#i'm not falling for the whole 'idk much about it cause actually it's complicated for me i don't really follow religion'

[stuckinapril]

🕊️ hi, so it's been like a few months and I'm still not over him, somehow i always end up thinking about him atleast once everyday. (most of the time i blame myself bc i broke it off and let him go but i had to do it, there were so many complications that i had to deal with back then) but i know i miss him, and sometimes i feel like I'll always miss him even after years and that makes me feel miserable bc i don't wanna do that. I want to be free from this feeling but idk how to.

And recently,i found someone (an absolute green flag) who actually cares for me so much and cherishes me but somehow i end up comparing them. I feel as if nobody could ever make me feel the way he did and I'm scared of that.

if you continue to dwell on him, think he’ll always be the best you’ll ever have, not truly let go of your feelings for him, not appreciate what you currently have, then you’ll never get over him. i thought i wouldn’t get over my ex as well. on some days the memories would really just stab me out of nowhere, and i’d be stuck dwelling.

the truth is your ex is not the cause nor the solution to your pain. the real problem is you sound like you were far too dependent on him for happiness, and now that he’s gone you no longer feel whole. that’s not good. you can’t have anyone else be the main reason as to why you’re happy; your happiness is something you should get for yourself. that kind of insecurity can’t be healed with new people, either. you need to confront it yourself.

and honestly, the most effective way to do so is to go through it alone. i know it sounds counterintuitive, but sometimes we run away from ourselves so much that we need to force ourselves to face our issues. you need to look inward & figure out why you feel this deep-seated dependence on your ex. this is also why i suggest not committing to a relationship, if you hadn’t already—because when you’re not healed from your ex, one of two things happen: either you commit to a shitty guy who takes advantage of your vulnerability, or you commit to someone who’s fantastic (maybe that’s your case) & you fall short because you’re not over your ex. we tend to think having someone around to help us heal is a good enough reason—but it’s not fair for them, even if they say they’re willing to go through this with us. especially when it starts to get into comparison territory. that can leave long-lasting scars on even the strongest person.

i’m not trying to say you’re in the wrong, i’m just trying to be brutally honest w you bc that’s what you need. just know your problem needs to be solved by you and you alone, no one else. not your ex, not this new guy, but you

#ask

[sevensistersofsussex]

5 Favorite & Least favorite characters of The Orginals and why?

Oh dear anon.

I do wish I could give you a real answer on this, but I haven't actually seen The Originals. The first season, but that's it. I could give you better answers about The Vampire Diaries (favorite and least favorite characters, ships, friendships etc.) if you wanted but I can do my best based on like 20 episodes of watching season one. And with the caveat that maybe some of what I liked or didn't like would change with the coming seasons.

Favorite (in no order)

Davina - Can't blame her for how she acted during the sacrifice. I mean, I doubt she thought it would be so violent. I feel like a lot was withheld from her and the rest of the Harvest girls in general. She's young and naïve and has this rebellious streak where she doesn't seem to enjoy being told what to do. Good for her.

Rebekah - Not shocked that she brought Mikael to NOLA, shocked that Klaus gave his approval for her love life only after she made a move against him. Very bold and honestly, I would have supported her doubling down on her decision. Rebekah deserves to run NOLA.

Thierry - Idk. I just love his whole forbidden romance vibe with Katie at odds with his deep friendship with Marcel. I do wonder what he felt about the witches and how he justified his actions against them to Katie or maybe she wasn't okay with the Harvest either? Who knows. I just wish those two had left NOLA together to live their pretty people lives out somewhere in France.

Celeste - I get it, she's the villain. But honestly, love how deeply committed she was to her vendetta. That line she delivers to Elijah about how every woman he falls in love with from now on he has to wonder if it's her. Sick. I do love that for her. It is very Rumors album and I just have to clap at the level of commitment to ruining the Mikaelsons. And she could have done it to if it wasn't for those meddling kids! (Monique).

Sophie Deveraux - She just reminds me so much of Jenna. I was rooting for her to make it out of town! Trying to do what she thinks is the right thing and paying for it. She should have been around longer! It also would have been interesting to have her around as a love interest after Rebekah leaves.

Least Favorite (in no order)

Monique - Honestly, just the whole killing your aunt because you are a zealot kills my vibes. And then listing her as things you lost to the coven? Ma'am, you did that! Own it! Your mom, yes. Your aunt, no. Move on. The actress does a great job with that blank, nothing behind the eyes zealot thing. Kudos. It just feels like they wrote her character to fill in whatever they needed her to fill in, ya know?

Hayley - I just....she just...seems like such a different character than the one we got in TVD? Like when she made an impassioned plea on the life of innocents, I snort laughed. This from the same girl who (less than 6 months prior?) had bonded, trained and ultimately led to the slaughter 12 hybrids and then had sex with the man who did it? Idk...I guess I just thought she'd be way more ruthless and unfeeling about the causalities on her way to what she wants. Was the implication that impending motherhood softened her? Cause it shouldn't have. Imo, it should have hardened her. Amplified her cruel streak. That would have been interesting.

Cami - I almost hate to put her here cause I think she's got interesting stuff you know? Solving the mystery of her brother and dealing with her family's long history of complicity in the city. All very cool. But towards the end of season 1 I was just, not into her? Her morality seems to fluctuate and I'm just confused. Maybe the theme here is that Julie & Co don't write female characters with a perspective in mind, but rather what the male characters need from them?

Oliver - Honestly how cold blooded do you need to be to kill your old friend and then claim it was for the good of the pack? Another character that I'm just confused about what his motivation and perspective were. Working with the witches against Rebekah and Hayley (and by association his bff Jackson)? And also plotting against his own people to stage a coupe against said bff which idk about TVDU werewolves in a pack but I feel like the fight for alpha would be to the death and then what about your bestie? Huh! What about your bestie Ollie? Also he did my girl Rebekah dirty.

Marcel - I am sure this would change! Cause I adore him, truly. But why the hell did Rebekah leave town and he's all "It's my city" like he's Batman? The writers couldn't come up with a better reason why, after all this time, he finally gets the girl and he says no thanks I think I'll just stay here in this warehouse and get my best friend killed. Couldn't possibly rule a city in a different part of the country with my hot vampire wife! I am confused and a little salty about that so please forgive my bias. Was it really just the city? I know it all depended on the actors but come on! Give the man a better reason to deny the love of his life! It's giving me Season 3 Stefan "Go to Denver to resolve your feelings about my brother" Salvatore vibes.

#the originals #anon ask #davina claire #rebekah mikaelson #thierry vanchure #celeste dubois #sophie deveraux #monique deveraux #hayley marshall #cami o'connell #oliver #no last name #you lead rebekah on and your last name gets wiped #those are the rules #marcel gerard

[thebleedingeffect]

Couple hours late but here’s aro questions for you

2. 4. 5. 9. 15. 16. 25. 27. 32. 35. 38. 44. 45. 50. aaaand 53. :] enjoy

Oh my gosh so many!many!! YES yes I love oversharing and talking about aro stuff ty so much for giving me the opportunity and don't worry about it ^-^!

