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#i will never forgive steve for this
buckysbarnes · 7 months
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JOE KEERY as STEVE HARRINGTON “the piggyback” 4.09 • stranger things
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lihhelsing · 8 months
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Hate That I Loved You
Now complete on AO3!
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 ↓ | Part 5 | Part 6
Despite Eddie's wishes, everything just keeps on moving.
In a way, it's a little comforting to know that no matter how badly Eddie fucks up, life keeps going. It kept going when Lou almost broke him, it kept going every time he dumped someone or got dumped. It kept going when his mom passed away in the middle of the European leg of their tour. 
It kept moving when he and Steve stopped walking in the same direction. 
Eddie sits in his dressing room, waiting for his make-up to be finished. He barely slept during the night, a mix of anxiousness and fear of whatever was to come.
Eddie wants to talk to Steve and clear the air and explain that what he had seen the night before wasn't what he thought it was. There's nothing between him and Lou. Not anymore. 
It's not like he thinks Steve still wants something with him. He's not delusional or anything, knows Steve is doing this only as a favor to him and nothing more. But he's done hurting Steve, needs to put an end to all this once and for all. 
There was no time in between the band finishing up their part of the music video at around 3am and the super early call time they all had for the last day of shooting. When he got there, Eddie got dragged to wardrobe and make-up and had no time to even look for Steve.
He hoped Steve hadn't bailed because of whatever it was that he thought he saw last night, but if he had, they would most likely know by now. Probably. 
But to be completely honest, Eddie doesn't even realize he's holding his breath in anticipation until the moment he lay eyes on Steve again. 
Eddie gets into the studio all ready for the shooting. His clothes are a perfect match to what he used to wear back then, right before Corroded Coffin made it big. A sleeveless CC shirt with ripped skinny jeans. Always black. Chains and rings and a leather jacket on top of everything. 
It feels even weirder once he gets a good look at it. The studio had been completely modified and now he can see a perfect representation of his uncle’s old trailer. The place where he made most of the music for their first album. 
The place where he fell in love with Steve.
But now that Eddie is really looking at it, he can see only half of the trailer. The other half is actually the recording studio where they had made their first album. 
Half and half, torn in the middle, just like Eddie had been back then. Unable to choose between life with Steve and the band. 
Whenever Eddie was with Steve, his brain was thinking music and lyrics and chords. He itched to put his hands on a guitar, to take notes, to write. 
Then, when he was with the band, he kept thinking about Steve, missing him, missing his touch and his kiss and-
“Hey,” Steve’s voice sounds unsure, like he had tried getting Eddie’s attention more than once. 
“Hi. Sorry, it’s… Weird being back here,” Eddie says and Steve gives him a soft smile which… Don't seem like a bad thing.
“Yeah. Brings back a lot of memories,” Steve agrees and motions forward as if he’s going to touch Eddie’s arm. 
But then the director is calling their names and asking if they are ready and Steve drops his hand, turning away from him. 
“Can we, uh, talk? After? I really wanted to explain what you saw yesterday.” 
Steve shakes his head. “You don’t owe me an explanation, Eddie.” 
“No, I know. But I want to. If you… Please?” 
Steve looks over at him and there’s this unreadable thing about his expression that tugs at Eddie’s heart. He needs him to say yes. Needs him to listen to him. He needs to still have a chance. 
“Yeah, ok,” Steve says finally and Eddie can barely react before they are being directed to their places for the shoot. 
They have both the places that tore Eddie apart, and they are separated by a thick glass. Steve is standing on one side, a symbol of Eddie’s past life, the one he left behind when he started to pursue a life in music. 
The other is all his dreams coming true. Everything that he ever wanted becoming real. Back then, Eddie thought Steve didn’t fit in it. Steve didn’t feel he fit in. He never made Eddie choose, but soon it became clear Eddie wouldn’t be able to balance the two things at the same time for long.
He’d be away too much. And Steve needed him near. Wanted him there and Eddie wasn’t there. They fought, screamed at each other out of frustration and heartbreak. 
Eddie wanted to stay and he knew he needed to leave, but he only found courage to do it when Steve told him he didn’t see a future for them, that Eddie should put his chips on something more certain. 
He realized that day he would never be enough for Steve. He was splitting himself in half for him, trying to make everyone happy, and even then he was failing. Couldn't get things right.
