#i’ve literally spent the last week watching tv shows
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Fingers crossed
pairing: Previous Stan Marsh x Reader
summary: Bebe brings you up during a party to sing karaoke, so you decide to air all your grievances about your ex, Stan Marsh
warnings: bad writing (first one-shot I’ve EVER written), a little bit of angst?, alcoholism, depression, song fic, did I say bad writing?
a/n: this will probably suck, but idc. This is based on Fingers Crossed by Lauren Spencer Smith, I heard it and I immediately thought of this one-shot, I decided to write it to test my writing skills cause their ass 😊
thanks for reading!
The lights made your migraine even worse, and that does not even account for the loud chatter from the other partygoers. Kenny’s horrible singing wasn’t helping with your pain either. It felt like everyone was staring at you, whispering about the breakup between the head cheerleader, you, and the star quarterback, Stan Marsh.
You guys were the “It” couple to a lot of people at school. Well at least on the surface it seemed like it. Stan wasn’t the best at talking about his emotions. He would sometimes snap, you tried helping. You really did, but as cliche as it sounds, you couldn't fix him.
Wendy and Bebe dragged you out to this party hoping it would take your mind off Stan, and it did for a while, until he walked in.
You spent all last night bawling your eyes out over the stupid jock across the room, Stanley Marsh.
You probably looked like shit, red eyes and scratchy throat, while Stan was sitting over there not even bothered, nursing a beer bottle. Wendy dragged you out of bed and told you she was taking you to this karaoke night she set up, whether you liked it or not.
Bebe, standing next to you, said “I can’t just stand by seeing you mope around!”. She grabs you suddenly and starts dragging you to the mic, muttering how she also couldn’t stand Kenny butchering another ABBA song.
She pushes Kenny out of the way and pushed you out toward the mic, “I want you to show that piece of shit stan what he’s missing, ok? Love you”. Bebe quickly ran away before you could get her for pushing you in front of the crowd. The chatter dimmed down and their glaring stares landed on you.
You felt your breath begin picking up when you noticed that everyone's stares included HIM. He was there, sitting on the worn-out sofa draping his arm around a random drunk girl and that made your stomach churn. You literally broke up only a week ago, how could he be sitting there like nothing was going on?!
You took a deep breath and walked near the microphone, the cliché microphone feed-back ringing out. Kenny must have been pushed off stage by Bebe, literally, because he was on the floor rubbing his head. You grab the tablet on the table and scroll until you found the one that fits the situation you're in now, Fingers Crossed by Lauren Spencer Smith.
You take a breath and close your eyes as the soft guitar strums, and you start,
“Introduced me to your family Watched my favorite shows on your TV”
You open your eyes to see Wendy and Bebe smiling from the front of the crowd as a way to encourage you.
“Made me breakfast in the mornin' When you got home from work”
You remember the first night you spent overnight at Stan’s house, groggily waking up to find him not next to you. You were panicking thinking that he only wanted you for a one-night stand but then you heard the gentle knock on the door.
He walked in bashful and blushing as he scratched his neck with a plate of burnt pancakes. “I wanted to do something nice, but I think I just made you poison from how badly their burnt” he trailed off with an awkward laugh. You thought the gesture was so sweet that you had to eat them. That day was full of an ER trip and fuzzy feelings.
“Makin' plans to travel 'round the world Said we'd always put each other first Old love songs we used to play to”
You dredge up the nerve to look at him and sing the part that you wanted to hurt him with.
“Funny, now I hate you”
You wanted to see him hurt like how you hurt. See him break down like his world crumbled. Like yours did.
“Now, I Remember when you'd call me late at night, I gave you my hours and advice just tryna fix you and all your daddy issues”
You almost want to laugh from the sleep deprived night you endured hearing him cry. Your heart ached remembering his drunken cries of how his father cared for his weed farm more than him. You could almost feel the ach of your arms from the hours spent cradling him like he was the most fragile thing in the world, because at the at moment he was. Your voice hoarse from the whispers of how he is good enough and how you loved him.
“But now I don't even miss you anymore”
That was a lie. You didn’t hate him; you just hated how self-destructive he was. The drink ramped up after he moved away. The late-night visits with soft taps from rocks hitting your window were tainted with drunken yelling from outside your window calling you a bitch and a whore.
“So I, I want all the tears back that I cried All the hours spent giving advice On how to write your songs All you did was prove me wrong When you said you loved me”
You still feel the snow on your shoulders after he forced out of bed to go late night exploring with him. You were almost mad, but his dimpled smile and giggles as he dragged you toward the local playground made it so you couldn’t even feel the cold around you, just the warmth of his hand.
You somehow ended up underneath the pirate ship to shelter from the snow, sitting face to face, tips of your shoes touching one another. You were rambling about the hijinks that you, Bebe, and (a reluctant) Wendy went through today. He was quiet that day, staring at you, so you asked what was wrong.
“I just love you...” He said with that goofy grin that made you wanna shower him with kisses. It seemed like he didn't mean to say that cause afterwards he turned a deep red.
“I love you too...” You mumbled out embarrassed at the butterflies in your stomach evolving into panicking elephants. That night was spent reminiscing of the quick peck you gave him before running away.
“Well, you must've had your fingers crossed”
How quickly that “I love you” turned to curses...
“Shoulda paid attention to my friends Telling me how bad it's gonna end Always giving their opinions Now I wish I would have listened”
When you started dating Stan, Wendy came up to you one day after school. You thought she would start a fight and break up the friendship for dating her ex, but she just held you hand and warned you.
“Back when Stan and I dated, It was great...” Was she bragging about dating Stan before you? “But not always.” She saw your confused face and continued, “He can get insecure and VERY jealous, the only reason I wanted to talk to you about this is because I love you and I know you him and being with him takes a lot of energy.”
You don’t remember how it ended but you do remember the thing you promised yourself that day. You put your all into this relationship so he’d never feel those things again.
You did do that, huh... But even that wasn’t enough, he left you a husk of yourself.
“I could say I'm sorry but I'm not
You don't deserve the one thing that you lost
And now I remember when you'd call me late at night
And I gave you my hours and advice just tryna fix you
And all your daddy issues
But now I don't even miss you anymore
So I, I want all the tears back that I cried
All the hours spent giving advice
On how to write your songs
All you did was prove me wrong
When you said you loved me
Well, you must've had your fingers crossed
your fingers crossed
(Oh-oh, oh-oh) your fingers crossed
(Oh-oh, oh-oh) oh, when you said you loved me
Well, you must've had your fingers crossed
So I, I want all the tears back that I cried
All the hours spent giving advice
On how to write your songs
All you did was prove me wrong
Wish you said you loved me
When you didn't have your fingers crossed”
You close your eyes and pour your emotions into the words that flow of your tongue like tar. Flashes of Stan filter through your head as you imagine what you would be doing if you never interacted with him. If you never loved him...
The song ends and you open your eyes to the crowd clapping and Bebe grabbing your hand, walking towards the kitchen, with Wendy. She talks about how amazing you were, but you slip your hand out of hers. She turns around confused and you say how tired you were and just wanted to go back to your bed. She worriedly followed you to the door and told you to call her when you get home.
You walk in the falling snow, remembering the girl Stan had on his arm. He moved on quick, didn’t he? You huff in a self-deprecating chuckle, maybe it's time you moved on too.
That’s what you were at least thinking about till you heard a familiar voice yell out your name.
There was Stan, out of breath and disheveled hair. You wanted to bleach your brain when a thought about how cute he looked with red cheeks and snowflakes in his hair crossed your mind. Seeing him now was different than at the party. At the party he was cool and deadpanned as he looked at you but now it was like his eyes were trying to tell you a million things at once and from the way his lips were moving, he wanted too as well.
“I … I just want to....”
