Chuck is bros with nobody except his space blanket, and his ol'sipping-scotch-and-chortling companion Howard, before that relationship gotdestroyed...

OTP: ...althoughI must also confess a SHAMEFUL desire to ship Chuck/Howard, because it's gotsuch a messed up power dynamic, because they've known each other for at least18 years, because Howard's clearly still so much in awe of Chuck (which Chuckprobably enjoys), and because neither of them seems to have any other friendsor close relationships. (Are we ever going to learn what's up with Howard'swedding ring? Even my mom thinks Howard is gay at this point! And what's upwith papa Hamlin? Did he die? Retire?) Canon-wise, I'm actually really curiousabout Chuck & Rebecca's relationship, because I have to wonder what it washe did that caused her to divorce him, but not bear any particular grudge oranimus towards him afterwards. He was clearly really upset about the divorce,but doesn't bear any ill-will towards her either. She doesn't appear to enteredinto any new relationship after the divorce either. It's all very mysterious.

nOTP: I can'ttell if this person was serious or not, but I swear I remember seeing someonepropose some theory that Kim had fucked Chuck at some point, and that's gonnaget a BIG NO from me.

randomheadcanon: oh god I've got like five hundred of them at this point. Themassive infodump that was Chuck's obituary in the season 4 premiere contributedto a lot of them, I think. I imagine Chuck's freshman year of college, at age14, was absolute hell for him. He was so proud to get accepted to an Ivy Leagueschool, but had been upset it wasn't a more prestigious one, like Harvard,Yale, or Princeton. (He had applied to them and had a few interviews, but unbeknownstto him, he had been heavily penalized in their byzantine admissions proceduresbecause, despite his sterling academic record, they didn’t find him outgoing or athleticenough.) His parents put him on the train to Philadelphia by himself, with afew suitcases, a map, and $50. He had no problems getting to the university,but was pretty overwhelmed right off the bat by the fact that everyone else wasolder and wealthier than him; he had dealt with this to some extent in high school, butnot to this degree (I headcanon his fictional alma mater, Francis Xavier HighSchool, as a typical Jesuit all-boys preparatory school that draws heavily fromupper-middle-class suburban families). Here he was, a literal child, thrustinto the adult world, and the world of the elites, at that. He probably feltself-conscious about things he hadn't even realized he could feelself-conscious about before, and spent at least a couple nights sobbing intohis pillow, and praying that his roommate couldn't hear him. He made a coupledesperate attempts to fit in, with a relatively low level of success (e.g. goingto a party and trying to impress people there by playing piano, only to get abeer spilled on him instead), before deciding it wasn't worth it and he wouldthrow himself singlemindedly into his classes and extracurriculars. He had hisfirst-ever panic attack sometime during his first semester, and wound up at thecampus doctor's office because he had convinced himself he was having a heart attack.On being told he was physically fine, he was indignant, but all the same, henever told his family about the incident, or anyone else either. Somewherearound this time, he also gets a letter from his parents, telling him he'sgoing to be a big brother in a few months, and won't this be exciting for him?(He wants to tell them his life is too exciting for him as it is, but saysnothing, instead writing back that he is sure having a younger sibling to helplook after will be the greatest experience of his life. He almost convinceshimself that he means it.)

unpopularopinion: I DON'T HATE CHUCK. (The most unpopular opinion of all!) He's myfavorite character on the show, with the obvious disclaimer that saying acharacter is my favorite doesn't mean I approve of all the character's actions,etc. Also, I know he's just a fictional character, but I'm still pissed offabout people celebrating that he killed himself & saying they hope it waspainful & stuff like that. Like, how much of an asshole do you have to be?What a horrible thing to say.

song Iassociate w/ him: Burning Down The House j/k, probably Faure's Sicilienne,because I too, cannot play it on piano without screwing up

fav picture: Not a picture, but I can’t resist.

[throughalleternity]

From the author ask: 17, 20, 25?

