#i would've treated you better

[things-still-left-unsaid]

Ok I'm not hating on Celia but like?? Ma'am had some serious issues. Why be SO mad at Evelyn???? "HEY DONT ATTACK CELIA LIKE THAT, NOBODY IS PERFECT" I AGREE BUT SHE WAS EVEN IN THE SAME PROFESSIOOOON - ACTING. She surely knew that Evelyn was just ACTING?????? She could've been a little more empathetic for someone literally in the same field is all I'm saying. "But Evelyn should've asked Celia before doing the scene-" Why, may I ask? It's Evelyn's career, it's her business whatever she does for it. Yes, maybe sometimes you feel like consulting your partner for stuff and their opinion on it but in the end the final decision should be yours, they have no right to take the final decision in YOUR career. Nobody should have that but you. Poor Evelyn was so careful throughout yet ended up always feeling guilty as the partner of someone having such major trust issues, someone who would be questioning their entire relationship JUST COZ EVELYN did what she gets PAID FORRR DOING - ACTING. JUST COZ EVELYN WANTED THEM TO REMAIN SUCCESSFUL SO NOBODY WOULD DARE THREATEN OR SUSPECT THEM. JUST SO THEY COULD BE TOGETHER. And what did Celia do? She left Evelyn.

#and dont even get me started on the subsequent on and off thing they had- like what even was that hello????? #anyway my point is that I would've treated Evelyn SM BETTER AAAAAAHHHH #evelyn my baby my queen my sweetheart you didnt deserve all that pain #the seven husbands of evelyn hugo #evelyn hugo #celia st james #taylor jenkins reid #wlw #wlw books #queer characters #queer #sapphic books #sapphic #queer books #booktok #lgbt #lgbtq #lesbian #bisexual #pride #queer reads #lgbt books #book rant #evelyncelia #tshoeh #evelyn x celia #evelyn and celia #thesevenhusbandsofevelynhugo #the seven husbands of evelyn hugo fanart

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

who hates operación triunfo more edgelords who thing they're above a silly music contest or fans of operación triunfo

#vivitalksot #quién se apunta para bombardear gestmusic #no but #this isn't about 'oh they won't sing amapolas my ship oh nawr' #this is about how the goddamn program has already treated paul and alvaro (and also bea now that we're on topic) like shit #i shan't speak about gala 8 but #you know what happened there #in interviews when asked about which songs they would like on tour #they both said they wanted amapolas #they even fucking repeated it in the weird ass video statement they released an hour ago #saying that they would've liked to sing it but it didn't depend on them #it's the only ship song to not be sung on tour in the history of ot btw #which is already insane #once again it's a good song a good duo and numerically it just makes sense. it just made sense #as we know now. it looks like paul is going to sing fewer songs than people like chiara #PAUL IS THE RUNNER UP #during tour the better your position in the contest the more songs you're allowed to sing #it doesn't look like paul will sing more than two duets and two solos #and even if he sung another duet #the ones that are left are 1) el encuentro with chiara which i enjoy but i wouldn't say it's tour - worthy #also it would make chiara have like 5/6 songs so. lol #2) little green bag. also a cool performance but. martin has so many songs already #3) bad habits. no ❤️ #and there's also the trio he could do which is the worst trio in the contest so. lovely #i'm so tired

[detectivenyx]

yeah i think momoharu was a last minute asspull that contributed very little to the plot and maki had shown no romantic inclinations to kaito previously and could've been an entirely platonic take on the plot and that was what i meant by forced heterosexuality when i did that video back in 2020. yeah i also like momoharu as a romantic ship. we exist

