#i wanted zen ANYWAYS

[steampunksilver]

Junkrat knows German because one night he had the great idea to learn another language and spent seventeen hours straight learning German (Roadhog suggested that language) before passing out and waking up two hours later to spend another five hours learning before burning out and now he knows most of the language.

#junkrat #roadhog #overwatch headcanon #headcanons #Roadrat #Not really Roadrat centric but I wanted to include the tag anyway #zen shares wisdom #jamison fawkes #mako rutledge #overwatch

[nyctoheart]

The irony of tumblr changing its desktop layout to twitter is that staff has been saying "we need to change for the majority of the new user; the minority of long-time users just need to deal with it" when its probably the long-time users who use desktop the most bar-none.

I have so many friends who made a tumblr since covid who say "I literally don't even know what tumblr looks like on desktop". New users don't even change their desktop themes because they don't even know that is a feature. because they're always on mobile

#so why change desktop if new users seldom even use desktop-- thats my point #anyway this is my first Real Annoyed Mood about tumblr updates in a while #I've been trying to be zen like ''whatever I need to be offline more anyway'' #but the LAST THING I want is to be reminded of twitter every time I go to tumblr. #not kh #tumblr

[kitnita]

whatever, i've reached a state of zen about it all actually. i don't want to blow up the team -otter with my mind anymore. they're just trying to build on the near-reverse-sweep vibes of last year's playoffs and lull all of vegas into a false sense of security by sucking as much as humanly possible

#stars lb #can we get a lineup change next game though. please. for real. #i wanted the ai theming to change after last game & it did so this is the request i'm putting out into the universe now #like w mush & faksy potentially hurt it Has to happen right #for the love of god fix the fourth line #bring back craig smith #fuck it bring back delly #call up mav! he had an insane game for the texas stars last night!! call the boy up and shove him in the pavelski household!!! #we tried the dadonov-faksa-smith thing for whatever fucking reason can we PLEASE move on now that faksa's maybe gone #but anyway!! i'm totally zen!!! #gonna watch early season episodes of project runway & move on!!!!

[iwonderwh0]

An idea for a 3d render/drawing

Connor visiting a grave of original Amanda Stern. Laying a rose to her gravestone.

#dbh #dbh connor #dbh amanda #detroit become human #theoretically it's possible to mod #I haven't modded anything but huh #there's this scene with Markus and Carl's grave #if it is possible to replace the texture on a grave to say that it's Amanda Stern and not Carl Manfred #hmmm #if someone wants to draw/do that please do because ah why not #I probably won't do anything with it anyway :^ #or OH wait why not replace Connor's Mark in the Zen Garden itself #damn it being in a zen garden is actually better #or hm #anyways

[hyperfreaksating]

Nother headcanon regarding Strawhats / Redbomb kid interactions: Robin is the only one who can manage to get all three siblings to be quiet and relaxed when they hang out together, because she will sometimes just whip out one of her books and read something to them. Rory and Skye both are legitimately interested in what she discovered and thought was interesting enough to share and they like her pleasant and quiet voice. Blaze can’t retain most of the informations she talks about (it’s funny when he does tough), but her voice is even more of an asmr for him than for his siblings and so he will just be in a pleasant headspace as soon as she starts talking in her reading voice. Rory’s favorite books are anything that is morbid and probably includes the most gruesome parts of human history. Skye likes books about Flora and Fauna best. Blaze likes the Denden Mushi phone book the best because it’s the longest likes books about legends and other cultures, especially if they go into culinary traditions.

Just enjoying the idea of autism creatures Redbomb siblings (or at least two autism and one adhd creature Redbomb siblings) hanging onto slightly bigger autism creature Robins every word as soon as she gets out a book that’s well above all their reading levels.

That's an absolutely adorable headcanon! Thank you anon!

Can imagine easily Blaze casually infodumping his family on trepanation like if nothing because of the three sentences he memorized from Robin's lecture.