2. How would you describe your identity?

I'm pretty happy and content with the label of aroace agender to describe myself! Really I'm just vibing and gender is a mystery to me so that's just part of my identity now lmao

4. Are you romance favorable, neutral, or repulsed?

Oof, this one is slightly complicated but I would say I lean slightly more on the repulsed side as I just can't see myself ever being in a straight up romantic relationship and tbh, I don't want to SJSJSJ

5. What kind of attraction do you feel?

PLATONIC!! PLATONIC, with a little dash of queer platonic to spice things up but im a big old sucker for platonic affection and love over literally any over kind of love lmao. Call me your friend or just friend terms and I'll be falling over myself

9. What made you realize you were aspec/arospec?

Okay so, funny story about that, I unironically figured out that I was aro thanks to techno. I found it out cause I kept reading queer platonic em duo stuff and every time techno talked about his love for philza but zero romance attached to it I was just like....... Oh....... another thing is that weirdly the dsmp fandom is just the only one that I've ever seen actual aspec rep IN the fandom content itself

15. What made you realize you wanted a queer platonic relationship?

I think the one thing I do like in the idea of romance is the loyalty and commitment attached to it which is how I began wanting a queer platonic relationship. That type of love that feels like home but without the romantic expectation and just creating your own definition of love with your partner is the dream for me :]

16. What confuses you about typical romantic relationships?

So many things you have absolutely no idea. I've never really understood the whole physical longing thing and having someone take up all of your thoughts and decisions to a worrying degree. I've never got wanting to act in an idealized way so that your crush might like you cause what's the point? I've never got how love confessions are this big relationship changing thing cause I just don't care and never thought of romantic love as a concern. Grade school was hell man SJSJSJ

25. Are you good at flirting? Do you flirt often?

I don't really think I flirt?? Idk if compliments can be seen as flirting as I love being nice and complimenting people but I, don't think that's flirting?? Im hopeless at this whole flirting thing just throw me to the curb

27. Do you enjoy seeing romance irl/online/in media/etc.?

Irl it's kinda impossible to avoid romance so I've just gotten really good at ignoring it in that context! But in media and online? I'll fully admit that my romance repulsion comes out really hard and I don't like seeing or reading romantic content if I can help it. God the amount of blocked shipping tags that I have in my filters SJSJJS

32. Come up with the stupidest way to ask someone out, right now!

Hey baby wanna find out how I can make this heat wave even worse?

(was that good? I have absolutely no fucking idea SJSJSJS)

35. Do you enjoy valentine's day?

For the sweets and chocolates? Yes, for the romance? Oh god no, I always end up staying completely offline for that entire day cause I get so annoyed that it's just better for me to play video games or something sjsjsj I do enjoy the red, white, and pink aesthetic though, it's cute! ^-^

38. How many arospecs do you know irl/online?

Fun fact! My wife is actually on the aro spectrum herself! :DD I love her so much she found out she was aro a bit after me and its been great lmao. All in all I believe I only know two aro people overall? Which is a crime I need to make more aro friends but making friends is so hard sjsjsj

44. Do you have an aro ring? Do you want one?

I don't have one yet but I've been thinking about getting one! :D it's just a really pretty and lovely idea so I genuinely might do it, that is if my brain allows me to wear a ring lol

45. Do you have an ace ring? Do you want one?

Gonna get both so I can give the simultaneous finger to both sex and romance SHSHSJ

50. Any arospec headcanons

YES, LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. Loz wise I strongly believe oot link and hyrule warriors link to be on the aro spectrum!! ^-^ I mean, oot link literally ignored a whole ass marriage proposal so hard that I half believe the fact Ruto was interested didn't even REGISTER. hw link is so extremely funny to me cause the IDEA of him being aro and being chased by an evil sorceress is the embodiment of my poor aro meow meow. He didn't ask for this, he didn't want it, he doesn't even understand what's the big deal about romance WHY is she destroying REALITY FOR IT!!!

53. What is the best part about being aro?

The relief of knowing that I don't have to force myself to find or force myself to pretend that I feel romantic love. The relief that I can be my genuine self and be happy in the different forms of love that bring me happiness instead of what society expects of me. The fact that I have a name to explain what I've been experiencing my entire life and the fact that people reflect my thoughts have brought me more comfort than you can imagine. It's the relief of knowing I don't have to act or sell myself for a nonexistent partner and instead pursue the queer love that I've always dreamed of. It's the fascination of exploring the very foundation of love and how I interpret it by having a complete absence of romantic love but so much love for other things. For me being aro is comfort, acceptance, and living with the fact that you are not lesser for not experiencing something that a large amount of people, it's finding happiness in that absence as it allows you to instead fill that space with what you choose to love. It's carving out a little space for that queer love whenever it arrives and it fits perfectly within all the other things you've given love to, so much so that you never even think of how you may be different or may never experience something that everyone else cause you're so incredibly happy with what you have! That you could never think or want anything else, that's what being aro is for me and I've been much happier with my identity ever since I realized that ^-^

#oh BOY i went on a rant at the very end SJSJSJS but ty so so much i love talking about aro experiences #cause its so special to me!! being aro is a large part of me and i would never replace it or wish it away cause im so happy for it #i could never imagine myself being romantic cause that's a horrible scenario for me lmao. but really!!! ty so much for asking i had so- #much fun ^-^!! #thebleedingeffect talks #rip dashboard sorry im on mobile no read more for you. look upon my aro thoughts

[likesummerrainn]

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#mine #you guys can ignore this im gonna rant for a second no one look #but like.... #the thing that gets me is how....like if i'm talking about my faith? and my personal relationship with religion? #i'm not looking to have an entire conversation about why YOU think organized religion is wrong and bad #you asked me a question about my faith and i am happy to answer it and leave it at that #but my relationship with my faith and my religion and my way of life is not an opening for you to #rant about why religious institutions are toxic and bad ESPECIALLY #when you have made zero effort to understand it #there is such a big disconnect between the institutions themselves and the faith itself #and there's a huge difference between me following my faith #and the countries that say they're following that faith #you asked me about what something means? you asked me to clarify something for you? fine great good let's leave it there #i'm not falling for the whole 'idk much about it cause actually it's complicated for me i don't really follow religion' #okay great good for you i'm not asking because i know wehre this is gonna lead us #and i'm not doing that anymore #i'm not defending my faith from someone whose sole purpose is to start an argument #i'm not defending my faith to someone whose entire guise for this conversation has been to throw their own two cents in #there's a lot wrong with the religious institutions and organizations handle themselves #but that is not my problem because that's not my concern #my personal relationship with my faith is my own business and something no one else needs to get involved in #so no sorry i'm not looking ot have that conversation i'm not looking to talk about why you think its bad #when your entire frame of reference for MY faith has been outlandish right wing news sources #if i say something about Islam or Ramadan or I try to make a joke about it and your first reaction is to try and debate the role of religion #it's safe to assume that the post was not meant for you in the first place and therefore you don't need to interact with it #lord almighty why do people think i care about their opinions

[saintobio]

Utahime really just fucked up her wonderful and loving and close friendship with yn for a guy she wasn’t sure would really dedicate himself and is your best fucking friend’s ex. Not ex bf, EX Fucking HUSBAND!!!!!! Bitch satoru obviously hasn’t moved on like tf? he asked yn to take him back sis but that is not the point? Howwww in the hell did you think apologies would somehow mend your friendship with yn!? she is your best friend, your boss, your go to. Now you lost her and you can’t be sure satoru will stay. I just- AAAAA