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a/n: I abandoned this one-shot halfway through when I first started writing it. But I stumbled upon it again and decided to finish it cause why not? I wrote this when I was deep into the Southpark fandom and wanted to add to the plethora of one-shots this fandom has because there wasn’t enough angst with no happy endings. I kinda went off rails from my original goal since I realized I wanted to leave the ending ambiguous so that people who do like angst with a happy ending can also still enjoy the one-shot. Thanks for reading and have a good day/afternoon/night! 😊
#south park#stan marsh#stan marsh x reader#bad writing#kenny mccormick#wendy testaburger#bebe stevens
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How’s it going? Thinking of you
Hmmm it’s going, thanks for asking 🖤.
The day shift (7am-3pm) 1:1 ended on Friday but like mid shift. Over the weekend it was so nice at 7am to shut my door and be able to actually sleep without the door open. Albeit I’m still on 5’s but the towel on the door makes it harder to hear it open so often.
Yesterday she took off the night shift 1:1 (11pm-7am) so now I’m only on the 1:1 during the evening shift. She was going to take me off it all together but this afternoon I’m seeing my mother…
So a little back story:
My mother lost custody of me when I was 2. My Nana and my Aunt raised me. My Aunt was like my mother figure. My Nana was always the stern one, always angry, never was the lovey dovey type. She loved/loves me and is so supportive but there was just never that maternal love. My Aunt on the other hand.. we’d watch tv on the couch and my head would be in her lap and she’d brush my hair back. She passed away when I was 19. I watched her take her last breath and then afterward I climbed onto the bed with her and took her dead hand and brushed my hair back one last time. Morbid huh?
Anyways growing up my Nana (who had legal custody of me) allowed me to try to have a relationship with my mother. It started out with exchanging Christmas gifts in the car then being able to go out for the day with my mother. Which my mother took advantage of and decided to sneak me to her one room place (literally just a room). Of course as a kid I was going to do whatever she thought was right. And I remember it was nice during the Summer not having to find places in town to cool off or use the bathroom. Doesn’t sound that bad right? Except this place was crawling with cockroaches. And when I would shy away from them she’d scold me cause I was making her boyfriend “feel bad”.
Years later she moved to my town and got an actual apartment and I would visit and stay overnight. It was then that I realized she was still using drugs, the reason she lost custody of me. My mother being out of her mind, thought that after all those years I would want to live with her. It was then that she started talking badly about my Nana and Aunt, the people I went home to. They never talked badly about her. They let me see and find out the type of person she was for myself and that was when was I decided to cut off contact with her for good.
That was, I think the summer after my freshman year of high school, so I was maybe 15 years old. Fast forward to winter of 2013/2014 and my mother was living with her sister/my Aunt and my cousin. Our mothers are sisters and my Aunt who raised me was adopted. Funny how the good ones die. My cousin had a baby in November 2013 and I spent so much time at her house that a winter. Naturally I’d have to see my mother and exchange a few words. One day I called her by her first name instead of mom, and she replied with so much anger and hatred “Donna? They trained you well”. To which I said “they? My real mother is dead”. And she replied in a completely opposite tone “I know baby, I’m so sorry about Auntie, I wish it was me instead”. That back and forth emotion was just too much.
That’s the last real conversation I remember. And that was about 10 years ago.
I’m seeing her later. Here. At the hospital... Last week I was talking to my doctor and I said “can you imagine if my mother came here as a patient” and she said “I think your mom should come here, for a visit”. I laughed. She said she was serious. I thought about it for a second and replied with seriousness that I’d think about it. Which didn’t take much thinking. I’m on a 1:1, I’ve been in the hospital for almost 6 months. I’ve thought about it before, reaching out, trying to have a conversation and see what happens. So why not do it here? I’m in a safe place surrounded by idiots that care about me.
This just goes to show just how much I like my doctor for me to have agreed to this. Even though I just said how I was thinking about it before, it’s been a while since I wondered about it and definitely did not think it would happen in here.
It’ll be good to get this over with but I am petrified it’s going to set me back.
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❁۪ ｡˚ ✧ the last day of school with tomorrow x together ❁۪ ｡˚ ✧
how you and one of the boys deal with the last day of the school year
NOT PROOFREAD!!
a/n; I think this is my first piece of fanfiction that isn’t an smau chapter since like February….. I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long😭😭😭 like school was really whooping my ass and I had finals to deal with!! HOWEVER yesterday was my last day of junior year so I decided to start off with something small to ease back into writing! enjoy<3
soobin
manz didn’t even want to come in😭😭
it was the last day after all,,, he didn’t see a reason for him to be there
it’s not like you guys were gonna do anything in class anyways
he’s really only there becuz you dragged him along with u
soobin would’ve rather been at home watching tv or with you anywhere but school
but alas😔 there he was, in hell school
it wasn’t so bad tho
hanging out with friends and spending the whole day with you mad it that much better
but best believe when that last bell rang he hauled ass out of that school, ready to finally enjoy his summer
[rest of the members under cut!!]
yeonjun
he was the one who dragged you to school
yeonjun wanted to spend one last normal day in school together with you before the chaos of summer came and threw everything off balance
it was probably the best school day either of you had that entire year
you two spent most of the day just roaming the halls
and thinking back to all the memories you had together that school year
it was corny but very cute🥰
he ended up tearing up at the end of the day cuz he was kinda gonna miss it
but it was nothing a few kisses from u couldn’t fix
beomgyu
you two stopped showing up a week before the last day😭😭
there was literally no reason to be there
so you guys just went on a movie date that day😎
way better than going to school don’t you think 🤔✨
taehyun
he came in at like 11 am that day😭😭 late as hell
usually taehyun hates being late but since it was the last day of school he could care less about his tardiness
he only came in tho because he knew that you were there
and taehyun loved spending time with u no matter the time or place
which is why he spent such a beautiful sunny day inside of a hot school clinging to you like his life depended on it
however after about an hour of being at school taehyun got tired of it and you two skipped for the rest of the day😎
it’s not like you would get detention for it😭😭
hueningkai
so listen you two were actually going to go to school that day
had matching fits planned and everything
cuz it was the last day why not do something fun and cute yk
sadly you both woke up at like 1 pm😭😭
school was basically over by that point
so you two just went on a date instead!!!
couldn’t let the outfits go to waste😎
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#txt headcanons#txt scenarios#txt imagines#txt yeonjun#txt soobin#txt beomgyu#txt taehyun#txt huening kai#txt x reader#tomorrow x together#txt angst#txt crack#txt fluff#faithwrites🌱
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Get to Know Me meme
Thank you @athenasparrow for the tag!!! :)
Last song: Taylor Swift Eras tour spoilers (if I have someone who wants to avoid those following me!)
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Um, possibly Karma by Taylor Swift since that was the last song she sang in her concert and I spent a /lot/ (too much) of yesterday finding clips from the said concert. Also currently have this is me trying open in a tab but haven’t listened to it yet.
Last Show: (referring to my previous answer) Watching a concert online doesn’t count, right? In that case, I think it was Diandra’s (a Finnish singer) concert in November. Yeah, I don’t really get to go to these often bc I live in the middle of nowhere :d
Currently watching: I watch very few TV shows these days (aside from certain anime but I’m not gonna list them here) but I currently have a tinykittens (a Canadian cat rescue organisation) livestream open and I take a peek at it every once in a while. Those Bramble kittens are super cute ♥ (I would absolutely love it if I happened to have a fellow TinyVillager following me! So if you do, pls come talk to me!)
Currently reading: While my TBR list is ever growing, I have to be honest, I haven’t really been reading published books for several months now. Blame the Jily fics. They are way better :P But if I have to mention one, I’ve been reading this book by the Finnish translator of Harry Potter (Jaana Kapari) where she tells about her translating process and it’s honestly pretty interesting, makes me wish I was a translator too.
