#i wished i was dead

[thedarkacademian]

oh my god there are so many books to read and instruments to learn and languages to speak and poems to write and oranges to eat and ideologies to study and songs to sing and films to watch and people to kiss and

#i need more time #wish i was immortal #pls why #dark academia #dead poets society #chaotic academia #the secret history #dark academia aesthetic #light academia #classic academia #aesthetic #the dark academian #poetry

[endlessmidnights]

I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

#tw sucidal ideation #tw selfhate #mentally drained #sorry for being depressing #anxitey #i hate me so much #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #depressing shit #mental health #tw depressing stuff #please let me die #please let me kms #let me go #you’re losing me #you’re on your own kid #mental problems #i wanna die #i want to disappear #i wish i was dead #i’ll never recover #what is wrong with my brain #tw sui vent #tw self h4rm #mentally fucked #so fucking exhausted #tw sui talk #very unstable #im going to kms #what is wrong with me

[that-one-weird-cloud0]

Batfam: ghosts aren’t real.

Danny, having been trying to explain that he’s the dead boy to them or 3 hours: *pulls sleeve up and sticks out arm*

Danny: Find. A. Pulse.

Batfam: Danny, how is this—oh my god where is your pulse?

#Batfam: you are not dead you a a meta with ghostly powers #danny: I fucking wish! #Danny: maybe id have rights if I was a meta! #Batfam: wait— #dp x dc #dc x dp #dpxdc #danny phantom #dcxdp #danny fenton #dp x dc prompt #dp x dc crossover #batfam #dc x dp prompt

[yendts]

defeating gaea with the power of friendship

#they’re all so drawable #you’re gonna have to rip them from my cold dead hands #tell me how i whipped this up within 3 hours i thought this fish eye angle would give me nightmares but it was actually so fun and easy??? #im starting mark of athena this weekend i wish i could inhale these books #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #jason grace #leo valdez #valgrace #piper mclean #hazel levesque #frank zhang #hero’s of olympus #hoo #riodanverse #rick riordan

[ther0sesared3ad]

The urge to learn every language and play every instrument and travel the world and live through every historical time period and be a writer and a poet and an actor and

#i wish i could time travel #dark academia #academia aesthetic #chaotic academia #i love learning #light academia #the secret history #dead poets society #i hate school #fig tree analogy

[oornithologistt]

vultures amirite?

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#vultures #vulture #how hungry #but i suppose in this case it's #how dead #birds #bird #meme #funny #god. putting the meme funny tags on my post killed me a little inside #anyway i found the image on pinterest thank you pinterest i love you #i wish i could give credit to the photographer though #so also curse you pinterest #for not having reliable image sources #birdblr #turkey vulture #i think?

[ace-and-ranty]

No, but the thing is, when I was reading Harrow the Ninth, I thought it was gonna be an Orpheus situation. I thought Harrow had fucked herself up as a means to an end, that she had a plan to bring Gideon back, that the lobotomizing and everything else was her way of getting into hell to get Gideon out.

It really made me feel some type of way when it finally dawned me that she never thought that far. I mean, you'd think it makes sense that, if GOD tells you something can't be done, you accept it can't be done, BUT IT'S HARROW WE ARE TALKING ABOUT. It is INSANE to me that she just accepted she couldn't undo Gideon's death.

The trauma of living in a death cult really got to this girl. She was so awash in it she couldn't even conceive of living a life with Gideon; a more acceptable death is as far as she could go. Absolutely insane. Harrow is not Orpheus because Harrow never tried climbing back up, she couldn't look back because she never got that far, she went into hell to sit there with Gideon forever, and it just didn't occur to climb back up the stairs.