#I wanted to doodle something with it but I won't have time I think #anyway that's really cute and I can picture easily Blaze getting all zen because of Robin voice #I think than more than autism Rory will probably develop schizophrenia or another psychosis trouble #Also I think Red and Robin would be really good friends #mom friends #gonna organize birthday parties together 💓

[lilyliveredlittlerichboy]

okay so i used to follow the overwatch league up to the 2020 season and ive been missing it a lil and decided to watch some old (ancient) matches from 2018, (which is just about the only old owl matches you can still find with any sort of ease)

then got bored and since the owl has been going continuously since then, i watched a lil from the 2022 season

and like. yeah i expected changes i know theyve been adding heroes to overwatch and changing the rules and overwatch 2 is a thing now??? i lost track of it a long time ago tbh ive not been following this for like 3 years

anyway okay different arena different stage - it’s only 5 people per team now huh?? oh Carpe is still there its nice to see a familiar face. what the casters tearing into him now cus hes been there too long??? okay uber and mr x literally the same casters as we saw in the inaugural season. lay off the good man Carpe fucking rocks okay hes a great player and i literally dont know anyone else in this whole match. only 1 tank now per team which is sad i loved watching the flex tank players. new heroes that im not familar with i was expecting that

but you know what really threw me, and made me unable to watch anymore?????

lijiang tower!!! it’s not even night time anymore!! what the hell is this??

okay im done now i think it may be time to never check out the owl ever again sadly

#honestly though i think the 5 player thing is more of a deal breaker. tbh #i fucking loved watching the tanks and supports in the past #they introduced role lock in 2020 i think and i hated that. goats meta was my fucking jam ok #and i watched games from 2018 and it was so much fun to watch a player play roadhog bastion and brigitte on the same map #dps centered meta will never be what i want i know the casters and analysts fucking love their genji tracer widow sojourn #i dont even know sojourn but they seem pretty big in current meta #i say current this is from the 2022 season playoffs #meta will have changed by now #is overwatch out for switch yet tbh i miss playing it a lil #could boot up the ole ps4 and play on that but i was never very good at that #anyway the meta has been too dps focused who cares about reaper. give me dva reinhart. zen lucio bastille please #i just wanna see my tanks and supports who cares about dps #overwatch #overwatch league #i need a tag for my own rambles

[presumenothing]

watching the last 10 eps of mlc with the novel still rattling around in your head is truly just an extended experience in alternating between *chinhands* and (overwhelmingly) *head in hands*

#on the one hand i finally have context for various posts #on the other hand it is truly just. *gesturing wildly* why was this necessary. like i get diff formats etc etc but also. Why #legit hats off to cheng yi's portrayal he is the main thing selling it to me here but also.. #surely there has to have been some less 狗血 way to spice it up for screen???? #anyway congrats to sgd's wholeass existence and plotline for singlehandedly winning the Changes I Really Don't Care For At All list #with the fun secondary effect (probably) of pushing lxy's portrayal into legit 傲慢 territory in service of that narrative like #i desperately need a slower reread but novel!lxy never to my recall does the whole 没有李相夷不行 thing but welp #here we are and. once again with feeling. why #(necessary clarification that i don't dislike the drama per se it's probably better treated fairly as its own thing but also #every now and then you see the bones of the novel poking through – albeit rendered slightly hypocritical in the sense that drama!llh is #very much not zen and understandably so given this backstory edition – and thus the copious head in hands-ing) #*strums guitar while yelling into the void.mp3* #ramble tag #mysterious lotus casebook #edit to add: DISSONANT the damn word i wanted was dissonant

[stonerzelda]

Have any of my mutuals played fae farm one of my favorite games fae farm. Fae farn anyone

#its so cute its so peaceful its so. zen. relaxation. beautiful. makes me want 2 cry thinking about it #i didnt even marry anyone yet bc i was working sooooo hard trying to breed every single color flower variation ohghh its just. such a #visually STUNNING game #i was literally checking every day for like a year. since it was first announced. to see when it would finally be available T__T #its so. its just #anyway ive reached the age where i talk like how i used to see adults talk about kids games when i was a kid on the internet

[crest-of-gautier]

pq posting before i go to bed! a shorter session (3 hours) but it was nice and i'm happy to say that i finished you in wonderland!