The day he walked away, Eddie felt like his heart was going to give in. And he feels that way again as he looks into Steve’s eyes and sings how he hates that he loved him. 
There's this glass in between them and Eddie can't get through. No matter how loud he sings, no matter how much he tries, he can't have it all. He starts to wonder how much different his life would be if he had bet on his relationship with Steve. 
Wonders if he would've been happy with any other job. Maybe he would have become a music teacher somewhere. Have a white picket fence house with three cats and Steve. Maybe that would've been enough for him. 
Or maybe he'd resent Steve, like he always said he would. Every time Eddie missed something related to the band because Steve, he said that. Like Eddie couldn't make his own decisions. 
He knocks on the glass as Steve walks around the trailer with his back to Eddie. He wants to reach him, but he can't, and suddenly there's this suffocating need to tell him everything. To tell Steve how he feels. 
It's not past tense. His feelings for Steve never went anywhere, always there, always alive. He needs him to know. Even if Steve doesn't feel the same anymore, he's sure Steve has moved on from their thing a long time ago. He just needs him to know. 
Maybe back then it wasn't time for him and Steve, but maybe now it can be.
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melonalemonade · 11 months
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he’s gonna be just fine 🙂
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soniclion92 · 6 months
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One part from season 2 that KILLS me every time is when they're all together and discussing the mindflayer and when Dustin says "It believes it's the master race" Steve goes "Oh, like the Germans." and then it cuts to Jancy looking like THIS
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Like ahfdjgdhs they look like disappointed parents I'M--
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He was 100% plotting Steven's demise right there in real time, he was so done 😭'
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artiststarme · 11 months
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Bye Bi Steve Part 2
The long awaited second part to the "Bye Bi Steve" fic. I hope you enjoy it and please leave your thoughts in the comments!
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Steve was gutted. He never even considered a world where Robin and Eddie didn’t immediately accept them. He imagined that Robin would pat his shoulder and launch into a gross display of critiquing his ‘type’, just as he’d done with hers. Eddie would say something flirty to make him blush, call him Big Boy or something equally lewd to get Steve to laugh before giving him a hug and whispering his acceptance in his ear. But that’s all they were; delusional imaginations. 
Of course they wouldn’t accept him, why would they? Maybe they were right. Perhaps Steve was just confused. Maybe he only liked Eddie at that moment because he looked like a girl with his hair up in a bun, although Steve had a feeling that Eddie would take offense to that too. But any time he tried to rationalize it, force the idea of being straight, he got a nauseous feeling in his chest. He finally felt comfortable with who he was and now he had to change it? It didn’t feel right. 
Understandably, Steve started pulling away from the Party after that disaster of a coming out. He felt a little bad for pulling away from the kids without explanation but how would they accept him when his best friends didn’t? It was better just to create some distance before they could trample on the shards of his heart even further.
For the next two weeks, he avoided all contact with the Party. He switched his scheduled shifts with Keith so he didn’t have to work with Robin. He left his phone off the hook so the kids couldn’t reach him. He even told Hopper that his parents were in town so he had an excuse to skip the family dinners at the Hopper-Byers’. It’s not like they’d want him around their family if they knew Steve’s sexuality anyway.
The only person Steve can’t shake is Nancy. She’d been a crutch for him the entire time; offering her shoulder up when the tears got too much, supplying him with ice creams a plenty from multiple grocery store runs, and even holding his hair back when he puked up all the alcohol he chugged in an effort to forget the betrayal. Steve didn’t know what he would’ve done without her. 
She too was avoiding the Party but whenever Steve asked her why, she would just give him a blasé, “if I see them, I’m going to shoot them. It’s better for me to be here.” And well, Steve wasn’t going to argue with her on that. It felt nice having a friend he could count on when everyone else had abandoned him. He just hoped he didn’t mess it up like he did everything else. 
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Nancy was going to murder Eddie and Robin. They were off gallivanting around town together like nothing was wrong, like they hadn’t imploded Steve’s entire worldview in one fell swoop. Anytime she saw them, she felt her trigger finger twitch. She was livid, after everything she’d been through in her life, she’d never been so angry. But she was hurt too. Just like Steve, Nancy thought that Robin and Eddie would be the ones to understand them the best. They knew what it was like to be queer in a small hick town in the middle of nowhere. She thought that they would be compassionate and helpful. But clearly she was wrong. 
As soon as she got the call from Steve and heard his tears distorted over the phone line, all of her attraction to Robin shriveled up and died. She could never be attracted to anyone that made her goofy teddy bear of an ex-boyfriend, her friend that had always tried to be there for her, cry. It left a part of her feeling empty though too. She’d liked Robin since she saw her running weirdly from the orderlies at the asylum. To have that affection die so suddenly and over such a pivotal detail left Nancy feeling unbalanced.
However, as angry as she was, Steve was still hurt. He was closer to both of them than she would ever be, ever wanted to be now. She had her family, she had the newspaper club, and plans for college. What did Steve have? He depended on Eddie and Robin to be there for him and they weren’t. Even still though, his hurt superseded any anger. He was still hopeful that his friends would come around, desperate for their acceptance and approval. 
So, while Nancy was still quietly plotting their gruesome and painful murders, she was also looking into ways of forcing them to accept Steve. She was willing to do anything to get the real Steve back, the one that smiled all the time and bitched about the kids. The more she thought about it, the more determined she became. Operation Get Steve Happy Again was a go. 
Nancy took out all the stops. She made color-coded flashcards on sexualities and gender identity. She drove all the way to Indy to buy queer zines from an LGBT+ bookstore in the city. She was going to make them understand even if it was the last thing she did. Eddie and Robin weren’t going to know what hit them.
When all of her preparations were complete, Nancy tucked her gun into her purse and made her way to the trailer park once again. Eddie’s van was parked crookedly in its place in front of the window and Wayne’s worn down truck was tucked neatly beside it. It seemed Wayne would get a front row seat to the show too then. Nancy didn’t even knock before barging inside which took both Eddie and Wayne in surprise. 
“What the-” Eddie said, jumping up from his seat at the table and spilling his cereal milk. 
“I have my gun and I will use it so listen. Your whole shtick is not conforming to what society dictates you have to conform to. I’ve always admired how you stayed true to yourself despite what everyone in town thought of you. But this is the most conformist you’ve ever been. If you don’t fix this with Steve and see where he’s coming from, I will make your life a living hell. So fix this and do it quickly,” Nancy threatened. Then she turned to Wayne who looked as lost as she’d ever seen him. 
“I’m sorry to barge in, Mr. Munson. Make sure to give Eddie a talk about accepting others, alright? He has a lot of quirks that we’ve learned to accept, Steve should get the same treatment. Have a nice afternoon.”
She left before either man could utter another word and made her way to Family Video. Steve had today off so she was reasonably sure that Robin would be manning the store on her own. When she got there, she pulled the station wagon right in front of the door and stalked inside. 
“Welcome to Family Video, how can I help you? Oh, hey Nance. What’s up?” Robin asked her in greeting.
Nancy shook her head at her. “I don’t understand. Steve’s your best friend and you ridiculed him. I know he accepted you when you came out to him. I know that you would talk about all of your lesbian interests with him and he wouldn’t bat an eye. Then he makes one comment about finding a guy attractive and you shut him down? Just walk me through it.”
Robin looked chastened. Her eyes were wide, her fingers fluttered, and her feet shuffled. “I don’t know why I did that, honestly! I just, I thought Steve was making fun of me and Eddie and I got so angry. I don’t care who Steve likes, I just want him to be happy. I don’t understand liking both or being bisexual. At the moment, I just saw it as losing the thing that Steve and I had in common and I didn’t go about it in the best way. And I don’t even know how to apologize because I know I monumentally screwed up. If I were Steve, I wouldn’t forgive me but I don’t know what I would do if he didn’t,” she rambled.
The crack in Nancy’s chest healed a bit at her words. She’ll never get her attraction to Robin back after all the damage that’s been done. However, she could be her friend. She wasn’t really biphobic, and Eddie probably wasn’t either, they just needed some more explanation to understand what bisexuality was and how to accept it. 
“Steve will forgive you, he hasn’t been able to get over this the entire time. He’s still just waiting for you guys to get your heads out of your asses and go apologize to him. And he’s still your best friend, him liking guys too doesn’t change that,” Nancy told her. She pulled some zines out of her purse and handed them to her. “Here, read those. They’ll tell you exactly what bisexuality is and what not to say when someone comes out to you.”
Robin took the papers with a whispered thanks and Nancy started making her way out of the store. At the last second, she turned around and called out to Robin who was already looking at her. 
“And Robin? Go talk to him sooner rather than later. He really misses you guys.”
