#i will work to shut out the people that dont care for me and dont want my care and advice

[blueskittlesart]

your blog has made me so much more competent with zelda lore

my greatest accomplishments with this blog have been making people play the games and making people Understand the games. i want more crazy people in the world so i dont look as insane

#dr doofenshmirtz ass plot. if i make more people crazy i will look less crazy by comparison. #fr tho GOOD. im happy to be of service #i think the reason a lot of the fandom is Like That is because the lore is so inaccessible that most fans dont care to learn or analyze it #which is totally fair! and thats partially why as someone who ENJOYS learning and analyzing it i like to talk about it!! #because lore SHOULDNT be hard to access and understand and fans SHOULD understand the themes and messages of the media they consume! #if i can explain it to people maybe it'll seem a little less daunting or maybe i just get to talk about it. either way it works out for me #because i fucking love talking and shutting the fuck up is my mortal enemy #asks #anyway. im in the middle of a fucking totk story quest rn. time to figure this shit out

[orcelito]

Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does

Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.

#speculation nation #i currently dont have a job lined up but im going to start applying Today #because i cant take this anymore. i cant fucking take this anymore. #i feel like im about to shatter from the strain of hos chokehold #8 years total under his thumb and for What? he doesnt appreciate me. he doesnt value me. #he's an asshole this place sucks and it makes me so sad because i really do care about the people here #but i cant. i cant fucking do it anymore. #im really glad im alone on shift rn bc ha ha ha. ill put up the mask for customers but i am #genuinely shaking rn. im so upset. #this being after he complained Again about people sitting on the job during the meeting last night like #shut UPPPP I DONT CAAAARE #YOU TRY WORKING WITH CHRONIC PAIN AND FATIGUE AND A JOB THAT DOESNT GIVE GENUINE BREAKS #'oh if you need to take a break then do it but just dont sit down on the job“ #WHEN DO YOU THINK I COULD TAKE MY BREAK? IM WORKING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!+ #and when im.not working alone im working with trainees so i still cant leave the store unattended #im sick of him.im so sick of him and im THIIIIIIIIIS close to just breaking down here and now #i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i HATE HIM #negative/ #sorry for the vent i just feel like.im about to blow up and everyone's busy so ic cant. vent properly #im not even done opening bc im too busy freaking out and pacing and being angry #and hes gonna watch me sitting here thru the cameras and be like Ho Hum Look at you immediately doing what i said not to #like fucking STOP!!!! WATCHING US!!!!!!! YOU FUCKING CREEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #IM SO SICK OF HIM WATCHING US THROUGH THE CAMERAS. HE HAS NO TRUST IN ME DOING MY JOB #0 value for me as a person or employee 0 value for my to this day dedication to this company #i want to send my heel through those front windows. watch them shatter. wreck the whole place #because fuck this place and fuck him #i wontttt bc i dont wanna go to jail lol but the temptation is there. i fucking hate his guts. #im going to put in my 2 weeks by the end of this week. im going to start applying to places Today. just fucking watch me.

[blackbatcass]

oh my god just saw a truly horrible post. save me competent corner of the dc fandom

#shooting myself btw. #previously on: people who are legitimately proud of not having read comics and think criticizing fanon for being wildly out of character #is like. being negative or whatever #‘i don’t care that it’s out of character I can do whatever i like the best ’ #YOU DONT CARE THAT ITS OUT OF CHARACTER?? HUH?????? #SO YOU AGREE. THATS NOT THE SAME CHARACTER. #wtf are you all onnnnnn #shut the FUCK up. YOU DONT KNOW THOSE GUYS! #THOSE ARE NOT THE REAL GUYS! #YOU DONT KNOW THEM LIKE I KNOW THEM!! RAHHHHH #I’ve been living in our blissful little comic loving corner for so long that i lost tolerance for bad takes #‘i don’t judge people who do read the source material BUT’ <- an argument i just saw with my own two eyes #PLEASE. #‘there’s no wrong way to be a fan this is just the way that works for me’ #i mean sure but. why #you. you do know you are not an authority in those characters if you have never read the source material right #you do know you arent somehow better than people who actually read the comics right. #you do know the characters are extremely different basically unrecognizable and way more compelling in canon. right #ASJKENWKDKWKFJSLDJ. anyway