THIS WAS SO FUNNY... honestly i don't think i give enough credit to akihiko and mitsuru's dynamic they're literally so good i really enjoy how well they know each other but also they're like.. a constant in each other's life and i do enjoy their interactions a lot even if i never vocalize it...

wow yosuke, who would've thought that you two are partners, this guy literally introduced himself as your wife /s (i kinda regret naming souji yosuke wifey but im glad i wrote the y in lowercase bc otherwise i wouldn't be able to tell their dialogue apart 💀

and finally, yosuke <3

some more elaborate thoughts (aka speculation) under the cut because i learned my lesson from last time

ok unfortunately i can't say that im going to go AS INSANE as i did last time when i was spitballing in the tags for the second pq posting just because i feel like i aired out most of my "AAAA WHO IS ZEN AND REI??" there but.

i do have to say that i'm very glad i'm at the point where p3 and p4's casts are able to interact! i can't tell if it's because the writing feels like it shines a little bit better here rather than the solo casts (sometimes i roll my eyes at how junpei and akihiko are with some of the traits the writers play up), or if it's because i'm a guy who's very endeared by crossovers and interactions from characters who didn't exist in the original source material.

i had a lot of times where i was writing things down in my notes software during the crossover segments and im just?? really endeared and creatively inspired by it, to be honest. i really like this aspect of pq.

i think something that catches my interest with zen and rei at the moment is the difference in how they're.. regaining their memories. like... it's interesting to me that zen is able to get some of his memories back from the stuffed rabbit marked with "niko," but rei doesn't. i don't really know how much i can speculate off of this atm (i feel like this is something i'd get more info on when i progress through the second labyrinth, or it's something i'm missing out on because i can't use intertextuality to piece things together. i dont know shit about alice in wonderland.)

like it does make me think that maybe these two are like.. separate entities in that respect (rather than a shared one? but i could be wrong, and i welcome that!). but also there's something that makes my brain go "AAA" about how adamant zen is about wanting to protect rei despite not having any memories, because my brains like "WELL WHAT IF ZEN'S TRUE IDENTITIES AND MEMORIES ARE ACTUALLY THE OPPOSITE, AND DON'T WANT GOOD THINGS FOR REI." poorly phrased but like, it's about the irony, y'know.

i have no fucking clue what rei is supposed to be if we're going under the notion that they're two different things that have lost their memory (she is so head empty only food and its precious tbh). but like my brain just thinks that zen is just... going to end up being some awful incarnation or something like idk. there's something about persona characters with amnesia that make me raise my eyebrow... like just look at ryoji and marie and teddie...

and i guess as another thought on the matter, the way zen and rei work mechanically speaking does make me ponder a bit because like.. obviously, yeah, they can't equip a subpersona because they're... GESTURES. not persona users but FUCK, the way zen and rei have very distinct skillsets just make me wonder if those can allude to what they symbolize. like zen's skills are much more.. destructive and im just like (AIGIS VOICE) "YOU ARE DANGEROUS."

anyways. i am very much invested in the identities of zen and rei but i am also glad that the crossover stuff is here too because i think the sillies will keep me inspired... and also im just happy to see yosuke... i really like yosuke even if i forget that i do a lot of the time..

last thought, after seeing souji talk and move, i think i'd definitely want to look into p4 side... because um. 🥴 i'm really simple guy. i need more minato in my life. (everyone rolls their eyes. i'm predictable!) i want to see minato move and talk. i want to think about him. he's my boyfriend. he's my wife. he's my universe. im being so cringe about him but I DONT THINK THIS IS A SURPRISE TO ANYONE... i like him a lot (NO SHIT, LIZZ). but!!! idk if this'll be something that i watch or play, it depends on what the NG+ functionality in this game is like...

anyway gn!! thanks for reading my delusions im very much enjoying this game and im happy to be playin git.