#Harrows accept God's word only when it aligns with her death wish. #'Tomb can't be opened? Okay but what if I did and that finally gets me dead :)' #'Gideon can't be revived? Yeah okay that tracks guess I'll just have to ruin myself and my entire life' #sometimes I still have feelings for this series. #TLT #The Locked Tomb

[caspervi]

Jegulus “engagement photoshoot” commission ⭐️

#jegulus #james x regulus #sunseeker #starchaser #regulus black #james potter #they’re so grossly in love I hate them #jegulus commission #imagine being happy and in love I wish they were dead oh wait they are #I’m just kidding I cry every night over them #marauders era

[chernozemm]

I need Aziraphale learning very quickly that being kind and considerate gets him nowhere in Heaven, so he tucks away his goofy, big-hearted nature and just turns into a maliciously compliant Bitch™.

This is a man who canonically has "discouraged" multiple mobster groups threatening to burn his bookshop, who has successfully scared hundreds of customers away by being just unpleasant enough and who dropped down three octaves to correct Furfur when he messed up his name.

He swallows his pride, puts on a power suit and starts executing a Corporate Nightmare upon upper management in Heaven.

#good omens #good omens 2 #aziraphale #season 3 #myart #he digs his heels and says oh youre gonna sabotage my vision? #i will read the entire terms and conditions of the ineffable plan and create so much paperwork for the second coming that you will wish #you were dead #oh you think i am a soft bitch who will flop belly up and be a puppet? let me disabuse you of this notion #it will be heartbreaking to see him lose his idealistic vision of Heaven and struggle to implement his own ideas because of the structural #issues #but i am also hoping we get to see this steel core he has mature #also sidenote-this change of looks isnt intended as a “glowup”. I love that he chooses to be happy and goofy and pudgy and radiant #its more like temporary armour

[redhotarsenic]

@nowfallc Pictures pictures for youuuu sliding these under your door <3

#when did I start this? let’s see… #THE 24th OF LAST MONTH!! ACK!!! #I’m SORRYYYYYY #I did NOT wish for it to take this long but you see. this was so so hard!! #I probably could’ve pushed this further but. I was turning into a flaming ghoul towards the end! so I quit! #you see my friend. one thing about me. is that I ❤️ quitting!! #but I’m FREE I’M FREE I’M FINALLY FREE MOTHERFUCKERS AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA #NO MORE TRIALS OR TRIBULATIONS YEAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! #also I think I am actually just a skeleton now. I’m just bones. that’s how dead I am #trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun fanart #trigun stampede #so tireeed

[nostalgicish]

say “yeah this book was so good it changed my life” and no one bats an eye

say “yeah this fan fic was so good it changed my life” and society goes wild

#SOCIETY #i am cringe but i am free #ao3 #cringe culture isn’t dead #but i wish it was #yeah this is abt klance again idc #klance #voltron

[obscureenthusiast]

-Brutus and as many as 60 co-conspirators, circa March 14th, 44 BC

#ides of march #would you believe that I created this image all the way back in january STRICTLY BECAUSE I HAVE THAT MUCH BEEF WITH CAESAR? #this was created because he insisted that the Rhine was the border between Gaul and Germany #just so he could declare that he'd 'conquered' Gaul #but there's very little evidence that the peoples living in those places even viewed the Rhine as a barrier between lands #and their continued fighting against rome along that border line could indicate that they were in fact #attempting to reunite lands occupied by foreign invaders #anyway fuck you caesar i hope your triumph sucked ass #and that everyone who ever made bald jokes about you found idk a denarius in their pocket unexpectedly #yes i'm retroactively wishing dead people good and ill i'm complicated like that

[positivelyadhd]

i cannot stress enough how much of an impact changing the way you talk to yourself can have on your mental health. swapping out self deprecating jokes and changing unhealthy sentiments like "i hate myself" and "i want to die" to kinder, more forgiving ones like "i need a break" and "i'm trying" can make such a difference to how you view yourself. the things we say to ourselves become a part of our lives and so we deserve to me kinder to ourselves in our heads.

