#i'll tag this properly why not

[kakyogay]

alri I'm feeling generous tonight I'll give you folks the sketches (for the main 4) I just finished before I go sleeb

#don't mind how moon and pebs are like slightly more blurry than the other two #drew them a little too small and it's only the sketch so it'll look better when I actually line and color them #but also gotta do sos cw and ui so it may take a bit #idk I just want to actually give them colors because I have the ideas in my head I just never got them out #eh I'll tag this properly why not #rain world #seven red suns #five pebbles #looks to the moon #no significant harassment #gjinka bs #nighty night :3 *explodes*

[taz-writes]

here's a hot take for today

the narrative function of sex is the same as the narrative function of fight scenes is the same as the narrative function of songs in a musical

no i will not explain

#taz talks #writing #actually i WILL explain but i'll do it in the tags #these each serve the same function within their respective appropriate genres #each one is a kind of revelation #they heighten the connection between 2+ characters and highlight relationships and feelings and needs #they are out of place in genres where they do not belong and/or as curveballs when the narrative did not provoke them from the start #but they have the same sort of emotional/dramatic build-up #talk -> sing -> dance (talk -> yell -> stab) ((talk -> flirt -> You Know)) #and they are all expressions of intense physicality and intimacy through physical gesture and interaction #they are fundamentally empty and boring if there is not a deeper purpose or drive behind them #although they can still occasionally be entertaining on their own if your audience is specifically seeking that experience out #people who do not like them will be very unhappy to encounter one where it isn't supposed to be #it is very easy to ruin the mood with poor word choice #many people have an inherent sense for terrible ones but it's often difficult or complicated to explain precisely why a bad one fails #when executed properly they are a very raw and intimate expression of a character's most fundamental needs and desires #the fluff is stripped away and there is nothing left but a series of needs. conflicting or cooperating. #and even when you're lying during one it's still a form of truth #none of these things are remotely necessary to tell a powerful or compelling story but if you're going to use them you need to do it right #also all 3 of these things are difficult if not impossible to write if you are not both interested in them and personally invested #this post brought to you by me trying to write smut about my dnd characters and failing because i generally hate /reading/ smut #so i have none of the vocabulary or instinct for it that i do for. say. graphic violence (or lyrical poetry)

[fisheito]

do u understand. i need them side by side greeting eiden after a long day and i need eiden to suffer emotional whiplash from the subtext of his nickname enunciation

#yakumo is unabashedly. that happy ;w; emoji #and kuya's just like lolololol “eito-san???” girl. he's an insect #eiden: hey!!!!!!! just for that i'm gonna crawl all over u and break into your lighting fixtures. i'll show YOU insect #for the record i still hate kuya's hair #WHY DO YOU TAKE ME SO LONG TO DRAW! WHY!! #idk why but it was 5 in the morning and i was suddenly compelled to draw this #i could not rest until i did #i need kuya making fun of everyone. i need yakumo being completely unaware of kuya's mockery. specifically kuya's #i think i have enough characters hanging around now that i may start tagging them properly #yakumo #kuya #nu carnival

[hephaestuscrew]

When you listen to the funeral in Boléro when you're 19 and are fairly naïve and have been lucky enough that you've never had a death close to you, you think Hera doesn't understand "why they have to be gone" because she's an AI and she only has 4 years of life experience to go off and it's inevitably difficult for someone without a physical body to conceptualise death. But then you get a little older and things happen and you realise No, that's just what grief is like.

Hera thinks that it doesn't make sense to her because she's missing something, because there's something that her creators didn't put inside her head, or at the very least because she's never experienced that kind of loss before. She thinks there's something that can be explained to her that will make it easier to come to terms with the deaths of people who've been a part of her life. And Eiffel struggles for an answer, or rather a way to explain to her that there is no answer; "Hera, we don't… I don't know that there's… That's not what this -".

The truth is that there's nothing that Hera is missing. What is happening inside her head feels "wrong and stupid and wrong" because that's just how it feels when someone you know dies. That's how the other characters are feeling too, even if they express it differently.

Hera thinks that she feels the way she does because she's experiencing things differently to her human crewmates, but that's not really the case. She's just being the most honest about those feelings.

It's not an artificial intelligence grappling with human situations that she can't understand. It's a person struggling with grief in the way that any human struggles with grief.

Hera's feeling that she doesn't know how to deal with this, her inability to stop thinking about the fact that they're gone, her sense that there must be some set of instructions she wasn't given, her desperation for a way to make it better or easier, her plea for things to somehow make sense… It's all just so incredibly, heart-wrenchingly human and real.