#someone bitched at me for doing it and said 'UHHH U PRAISED KUZUPEKO U HYPOCRITE' #kuzupeko had YEARS of history between them and yet still ended on an ambiguous note #'I need you! Don't leave me!' still breaks my HEART. #it doesn't betray the exact specifics of fuyuhiko's feelings to peko #romantic? platonic? unimportant. but she is important to him. #not as a tool or a hitman or as a worker but as an equal. as a friend. #and barring maybe natsumi. he is the only one in the yakuza clan who treats her as an equal. #peko's whole Thing proves that the way she was raised in the kuzuryuu household was exclusively as a human meatshield #a hitman. a bodyguard. his sword and shield. and it was instilled into her at such a young age from the older people around her #that she still genuinely believes it. that she is only a tool to him. #and if they had kept it ambiguous for maki and kaito. i think it would've been better. #it could've kept focus on maki's arc and learning to trust others and open her heart. #the realisation that over the course of the Shenanigans kaito had become important to her #and it was up to audiences to determine interpretation. #it probably was intended to purposefully suck like this honestly. #but i just hate all of chapter 5 v3 in general and im glad chapter 6 managed to salvage that great of an ending from that dumpster fire #but uh yea there's the difference. #still ship them both. #sdr2 spoilers #ndrv3 spoilers #kuzupeko #momoharu #fuyuhiko kuzuryuu #peko pekoyama #maki harukawa #kaito momota #sdr2 #ndrv3

[books-are-my-life-stuff]

I wish Blue would've won against Red in the event to keep the consistency of the Neo Champion events so far but...can't have the legendary trainer get defeated just once I suppose...

#personal #pokemon masters #then again maybe it's just me nitpicking #i also would have loved if blue's strength in teaching and mentoring others had gotten more emphasis #instead of just reinforcing red's (actually bad way of) teaching #okay there are times when tough love works but not in this case when red had to teach two very young children #red...you really could've crushed their spirits by beating their ass over and over again #that's not a good way of teaching #and that's red's weakness #and i wish blue would've won because he was better at teaching than red ever was #but no...red has to win and be correct no matter what it seems... #i like red but i wish the game and fandom and everything just stop treating him like a god who'll make no mistakes ever #let him have weakness and embrace it...let him be an ordinary person too... #idk just me nitpicking the neo champion event don't mind me

[kariachi]

Anyway I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again- Ben, Gwen, Argit, and Alan could’ve made for a good team.

#ben gwen and argit also works as i've said before #i don't think ben gwen and alan would've made as good a team #i don't think he would've played off them as well where we're introduced to him #he'd need to get his footing first and i think he would struggle with that working with them #meanwhile argit i think he could play off of well and especially since for this #we would most likely be working with a more rooters-arc-esque argit? #i think that sort've argit would be better for helping alan get his feet under him than the tennysons would be #no insult to them but they tend to be strong personalities and having so much more experience than alan? #and being morally grey-ish characters treated and being declared in universe to be porally upstanding? #i think he might get overwhelmed with them and find himself struggling to really build his confidence #especially since as i've said elsewhere he's one of the most moral characters we get #being able to work off somebody who's morally grey openly and actively? who also has no heroing experience? but still has morals and cares? #('even i know you never try to change a partner' 'don't give up on him we owe him that' damn near everythign from the rooters arc-) #i think he'd have an easier time there #also you can't tell me you don't want that scene where the sheriff decides alan is gonna work for him #only instead argit snatches him from him in open refusal to allow it despite hardly knowing the kid #in what the show would probably use to show how immoral he is but could be better used as an early show of the morals he does have #and how the cops lack these basic things even this guy who sold his own mother understands

[cheekblush]

