#i was in college so when i would make the 3hr drive back home in summer i would listen to this front to back at LEAST twice no exaggeration

[soubi122]

Three Truths and a Lie

One shot. Minors do not read. Bonten Mikey, smut, alcohol, mentions of drugs, murder, mentions of pregnancy, f!oral, ⚠small spoiler if you haven't read Chapter 206. ⚠

Sitting at the airport, waiting for your flight to board - the waiting made you anxious. You were flying back home for the first time in years. This was your first solo trip since college. There was trouble in paradise, your significant other was starting to become controlling every 5 minutes, he was not letting up and was begging you to come back home. The last message read ‘You’re making a mistake…’ The pit of your stomach was in turmoil. This was a last minute decision and your best friend bought a one way ticket for you, he wanted to make sure you took the time to decide. His voice was reassuring on the other line when you had no one else to lean on. “Hey, I’m about to board - I’ll call you when I land.” Your voice was shaky but determined. “Alright (Y/N), be careful, I’ll see you in a few hours.” He eased your nerves and you felt a little better as you began to board. 

The plane ride was about 3 hours and you spent the time listening to music and reading. You packed light and were grateful that your best friend booked a window seat - it was nice to look at the world below. It helped take your mind off of worrying whether or not you would have a home to come back to. The apartment you shared with your significant other was starting to feel less like home as each day went by. The screaming, the fighting, the abuse was getting worse and nothing you did was ever enough. Your best friend gave you a choice, either break it off or he will do it for you. You knew he didn’t take shit from anyone and as kids, he would get into fights with the older ones and always came out as the victor. Unfortunately, due to your parents’ job relocation, you weren't able to stay by his side but would visit every now and then with family. However, you grew apart when highschool started but he would still text you or call you every now and then. When he found out you were in a serious relationship - oh boy, he wanted to know the guy’s name and address. He was protective of you.

When you called him crying at 2 a.m., he almost made the 14 hour drive to your place to beat the shit out of your boyfriend. After calming himself down, he told you to pack your things and get to the airport as your flight was scheduled to leave in less than 3hrs.

After landing, you took your phone off of airplane mode and within minutes your phone was flooded with notifications. There were 30 voicemails and 75 text messages, your boyfriend would not let you breathe. You called your best friend to let him know that you were walking towards the arrivals pick up lane and he was already there waiting for you. As you walked out of the airport, the harsh winter wind nipped at your cheeks and nose. You were looking around for a blonde with mid length hair, but instead you were approached by a male with silver short hair, he had an undercut. His face was emotionless, his eyes looked dead and it made you uncomfortable. “(Y/N), let’s go home…” This voice. ”…M-mikey?” You stutter in shock. “Who else would it be?” He responded with a small smile. You couldn’t believe your eyes, this couldn’t be Sano Manjiro - he was totally different and the light in his eyes was gone. He pulled you in for a hug and embraced you tightly. You buried your face into his neck, the collar of his jacket felt so warm and smelled like him. “I missed you.” Your heart began to beat faster, he was taller than you and his arms around your body felt heavy. He was a grown man, no longer the kid you knew and my god did he look handsome. 

“I missed you too…let’s go home." He put your carry-on in the trunk and then  opened the back seat door for you, you barely noticed that there were two others sitting in the front seats. “We’re getting dropped off at my place.” You nodded and greeted the two men in the front. They just looked at you and nodded. It’s like you weren’t supposed to talk to them. The drive back to his place was quiet at first but he broke the silence with a question that made you flinch. “Do you really love him?” He kept his gaze on your face, searching for any body language that would give him the truth. “I do…” Your answer made Mikey furrow his eyebrows. He was hoping you would say otherwise or at least say ‘I don’t know’. He responded with a low hum and reached for your hand. Your hands were trembling, you weren’t so sure anymore. “Your hands are trembling, why?” He was more concerned than upset. “I don’t know. Mikey, let's just get home - I don’t wanna think about this right now.” You turned away and faced the window, you didn’t want him to see the tears that were welling in your eyes. 

When the car pulled into a large parking lot, your mouth gaped a bit, the building was luxurious and it was a major change from where he used to live. A low chuckle escaped from Mikey’s lips as he reached out to cup your chin and push it up to close your mouth. “You live here? Holy shit, what the hell do you do for a living?” “I run a business…” What he neglected to say was that he was the leader of Japan’s worst criminal organization - Bonten. The men in the front seat chuckled and looked back at Mikey. “Let us know if you need us tomorrow, we’ll clear our schedules, boss.” It felt weird hearing someone address him other than Mikey, captain or Manjiro. “Let’s go angel…” Hearing him call you that name again made your heart skip a beat. No one else called you that but him. 

Walking into the building you felt as if all eyes were on you and Mikey. The way he walked looked like he owned the place, a flood of bows and greetings followed as he walked past the employees and tenants. “No, seriously - what do you do for a living?” You questioned as you both walked into the elevator. He just smiled at you, “I told you, I run a business.” His place was on the top floor and needed a code to get the elevator to move. After the doors opened, he walked to the end of the hall and you noticed that there were three more units on the floor. A total of 4 units on the top floor. He opens the door and lets you walk in first, you have to practically pick your jaw off the floor - it was a luxury condo with a gorgeous view. “I’m home.” Mikey says dryly, you thought he lived alone but it turns out he lives with someone else. “About time, where have you-” A man with pink hair and two scars on his lips came from around the corner of the kitchen. He paused as soon as he saw you with Mikey. His sapphire eyes were gorgeous, he was eyeing you up and down. “Sanzu, this is (Y/N). She’ll be staying with us for a while.” You let out a meek ‘hello’ and smiled at him. ”Here, let me take your jacket.” Mikey said while unzipping his coat. As you took your coat off, both men stared at you - the way your cardigan draped over you and how your tank top dipped low, exposing your cleavage made them blush. Especially Mikey, you too have grown - not just your height but your chest and ass were perfectly molded to the clothes you were wearing. 

“Umm, Mikey…” You snapped them out of their daze. It made you wrap the cardigan over your chest, you caught them staring and neither of them looked apologetic. “Are you hungry?” Mikey’s question was so random, he didn’t know what to say after staring at your figure. “No, I’m ok for now. Can I use your shower? I kind of left in a hurry.” The question made their cocks twitch. “Sure, follow me…” His room was simple, just a bed, dresser and a nightstand. He had a master bath and a walk-in closet. “Here’s the bathroom, there are clean towels in the closet there - umm, I’ll be in the living room.” With that he walked out of the bedroom and closed the door behind him. You exhaled and put a hand to your heart. What the hell just happened? Their gaze was making your core throb. You felt conflicted, you had your boyfriend back home but yet attraction was creeping up on you. 

After finishing your shower, you changed into some comfy clothes - Mikey’s clothes, you had a habit of wearing his clothes as a teenager. You walked out of the room and saw 3 more men in the living room with Mikey. You notice Sanzu nudge Rindou, the man had a purple mullet, lilac eyes and a neck tattoo. The other two men turned to look at you. Another man with a neck tattoo, lilac eyes and short purple hair waved at you with a smile, Ran. The other one had long silver hair, feline-like eyes and a tattoo on the shaven side of his head, Kokonoi. You noticed that their tattoos matched. “Hello.” You said while walking towards Mikey. They returned your greeting with a smile and also eyed you up and down. “C’mere angel-are those my clothes?” Mikey asked, surprised that you chose to wear his clothes instead of your own. You nodded and smiled meekly at him. The little chuckles in the room made you blush. Mikey cleared his throat and continued. “They are the Haitani brothers, Ran and Rindou. And this is Kokonoi, they’re my business associates.” These men were handsome, you couldn’t help but blush. The sound of your phone vibrating snapped you out of your daze. You reached in your pocket and when your eyes read the name on the screen - you froze. It was your boyfriend. “I’m sorry, I need to take this call.” You walked back into Mikey’s room and closed the door. “Who’s the girl?” Ran asked with a smirk planted on his pretty face. “She’s cute…” Rindou said while glancing at Mikey. Mikey’s face was not amused. “Careful you two, looks like Mikey’s serious about this one.” Kokonoi’s tone was playful and he too thought you were cute. “She’s a close childhood friend. She’s staying with me for a while…” 

In the other room, you answered his call - he was drunk and his speech was slurred. “Babe…WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU YOU? WHY AREN’T YOU HOME?” His booming voice made you flinch. “I already told you, I went back home-” He immediately cut you off with a harsh insult. “You fucking slut! You better not be with THAT man! I will fucking kill you!” “(BF/N), you’re drunk and have no idea what you’re saying.” In the background, you could hear another woman’s voice and it sounded like she was moaning, there were shuffling sounds as well. There was someone else in your home and it was like a punch in your gut. “Are you fucking kidding me?! Do you have someone else in our bed?!” You raised your voice and the men in the other room could hear you. “You fucking left and I had no one else to fuck!” “You piece of shit!” You hung up and sat on the floor, going through all the texts and voicemails, you saw how he pleaded and then his messages got nastier. You pinched the bridge of your nose and closed your eyes. Mikey walked in the room and saw you sitting on the floor, he took a seat next to you and pulled your head to his shoulder. “What happened?” You chuckled and started tearing up. “Is it too late for me to change my answer to your question from earlier?” He knew you were regretting saying yes to his question. 

