#i'm going to make myself cry

[bumblebeebat22]

you think a reason hunter is so hyperfocused on finding omega is because he's aware of his increased aging and knows he's not going to get as much time with her as he should so any long time spent apart feels like even longer in relation to his life span

#i'm going to make myself cry #why did i have to have this thought #the bad batch #the bad batch season 3 #star wars #the bad batch hunter #the bad batch omega #tbb season 3

[andsomedaykindness]

i won't lie i think it's very funny (in. in a sad way) if most of the chain are having a good time during lu. like, they're hanging out with these other guys who actually GET them in a way almost no one else can, and they don't have to do all the fighting by themselves for once, and they're eating great food all the time and so on. sure, some of them miss their families or homes or whatever, and obviously they sometimes get hurt and have bad experiences, but for the most part they're all chilling.

...and then there's sky. sky, who during the entire thing is absolutely haunted by the fact that all of these people have suffered so much because of him. pretty much all of them began their quests as children, and it was his fault. sky, who doesn't say a word about the curse to anyone, who keeps all his guilt and horror and self-loathing locked up tight inside his chest. every time someone alludes to a traumatic event-even when they're just making a joke-sky has to look away for a moment to compose himself. because that trauma was his fault, too. it only happened because he failed.

he loves the other links just as much as any of them do. he also sees them as his family. but he can only forget himself and actually have a good time briefly, because he'll see time's eye or wild's scars and suddenly remember that he was the one who doomed them all.

(and you would never guess how he's feeling, how he's constantly being crushed under the massive weight of his guilt. he's always sleeping or talking about sun or carving or playing his harp. he seems so peaceful, so happy. he suffers so much, but he suffers in silence. after all, he doesn't deserve to tell anyone how he feels. not when it's all his fault.)

#linked universe #i cry over him #i just think it's fun to put him through the Horrors #never enough sky angst #to be clear i absolutely don't blame sky for the curse #dude killed a god! there had to be consequences #but i do think he would absolutely blame himself for it #and i think it would tear him up inside #this was inspired by that chain smile compilation #everyone thought sky would be one of the members of the chain who smiled the most; in fact he was one of those who smiled the least #and so many of those smiles were small and tight-lipped and strained #he suffers so much but he suffers in silence!!! #god i love him. so much. #i'm going to make myself cry #my posts

[protege-not-protagonist]

For Grace!

🌺

Hi there, thank you so much for asking me a question! I'm very excited to meet all you guys and I'm just honoured that you guys want to ask questions! And.... the author is looking at me cause I'm rambling so I guess I better answer the question.

🌺 what is the best gift someone has ever given you and why is it so important?

Ooooh good question. A few come to mind but the best gift hmm... It feels weird to say this, cause I feel like he was so much more than a gift, he was my best friend. But Spud, my dog. My dad got him for me for my 12th birthday. He was a birthday present and then his collar, bed and bowl where my Christmas present. (I'm used to the combined presents because... well my birthday is on Christmas.) I don't think dad told mom about him, and hid him in the garden shed for a few days. I'm also pretty sure he found Spud on the side of the road on the mainland during a job cause he was very skinny and I couldn't tell what breed he was. (neither could the vet when we finally got him mirco chipped and desexed) But I didn't care, I was in love.

Spud was important because that was a time in my life I didn't have many friends. I was being bullied pretty badly in middle school and that was also when my nightmares started. I had to change schools to a private catholic school for all grades. I mean there isn't much you can do on an island with only two other schools to choose from. At my new school I wasn't bullied, but everyone there knew each other from since they were in Pre K soo... I was excluded from a lot. The closest relationships I had were with the teachers... ( 0_0 I-I I don't mean... not like that... I meant they were friendly and tried to make sure I was included in things.) But Spud was a life saver. He was always so happy to see me, it really brightened up my day to see him. He was also a very well behaved dog, very loyal. He would follow me everywhere. I used to go walking a lot around the Island, and sit some where and paint, we'd play fetch while I painted, and he'd never wonder too far. He also used to sleep at the foot of my bed and snore. His little snuffles helped me sleep at night.

tag list: @bridgeoverstrawberryfields @cultish-corner @pleasantwitchgarden

#grace matthews #my fic #the protege #oc #criminal minds #asks #character mail #the protege: details #Spud #i'm going to make myself cry #i'm so sorry

[captastra]

Forgot and then watched Katy Perry’s The One That Got Away because Diego Luna is in it. He’s so cute but then that ending was such a gut punch!

...time to write an angsty fic with Jyn and Cassian along the same lines as that video.