not having any friends is truly heartbreaking

#i have no one to confide in or just simply hang out with #there's this concert i really wanted to attend but i have no one to go with and tickets are already sold out anyways #but the point is not having friends stops me from having fun experiences #sure you could argue that i could have fun experiences by myself but it's still not the same if you can't share it with someone #i went on a solo trip this summer and while it was liberating & enjoyable it was also incredibly lonely #i also went to a festival by myself & unfortunately it was horrible bc i got nauseous & it was scary being all alone #thankfully i got back to my hotel safely in the middle of the night but i definitely would've felt better & safer if i wasn't alone #i feel like i'm missing out on a lot of things bc i don't have friends & it's just so alienating bc i think smth is fundamentally wrong.. #.. with me bc i don't have a single genuine friend while others have whole friend groups #this also makes me miss my ex best friend even more & i'm contemplating reaching out to her again... #i feel like a beaten dog that always comes back around no matter how badly i was treated bc i just want some love 😔 💔 #like i was the one who ended things with my ex best friend bc i was tired of being treated like a doormat & constantly having my.. #.. boundaries disrespected but now i'd rather have that back then have no friends at all which is awful i know 😭 #my ex best friend also isn't a bad person but she hurt me a lot & at the end when things got really bad i think we were both not good for.. #each other.. but now i'm reminiscing about all the wonderful things we experienced together & i miss it so much :( #we had so many things in common we went to so many concerts together & had so much fun & now i'm all by myself all the time 😔 #the thing is also she was always a social butterfly & has many friends so i doubt she even misses me #i still didn't delete her from my contacts & i recently saw she finally fulfilled her dream of going to america #i feel like she is living her best life & i'm just here being miserable & lonely nothing has really improved for me #i wouldn't even be surprised if she's going to that concert i wanted to attend bc it's one of her favorite artists as well #i just feel so unlovable and alone in this world... i wish i could restart my whole life or disappear altogether tbh #sorry for the negativity if anyone reads this i'm just really upset.. #i should stop making myself even more depressed i'm supposed to be studying anyways.. #and tonight i'm attending our company's christmas party i hope i'll at least have a little fun there.. #☁️

[lordelmelloi2]

I wrote all that stuff yesterday about being lonely and coping and then proceeded to get into an argument with my father over text in which he said I didn’t deserve his or my stepmom’s love & attention bc of something I can’t even remember that happened when I was severely mentally ill like 8 years ago so I’m like. Well. Emotionally crushed. Happy birthday to Rose tomorrow I guess 

#How am I supposed to feel joy about being alive when the people who brought me into this world don't even treat me like a human being #And then my father still refuses to admit his role in the conflicts we've had #Or that his method of approaching emotional matters is abusive #I'm just like. sick to death of all of this... #sorry I swore to not like write about stuff as they happen anymore on this blog but this is so soul crushing to me to just have it like #admitted up front like this by my father. like okay awesome great Both my parents actively despise me for not being their Ideal Child #both my parents refusing to acknowledge the ways they've made me mentally ill and constructively work on it OR get me therapy #and then being upset when that has consequences. the lack of foresight with both of them is making me insane #If You Had Listened To Me. And Gotten Me In Therapy. Things Would've Been Better. Why Are You So Fucking Obstinate About That #note that my father doesn't even know I have DID because he doesn't believe we have severe mental illness at all he just thinks we're like #intrinsically choosing to be fucked up all the time for some reason #I just feel so sick to my stomach anymore like cool awesome both my parents admit they do not think I deserve love at all. Okay #Okay awesome we're in Rose is Inherently Undeserving of Love World. That's the world we live in #Cool great thanks I'll just live the Rest of my Life desperate to figure out how to be Deserving of Love. And devour myself in that Cycle #Awesome the fact that Rose was born is a Scourge on the World I guess because I am an Inherently Bad Person because I was Born. Great! #okay enough tag spamming fuck life i am going to go eat a turkey sandwich but ugh fuck. fuck everything fuck being alive

[aberooski]

Do I need to have a talk with Japan about all the Atticus erasure that's been going on for nearly 20 years, literally since season 2? Because quite frankly it's unacceptable and I'm sick of it.

#YOU DONE MAKE A CHARACTER THAT IMPORTANT AND THEN PRETEND THEY DON'T EXIST 98% OF THE TIME 😭 #Also PLEASE S T O P giving Blair ALL of the screentime and narrative roles that should've been Atty's 😭 #I'd gladly accept Alexis being the only consistently present girl if Atty got what he was fucking due #god i have to sit down and work on my rewrites again because I started thinking about this again now I'm pissed #listen nothing against Blair but also everything against Blair when we could’ve had Atty during the Zombie Apocalypse arc #and it would've been a better choice. it would’ve raised the stakes because he's closer to the group than she is. also Alexis was there so #anyway my version of the show treats Atty with some goddamn respect 🙄 #yugioh #yugioh gx #atticus rhodes #fubuki tenjoin #abby's just rambling don't mind her #the same could be said for Bakura in the anime too #at least they both get shown some fucking respect in the managas because fuck 😤 #at least Bakura gets more respect and screentime than Atty does I mean good for him I guess 😭

[staliaz]

Since when do you ship stalia?

