#i went with this idea for many reasons..

[r-aindr0p]

Against the light/ A contre-jour

#twisted wonderland #rollo flamme #twst rollo #I had this idea since this morning and went insane until I could draw it #still feeling very sane abt rollo yea #sick victorian child in a nightgown drip #Got inspired by one of my favorite pages in one of my fave bl of all time probably #it’s called ’Barbarities’ and yea I love it so so much for many reasons #I can finally draw again a lot more now aaafhdhf I have a bunch of asks that piled up im sorry

[irafuwas]

i don't know why, but in the sparse five hours of sleep i got last night, my brain decided to plague me with dreams of lilia taking care of an elderly silver, up until the final moments of his life. i could hear silver's thoughts the whole time, and he was so absolutely inundated with shame and guilt it almost seemed like he was suffocating. he kept thinking over and over and over again that this all should've been the other way around. he should've been the one looking after his father in the twilight of his life. he should've been his aging father's rock, his safe place to land, his stalwart defender against a world so unbelievably cruel to its most vulnerable denizens. again and again his heart cried out in vain, it should've been the other way around.

as a child he had once wished - prayed, even, to the same force now threatening to reclaim his spirit back into its unconscious designs - for his father to live a long and prosperous life, and it was as though that very wish had backfired on him in a way he never could have possibly imagined

#twst silver #lilia vanrouge #twst spoilers #twst #mumbles #txt #i hate it here #i litearlly woke up crying you gusy dont unerstand #he was so ashamed of himself but not once in my dream was lilia anything less than happy to take care of him #i feel like part of the reason lilia is trying to run away is because like so many of our elderly and our disabled #he didn't want his loved ones to worry about him and “waste” their time taking care of him #so he thought the best decision for everyone would be if he just went off to go die alone #i have no idea if twst would actually touch on something like that but i do think you could interepret his departure that way #anyways if any of you have caretakers or aides or just are disabled in anyway #i want you to know you are not and have never been and never will be a burden on anyone or anything #and that i love you so so much #im getting so emotional over a dream fkjgh but i want silver to understand that good parents dont have kids expecting that #their children will someday “pay them back” for everythinng they did for them growing up!! u don't owe ur parents jack shit!! #silver you just existing as you are is enough for your father!!!

[akikos-tribble-army]

Random thing I learnt while doing research for a paper:

The beginning of German (radio) broadcasting history started in the so called Vox-Haus (Vox-house) with the broadcast of the first radio show for entertainment.

And there is a TV channel in Germany which is called VOX and its colour scheme is red-black.

Vox, I have questions.

#my brain was already spending too much time thinking about Hazbin Hotel bc of the whole radio stuff #and then Vox appears like that #is Vox German in my head now? #yes #this one paragraph about the Vox-Haus gave me way too many ideas for headcanons #I just live for the coincidence here #and the coincidence that VOX has Alastor's colour scheme #vox #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel vox #late night shitpost #akikos shitpost #okay but you need to know that the Vox-Haus was demolished in the 70s #and the TV channel VOX was founded in the 90s #ignoring the time related issues #this looks like as if VOX decided to give up his radio business and went into television business #getting rid of evidence that he ever worked in the radio business #just saying you can create some head canons out of this #yes I've spent too much time thinking about this for no reason #the TV channel is btw not related to the Vox-Haus in any way #it's just a coincidence that they share a name

[felizusnavidad]

thinking about alexander longing for something to be a part of hamilton & and nina you are gonna change the world someday rosario, but also about my past & my future & i feel like i can finally see... the light?