“I’m going to sound like a hypocrite right now but I need a drink…” You say chuckling and wipe tears from your eyes. “You can do whatever you want angel, no one here is going to judge you.” The warmth radiating from him was soothing, it made you regret not coming back home sooner. “Thanks Mikey, you’ve always been such a good friend to me - I’m sorry for being such a shitty friend.” His body tensed, there was a slight sting in his chest - the word ‘friend’ rang in his ears. He’s had a thing for you for years. He realized it back when you both were teenagers, a summer when you visited with your family and your embrace had his heart racing. You spent many summers visiting Mikey, it was what he looked forward to the most. One visit he accidentally caught you changing, he froze and just closed the door. You were cracking up on the other side, you guys used to change in the same room all the time. It was nothing new to you - but what you didn’t realize was how your body changed. Oh boy. Up to this day he refuses to confess what he feels for you. 

After exiting the room, you were met with a beer and smiles. The rest of the men heard the whole ordeal. “If you’re a friend of Mikey’s, you’re a friend to us.” Ran said while grinning at you, it melted your worries away and you felt like these men were really nice people. (Pfffftttttt….if only you knew) 5 beers in and you’re tipsy, you start to loosen up a bit. “Mikey!” You shout and jolted to your feet, making them all turn around in surprise - your face was a little pink and your eyes were glossed over. “Yes, angel?” He replied with a smile on his face, it’s been awhile since he’s seen you so happy and carefree. “It’s too quiet, can I play some music?” He nodded in approval, he didn’t care - he just wanted to see you happy. You began to play music and turned to everyone, “We need some shots!” A low whistle from Rindou could be heard, “Mikey, where the hell has she been hiding this entire time?” Sanzu asked while flashing a cocky smirk. He was ready to stop pussyfooting around and get to the real fun. 

“Oh, that reminds me…” Mikey gets up to grab a couple of bottles from the kitchen. He placed three tequila bottles on the table, your eyes lit up - these were the bottles you sent him for his birthday. “You didn’t drink these?” The pout on your face made him swoon, but he didn’t want to drink them without you. “I’ve been waiting for you, kind of like our old days…” “Mikey, you drink?” Kokonoi asked, raising an eyebrow. Through all the years he’s known Mikey, he’s never seen him drink. They’ve always had a few drinks during meetings or outings but Mikey didn’t really join in on their fun. He would always sip on something else - tonight was different. It was as if you were both celebrating your freedom. “I don’t think we’ve ever tried this before.” Sanzu says, while examining the liquor bottle, opening it and taking a whiff. He began to choke, “What the fuck is it? Holy shit!” You began to laugh at him. All these grown ass men looked worried, if Sanzu questioned it, it was definitely not a good sign. “It’s my love language.” You winked at them, your answer gave a little more away than you thought. 

“We finished a bottle together that one night - we blacked out and couldn’t remember anything the next morning.” Mikey chuckled and grinned, remembering how you were both lying next to each other the next morning with damp clothes and you both were a total mess. Little did he know that you remembered everything, he doesn’t remember but you both lost your virginity that night. Your face went bright red and you clasped your hands on your cheeks. “Ohhh, it looks like she remembers…” Rindou said teasingly. Mikey’s eyes went wide, you never told him the truth of what happened that night and always denied remembering. “(Y/N)? What happened that night?” He inched closer to your face and burned holes through you with his eyes. “We’ll need a shot or two before I tell you…” Your face was seriously red and your demeanor changed quickly - you went from bold to shy in a split second. “No, you need to tell me now…” He was serious. Everyone else around the table was intrigued, they’ve never seen Mikey this concerned before and it was amusing to see you all flustered. 

You exhaled, “Okay, okay…” Everyone leaned in to listen, Sanzu even paused the music - the silence in the room was overwhelming. “When we turned 18 we drank the whole bottle and were just having a good time, I made you dance with me, we were talking about the future, jumped in the pool, we lost our virginity, threw up the next morning…you know - drunk things…” The words that rolled off your tongue were like a ton of bricks to Mikey. His mouth gaped and the rest of them also were in shock. “You mean we… Together? WHAT?” You flinched, it was a secret that you wanted to take with you to the grave. You took a drink straight out of the bottle. “Yep…” He was upset that he couldn’t remember anything, even more upset that you didn’t tell him - “Do you regret it?” He was worried. “Of course not!” You immediately said while cupping his face. “I’m glad it was you. I thought you didn’t see me that way and you always treated me like one of the guys so I was afraid things would get awkward if you knew the truth.” A wave of relief washed over him. He just regrets that he doesn’t remember. 

“How could you not remember losing your virginity? ESPECIALLY TO HER?!” Sanzu cut in and felt a little disappointed in Mikey. He wanted to fuck you the moment he laid eyes on you. He was met with a smack upside his head, Kokonoi was trying to avoid rubbing salt in the wound but he just had to ask. “So (Y/N), you popped his cherry? This whole time we thought he was a virgin.” You giggled at that - you guys sounded like a bunch of teenagers right now. “Wait…Mikey, you haven’t slept with anyone?” His face turned bright red, these were intimate questions that he preferred not to answer out loud. “Can we not do this?” A low chuckle could be heard coming from Ran, the look in his eyes was mischievous. “Let’s play a game, shall we?” Your head perked up, you loved drinking games - especially those that involve stories. 

“Three truths and a lie, those who guess incorrectly have to drink. Simple no?” He was eager to get to know you and get some dirt on everyone else. You took an empty beer bottle and placed it in the middle of the table, “Turn order will be determined by where the bottle points and will continue to the person on the left.” They agreed but Mikey was hesitant, “Come on Mikey, it will be fun!” The smile on your face, he hated to admit it but you were the only one he couldn’t say no to. You spin the bottle and the person it lands on is Ran. The turn order was: Ran, Rindou, Kokonoi, Sanzu, Mikey, and finally - you. “I’ve dated multiple girls at the same time, I hide things from Sanzu when he’s high, I give Rindou’s phone number to girls I’m not interested in and I laced everyone’s beer earlier.” The look on everyone’s faces was priceless. Sanzu looked like the world made much more sense. Rindou grinned, he balled up his fist, and said, “You’re the reason why I’ve had to change my number multiple times…?” You could almost see the steam coming out his nostrils. Everyone agreed that Ran didn’t lace the drinks or else he would have chosen another game to play. “See? Easy, no one drank this round. Your turn Rindou.” Ran just rustled some feathers.

Ran was ready to win this round, this was his little brother after all, there was no way he would guess wrong. “Alright, alright…” he clears his throat. “I almost killed someone at the age of 13, I’ve wanted to cry when getting tattooed, I fucked Ran’s girlfriends and I’ve broken the most bones during a brawl.” Your mouth gaped a bit, what the fuck happened to him as a kid?? “Pick wisely bitches…” The cocky smirk on his face was making you wonder if he actually had three lies and one truth. Sanzu immediately called out the broken bones as a lie. There was no way he’s racked up more broken bones than Ran or Mochizuki - those two always made sure to break someone’s arm or leg during a fight, if not both. Kokonoi and Mikey agreed with Sanzu. Ran called Rindou out on him fucking his girlfriends. They all turned to you awaiting your answer and the look on his face did not change - he had the same cocky smirk plastered on his face. “The ‘wanting to cry when getting tattooed’, that’s a lie.” Your face was serious, everyone was taken back - they all had a terrible time at some point during their first tattoo session. 

“Everyone, take a shot - except (Y/N).” Ran whipped his head around so fast, you thought his neck was gonna snap, “Bullshit! You didn’t, those girls were wrapped around my fingers…” Oh the shit eating grin on his face was enough to make the older Haitani’s eye twitch. “I think they liked my cock better, bro.” You began laughing, “Ha! There was no way you would be bitching about a little tattoo pain if you were getting into brawls breaking bones.” You were so proud of yourself. They all huffed and took a shot, what followed were a bunch of coughs and gasps. “Fuck! That’s strong!” Sanzu retorted, sticking his tongue out. Mikey was the only one who didn’t flinch - he remembered exactly what tequila tastes like. “Next…” Rindou says while looking at Kokonoi. “I’ve had more money than I knew what to do with, I’ve been in love before, I’ve kissed a man and I’ve frequented clubs since the age of 13.” Oof, that one was kind of hard, these seemed more believable to you. Rindou and Ran agreed that him being in love was a lie. Sanzu agreed that Kokonoi kissing a man was a lie and Mikey agreed with him. You walked up to Kokonoi and placed a hand on his chest. “The money is a lie.” You were met with a roar of laughter, even Mikey laughed at you - there was no way Kokonoi would lie about money. 