#rebelcaptain #i'm going to make myself cry

[mothygraves]

what if we hold hands. and I press a clover into your palm. and you press a clover flower into mine. and we put them in our hair. and lay on our blanket in the grass. and look at the stars and fireflies

#soft... #I'm going to make myself cry

[arthursfuckinghat]

Well, I thought I could outrun the train

Arthur really is just built different

#I find myself going “what the fuck” more and more with arthur's shenanigans #it's so funny this game is gold #not shown: me running from the start of the bridge and almost making it 💪 #i'm crying this is so funny #it's so random #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #mick vids #funnies

[virtualmc]

Someone give these children a hug and some hot chocolate, they've been through a lot.

.

Here is the first sketch and another version because lighting is difficult <3

(Currently depressed and sleep deprived haha...)

#v_mc #art #fanart #undertale yellow #uty #uty kanako #kanako ketsukane #undertale #undertale chara #undertale fanart #undertale will forever be my comfort game tbh #i'm gonna go make myself some hot cocoa and cry now

[fisheito]

collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo. #says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking #my immediate thought was #i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him #bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent #but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally #it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched.... #so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti. #configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying #the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias #then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought #i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him #AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND #originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went #WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN #BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing. #plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS #but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it #i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding #so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown #i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said #kuya #yakumo #yakuya

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/" #i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do. #there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW. #i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends... #btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it? #they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone. #the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames? #something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

[brown-little-robin]

あ

#Robin processes emotions on main #already I am struggling with studying Japanese #not with the language itself so much. I'm making progress on that #but with this horrible kind of anxiety #I writhe not being the best at things that I'm trying to do. I writhe wondering if I should just give up. #this is why I had a horrible time studying Greek in high school as well: can't know it well enough fast enough #it's like I'm dying a little every day convincing myself no it's FINE not to know everything right away. it's OKAY. #it's okay if you stop learning Japanese in the future and it's okay if you keep learning Japanese. it's okay it's okay it's— #hhhhhhhhhhhh #it's such a complicated language it's making my stomach hurt right now thinking about how I want to learn kanji but it's So Much #and I don't know HOW to learn it #I've never really learned a language before (Greek does NOT count) and I'm learning all the complexities of the Japanese language and going #going oh....... this is........ actually extremely much...... and I'm never going to be a native speaker....... #I'm trying So Hard to embrace dying a little to my perfectionism every day but it's HARD. WAILS #No one Told me learning a language would make me want to cry because it's simply impossible to master!!!! #WAH!!!! #I'm trying to keep sight of the fact that it's not about my pride it's about having fun and embracing Small challenge and Small rewards #I really do feel so happy every time I recognize a word or understand the grammar when watching anime #it's just thinking about the Entire language that's psyching me out #Robin learns Japanese

[maudiemoods]

Alright! I'm gonna lose it

#everything! I'm going to throw it all away! including myself!! #hm i think i am going to start my period soon doctor #guy :) guys im having a breakdown again #i need to go to therapy #maybe I'll try to figure that out next week #ren won't shut up #i HATE really opening up bc then i start crying and i cant talk when i cry 🙄 #im so tired of making my own decisions when i dont know has ANYTHING works #i hate my anxiety #i think I'm going yo go on a midnight walk

[doli-nemae]

Drew this 10 min before leaving home because she's my serotonin

#nwn #nwn 2 #neverwinter nights #neverwinter nights 2 #half orc #paladin #dnd #dungeon and dragons #d&d oc #d&d #ukrart #dolinemae #artists on tumblr #укртумбочка #i feel my brain going wacky wacky rn #i feel tired i want to cry and i want to sit in isolation but i know it's gonna make my wellbeing worse #but hey on sunday i'm going to have almost all day to draw stuff for myself #gonna draw some dorn and triss stuff #they and sam are my emotional support characters ok #nwn2 #char: Samira Gormash

[animalpetcel]

Hey! AK EN translated the Arturia manga! I think some of these are the panels that spoke out to me

When she used her magic on her parents, esp the contrast between it. The first encounter with her mother even establishes that Arturia, with a somewhat childlike yet well-meaning understanding of the difficult situation her mother is in emotionally and decides that if her mother can do what makes her happy, that is what is most important, even if it lead to her death.

And for her father, it shows how it could look to an outsider someone who knows what her power is and fears what they would do if no longer held together by their inhibitions and society. It is obviously a terrifying thought and rejecting it is the logical(?) course of action.

Everything unfettered is not always kind and it is not always cruel. It breaks the social contract everyone agrees to follow in order to live but it is not something that I think is a purely evil action because we all know how the social contract can put the same people it exists to help into horrible binds.