#no i don't have a plan #no i have no idea where i'm going #but i have... ideas? #last couple weeks have been horrible to me but i feel like i've also learned a lot about myself & who i am & who i've always been #it's crazy to think that i may actually find the answer #it's all still so unclear #i don't know where i'm going yet #but i am going #and just a few days ago i was like #i can't move the mountains i can't make the flowers bloom i can't take another night up in my room waiting on a miracle #but today i am very much like #i would move the mountains make new trees & flowers grow someone please just let me know where do i go i am waiting on a miracle #i am ready come on i'm ready #(and that someone is me) so like #full of hope #for some reason #and what's crazy about it is that i've been inspired by so many things & people #my friend who's older than me went to college this year #maybe it's not too late for me #my prison gang is always so supportive & i love them so much they have no idea #my sister who's always proud of me no matter what #all those people who believe in me even if they don't even know me (i am also talking about you daisy anon you actually gave me some ideas) #my other irl friends #and music and musicals and art and... lin #oh wow this is so chaotic #but like... everything that's around me makes me feel much stronger than i've ever been #and i know i can find the right path & change my life #i will find my thing & maybe it's even closer than i think #talking shit for the hell of it*

[tiredguyswag]

i think instead of putting the blame on the writers of the series we as a fandom should shift it to the corporate office like im 101% sure that's where it went wrong. also netflix has a bad habit of cancelling great shows with latine leads like that may not be what happened here but it DOES happen

#and thats just capitalism babey!! #it kinda feels like the writers had a lot of ideas they didn't wanna throw away #and as they were nearing the final episodes they just went OH SHIT and with good reason! #eight episodes was not nearly enough to finish telling that story #felt like there were so many storylines they wanted to explore even in the season like some of the dialogue was definitely hinting at smth #but then!!! you get!!! eight!!! fucking!!! episodes!!! #and yes i agree that there are a few parts that are just bad writing full stop #but it couldve been such a great show if it only had more time #and it feels wrong to put the entire blame on the writers without saying a word to the corporate offices. i know one of you fucked it up #carmen sandiego #carmen sandiego 2019 #carmen sandiego netflix

[dykedvonte]

If Ulysses has a million haters, then I'm one of them. If Ulysses has one hater, then I'm THAT ONE. If Ulysses has no haters, that means I'm dead. If the world is with Ulysses than I’m against the world.

#this is slightly joking but like also not but also like am mixed on Ulysses on many factors #infuriating because i sympathize with his pain but it’s like #he is a well written and fundamentally flawed character whose hypocrisy I found doubly in #black characters I can tell were designed by white people with a semblance of an understanding of activism and bipoc oppression #but not enough for the character to not feel like hand holding for the majority white audience #plus personal grips with the whole twisted hairs thing and reference to slave braiding patterns #Ulysses irks me as a black person on a weird personal level and I can go into debt on why him being black is a big detractor for him to me #like he continues this cycle of distancing himself from his roots before remembering over and over again through his actions #he leave so much in his wake that the courier ends up correcting or helping like in honest hearts and old world blues because he’s self #righteous in a subtle way even to himself that he believes he stand out of his one man rule when he does not play an active hand #saw a post talk about how you choose to continue moving through his story and can leave at any moment and this it is partially your fault #but what of the oath that is set before you and is forced to take that he set up #I do not have to walk it but when I do the steps are not my own but those taken for me #you have to go out of your way to change it which is not something he expects because he’s playing by a story he’s been perpetuating in his #head about you two and the effect one man has when he’s continually been that one man more so than you as many of his actions directly lead #to the one you go through also the irony in the flag he continues to bear being the real reason he has no home #like he reps it when the package is likely enclave and thus use the same symbol #also still can’t get over how anyone could have delivered the package and he tries so hard to act like it was the couriers destiny or fate #when this was the one case of chance and that once man was likely a enclave engineer and how it’s really is never one man #it the process and he’s so annoying about it like he’s a cool character but if you don’t believe in his philosophy or already went through #these ideas cause they are very common talking points in poc especially BIPOC spaces he’s just old hashings and stunted #fallout #fallout new vegas #Ulysses you upset me but I’m like I feel you could be better if you weren’t so incessant #I don’t think I ever want to make a serious post stating this about him just because I’d start yapping and it’d never get finished #ulysses fnv #fnv ulysses #lonesome road

[wakeupthemembersofbylernation]

It’s wild how so many people are fundamentally incapable of recognizing queer characters unless they explicitly say the words, “I’m gay” on screen

#like season 1 and 2? sure maybe you can overlook Will’s queercoding and believe it’s just a result of the bully’s homophobia #season 3 is a huge stretch but it’s hypothetically possible to believe will is just a late-bloomer or asexual #but how on earth do you watch season 4 and still genuinely have no idea will is gay? #and this is not a rare occurrence #it’s astonishing how many people you have to literally explain the van scene to cause Will’s sexuality never crossed their mind #you didn’t see him staring longingly at his best friend the entire season? #some people’s minds are so aggressively heteronormative that they assumed will had a crush on el #and even after noah has explained that will is gay 50 million times #people still are confused and think it came out of nowhere or they quickly forget #somewhere there’s a fan who doesn’t keep up with stranger things news and doesn’t really use social media #a fan who is the exact opposite of chronically online #who hasn’t heard about NOAH coming out let alone Will’s sexuality #who will walk into season 5 and be utterly flabbergasted when Will comes out as gay (let alone when Byler happens) #and they’ll say that Will being gay is a huge plot twist they never saw coming #and they’ll be 100% sincere #and that’s truly baffling to me #do people think shows just randomly include melodramatic rain fights where ‘it’s not my fault you don’t like girls’ is said for no reason? #do people think the show went out of its way to show wills rejecting the attractive girl in his class cause they were in a silly goofy mood? #I genuinely wanna know what goes on through people’s heads when they have no gaydar or media literacy #even today there are people who still think romantic stobin should happen and think that Robin isn’t really a lesbian #will byers #byler

[apricusapollo]

I had a vision a while ago where rey goes to the island to try and get luke to go back home with her BUT din goes with her. leia is the one who suggests the idea. and helps rey find din. who hasn't heard from luke for so many years. and rey talks to luke and when he refuses to go. din walks up to them and luke just. dies a bit inside even more.

#this idea has the vibes of exile by taylor swift #oh and to make it worse #imagine if grogu chose to stay with luke instead of going back to din #and then ben decided to be a bit too much like his grandfather #and grogu fucking died #and luke blamed himself not only for what happened to ben #but also for being the reason why the child of a man he loved died #and he wasn't able to face him for so many years #because he always thought that din blamed him for what happened #and then one day din shows up and tells him that he does not blame him #and then i don't know what happens #that's as far as i went #dinluke #luke skywalker #din djarin #star wars #crys' star wars hours

[slavicafire]

oh had the same question as the previous asker but i am from ukraine. i am pretty sure we have some sort of underground kink community but i have no idea how to become a part of it (but i also am very young so it's not the right time anyway)

with ukraine, from what I know, quite a lot of your scene moved to poland or other neighbouring countries - but hopefully they'll be able to safely go home soon.

again, as I've mentioned, in our part of europe it is often pretty much a chance thing - but for the future, the easiest way to meet people who just might introduce you to events like that is through lgbt+ clubs and venues, burlesque shows, and ballroom events.

unless you'd aim more at a more clearly cishet kink scene (which does exist) which might be easier to find but I have no tips as to that. I have a friend in a cishet swingers type club thing and he genuinely found out about it through facebook...

#i remember in france it was so... easy. like when we were going out to 'gay places' it was harder no find a non-kink space than the #other way around #but that was also in 2014. no idea how it looks there now #I remember the first 'gay' afterparty we went to in paris that was a more closed event and didn't have that many tourists #as my hosts hated tourists #(funny for reasons of me. being a tourist) #and it was a hardcore e-stim party. #back when I didn't even know that was a thing because my idea of kink was basically half a paddle and a plastic whip

[fandomregression]

uhhh tim as a regresser? i know hes usually a cg in your fics but i kinda relate to him so much

while i see him mainly as a cg, thats mostly bc i want him to be my cg, but i absolutely see how he could be a regressor so rAMBLING TIIIIIIIME

Regressor Tim Stoker Headcanons!

so tim starts regressing actually kinda young, in his early teens, because he's always lived in his brother's shadow. always been the second, despite being the older child, and its. hard. he pretends everything's okay and he isnt jealous, but he wants. needs. attention too

he learns what regression is exactly in university, and he kinda just shrugs and says 'yep that tracks' and pushes it to the side. let's bury that problem and deal with it later! that's a problem for Future Tim!

future tim is very mad and small, now. he spends a lot of time crying into his pillow and hugging his childhood stuffie, a little doggy named spot, until he falls asleep

he tries to basically never let dating partners find out abt his regression that doesn't seem like a good thing

a few of them do, and a couple try their hands at being cgs. they give up because tim is "too much" for them to handle

then danny dies, and tim spirals

hes just really, really not okay. he spends so much of his time trying to research what happened, trying to learn about the circus, trying to find anything that explains why his little brother is dead, and he can't figure it out. and he just tears himself apart over it. he's on the verge of regressing pretty much all the time, he's crying his eyes out all the time, and everything is bad. by the time he starts working at the magnus institute, he's a shell of a man whose head always feels like its swimming

then he meets jon, and he can tell there's something familiar in the ways he acts. tim's almost certain jon is a regressor, and well...he's nothing if not a good big brother. and he's a big brother who really, really welcomes this distraction from the fact that his little brother is dead

he does his best to keep jon out of trouble and take care of him, but he's well aware of his own headspace encroaching on all of this. its not easy. little things that tim does for jon are things that make tim regress, so its. not going too well!

until they meet sasha :)

sasha notices these two are a lil different pretty quickly. its become even more evident when they're researching a case, end up at a park, and jon and tim are playing on the playground like little kids

tim is very excited about this, and he absolutely climbs on top of the monkey bars and shouts for sasha

"sasha! sasha! look at me!!! :D!!!" "i see you! you're up so high!!"

she pushes them both on the swings, she pushes them both on the merry-go-round, and it feels just so natural to them

(tim picks her some dandelions and clovers, too, and sasha adores it)

after that day, when tim's big again, he realizes that sasha was able to actually play with both of them and pay attention to tim even though he was bigger than jon...sasha actually wanted to take care of *tim* and jon at the same time...and he didn't feel neglected...

(he cried himself to sleep again that night, but he wasn't sure why it felt so painful) (its the neglect trauma)

at work, tim basically just starts feeling a pull toward sasha a lot of the time, and he's terrified of being too much for her, but he...he needs this...

if he finds a cool bug, he takes a picture to show her. cool rock, he takes it inside and gives it to her. he likes to draw little doodles on his sticky notes and give them to her, and it absolutely makes his heart soar every single time she sticks them to her monitor. he's just. thriving off the affection

jon is the first one to explain regression, and he expects both tim and sasha to just push him away. he is absolutely not expecting tim to say he's a regressor too (how jon didn't notice? well...poor baby's not very observant...) and they're both not expecting sasha to just say "oh i know, who wants a juice box?"

both just. malfunctioning

tim does regress older than jon, usually around 6-8, and he takes his job as big bubby VERY seriously. he holds jon's hand when they do anything, he is always imparting his wisdom (which has been "red crayons taste bad" and variations of that multiple times), and he tries to let jon get more attention from sasha

sasha does not take too well to that last one. she notices pretty quickly that tim sacrifices himself for jon, and that just won't fly. so, extra hugs. extra kisses. lots of one-on-one playtime. tim cries a lot over this

then they move down to the archives and yay!! martin!!! now tim and jon have a mama and a papa and its even easier for them to both get the attention they need (especially tim, who doesn't feel as guilty when there's two cgs he can go to whichever one isn't handling jon)

tim has a lot of games he likes to play, and he has quite a few stuffies, but a lot of the time he likes playing nintendo with martin (and jon watches and tells him how cool he is)

sasha and martin both learn pretty quickly that anything circus/clown themed is very much a no-no with tim. if he's already regressed, its the quickest way to a panic attack he can get. if he isn't regressed, he will be very shortly, and then the panic attack happens

at that point its just...hugs and comfort until he can stop crying

when it comes down to it, he's just glad to finally have this sort of support system. to have multiple people who care about him and actually try

#fandom agere #age regression #sfw agere #🧸headcanons #tma agere #agere tim stoker #THIS WENT ON FOREVER #AHHHHH #i ran out of ideas at the end can you tell #also im glad you specified that i usually write him a cg bc i'm in mechanisms brainrot rn #so when i first saw the notif for this ny mind immediately went to gunpowder tim #but then to my delighted surprise its my boy!! my special boy!!! #but also for some ungodly reason my brain decided to also read 'tim meredith' into this so i cant read this back without hearing it #in tim's trexel voice. which is concerning #why are there so many tims

[quaiids]

how do you feel about where the boys is at? Any comments on like the quality of s1 vs s2 vs s3. What's like ur personal favorite (doesn't have to be like a critical masterpiece) and which character have u loved the development of the most

right now i feel like the boys is in a very tricky spot where it’s either going to go incredibly uphill and be restored or be completely fucked over by season 4. i’m not a huge fan of season 3’s writing, i feel like the direction it went with certain character arcs (coughcoughHughiecough) was kind of strange and could’ve been done WAAAAY better

my personal favorite will always be season 1 i think. peak hughie and i really enjoy how the story is built up (although my biggest issue 100% is how they handled hughie’s grief over robin. definitely not the best depiction of grief i’ve seen in a show)

honestly i’m not sure if any character’s development from s1 to s3 is very notable. it’s been a little bit since i’ve watched it so my memory is a tad foggy but the character with the most outstanding development to me is hughie’s. and god knows my feelings about how they did him in season 3 (the answer is not very good)

#the boys #hughie campbell #billy butcher #mother’s milk #frenchie #kimiko #the boys tv #text post #asks #send asks #i just. idk #hughies development so far has pissed me off n i hope that he gets straightened out next season #cuz rn hes just kind of an asshole with no real reason when he has so many reasons to be one #they couldve made the narrative push the idea that his grief and his constant surrounding of bad influence turned him into a piece of shit #but instead they just went with ‘haha its toxic masculinity lolz’ LIKE WHAT #WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MAN WHO WANTED TO BE BENCH PRESSED BY A PRETTY GIRL #idk. he just wasnt the right character to have a toxic masculinity arc imo #i notice this a lot with the boys #where they set up or they have these really good ideas for arcs #but the logic they use to implement them is kind of flawed and/or they just. don’t utilize it the way they should #the more i rewatch this show the more problems i find myself having with its writing #and this is coming from a place of love. i love this show and i enjoy watching it but it has so much potential to be so much more than what #it is currently. ykwim

[cheswirls]

looking @ old fic i started when i was 14/15 is so funny bc im realizing once again why i never mark fics as abandoned even if its been literal years since i've touched them. specifically i was checking docs for stuff i started and either did or didn't post to ffn.

and its like. nothing is bad??? like i can see where my outside-the-box ideal of fic writing comes from. not just fics but writing in general, i'm p sure. even if it's a total cliche plot setup, there are details on each that rly make it stand out like oh yeahhhhhh i did have this great idea once upon a time.

funny too bc was it executed well in prose??? no absolutely not i wrote like shit when i was 15. would i revive an idea one day and revise it to be less cliche or cringy while still keeping the stand-out elements??? yea maybe. i might. everything i'm currently working on that i started from 2021 up to now still holds my supreme interest, but like i'm not gonna say never.