I ship them ever since I watched the show back in 2017.

#I actually saw lots of st*dia edits and from those edits they looked very cute #but my friend hated stydia and would always talk to me about stalia and I was like I’ll watch and tell you #and then turns out every cute scene of those stydia had #context would RUIN #like there is no connection lmfaoshdjs #imagine my reaction when i saw stiles and lydia dance together and him calling her beautiful to finding out in the show lydia was looking #for JACKSON’s validation and only noticed stiles because he called her pretty like she was begging for another guy’s compliment and she #complimented him first and Stiles had to do it first to get her attention... he would've been ignored otherwise #and the dance scene ends with lydia telling stiles she needs a break and stiles says “you mean you need to go find Jackson” and embarrassed #she nods and leaves #it's truly such a horrible ship lmao #but stalia was thee couple for me. #malia always treated stiles like a priority and so did stiles her #they were so loving and pure and their character’s made each other better. #just so sweet and genuine with their fair share of angst and ups and downs #they were just the perfect couple to me #and ever since then i haven’t moved on from them and honestly i don’t see myself ever doing that #and i’m 100% okay with it too #they make my day better #and my day WORSE LMAO #but mostly better #they’re worth the pain

[wolves-in-the-world]

I've been encouraged to share archie thoughts oh no

so. so. okay. been thinking this over because I have historically been more generous with archie (this is one of those things where the show doesn't show us the awful, just leaves us to fill in the blanks, and I automatically filled them in a very specific way), and these posts floating around are changing my mind a bit, BUT.

"That building's completely locked down. They're gonna catch her. And it's all at your door. She was perfect. You ruined her. If you'd left her alone--"

the context of this as a reaction to the fact that parker's risking her life by staying? the fact that she's putting her life in the hands of these people who archie doesn't know, hasn't vetted, doesn't trust - he's not trusting her judgement here, yes, there is a large element of not seeing her as an adult, yes, not seeing her as her own person, he needs to be snapped out of that and this episode is kind of doing that - and the ''she was perfect and you ruined her'' phrasing is really fucking ugly...

but.

he trained her not to take risks. he trained her to be safer than that. and he's kinda messed up but he does care about her, is glad for her at the end and does want her to be safe and happy, and it is terrifying in that moment to realise that she isn't (because of him). that she's choosing not to be and that he has to trust these strangers now and trust that they're good enough to see parker safely through it.

he hasn't seen what we've seen. what we've seen is several seasons of proof that the leverage team are exceptional and also, frankly, lucky. (OG leverage operates under very specific rules to maintain the optimism. doesn't mean the possibility of death isn't there. parker could've died there; we just knew it wasn't going to happen.)

this is just a feeling, but I think that archie didn't often work with others, and taught her to do the same. (and he did work with the team in the end, for her. both in the last dam job and, eventually, here: he relaxed enough, respected her and her choice of team enough, to do it. and he realised that she had good judgement.)

like… it's ugly, the way he talks about her in that scene. it's possessive and weird and parker deserves so much more than to just be his legacy. but that moment where he told nate you've killed her is possibly the one that reflects best on his character, to me, and that moment & this one are all muddled together. you've killed her. you've ruined her. she was perfect. she was meant to safe. I taught her as a child and she was never meant to die like this, what have you done?

and then that's the last of Him Being Weird that we see. it's very easy for me to see that - parker standing up to him, him shocked then re-evaluating then deciding to help out, him complimenting parker's choice of crew as he says goodbye - as a turning point in their relationship. after that, I think he respects her more as her own person than he did before.

(that is my reading of the episode that allows the last dam job etc to not Absolutely Suck.)