Anonymous said

OMFG Utahime actually did it 😭 Satoru and utahime actually did it! I may sound mean but that relationship was made to end bad. You cannot expect to fuck your best friend’s bf or fuck your ex’s best friend and think you will have a happy ever after story. No it just doesn’t work that way 💀💀 I feel so bad for Y/N. It is as if the whole world is against her omg

Anonymous said

hi saint i really liked this chapter! i know this is a bit dumb but i couldnt take my mind off a phobia i have & u just dropped the chapter and now im completely distracted about it 😭 about the whole thing w utahime i actually think its wrong and dont blame y/n bc utahime knows practically everything like idk i find it weird dating ur friends ex bc you know stuff you know details of that relationship and yea... also the gasp i let out when gojo & hime were sorting things out 😶 and lastly i always promise myself to wait until all chapters are released to binge read everything one night but I can't 😩 i really really love your work hope you have a good day 💓💓💓

Anonymous said

It's sad it's utahime because throughout sn yn had didn't have a friend on her side. Toji and her family are a romance and family. She didn't have a friend of her own she can lean and not to invalidate shoko but she's still satoru's friend. I'm talking about someone she can call her own.

Gojo always hurts her in the end :/

And if utahime actually thinks without the alcohol or hormones she should know all the trouble she'll have getting caught in this mess.

Anonymous said

utahime is a snake frfr. like just imagining how much yn must have told her about her previous relationship with gojo and how much she suffered mentally and probably felt like gojo never loved her and to see her turn around and “fall” for him?? like wtf? yn believed she was the one person free of judgement who could help her navigate the situation and listen to her feelings without judgement and instead it feels like she took heavy advantage of the knowledge she had from yn (and yn’s complicated emotions about him) as well as gojo’s lingering feelings yet desire to be happy himself to insinuate herself in his life. idk what kind of “friend” could do some shady shit like that. and then going up to yn crying??? (like cassie’s bitch ass) she knew what she did was wrong or she wouldn’t have felt so guilty so she genuinely sucks as a friend. she doesn’t deserve yn’s grace or friendship and i hope yn renounces her as a friend or something. (team shoko ftw) she a fucking snake and i don’t trust that kind of behavior. i would never do that shit to my friends and if my friends ever did that to me, we’d be throwing hands. (of course not canon utahime cause that woman could step on me and i’d say thank you😔) but i loved this chapter and we love and appreciate you and the time you make to update and answer asks. i hope things go well for you at work and w office dude!!!❤️❤️

Anonymous said

idc what anyone says f*ucking or flirting in ANY way with your bestfriend's husband/boyfriend is sooooo wrong. utahime was wrong for that big time. sure, satoru was a bit wrong for that but the fact that we told utahime EVERY single thing... how we felt about satoru.....

OH THIS BITCH NEEDS TO BE PUT DOWN

as for yn, i understand she was heartbroken but lets not pretend she was sad because it was JUST her best friend, even if it were anybody else she still wouldve been deastated. that just happens just admit that you still love him and go GAWDAYM.

utahime, listen to me… this isn’t you. this isn’t you, okay? 😭 you are not cassie. lmao kidding aside, i don’t think she’s a “snake” per se. gojo and yn are not married, so technically, she didn’t steal him from her. it’s more so the fact that it feels morally wrong that she’s seeing her ex-husband.

#🖤: letters to saint #series: sincerely yours

[concubuck]

((May I ask what your headcanons are for sinners coming back after getting killed in hell? How long it takes, if they're regenerating from their remains or fall out of the sky or just wake up somewhere, what it's called, etc?))

((I think they regenerate from the largest piece, OR the largest piece that's connected to a, for lack of a better term, "core" body part.

"Core" body parts are the brain or the heart, because of their symbolic "this is where the soul/identity of a person is housed" value.

So if a sinner is mashed into pulp except for one arm and one leg, then the body regenerates from the leg because it's the biggest piece; while the arm (and the rest of the pulp) rots like any other dead meat.

On the other hand, if they're mashed up except for the head and the leg, the sinner regenerates from the head because it's still got a brain inside.

If they're TOTALLY shredded then the biggest shred wins, good luck regrowing from that.

They don't "wake up" until they've healed enough that their body would actually support life.

I haven't decided whether a whole brain or a whole heart takes precedence because I've never written a scenario where I've needed to consider it lol.

I also haven't decided just how much the brain/heart need to be destroyed before they're no longer viable, and/or how big the size imbalance can be between the biggest piece and the biggest-"core"-body-part piece before the rules of the universe go "ok this is silly, I'm letting that brain/heart die and letting the bigger chunk over there regenerate instead."

I'm sure there's a mad scientist somewhere in Hell who's carved out other sinners' brains and hearts, laid them on separate tables from their bodies, and sat and watched to see whether the brain, heart, or body would regrow. But I'm not that mad scientist so you'll have to go ask them about the results of their research.

If the cause of temporary-death is a matter of missing flesh/blood loss/whatever, the body will just sorta magically regenerate the missing matter somehow. idk how. Maybe the matter teleports into place from the rest of the body as it decays. I haven't blown a character to chunks yet so I don't need to think about the whole "conservation of matter" issue yet.

If I wanted to be scientific about how long this takes, I'd probably be like, what's the fastest rate human tissue grows at? Probably the 9 months during which a baby grows right? Whatever that growth rate is is how fast a temporarily-dead body can regenerate flesh without any other complicating/helping factors. But don't actually hold me to that because I haven't done the math and someday I might find that doesn't work with a story I'm trying to tell.

If the cause of temporary-death is injury or illness or organ damage or whatever, then the body will just kinda,, casually ignore the fact that it should be dead, and the cells will scurry around repairing the damage. The more damaged it is, the more time it'll take. Doing things like pumping a dead body full of medicine WILL help it beat the disease and wake back up faster.

(Imagine if you were part of an army invading a city and you successfully killed the whole population but then the population rose up as zombies and killed you and a month later the next invading army sees that the city's healthy and everyone's alive again. Would that be messed up or what. That's the viewpoint of a virus in an Osmosis Jones movie in Hell.)

I haven't worked out the exact math for how long this would take on any potential causes of death bc there's too many things a body can die of and I'd have to look into various specific things like "but why don't cells just keep doing their thing for several days after the heart stops beating until they slowly run out of energy to power them? Yes i know the answer is oxygen but WHY oxygen—" in order to make up a BS fantasy explanation for how cells operate in the absence of what they need to operate.

The only thing I've decided is "roughly the maximum amount of time you can drink yourself to death is about a week and a half, MAYBE two weeks." That doesn't mean that's the maximum brain damage POSSIBLE, just that if you're some kind of professional alcoholic who knows how to drink fast enough to maximize the alcohol in your body without getting drunk so fast you throw it back up before you pass out, "enough damage that it will take a week and a half to undo" is as much damage as you can get into your brain all by yourself.

No science went into this specific decision. I decided this because "you drank yourself to death for ten days??" struck me as a number that was big enough to be horrifying but not so big it starts to lose its impact. "Ten days" hits harder than "one month" because 10 is bigger than 1. See? Logic.