Also Executor explains her motivations better then me:

she's like, an emotional hedonist whose somewhat childish beliefs would always lead to chaos bc society would never work if people just said what they felt and did what they liked but she's not pursuing this out of some malice for the world or a desire to see people succumb to chaos or pain, at least imo.

#arknights #idk if this made sense #Arturia is going to become like Ho'olheyak to me #Where I get mad at 90% of the fandom bc I think they're being blind to the reality/more interesting parts of the character #even while being aware that the game actively plays into the surface level interpretations that these people have to make money #why did I have to become obsessed with these girls? #agony and suffering #anyway I'm really excited for ZT and if I get Viviana instead of Virtousa I will cry myself to sleep bc I can't afford to miss Degenbrecher #and I am a f2p who doesn't prioritize limited banners most of the time

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

#personal #i had to make the tough decision to drop out of school last week #i didn't exactly want it if i'm being completely honest here #but certain stuff was preventing me from getting further so i knew the teachers are gonna ask me to quit over at our teams meeting #i instantly contacted my nurse about my situation. and she got me a doctor's appointment which was yesterday #where i kind of broke down a little. not because she didn't grant me the sick leave i thought i was going to get #after feeling down and sleeping terribly for weeks #but because she actually *got me*. like. she actually listened to me and figured out some stuff and told me that #what i'm going through and what i've been going through for years would make anyone depressed #so i couldn't help but cry a little because yeah. i'm so tired of never being enough no matter how hard i try #because my brain's wired a certain way and it makes me slow and kinda clumsy and inattentive at times #which. you might guess is not ideal at today's work environment. or studying-wise even #so instead of granting me sick leave (she did say we can change that at anytime though) she told me to wait for that phone call #from the unemployment office. which i should be getting tomorrow. or well. later today #and talk to them about this. to see if they can offer some solutions. or if we can figure something out #'cause i'm getting closer to my 40s and not getting anywhere and it's wearing me out and tiring me out #because i clearly can't help myself or change my ways on my own #i managed to get some work last week though. at the local youth house. one shift though but money still #but i haven't been getting those offers a lot during the past few months so it's not enough to support me obviously #so i definitely need something else. and i hope i can get help. that someone could help me #i should finally get tested for adhd next month too. i don't know if i even have it or if it's gonna change anything but #at least i'd know #anyway i needed to get this off my chest. cause i'm kinda crying a little bit even now just thinking about this whole thing #sorry

[sehtoast]

me: MY HAIRLINE IS RECEDING OH NO OH FUCK

also me: full time student (worth noting i wrote stupid here at first without realizing), 20-30 hours in customer service every week, teaching myself 3/4 classes, teaching myself advanced algebra with a teacher (basically just a proctor) who shuts down any/all asks for help, juggling college financial woes, navigating dying relationships/people abandoning and/or attacking me bc i don't have time for things i used to anymore, none of my hobbies are making me happy when and if i have time for them,, i have no time for myself, i'm on my second all-nighter this week, i'm perpetually exhausted in a way sleep isn't fixing, my body aches because i'm so tired, and i'm barely able to stay asleep when i do get the chance bc the anxiety wakes me up

my hairline: two hops this time!

#i'm so stressed man #sehtoast rambles #sehtoast vents? fuck if i know #i just feel like i can't get ahead #i used to be able to get all my shit done by friday and have the bulk of the weekend to myself #but that's not doable at all this term #i just had a whole ass mental breakdown over fucking homework #like i'm almost grateful T made it near impossible for me to cry bc like #i was going to have a whole sobbing crying breakdown and at least i only had to feel the mental and physical anguish of it instead #it's 3am and i just made coffee so i can do the rest of my work #luckily the last two are super little in comparison but #i can't keep doing 30 pages of notes with 10 pages of homework and a 40 question 'quiz' for math #on top of making like 7 excel spreadsheets a week #not including the 50 page readings for management plus the 50 questions that follow and the writing assignments #i'm so glad my ids class is easy. dr s is my personal jesus christ for being so gentle with her students #idk i'm just... really not doin well rn #at all #idk if anyone read this far in #if you did ily and appreciate you

[respectthepetty]

Because all of this discussion about kisses furthering the narrative made me think of Your Name Engraved Herein,

And now I've hurt my own feelings.

If you need me, I'll be crying over a basket of Red Lobster biscuits.

#your name engraved herein #I played myself #I delivered my own fatal hit #Why do I hate myself? #Did I want to make myself cry?! #Now I'm going to rewatch the movie because if I'm gonna make myself cry I gotta go all in