#Sorry for the sad post I guess #Also I've a feeling this isn't entirely my original thought #but it's what I'm thinking about today #I was gonna say some things about Minkowski's #'They're gone... so that we never forget how important it is that we're still here' #but perhaps I'll leave those for another post #I'm going to a funeral next week so this is on my mind #it's not for someone I was properly close to or anything so I'm fine #but it's why this episode is on my mind #Sorry to overshare #tw death #tw grief #Fuck it I think I will put this in the tags #Wolf 359 #w359 #Wolf 359 spoilers #w359 spoilers #the empty man posteth

[stacys-museum]

Skyblock this week.

#i accidentally posted on wrong blog so i have to fuckin do tags all over again #i was bored and made this thing ok #this is another thing about mc server because yes #i probably should post something else but #i fell into the rabbit hole and didn't find another rabbit hole to fall into yet #which is why im posting stuff that only two other ppl here are interested in #and i like this “stuff” and enjoy drawing #and 99% of my art about it will never see the light of day because i would flood the tags #and because half of it is a crossover that i'm too lazy to explain #ok i'll shut up now #my art #fanart #hypixel skyblock #hypixel #simon hypixel #i still don't understand how to tag things properly #also i forgot how seraphine's dress looks like so...

[kickassfu]

what if?

and i mean what if

i just got my ass out of the chair

got dressed

put the clothes out to dry outside

and did something?

what if?

huh?

what if

#why does this seem like a poem? LOL #and i need to got to my 'sister's' place to take care of her dog after lunch #because she has to go to work and the dog is a ball full of anxiety and can't be alone for too long #so i should try to get something done around the house before i go #and the longer i take to put the clothes outside the more i'm wasting time and then the clothes won't dry properly #why am i like this #why aren't the meds a fix all #why can't i just do things #why must i hate myself like this lol #i'm just bitching dont worry #i'm going to get my ass up right now #ig i just needed to say it to do it #i'm breathing i'm doing it #cool #mine #ig i'll tag it as one of my poems hahaha #might as well make something out of nothing #my poems

[millenniummmbop]

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#LISTEN ALL IM SAYING IS kaiba is such a deeply complex and off the wall character #there's mental illness there's drama there's insanity there's nonesense there's DEPTH #he's a huge fucking edgelord drama queen bitch and he's CELEBRATED for it and TEE BEE AYCH #u RARELY get that in a female character and it is a FUCKING CRIME #😔😔😔 #like u wouldn't even have to change anything about his character just keep him exactly the same IT WOULD STILL WORK #i PROMISE u the whole power fantasy anger issues manic depression tragic backstory gay gay homosexual gay thing will carry through #GOD #sorry im like thinking about that post that was all #'the secret to writing a good female character is just to write a good character' #give me a cringe fail bitch i can properly project on or give me death #just give me more angry fucked up girls vr1ska cannot keep carrying all that weight on her shoulders #like i'll be in the rival tag on pixiv or ao3 and it's like #here is 99 girl yugis and MAYBE TWO girl kaibas if you've finished all ur hw and done all ur chores #like that's cool and fine but #girl the jealusty is CORE to kaiba's character why wouldn't u wanna keep it gay #why wouldn't u wanna explore the deranged insanity of GIRLS trying to kill each other a children's card game #why r u so afraid to love #ignore me #delete later #it's like 4 am racing thoughts go brrr #i guarantee none of this will make any sense to me when i read it back in the morning #very unlikely i'll remember writing all this as well #there's stitches in my mouth that have been pissing me off all WEEK and it's the only reason im awake and angry r n HHHHHHHHHHH

[dude-iloveu]

I suddenly remembered about a case, about some guy who worked for a bank had become rich by stealing 1 cent from customers' bank accounts each day, until he amassed around 4 million worth of cash in his bank account in total. (he was caught in the end due to his own greed)

sorry for the rambling but anyway the thought about this thing popped up when I saw donation posts and that people should definitely not underestimate small donations, even $1. or i guess more relevant to this situation is daily clicks. The arab.org site provides a proof page which can be seen here.

From the collective effort, the amount gathered for October, November and December was USD 380.57. From clicking and letting the site earn through ad revenue, that much money is collected.