(As for the Jily fics, do not ask me how many fic tabs I have currently open. I literally just visited the Jily tag here and was like :--------O ‘Oh wow, a lot of authors seem to have decided to post stuff last night’)
Current obsession: my poor friend @criis55 who has to listen to my ramblings every day would be able to testify for this: currently it’s Taylor Swift. I wanna talk about what my relationship with her music is because I’m not a long time Swiftie unlike so many of the people I’ve seen here are. I first started paying attention to some of her songs maaaaybe around the time I started writing Caleo fics so ~ 2020 (obviously I knew some of her hit songs before that but I couldn’t call myself a fan) but a year later she released Red (TV), incl. All Too Well 10 minute version and that was probably when I started thinking, hey, this song is wonderful, I should give a chance to her other songs too. Since then I’ve been slowly getting more familiar with her other albums (it’s been a longish process bc she has a /lot/ of songs and as a non native English speaker I need to be able to see the lyrics to know what’s really going on in the song) and found more songs that I enjoy. This very week is an important milestone to me when it comes to me being her fan because she just released 4 new songs/new versions of her old songs and started her tour and I get to follow it from the beginning and as a relatively new fan I find all that really exciting. Hence you may also see me talking about this more here on tumblr as well.
Well, other than TS, Jily ofc remains high on my current obsessions list ♥
Tagging: @criis55 if you happen to want to do this, no pressure ♥
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if anyone’s been wondering where i’ve been i have just spent the last three weeks of my life rereading every single anne of green gables book, and then binge watched all three seasons of anne with an e in under 72 hours. I have been through over 15 ao3 pages worth of fic on this topic and i am so utterly consumed by this series both the original and the tv show that i have done literally nothing else except think abt it. btw. if you care
#silv's back on her bs#not to be dramatic but#LMAO#anne of green gables#i just.#man#i haven't reread anne of green gables in a while and then i reread it. and then i reread the entire series.#and then i reread the entire series again#and then i watched the tv show#and it's just like#it's like i'm 7 reading it for the first time again#and the sun is a little brighter and i love the world a little more#i just
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5e Pablo Simon Bolivar, El Brujo Especial build (Ash vs Evil Dead)
(Image from thedeaditeslayer.com)
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I’ve really been getting into the Evil Dead franchise after Ash vs Evil Dead was released on Netflix, and that interest only further increased after playing Evil Dead: The Game. I’m not going to preach the qualities of the TV show nor the game to you and simply say it as I see it: Evil Dead is an iconic of horror with Bruce Campbell’s iconic role of Ash Williams affecting generations of horror enthusiasts and action enjoyers.
The Evil Dead IP has lasted for so long, stretched through so many mediums, and affected so many aspects of popular culture to the point that chainsaws in zombie media go hand-and-hand. This is why I’m going to do my best to release a Dungeons & Dragons build based on one character from The Evil Dead franchise over the next 5 weeks of October, in honor of the franchise and the spirit of Halloween. (Although knowing me I’m probably going to miss a week lol.)
And who else to start with but Pablo? I absolutely loved the supporting cast of Ash vs and I honestly haven’t met a single person who didn’t enjoy the performance of Pablo. Ray Santiago puts so much personality into the character and one could honestly argue that Pablo goes through more of a character arch than Ash himself in the show. I mean, I’m not going to get into that argument, but one thing’s for certain: without the help of Pablito’s El Brujo and his amulets the Chosen One wouldn’t have gotten far. It also helps that Pablo is easily my second most played character in Evil Dead: The Game, right behind TV Show Ash (IE Leader Ash.)
Anyways: Pablo’s a lovable support character who goes through way too much for his own good, and we’re all happy you’re still around buddy. Goddamn it’s going to be so hard to avoid accidentally saying spoilers, assuming calling Pablo “El Brujo Especial” isn’t already a spoiler... Seriously just go watch Ash vs on Netflix.
GOALS
Pablito’s Fish & Chips - Pablo isn’t just some guy who works at an electronics store: he’s got a lotta brains to him. He event built Ash a new hand!
A Foot in Each Door - It sure was nice of your uncle to give you an amulet that makes you invisible to the evil dead. Pretty helpful thing to have!
El Brujo Especial - Leave the beer to Ash and Cheryl: Pablo uses the magical guidance of his uncle to protect himself and his allies.
RACE
Pablo is a human, and trust me: I wish I could reasonably make him something else. But at least Variant Human will carry us to some extent. Increase both your Charisma and your Dexterity by 1, the History skill to see if you can recall anything Ruby might’ve mentioned, and speaking of which I’m sure the Necronomicon gifted you some knowledge of Abyssal with the time you two spent together.
For your Feat of choice I’m actually going to suggest the Inspiring Leader feat! Pablo does his fair share of inspiring for Ash but the main reason I suggested Inspiring Leader is because it lets you play support some more, passing out temporary hitpoints at the end of a Short or Long Rest and generally being an asset to the team. Plus it lets you roleplay as Ray Santiago which is a plus in my eyes.
ABILITY SCORES
15; CHARISMA - Everyone loves Pablo. He’s your little buddy!
14; INTELLIGENCE - As stated above Pablo is the brains of the group. We need it both for roleplay and to multiclass.
13; DEXTERITY - Evil Dead leans on the “dodge out of the way seconds before you’re hit” style of horror. 13 DEX is also enough to get the maximum bonus from Medium armor along with the +1 from our race.
12; CONSTITUTION - Look: there was a point where you literally died and came back to life. Stuff like that will give you some hardiness.
10; STRENGTH - Pablo may be a big strong vagina but we unfortunately need everything else more. Don’t worry: we’ll get a way to use a spiked bat, although you won’t be using a rusty chain at any point.
8; WISDOM - Wisdom is needed to keep a level head, and it’s not that Pablo can’t do that. Just that when evil descends and the dead rise it’s pretty hard to keep calm in the face of demons from hell.
BACKGROUND
Van Richten’s Guide to Ravenloft is going to be a good friend to me during this month. One cool thing about Van Richten’s is that there’s a bunch of generic background traits that don’t come with specific skills or equipment but can still be used for roleplay, and one of those generic backgrounds is the Trauma Survivor background. Put simply Pablo isn’t really the “Haunted One” type but this works quite well for “holy shit demons started murdering people in the streets and this cool old dude is a prophesized hero of legend.”
The Trauma Survivor makes you a bit of a resident expert in whatever shit you’ve dealt with, and in Pablo’s case it would be deadites. Folks know to ask you for advice on what to do and what not to do, and if needed you can find a place for someone to hide out and maybe get an exorcism done. Your uncle didn’t exactly tell you how to open your mind and escape evil, but you can probably find someone willing to take you on a drug trip.
As for your skills take proficiency with Athletics (you’ll need it if something grabs onto you) and Survival because... well yeah duh. You could also grab another language (Infernal fits to some extent) and another tool, which I’m going to use as an excuse to grab Land Vehicle proficiency because Pablo should always be the one driving. (Which is why I never drive as Pablo because I suck at driving in video games.) You could take more tools or more languages as you see fit, I suppose. I won’t tell you what to do.
Starting background equipment? You can figure that out with your DM. If all-else fails just copy-paste the Clan Crafter background or something.
(Artwork from Evil Dead: The Game.)
THE BUILD
LEVEL 1 - ARTIFICER 1
Starting off as an Artificer before you get in-touch with evil. You can grab proficiency in Arcana and Medicine here too.
Your time at ValueStop helped you learn some basic tech tricks that you can manifest in Magical Tinkering. The tricks you can do are pretty small and junky but they may be helpful in a pinch if you use your wits. But if you need something more reliable it would be better to talk about Spellcasting: You can learn two cantrips from the Artificer spell list like Guidance to help El Jefe or anyone else who might need it, and Mending. For Duct Tape.
You can also prepare a number of spells equal to your Intelligence modifier plus half your Artificer level (rounded down), and while you can swap them out on a Long Rest you can only prepare two of them currently. So like, just take Cure Wounds and Detect Magic for now, really. Basic medical knowledge and the ability to sense danger is in fact more than enough to survive many horror movies at first.