esp since i write fic first and foremost for my own need and specifically what i like to read, it makes it impossible to consider an idea i've thought extensively about "not worth writing anymore". anyway not making this too long i jus found everything interesting to consider

#writing #this fic i pulled up from JUNE 2014 crazy was the old chosenshi au i was trying to write for a friend #i dont ship blue/silver and never will and thats prolly why i never finished it #but i do still like!! the idea of rocket!blue raised w silver and breaking free of tr while running the hoenn branch #no idea how i remembered bc it wasnt in the plot pts on the doc but she was gonna get sent to the battle frontier #to nab jirachi and have encounters w frontier brains and change her mind at the end of it all #hell i could go back and not make it ship fic at all - have silver be a little one-sided obsessed or #even jus like.. attached to blue as a rivalry like as a way to show her up at every turn #another fic around the same time was the old pokespe hs au where i changed all the dexholder's names for some reason #i have no idea where i was in reading spe bc i put lyra in for some reason and had the sinnoh trio even tho i never read past v2 of dp #idk if it was more gameverse or what but its so funny looking @ the ship list n seeing i had gold paired w black #bc i had manga!ss and manga!ferriswheel so was it rly speverse or was i projecting???? #actually i think black was supposed to die and gold was gonna go thru this whole thing abt grieving #looking at the ship list so funny bc i never shipped gold/crys or entourageshi #and clearly i did not know the superiority of pmshi if i threw lyra in jus for silver #god but i do love (most!) of the alt names i gave them #would absolutely fuck up the ship list if i ever redid it tho #also have perfectworld tho im sure i have the most recent rewrite on pen and paper somewhere #that one i also gave up bc the idea i had for flare!sycamore was cringe along with #every time i went back to work on it enough time passed that i thought my writing sucked #i rewrote that damn thing so many times but oooooooo i still love the idea #as long as i changed the cringe parts to smth better i could still rock w most of these #that fic rly had everything... psychic!korrina. leaf/serena. sycamore hacking the secret to mega evo. lys/syc that ends in failure #bc of the ending line i will never forget > only in a perfect world could you and i be together. destined and doomed from the start #im rambling n im boutta run outta tags gimme a sec

[maraschinomerry]

How many Halloween costumes is too many? Asking for a friend

#I haven't worked the last 2 halloweens but I almost definitely am this year and work normally allows costumes #2021's was pretty basic then 2022 I got more creative and now have a reputation as the artistic one so feel like I could/should go all out #there are so many I want to do and it's hard to pick like it has to be reasonably practical but still cool and at least a little ridiculous #I've been making mood boards for each on pinterest which then leads me down rabbit holes to other ideas like I went from mirror to carousel #halloween #halloween costumes #merry mumbles

[baalzebufo]

finished my first kurnoth hunter today! this guy was kind of a test run for a lot of things but he came out pretty great. my first time trying to do highlights as well as basing. i may have glued some of my flock to my fingers by mistake, lmao

but yeah the base is pretty much just a combo of cheap grass flock, some teeny pebbles, and a couple army painter grass tufts, all over some stirland mud. nothin fancy, but it really helps bring the mini to life :)

#gutsys mini tag #miniature painting #mini painting #warhammer age of sigmar #sylvaneth #the main reason im painting these kurnoths is because i reaaaally want to get belthanos sometime and i figured these would be good practice #yeah i went back n forth on colours a bit but im a sucker for pink so magenta leaves it was #i like the idea of the little sprites turning into the arrows too. hence why its coiled as if its about to fire itself off the bow #the only thing im not 100% on with these guys is the weapon/bug colours. i think i couldve stood to do a little more shading or variation #maybe introducing a lighter shade of blue or something? i dont own many blue paints rn though #basically just the two i used (kroxigor scales and aethermatic blue) so im working with what i got

[niteshade925]