#pq #lizz.txt #lizz.jpg #i like this game a lot... i GOTTA get better screenshots of the animated cutscenes from a playthrough sometime they're really cute #honestly cutscenes take forever for me to get through... i've been typing up dialogue of interest in my notetaking software as well as my #reactions because i like having documentation of what i thought while playing... #which is also why i also do a bit of speculating here too since i want to have it written somewhere you know #i have lots of things im curious about for this game!! #and mechanic wise i def look forward to exploring some different party members #im planning on making my party consist of minato + souji + yosuke + aigis #unsure if the fifth slot goes to naoto or zen and rei. depends on what subpersonas i have #i really like zen and rei's abilities but hnngh them not bing able to equip subpersonas is a bit hmmfor me gameplay wise #at least in terms of the sp buffer. they're definitely solid and low maintenance but im like. #surely there'll be a time where the sp regenration per each step you take gets outclassed right #unrelated BUT i AM losing my mind at how the megaten wiki does not have pq party member learnsets on the skill pages like what the fuck #actually malding that i had to go to gamefaqs to see if any of my party members learned media + recarm naturally or not... smh #but anyway. good game im enjoying it!

[cinnamontoads]

local person snapped out of horrific shitstorm combo mental breakdown depression meltdown cry session by boring interview. more at 4

#personal #incase you were wondering they talked with scott bakula for some fundraiser thing on some trek podcast and by god i don't give a fuck about #trek but it genuinely calmed me down a lot #i know i always just talk about wanting to fuck him but in all honesty scott bakula you seem like a kind old dude i hope you #feel everlasting love and light and zen #anyway im normal now dont worry about it

[keii]

I still can't believe how much more appealing Yoosung is in everyone else's route besides his own LOL. Tho' one thing remains is that no matter what, Yoosung really is a ride or die for mc. Like... he will NOT care if he gets the shit beaten out of him if it's for mc's sake, he will do crime and trust that it's for a good reason (and that Seven and Jumin would bail him out LMAO). Even tho' he's a crybaby, he will let anyone know EXACTLY how he feels, doesn't care if everyone doesn't agree. He's extremely loyal, honest, and open to whatever if that means it would make mc happy. His innocent nature allows others to let their guard down around him and pamper him, but deep inside he's obsessive, possessive, and pretty scary-- And so I love him.

#don't mind me just thinking about yoosung again... as always #ALSO despite being the jealous type he's not NEARLY as big of a hater that zen is LMFAOOO #LIKE AT ANY CHANCE ZEN WILL TRY AND TAKE MC AWAY FROM YOOSUNG IF HE COULD #Zen putting Yoosung down and say that if mc wants a man then Zen would be better... BITCH!!! LEAVE MY BABY ALONE!!! #i got a HC that MC and Yoosung double team to try and convince Jumin to be their sugar daddy #I'm sure that they'd be able to persuade him-- like... jumin seems like the type of guy that would be open to dressing up a cute couple #and watching LMFASDFASD #just gotta push the right buttons to get that out of jumin #i mean he already said he likes yoosung types bc of the way yoosung is LOL #V said that he thinks yoosung is appealing too and yoosung absolutely hates that shit LMFAOO #i think the only person that isn't into yoosung is jaehee LMFAOO but that makes sense bc she sees him as a baby.. which.. yes he is LOL #anyway i say all of that but yoosung is treated like SHIT by cheritz LMFAOO THEY DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HIM #not as nearly enough as other characters HAHA #him and jaehee received the shit treatment AHAHA #anyway i was just looking at my old mm screenshots and forgetting specific chatrooms #made me laugh out loud bc of how fucking funny it was #i miss it... damn it cheritz... #x #shrekeii #bummie

[dirtnote]

🥲🥲🥲

#i DONT even want to talk abt it anymorethis is my zen space anyway whatever #ok i might sometime this week anyway but #eya. hello

[crowdsourcedloner]

in an attempt to work out a timeline, here's a vague series of events surrounding the squad prior to (and very early into) arr

(~60 years before present) Verre is born, raised, and trained in the Skatay Range as a scout.