Kokonoi stuck his tongue out, “Men, take a drink…” They all stopped laughing and looked at him seriously. “You’ve been in love, I can see it on your face - it hurts.” They were taken back at how well you were guessing. His smile is deceptive to others but there was something in your gut that told you otherwise. “You’re next Sanzu.” You returned to your seat next to Mikey. Sanzu was smiling from ear to ear. “I’ve snorted coke out of a hooker’s ass, I’ve spent too much money on drugs, I killed Mucho and I want to fuck (Y/N).” Your body shuddered, not only at his confession to murder but to wanting to fuck you. It made your core ache. All the other’s immediately called bullshit on him killing Mucho. The guy disappeared 6 months after the Kanto incident and was never heard from again. Rumors were that he left Tokyo and was last seen in the Philippines. You were put in an awkward position, you knew he wanted you by how he eyed you up and down when you arrived but to admit it felt kind of conceded. “Umm, you don’t wanna fuck me - you don’t even know me?” “Doesn’t matter sweetheart, I want you bent over the table right now… oh, everyone take a drink.” Mikey looked at Sanzu with a serious face, “Mucho was last seen in the Philippines…you didn’t kill him.” Wrong, he killed Mucho in the very spot where the Kanto incident took place. “I did it for you Mikey, he betrayed Toman’s King…” Ran chimed in, “Whoa, whoa, whoa - there is no way your crazy ass hasn’t snorted coke out of a hooker’s ass.” It was as if the subject of murder was nothing to them. 

Sanzu’s words of wanting to have you bent over the table were whirling around in your head. It was making you hot and flustered, you began rubbing your thighs together and Rindou noticed how you shifted in your seat. A wicked grin was planted on his face. “How ‘bout it (Y/N)? Wanna get bent over the table?” A light squeak escaped your lips and they all chuckled at your reaction. “You’re up next my King.” Sanzu said with a low tone, making your body tingle - he was menacing and yet so handsome. “I’ve wanted to fuck (Y/N) since I was a teenager, I regret not keeping (Y/N) here when we turned 18, I put a hit on (Y/N)’s boyfriend, I am in love with (Y/N).” This was hard, even for Bonten’s members, they all sounded believable to them. “Mikey, you didn’t put a ‘hit’ on (BF/N). You’re not that kind of person.” Again, you were being laughed at. You had no idea who these men were nor what Mikey did for a living. “You aren’t in love with (Y/N).” Sanzu said and Rindou agreed with him. Mikey has never once shown interest in a woman, those that approached him were only playthings, there was nothing there romance wise. “You don’t regret her leaving, not with how things turned out…” Kokonoi said, he knew Mikey was in love with someone but kept his distance to avoid any more personal losses. “I’m gonna agree with (Y/N) on this one.” Ran said while studying Mikey’s face - there was no way he would say something that hurtful to you. “Ran, angel - you’re right.” He turned to look at Sanzu, Rindou and Kokonoi, “Drink up.” 

“You’re next angel…” You swallowed hard, Mikey’s confession just rolled off his tongue with ease. Was it the alcohol talking? Was he being serious? Now you too were feeling the liquid coursing through your veins and you decided to dive off the deep end. Go big or go home, right? “Well?” Ran said, snapping you out of your thoughts. You took a deep breath and closed your eyes. “Mikey gave me my first orgasm, I have a high sex drive, I’ve said Mikey’s name out loud when I masterbated before, I got pregnant at the age of 18.” It was quiet, you could almost hear a pin drop - you opened your eyes and saw them staring at you with their mouths open. That was a lot for them to take in, they didn’t know whether to be turned on or concerned that you had a secret love child with Mikey. “Is that why you stopped visiting?” Mikey’s face was visibly hurt, he wondered why you stopped visiting after that summer you both blacked out and this could possibly be the reason why. “That’s cruel (Y/N), did you actually have a baby? Where is the baby now?” Kokonoi asked. Ran’s mind was racing, he was not expecting this much juicy intel - this was a bombshell. “You don’t have a high sex drive - or else you would have fucked Mikey and everyone else in this room by now.” Rindou said, they all agreed with him. Mikey’s hands were shaking, he couldn’t get the thought of impregnating you out of his head. “Oh for fuck sake, everyone drink - I’ve never been pregnant! I’m sorry Mikey, I didn’t mean to upset you. Everyone’s stories were so crazy that I had to match them.” You said while pulling him in for an embrace. 

Everyone relaxed a bit, they were concerned that Mikey was about to lose his shit. “Game over, everyone go home…” Mikey’s tone was low and stern. He sounded pissed off, none of them questioned him, they got up and headed towards the door. “I’m crashing with you tonight Koko, just don’t kiss me…” There was an echo of a slap in the hallway as the door closed. 

You released Mikey from your embrace and stepped back, “Manjiro, I’m sorry - I seriously didn’t mean to upset you.” Fuck, if looks could kill, you would be dead right now. His eyes were dark and he took a step closer, making you take another step back - your heart began beating out of your chest when he took another step forward. “You don’t fuck around with things like that…” Your eyes began to water, you’ve never seen him this mad before and the anxiety was eating away at you. Soon you were backed up into the couch and fell over. “Mikey, please, I’m sorry.” He closed the distance by pinning you against the couch, you screwed your eyes shut and flinched when he raised his hand. “Just kidding…” Mikey’s voice was mischievous and playful. You opened one eye and saw the look on his face, he was grinning at you and leaned in to place a kiss on your lips. You were confused as fuck. “I knew you were lying about being pregnant, I just wanted everyone to get out already - I wanna hear you say my name while you cum…” 

He began to take your clothes off, almost ripping them off you and you couldn’t help but give in. Your body was positioned at the edge of the couch and Mikey was on his knees, face between your folds and swiping his tongue over your slit. “You taste so good, so fuckin’ good.” He groaned and began palming his cock. Your eyes were glossed over and you were panting, every swipe was making your thighs tremble. “M-mmh, fuck…” You began moaning and grinding your heat into his tongue. His eyes flickered up to see your blissed out face. He wanted to make you say his name. Without warning, he slid two fingers in your tight hole - making you throw your head back. “Ah! Mikey!” “There we go…say my name angel…” The way your walls clenched around his digits was making his cock throb. Your essence was dripping from your core and he couldn’t help but release his hardened member to begin fisting it. His moans vibrated through your pussy and it was making your coil tighten, your left hand gripped his hair and pulled him closer to your heat. “Gonna cum for me, angel?” He smirked against your skin and continued pumping his fingers in and out of you - picking up the pace. 

Your free hand began to roam your breasts, pinching and rolling your sensitive nipples between your fingers. “I want you Mikey, I need to feel you again…” He began to suck on your clit and your vision was going blurry - the coil in your tummy was close to snapping. The way he curled his fingers, he was searching for your trigger and the moment he found it, your legs began to shake. Mikey began to message that soft spot over and over again and put more pressure on your clit with his tongue. Your heavy panting was an indicator that you were about to tip over the edge. “M-Mikey! Ngh..I’m cumming!” Your coil snapped and his name dripped from your lips, repeating his name as your juices coated his tongue and chin. “Fuck, you’re so beautiful…” Seeing your blissed out expression made him want you even more. Mikey withdrew his fingers and got on his feet, dropping his pants and boxers - your eyes were devouring every inch of him. He was bigger than you remember, your walls clenched in reflex and he noticed. “This time I’m making sure this stays etched in my memory…” 