I can see how the regional phenomena in totk is basically totk's version of a modern 4 horsemen of the apocalypse: pollution (the sludge), addiction (marbled rock roast), climate change (the extreme blizzard; admittedly this one is a bit of a stretch), and pestilence/infectious disease (the giant mosquito boss and the undead gibdo). Which, hey, references to real life issues, great, but what I didn't like so much was how you can just solve puzzles and fight bosses--basically have a handful of big name heroes running around doing tasks--and the water will magically clear up, the addicts will magically become normal people again, the extreme storms will magically dissipate, and the pestilence will magically disappear. Real life does not work that way. I know, I know, it's a game why you taking it so seriously blah blah, but I'm just saying, we have to remember that for any of these problems to be solved, it takes a lot of effort and cooperation from a lot of people to accomplish, and that's definitely an understatement.

#totk spoilers #:P #i haven't played many other zelda games so i can't say #but botw and totk are basically the Great Man Theory #aka 'we only need a few big heroes to save the day and nobody else's input is worth much' #maybe I'm too nitpicky or maybe I'm too old to suspend my disbelief entirely #something about that just doesn't quite sit right with me :P #doesn't mean the game is bad but just my thoughts #and let me add that genshin is also kind of a Great Man Theory sort of game on the surface #but in genshin the story itself actually does challenge that idea in many different places #whereas in botw and totk nothing about that logic is even questioned #you are expected to just accept that 'oh the hero defeated the bad guys and now the problems magically went away' #and since we are talking about real life issues this approach is honestly incredibly lazy #basically the same as 'if everyone can drive less (aka be a hero!) then we can reduce emissions and save the environment!' #while completely ignoring how driving is basically essential to life in the greatest country on earth (tm) #bc of urban planning lack of effective public transportation systems and lobbyists #it's a systemic problem and it's not going to be solved by being heroes or eating the rich #in conclusion: if you want to put real life issues in your game please don't be lazy with it #and if you want the traditional hero vs big bad thing then please stay away from real life issues #this is part of the reason why botw is better than totk

[aro-ortega]

i think it would be funny if in the future daniel + julia try to convince sasja to give polyamory/them as a throuple a shot

#like a reversal of step talking them into a being a triad in retri #been a while since ive played and definitely since ive played a chargeflystep run so. not confident in my memory #i just thknk it would be neat ! funny ! #sasja still hates julia but. she knows now. and he knows that she knows. and thats not the reason she didnt save him #he still hates her for that hates her for leaving him. but. he also knows now that hes done much worse so. shrug #and in some runs he does accidentally drug-addledly confess to still being in love w her #and ! hes going to therapy and he does take it serious ! he can be difficult and lash out but. he does listen to what finch has to say #(and is willing to Work on things and like. have therapy Homework post retri) #and he wants. he doesnt want to be this (terror) anymore. he went to far he can see that now daniel made him see that. he wants to be. #something. better ? less murderous. less violent ig. i think he just doesnt want to hurt daniel again but. theres lots that could hurt him #anyway ! all that to also say - daniel is (supposedly) very perceptive and even tho hes not in the room when sasja confesses to julia #i dont think it would be hard for him to figure out that sasja misses julia (he still hangs out with her. even tho hes told her to fuck off #fuck off a thousand times) and ? maybe he would see or feel that theres still something there between them and #and idk. maybe daniel and ortega talk. maybe sasja and his romantic past w julia comes up. maybe ortega is like. it is what it is hes #hes clearly in love with you anyway so... but ? maybe...... #idk ! im tired ! forgot where im going w this. idk how they get there but. maybe the float the idea by sasja. see if he would be willing to #to give julia another shot #(this came about bc i was thinking about how its funny that he + milo (+ vanya) are polyamorous but while milo #milo is dating as many people as she can sasja is just dating one person rn. i just think the contrast is funny) #sasja x daniel x julia #sasja jespersen #op #fh #sasja x julia #sasja x daniel