Here is another receipt from previous months just for comparison, shows how much a difference people can make.

it's really great that people who cannot support financially can still help. And of course, do give more if you are able to, especially directly to the people and families in Gaza who urgently need it such as the ones listed in Operation Olive Branch.

if not, i guess here's a reminder to click away. Do it with multiple devices, multiple browsers, every day. and keep staying informed and uplifting Palestinian voices. Boycott products, find solidarity within community, go to protests disrupt the complicit companies and figures call your reps spread the word. your every effort matters, every single step is necessary.

always strive to do more within your power.

#why did i write this as both a ramble post and something serious. dammit #with the badly written sentences to top it at that ehahaha sorry #anyway is there a post that can word my point better it's like 1am here i am so all over the place #hi to my (unknown number of followers who aren't inactive) followers #update: edited. i'll tag this properly then #palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #israel #palestine will be free #id in alt #described

[fly-sky-high-arts]

removing my locked personal account as well since I can't (and am drained of trying to) properly use the platform so if by chance you followed me on it uhh don't get spooked if it disappears tomorrow

#I want to follow artists and news there I do but HOW #with all the shitty ads and discourse and people jumping on obvious bait and giving the worst kind of bluechecks money just to ratio them #and me barely able to see any semblance of why I even followed some folks there because it gets buried under most heinous negativity #it's not like any other place is without those but MAN I am At My Limit #if you ask me why I didn't do this sooner I can't properly explain aside from 'I wanted to be up to date with stuff I care about' #shitpost #sure I'll tag it as that #since it kind of is #but I am also venting in the tags

[jovialturtleface]

I imagine to an immortal being a year might easily slip past them, I mean they've got an eternity for anything they might need to do or fix. Which is to say... A new year approaches.

#Dethkuloz #Firmis #Extant Universe #myart #clip studio paint #oc tag #entity oc #Dec 2023 #Happy New Year #Probably the last drawing to be posted not counting sketches I may post later #it isn't the last 2023 drawing tho because I have like 3 I need to post soon #This is a little different from my previous new years art #Well I didn't really have a theme and I needed to keep it simple so why not Dethy and Firmis #although I haven't properly explained what their relationship is to each other they've definitely got an interesting friendship going on #Is there something more to it? Do they have a history? Maybe I'll talk about that in.....2024!!

[fullscoreshenanigans]

Do you have an ao3 account?

I do! Same url as here.

The goal is to actually post something on it lol

I currently have three ideas that I feel are within the realm of my current writing capabilities for a one- or two-shot:

• Don and Gilda sharing a moment with each member of the full score trio pre-Cuvitidala timeskip. I'm still not a hundred percent sure what their moment with Norman would be, but for Emma it would be going over Norman's letter and finalizing their escape plan (with them asking is it really okay to leave Ray on his own until January), and for Ray it would be him approaching them after he returns from Goldy Pond but before Emma wakes up from her coma to apologize for not being all there after Norman was shipped out and to thank them for being there for their family when he couldn't be. • Memory Keeper Ray AU set during the search for the Seven Walls. • Mostly canon-compliant, Cuvitidala-era one/two-shot where Ray pushes Emma out of the way of a demon ambush (which may or may not have been necessary) during one of the times where they’re on the way back to the bunker that winds up with him getting sick. While not a repeat of "The Day Emma Cried" story from the first light novel since Ray isn't fatally ill like they believed Norman was that summer, she can't help but notice the similarities in the situation as she goes off to find a solution to help speed up his recovery. Meanwhile, Ray's fevered dreams drift to his mother and eventually the missing member of their trio. This story was born from the desire of wanting RE to discuss Emma's dream from chapter 93 and as part of a set-up for endgame REN that leaves them off at a reasonable place for where I see them on that front: Emma always unconsciously gravitating and finding solace with the boys but not understanding the totality of those feelings (because Emma loves all of her family dearly; it's an immutable truth of the universe. So what makes them different) so there's some secrets unwittingly being kept on her side of things. Ray, in contrast, accepted that he loved Emma and Norman long ago, back when he first locked up his heart in order to maintain the mental fortitude needed to carry out his escape plan. While he also doesn't comprehend the full magnitude of those feelings (though this is a very poignant declaration),

he can consciously put a name to them, but he's intentionally holding back for a variety of reasons on this front (not wanting it to seem like there's an expectation of reciprocity, still dealing with the grief of Norman's apparent death, but the big one being they're still trying to find a way out of the demon world) and wrestling with the idea of revealing his connection to Isabella, what that connection says about him given the choices he's made, and potentially hearing someone else say things he's been telling himself for years.