Oh and as far as combat goes your best bet currently is probably to stick to a “gun” (IE a crossbow) for now. We didn’t take any damaging cantrips but your “firearms” (crossbow) will do more at this low level anyways, considering that you have the same hit chance anyways. Don’t worry you’ll be getting something better later on but these first few levels will admittedly be on the weaker end.
LEVEL 2 - ARTIFICER 2
Second level Artificers can make artificial hands and other Infusions. You can prepare 4 infusions known and make two of them per day, although you might find some use in swapping them out. Anyways I’d suggest improving your firearms in the form of an Enhanced Arcane Focus and a Repeating Shot weapon, and improving your defenses with a Mind Sharpener and... the Enhanced Defense infusion. Remember that much like Pablo you can share your intellect with your friends, who might get more use out of your inventions than you! And you’re welcome to grab other infusions if you think they’d be more useful.
Speaking of useful: another spell known! Feather Fall is good in-case of an emergency if you’re thrown off a building or your car goes off a cliff or something.
LEVEL 3 - ARTIFICER 3
3rd level Artificers get to choose their specialty, and it may strike you as odd but Artillerists get to provide their team with amulets, and provide themselves with guns! Along with getting proficiency with Woodcarver’s Tools and learning both the Shield and Thunderwave spells (one of which is far more useful than the other) you get the ability to make an Eldritch Cannon!
You can either make a Small or Tiny object (but it would be more in-character to make a tiny one) that you can activate as a Bonus Action. The Force Ballista will fire a shot at a single target, the Flamethrower is... well, a flamethrower that does AoE damage in a short cone in front of it, but the Protector “canon” is the main option you’ll be going for. When you activate it as a bonus action everyone within 10 feet of the turret will get Temporary Hitpoints equal to a d8 plus your Intelligence. Basically this is how Amulets work in Evil Dead: The Game and it was kinda too perfect for Pablo to provide shields to his team. There’s some other nuance to the turrets that you can figure out by reading the subclass feature, but all you need to know is that you’re usually going to be providing shields to the party and also sometimes get the option to shoot with your canon-gun... assuming you can actually hit since its aim is based on your Intelligence.
And to top it off you can make yourself the The Right Tool for the Job with an hour of work. I’ll tell you right now that jerry-rigging a set of lockpicks (IE Thieves’ Tools) is probably your best bet with this ability, but if you think there are other tools that will help you this ability will let you grab them as you need them.
(Artwork from Evil Dead: The Game)
LEVEL 4 - WARLOCK 1
Now that you’ve handed in your resignation letter (reason for leaving: boss got possessed by a demon) it’s time to embrace your roots and channel the magic of drug trips. How? With the magic of the Archfey, obviously! As an action you can force each creature within a 10-foot cube originating from you to make a Wisdom save or be charmed or frightened by your Fey Presence. Either up the charm or channel evil through you as necessary, but you can only do so once per Short or Long Rest.
More importantly however you get Pact Magic: you can learn two cantrips from the Warlock list like Mage Hand to grab things in dangerous locations more safely, and Eldritch Blast to blast your guns with eldritch power instead of just regular old firearm power.
You also get Pact Magic slots which come back on a Short Rest, unlike regular spell slots that come back on a Long Rest. You can use them to cast your Artificer spells, or some Warlock spells... I’m going to be honest: the only 1st level spell I really want is Hex. Other than that you can take something like Hellish Rebuke I guess, but we’ll be ignore the spells you can learn until you can get better ones.
LEVEL 5 - WARLOCK 2
2nd level Warlocks get Eldritch Invocations like Devil’s Sight to see with your dumb human eyes, and Agonizing Blast to agonize your blasts. Yeah you could also learn more spells, but we’re going to wait for...
LEVEL 6 - WARLOCK 3
Third level Warlocks get to choose their Pact Boon and I mean, we’re kinda forced to take Pact of the Talisman for amulets, aren’t we? Currently all it does is provide a d4 when the wearer fails an ability check, and the benefit can be used a number of times equal to your proficiency bonus, regaining all uses at the end of a Long Rest. But what’s cool about the amulet talisman is that you can give it to someone else who might need the bonus. And additionally it stacks with Guidance, which can be pretty big at these low levels.
Much more importantly however your Pact Slots are now at a 2nd level, meaning you can learn 2nd level Warlock spells! Grab Misty Step to get away from danger, Mirror Image to protect yourself, and Hold Person to keep deadites in place! (Remember: Deadites are humans possessed by demons, meaning that they’re technically still humanoids. If you’re dealing with a demon like Ruby however she counts as a Fiend, and won’t be affected by Hold Person. Unless she can be affected by Hold Person because she’s a Half-Demon? Better not to try unless desperate really...)
(Image from cupofmoe.com)
LEVEL 7 - WARLOCK 4
4th level Warlocks get their first Ability Score Improvement (finally by total level 7) and if you haven’t picked up on we’re going to mainly be going down the Warlock route, so more Charisma would benefit us more overall.
You could also learn another spell but truthfully we’re going to be replacing them with 3rd level spells soon, so better not to. You can grab the Prestidigitation cantrip though, to show off your eldritch knowledge with some basic parlor tricks.
LEVEL 8 - WARLOCK 5
5th level Warlocks get another Eldritch Invocation, and to be invisible to demons (and most other things) grab the One with Shadows invocation. It only works if you keep still and keep in the darkness, but invisibility from evil is great to stay alive!
You can also learn 3rd level spells now! I’d probably drop Mirror Image to grab Hypnotic Pattern (for now), Counterspell (for good), and Blink from the Archfey list, which will be a far more effective defensive spell than Mirror Image. (Although it doesn’t upscale so we will ditch that too with time.)
LEVEL 9 - WARLOCK 6
6th level Archfey Warlocks can turn invisible to gather more amulets, as Misty Escape lets you use your reaction to teleport away from danger and turn invisible until the start of your next turn, refreshing on a Short or Long Rest. Use this if you think you’re in the line of fire to get behind Ash.
Additionally you can learn another spell, and if you think we’re going to skip out on this level to get better 4th level spells to cast with your Warlock slots then you’re goddamn right we are.
(Artwork from Evil Dead: The Game)
LEVEL 10 - WARLOCK 7
7th level Warlocks get another Eldritch Invocation and it’s time for your amulet to not be completely worthless thanks to Protection of the Talisman. When the person wearing your amulet talisman fails a saving throw, they can add a d4 to the roll and potentially turn it into a success. They can only do it a number of times equal to your proficiency bonus per Long Rest, but the added protection can be great to keep your party’s El Jefe alive.
Additionally you can now learn 4th level spells: drop Misty Step for Dimension Door as the greater distance traveled far outweighs the use of a full action, and you also might want to drop Hypnotic Pattern for Greater Invisibility from the Archfey list, to keep hidden while you blast away deadites. Heck you might even want to replace Blink with something like Banishment too. Honestly for the most part I just want to wait until we get the big boy 5th level spells to play with.
LEVEL 11 - WARLOCK 8
8th level Warlocks get another Ability Score Improvement so it’s finally time to cap off your Charisma for the best old magic to protect from the worst old evils.
You could also learn more spells but again: going to wait for...
LEVEL 12 - WARLOCK 9
9th level Warlocks get another Eldritch Invocation, and Whispers of the Grave is very in-character, can be very useful, and is a lot of fun! There’s a lot of good info you can get from the dead: your dead uncle, your dead self, the dead that wrote the book of the dead... Just gotta know who to listen to.
Speaking of listening you now have 5th level spells, meaning all the spells known we skipped out on can now be filled up! So I’d suggest you take the following:
Hold Monster is like Hold Person, but better. (But it does affect less targets, so if you think Hold Person will work then use that instead.)
Dominate Person is like Hold Person, but better because you can get them to serve the forces of good instead of the forces of evil. (No it’s not possession shut up.)
Mislead can be good if you need to sneak around to grab Ash’s shit... again. It will also give the demons something to try to attack while you gather more supplies.
And Teleportation Circle can be useful if you need an escape plan.