[fembutchboygirl]

I just learned something so incredibly fucked up

#i am trembling #i cannot let this enable my issues with paranoia further! haha! oh my fucking god #im not joking btw im literally physically trembling. how did this happen oh god oh GOD nononono dont let it get to you #i just need to know. was someone like. double dealing? was someone telling him about it #i wouldnt give a shit if they were stalking me online occasionally (well id care a little bit but honestly itd just be kinda fucked) #but if someone was telling him about me and my personal stuff? #stop. i dont want to think about it. i dont want to think it happened. i have to get this out of my head #but still. absolutely fucking deranged. #ESPECIALLY bc apparently he's been saying i “made him think he was abusive'' and that doing that was shitty of me bc he actually #just has bpd?????? #sol if you're reading this listen closely: one of my best friends has bpd. diagnosed and everything. so shut the fuck up #much like you've been saying i blamed my adhd for being neglectful (read: not meeting your sky-high standards for Truly Loving You 24/7) #you cannot blame your bpd for what a shit person you've been #repeatedly asking you to work on a flaw that's been hurting me is not telling you you're abusive you fucking prick #get a life‚ learn to care about other people away from what they can do for YOU‚ #and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. #p.s. imagine being mad that people who were friends with both you and your partner didnt suddenly cut the other one off after you broke up #like actually angry at these people. what the actual fuck. you're like a divorced parent upset that their child still talks to their ex-wife #my posts

[lavender---sunshine]

in all seriousness i 90% sure im going to quit my job tomorrow and for a while i will have just enough money to live on and will have to spruce up my resume and job hunt and stress but MY GOD i need to do something else because this is making me suicidal

#like actively suicidal. wanting to die in a way i have not since highschool. literally woke up and thought 'i dont want to be here anymore' #and then couldnt make myself get out of bed until like 10 minutes before i had to leave the house for job 2 #i know its unprofessional but i pretty much...quiet quit i guess. i worked from home for like a month straight without telling my boss #and she called yesterday wondering about it and the whole time the only thing i could think of was 'you didnt even know for a MONTH #thats how little people communicate around here #the office culture is toxic. the people are self absorbed and shut me out. ive gone through like 6 big life events and no one knows because #no one in that office cares enough to ask. and even if i volunteer the most i get is a 'wow that wild look at this tiktok yeah anyway' #im so burnt out. i have 1 day of rest and i dont get to do that at all. so no like im not going to get up get dressed sit in traffic park #on the street because a year later they still havent given me a clicker for the parking lot and sit in the back of a warehouse for hours #talking to no one. ive literally gone days without talking to anyone there. its so lonely. #theres only so many audiobooks and podcasts and albums you can listen to before you think 'i would be ok getting hit by a truck tomorrow' #im going to hate these next few months but i just need time #and the lord works in mysterious ways because my other boss just started talking about hiring for mon/tues which are the days i work bad jo #so i would at least get those hours until i find something else stable. im going to try very hard not to be mean about it but im like... #hey girl this place sucks ass and you know it. im not negotiating #but thanks for that raise 9 months late #im giving you three weeks for find a replacement and i dont care if you fire me in that time #il work from home or panera or starbucks or library but im not stepping in that office again unless its for my minifridge and heater

[blenderfullasarcasm]

started catching up on some batman comics and oops I have a new favorite character

#it's ghostmaker btw #minhkhoa khan #the plot of ghost stories (batman 102-108ish) is kind of hilarious ngl #khoa: ugh youre fighting crime wrong #batman: just bc im going for the bosses and not the minibosses - #khoa: guess i have no choice but to do it for you #batman: by stabbing me??? and wrecking my long term plans??? #khoa: ugh dont complain ill stitch you up later #khoa: anyway at least i get results #batman: sure you get immediate results but you lose the big bosses #khoa: uggggggh shut upppp my way works better and you know it your emotions are just getting in the way again #batman: i refuse to stop caring about people #khoa: you sure i cant change your mind? #batman: people deserve second chances. they can change. and i dont want to keep fighting you like this #khoa: fine we'll go back to playing keep away - you stay out of my cities and ill stay out of yours #batman: okay but what if we didnt #khoa: what #batman: stay. help me help gotham #khoa: oh well if you insist #batman: stop killing people though #khoa: yeah yeah dont kill people where you can see it #batman: thats not what i said #khoa: also hey im richer than you now #batman: guess that means youre paying for dinner later #khoa: does that make me your sugar daddy #batman: ...hrm #it's so funny #103 ends with khoa stabbing batman and knocking him out and then 104 begins with him tenderly sewing up batman's wounds #105 ends with a shirtless batman asking khoa to stay and khoa's made himself at home in the batcave by 106 #like thats a speedrun of some sort but idk what

