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[dcmksecretsanta]

Hello everyone!

I just wanted to give you a little update and let you know that, unfortunately, I won't have the time to host the DCMK secret santa event this year. Earlier this year, I've started working full time (+ still working my two mini jobs) and therefore, I just won't have the necessary time to host this event anymore. From my experience during the last six years of hosting this event, I just know how much time I usually need to put into this event to make it work as I want it to work and I know that this won't be possible this year with my current jobs.

I want to thank you all so so much for joining the event the last couple of year and for being such a great community to work with. I really had the best time hosting this event all these years and it does make me really sad that I won't have the capabilites to do it anymore.

If anyone wants to host another DCMK secret santa event on tumblr this year, feel free to do so (not that you were ever not free to do so lol just wanted to clarify it in case that anyone was apprehensive about it)! Feel free to let me know as well and I would love to signal boost (and join) it!

I'm wishing you all the best and once again, thank you all so much for the last couple of years!

#<3 #I'm really sad because it feels like the end of an era to me #which I realize sounds very dramatic LOL #but I just really loved this event #and I always had a great time with it #but it also always was very stressful #and with all my current jobs I just don't want to put this kinda stress on me this year #and like I wouldn't have the time for it anyways #so it would be even more stress than usual haha #anyways #it was a great time <3 #thank you all #I would love to enter a dcmk event myself though!! #i always feel a little unsure interacting with the fandom #especially outside of tumblr #but if anyone wants to host a general dcmk secret santa event on here #i would love to try it <3 #news #news 23 #event 23

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[mu1tiverse]

adding:

sofia m.antega / wind d.ancer - m.arvel comics (h.umberly gonzález)

#a friend introduced me to new m.utants 03 and ..... that is my daughter she is my baby she is my angel #there's hardly anything for her in the tags or just Anywhere really and i think that's a GOD DAMN SHAME #i am SPEEDING through her lil wiki list of appearances right now .. i know Hardly Anything about x.men stuff but .. i'm learning #i've been yelling as i'm reading and i just.. i think she's Neat she's been bouncing around inside my head for like a week #also i'm probs just gonna yeet everyone on the same blog again bc i'm feeling some kinda way abt tumblr rn (unmotivated) #anyway hi hello ily i am hugging you through my screen

[demitheshine]

Why doesn't Tumblr let me scroll through the FYP endlessly anymore??? It stops at random intervals now, sometimes I only get through like. 10 posts before it stops--

#i know damn well I'm in the minority when it comes to liking Tumblr's fyp but it's so cool to me #it's how I see people I like who I'm too awkward to follow. it's how I meet new mutuals. #sometimes it's even how I find people I know from other places on Tumblr #and whatever's going on with the fyp is really fucking annoying to me because of it #i know I'm kinda being dramatic #and I know I could just close the app and reopen it #but I shouldn't HAVE to-- #it's just annoying man #tumblr #tumblr issues #light vent #blurry rn

[nexus-nebulae]

odd thing we've noticed. the less okay we are the smaller our active system gets

#like logically you'd think we'd get more members while stressed but we don't usually #we actually split way more often when we're feeling okay and alive #i think it has something to do with mental bandwidth #like when mental health bad we don't have enough mental energy to put towards the system #so we just. reduce a lot in size. to make the workload easier #like a few months ago we had about 100+ people active at once all rotating out frequently and cofronting a TON #and now we're down to like. three or four active the rest really only able to be active for a few minutes at a time #we're just too exhausted to deal with the chaos of so many people so it kinda. slows down a ton #it's hard to get used to when everything was So Loud before. its kinda scary sometimes #like damn. i cant just call Incredibly Specific Task Guy to deal with this task i really cannot do right now. that kinda sucks #but knowing that this is like. more bc of the fact that we Can't Deal With Much More Than This makes it a little easier #we're a bit like my current computer. shit ass RAM bc its got like 50 malware (illnesses) on it #and once i get a new computer (get a little better and more functional) i can get back to multitasking #side note my god my RAM on this computer is shit running tumblr and minecraft at the same time totally breaks it #like it makes the Entire Computer run at 10 fps it's Great #i'm getting a new one at the end of this month hopefully #and hopefully Actually Nice Thing Accomplished will also help brain a lot #also not having to stress about how annoying to use our computer is should help lmao