Then she made her way home to cry about her own heartbreak. 
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Steve was second-guessing himself again and wallowing on the couch for yet another afternoon when his doorbell rang. Considering the lies that he’d told everyone else to keep them away, it had to be Nancy. The only other options were Eddie or Robin and he knew it wouldn’t be them. He hadn’t rescinded his coming out yet so they had no reason to be coming over. 
Yet when he opened the door, he came face to face with a guilty looking Eddie. Steve almost closed the door in his face but Eddie jammed his boot in the way with enough force that the door wiggled. “Steve, please let me apologize to you. Just give me a few minutes and if you want me to leave, I will.”
Steve debated it for a moment before sighing and gesturing him inside. “I haven’t changed my mind so I don’t really know what you came here to say.”
“I came to tell you I’m sorry. I never should’ve said that you and I’ve felt like a piece of shit since then. I know you’re not faking it, or being a manwhore, or making fun of us for being gay, and we shouldn’t have said that you were. I know you’ll never forgive me for saying any of that but just, you have to know that I do accept you and I’m proud that you were able to come out.” Eddie had tears rolling down his face at the end of his speech and his voice was hoarse.
Everything in Steve wanted him to give Eddie a hug, to pull him into his arms and wipe his tears away but he couldn’t. “Why did you say it then? If you didn’t mean it, why’d you say it? It really hurt and I thought I was losing my best friends because of who I am.”
“You’re not, Steve! I swear Stevie, you’re not losing us if you still want us. I didn’t know what bisexuality was and I didn’t know that someone could like both until after I talked to Nancy. And then after she explained it to me and told us how hurt you were, I didn’t think you would want us talking to you. I’m so sorry, Steve,” Eddie cried. 
Steve was a little torn. He wanted to forgive Eddie right away, forgive him at the first word of his apology, but deep down, he knew he couldn’t. He couldn’t just brush off these past few weeks of feeling hurt and isolated from his best friends that were supposed to be there for him no matter what. 
“Thanks for your apology. I can’t forgive you right now,” Eddie made a broken sounding whimper at that but Steve continued. “But I will eventually. I just need some time to think about what I want. You guys really hurt me and I don’t know how to get over that.”
“Take all the time you need, Stevie. I know I hurt you and I will do everything in my power to fix that. I support you and I accept you and it’s about time I proved it,” Eddie promised him. 
Steve nodded. He had no doubt that Eddie would make it up to him and things would eventually get back to normal. They’d been through an alternate dimension, a mind-killing psychic wizard guy, and a bunch of murder accusations. This wouldn’t be what broke them. He pulled Eddie into a hug right before he left and his heart seemed to calm a bit at the contact. Yeah, they’d be fine. It might take a while but they’d get there. 
Later that night, long after the sun had set, Steve heard another knock at his door. He was long over guessing who it could be since he never seemed to be right anyway. When he opened the door to reveal Robin awkwardly standing on his porch, he was once again surprised. What had happened in the past twelve hours to change both hers and Eddie’s minds? 
Steve didn’t even get to say anything before Robin started rambling. “I am so sorry, Steve! I never should’ve judged you so harshly and I know you wouldn’t make fun of me being gay because you never have before so that was really stupid on my part. I should’ve accepted you right off the bat and started making fun of you liking Frank-N-Furter and Eddie like you did for me about Tammy. I know I majorly screwed up but can you ever forgive me? I promise, I will make it up to you so much!”
Steve looked at her for a moment before his mouth widened into a small grin. “You know, I’ve really missed you. I had to have a whole crisis on my own and everything.”
“I’m so sorry! I swear to you, I will never not be supportive and accepting to you ever again. I need my Platonic with a capital P soulmate back and I need you to start working shifts with me again. If Keith flirts with me one more time when we’re on a slow shift together, I might actually hurl all over him,” she babbled.
Steve just laughed and pulled her into a hug. Yeah, things would end up alright between them. It might be a little awkward for a while and there would always be some apprehension on Steve’s part but everything would be fine. 
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Everything did eventually turn out fine. Robin and Eddie groveled to Steve for weeks and long after he had already forgiven them. Once the air was cleared between them, things went back to normal. He had Robin back as his supportive best friend and he had Eddie at his side as his boyfriend. He had Nancy too as the best friend that he could count on when Robin and Eddie started misbehaving with one another. 