[kulemii]

i never really realized until recently that i could write smut for myself in the 1st pov and not go to jail. i am a free woman

#for now #i havent quite realized the potential of my true power yet #but really writing explicitly FOR MYSELF has been great exercise #the more i do it the more it feels like im warming myself up to care to write for others again #i know that sounded harsh but that's not how i meant it #its just been a long time since ive written for the sake of no one but myself seeing it #like yeah its going online still but it's like... a quiet place where i dont expect anyone to find it #and if they do find it oh well and they might be too put off by it being 1st pov that they dont even read it #so i still win #i feel really free with this somehow idk how to explain it #i've also been talking to other people about their writing a lot lately and that's been good exercise too i think #with me being out of work ive also had time to schedule each day to work on my bigger projects as well and i know that helps too #writers block is coming and going but 1st pov exercises have certainly done alot for my motivation #hell I've talked alot here i should shut up now

[aastarions]

trying to keep up with everything in life is exhausting and i'm slightly afraid of if or when i'll crash and burn

#i'm currently working full time #going to the gym 3-4 times a week #keeping track of what i eat #trying not to miss my dailies on genshin every day minimum #play other games #or watch a show or youtube videos #take my meds #take care of MYSELF #socialize with people #like #idk i suddenly got hit with a wave of anxiety and overwhelmingness when i lay it all out in front of me #c shut up #it sounds silly but like #i feel very stretched thin i think this weekend i dont wanna do anything #thats it too cause every weekend i spent 90% of it with my fiance which dont get me wrong i love seeing him #but i think i need a weekend to myself to kinda #be alone #ykw maybe its the introvert in me losing my mind

[thotinshield]

irl i wonder if im unapproachable to people or smth... or if i just cannot read social cues

#danny shut your mouth #idk i have like coworker friendships but not with them outside of work #and then i hear my coworkers talk abt hanging out outside of work #and idk i wonder like #what is it about me that negates that on my end #most of the time i dont care but if think abt it too long i get sad #ive never really.. been the person people want.to be friends with and invite to hang out #even in high school i think i was a 2nd choice #maybe i just dont know how to socialize right

[depresseddepot]

oughhhghh where is that "don't trust anything you think abt your life past 9pm" post when you need it

#its ''feel like an alien'' hours once again #recently ive been trying to unmask a little bit but even that tiny bit is like. breaking the dam of how weird i am #ive barely scratched the surface and im already starting to get those Looks that i haven't gotten since middle school #i wouldn't mind masking at work if i could just figure out how the hell to correctly bounce back questions #like the 10 year old in me gets so desperate to talk about herself in a genuine fashion that i can't stop myself #unless i am 100% masking. like even a little bit less and i overshare like an idiot #i dont really care to learn body language yet but i need to know how to refuse to answer personal questions #without making it weird #like allistics seem to just Know how to carefully roll with those questions without actually saying anything #''you should be genuine bc you'll feel better'' there is very little that makes me feel worse than oversharing at work #i work with conservatives baby. a little oversharing here and there leads to them finding shit out abt me that they WILL use against me #and i do not trust myself enough to not actually tell them in the moment because i can't fucking lie to save my life #when someone asks me a genuine question i just can't do anything other than offer a genuine answer #and i want to stop ! i dont feel comfortable sharing these things about myself so why wont i shut my fucking mouth!!!!! #i need to learn to let people simmer in silence. i am always too focused w filling the silence to prevent people seeing how weird i am #its always another little fucking quip with me. i can never just shut my fucking mouth #sorry #vent

[majorasnightmare]

obligatory vent text

fun fact there is a limit on the number of tags you can add to a post.