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Weird Cutie

I had a date with a guy on Bumble we'll call him weird cutie. His pictures weren't very great but I could tell he was cute. We matched and spoke for a few days then decided we would move to texting. He was very weird but good weird so I agreed to meet him the following week. I arrived at Jacks and he was late, I sat for 10mins only to see him coming towards mw. As I was getting ready to leave, he was taller than I thought and had glasses. He was also a little chubby in his belly but had long black hair pulled into a bun. He smiled and joked "are you leaving me, you look so cute". I smiled and shrugged "well you're kinda late so....." "I am but I texted you and I'm here now", he reached down and hugged me then spun me around looking me up and down in my blue dress. I smirked but sat down in the booth. We ordered drinks and food he was more so interesting than I thought he would be, and he was cute. He liked me I could tell by how he moved closer to me in the booth and put his hand on my thigh,reached down and started rubbing my bare legs. I moved his hand and apologized, "I wasnt sure if I would like you so I skipped shaving my legs but in my defense I didnt think you'd be touch me so intimately on the first date either, sorry but theres levels" he removed his hand and asked am I at the level to earn me a kiss, I smiled shyly, he leaned in and I felt my body getting hot, he moved his hand back to my thigh and started rubbing it closer and closer to my center. Before I could blink his lips were on mind and his eyes were closed. This was so weird. Why was this so weird to me..... If been with a guy before but this feel in was so weird. I closed my eyes nd played the instructions in my head on how to kiss(I was a late bloomer and my best friend taught me how to kiss). He started moving when my tongue met his so I broke the kiss worried someone would think our pda was inappropriate. If never displayed such pda openly before, is only normally do it in the comfort of my home because that where it seem like guys was most comfortable but he was different, weird. He smiled at me and the butterflys started, our date lasted 3hrs and when it was time to leave he asked should he follow me home but I reminded him there was levels. His birthday was next week. He invited me to his house to hangout because he didn't consider his birthday a big deal, so we agreed to meet next week. This was Monday. Next week arrived but more specifically his birthday;Tuesday. I had a long day of work and hadn't heard from him so around 1pm I texted him happy birthday. He responded by asking if I would see him, I told him I'd see. By 5:30I had a massive headache and was tired for the day I felt like locking myself in my room and making love to my bed in the form of Zzz. But I had to deposit some money into the bank for a bill to be paid so I told him to text me his address and I'd see him soon. He was in the middle of moving, I had on another dress this one mustard yellow, it looked amazing on my milk chocolate brown skin. He came to the door and looked different, he was cuter than last time and wasnt wearinf his glasses, I was shocked and aroused. I sat on a lazyboy and he sat on the couch, like most millenials he didnt have cable to cut cost on unnecessary bills but he had an xbox and internet. We watched live boxing through it and he started the typical male ploy "why are you sitting all the way over there by yourself, come sit next to me" I thought this way of asking for attention was always cute. I got up and sat beside him "is this close enough for you", he smirked and hugged me while,sniffing me "you smell so good". 😊thank you. His hands roamed my thighs again while he pulled my face into a kiss, he leaned his body back and pulled me on top of him while sliding my dress up over my ass. He smacked it,I pulled myself away he leaned up and grabbed my breast, having his hands touch and caress my body felt so amazing. I couldn't believe it had been 6 years since I had sex but here I was. He lifted my dress over my nd slid his hands under my bra,pinching my nipples, my mind was lost everything was happening so quickly yet it felt like it was all in slow motion. His eyes seemed so dark and focused, one hand pulled me by the waist closer to him. His eyes watched my as he opened his mouth and slid it over my right nipple. He bit down gently and it made my whole body shutter, I moaned and closed my eyes he removed his mouth instantly and pulled my face back,into a deep passionate kiss. My hips started rocking on his lap while his hand massaged my breast. I was feeling hot all over my body again and my panties started to feel like I peed myself. I tried to pull away but he held me close, his hands, his mouth it all was driving me crazy. But the levels I need to remind myself that the ultimate goal was to have him. I made up my mind I wanted him this weird guy I wanted him to be mine. So I snatched myself away and hop off him, "I need to use the bathroom", he looked lost. "Okay..... Its down the stairs to the left." I pulled my dress back down and went to the bathroom, I tried to compose myself and dry myself. I needed to make sure he didnt think I was easy. He got myself to together and went back up the stairs than sat on the couch, this time towards the opposite end. He smirked at me "would you like a drink?".... I smiled "no thank you", "ok well I'm going to make me one" , he went into the kitchen and made himself a drink than came back. He watched me, I stared at the boxing match screaming in my mind to him "come touch me with your soft warm hands again, come put your lips on mine and all over my body." I felt desperate but I didnt show it. I put my feet on the couch, he pulled them towards him and on his lap, he started rubbing them. "So what did you get me for my birthday?" I laughed "my prensence, surprise happy birthday.......just kidding what do you want?" He looked at me and smirked " you said there was levels right, what level does my birthday fall under?" ...... "Idk tell me exactly what you want and ill see if I can make it happen" He looked down at his lap than to me signaling but if he was going to have the balls to ask for what I thought he was asking he was going to have to say it."I'm sorry are you trying to tell me something, what do you want and use your words please."...... He looked nervous "well........ A bj would be nice right now", I laughed and pretended to look shocked for a sec. He smiled, I got off the catch walked to him. We didnt break contact, I got on my knees infront of him still keeping eye contact and asked "are you sure this is what you want for your birthday?" He seemed nervous but whispered "yes". I unbuttoned his pants, zipped down the zipper and reached into his boxers. He looked amazed it was happening, I licked my lips and leabed down I could hear his breath getting heavier before I put my mouth on it. I looked down at it, it was uncircumcised, exactly how I liked it. I licked the tip, his body twitched, he moaned. I put my mouth on the tip and sucked it slowly,swirling my tongue around it. He moaned "fuck" I smirked and looked up at him. He looked vulnerable and shy, I slid my mouth all the way down and opened my mouth wider while remembering to breath through my nose like how this porn star taught me from a video I use to watch repeatedly in college. His hands covered the back of my head and I felt his thrusting deeper in my mouth while moaning "fuck, its so good. God im going to cum", it hasn't seem like a min but as soon as he said "I'm going to cum". I pulled my mouth off his dick. He whimpered "no" but I started jacking him off instantly and he came all over my hand and his stomach. I laughed, he was breathing heavy and covered his face it turned slightly pink. I smirked and asked "are you good sir?" He smiled, "yeah". He got up and went around the corner to the kitchen, I peaked around the corner and watched him clean his self off and come back with a paper towel, he wiped my hand and kissed me. He threw away the paper towel and we sat back on the couch. He laid in between my legs and would,kiss them often while rubbing them. This feeling again was weird. I grabbed my,phone and looked at time it was 9:23pm. Time to go home, I told him to get up I was leaving I was tired he said "you can go to sleep in my bed. He got up and ushered me back down the stairs, the door next to the bathroom was his room. It was filled with Buddha,alcohol bottles, a bike,books and Japanese art on the wall. I wondered if he was Japanese mixed with something, he was racially ambiguous, my thought was lost when he laid on the bed grbbing my hand to pull me on to it too. He held me by the waist and pulled my lips to his again this time sliding his hand down in between my thighs again, he moved my panties to the side and slid a finger in side I broke the kiss to moan I felt my body arch up, he bit at my nipples through my dress as his fingering became more rigorous, I was getting wetter but also nervous. I pulled his hand from,between my thighs and asked him to stop. He pulled away from me "did I do something wrong?" He looked confused. "No, its not that." I got up from the bed. I was nervous I didnt want to say but he was only guy 4 I'd ever been with I was very shy about sex with partners and tried to figure it out for years since having it but I was most embarrassed about squirting. I looked down while embarrassingly confessing "I don't want to,ruin your bed because I squirt" his face looked blank like he was trying to,process how to react. He got off the bed and hugged. This was weird. He held me, I pulled away and walked towards the door, he grabbed me from,behind and held me." Its ok, thats normal" I felt stupid I wanted to go but he started kissing my neck and his hands pulled up my dress making their way to my breast. I could feel wetness sliding down my legs, he squeezed my breast as one hand slid down my panties from behind and his finger back into my wet pussy I he held my body so tight to his and bend me over towards the bed while fingering me again my body felt like it was shaking while I moaned louder and louder I could hear him starting to moan too. My body felt so hot I felt like my stomach was on fire then, it sound like some let air out a waterbed and my body went numb. I was squirting all over his floor and grubbing his sheets so hard. He slid my panties down and and undid his pants pulling his boxers down faster then any thing I've seen. He slid the tip of his dick inside me, it made my body jump. He moaned "fuck". He held my waist and slid some more in, he was teasing me my body was going crazy "ugh its so wet", my body was shuttering again. He pulled out my breathing was heavy. He held my waist and slid his dick all the way inside me and I felt like I was cumming,instantly. He reached up and grabbed my breast while thrusting and moaning "fuck its so tight", he stopped." I dont want to come yet." I asked in between deep breaths " do you have any condoms?" I looked back at him. He pulled out of me, "no......but ill pull out" he sound half way assuring. I quickly pulled my panties up and slid my dress down. "No thank you, im leaving" the thought of a std or pregnancy gave my mind instant sobriety. I quckly exit the room. He stumbled to pull up his boxers and pants. "Wait" called but I was already back up stairs grabbing my keys and shoes. He caught me at the from door "you dont have to,leave", he begged. "Its late, I have to work in the morning and cant be late for work" he looked disappointed but kiss me on the forehead and on the lips. "Ok ill walk you to your car. He follwed me outside to my car, he held my hand walking me my car. This experience felt so weird. He kissed me again before I got in the car. Then went back inside. I screamed in my mind "ughhhhh I wanted to fuck him,without seeming like a hoe,easy or a slur. Damn double standards for dating. Fuck fuck fuck" I started the car. Put it in drive and drove home. Part1

#Ambw #ambwerotica #ambwdating #ambw love #truedating #millennialdating

[ducklover52]

On the close #WorldMentalHealthDay I wanna say how proud I am of my friends going to therapy and taking care of themselves.

Also how jealous I am.

warning: this is a very long/extremely personal post. if you don’t wanna get into it, basically, I’m proud of you for going, I’m proud of you for trying, I’m jealous of your strength, of finding a good fit and sticking it out to do so. I wish us all the strength we need to ask for help (we’re not weak, but I know that it feels that way, especially when you’re deep in it), the resources to make it work, and the success of finding someone/something that works for you.

I promise, you can stop here. goodnight.

No? Then strap in because this went on tangents I wasn’t even planning on and I’ll admit I even got lost along the way. I think I picked it back up at the end but oof, it took a minute to get there and that transition isn’t good. Okay here we go:

I saw a therapist a few times during my senior year of college. My ex had started seeing one earlier. I had gone with him a couple times and he helped convince me that it was time. I had lost my mom two years earlier. I thought it would help and he said it would.

His guy wouldn't see me/didn't have time to? I don't remember what exactly the issue was. He gave me a number. I called her and we set up an initial meeting, with my ex's help. I never had the "strength" to ask for help by myself. He came with me the first couple times, just to the appointment itself-not into our meeting. I stopped asking him to go with me after a couple weeks. I was over him. I didn’t want to see him at all in my life and I hated associating him with therapy.

I didn't like my therapist. I didn't think she really understood me. I told her about feeling rejected when I didn’t get cast in the last musical of my college career. She basically said oh well. I told her about the stress I was feeling to get my requirements done. She said make a list. I had a list; I’d been checking off my degree audit since freshman year. I didn’t feel any connection. I stopped wanting to share and started feeling judged. I had always been anxious about seeing her to begin with. I stopped seeing her January before I graduated. I had to miss an appointment to go to the regional theatre festival. I never called to reschedule. It wasn’t a good fit.

