#i'm even under a blanket

[yangjeongin]

cr. Fl0wer0320

#hyunjin #I'M GOING INSANEEEEEEEEEE #I CANNOT EVEN EPLXIAN IT #WHY DOES THI S HYUNJIN IN PARTICULAR HAVE ME BY THR HTROAT #look at him. look at #him and his little #face and beanie and soft oversized zip up thing #and his fading blue hair #please i wanna hug u so bad please lay under a weighted blanket w me </3 #i am still exhibiting symptoms of rabies

[fineillsignup]

I know the notion of "cozy horror" has caused a kerfuffle recently with people discoursing about what it means about the decline of societal hoohah in the whatnow but be that as it may.

But something that was inspired by my own family that I think would be a great basis for a story.

Chaotic family. Neurodiverse parents, neurodiverse kids. Fake it til you make it except you can't really fake it and you never really make it, but you're all trying and there's love and forgiveness and patience.

Mom comes across sinuous white mass, writhing and groaning, on the floor of the hallway.

"Oh will you cut that out, it's past bed time. You know you wanna have a good time at the movies tomorrow!" Mom says in fond exasperation as she steps over the mass to go down the stairs to do dishes.

The ghost she just steps over like Hɱɱ. ყҽʂ ιɳ ϝαƈƚ I ԃσ ɯαɳƚ ƚσ ԋαʋҽ α ɠσσԃ ƚιɱҽ αƚ ƚԋҽ ɱσʋιҽʂ ƚσɱσɾɾσɯ.

That's how the family gets an extra child.

#maybe we're haunted #maybe it's maybelline #cozy horror #story inspiration #i don't know if i'm going anywhere with this #or if anyone else will like it #let's see #wait a minute this isn't naruto #i did in fact come across a sinuous white mass this evening and it was a child under a blanket #at least i think it was #what a tweest

[sonego]

can i complain about my life again promise you all won't hate me

#(i know everyone already does most likely so i'll do it and just feel bad about it but) #it's not that i don't love my family and i'm not happy to go back home to have dinner w them and all but #god after like 3 hours i'm already exhausted #i feel bad about it but they're just SO exhausting and this house is SO suffocating #i did it i left i did it. why do i still feel trapped #quite literally can't even stomach watching football rn bc i just wanna sit in the dark under my blanket and fucking. idk. cry maybe #and it makes it all so much worse that it's so painfully obvious my mum is tired and probably sad and surely fed up w my father (and my #brother to a lesser extent) #every time i come home i just wanna say sorry. sorry i left you. sorry you're alone. you're not alone but you're alone against the world #and she dismisses my worrying bc ofc she does and i do the same with her worries we've played this dance all our lives #it's just. how do you let someone worry about you when you both know there's nothing you can do to make it better #when you both know the source of the misery and exhaustion is inescapable #god i wish it was. like. i wish this was a movie. where people actually help you in these situations. where there isn't that BIG big big #obstacle that feels wrong to even call an obstacle but it will always forever make it impossible to do anything about the problem #i wish the people who said they'd help gave even half a shit and actually did (it was their fucking job) #going from sad to angry to hopeless to exhausted every 4 seconds i'm so #the thing is i'm not gonna stop coming back home you know? i'm not i can't #i don't even want to #but i wish it wasn't so fucking soul crushing every time bc i don't wanna keep having tiring tiring weeks #and then go back home on weekends and feel the opposite of rested #ok. i should shut up. sorry. i really don't know why i'm even alive atm #delete later #i never remember to delete these (when i remember to tag them in the first place)

[sunflowerjune]

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#I got another snow day!!! #I'm so happy! #now I can sit under my heated blanket and watch the snow fall outside #and at some point i'm gonna take a walk down my long windy driveway and then come in and be even more warm and cosy #this is all i wanted from winter honestly #the weather forecast said it was only gonna be a tiny bit of snow followed by rain #but no in Jesus' abundance he gave us snow! It's been snowing for hours now ❤❤❤❤

[agena87]

Either my story post really sucks. Or it doesn't appear on anyone's dash... 'cause even my most useless text posts get notes, but my first part of "Sacrélège"? Just one note (well, two but one is my own rb) since I posted it last evening.