The last two spells were added to the Warlock list via Tasha’s Cauldron of Everything, so if you don’t see them listed on the Warlock spell list that’s why. Just figured I’d mention it here since it would be kinda weird to mention it alongside those two spells.
LEVEL 13 - WARLOCK 10
10th level Warlocks have seen enough evil to avoid being possessed. Or well, avoid being charmed at least. Beguiling Defenses gives you immunity to the charmed condition and when another creature attempts to charm you, you can use your reaction to attempt to turn the charm back on that creature. They need to make Wisdom save against your spell DC or be... well, charmed by you for a minute! (Unless they take damage.) Considering that you should probably have at least a +1 focus from your Artificer abilities any deadite attempting to persuade you will have to think twice. Ash though...
You can’t grab any more spells yet, but you can get one last cantrip. I’d suggest
Mind Sliver in case you find an armored deadite with a weak mind, or if you just want to make it easier for your teammates to use magic against your enemies.
(Image from Ash vs Evil Dead Season 3, Episode 5)
LEVEL 14 - WARLOCK 11
11th level Warlocks get their 6th level Mystic Arcanum, which looks like a spell slot and acts like a spell slot but isn’t actually a spell slot. The difference is that you can’t upcast any of your Warlock Pact Magic, and you can’t upcast your Mystic Arcanum with higher level slots that you’ll get.
With that explanation out of the way there’s a lot of good 6th level Mystic Arcanum options but... look, Tasha's Otherworldly Guise is just fun. You can finally go in with a bat (or a sword, or a rusty chain) and hit some deadites very hard, getting an extra attack, more AC, some damage resistances and immunity to conditions, and flight! (Because why not.) Sure maybe Eyebite or Soul Cage would be more useful but even the support should upgrade melee damage eventually.
Speaking of more damage: Wall of Light does a good bit of radiant damage and can also be good to blind deadites and generally hide behind while your friends prepare to face off against evil. And if you think you’re not going to cast it well, you just got an extra pact slot little buddy! Congratulations!
LEVEL 15 - WARLOCK 12
12th level Warlocks get another Ability Score Improvement and seeing as your Charisma is maxed out increasing your Intelligence is an option? You could also alternatively grab some feats: I personally opted for War Caster to keep concentration up for longer and to also be able to shoot any anyone who runs past you, instead of just trying to stab them with a knife or something.
You also get more Eldritch Invocations! It’s hard to justify Ascendant Step as anything other than magic, but being able to slowly float around is useful for transportation, evading deadites, or just reaching things in high places.
LEVEL 16 - WARLOCK 13
13th level casters get 7th level spells but you’re special so you get Mystic Arcanum instead. There’s a lot of fun options to take: Crown of Stars, Etherealness, Plane Shift, Power Word Pain... but Forcecage is probably the most useful overall. If you need to keep a particularly nasty deadite in place with (almost) no questions asked? That’s what you have Forcecage for. But even then the other spells I mentioned have their use and you should give them a glance if interested.
Dream is perhaps less relevant, but it will let you send messages to whom it may concern as needed while they sleep. Sure this is maybe more of your uncle’s thing, but El Brujo Especial can afford to borrow some tricks.
LEVEL 17 - WARLOCK 14
Speaking of your uncle: wasn’t it cool when he put you in a coma and forced you to drink from weird bowls alongside a naked lady? Well Dark Delirium will let you force anyone you want into that trial, just like they’re in a hit asymmetrical multiplayer game! As an action you can choose a creature you can see within 60 feet. They must make a Wisdom saving throw or become charmed / frightened of you (your choice for which one), lasting for 1 minute or until your concentration is broken (like a spell.) The effect also ends early if the creature takes any damage.
Until this illusion ends, the creature thinks it is lost in a misty realm, the appearance of which you choose. The creature can see and hear only itself, you, and the illusion. So basically they’ll be lost in their visions unless someone makes you snap them out of it, or if they get hit. But it’s a good way to get some alone time with someone and to potentially lock them down if their friends aren’t willing to punch them awake. A sledgehammer to the face tends to be a good cure for possession.
(Official promotional artwork for Evil Dead: The Game)
LEVEL 18 - WARLOCK 15
15th level Warlocks get their 8th level Mystic Arcanum, and unfortunately unlike the previous levels your options are... kinda trash? I guess Dominate Monster fits the best, although Feeblemind works decently enough as well. Much like before you can also pick up another 5th level spell and... I dunno. Planar Binding works well enough if you find a demon that you want to surround in salt for Ash to talk to.
But the far more notable thing is that you now have access to 15th level Warlock Invocations! For one I would replace One with Shadows with Shroud of Shadow which is all-around a better invocation. And Visions of Distant Realms will let you summon another eyeball out of another asymmetrical multiplayer game to scout ahead and see if any deadites are in any of the rooms ahead. Maybe you’re seeing through an old friend; who knows?
Witch Sight is also a really strong invocation that’s probably far less situational than some of the other ones you have. All the other ones you have fit in-character so I’m not going to tell you to replace any of them, but it stands to reason that higher level abilities are stronger.
LEVEL 19 - WARLOCK 16
16th level Warlocks get one last Ability Score Improvement, and honestly by total level 19 you can pick just about anything you want and it’ll still be good. Get more Constitution, more Intelligence, or a feat for all it matters. It won’t matter if you’re dead by dawn.
LEVEL 20 - WARLOCK 17
We went all the way to level 17 (instead of grabbing more ASIs that you honestly don’t need) because you can get 9th level spells at level 17! Or well, Mystic Arcanum anyways. There’s a lot of options that fit in-character but in my opinion Imprisonment is the ultimate choice to seal away evil forever. Dunno how many hit die Ruby has, yet alone the Book of the Dead, but Imprisonment proves that money can solve all your problems.
Oh and you can learn another spell but by total level 20 you can honestly pick whatever you want. I guess if I have to make a suggestion you can take Synaptic Static? I dunno. But the true ultimate prize is finally having a whole 4 spell slots!
FINAL BUILD
PROS
Arcane Knowledge - Artificer levels surprisingly pull their weight despite your (relatively) lacking intelligence. Proficiency in Constitution saving throws is universally useful, infusions are constantly strong even late-game, and the Arcane Canon gives you a constant use of your bonus action (mostly to shield your allies) as long as you’re good at hiding your fancy gadgets.
Fear No Evil - I’m going to be honest: the last 3 levels of Warlock are kinda worthless, so for all intents and purposes purposes you are a full caster (even if your spell slots are weird) with a strong yet situational 9th level spell and plenty of other strong magics to keep the dead at bay.
Infernal Camouflage - Along with free invisibility being very strong you have plenty of tools to evade evil and protect both yourself and your allies. Teleporting out of danger and turning invisible will keep you alive for awhile, and your amulets can keep your chosen ally (or yourself) safe.
CONS
Wicked Fast - Warlock is a Warlock and Warlock has no spell slots. You have strong tricks up your sleeve yes, and being able to replenish your spell slots after a Short Rest is very strong. But you still have a limited number of shots before you’ll be forced into Eldrtich Blasting.
Weak-Minded - Playing an Artificer with middling Intelligence is obviously not a good idea. If you opt to use any canon other than the shield generator it’ll essentially be useless due to your low hit chance, and your low-level spell slots are incredibly limited and will often be used to either make more canons or cast Shield.
Kandarian Fury - Basically all your stats other than Charisma are kinda bad? While this does mean your magic will be good anything else you try to do will be middling at best: getting grappled will be a tough challenge if you can’t cast Dimension Door, and any skill checks will probably be left to the Leaders of the group. Not to mention that your Wisdom is pretty bad, leaving you quite open to being frightened or possessed.
But you’re not the Chosen One, you’re the one chosen to help the Chosen One! That might not make any sense but what matters is that you’re El Brujo Especial and have all the tools you could ever need to vanquish evil for good. Be the big strong vagina everyone knows you can be and teach them to fear no evil, because evil should fear you! And if you ever find that you’re having trouble do know that a good night’s sleep with a face mask can always help put your head in the game.