its 30

#i live in hell! i live in hell! i live in hell! #how do i tell the people i know that the reason i take so long about anything #to read the fic theyve written look at the art theyve made #is because i exist in a state of being constantly abused while my disabillities worsen #and it is in fact constant! there is no escape! i cant even sleep without the threat of abuse! #how do i make anyone understand that i have not left the house in years plural. like? i dont leave i am locked in with an abuser #the windows are shut the doors are closed i do not Get Out #no one will employ me! so i dont leave the house for work #i cant maintain an education! so i dont go out for school #no one who cares about me and my partner lives nearby! so i dont visit friends or leave for meals or j #hang out at all #it keeps escalating! because i cant leave she knows she can get away with it so she keeps escalating #all my online friends get used like piggy banks because she dangles necessities over our broke heads and says pay me or die #pay me or have no cell service. pay me or have no internet. pay me or dont eat. pay me or get kicked out #it wasnt even this bad at my parents. i could have 8 hours of school every day where i didnt have to deal with them #i dont even have that anymore #i dont have the energy for anything anymore. i am in constant misery #it doesnt ever stop! it only gets less bad! but it doesnt ever stop! #how do i make anyone understand ive been in a locked room for years and im not exaggerating #how do i make you get it! think of the things you do to leave your house! i dont go out to get snacks or drinks! #i dont go out to get groceries! i dont go out to say hi to people i know! there is no one i know here! #think about all the times you close your front door behind you and take them all away and thats been my life #everytime i bring it up i feel like no one gets the profound soul crushing isolation i live in #its just me and my partner. in hell. nonstop #all my doors are closed and theres no escape and i dont know whats going on in anyones lives anymore #i do not eat i do not sleep i can barely walk and i spend every day fluctuating between begging for death and being terrified of it #i dont. hear anyone else talk. i hear 2 voices. every day. i cant remember how to interact with people #im not the person any of you used to know im worse im worse im so much worse #how can you exist when you cant fully unpack your box of clothes in case you get thrown out next week. how do you have hobbies #how do you talk about a traumatic event last year when yesterday someone screamed at your partner so loud it knocked the bathroom door open

[definitelyuseless]

now ive got that last post out of my sysytem im deleting it thatss too fucking embarrassing even where no one sees it

#like no way am i yelling personal information at the beach in the middle of the night #theres no way anyone will hear me yeah but what if they do #i dont care how satisfying it is shut the fuck up #everyone one on tumblr talks about social anxiety yeah well i actually dont have a tumblr didnt you notice #in my media studies unit this week it was actually abaout online personas it was really interesting #like it actually acknowledged how multiplicitious and fluid and contradictory identity naturally is #and also how identity is formed by expression instead of expression being letting out internal identity #although it might be a bit of both to some extent #but people actually dont acknowledge how much identity is written as you perform it and thats completely natural and how it always works #if you dont do anything or talk to anyone you dont have an identity i know that #and how multiple facets of identity and intentionally shaping yourself to fit the situation arent fake why do people still think they are #anyway it was actually about ideentity on social media and how online personalities can be so different #also there was stuff about how people present themselves online for a specific imagined audience even if theyre posting for themself #although i guess i dont really count in that cause literally no one sees this shit at all #but thats not the point the point was that its interesting and surprising that more people dont talk about it

[maggot-baggage]

Hm idk if im being a bitch about the thing im mad about but i can thelp it

#i hate the way gossip circulates with the people im friends with and i especially hate how my business is just out there to those im not #close with bc my friend keeps talkign about it #i didnt wanna come into work thinking about my car being fucked up but my manager immediately asked about it #bc no one can keep their damn mouth shut #like jfc yall dont care about whats happenin with me until its comin from someone else like damn!!! #mag.txt

[devildairymilkfairy]

.

#god i wish i could talk to someone abt how i feel. but the only people i can talk to are the ones who are making me feel this way #my sister really wants me to move out and find myself but then id just be alone in this state. i dont have amy other family or friends here #and i would never want to move back to california. too many unhappy feelings and being around my mom would probably just make me feel worse #i wish i could talk to my roommates about how i feel but i think one will get mad at me and the other will shut down again #i want to feel happy and normal so bad but i just feel so sad and alone all the time #whats wrong with my brain. i wish i could just take something and make this all go away #im so tired of crying. at least my roommates cant hear me rn #if only i ciuld just disappear. i guess im not doing well if being at work makes me feel more happy and wanted than i am at home #i would actually love to work over 40 hours rn. being there at least gets my mind off things. #when im there im not sitting around all the time crying or being mute. #ash rambles #i wish i knew what to do. where to go so i can feel happy again #i should feel happy. im not struggling with money. i have friends who mostly care about me. my job isnt terrible #yet it doesnt feel good. i dont feel happy. instead i just think about all the ways im not good enough. i dont deserve any of this #i wish i could disappear #get consumed in the deep ocean or something #that would be nice.