I met a guy at the festival. We fell fast and hard. We both had issues. He had someone to see/talk to about it. I didn’t. I remember being jealous of having a doctor who prescribed anti-anxiety meds. I also remember him needing substances to assist the meds, or replace them when he couldn’t get his prescription refilled. I didn’t envy that. When I had had enough of being ignored, as he lived 3hrs away and I was the only one willing to make the drive, I started seeing other guys.

Or rather, I started getting really drunk at parties. The “cast party” of my only time stage managing included getting really drunk at the student conductor’s apartment and playing strip spin the bottle. Sorority parties would lead to making out with a sister’s formal date or going home with a guy I’d known since freshman year. I’d talk with them for a week or so before making up shit about not wanting to date an underclassman since I was graduating. Once I actually started dating one of them, after bonding over our parents passing away. I decided he was too good for me, especially after I had gone to visit the theatre guy one night and the next day had to drive straight from Charleston to a Chipotle date and almost ran out of gas getting there. But that was right before finals, so the timing worked for me.

Before graduating, I started rehearsing for my first post-grad show. It was community theatre near my house, my best friends were in charge, and I was just happy to get a production credit and work with my friends. A friend in the cast started making friends and I followed suit. About a month in I was dating one of the leads.We spent almost every day together. We also drank together almost every night, but we were young and didn’t think anything of it. I thought this was it. I had always wanted a showmance and I got it. We talked about our feelings, about his ADHD, how he went to therapy every week. I thought I found someone else I could really connect to. I shared how I’d struggled with my self-image all my life, how I’d tried therapy but didn’t like it, how I wanted to try again but didn’t know where to start. I thought he could help. I thought he could save me.

But three months in and a party with my high school friends tore us apart. I still don’t really know what happened that night but it threw my into a whole new depression. It didn’t help that we had just agreed on a new show to audition for together. And of course we were both cast. And he started dating another cast member. I tried not to care but I was hurt and jealous. And he kept reaching out. He said we could be friends and I was desperate for attention. When I couldn’t see him I acted out by sleeping with a friend.

He acted upset but never really cared. He told me I needed to see and talk someone to help myself move forward in life. Then he’d stop for a day or so before coming back, usually while drinking. And she found out, though it’s not like I tried to hide it (hey girl, how’s it going) cause I was selfish. When she’d had enough she called it quits. I thought maybe we could go back to before. He stopped coming around. My heart was broken all over because their relationship ending didn’t mean ours would start again.

I had gotten on tinder while I was fooling around with him. During that time. I had matched with and started talking to my now bf. I don’t think he was really looking for anything then. We’d go through slow periods where I’d doubt myself and my worth if he didn’t reply. Eventually my bf ended up ghosting me. My ex had given me the contact info for a new therapist. I’d call the number and hang up before I stopped ringing. I’d visit the website and see how much I could do without giving them my info. I was nervous to start again. I didn’t know if I could trust these people, after they guy who showed me to them had given up on me. I never did get into contact with them. 

My bf came back into my life about 5 months later. But this time when we started talking we didn’t stop. We finally started dating. When I got moody, I tried to express how I felt and why. He did a good job of expressing his feelings and telling me how much he cared. I hadn’t experienced that in a while that I was feeling so good about us. During this time, my dad was dating someone. She and her two kids moved in over that summer. Shit got complicated. She and her kids destroyed my life. I leaned on my bf as much as I could, but we were long distance. My sister had just gotten engaged and she and her then fiance were doing some premarital counseling. She had had a lot of issues coming from my dad and his then fiance and it led to us all needing to go to a session.

During the one or two we attended, my sister tried to explain how we felt about our dad’s fiancee taking over. They’d ask me to chime in and I wouldn’t be able to speak for myself. I was scared. I was still living with my dad at the time and I couldn’t be honest about what I was feeling or experiencing. I was singled out during these sessions and asked about my mental health history and things I didn’t feel comfortable discussing with or in front of my family. I shut down. I was asked to find my own help or see someone else to discuss these things. And I couldn’t get the attention off me. At the time I felt picked on and judged. Like I did when I first talked to someone in college. I felt discouraged. I was scared.

Since then I’ve been kicked out of the house I grew up in, I’ve fought with my bf about the same topics I don’t even know how many times, and I’ve had a couple of the shittiest years to date, including things that I’m still not quite ready to discuss, even in anonymity on the internet. And through this all, and what I was eventually trying to make my way back to, I’ve known that I should probably be seeing someone. I have friends who are in therapy and I’m jealous. I want the relief that comes with sharing your thoughts and feelings with someone who’s job is to help you make sense of it all. But I’ve never found that. I don’t know what it’s like. I don’t know where to find it and I don’t know where to look. And now I’m off my dad’s insurance and couldn’t even afford it if I did.

I don’t know how to end this, except to again, praise those of you are seeking the help you need/want because good for you, you deserve it! We all do. If you’re not currently seeing a professional but you want to, I wish you nothing but success in finding someone you jive with because I know it’s not just a one and done situation. And to those of you like me who don’t know how to go from here, or how to reach out, or even what you want/need, I wish you clarity to figure it out and resources to try to make it work. I hope we all get what we need and deserve in the end.

#world mental health day #long post #like REALLY long #therapy #idek

[readysetgaikokujin]

brittanaheya373

Do you not miss your mom or people back in the U.S.?

Hey sweet thing. I was gonna reply to you in the comment section, but I got a bit long there, then it deleted it when I clicked away, so we’re going to try again here ^^

Of course I miss my family and friends. I don’t know that I will ever not miss my family and friends. But me staying in Japan isn’t meant to be flippant towards those relationships, or to imply they aren’t strong bonds I value. One of the beautiful things about moving away is that, even though it’s hard, you find out who’s willing to put in real work to maintain close relationships with you and you really do make deeper relationships despite distance.

Back home, my immediate family still lives pretty close by one another. My mother lives within an hour’s drive of my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew. My brother is finishing up college, and he’s about an hour in another direction from my mother too. When I go back, I can see them all in one visit.

But my father and my mother separated when I was younger, and Dad went to live with his side of the family in Canada on our reserve. I don’t see Dad’s sister or my cousins for years at a time. It’s harder for me to see my father unless he drives down to NC to meet me. It’s an 18hr drive or a 3hr flight plus drive to get to him from my mom’s. So really, for a while now, I’ve always missed one family member or another. I’m not used to it, but I have accepted it as a part of my life.

I think, too, that having lived here so long and having forged the relationships I have, if I left Japan I would be faced with the same conundrum. I would miss family members I have here (I firmly believe you choose your family in a lot of ways) every day if I left this country. When I leave this country. It would hurt similarly to not being able to hug my mom as to not being able to hug my friend and her kids.

In moving away, I thought I would always come back to NC and live close by to my mom. And there is a comfort in knowing that I still can if I want to. But the life I have with my husband here in Japan, how independent and separated it is from family, is almost a blessing even when I miss them. He’s my family, and my best friend, and even though I would do anything for my immediate family back home only Alexander has been on this journey living in another country with me for so long. He understands how it’s changed us. In feeling like we don’t belong fully to Japan or fully to America or fully to Canada, we have a lot of freedom to go anywhere, and that’s both terrifying and exciting!

I know for some people it’s harder. If it ends up being harder for you (or whoever is reading this), that’s not a bad thing. But distance helped me appreciate my relationships with my family members on a deeper level, and missing people will never keep me from doing what I know will keep me happier on a day to day. And I live securely knowing they won’t be offended if my happiness is in Japan rather than NC for a while longer.

I’m sorry this is so long a response to a short question, but I defs needed to be clear with it ;) Thanks for the question!

#replies #brittanaheya373 #living in japan #missing people #family #JET program #JET programme #life stuff in general haha

[sebastianrg1346-blog]

From the Ditch to the Repair Shop

We all go through struggles. Some crash and fall, and others rise to the top with no worries in sight. I myself am a bit of both. I had multiple failures, but with dedication, I rose from the abyss.

This is one of my saddest moments in my life, that personally, I thought there was no way out. During mid 2013-early 2015, I use to be a high speeder, and occasionally race. I’d race on the highway, any part of the highway, as long as there was a challenger (not the car, just a person wanting to challenge me). Personally my favourite track was Lake Shore Drive; which the fastest I’ve gone was 185mph; from 1800-2300 hours. It was enough traffic, that one had to use all of their senses to swerve in and out of traffic. I was the best for that, cutting close in everything, barely fitting, going under high-rise semis, and just using the basic speed, time, distance ratio to make it happen; overall money was pouring in from those races.

Now during late 2012 and early 2013, I received tickets like no other. I told myself, “I have the money, I can easily pay it, and boom, no worries.” That eventually caught up to me. I was pulled over in Shaumburg, specifically speaking on Golf Road, next to California Pizza Kitchen. Now the incident wasn’t speeding related, but at a red light, a lady went reverse, and bumped into me. She frantically got out of her car, and said I hit her. Would you believe that? and stated that I created the bump in car, when in reality, that bump was there. Well fast forward, police came, and took me away. Reason: I had 4 tickets, and had a suspended license. My girlfriend at the time, Kelly Ann S., followed me to Rowling Meadows stations and bailed me out the 160$. I had a court date.