(Artwork from Evil Dead: The Game)
#dnd#dnd 5e#dnd build#dnd guide#Evil Dead#Ash Vs Evil Dead#Evil Dead Pablo#Pablo Simon Bolivar#amulet#El Brujo#Especial#El Brujo Especial#Youtube
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Recap (day 7-day 10)
Saturday (day 7)
After the drone show was a mess. I could not find a taxi and then had to walk home for 1.5 hrs 💀. I was stressed but at least I made it home. Getting lost/walking around is the best way to getting to know the area though. You couldn’t tell me that at the time though, I was convinced I’d be sleeping in the streets or paying for a hotel lool I was stressed. All that fir a 10 minute show too, I was so annoyed with myself.
Sunday (day 8)
I ordered food! And it came to the right address! It took me like 3 hours because I wanted to be sure I was doing it right because it would suck for the delivery driver to call me and be on the phone with someone who cannot communicate well . There’s a local service (i think it’s literally 1 girl tbh she’s the best ) that orders food for foreigners with a $3 fee but they were offline so I had to struggle lool. I started watching friends on Netflix, im not a tv show person but I think being alone forces me to watch them so I feel less alone. I get easily scared now too so I can’t watch any thriller, suspense, horror stuff like I used to.
Monday (day 9)
I went to the bank Monday, it was a thirty minute walk (idk whats with the local apps but they lieeeee it was supposed to be a 15 minute walk). The banks are open from 10-4 on weekdays so I can only head over on Monday because I have less classes. they told me to come back though so that’s for next Monday again. I walked 30 minutes there then 30 minutes back to work. It was lightly drizzling on the walk back and a store was playing sad music on their outdoor speakers. It made me laugh a lot, it felt fitting lmaooo. Then after work I went to a recommended electronics store to get a router for internet. When I finally got there they told me they didn’t sell any 💀..again the place was walking distance 😭 but I got lost and the apps lieee (this is the exact point where I was certain the local map app wanted me to be usain bolt or something) so I was wandering for 1.5 hrs (2.5 hrs were spent walking yesterday)
Tuesday (day 10)
I cried this morning, and could only do it for like 10 mins before work, my mom said I sounded sick and that made me sad because I don’t want her worrying about me . I told myself I could cry more when I got home but like what happened last week I didn’t need to cry when I got home. I felt better. Sometimes this makes me feel like a child crying because they don’t want to go to school. But it also makes me think I overthink my days way too much, it’s all okay. I’ve done this before and have experience. I don’t suck and I’ve only completed my first full week today. I need the confidence and ego of a white man in times like these. I would wake up at 3am to prepare for my lessons for 9am last week. And I still felt like I wasnt doing enough, that’s not healthy or okay. I’m fine , I’m more than fine. I’m good enough and I can definitely do this :).
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I should really be working on the next chapter of the fic but I really don’t feel like it. 🙃 The last two weeks have been so damn stressful. Not necessarily bad, but really sucked up my time and my energy. I had to fly out of state to visit my family which is never a good or easy time; I also took two of the kittens I was fostering because my sisters are adopting them, and ngl, I miss those little fluffballs so much. 😭 One of them has taken to the new house like a fish to water, but the other is much more shy and barely came out from under the bed while I was there. I know it takes time to adjust, but it breaks my heart thinking that he may not be getting the love he needs. I’m pretty sure he’s frightened of my parents because they’re so loud and honestly, can’t blame him. The other one is literally having the time of his little life lmao.
On top of that, once I got back I had so many errands to run and some big projects to do for work just got plopped onto me. To top it all off, I took the kittens’ mama to get spayed this week, and her recovery has been slow. She developed an ulcer on her eye during the procedure, so I have to put medication on it, and she’s still really lethargic. She’s eating and going to the bathroom, otherwise I’d be really worried, but I’m going to call the vet about her tomorrow. I’ve spent way too much at the vet already, another thing that’s been stressing me out. 😓
God, I just feel like I have so much to do, and so much on my plate. I have no idea how on earth some people manage to be perfectly organized and still find time for creative projects or hobbies or self-improvement. I know I shouldn’t be too harsh on myself, life with adhd has always meant my life wasn’t going to turn out the way it’s “supposed” to, and I still struggle with being kinder to myself for not being more productive. I spend so much fucking time playing stupid games on my phone, and watching YouTube videos, and it truly feels like I’ve watched every tv show in existence (definitely haven’t but man it feels like I’ve seen a big chunk at least). I’d love to have to motivation and energy spending my free time writing, or learning a new skill. I need something to do with my hands, a physical skill/hobby, like knitting or something. Idk, I’ve always just been so bad at crafty shit, my only real talents lie in writing and singing. Feels pretty bad how little time I have for either of those things. I usually only have the bandwidth to write for a couple of hours a week, but I haven’t written more than a paragraph since I posted the last chapter. I feel like the world’s slowest fucking writer, I wish it could just be my job to write so I wouldn’t have to waste eight hours a day on extraneous bullshit lol.
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Alaska Daily: premiere thoughts
Since Abbot Elementary is literally the one TV show I watch live at this point, I’ve been getting assailed left and right by promos for this, so FINE! OKAY! I WILL LOOK AT IT!
Background: despite the snark, I am actually interested in this premise. I’ve been reading a lot of books set in Alaska lately, but I can’t remember the last film or TV show I watched set there, so anything that lets me see it (yes I know it’s actually filmed in Canada) is interesting. Cold cases also compel and intrigue me, and I’m very aware of the MMIW rates up north.
[so much so that I was surprised when the show explained it like we’re 5, and I realized this might not actually be common knowledge to the viewing public?]
Also, I really loved Chevy Stevens’ Dark Roads when I read it last year, which followed a similar theme of women who’ve been murdered or gone missing, albeit not from an officially investigative perspective, and this reminds me of that.
The Show: The part that does not interest me is Hilary Swank, whom I cannot see or read the name of without flashing back to the Office debate episode “Hilary Swank: Hot or Not?” and me firmly coming down on the side of NOT, where I remain to this day. I just...do not enjoy watching her. So I spent most of this thinking, great script! Recast your lead to match.
(although this character is not likeable even on paper. I assume that’s on purpose. Still not my favorite choice in storytelling.)
+ However, I really love... okay, I can do this, I can force myself to look up and write down character names for Future Me’s clarification no matter how weird it feels when I don’t think of them that way yet....Roz Friendly. And also -- OKAY, UNFAIR, IMDB is confusing me about what the youngest woman’s name is, which is apparently Yuna Park for the first episode and then... Jieun Park??
+ Anyway, I dig both her alone and also the Puppy Love Pair of the Newsroom, a dynamic I obviously latched onto immediately. It remains to be seen how the guy having a kid will affect my interest in that. Could go either way.
+ Honestly, I don’t know if I’ve ever watched a show about journalists -- not a drama, anyway -- so between that and the setting, I’m pretty excited about seeing a new concept.
+ I will accept random one-night-stands for such a beautiful scenic natural view from the guy’s porch, no problem. My soul knew instant peace, even secondhand through a TV screen.
+ Already VERY OVER Swank Eileen’s seemingly random panic attacks; their Aura O’ Mystery & Impending Backstory does not intrigue.
Bottom line: I’m sticking to the “great script, not the best cast” takeaway, but will probably continue weekly watching. The thing is that if a show is really good, I immediately bin it due to emotional overstimulation and have to take a long break (hey there, The Big Leap! Ordinary Joe! One day I’ll get to the second episodes of your canceled selves), and then, preferably, binge it at my own pace (hey there, Big Sky whose first season I watched in under 2 weeks! One day I’ll start season 2. maybe even before 3 is over). A show that is merely Fine, on the other hand, can be managed appropriately without getting me all blocked up. Annoying but true.