Steve always remembered that they didn’t support him right off the bat (although neither did the rest of the Party when he announced he was dating Eddie). Whenever he made a new decision or wanted to accept a new job or something, he always felt a flash of fear of whether they would ridicule him again. 
But other than some low self-esteem and a minor lack of faith in Eddie and Robin, they lived on together in happiness. Through every up and down, they were there for each other in the way they could only wish they had been when he came out to them.
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lulalulens · 5 months
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There is no way I am the only one who sees how strongly steddie coded are Evelyn and Rick O'Connell
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musicalchaos07 · 1 year
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Steve telling Nancy that he never got to thank Jonathan for knocking some sense into him would have been a thousand times more interesting than him attributing his character growth to her saying he was bullshit 
I scream to the tiny friends in my phone 
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sukugo · 6 months
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they took THIS away from gojo and i will never forgive them for it
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But I'm the one who paid for it. I survived but I paid for it.
#yeah i'm using a hamilton quote. sue me#i'm sure someone's already beat me to this but i have yet to come across it so like . schrodinger's edit post i guess#the concept for this has been hastily scribbled upon a post it note for the like 3 months or something#figured with the end of the show coming up i might as well finally put it together ?#tua#the umbrella academy#number 5#number five#five hargreeves#tua number five#the hargreeves#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves#allison hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#ben hargreeves#viktor hargreeves#reginald hargreeves#steve i will never forgive you for what you did to his character okay#the writing was on the walls when they didn't have him be the one to point the gun at viktor after the concert#i get they were trying to do the whole 'yay sisters' things but fr what was the point of hyping up how close he and viktor were#and how their bond was special and frankly an outlier in terms of five's closeness to his other siblings#and then just drop it like a hot potato#it would've have been SO good for him to be the one holding the gun in that moment#everything five had done up to that point had been to save his family#and then he finds himself standing there with the horrifying realisation settling over him#that the only way to stop the apocalypse is to kill one of the very people he's been desperately trying to save#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#s2 was essentially a rehashing of s1 but with more unnecessary crude humor#and don't get me started on the shite that was season 3
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tvs-coach · 3 months
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He's so silly!
clipped from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmqHuJhH6zk
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Eddie Munson dying before the start of hot topic and the lord of the rings films is just a crime and the duffers and i will forever have beef. 
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everythingisawayoflife · 10 months
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i’m in the middle of a very intense that thing you do! brainrot simply because i think it is a movie so overlooked by this generation it rivals a shakespearean tragedy
#that thing you do#the discovery of the theatrical film is the best#but then you dig up the extended cut and lose your damn mind#guy patterson is everything#i need him biblically#i need him in a way thats concerning to feminism#i think this could be such a gen z movie if we gave it a chance#and we can forgive tom everett scott for his la la land crimes#i love faye but i dont like the ending solely bc i think guy belongs with ME#but faye is liv tyler so i guess it cancels out?#steve zahn is comedic gold and everyone who recognizes him as greg heffleys dad will be amazed and will have no choice but to stan#dont even get me started on ethan embry as tb player#extended cut tb player>>>#when guy walks in on tb and the chantrellines singer and then DAPS HIM UP!!!#!!!!#ethan embry u will always be famous#jimmy can choke but his i quit song is actually so real#i wish tom hanks made more movies like that thing you do#oh and soundtrack? FUCKING BANGERS#that thing you do? its the whole damn movie and u hear it eighty billion times and u never get sick of it#all my only dreams? i’m dancing to that at my wedding#dance with me tonight needs to be played at every school dance across the nation i think it would do us some good#hold my hand hold my heart went platinum on my apple music and ended up being in my top 10 songs#EVEN THE FUCKING CHEESY ASS OPENING SONG#straight bops. across the board.#okay i think im done now#hey ao3 writers? GET TO FUCKING WORK ON SOME GOOD ASS FICS CAUSE LAST I CHECKED THERE WERE LIKE THREE#okay NOW i’m done and if you will excuse me#i will be reading some guy patterson x reader fic if i come across it byeeee#thats a lot of tags
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thatharringrovehoe · 2 years
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Girlllllllllllllll. I will always be furious with the Duffers for stealing Harringrove’s potential away from us. The didn’t even INTERACT in Season Three. It’s what I cry about most in my lifeeeeeeeeeee. 😭😭😭
It's honestly my villain origin story
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spectrum-spectre · 2 years
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ok but i Desperately want a ghost!eddie fic using the song Ghosts by Muse (my special interests are overlapping, send help)
"Now and then, my mind drifts to a place where I find you. Lost in my head, there are unsolved feelings that haunt me. It's too late to heal, I'll lay them to rest." Steve has nightmares about the void (where El goes sometimes to find people) and sees Eddie's ghost begging Steve to bring his body back so that he can finally rest.
