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#i was joking awhile ago in the group chat the Ellie would technically be anti vax for her personally. but if you put her near anti vaxxers
toytulini · 3 years
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the cycle of me realizing over and over i dont know how to make Ellie a good villain
#toy txt post#ocs#like as in i dont know what her motivation is beyond some like personal issues with Birdie#i dont knkw what she says her motivation is. but she is supposed to be birdies big antagonist but its a STRUGGLE bc everything is hollow and#empty rn bc i dont have a good motivation for her! and briefly i thought i had something in like. her being anti-science anti-hybrid magic#but i dont know how to make that WORK exactly w the magic systems i have so far#and i also dont know to what extant that would be like how far do i take that?#does she believe in medicine? is she an anti-vaxxer? does she still believe in miasma theory? fucking humoral?? that doesnt work for me#esp bc i kinda want the witch community to he Ahead of humans at least a little in figuring out like. germ theory etc. we took way too long#with that yknow? i want Birdie already doing Genetic Modification Mad Science Magic in her basement in the victorian era at the latest#i was joking awhile ago in the group chat the Ellie would technically be anti vax for her personally. but if you put her near anti vaxxers#she'll destroy them in seconds. and 2020 shouldve made this EASIER bc like we've all seen now. the bullshit that ppl will believe despite it#making no sense despite it being contradictory to their other beliefs despite it being hypocritical like it should be easier than ever to#make a villain who believes hypocritical contradictory dumb shit and yet. i cant. im struggling#what does Ellie want? she wants to politically take over the witch council. for one#why does she want that? to change things. (BUT WHAT THINGS??) frustration with how slow it is? and to specifically usurp Birdie.#turn them all against Birdie. have birdie exiled and put to death (well. she'll try. shes just making a deadly escape room)#why does she want to turn them against Birdie? she feels wronged by Birdie and is definitely projecting a whole lot of shit onto Birdie#for Birdie refusing to continue to teach her after finding out her views on Something. she Scared Birdie. Birdie had already been reluctant#to take on any pupils and she took a chance on Ellie after Ellie kept begging her to mentor her. and she regrets it#and at some point Ellie starts revealing ideologies that disturb Birdie. originally this was going tk be her extremist puritanical views on#magic. a vehement hatred for hybrid magic which she doesnt know/understand yet that birdie practices hybrid magic a lot#and Birdie gives up on her. she cannot keep teaching her. she hates the hybrid magic. and so she essentially abandons Ellie#and then Ellie latches onto that and projects a whole lot of shit onto Birdie. she hates birdie so much and wants to defeat her and destroy#her. but theres still a part of Ellie that wants Birdie's approval. which only makes her angrier and more unhinged when she tries to make a#creature like birdies creatures. and birdie is horrified by it. bc siiyr was not made well. she is created of suffering and pain and its bad#and i just. theres so much missing from ellie. there's so much there with her passion and feelings and shit. but#in terms of motivation. she feels Empty. not even like a proper fake motivation. bc i want her to have that too. it was originally her real#thing. that Birdie rejected her for. and then after birdie rejected her she Uses whatever that ideology is to get ppl to follow her.#and then at the end the world is in shambles bc of Ellie. whatever she does. its catastrophic. and she didnt predict it. she wasnt prepared
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