#alaska daily#speaking of shows that leave me emotionally overstimulated:#I got back 10 minutes too late to turn on Walker: Ind. and now my anticipation is so high that I don't even think I can start it yet#one the one hand: that would help me through Hell Project and give me something to anticipate at the end of every week#on the other: why push myself when I still have 11 episodes of Valor while I wait for the Western to populate more eps
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Today is so much.
Mom’s birthday. Would have been Nana’s birthday. But she’s dead. Mom had to work. I couldn’t get her anything. The cake my sister tried to make for her, didn’t get finished. Or even fully baked, apparently. And she has school and work literally all day on Mondays.
I barely slept. Guilt. Worry.
Two entire days, you’ve just vanished. Except for that half a breadcrumb I found - that your character in a video game logged in at some point about a day ago, and swapped to a different outfit. Doesn’t mean it was you. Maybe someone else did it for you. But it didn’t trip your other little online alerts. It doesn’t add up. I’m so fucking worried. Every time you pull disappearing acts like this, it means you’re in the hospital and usually it’s by your own actions.
I barely slept. I spent hours painting my nails. I wanted to. The thing I planned, didn’t work, but I still painted them. Only fucked up like 25% of them. Too much polish. Too many layers. Not enough time - even though it was hours.
I started watching something on D+ that’s spooky but still for kids. Secrets of Sulphur Springs. It’s part of how I kept occupied through the hours of nail-drying. It’s been pretty good so far. I even managed to go a couple episodes, between the show and nail polish, without anxiously glancing at your name in my contacts, hoping and praying and wishing it would light up.
It’s mom’s birthday. I committed to making dinner. I bought her a little gift - a yard decoration, a bird feeder, from the local festival she likes to go to around her birthday. It was last week. I went with her and we had a nice time. We were the absolute only people who brought, much less wore, masks. One of the vendor tents, they had a bunch of metal and glass yard decorations. Lots of holiday stuff. And one single red cardinal bird feeder - it had a big leaf on it that serves as a seed bowl. Cardinals mean a lot to my family. Grandparents. It was the only one. I used all the cash I had left to get mom that as a birthday gift.
And I cooked. I tried to get some rest between the insomnia nail polish tv show (mania? hyperfocus? anxiety? idk) and meal prep time, but all I accomplished was coughing so hard I somehow... stuffed my nose. The air’s dried out rapidly and that makes me cough sometimes. But holy shit, it was like I coughed a mucus-summoning incantation or something. I couldn’t breathe at all. So the 2 hours leading up to dinner-making, I was vaguely suffocating while trying to nap.
Dinner itself went pretty well. I was very pseudo-dissociated, on account of the exhaustion and the congestion and the anxiety and the grief and all else. But I did it. My main regret is that I didn’t wash dishes as I went. I didn’t make many, but I don’t like to leave mess to clean when I cook. Especially not when I’m cooking as a birthday gesture for my mom.
I haven’t eaten yet. My food’s cold - plated for half an hour, my mind fucked off elsewhere. And here, typing.
I have another commitment in about 2 hours, too.
And then tomorrow night, and the night after.
Oh I’ve really fucked myself.
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I'm in The Zone.
Right now...
I am in.
The Zone.
In the last coupla weeks, ideas have been rollin'. The right ideas have been rollin'. And it's as if my brain's down for anything put in front of it.
If I had to guess, I'd say the pump was primed by a proposal for a PBS travel series I read last week. Just that proposal sparked a lot of ideas and definitely a lot of connections. Like my mind was working overtime to visualize a show that did not yet exist.
At around the same time I was working on another project hunting down stock footage to cover interviews, thinking long and hard about what those shots should be and why. Feeling my way through the process as I conjured a piece out of nothing but words, trying to land something with more emotional heft.
A couple days after that, I'm cutting a short film for the 48 Hour Film Project. It's the type of film for which a lot of footage, differently acted takes, was shot. And I spent a lot of time watching that footage over and over, the acting, the camera work, looking at each shot, soaking in each vibe, and thinking about the how and why of this shot, this take... rather than that one.
If that sounds odd... all I can tell you is it works. I created a first cut of the film that warranted only a single switching out of one take of one shot.
And yeah.
The new shot called for by the writer/producer was definitely better than the one I chose.
Other than that, though...
My first cut's remarkably the same as the final cut other than the addition of titles and name keys and a trim here and there.
So I was pretty dialed in over the weekend, is what I'm saying. The right ideas, the right choices, were flowing.
And I dig that.
And then I'm reading another proposal for a TV show. And my brain lights up. Seriously. It kicks into full creation mode. It starts making connections like an old time telephone operator. And before long, I've got a treatment on its feet. I've gotta hook. I've gotta reason to include certain elements and exclude others. I've gotta way to use the elements the proposal sets forth. I've gotta way to think about logistics and equipment as they relate to the script and shooting that script. And this:
I've got a reason for this show to be... other than it's funded.
Of course none of this is my job.
None of it.
Is my job.
I'm not the writer, you see. I was just given a proposal to read. That's literally all.
But here's the thing. And I'm pretty sure of this: put another proposal in front of me and my brain's gonna turn that into a show, too.
Why?
Because I'm in The Zone.
😁
#the zone#in the zone#nothing but net#firing on all cyllinders#creativity#creative process#black box#muse#subconscious#creation mode
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You're planning to take a vacation away from home? If WiFi isn't available, make sure you have enough digital media.
I'd like to tell you the story of my last Arctic cruise. It sounded incredible, National Geographic trip through the ice and back , with Polar bears and other animals. There was going to be snow everywhere, ice everywhere. Man-made machinery was set to take on the elements, and cut through the northern desert that was frozen. It sounded like an epic project, a massive combat with the north and the weather, as well as the pole.
I was told by my supervisor to bring with me every piece of technology I could. I did take my laptop, and also an enormous display screen to extend the space for work. The staff assured me that power wasn't a problem. I was not quite sure what was in store for me. I had no idea that, just two days into the 14-day trip and my Internet connection would stop and I would be without internet access for 10 consecutive days. I was devastated when it occurred. No travel, however long or challenging will result in a loss of connection from the internet. Not only I've had unfinished business that I need to attend to in the next week, but I also did not plan for interruptions.
The majority of people don't mind if they have to disconnect from the internet. Internet is available no matter where you happen to be. In case your home connection goes down, you can always find the nearest McDonalds nearby and make use of their complimentary WiFi to access the information you need. Additionally, you could bring your laptop to Starbucks to take a seat at the table and browse the Internet for as long as you can. There's no cafe or restaurant cafe that can provide electricity to the north. It's far from any power source. There isn't the internet for free everywhere. There are two options: either choose to go offline, or opt for satellite connections.
I'm not able to afford a satellite phone. It is way too costly, particularly for Internet access. I'll prepare a video and audio library for my next adventure without Internet. Last time , I only had two songs. The songs were downloaded back earlier in the day, so all I had to listen to were three jazz songs and a song I didn’t know the name of. This is it. Four songs in two weeks of no time. I would have prepared myself for this had I known. I would have filled my laptop with movies, TV shows and music videos. youtube to mp3 My most loved podcasts were ones that I would listen to for hours. It's simple to download the podcasts, convert them to MP3 and save them on my computer. After that, I can relax in my bed and enjoy whatever I would like to hear at home but don't have time for. It was meant to be my golden hour, or two weeks of gold. It ended up being two weeks of gazing at the ceiling and waiting for passengers each time a sound is heard within the hallways.
The trip was empty both literally and figuratively.. I've never felt so bored. The ice was way too thick. I was aware that this could eventually cause the issue. Therefore, the boat had to turn around and come back to civilization. This was not unexpected. However, hours upon hours of idle time could easily have been spent listening to podcastsor watching videos for DIY repairs at home, or just enjoying music. Next time I'll convert YouTube videos into MP4 and MP3 formats on my laptop. Music will lift your spirits and help you feel better. Hulu, Netflix and other apps let you download your favorite shows and movies for offline viewing. It is also possible to take them when you go on long trips to the arctic. Just make sure don't waste your time bored. Have fun!
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Are you planning a trip away from your home? Make sure you have digital tools!
Here's a short story of my last excursion to the Arctic on a boat. It sounded incredible, National Geographic journey thru the ice and back with polar bears and many other animals. There was going to be snow everywhere, ice everywhere. Man-made machines were created to combat the elements, and navigate through the frozen northern wilderness. It sounded fantastic as if it was a battle with weather and the north.
I was told by my supervisor to bring everything I had access to. To make my work space larger I brought my laptop. As per their report, the power wasn't an issue. It would be a tough task and I was unsure what to expect. I didn't realize that I'd lose my internet connection two days into my 14-day trip and then disappear from Earth for the next 10 days. When it finally happened I was devastated. I was shocked to learn that any travel, no matter how difficult or distant, would cause a sudden disconnect from the technological world. Not even in 21st century. There was no doubt that there was some unfinished business that I had to address over the next week and I didn't prepare myself for the downtime.
Nobody cares if you have to leave your home. Internet is available everywhere. If your internet connection isn't working, you can always go to a McDonald's near you and obtain the free WiFi connection you require. It is possible to bring your laptop into Starbucks and set up a table at the counter and surf the Internet until you drop. Up north, there is no restaurant or cafe which can help you. You're a long distance away from the nearest electricity source. There's not a free Internet around the corner.. In such situations there are two escape routes that you can take: either prepare to be disconnected from your home, or carry a satellite connection.
I cannot afford to buy the satphone as it's expensive, especially for Internet. Before I leave for the dark, I'll have an extensive audio and video library. Last time I had 2 songs, both were mockingly downloaded in the past the only thing I was able to enjoy were 3 smooth jazz songs, and a song that I didn't even know the name. playlist to mp3 It's that simple. 4 songs for two weeks of total silence. If I had known that this was the case, I would have prepared. I would have loaded my laptop up with movies, TV shows music videos, audio files with songs and podcasts. I could spend hours listening to my favorite podcasts. It's easy to download them, then convert to MP3 and save to my personal computer. I can then lie in my bed listening to the podcasts I enjoy, but rarely have time to actually listen. This would have been my "golden hour", or 2 weeks worth of gold. Instead, it was 2 weeks of staring at the ceiling, trying to find passengers every whenever there's a noise in the corridors.
The trip was completely empty, both literally and metaphorically.. I've never been this bored. The ice was thick, which I knew could cause problems later on and the boat was forced to turn around and tug back to the civilization. It wasn't a surprise however, again, long hours of downtime could have been spent listening to podcasts, watching DIY videos on home fixing or simply enjoying music. Next time, I will convert YouTube videos from mp4 into MP3 format on my laptop. Bring them with you and listen to your most loved songs right from your laptop. Music never makes you feel sad. Remember that Netflix and Hulu apps allow you to download films and shows onto your computer for viewing offline. They can also be used on long trips to the Arctic. Don't let boredom get you down. Good luck!
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Drink 2 Shrink Meal Plan
Hello and welcome to the Drink 2 Shrink Formula.com presentation for those of you who do not know me my name is, Billy,
And I’m a drink to shrink challenge graduate Anna held enthusiast I was able to lose about 20 pounds in my last challenge,
So I’m very excited and I made it my mission to help as many people as I can in their weight loss journey so I decided to make this little presentation,
About how to incorporate mindful eating into your routine and day-to-day one of the benefits of the Dentition formula besides finally allowing,
People to lose weight and detox their bodies is that it does get you thinking about developing healthy habits to keep up with your weight loss,
During your weight loss journey and once you have reached your goal so it can be really difficult to be mindful of your eating unless you decide,
To make a specific effort to do so when you’re used to a particular walking away of Eating and it has become a habit over the course of years,
As it is coming with most people it’s going to take more than just a few days to correct that behavior.
So after I completed my drinking weight-loss challenge I said have to find that carefully crafted process that will show people to incorporate mindful eating,
Into their routine based on my own weight loss story by all means I am not an expert but I found these three basic steps,
So it was really easy to implement and I want to share it with you guys.
Step 1
So step number one is to increase her Self-Awareness,
One thing that can be shocking yet educational for you to do with yourself is to try and gain more self-awareness for a few moments,
When you’re alone or isolated that you can gain habits that one reveals to the public it may seem a little bit odd to a few people well,
And this can be seen in poor eating habits like fast binge eating in this practice you pretty much might shovel food into your mouth at such a rate,
That you don’t even truly enjoy the food that you’re eating and it’s again it’s almost joyless so try to notice how you feel,
Before you begin to eat remember that this isn’t this is nota race and that if you eat more slowly you will enjoy your food and feel more satisfied
Step 2
and step number two take a moment to taste have you ever gotten a meal only to discover that is completely subpar,
And you ate it just to get over with it well it’s important to begin to draw distinctions between the meals that you enjoy,
And the meals that you’re just eating out of boredom you may be surprised that you don’t really pay much attention to some meals,
And the eating is just a formality to begin or end the day so taking an inventory of what you really feel will help you feel to make better choices,
And you know that higher quality healthy foods will almost always taste a lot of lot better.
Step 3
Just avoid the tech sound be binge in other words it can be really dangerous to good eating habits too.
When you’re running things online or watching a good TV Show I know because I have done it but this can really lead to eating out of control,
And you may end up finishing an entire bag of snacks that the woman to last the whole week so if you’re less distracted it’s easier to control,
How much food you’re eating the time you spend with food should be spent developing good habits to lay the pad for a better more healthy choices,
In the future, these are just three simple changes that I’ve been able to incorporate into my routine and they have helped tremendously in my weight loss journey.
How to Make Drink 2 Shrink Formula
I am super excited to break down to you guys the drink to shrink formula its absolutely amazing you’ve probably been seeing the post,
Right we call it the detox juice but you can’t drink it like one because the nine herbs that are inside of this literally this is a health drink right,
And although it tastes just like you know some of your favorite juices this literally aids in helping you lose up to five pounds a week,
With on a regular, you know regular just consumption and the reason why is because the herbs keep you clean a lot of people ask me,
Well is it since it’s a detox juice you know is it a laxative no it is not a laxative but what it is going to do is regularly regulate you two out of five,
Women do not go to the bathroom regularly and what this drink is going to do is keep the colon cleanse the colon can hold up to 40 pounds of waste,
Inside of it and if you think that that is not a big deal here’s some shocking shocking stats guys you know one out of every two people,
Have parasites inside of their belly area and how can you know if that’s you well do your body hold on to fool longer than what it’s supposed to,
Or what about this when you look down in your belly area art do you have you gained weight there you know is it hard for you to keep your stomach flat,
You start to notice the parasites inside of your body because your belly begins to take on that bulge at the bottom,
This means that that is literally junk sitting inside of your stomach area and what this is going to do is cleanse it,
And keep it clean you can drink this drink for the rest of your life you drink two to three eight-ounce glasses a day completely natural,
No caffeine so for my people with high blood pressure you have nothing to worry about as a matter of fact some of the herbs inside of the Drink 2 Shrink Aids,
And help lower your blood pressure people who have diabetes insulin issues the herbs inside of here Aids,
And helping you to really you know to get your insulin levels the correct way it’s a powerful drink the test you’ve probably seen on people’s pages,
You know you’ve probably landed on this article because someone is sharing it with you you know from playing professional sports for eight years,
And getting older one thing I realize is that when you were younger you really didn’t have to do so much to keep your body healthy,
And feeling good but as you get older it’s a constant fight to be healthy and literally by just consuming two to three eight-ounce glasses a day,
With the Drink 2 Shrink Formula, you’re going to start to notice that your blood pressure is better if you’re diabetic you’re going to start to notice,
If you feel better if you have allergy issues if you have weight loss issues if your Metabolism sucks the drink to shrink formula is for you.
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