[eggpunkhouses]

I Sold My Soul to be a Good Artist When I was 13 and This is What I Have to Show For It

#lune art #vent art #gonna vent here sorry i dont have a therapist #this year i wanted to start making as much art as i possibly could and. it could be just the season but i am falling into a deep depression #and i only kinda just realized that cause as ive immersived myself in my writing & art i have locked myself in my room for several weeks #its kind of tradition at this point honestly #but consciously or unconsciously i make art to impress others since for me its a form of communication and how i express myself #and when i write/draw and share it with people its incredibly intimidating because it has to be flawless and represent my talent #but that takes quite a bit out of me because i do have to dedicate my every waking thought to it #and thus i shut myself inside my room to spend all of my energy on my passion projects #but on the brighter end embracing surrealism has actively helped me work through a lot of shit #connecting to my childhood and freeing my art from being perfect as i pay attention to the concept of something rather than a clear image. #anyway ive started a sketchbook where i draw without caring what anything looks like #it has helped but yeah i need to talk to a therapist and not just psychoanalyze myself lol #sketchbook

[timeisacephalopod]

The other day I was reading the notes of this post (Bad Idea) and there was this piss guzzler in the comments simping for landlords SO HARD he literally spent like 3 weeks arguing in them notes about how he fully believed tenants should pay for bed bug removal.

Now, as someone who just got gassed for (not bed) bugs that were not my fault, thats not how bugs work you don't need to be dirty and disgusting for them to show up and I fuckin promise you I did whatever the fuck I could to try and remove them (who the fuck wants to live like that?) I was baffled lmao.

Like you're telling me you think *I* should pay for my own bug removal because this guy did not know infestations just happen, and even if for some reason some Weirdo purposefully infested themselves with bugs, something zero people would do, what the fuck do you mean they have to pay to debug a house they don't own??!?! Like LMFAO excuse you??

Isn't the whole reason why people excuse landlords sucking up 80% of everyone's income is because they're supposed to pay for their own property breaking or bugging or whatever the fuck?? Like hello, I'm not gassing bugs in a house I DONT OWN lmfao how the hell is it MY responsibility to upkeep some other assholes property?? Landlord defenders are wild and also very, very not smart and this is coming from a Certified Dummy™️ myself. Also if landlords aren't responsible for any of this shit on properties that they OWN then what the fuck is their purpose? Way to say you do actually think their job is exclusively to hold basic human rights hostage for money they don't use to keep their basic human rights held hostage up to proper living standards, that's fucked up but ok lmao.

#winters ramblings #anyway LMFAO if you think THE OWNER OF THE PROPERTY is not responsible for the property THEY OWN #i dont care who caused the damage id you had a business someone drove into-this happened to the lcbo in my small town #then unless someone got busted and maybe EVEN IF they got busted lcbo is paying for the damage lmfao #it's ONLY with landlords and really any other situation in which we can drop any and all responsibility from a power structure to #an individual we do it in a fucking heartbeat. like i pay my landlord nearly a GRAND a month and i was INFESTED #if i were a commercial kitchen id be shut down and that was my HOUSE it was STRESSFUL likw FUCK anyone but the guy #who owns the property should be paying thats what the FUCK i pay HIM for dipshit wtf is a landlords JOB except to allegedly take care #of their properties??!? like are you fuckin kidding me?? literally why are conservatives the fucking dumbest people #why the fuck would someone who DOESNT OWN A PROPERTY take responsibility for it and no living in it doesnt make you #more responsible for it. i spend a LOT of bours at work- basically part time living but i aint expectex to fork out when shit breaks there #like wtf lmao i dont care how nasty the tenant was you HELD HOUSING HOSTAGE FOR MONEY you deserve the damage you get #maybe try not to hold basic human rights hostage for your own wealth and i might feel something besides disgust for you