I don't have a Specific In Universe Term for the whole process yet, out of universe I just call it "regenerating" and in universe I usually just have them say things like "you died for two days" or "after that headshot I woke up in a friend's room" bc it sounds more natural & casual. Terminology's gonna vary between characters based on what fits them; someone who died recently & plays video games will be more likely to pick up "respawn" for example.

If I were to make up a Specific In Universe Term I'd probably dig a bit through old school Christian ideas around resurrection and/or the soul after death to see if any medieval scholar's already thrown out some esoteric idea that fits the bill; if not, I'd probably pull out something Latinate.))

#hazbin hotel #((using the fandom tag from my RP blog because this isn't an RP post; it's a Theory/Headcanon For The Show post)) #anonymous #ask #ooc

[bellamygateoldblog]

idk if you care anymore but sascha just yelled at isi and it was glorious <3

I HEARD 😌 that was a long time coming. i just...i still resent how they've written this. I have a Thing about writing that has something bad happen to the main to give them sort of a 'pity' arc where we feel sorry for them and so they don't have to be held accountable like im picturing sascha having to apologise to isi once he finds out what really happened that night (tbf he's mostly mad that isi lied, but it'll just prove him wrong/or make him feel bad when he says isi always blames others because isi actually ISNT at fault this time, they were sexually assaulted!...but sascha was right...sascha was finally calling them out and holding them accountable BUT because of the circumstances it just doesn't WORK...it falls completely flat because, once again, ISI WAS SEXUALLY ASSAULTED), isi was already shown to be a bad, flakey friend, esp to sascha, i don't know why this was necessary at all it was really...extreme...and just complicated things even more. they could've just had isi and the instas show up drunk to the party and have constantin cause trouble because of him being mad about isi lying and the result wouldve been the same. unless the whole Point was to show that isi was prioritising people who will get petty revenge and harm them and finally have something Big happen that const can't come back from ever, and contrast him against sascha since isi lied to both. but????? like they're trying to cram every possible storyline into one singular season. that's why im not necessarily talking abt it bc i just feel like i hate how they've gone about this. sascha is allowed to be mad at isi and people are allowed to celebrate that FINALLY happening but also he isn't because isi went through something traumatising and violating but i can't get behind the idea we should all only be sympathising with isi because the writing intention is just too fucking transparent and i just desperately wanted them to be held accountable and instead they just victimised them instead to make it easier to be on their side? same way the bullying of ava was shoved under the rug...they just don't understand nor truely care abt isi as a character and don't have a fucking clue.

isi isn't real this isn't real its all writing the characters have no autonomy, they specifically chose to have isi be sexually assaulted

sorry this was long (no seriously SJDKSJD) but i hope other people can understand where im coming from here. im not suggesting isi doesn't deserve sympathy and support from being sexually assaulted but im just less willing to comment on any of it because they've complicated it too much??? like i'm dreading the upcoming clips tbh bc they could dig the hole of isi's victimhood even deeper when they specifically chose to write a season focusing on a bully and someone who victimised other people and someone who had to go through things and grow in ways completely unique and different from any other druck main ever! yk.....uhhgggggg

#im also loathing the idea of isi apologising to lou bc she has NO right being mad at them #anyways isi is my fave forever i wont let the writing take them from me like this #german skam #FUCK constantin FUCK lou theyre both fucking awful xx

[xoxo-ren-xoxo]

Just a small thing that you can definitely ignore if you want and I know this might be bad to say or even selfish but I just.. miss the old Schlatt? not the one who's now doing this content and making hurtful jokes just for money. because every day I'm losing more and more hope that off camera, he's a genuine person?

Or I just want him to improve and become better? I don't know, I know I might be selfish for being like that and I do recognise that parasocial relationships do exist and he is merely a stranger to me but I just want him to become better and to be better. curse me and my heart where I just want the best for everyone, even if I don't know them. c': I think I miss the old Schlatt - because I feel like even this persona he has is not doing him any good?

This might be a thought but you know when you look at someone and you can just see or feel that their mindset is affecting them - especially when it's affecting them negatively? I noticed that with him. Again, I know I'm a mere stranger and I don't know anything about him but even with strangers you can notice this? When he was on a break from that sort of content while he was moving, on the update "I'm Back" video he had a better energy? But when he started to embrace that persona again, his energy is just becoming worse and worse. the only times his energy was better again was when he had the moments with Jambo?

I don't know. I'm just going on a ramble at this point but I just wish he became better?

This is the exact reason I still watch the guy! I completely get where you're coming from, and it can be hard to have these sorts of conversations without speculating about what goes on 'behind the scenes' (something we know Schlatt is uncomfortable with and is possibly one of the reasons he puts on such a contrary persona).

I agree that his content has taken a downturn lately. But I don't think it's the fault of the persona, I think it's the fault of him misusing the persona. Of course he can do whatever he wants, I don't really care cause if he decides he wants to keep being a bastard then that's his problem and I'll stop watching cause that content isn't for me. However, I have some ideas about why the more recent videos have been 'worse':

His heart isn't in it. Jackbox games are fun and all but they aren't the kind of content Schlatt likes to make. In my opinion. His old channel had videoessays, but he's said before that they don't make enough money for him to keep doing that. I think he likes the little slice of life videos more because they're easy and because they're fun. I think the Wii videos were great, well-structured and good examples of well-done satire, but I feel he got a bit bored of it so he tried jackbox, which just isn't the same.

The satire doesn't work with jackbox videos. In the Wii videos it's just him and the game and some props. He plays his character and clearly makes fun of the kind of person he's portraying, or he just makes fun of himself, which is cool too lol. For example in the Wii fishing video, he plays the character of a misogynistic guy who loves fishing and hates his wife. Then proceeds to be terrible at the game and get angry to the point of making himself look like a fool. That's why we laugh! We laugh at the dumbass he's portraying. And obviously this is the same for most of the bits he does. The classic one being the gay Catholic patriot. The unexpected clash of traits makes it funny. With the jackbox vids you don't really get that. It's him and some friends. And yeah, they make fun of themselves and each other, but it has the unwanted side effect of being easy to turn into something that starts to make fun of other people, such as minorities or victims of tragedy, which isn't okay.

Mans is just trying to get a rise out of people. We all know this. The last video was purposefully offensive to try to scare the dream stans away. Which was dumb, and he shouldn't have done it, but I get why he did it. With everything that's happened recently, I'm sure Schlatt doesn't want to be associated with that sort of fanbase. Unfortunately, he went the wrong way about scaring them off.

Moving, the entire thing with lunch club and cmc, getting a cat, and Connor moving in, all while making near-weekly videos, two podcasts, and being on streams. That's a lot to think about, which is probably another reason for the lazier content and falling back on 'easy' jokes that often turn out offensive.

What I'm saying is that I feel he's in a rut. He hit a dead end, tried to fix things, then fell off and made a shitty video as an attempt for controversy. If I'm right, then I feel that he's gonna take a bit of a break (he's already taken a pretty long break if you look at how long it's been since the last video on his main channel) and come back when he's actually ready to do some better content.

The video was bad, and I get why people don't feel comfortable watching him anymore. I've made my peace with it and I'm hoping for some better content soon. But not too soon!