In Belvidere, I was pulled over for going 80mph, in a 65. They didn’t arrest me, they just gave me another ticket. I had to tell my parents because it was catching up to me, and so I did. It went as I thought it did. anger, disappointment, and worrisome.

We arrived to McHenry County Courthouse, and had a lawyer ready at hand. To be honest, this lawyer, I had a bad juju of him. Immediately he said, “pay up 500$” like WTF? really? All he stated was we’re going in, and just plea guilty, and let me do all the talking. Which I did so, and welp, that didn’t work as planned. I was handcuffed, and taken to the back. I was scared, scared to death. I cried multiple times that day. I put my parents through so much worry, that, all I remember, was saying “guilty” and a officer comes behind me, places handcuffs, and treating me like a official criminal. I turned around, and my mom was reaching for me, bursting into tears, and my father, speechless. The door opened, and I was taken into a dark cold room - soundproof. In a time-span of 3hrs, I was on a bus, headed to Chicago. Which the trip took 4hrs, because we stopped at every suburb picking up actual criminals, and those like me, for stupidity. That night we arrived to the D.O.C. Department of Correction. I was scared shitless. I was in line to pick my clothes (blue) for misdemeanors, black for convictions, red for murders, tan for theft, and some other colours I don’t remember. They arranged us with the colours we were. I did a health evaluation, and cried in front of the nurse, where I told my story to him, and he too was flabbergast, That I was just arrested, and he stated, I should’ve received a letter payment, and court. which is what the Cook County, Lake County, and McHenry County do. Never received it.

It was close to midnight, there were no clocks there, and I was in a tight room, with benches, and a couple of TV’s. There was a basketball game going on, and Miami Heat was playing - it was the playoffs. There were payphones on the wall, but you didn’t have to pay. So I made a call home, just to hear my parents voice. Man I cried. I wanted to go home. I was afraid, and just hearing my mom and dad’s voice saying, it’s going to be okay. It eased me. I arrived to my quarters with everyone wearing blue. They took me to my cot, where I placed my pillow, and blanket, and I sat down, contemplating, I don’t want my future like this. In that moment, I spoke to some great innocent people.

There was a guy who always parked his car in the same spot for the past 10yrs in Lincoln Park, IL. He did that on this day, and as he got out of his, he was stopped by a police officer, who arrested him on the spot. Reason: for parking in front of a fire hydrant, and resisting arrest. When in reality, he said, he always parked 2-5ft in front of the fire hydrant, and did so on this day. I was taking to trail, where the officer stated he was resting arrest, and was also arrested for theft, murder and battery. This man said, he’s done nothing like that. He’s a doctor at Northwestern Medical University, he’s married to a beautiful wife, who’s an architecture, and he has 3 great kids. He wouldn’t do such a thing to risk his life. I was in shock with his story. There was another guy, his name was also Sebastian, and he’s from Aurora, IL. He’s a college student at Elmhurst College, studying business, and music therapy. He had a part-time job as a security officer for a business. One night he was going to a friends house, and arrived to a massive party all over the house, and on the lawn. He notice his friend, who called him up, and was outside. They talked for a few minutes, the friend pulls out a baggie of cocaine, and at that moment, the cops arrive to break the party down. The friend throws the cocaine to him, and guess what, Sebastian was arrested for possession of drugs. Just in the wrong place, at the wrong time. I met great people, that didn’t belong there. They, were wrongfully placed.

That morning, I was awaken by Sebastian, that they are calling me, I was being released. Everyone in the room was clapping, because they knew my story, and knew I was one of them, wrongfully placed at the D.O.C. I arrived to a room, and received my clothing that I came with. I changed, and was taken to another building, that I had to sign for the time i did, which was less then 24hrs. I finally stepped outside, into the busy streets. I saw my dad, and my brother-in-law, Saim, ran to them and hugged them, and cried again. I wanted to take care of this, and become a better person.

The following month we met up with the lawyer again at Rolling Meadows, and again, 500$ up-front. We got nothing done, that day., and were scheduled for the following month. It was September, and we went to the courthouse again. Another lawyer met with us, and he stated, he works with the lawyer we had. But he didn’t charge us upfront. All he said was, we win his, you owe me nothing. We lose this, I’ll send you my bill. That day, he manage to drop 2 out of the 6 tickets I had in the McHenry County Region. He set up another date for the following week, which was weird. We arrived the following week, and the other lawyer showed up, and the new lawyer did too. We dropped the first lawyer, who was just seeing us as dollar bills. In that week, all charges were dropped, tickets were wiped out, and I was free. He even had proof that McHenry County never sent a letter of payment and etc. So he worked his magic, and had McHenry County pay me, the money worth of the hassle I went through. Made the other lawyer pay me back the money of the nonsense he put me through. I came out winning and with a clean record, with no class necessary., and my license back. Yeah, that’s right, I beat the government.

Now in belvidere, I had something similar, but no arrest, just tickets, and they said, if I don’t show, I’ll have a warrant for my arrest. We called a family friend, Paul Villa, a lawyer that also did his magic, in the span of 4months. with 2 meetings. I never had to pay anything, back, once again, Paul made it to where my record was spotless, no charges, no convictions, nothing. I was a free man, able to drive again. I was unstoppable.

Since then I have halted my racing, I have managed to stay between at limit to 5 over. That was my all-time-low. I was afraid, and from this experience, I realized, my life overall,  had to become better. Which it has been, slowly but surely. I just hope this story, in the future, can aid my future children, to double think EVERYTHING before they do something.

#life #life experience #speed #law #down below #life changing

[callunavulgari]

Scrapbook 2017, Take 1

Scrapbook for 2017, because I actually kept up with it last year (for the most part) and it helped a lot. So, rules!

Italicized titles = enjoyed muchly, bold titles = love, titles with an asterisk* = OBSESSION and titles in (brackets) are re-watches/re-reads. And lastly, strikethough = DISLIKE.

Goals are: read thirty-five new books this year, finish four video games, finish writing and publish the Sabriel AU, and write something original. Even if it’s just a collection of short stories.

MOVIES

January:

(Flubber)

Arrival

(Spirited Away)

KH X

iBoy

February:

The Awakening

(Finding Dory)

(The X-Files)

(V For Vendetta)

La La Land

Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb

(Interstellar)

Ex. Machina

March:

No Country For Old Men

Beetlejuice

Pontypool

Logan

Get Out

Beauty and the Beast (remake)

It

April:

Tales From Earthsea

(The Secret World of Arriety)

(Inside Out)

(Kubo and the Two String)

May:

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2

(It)

The Secret Life of Pets

(Moana)

Stargate

Your Name

BOOKS

January:

Vicious | V.E. Schwab

Goldenhand | Garth Nix

Frankenstein | Mary Shelley

Illuminae | Amie Kaufman [Fin]

February:

Before the Fall | Noah Hawley

The Martian | Andy Weir

March:

Before the Fall | Noah Hawley 

The Martian | Andy Weir

Annihilation | Jeff Vandermeer

April:

Annihilation | Jeff Vandermeer [Fin]

Vicious  | V.E. Schwab [Fin]

A Conjuring of Light | V.E. Schwab [Fin]

Love for the Cold-Blooded: Or: The Part-Time Evil Minion’s Guide to Accidentally Dating a Superhero [Fin]

May:

(American Gods)

PODCASTS

May:

The Bright Sessions Eps 1-31

Alice Isn’t Dead Eps 1-2

TV SHOWS BY SEASON

January:

Stargate Atlantis s5

Sherlock s4

Gate

Steven Universe

Travelers

Trollhunters

A Series of Unfortunate Events

Skam

Voltron

Konosuba

Stargate SG-1 (s1)

Taboo

February:

Stargate SG-1 s1, s2

Yamishibai

Frequency s1

(The X-Files)

Grey’s Anatomy s3

Taboo

Legion

The Flash

Black Mirror s1

March:

Legion

The Flash s3

Taboo

Supernatural

(Hannibal s1)

April:

Legion 

Rick and Morty s3

The Flash

Grey’s Anatomy s4, s5

(Hannibal s1)

The Expanse s1

Trollhunters s1

American Gods

May:

American Gods

Sense8 s2

The Flash

Grey’s Anatomy s5, s6

Wynnona Earp

Grace and Frankie

Riverdale

Steven Universe

VIDEO GAMES

January:

Pokemon Moon (7 hrs)

Dragon Age: Inquisition (Dwarf Rogue; 1 hr)

Final Fantasy X (2 hrs)

Dragon Age: Origins (Male Human Mage; 52 hrs)

KH 2.8 | BBS; A Fragmentary Passage (3hrs)

KH DDD Remake (1 hour)

February:

Pokemon Moon (15 hrs)

Dragon Age: Origins (Male Human Mage; 52 hrs)

Mass Effect 2 (Male Soldier Sheppard; 1 hr)

Assassin’s Creed 2 (8 hrs)

Silent Hill 3

March:

Fallout New Vegas

Horizon Zero Dawn (80 hrs) [Fin]

Mass Effect Andromeda (Female Ryder; 41 hrs)

April:

Mass Effect Andromeda (Female Ryder; 83 hours) [Fin]

Persona 5 (80 hrs)

May:

Persona 5 (96 hrs)

Nier: Automata (4 hrs)

LoZ: Breath of the Wild(40 hrs?)