[stillcominback]

🎀 🎀 🎀

#hi cuties! just doing a quick little check-in since it's been a minute ✨ #still not really checking tumblr cause there's just too much going on and i'm trying to find some joy here getting settled in a new home! #i do check here and there though so if you wanna hit up the IMs i'll for sure get back to you!! 💕 #ANYWHO: things are going okay! kinda same old but just trying to enjoy what i can and take a day at a time #started talking to a recruiter today and she was so sweet (and my age which is a bonus) so i'm hoping she'll be a good help ... #... in the old job search (while i keep looking on my own as usual of course) but still! having someone who's JOB it is to search for me?? #feels promising??? i hope! #(even tho in all honesty this job search stuff has been peak deflating and depressing but! we keep movin!) #i'm also super excited that my mom is treating me for xmas/my bday to a trip to london to visit my best friend #(since they weren't actually able to come visit for the holidays sadly) but i think it's gonna be special and healing 😌💕 #i think that covers most of the things!! pretty pleeeease come hit me up on discord!! #i would love to chat and write more there and have servers and all that fun stuff so don't be shy! #love and miss you all so much *big hugs to the dash* #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

#girl help #like if I wait?? I REALLY doubt I'll ever post this random little thing I just finished writing bc I'll psych myself out of it #but also. I kinda wanted innocence and sadness to be my 100th fic on ao3 #Lu rambles #this is likely a moot point and I'll do a quick proof of this 2am fic tomorrow and post it anyway #I just... there is a part of me that Hates trying new things. and this is a new thing. and I know it isn't my best quality writing #because that was kind of the point?? just to Not overthink it and write what I Wanted to write #but it is definitely uhh.. experimental shall we say. and I feel weird about that I guess?? self-conscious?? hesitant??? #I want to post it!! I also don't want to be Perceived. so yeah #I can't sleep and I'm processing all this via a Tumblr poll skskskkffnsmnf

[eoinmcgonigal]

it's really upsetting me so to get it off my chest i'm gonna confess that the positivity posts i saw yesterday really hurt. i didn't realise that was a thing in this fandom, and i wish it wasn't because those things inevitably leave people feeling left out and like their presence isn't worth anything to the fandom (plus readers, rebloggers and commenters are integral to fandom community but don't usually get a shoutout). i'm already struggling because of this horrible trend towards using threads in discord which renders most of the servers inaccessible to me, i feel extremely isolated and alone and unwanted, but i was doing okay muddling along churning out fic and a few silly polls and posts now and then until yesterday. the fic i posted today just made me feel so sad after i posted it. it was a lovely fic :( but like what is the point. if i'm worth so little i might as well not be here. why put the effort into making things if no one notices. i already feel so lonely it's like i'm being torn in two, posting things now and then brought me comfort but idk what i have now