Lots of his friends have spoken about the whole thing, and the general consensus is that yeah, it was bad. I think Connor talked about him and Schlatt seeing a kid watching The Video and Schlatt having this 'oh shit' moment? I might be wrong, if anyone has a link to the clip or stream where Connor talks about this lmk. But regardless, I think mans is taking a break and sorting himself out. There are also rumours he might stream soon but idk idk.

I feel that off-camera he's a completely different person. Minx said she sees it that way, Ty also said he's very respectful and chill off-camera. So I don't think he's a bad person (I don't think he's racist or anti-Semetic, he fucked up but I highly doubt he believes that shit irl and I think claiming that he does is just performative and kinda weird. I understand microagressions are also very bad and can be used by racists/be racist but on their own they do not make you a racist especially if it's poor taste jokes that went too far etc).

You're right though, he definitely wanted to make money. That didn't really work out for him though (if you look at the stats on The Video, it performed terribly) so I doubt it's a mistake he would make again.

For now, if you want to see better content that (I think) reflects Schlatt in a better light (aka he's still doing a bit but he's much more chill and less of a bastard about it) I recommend the chuckle sandwich podcast and sleep deprived podcast. He's on OTK streams a lot too but that sorta thing isn't really for me.

Also stan connoreatspants bringing us Jambo content all the time. 🙌

Idk if that was helpful, but it's more a gesture of solidarity since I agree with and feel everything you're saying. Of course, this is all speculation, please don't spread this as fact because I don't know Schlatt any better than you do. He's just a comfort CC and guy I think is kinda neat when he's not doing dumb shit.

Sorry for the long post. Also, you can disregard the shit I said about racism if you want cause I'm not qualified to talk about it really. There are good points for calling someone a racist for jokes like the ones in the video, but I feel like the rest of the factors should be looked at too since this is a complicated situation. Again, just my opinion, please no hate. If you have a complaint DM me or send an ask. I'm open to hearing other povs.

Have a nice day !

#jschlatt #long post #discourse #negativity #schlatt #lunch club mention #connoreatspants #racism

[sophroniaa]

Perfectly Lovable

(just quickly wanted to say a huge thank you for the love on "Admiring", it honestly means the world to me. 🖤 & aaaalso, this might turn into a two parter if you like it?? idk)

Word count: 1,3k

Trigger warnings: Mentions of alcohol, being hungover

You wake up the next day, hungover to say the least, trying to deny the real reason as to why you got so drunk in the first place.

It had struck later in the afternoon and you were sitting in the backyard with Rook, enjoying the afternoon sun before it would set and the degrees would start dropping for the night. You had all been having a lazy day. A few of the guys even just starting to come back to life after last night's party. It hadn't been too long since you'd gotten out of bed yourself, feeling too hungover to move. Your thoughts wandered back to the night before, trying to remember what had happened past midnight… you came to the conclusion that the night could be rounded up very easily, as you'd been way too drunk since most of the night came up as a thick fog. The throbbing headache only proving your mental point further.

"It's been a while since I drank that much…" You mumbled to Rook, which only gained a snort in return. "Tell me about it." He chuckled as an answer to your statement, also thinking back to the events of the night before. "Have to say you took me by surprise when you challenged me to a tequila race." He said after a few seconds of silence, the images from the night before playing clearly in his mind. 

The new information caused you to push your sunnies further down your nose to look at him, eyeing his facial expressions trying to see if he was fucking with you. You covered your face with your hands in slight embarrassment when you realized he wasn't. "No fucking wonder we feel like absolute shit today." You said shaking your head, no longer finding the aching body & foggy memories strange.

"Don't think I've ever seen you that drunk." He stated before taking another sip of his pedialyte. You leaned over and took the plastic bottle from him before taking a gulp of your own. A grimace quickly spreading across your face once the taste hit your tastebuds, holding out the bottle to read the flavor.

"Euw, you willingly drink the mixed fruit flavor?" You exclaimed, more than happy to give him the bottle back.

He burst out laughing at your reaction. "So you're able to down multiple shots of tequila with a straight face but pedialyte gets you?" He teased, smirking so big that his eyes squinted a little.

"Shut up asshat…" You mumbled before offering him a playful smile.

"You seen Kells today?" You asked instead, not sure if you dare hear anything else about your drunken state from the night before. You leaned your head back, letting the sunshine rest on your tired face.

Rook only shook his head in response. You could see from the corner of your eye that he sneaked a peek at you trying to read your feelings. "So…" He started to say before falling quiet, like he was debating whether or not to bring it up. "We gonna talk about why you got so fucked up last night?"

You leaned your head back again to enjoy the warmth of the sun whilst hiding away behind your dark sunglasses. "I'm good, Rookie." You said flatly, knowing exactly what he was trying to get at. "Not like I haven't seen him with other girls before."

Not like you hadn't seen him with other girls before wishing it was you in their place.

"I'm just saying… Even an idiot would connect the dots, he brings over his "new girl" & you, who normally don't drink much, gets absolutely trashed."

"That's not why!" You protested.

"Oh yeah, then why did you get so drunk?" He was quick to ask. "Enlighten me." His voice letting you know just how much he believed you, which would be about approximately zero procent. Deep inside, you knew you were crushing so incredibly hard on Colson. It was just easier pretending like you didn't. The palms of your hands would start to sweat just by the simple thought of actually telling him. You could only imagine standing right before him trying to explain the situation, to you that sounds like nothing but a bulletproof plan for a break down.

This caused you to sit in silence for a while, trying to come up with something smart to say… Reaching for anything, really. So far you'd been doing a horrible job at trying to convince him. To be fair, you were probably the one needing the convincing. However it fooled neither of you, no matter how hard you tried to deny stuff. When you came up shorthanded you sighed loudly, signaling that he'd won this time around as well.

Fuck models, switch condoms. You felt your heart thug a little, thinking about the constant variation of girls in his life. As of right now he was seeing a brunette model that you honestly couldn't remember the name of, not too long before that it had been a blonde.

You hated it.

How they would stride into his life chasing that bad boy fantasy, wanting a taste of the exciting celebrity world, being MGK's center of attention for a short while.

Something you hated even more was how they knew exactly what they got themselves into, only to become disappointed when he immediately didn't change his ways and grant their wishes by becoming a whole other person for them.

"You've got that look on your face again." Rook pointed out only to sigh dramatically when he realized you'd slipped deep in thought about Colson, again.

"Sorry, what?" You sat up, straightening out in your seat, coming back to reality after he had nudged your leg with his.

"I said, you've got that look on your face again." Rook repeated. You looked at him dumbfounded.

"You get a bothered look on ya face when you think of the constant switching of girls." Rook explained in a matter of factly tone. Trying to even out your furrowed forehead with his thumb to further prove his point. You were quick to shake your head.

"It's not that… " You said while hating how well he could read you, always knowing exactly what's on your mind. Part of you knew there really was no point in denying it, he could read you like a book at this point. In a desperate attempt at keeping your mouth shut you started to chew on the insides of your cheek, but unfortunately it didn't take long before you spoke again.