DELIGHTFUL FIC

January:

Stargazers by Ruby_Wednesday (Captive Prince; Laurent/Damen;  Five years after the Truce of Marlas, Damen and Laurent meet again in Delpha. They're forced to work together to soothe the growing tension between their countries. But Laurent does not forgive easily and Damen's not that sorry.)

con·tra·dic·tion by caseyvalhalla (Yu Yu Hakusho; Kurama/Hiei;  Mukuro raised the paper until it was out of range, just to make Hiei lean up on tiptoe, just to see that curl of anger on his mouth again, and she smiled sweetly enough to bare all of her teeth. “Why are you exchanging love letters with the right hand of my political rival?”)

in another time in another castle by caseyvalhalla (KH; AkuRoku; No one grows up without regrets.But time moves in cycles, winds back on itself, and sooner or later that kid you used to play video games with is gonna reappear just in time to ruin your day.)

Hernandes & Jones by antistar_e (kaikamahine) (SU; Japis;  In Miami, it's a statuette. Jasper tells her, "Come on, I need your help," and Lapis says, "That's nice. What part of 'I'm not wearing a catsuit' do you not understand?")

i have my body (and you have yours) by astoryaboutwar (YoI; Yuuri/Victor;  Yuuri overflows with the weight of things that have been said, trembles with what remains.)

A Somaal Universe by antistar_e (kaikamahine) (SU; Japis; Connie flips over the next card. "'Most likely to -'" She reads out loud, and then dissolves into laughter and has to start over, propping the card up on her bump. "'Most likely to freak out when you go into labor and break the speed limit getting to the hospital?'" "Pearl," Amethyst and Jasper say in unison.)

Let's Give Ourselves Promises of Our Unending byaimmyarrowshigh, nichestars (SW; Shara/Kes/Cassian; Captain Cassian Andor tries to define what it means to live after he should have died. His second life is a softer one.)

Abstain by resonant (SGA; Mcshep;  Aliens force John and Rodney not to have sex.)

Advantage by resonant (SGA; Mcshep;  This slave-owner thing was a lot of responsibility.)

Streets In A World Underneath It All by ISMENETRUTH (SGA; Mcshep; "Puddlejumper One: An Exclusive Portrait of John Sheppard on Atlantis," John reads aloud, smirking. "Funny, I'm pretty sure I've never met the author.")

Faith healing by aesc (SGA; Mcshep; The signal had started a year and a half ago, maddening, popping up in Chicago, D.C., Charlotte, New York City, Santa Fe, Montgomery, Santa Cruz, Seattle, a town in Kansas with a name like Desperation and a place in North Dakota called, from what Rodney could remember, Sweaty Groin.)

The home front by aesc (SGA; Mcshep; “This had better be the Sheppard residence,” Rodney says, brilliant, agitated life and volume against a monotonous day and Dave’s subdued welcome, “because I’ve been driving around for hours and if I ever find the woman who did the voice on my GPS system I’m going to personally amputate her vocal cords.”)

Reality by Resonant (SGA; Mcshep; McKay was the perfect object for a crush you never intended to do anything about.)

Cultural Exchange by lamardeuse (SGA; Mcshep;  "What does he think we are, Fine Arts majors?" Rodney grumbled.)

Do You Know What I Know? by DevilDoll (SGA; Mcshep;  "You need to come here, "John said, crooking a finger, "so I can slap you in the head.")

Pegasus Non-Verbal by igrab (SGA; Mcshep;  John always gets a little thrill when he sees Rodney sign at him across the room, casually dissing people literally standing next to him and John is the only one who knows.)

Junk Cheap by DevilDoll (SGA; Mcshep;  If you were thinking you'd love to read an AU where Rodney is a college professor and John owns a junk shop, this is the story for you.)

Denial by DevilDoll (SGA; Mcshep;  "John talks about you all the time.")

All The Way To The Bone by respoftw (SGA; Mcshep;  John is ready for a new beginning and he wants the tattoo to commemorate it. )

February:

Calling Down the Lightning by dreamwaffles (SGA; Mcshep;  Dr. Rodney McKay, PhD PhD, is a wizard.)

Forget Me Not by maisierita (SGA; Mcshep; John the servant turns out not to be anything like Rodney would have imagined.)

Unidentified by fiercelydreamed (SGA; Mcshep; Fourteen years, eight months, and seven days after John and Rodney meet, the clock starts all over again.)

into that secret place where no one dares to go by verity (TW; Stiles/Lydia; 4k; The first time he felt Lydia's soul, it felt like a sneeze.) 

Black Helicopters at Dawn by whizzy (SGA; Mcshep; 240k;  Screw the bet. Rodney was going to prove the existence of extraterrestrial intelligence. Oh, and incidentally, he might just catch the United States Air Force with their pants around their ankles.)

Out in the Open by Xparrot (SGA; Mcshep;  It's Situation Normal for the team when they're caught in an avalanche, but digging themselves out uncovers more than they counted on.)

A Rational Universe by Xparrot (SGA; Mcshep;  "You're a lot more encouraging than my last friendly hallucination," Rodney says.)

Speech Deprived by Xparrot (SGA; Mcshep;  Rodney was released from the infirmary with painkillers, icepacks, and a strict injunction to limit all unnecessary speech for at least three days.)

Lord of the Sea (masterpost) by Multi (SGA; Mcshep; Among the Goa'uld, Mer'deth was something of an oddity.)

The Return to Normalcy by  Cypher (SGA; Mcshep;  The three month anniversary of the exile--as John thinks of it--falls on a three-day weekend.)

Still by murron (SGA; Mcshep;  On any other day, John might have shot Rodney a quick look, broadcasting his doubt and checking whether Rodney shared it. With a sinking heart, Rodney admitted it would be foolish to expect that kind of exchange right now.)

March:

Surrogate God by PepperPrints (The Flash; Reverb/Harry;  When Harrison Wells returns to Earth-2, someone is waiting for him. Reverb survived Zoom, but with the cost of losing his abilities. Convinced that Harry can return his powers to him, Reverb holds him captive, and he's asking for more than Harry can deliver.)

My Father Before Me by telleer (SGA; Mcshep;  Even after twenty years, Rodney still has no idea how to raise children.)

We Cannot Live Within by laureltreedaphne (SGA; Mcshep; John grinned. "So McKay's attractive to everyone?")

Before We Get Going, Here's Some Books I'd Like You to Read by Chash (The 100; Bellamy/Clarke;  Two months into her new job at the library, Clarke knows the following things about Bellamy Blake: they reserve a lot of books, they have good taste in said books, and they're really good at avoiding her.)

Livewire by marauders_groupie (The 100; Bellamy/Clarke;  Clarke Griffin finds 'Atlas' written on her wrist and Bellamy Blake sees flowers bloom on his skin.)

For Love of the Hunt by acidtonguejenny (Horizon Zero Dawn; Nil/Aloy;  If she’s hard on Nil, it’s because she understands more of him than she wants to.)

Heavy Weapons and How to Use Them by Armengard (Horizon Zero Dawn; Aloy/Petra;  The world ended, and then it didn't, and Aloy seeks a new purpose. In the meantime, visiting Free Heap and one Petra Forgewoman every so often is certainly worthwhile, as Aloy eventually finds out.)

Like a Lightning Strike by miss_aphelion (Hannibal; Will/Hannibal;  In a world where omegas are instant celebrities and treated like royalty, Will just wants to be left alone.)

babel by spqr (X-Men; Charles/Erik;  Two days ago Charles screamed loud enough that Erik heard him halfway around the world, but he didn’t listen.)

Under the Sea by astolat (SGA; Mcshep;  "Oh, thank you," Rodney yelled over the howls of do that conga!, "because what my night was missing was being groped next to the beer keg by a guy in a tiara.")

Lord, Save Me from Your Followers by anamatics (Supergirl; Lena/Kara; Kara, perhaps out of a want for thoroughness in her story, perhaps out of a Millennial-born urge to creep on a the social media of a woman she finds intriguing, discovers that Lena Luthor has a pretty active following on Instagram one afternoon not long after their first meeting.)

The God Machine by robotboy (Marvel; Loki/Tony; Tony goes undercover to spy on Loki. It's a fucking disaster.)

April:

Debt by Storynerd (Marvel; Tony/Loki;  Tony Stark shouldn't find Loki fascinating, but he does, because all he’s ever wanted to do is take things apart to see how they work. Besides, he’s never been any good at following the rules.)

in stasis by ilgaksu (Voltron; Keith/Lance; The story starts like this: with a story where you think you know the end, until it turns out you don’t, until it turns out you didn’t have a clue.)

Yuri!!! in Space by Fahye (YOI; Yuuri/Victor;  "No, see, we've all been trained a certain way. The training system is traditional; it's centuries old. Nobody taught you. You ballist like it's got nothing to do with war at all." A sleepy, extraordinary smile crawls over Victor's face. "Nobody else does it like that. That's why we're going to win.")

hood & glove by Fahye (YOI; Yuri/Otabek;  "I don't mess with the fae," Otabek says.)

between the motion and the act by Fahye (Captive Prince; Damen/Laurent; "They don't want it to be real," Laurent says. He touches lightly, with his fingertips, where he's written LOVE WINS. "They want us to sell them a fantasy, and they want just enough reality that they can pretend it might happen to them, one day.")