#sorry for the tangent anon when your question was answered within the first six words kdjfs #have such a backlog of fics i need to properly comment on too gah </3 #FSS Chatter #FSS Asks #TPN Fanfic #Long Post #i do have a 2.2k outline for the last one but that doesn't really translate to a resonant read #with how i'm stuck in a script mindset for the dream sequences instead of in a fic one </3 #need to just power through thinking the execution is uninspired so that there's at least something uninspired to improve upon lol #Norrayemma #Noremray #yeah i'll throw that in the ship tags why not #by default i operate with a REN and Gildayshe endgame mindset unless otherwise stated #TPN S1 #Escape Arc #TPN 034 #TPN S1e11 #Goldy Pond Battle Arc #TPN 093 #Cuvitidala Arc #TPN 096 #me with my speedrun cheat of having Ray injured or sick to facilitate my indulgences of him opening up #just because with everything else going on I have a hard time seeing him do that regarding multiple topics unless prompted by this #or an outside antagonistic force lol

[devilfish-landing]

Pittyober Prompt 8: Mask

we are just husks seeking

the world's false graces

~~~

goodness gracious i have had NO time for any actual pieces ever since the last one. maybe for the better i need to recover because there's some prompts coming up that i'm REAL excited for,,, but alas you just get scanned pen doodles for now

way before this month i actually had ideas for an armada OC (surprised i went this long without making one, tbh) that was, for whatever reason, not tied to the armada at all and was just off doing their own thing, either being unaware of their affiliation (which is what i ultimately went with for this fellow) or renouncing it entirely.

this guy just kinda wrote themself as i was concepting them because i tried to cover a mistake on the mask and was like "oh wait i could just put a really big hole there. hm" so what i've ended up with is a former marine (kind of, i based their first outfit on the in-game marines) that, somehow, got so busted up that they don't even realize they're a machine, and are now just trying to... live life, i guess. i dunno. i really like how they came out though. even if that first outfit was a nightmare to draw abhjgebjheg

#pirate101 #p101 #pitty101 #pitty fandom #art #hmm... can't really OC tag this guy if they don't have a name yet #dont worry fella. ill think of something soon. #i rlly like these concepts i might come back and properly line + color them between the others i have planned. for funsies #also the italics up there are song lyrics . giggle #masks by aviators. thought it fit idk Look At My Brain Rot Boy #this fellow also has a companion that i have yet to draw... hopefully i'll find the time to sketch her out too #girl help why does life have to happen so much i just wanna make funny pirate game art !!!!!!!!!

[prophecyofgray]

obsessed with dib membrane actually. autistic transmasc GAY HOMOSEXUAL GAY daddy issues out the wazoo. my name is dib membrane i'm 12 years old and i'm all that stands between zim and the annihilation of our world. What a fucking guy

#i know very little of invaderzim lore i havent properly seen the show since i was a kid besides the 5 eps i watched this summer #i JUST watched ETF for the first time (VERY fun film) #but anyway. the iz lore and timelines that exist in my brain are so smart and correct #u cannot comprehend my genius....... u simply cannot #audie talks #invader zim #sure i'll tag this. why not

[puppydewmelon]

Ratchet and clank double sided charm I designed and then had a heart attack when I converted it to cmyk and never ended up getting it ordered. Another time, perhaps

#ratchet and clank #r&c #love these guys so much #art #my art #digital art #ratchet #clank #idont know how to tag properly on this site idont think i ever did i just end up rambling a little #no harm in that tho right #im sure iys what people will come to my account for #anyway rn im just getting thru my backlog of art so i think I'll be able to post consistently for at least a few more days #i get more critical the older back i go but if you want a full uh discography of 80% of my art go to my instagram #self promo isuppose but also iam not ever posting my stuff from 3 years ago on here iys so garbo . like im proud of how far ive come for #sure but also its a little ugly. anyway. rstchet and clank. love those silly littke guys. theyve been in my life since i was like 9 #im 20 now for reference #idk why that matters actually #anyway i credit ratchet for the reason i grew up loving anthropomorphic animal characters and i credit clank for my absolute and total #adoration of robots

[celestie0]

Could you give any writing tips if you have them plz? ^^

hiii my loveee sure!! i think i will make a post with all my writing tips that i will update as i go, i'm going to link it on my navigation <3 i think this way all my writing tips can be found in one place :'')

#idk why i keep losing the asks i've alr answered for writing tips aaa #i thought i've been tagging them properly #so i think i'll just make one giant post w them #for anyone curious for writing tips going forward haha #asks #anon

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit