#i’m very super stressed

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

Hello, sorry for dropping off the face of the earth

Things are…still very neutral okay. We’re kinda forced to go ahead with the car repair and hope that it won’t need anything else for at least until we get into a better situation. Or if it does then it isn’t this drastic. I really want to thank everyone who’s given something, even just your messages of support.

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Still feel incredibly guilty accepting the money thrown my way, but I can’t deny that what’s been given will help lessen the blow of the mechanics bill. Thank you for everyone who gave something, even if you felt it was a little amount just know The Other Q and I are incredibly grateful for it.

We’re doing our best to try and take it easy, to recover mentally. We’re still in a mentally fragile state but I think it’s slowly getting better. Just taking time, yknow? I’ve been dealing with ups and downs my whole life knowing what was wrong but it’s still taking some time for Q to readjust his mindset to be more mindful of his mental state, but baby steps.

We’ve been doing a lot of personal world building stuff together too, to give us something more enjoyable to focus on. Q is usually private with his world building stuff but he’s shown interest in allowing me to share this one, maybe even becoming involved with the more public side himself, so maybe that’ll be a fun thing we can share with you one day

Anyway, just doing a check in. May continue to be off in the void but yknow, I’m still alive!

I hope everyone is doing well, but if not I hope you’ll be able to get there💕

#the cats have been super cuddly lately #maybe they can tell we’re stressed #it’s very kind of them to want to comfort us though bless their lil hearts #oh yeah I animated this btw #I’m sure some of might remember when I did it with Mosy last year #thought it would be fun to reanimate it when I have the energy to

[why-the-heck-not]

19.12.23, tuesday

0.5h of coding lol

wasn’t having the best day so decided to finally watch the barbie-movie (it’s on hbo rn) bc figured that could cheer me up

but bc the universe loves a good timing, on the grocery store trip after, some dudes came to me like ”which one of us would u fuck?” and that annoyed me way more than it should’ve. Like cmon, it’s 10pm at a grocery store; if you’re not cottage cheese or olive oil get tf out of my face

just a short evening walk bc it was windy and I was annoyed

#also the barbie-movie; it was fine #not my favorite but I didn’t think it’d be bc I don’t rly usually go for that genre #also at this point the hype had got to me so my expectations were very unfair #the set tho; it looked so good #I love how I planned that I’d be a machine now this week so could actually not stress during christmas but it’s looking out to be like one #of the most unproductive days I’ve had all autumn lol #i’m thinking if I should just call it and start the holidays now and just idk catch up on some of the days in between christmas & new years #and I do have 8 days after new years before other courses start #but idk if I do thay I might not rly be able to chill during christmas #like rn I’m thinking if I should bring my laptop with me just in case I could squeeze a couple hours here & there during the few days #which is not the thing to do obviously; like it’s 5 days I can be apart from my laptop for 5 days #but it feels like with the amount of stuff I’ve gotten done I rly couldn’t afford a 5 day break rn #idk I’ll figure it out I won’t bring a laptop just to haunt me #(I’m bad at fully relaxing; there’s always the ’’u could be doing something productive tho’’-voice) #(which I don’t listen but then I just get nothing done and also never rly relax which is good super good) #(can u tell im still annoyed at everything rn lol sorry for the tag rant) #december 2023 #2023 #today

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

gerojim is my favourite character from king-ohger in a scrunkly sense, and the way you draw him makes me unreasonably happy so i wanted to say thank you. and also using dotted lines and lighter text for his speech bubbles is absolutely Inspired

Awwwww thanks so much, doggendoodle!!!!!!✨✨✨ I’m over the moon that people are enjoying my drawings of him. Gerojim and Jeramie are first in my heart (probably quite obvious by my drawing habbits) but learning to draw Gerojim was a hard earned feat and so i felt the need to flex that power as much as possible!!!! I want to see more images of him!!

I’m very excited about his speech bubbles, i played around with wiggly lines too but dashes were faster to draw hahaha! a good balloon design is one of my favorite things so i’m pleased the effort was noted!!!

Here’s a little scrap of dropped comic I had lying around! I think this was the first Gerojim speech I drew.

#gerojim #jeramie brasieri #spider kumonos #ohsama sentai kingohger #kingohger #super sentai #fan art #doggendoodle #ask and be answered #i love hiiiiimmm! #i love gerojim so much thank youuuuu! #i feel like i’ve taken him under my grubby little artist wings… i want to see himmmm #toei needs to make merch of him lol! #the way rita is with moffun…. i’m feeling that with Gerojim aaah #i like drawing him after a stressful day… its good for the brain lol! the effect is incredible! #this was a very nice ask an i’m very very happy #thank you ever so kindly #i’m glad we all love Gerojim. i’m shaking everyone by the hand #i see you people in my notes😆✨ #one of my very wise friends said Gerojim and Jeramie have ‘share a braincell’ energy #i think this is true. they are reaching ‘do not separate’ status in my heart

[fissions-chips]

ahhhhhh

tooth hurty

#i have a toothache and I am deathly terrified that it’s something that’s gonna warrant a root canal #i am fucking terrified of dental stuff and I haven’t been in a while so even though I take good care of my teeth I am. very spooked. #it might just be because I’m anxious and am clenching my jaw! it might! but now I can’t think about anything else. #it has been a very stressful week and my family is coming up tomorrow so if I do need to get it looked at I would really rather not have it #- done this weekend but. ah. #like. it’s such a small thing to be worried about but I’m worried that if it is something like… the dentist will say it’s my fault. which #- is so stupid to be worried about! #forgive me but I needed to talk about it somewhere cause I’m super anxious about it atm #vent

[camgoloud]

today. i have experienced the HORRORS (opened laptop for morning meeting while seated between boss and coworker; was greeted with ao3 page i forgot to close last night)

#it’s fine it’s fine i THINK it’s fine. both of them were looking at their own computers and i closed that shit SO fast and i have no reason #to believe that either one of them is online enough to know anything about ao3 much less enough about what it looks like to recognize it #from peripheral vision/​during the quick glance they might have had the opportunity to get #fortunately my other coworker who i know IS quite online (the two of us literally had to team up to explain a meme to the other two people #that i was sitting between later during this VERY meeting. which i was so cool and normal during by the way) was sitting over on the #opposite side of the table. and i was cool about it externally. and they had no reaction of any kind. so #nevertheless. HORRORS. it wasn’t even like a story was open which would have been just a wall of text it was like. a search result. #displaying clearly and distinctly the site’s formatting #it doesn’t help that the rest of today has also been extremely stressful and the next few days will be much the same because there are #some Things i have to do that are fairly high-stakes and that i’m extremely stressed about. fun! fantastic! #i was literally only ON ao3 last night in the first place to try to pregame/destress ahead of having to come into work this week 😭 #and i already fucked up something important today that’s setting a bunch of things back for multiple people. and i feel like i’m going to #get my period in the next day or two which would make it a week early if it happens. super fun. amazing! #guess i’ll just keep riding the adrenaline-fueled train wreck that never stops all the way through friday! #caseyposting

[descole]

watching friends who are still using twitter i think is exactly what its like when born again christians like me a lot personally yet still believe im going to go burn in hell. in a separate post i’d like to say we should also normalize calling born again christians the BACs i think its really cool

#twitter friens if youre reading this i cannot stress how much better my mental health has been not looking at twitter like i always knew it #contributed to me feeling like shit but i never realized the full extent until like a week without it its been very refreshing that place #is just a cesspit of negativity and you dont have to use it to talk to your friends it’s actually possible to talk to them in other ways! #other ways that wont ask you to pay up if you hit your dm limit! #“but i have nowhere else to go’ not true actually! #“I’m just sticking around until this boat sinks’ how much sinkier does it have go for you there like antisemitism is encouraged over there #like super encouraged right now! #its bad lol!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

just take things at your own pace, ari

(i'm sure that anon was just excited because your prose is superb but i totally get how it can be discouraging. hell, sometimes i just shiver whenever i receive an email reminding me of work even if it's super mundane, so i completely get you.)

just take care of yourself. write to relax. take time to explore ideas & edit & just have fun

thank you anon 🥺 that’s very sweet of you!!! i don’t want to come off as mean or anything and i know that anon was just excited (which makes me happy) but!! soooo many writers get bombarded with ”pt 2” comments and i just…. think it’s rude. and i don’t think people who make those comments know it’s rude. which is why it’s important to be firm about those kinds of things… for everyone involved!!

there’s no malicious intent but that doesn’t change how discouraging it feels to have someone look at your hard work and then immediately jump to ”i want more,” yk?? especially using words like when and. etc. sometimes it feels stressful and sometimes it feels demanding. i really don’t think it’s proper etiquette at all :’3 …

#i’m super lucky when it comes to interactions and i also rarely get comments that stress me out and i appreciate that sm #and that ask didn’t upset me or anything!! i just wanted to . be firm about it in case that anon does similar things to other writers #bc depending on who you ask and how you ask it can really make them feel bad :’3 #i think it’s important to talk about it in a mature way bc it rlly isnt done out of malice (usually) but it’s still an issue #that i know a lot of writers rlly rlly care about #and i’m one of them obviously #anyway!! ty for the sweet reminders anon <3 #writing is selfcare to me and i also don’t want to ruin it by having a bunch of expectations on the quality or output…. #i don’t mind anons that politely ask if i’m planning to write a sequel for something but #asks about ”when” i’m gonna write something do very much stress me out sometimes :’3 #ask tag ✩

[tidekissed]

ithink. I should be gently held by a guy. just a little bit.

#tidepool chats #I’m so. I gave myself a stress headache. #I deserve a hug. At least. #even though my brain is being. super mean because it’s exhausted and screaming very loud #that none of my f/os would feel anything towards me ever #bc I’m gross/weird/undesirabel/whatever #but. yeah. I deserve a friendly hug at least. at the very least #just. wish brain would let me have. actual comfort #but I’ll just have to take what I can get ig. #there are specific reasons I worry abt the ship with n specifically too #because I’ve always been told I’m cold/robotic/etc and he’s. very much not those things. so it’s like. yweah #anyway. sorry for whining in the tags #I just. it’s hard when there isn’t someone that can actually verbally tell me I’m wrong #or refute my evidence that I would be right #very. I view the world as just data moment #but whatever. cutting myself off now I promise

[isthisjackie]

What also sucks is that I don’t have another therapy session scheduled until 3 weeks from now for a variety of reasons, and now I’m gonna have to actually do the boundaries thing when I didn’t think I’d have to so soonnnn

#personal #I am losing my mind rn #like I feel like no matter what I do I’m gonna feel like shit #like my friend told me I’m the only one she told some of this heavy stuff to #and now she feels better bc she has someone to tell when she feels overwhelmed #and like I do not want to be that person #and I feel shitty that she was vulnerable with me #and I know she’s gonna take it super personally #like I wanna do a cop out and blame it on school #or say I’m doing it with everyone #and those are maybe like half truths #and it’s like my stress gets passed on to my bf #bc he gets very frustrated with her expectations of me #and like how our friendship dynamic works #which adds more stress to me bc I know he’s probs right #my therapist also agreed with him and said if someone like him is telling me the same stuff #I should probs take it into consideration #it feels very complicated and exhausting and like none of my other friendships are like this

[jackmischief]

Where’s that meme with the buff Shiba Inu and the wimpy one and the buff one is Steve mentoring Wanda and the wimp is Tony mentoring Peter??? That shit’s the best

#Fuck tony stark in the MCU especially. Yeah yeah he saved the universe good redemption after the war profiteering and whatever but #I’m talking about how he handled Peter Parker. Baby spidey. #and basically all he did was get angry at a literal child for a) trying to help #b) dealing with more of HIS MESS without his help #and then proceeded to #a) not explain himself or ACTUALLY LISTEN and then revoke a piece of a child’s identity #bc he has trauma from making all those mistakes himself but cannot talk to a smart boy (like himself 🙄) like a human being #he did a bad job mentoring Peter and i resent the mcu for connecting them the way they did #they did both characters dirty actually and in the process continued to make EVERY OTHER SUPER’S STORY ABOUT TONY FUCKING STARK #and half of the bad shit in the mcu was his direct fault. #i want to stress that nobody is wrong for liking mcu tony stark. or comic Tony stark. multiversal stark #i am very attached to spider-man and you’re lying to yourself if you can’t admit Tony dominated too much of the mcu bc hes the ‘godfather’ #also ffs Peter Parker worshipping a FUCKING BILLIONAIRE is downright insulting

[ezkn]

I love my friends

#I need a tag for posts like this #I’ll figure that out later #I’ve been thinking about how happy my friends truly make me and how thankful I am for that #I’ve spent more time talking to friends recently more than anything and it’s very refreshing to be able to do that #seeing how much I can connect with people makes me feel happy #avpd is really kicking my ass recently and I’m super stressed out and irritable so it makes me happy just being able to connect with other #I’m talking a lot but tldr: I love my friends they’re amazing

[obstinaterixatrix]

my memory’s pretty spotty but surprisingly I remember a fair amount of lyrics from a song I haven’t listened to since… at minimum 7 years

#my ramblings #old man sunshine listen you/never tell me dreams come true/just try it/and I’ll start a riot #beatrice fairfax don’t you dare/ever tell me he will care/I’m certain/it’s the final curtain #I never want to hear a cheerful pollyanna… something something #who tells you fate/provides a mate/it’s all bananas #WAIT #I NEVER WANT TO HEAR FROM ANY CHEERFUL POLLYANAS #they’re writing songs of love but not for me~ a lucky star’s above but not for me~ #with love to lead the way I’ve found more clouds of grey than any russian play could guarantee~ #I was a fool to fall and get that way~ high ho alas and also lackaday~ #and I forget how it ends in this verse but the last last one is ‘although I can’t dismiss the feeling of his kiss I guess he’s not for me’ #but I forget the entire other verse #or… chorus? #anyway there was a… well I suppose you could call it a jukebox musical but for gershwin songs #‘but not for me’ was one of my favorites #did they also have ‘how long has this been going on’? #actually so like #sondheim was very picky about lyrics and had super high standards #and one of the things he considered cheating was when stress was messed with for the sake of meter/rhyme #and in how long has this been going on #‘dantes’ is completely mangled into ‘dahn-tees’ #‘sad to tell it was hell an inferno worse than dantes’ #so every time I think abt those lyrics I think abt sondheim shaking his head in disapproval #well now this is basically #talking abt musicals #I need to look up who beatrice fairfax was

[tiredbiostudent]

august!

#got a new tent and I’m in love😭 #I’m going backpacking next week and I’m SO pumped even if it’s supposed to be thunderstorming the first two days 😩 lol #life update is that I’ve mostly just been trying to organize my life after being gone for work for like 3 months #and I’m practicing driving a lot bc my test is at the end of the month😭 it’s going better than I thought but still stressful #also going to college in the fall and still not sure how to feel about it LMAO #i think I’m just worried I’m not gonna make any friends the entire year and I’m gonna hate it and have the program be a waste of time #I’m sure it’ll be fine?🥴 #and I’m STILL contemplating about doing a masters shdhdhdg #bc ok I loved the job I had this summer and would happily do contract field bio jobs for the rest of my life but unfortunately it’s not very #stable and doesn’t pay super well so at some point I’m going to need to get a more formal job which I might need an MSc for :/ we’ll see #the idea of research and /being/ a grad student is so appealing but then I think about the actual work I’d have to do and it’s like um my #i always feel like shit in august and am so yugh because it’s friggen hot and there’s nothing to do and I have definitely been feeling that #(also because I miss work and being up north) #but I just scrolled through my ‘insp’ instagram saved posts and Pinterest board and am acc feeling good today hshdhdgxhd #like you know when you’re just excited about life 🥰✨ hehe #omg sorry for this I guess I just needed to dump my thoughts out onto the ground for everyone #mine

[strohller27]

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#Transitionary periods of life are So! Stressful!! #I hate getting texts and stuff from friends and family like ‘did you get into [prestigious university i applied for] yet?’ #like. No! they only let in like 15% of applicants! it’s going to take them a while to decide!! #and their immediate follow-up question is ‘when will you find out?’ #That information! is NOWHERE. on their WEBSITE!!! #plus we just had three snow days at work and I missed out on like 20 of my work hours for last week #so my paycheck is gonna be super slim on Friday! #and I have not bought groceries in a while! #thank god I have a remote job or I would probably be freezing my ass off in a tent right now! (woo precarious situations!) #oh. and I have my comprehensive exams to prepare for too. #I have three weekends to write three 5 page (single-spaced; 10 if they’re double-spaced) research papers #these three weekends will be happening in March. #that’s. not very far away from us right now. I got. a few weeks. tops. to prepare for this. #and I did do a lot of prep work already. I took a capstone course. I did an independent study #and I read a LOT of stuff about phonetics/phonology last month #but like. I won’t know the questions until the weekend I have to write the paper. 5 pages in 2 days. that’s stressful. #i am suprised I’m not wearing a rut in the floor from pacing so much! #I will be going insane. ​through no fault of my own. (unless you count giving up a cushy job and moving internationally a fault? yeah ok)

[diabolicjoy]

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#warning there’s too many typos but who cares #i’m always complaining to myself in my head about how me & my best friend have grown apart #we’ve spent all out teenage years doing everything together even though we weren’t from the same school #we’d still find ways to see each other if not every day then at least every month #& since she started college & then a relationship & then work we’ve just grown apart & it was embarrassing for me really because i was alwa #ys the depressed never busy always alone type & i always ended up felt clingy when asking to hang out #feeling* #specially because she’s a social butterfly & i’m the one who has social anxiety lol but it was always reassuring to have her by my side #during these social events #then the pandemic happened & after things went back to normal.. i can actually count on my finger how many times we’ve seen each other irl #also stopped texting each other which is an important detail considering we used to talk every single day #especially because she’s like. literally the only person i feel comfortable opening up abt things i wouldn’t tell anyone #so i just feel isolated & a bit lost in life without her presence in it... but i’m just a very insecure human & always feel like the plans #& little dates & things i come up & plan for us to do is just... super boring to her (or anyone else) #so i stopped trying completely. which is sad because i miss her immensely #but last november i went to a festival with some friends but felt super stressed on the first day but tried to hide it from everyone #because i don’t wanna ruin the whole trip by being moody so i just kept to myself #ended up feeling overwhelmed & on day2 of the festival we txt each other bc she’s gonna be there #so i just spent the entire day2 with her & her partner & we all had such an amazing time... it really revitalized me lol #& everything felt so familiar even though i hadn’t seen her since her bday in may.. #& idk i just missed her. i always felt like this lack of talking & seeing each other just meant that they didnt like me as a friend anymore #or that i wasn’t worth keeping around... idk i’m always expecting the worse which is so unfair to the other person #i know she loves me & that life happens #anyway all that to say that i decided to stop being a pussy & stop mopping around #crying abt how i’m alone & friendless. & like. just text them & invite invite them to see a movie or something #idk if it didn’t work our 2 years ago life happens i am trying again #i won’t find someone like them that easily again in life i think

[samglyph]

Stress hives are so wild. I know I’m stressed. I don’t need my face to light itself on fire to tell me I’m stressed. This is not helping the stress. I would argue the stress is worsening due to the on fire face feeling. Who built this thing.

#looking like zuko is not helping the stress. sadly. #personal #I’m going to just bite the bullet and take my medicine this is getting ridiculous (has been avoiding the meds cause it’s basically just #super Benadryl and it makes me very sleepy and I’ve been trying to be productive)