"I just hate how they exactly know what they're getting themselves into and yet still have the nerves to act disappointed, demanding this and that, ultimatums left and right… " You mumbled, picking at your nails. "Leaving him to blame it all on himself thinking he's a complicated man to love."

When in reality it was the complete opposite, perfectly lovable the way he is. He was in no way complicated if you saw him for who he was instead of trying to change him into what you thought best fit. Understanding how the things he had been through shaped him into his whole existence. He still had his struggles, but who doesn't? He put on a tough act a lot of the time, acting like nothing could get to him, sometimes even talking a big game, sure thing, but underneath all that was a mushy lil' Colson. A side to him he wouldn't show to just anyone, you had to connect with him. Vibe with him. Almost like he needed to make sure your intentions were good before he could let his walls down a little. He wasn't just an angry guy, shouting into the microphone at an impressive pace. There was so much more to him than the established MGK image.

Never had you met a more genuine or kind-hearted guy, so naturally your heart ached when you oh so clearly could see people taking advantage of that.

Bitches, news flash, this ain't build-a-man factory.

"Dude, just fucking tell him already!" Rook exclaimed, clearly becoming impatient with how you acted like you only saw him as a good friend. "You the type of girl he should be with. These toxic models ain't doing him no good."

"Someone to date him for who he really is, shows him patience and acceptance. Understands his issues and encourage him to get better." He saw the hint of uncertainty spreading across your face as he talked. "Stop that, I honestly think that equals you." He said, putting his palm on the left side of his chest. "You just need a little encouragement to get over your nerves." He teased.

You couldn't help but smile at Rook's encouraging words, loving how he always rooted for you no matter what. You reached your arms out to embrace him in a big hug, a way of showing your appreciation towards him. "Everyone needs a Rook in their life." You mumbled into his chest.

#mgk x reader #mgk imagine #mgk #Rook #Rookxx #machinegunkelly imagine #machinegunkelly #machine gun kelly #colson baker #colsonbaker

[im-the-punk-who]

Idk if ur the right person to send this to so feel free to ignore if you aren't but I'm beginning to realize that I might be a trans guy after years of thinking I'm enby and I'm really struggling with that? I've received a lot of the messages over the years about how men are bad and violent and I've also experienced a lot of gender based violence before I was out. I know intellectually that there's nothing wrong with manhood and yet I'm still really struggling. Idk do you have any thoughts on learning to accept your own manhood

Okay! Sorry this took a few days to answer but this is...definitely still a complicated thing for me, too.

First off I wanna say that whether you end up identifying as a binary trans man or somewhere in between that and nonbinary, that is very cool and valid and all of this can apply no matter where on the spectrum of masculinity you ultimately end up falling.

I saw a post which explains the basic thesis of what I'm gonna say, which is that your gender does not equal your morality. 

Tumblr in particular really likes to go hard on the misandry and it can be really hard not to internalize that. Especially when it comes in the form of so many jokes, and especially especially when some of it does line up with experiences you’ve had. The biggest thing to realize, is that just *being a man* doesn't make you inherently violent or toxic or bad. All of the things that Tumblr and feminism in general tends to equate to “being a man = bad” are things that are learned or encouraged over time, no matter how much terfs like to insist they are traits inherent in being born with a y chromosome. 

(And yes, these misandry arguments ALL have their basis in gender essentialism and in arguing why trans people can’t exist.)

As this relates to trans men, it becomes akin to walking a tightrope our entire lives. In both society at large and LGBT spaces we're made to fit as close as possible into gender norms to avoid violence or oppression(or the insistence we’re really just lesbians or self-hating cishets). But we also have first hand experience of the ways in which men are *socialized* to behave being harmful and don’t want to perpetuate them and be labeled a ‘bad person’. So we have to constantly walk this line of, I suppose trying to act manly enough while also trying not to cause waves (And, AS A NOTE, does that sound eerily similar to the argument most feminists say is purely a feminine experience? Is it almost like the very system that seeks to free cis women through hatred of men perpetrates those exact same systems onto other marginalized communities?)

And I will say, this is something I still struggle with. A lot. It's not going to be something you can take a magic pill for and never have to worry about again. I started transitioning almost a decade ago and I'm still trying to find the balance. Cis men can spend their *whole lives* trying to find that balance. I know quite a few - in case it feels like this is a purely trans experience. Reckoning with the way that male privilege has socialized men to harm at the same time radical feminism has socialized everyone it can that all men intentionally cause harm is a universal experience among men who are aware of it. 

It's not easy, and I guess just...if you feel like you're struggling on that front as you continue your gender journey(Laynie i hate you i hate you i hate you) try to remind yourself that you're not alone. And that what you’re fighting against is a systemic socialization, not something inherent in yourself. You’re going to screw up - that doesn't make you a bad person or a bad man.

I listen a lot to Brene Brown. 

I know people are probably sick of hearing me talk about her, but she is a shame researcher who honestly helped me a LOT in realizing why I was feeling so bad about parts of my personality or my gender expression. She’s excellent. If you find you’re having a lot of trouble reckoning with being this thing you have perceived as bad for a very long time, I highly recommend listening to some of her ted talks and other speeches. Most of them are on youtube. 

For a long time I was trying to base my gender off of what I thought people would love. I went over the top, dressed in popular styles, was WAY more feminine than I actually feel, and tried to make myself as unassuming as possible - in part because of childhood trauma but also because I was genuinely ashamed to be a man(particularly a gay man) because I had internalized the idea that men - especially gay men - were woman-haters. (And, because I hated *myself* as a woman, I thought that I also hated women, and I thought that I must be one of those Bad Gays.)

But once I stopped trying to do that? Once I was like ‘no I’m actually a gay-up man’ and stopped berating myself for not liking my feminie body and hating the parts of myself that I didn’t identify with but felt forced to perform? Once I started looking at what made *me* happy and not other people? It became so much easier to not feel those things. 

SO I guess, what I’m saying is that the best way to deal with internalized misandry is to try to forgive yourself, and recognize that the things that men perpetrated against you and that people say are ‘toxic male traits’ are not *inherent* to being a man. They are things that are taught to men(both cis and trans) by society. And also that like, these are also things that are not just inherent to men. Any toxic trait that a man exhibits a woman can too - and yeah there’s a discussion about how the general power imbalance between men and women makes it less likely a woman would cause as much damage but honestly? If you’re on tumblr you’re most likely in female dominated spaces where arguably that isn’t true, especially with the number of fucking TERFS on this website. 

Also....you do not inherit cismale privilege just by identifying as a man. No matter how far you take your transition, you are *always* going to be at a different level of privilege from a cisman. Even if you transition as far as you are able to right now and live and pass as a cisman for the rest of your life, you are not a cisman and that is going to affect how you move through the world.

(That doesn’t mean you are not a *man* because you are not cis, btw. Just that there are things that cismen don’t have to worry about that are going to affect your life - things like ovarian cancer, breast cancer, hormonal dependence, corrective abuse, medical shortages, physical differences that out transpeople - there are a hundred things that trans men have to experience throughout their lives that cismen are never, ever going to deal with. And yes, this goes for transwomen / cis women as well.)

Something that helped me become comfortable living as a man was to look at specific traits of the men in my life. Why did I feel comfortable around this man, but not others, what red flags physically or emotionally did this behavior set off in me? And then focusing on those specific *behaviors* rather than the men themselves. If you can separate the individual traits from an overarching idea of 'manhood' that might be helpful in feeling like you can inhabit manhood without being toxic. 