#my brain is a little fried so i'll probably rewrite this at some point but i hope this gets across my point? #the way its so normal at the moment to say things i wish was dead is honestly concerning #it's not healthy to think like that!! #self talk #positivity #love letters to you

[electoons]

I love the college of winterhold. everyone there is casually deranged and there's like an alarming number of students and staff who threaten you immediately when they meet you. it's always one of the first questlines I do. which makes it even funnier when you get made the arch-mage of the college. I'm level 12 and got through this questline knowing exactly 3 spells. what do you mean you want me to lead the college. this school CANNOT be an accredited institution

#i ask if anyone wants this job and everyone starts whistling and checking their phones #their magic phones. theyre scrolls #mia.txt #tes #skyrim #oh wait no i forgot j'zargo wants the position and actively wishes you were dead so he can be archmage #and nirya as well. you know what maybe its a good thing im the archmage because im never there #i drop in every few weeks for 10 minutes then leave. the place pretty much runs itself right #reddit says “they have a bullying problem” yeah i know i married him #and he's the new archmage's special little princess and he can do whatever he wants forever. call the police about it #dont bring your piddly ass problems to the archmage shes busy girlbossing (committing widescale atrocities) #(update to clarify the princess is enthir. short king scored a 6'5'' orc dommy mommy with the biggest strap in tamriel congratulate him NOW #(huge W for the bisexual mer community) #(L for skyrim as a whole because they were both already insufferable enough on their own)

[ser-zoras]

i honestly don't understand how anyone thinks the stark sisters hate each other or were evil to each other or whatever. like they're literally just normal siblings being nine and eleven and therefore threats to themselves and others, but its asoiaf so the stakes are unnecessarily high

#i was reading the scene where arya hits sansa with an orange today after sansa tells arya she wishes she was dead #and i was like i have had this exact conversation with my sister except it was a hairbrush instead of an orange #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #valyrianscrolls #arya stark #sansa stark #stark sisters #house stark #my posts

[recycledraccoon]

Burrows End is SO SO good and Aabria is such a master of story telling. This season, despite being genuine DnD vs other systems Aabria has used, hasn't actually seen all that much full blown combat. Like, of course they've fought things throughout, but it's been so much more information hunting and puzzling together all the lore. But this obviously means those scenes we do have such full blown COMBAT with sets so much more important, which was obvious in the reactor....but the bear....so obviously it's been focused on in reference to Tula's reveal, or as a show of how fucked up biology wise this world they live in is and how dangerous it is in the forest.

But it's also Aabria laying such incredibly subtle groundwork. It's showing us "this is possible in this world. This happens. They can get inside of you, burrow into you, and you will be their walking warren. Parasite and host intertwined."

And then we move on...we focus on the secrets of the first stoats and learning of all these human things, and the chipmunks and bear are just fun tidbits to throwback to about how scary and fucked up things are, but no longer relevant.

Last week we heard those tapes, and I thought "that voice change there...the 'they're so sneaky'...was that a first stoat, who we only heard as squeaks, instead speaking through Dr. Wenabocker as he died?"

And I forgot about the bear too.

But the SECOND it was revealed that Wenabocker left, that his body was gone and that Phoebe left too? It all clicked.

The Bear wasn't just a fun, really cool fucked up battle set for an episode, it was incredibly important foreshadowing. The foundation, the trap, the big bad all at once hidden behind a cool, fucked up bear in the second goddamn episode of the season.

#hitting us again and again with “things will die and things will bring you back to life and things will be inside of you keeping you alive” #wenabocker isnt dead #but if any part of him is cognizant enough to know what's happening i bet he wishes he was #wenabocker is the bear and i bet the only way to kill phoebe is to stop his heart and kill him just like they did in ep. 2 #aabria my beloved #ive been strolling in this vivid story-forest you made us and walked right into your bear trap #dimension 20 #d20 spoilers #dimension 20 spoilers #burrows end #d20 burrow's end #burrows end spoilers #d20 burrow's end spoilers #burrow's end #burrow's end spoilers