#i'm in a deleting everything kinda mood #no one remembered me? oh. okay :( #fuckin hurts so much #i want to finish the johnny stuff but i feel so unbearably miserable now and i don't want to spend hogmanay like that #but i also can't bear to leave it unfinished #i wish i'd never scrolled my dash yesterday then i'd never have known about those posts #it brought me so much joy to write and share those fic #absolutely crushing to discover i don't inspire the same joy in the fandom #i was kinda impressed with having written so much i thought it was kinda cool #maybe it's just really fucking annoying idk #sorry just so lonely and upset and the places i find sanctuary are falling to pieces and i'd actually like to die now thanks #so much shit is going on irl you have no idea and i don't have a support network it's terrifying #nothing i do is worth anything #no one wants me #did u no my mother discarded all the photos that had me in them? kid me just. discarded. she took everyone else and threw me out #shit like that hurts i wish i had a new family or friends to chat to as a distraction when shit gets bad #i mean i get discord dm notifications (not server mentions) if anyone dms me but lol guess how often that happens #i get tumblr dm notifications it's been the only place i've talked to anyone for ages so shoutout to those two wonderful people #god i just. want to be included? #i tried #i failed #fuck. #maybe this is goodbye idk i had stuff to finish up/share #and a million more fics i wanted to write #i don't even know if i can face doing tomorrow's johnny fic #i wanted to do the 12 days of christmas too :( #but the fact now exists that i just... wasn't good enough for this fandom :'( #also i can't face the notifications tab #if it's not a Direct Message i won't see it #god there was SO MUCH i wanted to share! there were gifs i was gonna make to share the suffering and gift fic and silly posts

[keeps-ache]

so there's this place-

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #defunct I-95 #doodles #i miss the I-95 and i don't know why but lol #//anyway fun thing about Day is the little keyhole thing is actually a fingerprint scanner #so that they can verify if you're supposed to receive whatever they're carrying in the little door thingy :)) #//anyway if anybody's wondering why i'm making so many new characters it's because It Is The Time Of Year Where I Kinda Just Do That #every spring without fail! new beginnings? new OCs more like #i've considered giving some away but also i get really attached really fast ffvhsbhfj #yea i'm not gonna draw them again. yes they are IN my cranium and they are being very loud about it #//the story i've got so far is this though‚ it's pretty simple so :3 : #Day has a letter‚ a Very Important Letter. he doesn't know what it's contents Are exactly‚ but it's got a Very Important Stamp on it so it' #First Priorty !! unfortunately the recipient lives Far outside the city. like‚ cities away from the city. should be fine though‚ they were #designed for this :) but actually he's been hiding the fact that his leg has been damaged for quite a while now (or at least longer than #they should've been hiding it) but the parts they need aren't in production anymore‚ so it's not like he can just say he can't take it #so they take the only other obvious route and 'hire' someone to take them (more like Commandeer For The Use Of Postal Delivery Under The J- #and that's when he meets Pilot and they go and do things on their trip :D #so ye .u. #//ok i'm going to go and. do a thing #i don't rebmeber what it was but ay! ...... #i think i was going to say something about inflatable pools but i don't know fvhfbsh #anyway !!! TOOdles :>>>

[e1dritchqueer]

Tired

[Image ID: a pixelated close up drawing of a anthropomorphic dog girl clavicle up colored in light purple with pink edge light. The girl has tired eyes, long wavy hair, floppy ears, thick eyebrows, and a slightly visible adam's apple. She wears a collar and a loose shit. The background is a pixelated photo of a tree branch behind a twilight sky /end id]

#okay okay okay like.... #EXTREMELY happy with this I'm gonna talk about it in the tags but like #idk I tried alot of things new here from using a kinda pixel arty style (no anti analyzing) #AND trying to use some found media from my phone as a background #idk I think doing that is really cool and I want to collect some more found media to do more of that I'm really really fond #kat sketches #furry #furry art #dog girl #furry anthro #anthro #artists on tumblr #image id #image described #also hi still trying to get back into writing image descriptions with art again if anyone has any resources I'd love to read em #all of my old ones are hard to find #kat's art

[clochanamarc]

i would like to say, in defense of whoever did end up using AI to respond to threads, that it could have been the result of an overcrowded schedule or whatever. we don't really know why they did it, much less the way they chose to do so. but! if anyone is ever that stressed out about juggling RP with real life responsibilities, it's very important to remember that the entire purpose of RP is as an optional extra designed to help us think of things outside of the real world. and if we use bots to respond to threads we have with our friends, that means we're missing out on a really fun and worthwhile experience that could have been shared with our friends rather than a computer. take your time. your friends will wait for you.

even if this is all just a massive big misunderstanding, it seems a worthwhile thing to bring up given that AI bots have an increasing role in our daily lives, and also that there are MANY people who fear being "hated" for not writing fast enough, or producing enough content. so the message remains the same! the people who are right for you will stay even if you only write a word a year. ty for listening to my ted talk.