Or everyone decided that I suck and they now hate me.

(yes, I'm in a very confident mood, as you can see)(no I'm not; I kinda want to abandon my new story because it's probably too shitty anyway and just lie in bed for the next decade or so)

#and to help with the self-confidence i still haven't managed to have a new psych nurse assigned to me #since september though i asked them to and they said they would contact me #and even after leaving messages for them to call me i still don't have any answer #my former nurse would have never do that; though now that i think of it she was supposed to call me before she left #but i think her colleague never gave her the message 'cause she always had been awesome and i trust her #so yeah i feel like i'm not wanted #which sucks ass #i'll just go watch dumb movies under my weighted blanket then #i should just shut up

[theflyingfeeling]

I'm on a relatively bright mood and got a good hair day to top it all so I'm making y'all look at my nice hair and my pastel colour aesthetic 💖

#hello yes i've emerged from under the blanket 😅 #it's amazing what having a shower and putting on some nice clothes and make up does to you lol #and i even ventured out of the apartment and pulled off something i was very nervous about so yay go me!! #next i'm gonna order dinner (because i deserve to treat myself in the form of cauliflower soup and chickpea-cole curry!!) #and then i'll get back to fic writing 💘 #hugs to all of you ✨ #(also yes that is a moomin earring) #(also also sorry for no readmore i really did want to hide my face from your dashboards lol but the pictures wouldn't display correctly)

[beetrans]

hello. person reading this. I want you to keep living. another day, another week, at least until you can see a sunrise and a sunset and feel at peace.

even if I've never met you and I never will. I want you to have that kind of respite. I want kindness for you, even if only in pockets and scraps held close to our hearts.

yes, even you. yes, even though. yes, even still.

You deserve a good life.

#reminders #you matter #I love you #honestly #I'm in a mood #so this may be as much to me as to you #but #I really truly mean it. #life is hard right now and people care more than you know and even if you don't know us #we're here #(currently on the couch under a fuzzy blanket with a dog curled up into me if that helps)

[harvestar]

she is so fucking passwd out (petted her chin and she didn't wake up)

#ktxt #danny tag #her hair is finally growing back!! I feel bad but im always like. put that away fhdgbgn #she doesn't really like tummy pets anymore so we've just been doing chest pets and her grabbing my arm #which probably needs to stop but im horrible and I like the kitty bites and roughhousing a little compared to other games #the mouse is pretty good though. I like tossing it around and hiding it under blankets and playing with her like a fellow cat its fun #...I think I might be a big fucked up cat to her. which makes sense she is a small fucked up cat and we communicate well #im horrible and I honestly hate waving a stick with a toy on it even though she loves it... thats not fun for me I'm not engaged rip #its so sad I can't play with her as a true equal and just bite her tail and sit directly on top of her head without bothering to ask. fave #in the next life we will both be cats and be best friends again!

[daz4i]

my legs feel like sticks of ice and i refuse to wear pants regardless because! because. i rarely get cold and i want to savor it. variety is important. it's enrichment in the enclosure that is my body

#also getting under a blanket or into my slightly warmer room is very satisfying like this #unlike feeling hot which can never be satisfying bc even if you enter an air conditioned place and cool off. you still smell like sweat 🧐 #also if i do dress warmer i get hot so fast and it becomes a heat wave and i start feeling like i'm suffocating 😔 #i have very normal temperature regulation btw (lying) (i'm fat and on t obviously i rarely get cold) (i am a human space heater)

[chronicowboy]

made the mistake of having a hot drink on a rainy day...