May:

A Perfect Commotion by Ruby_Wednesday (Captive Prince; Damen/Laurent;  Laurent needs this job. Not in the I need to put food on the table and a roof over my head kind of way. He's got a generous inheritance, thank you very much. No, he needs this job to prove he is a functioning adult who did not waste his late mother's money on an expensive education. He can be normal, whatever that is.)

Don't Turn Me Home Again by gyzym (Hawaii Five-O; Danny/Steve;  After a rough day of island living, Danny wakes up in New Jersey and learns the hard way to be careful what he wishes for.)

What We Pretend We Can't See by gyzym (HP; Harry/Draco; Seven years out from the war, Harry learns the hard truth of old history: it’s never quite as far behind you as you thought.)

Favor for Your Four-Chambered Heart by @kaikamahine (SU; Jaspis; Never Let Me Go AU)**

With Fire in Their Eyes by Asuka Kureru (Askerian) (YoI; Yuuri/Viktor; He lands butterfly-light in a swirl of hair and glittering gauze, and the ceiling crashes to the rink all around him.)

An Unpredictable Amount of Turtles by skoosiepants (TW; Sterek;  Stiles says, “I have a five year plan. A five year plan to popularity that will tank the minute I meet this guy.”)

Bring a Towel by verity (SGA; Mcshep;  It was just Rodney's luck that the guy with the strongest expression of the ATA gene on Earth was some lanky alpha who couldn't follow an order as basic as "don't touch anything.")

Crypsis by zoemathemata (SGA; Mcshep; Rodney McKay is the pissiest Alpha John Sheppard has ever met. And that’s saying something.)

Zen and the Art of Jumper Maintenance by Indybaggins (SGA; Mcshep; The one where Rodney gets sucked in and John… follows. Featuring a quirky John, Rodney in orange robes, crazy Ancient-worship, sheep milking and jumpers that aren't broken but need to be fixed anyway.)

Out of West by rageprufrock (SGA; Mcshep;  In 1991, Desert Storm began, Pete Rose got banned from the Baseball Hall of Fame, the Soviet Union collapsed, and Rodney McKay was framed for academic fraud.)

A Slightly Different Quality of Light by rageprufrock (SGA; Mcshep;  John's very first memory, the one Rodney finds after he goes through six separate data terminals--all of which he has relocated to a roomy lab with lots of windows--is of the sky.)

Bell Curve, or, Ladies Night at the Boom Boom Room by rageprufrock (SGA; Mcshep;  In his rational mind, Rodney knew that following a girl who'd just dumped you into a strip club was really, really pathetic.)

Lock the Door by rageprufrock (SGA; Mcshep; "You can't possibly be this stupid," is what Rodney finally decides to start with.)

No Less Unthinkable by rageprufrock (Yuri On Ice; Yuuri/Viktor;  In which Katsuki Yuuri fights a losing battle with chronic anxiety, the quadruple Salchow, and his own judgment four drinks in — but wins the war.)

DELIGHTFUL FANVIDS

January:

Glitter & Gold (Voltron)

► Multifandom | Saturn

Yuri On Love

A Sadness Runs Through Him - a Gravity Falls PMV

win | multifandom (2015 mashup)

hero | multifandom (2016 mashup)

Multifandom | Goodbye 2016

take it slow | multifandom

ruins | The x-files

McShep - Run Baby Run

McShep - Can't Pretend

February:

Superhero; SGA, Mckay/Sheppard (mcshep) 

Burning Desire (Peter/Roman)

►Purple Lamborghini

►MAD HATTER

Multipsychos | I got blood on my hands

Dean Winchester | Born to be wild (8k)

multifandom || The Apotheosis of War (TYS) 

star wars || timelines

Captain America • Symphony of Violence

March:

N/A

April:

As Much As If You Were A God 

►MultiFandom | Believer

"Lenny"/David [Legion] || give it a twist

►MultiFandom | Stay

May:

Kylo Ren || believer

DELIGHTFUL MUSIC

January:

Fassine | Feather Jesus 

DJ Earworm Mashup - United State of Pop 2016 (Into Pieces)

What’s The Use In Feeling Blue - Steven Universe\

Caravan Palace - Lone Digger

Yoga Session 08 - Music for Meditation and Relaxation

Utopia (Jana Hunter Remix)

Not Afraid Anymore

Susanne Sundfør - (LidoLido Remix) The Brothel

Run Baby Run - The Rigs

February:

The Man Who Sold the World - Midge Ure (2010 Remaster) 

Donna Burke - Sins of the Father

Liz Phair - Got My Own Thing

Seinabo Sey - Pistols At Dawn

Laura Marling - Rambling Man

Willy Moon - Railroad Track

March:

Undiscovered First - Feist

Kubo Soundtrack

Matt Maeson - "Cringe"

Tribe Society - Kings

Elephante - Black Ivory

BISHOP - River

BISHOP - Wild Horses

Lisa Hannigan Oh You Pretty Things

Nina Simone - Feeling Good (Bassnectar Remix)

MIX - MAURICE RAVEL Bolero

Rag-n-Bone Man - Human

April:

The Judge - Twenty One Pilots

Horizon Zero Dawn - Complete Soundtrack (OST)

Believer - Imagine Dragons

Kygo, Selena Gomez - It Ain't Me

K.Flay - Blood In The Cut

Stargate - Waterfall ft. P!nk, Sia

Portugal. The Man - "Feel It Still"

Doc Robinson - Golden Daze

Iko, Iko - the Dixie Cups

Brian Reitzell feat. Mark Lanegan - “In The Pines”

May:

Feist - Century 

Girl, You'll Be a Woman Soon - Rafferty

Evil Woman - Electric Light Orchestra

Guardians Inferno (feat. David Hasselhoff)

Moby - Memory Gospel

Above & Beyond - Good For Me

Jack Johnson - The Sharing Song

Lamb - Wise Enough

Otto Knows feat. Avicii - Back Where I Belong

Emmit Fenn - Painting Greys

Bon Iver - Holocene

Made In Heights - Murakami

DVBBS & Shaun Frank - La La Land

Totemo - Host

Years & Years - Worship

Klyne - Paralyzed

Embrace - Goldroom

MØ - Say You'll Be There

Zella Day - Sweet Ophelia

Every Other Freckle - Alt J

Angel Haze - Moonrise Kingdom

BANKS - Better

Marian Hill - Got It

Glass Animals - Holiest Feat. Tei-Shi 

WRITTEN FIC

January:

Piece From a Satyr Play (SW; Reylo; 141 words; Her hair is done up in white ribbons, three enormously lopsided buns trailing down the back of her neck.) 

Wasted Early Sunday Morning (SW; Reylo; 434 words;  Her skin is smoother than his, smoother than many of the people that he’s touched in his life, and he aches to touch it now, watching her stretch lazily in the early morning sunlight, spine arching like a cats.)

Cosmic Love (SGA; Mcshep; 786 words;  There’s solid matter under the palm of his hand, a beating pulse, and a heart to go with it. A living person that Rodney thought that they’d lost.)

can’t help but be wrong in the dark (The Flash; Barry/Julian; 2,942 words;  The day that Allen had snarled an insult back in response to one of Julian’s cutting remarks, he’d gone home and fisted his cock furiously, thinking about the slant of Allen’s mouth and how it would look smeared with come. How Allen’s hair would feel, knotted in Julian’s fingers as he fucked his mouth.

eat flowers, breathe light (SGA; Mcshep; 1585 words;  John gives Rodney a dreamy smile, swaying slightly towards him, and says, “You have really beautiful eyes, you know that?” )

February:

Bifurcation Theory (TW; Stiles/Derek/Lydia; 7208 words; Lydia sucks in another shaky breath, trying to think of a polite way to explain that she's sorry, that this was a mistake, and she didn’t mean to bother him. Just as she’s opening her mouth, Derek sighs gustily, the sound breaking apart with static in her ear. “What’s Stiles done now?” he asks, his tone resigned.

March:

Ain't At Home (Home's Where I'm Going) (Horizon Zero Dawn; Aloy/Vala, Aloy/Avad; 2 Chapters - WIP; 3420 words;  “Not all comforts are bad,” Vala whispers, and Aloy shudders apart.)

April:

Ain't At Home (Home's Where I'm Going) (Horizon Zero Dawn; Aloy/Nil; Aloy/Petra; 2 chapters - WIP; 1872 words;  She’s beautiful, deadly, her eyes gone sharp and flinty as she stares down each of her victims. Nil licks his lips, throat working when she turns to him afterwards, eyes soft again, now that the killing is done.)

love, can't protect you now (SGA; Mcshep; 1635 words;  “When they come,” Rodney tells him quietly, “I won’t kill you.”)

May:

Ain't At Home (Home's Where I'm Going) (Horizon Zero Dawn; Aloy/Erend; Final Chapter; 1539 words) 

Say You'll Be There (The Flash; Barry/Iris, Barry/Thawne; 1159 words;  Barry swallows, fingers tangling with hers, and says, “Storms make me think of him.”)

FANMIXES/GRAPHICS

January:

Keep Your Heart Inside: A mix for love, hazy and undefined, the kind that leaves you wanting.

February:

N/A

March:

you know the words: a mix for your inner weeaboo.

April:

Cotton Candy Skyline: music for picking at scabs.

May:

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