17) if you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

Lol if I'm not still a fledgling, I'm definitely only a juvenile bird and a ways away from the sub adult and adult life stages. But obligatory biology stuff aside—

I actually don't know? Pretty much pre-2021 I wrote just for me—yes I posted fic on AO3 but I really didn't notice or care at all about how they were received. I think my younger self should tell my current self to care less about what other people may think now lol. There are probably mechanistic things I could say to explore, but at the same time, I wasn't writing to tell a particularly good story tbh; there were just things I wanted to write to express, and I'm glad it was that way.

I do wish I told my more recent younger self to switch to the Rich Text editor when posting Rewind though! I completely forgot and it was just a giant block of text until I fixed it, whoops.

20) do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?

It depends, but I think I prefer longer sit-down sessions. What usually happens is I get interested in writing something, and then it becomes my focus for a day or a few days. Everything gets written in that time period, where I'm spending several hours at a time with it if I can. I like the longer sessions since that usually means I'm having an easier time figuring out where to take the fic, so the writing process feels smoother and less frustrating haha.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

Making me choose... I won't harp on about themes in Pool Cues lol, so have this since it was my chance to sneak in a softer moment and a gravity idea I'd had in the back of my head:

[Alex turns] back, only to be stopped for a moment at the sight—Maggie and Lucy caught up in each other, hands tangling in messy hair and caressing heated skin while they kiss like they have all the time in the world and yet it’s not enough.

They’re so beautiful.

Lucy pulls away, turning her head to throw a smirk towards Alex. “You coming or what, Al?” Partly a pun, partly to tease, it’s undercut by the breathy way it trails off as Maggie peppers kisses across the newly exposed skin of Lucy’s jaw.

Any comeback immediately vanishes from Alex’s mind.

But they make it over to the bed, pulled in by Maggie and Lucy’s gravity.

#ask me #i do like that section i pulled out and it has always vaguely amused me #that of all things #these lines that don't relate to the fic's premise are what i enjoy the most #and im mildly shocked by the people who saw my Rewind text block and took a chance on it 😅 #i appreciate that they did! #it's a big reason why i kept writing in the sg fandom #but wow

[andsheloved]

💬 For your ask game! You seem like such a cool person tbh! An your Loki stuff is Great!!!!!!!!! Do you think you'll ever write more for Bucky? I just love my black haired stabby bois, no presure of course! Evertyhing you've done so far is so good! Have a great day!!!

oh goodness, thank you anon! i am really just a big nerd who needed some place to put all of her ramblings and thoughts, so the thought of someone thinking i'm cool after seeing/reading the things i post is very wonderful! so thank you! that made me smile so much! and again thank you on the loki stuff! i don't think people realize how much it means to me when they say i write ~insert character here~ well, especially loki, him as a character just means so much to me and, gosh, i really could go on forever about how much he means to me and just how warm my heart gets over him, and maybe another time, but i really want to thank you for that! it really does mean a lot!

💬 something you wish you knew 5 years ago?

if i could tell myself from five years ago anything, it would be that, dreams really do come true, you just have to keep working hard. i mean truly that advice is for everyone, but five years ago i was honestly not doing so hot, and just, i never thought anything would be working out the way that it has, even though there are spots of not so fun times, i'm working at a museum (i know i always talk about this i am sorry it is simply just a super fun time), and i'm learning what i've always wanted to learn! another quote that makes me :') and just a word of advice i suppose, is 'when you find out who you are, you find out what you need' from princess and the frog. i spent a lot of my life doing things for other people and trying to make other people proud, and while i still am kind of like that, i'm trying my darndest to do things that make me happy, and that would make my younger self proud. wow that got kind of deep, but anyways! once you learn to accept and discover who you are, you'll see what you want from life, and that, for me, was to make myself happy, and to make my own dreams come true!

thank you so so much for the ask anon! and regarding bucky; i do plan on writing more for him! i'm just waiting for a bit of inspiration to strike! but i do have a few ideas brewing that i can't wait to share!

#i'll be seeing queue #madeline answers! #thank you anon! #mwauh!