#sami rambles #rainy days are sleepy days anyway but u give me a hot drink whilst im under a blanket and oh boy #i'm about to reach levels of sleepy you've never even heard of baby! #you could give me the strongest coffee in the world and i'd just burrito down in my blanket and hit rock bottom of unproductivity #🌧️☕🛌💤

[complete-clownery]

This is a memory

So the lyrics on it kinda just wanted to put something there-- I also posting this for myself mostly

#There is this moment that I thought about #and for some reason its one of my favorite moments that always makes me feel warm and nostalgic #It was this one time I was planing to stay over at one of my friends hous. #It was winter and we needed to leave the dorms early since kids were going to stay in our rooms and they needed to clean them up #It was an extremely cold morning and I had to walk to their house with my luggage that was pretty heavy- #it was really shit- counting in the fact that I was only able to get 2 hours of sleep in for some reason I dont remember- #and I remembered that I got to their house around 8 am and my friend let me in #but she's not really the morning person so they were also really out of it #and I was freezing and inside it was good yes but #then we went back into her room and she suggested we go back to sleep and we did that #and so this friend and I are cuddling a lot #whenever we are together we're really cuddly and affectionate in school too #even some of the people outside of our class thought we were dating- (which we never will) #and obviously this time too #and we actually have the same blanket that is grey and has white stars on it #which let through the outside lights unlike the grey fluffy fabric #And i'm a relatively small person with my 5'2 for height #and they hugged me so that I was snuggled up below their head above their chest and I pulled my legs up to my chest to be even smaller #and she draped the blanket on us in a way that my head was under the blanket #and I could see the white stars letting through the warm cozy sunlight that the shutters on her window above the bed barely let in #and everything smells so nice and warm and my still cold body was starting to feel #this comfortable nice bedsheet warmth along with the other person's body heat and god I fell asleep so quickly #Both of us did and so our other friend couldn't reach us #and had to walk around for (if I remember correctly) half an hour before we woke up and let him in #clowning ∆ #Spotify

[running-in-the-dark]

I could've been insane in an interesting way at least but noo, I just think about a stupid guy so much that I lose my mind, how fucking stupid is that

#I didn't mean that. he's not stupid. some of the ones before him though.. yeah #but like why. whyyyy #'how have you been?' 'oh not great I'm mentally ill in a way that makes me get so obsessed with men that everything else stops existing so #I'm actually not even a person right now I'm just a thing that's in love with John Larroquette :) ' #also I absolutely know why that started and that makes it so much worse!! haha my parents ignored me and were mean to me so I had to #fixate on fictional characters to get through my childhood haha that's fun I'm so normal :) #at least now I'm not hiding under my blanket crying and praying that [random guy I was obsessed with as a child] will come save me so #that's something I guess #(no actually it's just as bad. and I'm a whole fucking adult. why.) #also I'm now remembering random shit like that time I followed around a man in his 30s at a wedding when I was 10 because he was pretty and #my mother didn't want to deal with me. so. time to keep staring at this man I guess! his name was Peter lol why do I remember that #or the less funny things #seriously wish I was exaggerating when I say I get obsessed. oh it's not an exaggeration. I mean that literally. #personal

[khaotunq]

the seasonal do be affecting dis order

#about jay #so it is decreed #it's not even november and i'm aready mad about how dark it is #text #everything feels upside down and it's fucking cold why do this #i am curled up under 2 blankets and furious about it

[rosenfey]

I hate having a cold I want to taste things

#ambie.txt #I'm so miserable and I can't even get comfort food and drinks because I can't bloody taste them #I'm gonna crawl under my blanket and perish

[wikiangela]

it's a "the o.c." + crocheting kinda evening and im having so much fun haha 🥰

#curled up under a blanket with my laptop and oc playing #and making a sweater for my sister lol #I didn't manage to even start for the birthday so maybe for Christmas 😅 #I was gonna write but the oc sucked me in lol it was gonna be one episode 😂 #oh well I have a day off tomorrow so I'm gonna write at night haha #ngl after the last few days of feeling miserable and crying all the time this is such a nice break haha

[tennis-kittens]

Just Pierre helping Foki to clean the clay off of him after a nasty fall 🤲🥺♥️

#yeah like i have time for a new ship right now great #i love them your honor #the way Pierre keeps his racket under his arm omg #just put it down sweetie #they're so soft i want to wrap them in a blanket and hug them tight 🥺 #the fact that they have almost 10 years apart i- 💀 #even better than a net hug #foki looks so surprised i'm- 😭😭😭 #why is he so adorable #pierre hugues herbert #alejandro davidovich fokina #tennis