#archie #leverage angst #parker #the thing is archie ABSOLUTELY needed a metaphorical kick in the pants #to start treating parker as her own person and not just an extension of his own career. #and he got that here! she did that! she disagreed with him openly and without fear. #and yeah archie's involvement in parker's childhood is less defensible #but what I always assumed there based on uhhh wishful thinking #was that if archie brought parker home parker would've been Gone #she'd done Families before she'd done a Normal Home before she didn't want Any of that thanks #and she was good enough already that you couldn't make her stay anywhere she didn't want to be #an archie in that situation could try anyway (his family looked painfully normal and upper-class so honestly it could've been really #difficult to do that without friction & trouble For Her though yes ethically speaking he SHOULD have done more) #OR he could just try to give her what support and what mentorship he can. teach her to be better and to be safe. #if she's doing crime she should know not to trust other criminals. #and maybe this is too generous to him but. if she's been hurt by the foster system before she should know how not to get caught. #any other reading makes the canon miserable (not just backstory but the last dam job too) and that's probably why I lean towards this one #in a similar vein I do not read parker's food thing or the dessert reward as sinister #she was probably denied treats a lot by crappy foster parents #and people who've had inconsistent access to food DO like sugary things. #I don't know we're missing SO MUCH CONTEXT there for what that relationship looked like #like I start from a place of ''feral baby parker deserves better but also wouldn't learn from archie unless it was worth it'' #she liked archie enough to learn from him and stay in contact and be fond of and proud of him #and although that relationship was inherently neglectful I don't personally get the impression it was actively abusive #parker's childhood is just this... yawning void of hurt we see NOTHING of #but I like to think this was a time in it when she had Some stability and support #not enough to fix her but enough that she held onto archie when she kept nothing else from those years except bunny and. well. crime. #one good (messed up) thing from a largely awful stretch of time. #I didn't want to be an archie apologist dammit #if anyone copies these tags in pls keep context so I don't look worse

[cloudblaze]

I'm not even upset that Brambleclaw is being awful. I love reading about his fall from grace. He was a respectable warrior against all odds, until he let his fears about never being accepted get mixed up with his pride and turn into some sort of superiority complex that Hawkfrost is purposefully feeding and manipulating. It's fascinating.

(I do wish this arc didn't end with him getting rewarded though.)

#squirrelflight is a little mean in starlight but extends the olive branch several times bc she wants to fix their friendship #brambleclaw blows up at her every time and then spends the next book going out of his way to annoy her and make her feel small #i really hate watching squirrelflight descend into anxiety and low self esteem over the course of the series too #not in a ''thats bad writing'' way. actually it's stunning how real that progression feels #more just... it hurts a lot to see her get beaten down over time like this while the guy hurting her gets glorified #brambleclaw's whole deal would've felt a lot better if he'd died or learned and grown from his mistakes #and for goodness' sake. if he and squirrelflight had stayed broken up #if you repeatedly treat someone terribly and never take them seriously then you don't deserve to date them i'm sorry #damn what if he and hawkfrost had killed each other. i don't remember much of sunset so idk what else to say about that lmao #just a thought i had suddenly #i have...... a lot of thoughts about them. i didn't think about it at all when i first read this series #bc i didn't have the interest in literary analysis that i have now. so i have a lot of thoughts to catch up on lol

[wawataka]

bawling my eyes out bc the only man in my family who actually wanted a daughter got a son

#hurghhh #not saying he doesn't love his kid he does #every single child from my fathers side (which is the only side I really know) has mostly only had daughters #but i just overheard my mother right now #apparently while my aunt was pregnant he got me a doll #the only issue was i never really liked dolls and neither did my sister #so i never played with it #knowing what i know now i probably would've appreciated the gesture more #oh my god wait #you can edit tags in browser after you've hit enter #sorry got off track #you gotta understand #in hispanic households sons are a lot more yknow. they're treated better #if he actually wanted a daughter #:( #god gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers #and it's definitely not me #cnp rants

[rendellstreet]

