#i would just like very much to not be an anxious suicidal insomniac yaknow

[featheredomen]

guess which bitch has an appointment with a psychologist after thirteen years of putting up with whatever bullshit her mind has been pulling? this bitch

#now to actually go to the first appointment lmao #i can't help but feel like this isn't gonna accomplish anything but that may just be my bastard of a brain #doing what it does best #and i'm also getting a blood test next week so i can maybe get started on some anti-depressants #doc says we'll talk about it when she gets the results #but holy shit #after thirteen years of not doing anything it feels like there's a lot happening rn #who wants to put money on me backing out and becoming a recluse again? #i honestly hope not because if this does have some possibility of helping i want to do it #i would just like very much to not be an anxious suicidal insomniac yaknow? #i'm not quite sure what that would feel like but it's gotta be better than this #this is a lot of tags but i've been up all night and we all know that results in a lot of tags #now if i can convince myself to put sheets on my bed i will call today a relative success #featheredomen speaking #i'm sorry i feel like my blog got very depressing recently and i didn't mean for it too #i'll knock it off soon i promise #go back to - i should play the evil within for the rest of the day #as a reward for actually going to my doctor's appointment #yes #good