Basically, my best advice is to tell yourself that what makes you a man does not make you inherently toxic. In fact what makes *all* men, men, does not make them inherently toxic. Men are not trash just because they’re men, and the fight against misandry *is* a fight for marginalized people. It hurts transmasculine people in exactly the ways you are hurting. No matter what TERFs say - no matter what male-critical or whatever they’re calling themselves to not have to call themselves TERFs say - men are not born evil, or bad, or trash. 

Toxic masculinity is a learned behavior. It is not something you are given the day you start identifying as a man, and it is not something you have to perpetuate. 

Calling it anything else does a disservice to everyone who identifies as masculine of center but especially trans men, who have to reckon with this exact knowledge that in affirming who they are, certain people are going to hate them and call them monsters and tell them they are trash and unworthy of loving without hurting. 

And that shit just isn’t true. It isn’t fucking true! Men are not toxic just because they are men, and you are not a bad person just because you are a transman. That’s, I suppose, the best advice I can offer you. I hope it helps, and I also just want to reiterate that I hope you find affirmation in whatever you end up deciding. <3 <3 <3

#milo answers #gender #queer tag #transmasc #anon i hope you see this i know its a few days since you sent it #anon #Anonymous #long post

[hoezier]

I'm really curious to see what you think of the episode once you watch it because I thought it wasn't that bad tbh

Hey nonnie, so I just finished watching the episode and I’m ... conflicted. I’m conflicted by my reactions towards this show since the Michael’s return SL ended tbh. In the first 7 episodes, I so obviously disliked the storylines and where it was headed but afterwards my reactions were not so resentful. I became a lot more ... conflicted because the writing is not obviously bad or bad bad, it just became confused, unfocused, rushed and somewhat inconsistent. Somewhat, being a generous qualification on my part tbh. So, I’m gonna try to break it down here. Keep in mind, though, that I haven’t given a ton of thought to what the show has had to offer in a while now. It seemed futile to me, primarily, but also, because I’ve been far too busy to actually spare too much energy here. Nonetheless, here it goes:

 First and foremost, the romance in this season fell on its face in a lot of way. Starting with the main romances of Petramos and Jafael.

1. Petramos: In a lot of ways, the trouble of Petramos is a lot easier to spot for me, a little more obvious, and a little less complicated than jafael’s, more contained than Jafael’s. Probably due to the shorter history of the relationship. I think the controversial revelation that Petra’s been lying to JR about Anezka this whole time was detrimental to the relationship in a nearly unfixable way. To fix it would need care and finesse and patience and build-up. JtV has always had some trouble with all of that, what’s with it being so dramatic and over-the-top, but I think it’s struggled to achieve nuanced writing especially this season. In that way, Petramos’s writing has been doomed since the very start of the season. Like fine, okay, you went ahead with the Petra lying, something that I won’t even get into how unlikely it seems to me, but the relationship needed a LOT more care than what they gave it. Having JR choose to get back with Petra so prematurely only to have them break-up later on did NOT do the writers any favor. Their reunion was rushed, their build-up was quick and a lot of it off-screen. And then their break-up was a disaster writing-wise. It wasn’t heartbreaking, it was angering and insulting to me as a viewer who has functioning braincells thank you very much. It was done for drama and did not really follow coherently, especially with the add-on of Petra wanting to propose and all that. It just fell on its face. For me, a much better way to deal with the situation would have been to let their season 4 break up land throughout the first half of the season, then come up with a reason for a rekindling, a tentative alliance, a careful build up that leaves me squealing like a schoolgirl when they reunite. Have Petra go through the journey of getting over JR in the first half, have her go through that character growth, and THEN reunite them. And here’s the thing, I’m still about 99% sure that Petramos is endgame, but we’re literally supposed to get the reunion and the endgame in ONE episode, an episode that’ll largely be about Jafael so like... IDEK man. This’ll be really hard to sell beyond the aesthetics of two gorgeous people getting together on your screen. 

2. Jafael: I have SO many conflicting emotions about Jafael this season. Don’t get me wrong, I love them, I ship them. I always will. And we did get some really good material over the course of the season, but boy oh boy, do I have problems with how this is all panning out. First and foremost, the treatment of this relationship with Michael’s return has been disastrous, and i think we can all agree on that. Like okay, fine, you want to reach this point of breaking up. Okay fine. You want to reintroduce the love triangle. Okay fine, but pray tell, what the actual fuck was that treatment of the storyline? I was genuinely excited about the potential for angst that this’ll give Jafael. I wanted the pain and the heartbreak, I wanted Rafael to be the one to break up with Jane because he just does not want to do this anymore, but the way they went about it was confusing to me. For example, I loved the idea of “Rafael got his memories back, too”. I thought that was clever, but to me the trigger of it was not as clever. Remember back in season 1 when Raf proposed and then he saw her laughing with Michael and that kind of contributed to sending him spiraling? Yeah, I needed something like that. Something to remind Rafael and the audience of this journey, a physical evidence of that trouble in front of him. We got none of that of course. And then we had to deal with the whole Mateo thing and Mateo’s feelings and involvement and it was so not the right focus. It lacked feeling, it lacked heart, it lacked things that were genuinely a part of the core of Jane as a show. The whole point of Michael returning was supposed to be the emotional baggage of it all, but it turns out JtV was truly not at all equipped to handle something with that complexity. So the break up was a bit of a mess in that regards and I’m just... yeah. Let’s just leave it there for now. 

Because what was even more aggravating than the break-up, is their reunion. I’m not gonna get into the whole thing about Raf’s depression here (see below the section about characters), but what I will get into here is, how in fuck’s name did we get a whole reunion SL without even a glimpse of what, exactly, was going through Raf’s mind as he went through therapy? Like just how? How did he come to not trust her? How did he come to realize that he’ll always love her? What the f was going on in his mind this whole time? Was he pining in his own way, too? Okay, fine, you don’t want to give us this storyline about his depression (why thank you, fuck you too), but can you uhhh, IDK give us a SL about them getting through their issues. Remember Jafael in season 1 and 2 going to therapy to hash out their trouble? I miss those days. I’m honestly beyond flabbergasted that they did not immediately march into a therapist’s office and try to fix their trouble. That would’ve made their whole journey come full circle. It would have helped dissect their problems. His and hers. How they’l move on. How they’ve grown together. You know, the kind of stuff you do when you tell a person that you don’t trust them anymore but you also really love them? Remember the proposal episode? Yeah, how the F did we not get a we’re going to therapy SL afterwards? And now, in 5x17, Raf is like I’m not worried about MIchael trying to win you back again, anymore. And I’m like, k, cool, but why? We have seen very little development in that regards, can you please explain it better? Can you please show me more? PLEASE? But I guess not, and it is what it is now. 