TTS just starts with Eugene and Cassandra on the wrong foot and I’m saddened they never got a ‘first meeting / how we started’ moment like Rapunzel and Cassandra did 😔

#Fandom chit chats #TTS rewatch got me like: #''Wow I wish you too had a better relationship'' #I wonder how different Cass would've been treated #If she and Eugene had a good relationship from the start #*Treated as in fandom terms

[crucible-memes-4-salem-teens]

characters from the crucible and modern things i'd give them as gifts (more under the cut!)

all of them - therapy

tituba - the means and the opportunity

#arthur miller #the crucible #classic lit #classic literature #classic lit memes #hey guys guess who's thinking hard about tituba again !!! #if this is unclear: the aspects of what's required for a killing to be considered 1st degree is is means motive and opportunity. mmo baybee #originally i was gonna just put 'gun' but then i felt like that was inappropriate so out came what is arguably a better meme #also. get away from here if you think she wouldn't've been justified in ending that man. i'm actually serious about that. i would've helped #idgaf! parris deserved whatever the hell he had coming for him i'm not gonna sit here and lie #not only for the way he treated tituba! for betty AND abby too! and like half of salem. fuck that guy fr. #happy thursday i hope it's been very out of touch for you #also lemme know if you want a real version of this meme

[brandybradyrandyandyndy]

🤠

#I can't believe this. #Nobody in my entire family treats me with respect. #Nobody takes me serious. #Everytime I have something to say or if I disagree with somebody I'm told not to ''overreact'' because it's ''not that deep'' or ''irony'' #and that I'm stupid for not understanding the ''irony'' in the first place #Everytime I criticize somebody's shitty behavior I get to hear that I'm ''no better than them and actually even worse'' #Either that or the just blatantly ignore me. #Literally talk over me as if I wasn't even talking at all. #Because who even cares what I have to stay‚ huh? #It's probably stupid anyway because I'm stupid too and only have shit in my head. #I'm lazy for taking a gap year for figuring out what I want to do while my amazing sister's been going to uni and doing everything right #Who cares that I was doing an internship for several months last fall/winter and have been working since december? #Who cares that I always have to do all our chores myself because nobody else is gonna do it because there ''too busy'' #I don't have anything to do anyway right? #No uni. No ''real job''. No friends. No social life. #Is this how everyone sees me? #I'm already always so fucking scared to stand up for myself when I'm treated like shit #Because my mother would definitely pull the ''You're so ungrateful! No other family would've been so patient with you!'' #Ohne Scheiß ich könnt echt kotzen #Wirklich. Die meiste Zeit ist meine Familie ja echt cool und wir verstehen uns und können Witze machen und alles. #Aber wenns dann wirklich mal um was geht‚ wo sie sich daneben benehmen‚ UND ICH DAS DANN ANMERKE #dann bin ich wieder der Vollidiot‚ der als einziger den Witz nicht verstanden hat. #der Vollidiot‚ bei dem man ''nichts sagen kann''‚ weil ich ja immer alles überdramatisier. #Ich glaub‚ ich geh nen Spaziergang machen. #Ich pack das jetzt grad gar nicht.

[catboyolli]

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#i have never EVER in my life been so angry about such a small stupid thing #but it bothers me and i cant help it because i want a lot of things and im really passionate once i can get started #but the one time i proposed something i was shut down immediately #and it was something that would've benefit us all #there are... a lot of things that can be done but yet i have seen no proposals #and i'm tired of waiting #i'm tired of standing here doing absolutely nothing #and i don't wanna propose new stuff again #what's the point when i know that i'll most likely get shut down again? #not because my ideas are stupid bc they aren't #but something about this person feels off and i wanna know if i'm the only one who sees it #but like i can't go to the people i know and say hey what do you think about x? #i'm afraid it could be treated as jealousy and i swear to god it's not. at all. #i tried to approach in quite different ways but it was pretty much pointless #anyway i better stop vagueposting #but this is something that i wouldn't talk about where text conversations can be shared or even screenshotted #so i gotta wait i guess #ps: this is NOT work related but i guess y'all can tell what it's about #vent post