#( OUT OF SOULS. ) #( don't use AI in our threads pls ) #( but yeah ) #( i feel like it should be said that ) #( sometimes there's an extremely high level of pressure to write every day here ) #( and for new rpers that pressure could potentially lead to them doing shit like this ) #( so maybe we can take this opportunity to change the way we do things here? ) #( like when you're almost a decade on tumblr like me u don't really care as much ) #( lately i understand that my priorities have changed and i'm tired and busy ) #( so any amount of writing is a miracle ) #( but for new members of the rpc i can kinda see why they might frantically lurch for chatgpt as a resource )

[dasistmeinpferd]

currently experiencing midotaka brainrot and having insane hubris-fueled ideas someone LET ME FREE

#i started thinking again about that yuri midotaka comic i made #and i started writing some more of it #and i was also looking at some midotaka stuff on pixiv #and I REALLY wanna draw the faves and other knb content now #but i have tasks and responsibilities ughhhhh #been satiating myself with all the good new food in the knb tag lately #(shout out tumblr user kucho04) #but it also makes me wanna draw MORE #i have a few knb sanrio sketches i did over the weekend #been kinda ugh and overwhelmed lately but once i feel better i'm gonna GET YOU #pferd.txt #kuroko no basket #knb

[zaideaben]

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#was long overdue for a new commission sheet! #i think tumblr blocks posts with links from showing up in tagged searches rip so any reblogs are especially appreciated here! #commission #commissions #commission sheet #commissions open #digital art #oc art #character art #just to clarify: i have both cel shading and fully rendered coloring options on my commission page #and i know this example here is kinda a mix of both #but i'm considering it cel shading #i have a price difference because i try to make sure the whole piece is nicely blended for my full render commissions #but with cel shading. i really only blend where it feels necessary to me #like around the face and hair a bit when it feels right. the rest i couldn't care less and just do cel shading haha #so just in case that was confusing: this would be another cel shading example and therefore follow those rates!

[shikai-the-storyteller]

I genuinely tear up whenever I think about how English fans are learning Spanish for Quackity and how Spanish fans are learning English for him. He's really loved.

#i talk #dsmp talk #I have now moved from ''genuinely tear up'' to ''I am currently crying my eyes out rn thinking about it'' #maybe this is a bit too tmi for a frickin tumblr post but #I'm Mexican and I've always been really deeply ashamed that I can't speak Spanish #esp because I look white passing and Ive dealt with the whole ''but you dont SEEM Mexican!'' thing my whole life #which — as someone who has always been fiercely proud of her heritage — never failed to piss me off #but I've always been too scared to practice with other people or with family #because I'm still afraid of that judgement and I'm afraid of not being seen as ''good enough'' or ''Mexican enough'' #and like. I know I am I KNOW I am and there's no invisible standard or whatever I need to prove myself to #but at the same time. those kinda things build up over the years y'know? #then I got into DSMP and I found out Quackity was Mexican too #and I got really invested in his character and him as a person / creator #and when he joined Karmaland I finally decided to start practicing Spanish #and like. I've never been someone who could learn Any Kind of language outside of a classroom setting #and it's hard and frustrating and embarassing more than anything else #but I saw Quackity post about today's lore on his Spanish twitter a bit ago saying people should watch it even if its in English #and one of his Spanish-speaking fans responded to it saying how they started doing English duolingo for him #and like y'know Ive been an English teacher for ages and I'm always quick to congratulate people because learning a new language is hard #so I (in Spanish) respond by saying that I'm learning Spanish so I can watch Karmaland #and I say how amazing it is how everyone's learning a different language for Quackity and I wish them good luck #and I'm looking at the responses to both our comments rn and it's making me cry more #because the English and Spanish communities are both so enthusiastic and supportive of each other because we all love Quackity #I'm not really sure how to put my emotions into words but. it's nice to see that support. it's nice to feel seen by my own people #and it's nice to see that love trancends culture and language barriers #I see so much bad stuff in the world but then I see stuff like this & it makes me bawl my eyes out because we're all just people in the end #something about human connection and love and communication #I dunno. Quackity is very important to me and so is his community. #Anyways I know lore's gonna kill me today because this just made me bawl for 10 minutes #karmaland talk