"How can I move on when everyone I see still talks about you? How can I move on when all the best things i have we made/built together?" Eddie being talk of the town for being accused of satanic murders, going missing after the "earthquakes" and having his posters graffitid? The Party mourning another innocent victim of the upside down who died too soon; their friend? Feeling immense guilt for leaving his body and never being able to bury him?? Steve was originally jealous that the party had a new mentor/babysitter/big brother figure until he saw just how much Eddie loved and cared for the kids and how much they loved him back? He helped raise them, even if it was only for a little bit, and he taught them more about D&D, which aided in their fight against Vecna.
"Here's to letting go, but I am trapped in a void with your ghost and our memories" Steve being crushed because he doesn't know if his visions are real, let alone if he wants to lose Eddie again, because he just got him back in a sense and he feels so selfish for wanting to finally have some kind of relationship with the man who sacrificed himself to save their his kids.
"Lest we forget the great reset" Eleven closed all the gates, right?? but Vecna still finished the ritual, and all those cracks are now open in their world. it looks like the Upside Down is bleeding through into their dimension. what if the veil between their realities is thin enough for Eddie's ghost to slip through, long enough to pass along a message to the last person he was thinking about before he died?
"If I could bring you back, there are truths and confessions I'd tell you. I'd set things straight, and I believe that you would love and forgive me. I know it's too late, I need to let go." Steve never felt this way for a man before, let alone a literal dead man. but what if? what if he could Finally open himself up, to someone who he knew he could trust, and who wouldn't even be able to tell another soul about his feelings? He has Robin, sure, but he's too ashamed, too confused, too afraid to tell anyone else. what if this is the straw that breaks the camels back, and the kids don't love him anymore? what if Robin gets offended at him being a "fake gay?" or Nancy gets offended, because 'if you like guys, is what we had even real?' It's terrifying!
"How can I sleep with this coldness inside me? I know I can't bring back your love" But he wants to, he so desperately wants to know what it's like to hold Eddie in his arms and know that this is ok, this is real, and it's ok, that they'll be okay.
And what if? Oh so many what-if's run through his mind. What if he isn't able to open the gate again, and Eddie's soul will be trapped in the Upside Down for eternity, a limbo and a hell. But what if he brings Eddie's body back to their dimension, and his soul is able to come back with it? What if instead of passing on, Eddie returns to the living, like no time has passed, because we know time passes differently in that frozen hellscape underneath the Hawkins lab.
So what if he dares to hope? To believe that Eddie will come back to him, come back for him, bat bites healed up and scarred over. Proof that he fought, and that he lived, and that he's not going back down so easily next time (heaven forbid there be another next time). They'll have matching scars, their souls branded on each other's skin, showing the world that they belong to each other, and that nothing can separate them, not even hell, not even death.
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sidekickjoey · 1 year
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Day 37284723483 of me shaking my first we didn't get more of baseball player!Steve in Stranger Things while Steve was still in high school
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radical-thots · 1 year
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When Steve says ‘I’m with you till the end of the line’, its literally a wedding vow. You cannot tell me otherwise. It’s synonymous with the vow ‘till death do us apart’ - it’s the exact same thing but in different wording. The fact that ‘line’ also rhymes with ‘time’ and if you say it quickly, it sounds like he’s saying ‘I’m with you till the end of time’. And that is so romantic??? Heartbreaking??? because Steve did leave him. It’s literally him saying marry me, it’s a fucking declaration of love. He’s telling him this all the fucking time, especially when he’s fighting him as the winter soldier. He’s literally telling bucky that he loves him even when he is the worst version of himself aka the winter soldier, even when he’s ‘broken’ and even when he’s in pain, even when he’s a fucking ‘criminal’. Steve’s love for Bucky knows no bounds or limits, it’s so pure and so so genuine. He’s ready to fuck up the world for him. He literally loves him when the whole world is against him, when the whole world is trying to kill bucky. If that isn’t true soulmate love, Idk what love is then. 
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