In a lot of ways, Jafael’s trouble is that the show is trying to cram 2 or more seasons worth of buildup and SL into half a season, half a season whose focus has been disastrous to say the least. So yeah, the reunion has been tainted for me with a lot of trouble. And now, thinking about it, I actually can’t find very clear ways in which Jafael’s journey this season could have been fixed wih easy and simple shuffling of certain events. To truly make it pop, they NEEDED to delve deep into Rafael’s mental health, which is not a simple fix in itself. Otherwise, this only partially satisfactory stuff is all we are left with. In my mind right now, I think I would have gone much farther back, though, and tweaked their story to maintain the Michael returns SL without it making the story so bland and aggravating. I think I wouldn’t have let Jafael get together at all in season 4. Rafael, following that breakdown he had with Jane in 4x05 goes to therapy. Jane has a romance with Adam that runs its course. Jafael rebuild their friendship and start to catch feelings again. They’re really falling in love and about to get back together when BAM Michael returns. I think that would have worked for the purposes of the triangle more. Jane is not really committed to anyone, except now she’s in love with Raf. And it would have made even her choice more powerful. But alas, it is what it is. But even more ideally, IDK, come up with a more creative obstacle than Michael’s return. 

3. Villadero: Honestly, I’m only gonna talk about them to vent, cause I’m MAD, you guys, so MAD and I don’t even ship it. But I’m MAAAAAD. Like just... okay, okay, you take all of season 5 and it’s literally just Jennie shitting on M/J and I’m like what the actual fuck? The blows never stopped coming? Michael returning only to have his heart broken all over again not enough for ya? Having to see Mateo say that he hates him not enough? Oh, no, it’s not. We gotta not only make the book about their relationship a flop (which like, fine, as an aspiring writer it’s cool to see this being a more complicated journey for Jane than an immediate hit) but to also have its publication be a literal bribery? Why?? JUST WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY? And then to imply that M/J where just a step for Jafael and M/C now?????????????????? WHY WHY WHY???????????????????? Remember the show that had Jane worry that her moving on with Raf would make it seem as if Michael is just a step? I want that show back. I just... UGH. 

Characters and characterization is another thing that the show really struggled with this season. Like a LOT. 

1. Petra: I’ll start with Petra because I honestly think she got the better deal out of everyone. This season has really managed to highlight and showcase how much she’s grown and how far she’s come. I think aside from the supposed plan to propose to JR, Petra has been the least inconsistent this season. Though she did have lines that showed real amnesia on the writers part, like telling Jane that JR is the reason she doesn’t lie and manipulate anymore. But oh well, she did well. 

2. Jane: I feel like Jane has lost a lot of her vibrance this season. I can’t really pin point why, but I think it’s a combination of reducing her to her bouts of guilt, the weird way that they’ve dealt with her career this season, fluctuating between utter disregard and then literal cramming of episodes worth of her writing development into half an episode (I mean Ro has FAAAAAAAR more build up towards This is Mars than Jane has with her book) it’s been really hard to see the life that Jane exuded in the past. 

3. Rafael: I’m tired. I don’t wanna talk about it. I’m just tired. 

4. Michael: Also tired. I just wanted him to feel like a person with emotions and trauma but like... *rubs forehead*

5. Xiomara: This makes me the MOST tired. She faded into the background so much I want to ram my head through a wall. Like what the fuck man just what the fuck? The build up of her going to nursing school came from no where. Now she’s willing to go to NY so quickly? No struggle? All the struggle is on Ro’s part? Why just why I don’t understand how the writers who gave us Xo from season 1-4 can just suddenly forget. Even the wrap up of her cancer SL was anticlimactic. It’s just. 

Also, Luisa deserves better. 

Another thing that season severely struggles with is focus. So much screentime for Jorge and Alba and it’s just not that interesting of a SL. So much time for River Fields and literally no one I know gives a flying fuck. So much wasted time, time that should have gone to Raf’s depression, more Luisa, and definitely more Xo. But NOOOO we had to deal with River’s relationship with her daughter and I’m like... who even gives a damn? 

One last thing I’ll say cause I’m too tired to say anymore about this, though I could: where are the magical realism elements in the show? Where has that magical feeling about them gone???????????????

Anyways, let’s see how they wrap it up I guess. 

#jane the virgin #in conclusion; i am bitter #Anonymous

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hey would you mind telling us a bit about how you two met, your friendship and what led you to being in love with her??? sorry if you don't want to, it's just i've been following the story and i swear it's like a good best friends to lovers come true. again, sorry if this bothers you, it's just i'm a curious person and i thought maybe you're the type who likes to talk about stuff like this, so it's be a win-win lol. hope everything works out for you!!

heyyy lmao how do you know i really like talking about stuff like this……… i’ll give you the long story since you asked

so. i was friends with a girl that my best friend used to date and also a couple more friends in common. this girl used to tell me a bunch of shit about her (almost all lies) but i hadn’t met her until another friend brought her to a party we went to. she was drunk as hell and she was hitting on me which i did not realize, only later i found out she did actually want to hook up with me that night and then it became a joke in our newly formed friend circle that i had rejected her. (it’s been 2 years and she still jokes about that.) soon after the day we met, she met another friend of mine, and long story short is they fell in love. she and i were instant friends though, we just clicked and i loved hanging out with her. because we are a lot more similar than me and that friend of mine, i became closer to her even though we’d just met. the two of them had a very complicated relationship, though. for several months they broke up and got back together a bunch of times and it was painful for the two of them, but when they broke up for good, the girl i was friends with before was very unfair and horrible to my best friend. it’s been like 7 months now and i don’t even talk to her anymore because of all the things she said and how much she made my best friend suffer more than necessary with the already painful breakup. this is a really short version of what was a long and deeply traumatic process but the part that matters to you is i became closer to my best friend as she was going through a very hard time and i realized just how much i care about her.

another thing that happened in the meantime is i met a girl and we started dating. she was a total outsider to the whole situation and she was wonderful and we were together for a few good months and i’m not gonna get into this in detail cause it really is a totally separate story but basically i broke up with her and it was as amicable as a breakup could be.

so now we get to the part where i unbelievably fall in love with my best friend. after i broke up and she was also single, we became even closer because we’d hang out more often and also talk all the time. we always had this thing where we’d hit on each other as a joke even when we were dating our respective ex girlfriends because it was 100% just a joke… and then it wasn’t anymore. all the playfully hitting on each other intensified and things got progressively weirder between us until i acknowledged that we’d hook up eventually it was just a matter of time. still, it happened faster than i thought. when i was in new york she sent me drunken texts one night saying she really wanted me but she knew it’d end badly, and that all our jokes couldn’t be just jokes. so some weeks later it happened and tbh our first kiss was serious fanfic material i’ll tell you. at that point everyone thought we were gonna hook up so sometimes we’d take pictures at parties pretending we were kissing just to freak out our friends. except this time we really kissed! as soon as the kiss was over i was pissed i didn’t remember it cause we were like “holy shit” and laughed nonstop for several minutes and my fucking knees were wobbling i swear to god. and thennnnn we kissed again a bunch of times so that was one hell of a night

now it’s been very complicated since then and a lot of stuff has happened and it’s still going on so idk maybe some other time i’ll get into this part but for now it’s in the form of my posts venting about it. the latest development is we unexpectedly hooked up twice this past week and then decided we should stop and be rational so let’s see how long it takes for that to fail

stay tuned for scenes from our next chapter !

#anonymous #answers tag #i bet you didn't expect this would be so long #j tag