[cuteniaarts]

In another world, fate was just a little bit kinder

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original characters #sotrl midori #sotrl haya #seeds of the red lotus #look I was feeling extremely emotional recently. and thought about how different life would be for my OCs if Haya was good #and I'm a sucker for AUs like that. it's spiritually healing. so of course I had to draw something for it #I originally wanted to draw a companion piece for suiren too but then thought it was just rehashing the idea #and I draw Suiren a lot already anyways so decided to just take the excuse to draw adorable little Midori and run with it #I have quite a few thoughts about an AU like this too. it starts out like sotrl does. haya gives them the cold shoulder and is kinda mean #but then the news of the rl's imprisonment reach gaoling. haya is shellshocked at first. distances herself and sends the girls to their room #pretends she can't hear the crying. but really she wants to cry too because as estranged as they are. ghazan is still her little brother #she indulges late that night after she think the girls are asleep. deep buried trauma from losing her parents resurfaces #but then she hears footsteps behind her. Midori is awake. haya wants to be angry at first but finds she has no energy to #they talk a little. the warm glow of candlelight catches midori's eyes and their grey shade turns gold. she looks so much like him #haya realises Midori is even younger than ghazan was when they lost their parents. suiren is half the age haya herself was #no one cared for her and ghazan back then. she won't let history repeat itself #so she reaches for midori. heart skipping a beat when she lights up slightly. and takes her into her arms #holds her close as midori hugs her back. if she closes her eyes it almost feels like she’s 14 again. holding her brother #she swears then that she’ll be as good of a guardian to these girls as she can so they don’t end up like their parents did. like haya did #it’s a long road to unlearn her bitterness but she tries her best. it’s easier with midori who soaks in affection like a sponge #Midori’s happiness is infectious. with suiren it’s much more difficult bc the prejudice Haya holds against the swamp are still there #as is the hatred for their mother. it isn’t until the townspeople start calling Suiren a swamp rat does haya snap #she no longer cares about getting alienated from the community that barely welcomed her anyway. she will defend her niece from them all #it’s the first time she calls suiren her niece. they talk too and Haya apologises for favouring Midori and starts working on fixing it #their life together isn’t perfect. the townspeople side eye them. they can’t afford bending teachers. Haya still has to bite her tongue #but it’s so much better than what could have been had Haya let her pain consume her and started to take it out on the girls. they’re happy #I have so much more to say and theorise about when it comes to this au but alas. tag limits are a thing. so I’m leaving this here

[ofmonstrstbd]

((can y'all,,, see me

#trash mammal screaming (ooc) #((I don't get notifications for this blog on Carter's so I don't know if I managed to break something #or if tumblr is messing with me fdsjhsdgfjhk #because I wanna make this Jet's blog only and move Maya and Lupa again #so either Maya and Lupa will go back onto a sideblog or I'm making two new sideblogs because I don't #want to deal with the tomfoolery of making a whole new blog now since tumblr has made it Difficult)) #((though ngl I kinda wanna make Jet a sideblog anyway and make them a permanent jp/mcu crossover oc #since I'm not;;; rping much with jp and really just using it as a source dsfhjgsdf))