(~30 years before present) Verre finds a strange device that leads Garlean invaders to her home village, destroying it in the process. In her grief she resolves to wander as an exile, seeking new technology in an attempt to curb her rampant curiosity and crushing guilt.

(~26 years before present) A hrothgar queen-to-be leaves her home village in an attempt to claim absolute freedom, though she is unknowingly pregnant at the time. She gives birth to a daughter during her travels.

(~25 years before present) Zezene "Zen" Zene arrives in Ul'dah claiming to hail from the freshly conquered Dalmasca, but no records of their life there exist. They begin to carve out a meager life as a thief and information broker.

(~25 years before present) The hrothgar woman finds an auracite shard and becomes enthralled by it, becoming increasingly paranoid and controlling of those around her. She resolves to train herself and her daughter as a weapon to combat her delusions.

(~21 years before present) Zen has fully integrated into the Ul'dahn underground, becoming a staple contact for many ne'er-do-well's. They note a group of contacts that want to get out of the life of crime and begin to formulate a plan.

(~19 years before present) The daughter has her first echo vision, earning great disapproval from her mother and losing her name in the process. She stays with her mother in an attempt to regain favor.

(~19 years before present) Zen opens a 'hunting hall' to be their base of operations - a front for their information gathering gig and a way to help people go legit should they desire it.

(~18 years before present) Zen hears rumors of a strange viera visiting the shops of Ul'dah asking for machinery. They successfully track down the mystery individual and recruit Verre to their operation as a tinker.

(~16-17 years before present) Yomi is born in an underwater raen village. She is terribly sheltered, but educated well and set up to inherit her mother's position as oracle.

(~15 years before present) In response to the Battle of Silvertear, Zen establishes ties to Clan Centurio and the adventurer's guild, despite the latter's waning popularity at the time.

(~12 years before present) The daughter is abandoned by her mother after failing to regain her favor. She namelessly wanders as a mercenary, convinced that her visions are a symptom of madness.

(~10 years before present) Verre tells Zen about her past, revealing her still-fresh grief for the first time. Zen encourages Verre to see them and their operation as a family of sorts in an attempt to soothe her.

(~5 years before present) Zen brings Garlean scrap to Verre so she can tinker with it. Verre passes along her findings to the Eorzean Alliance, namely about structural weaknesses and stress points. She also uses the scrap to build an air conditioning unit, much to Zen's confusion.

(~5 years before present) In the final leadup to the Calamity, Verre asks to fight at Cartenau alongside the Eorzean Alliance. Zen has a bad feeling and talks her out of it, sparing her from the front lines.

(~2 years before present) Yomi's mother receives an ill omen about her daughter and the danger she will associate with.

(~1 year before present) Yomi's mother tricks her into exile under the guise of pilgrimage, hoping to spare her village from impending doom. Yomi sets her sights on Eorzea, oblivious to the truth and the state of the realm at large.

(~1 year before present) Yomi arrives in Ul'dah and immediately falls for an obvious scam, only to be saved by Zen's timely interference. They offer to give her a place to stay and work to do, which she graciously accepts, meeting Verre in the process.

(~week before present) The nameless mercenary, weary and despairing after long years of wandering alone, sets her sights on Ul'dah's adventurer's guild.

(present, start of ARR) Upon arriving at the Ul'dahn adventurer's guild and being prompted to provide a name, the mercenary took the name of Nailah, though she is reluctant to introduce herself as such.

(present, start of ARR) By chance, Zen recognizes Nailah as a newcomer and decides to try and give her a place to stay, as she seemed down on her luck. In their attempt to help they learn her name and use it in conversation, causing her to become extremely defensive and leave upset.

#cecil.txt #loredump #its verreposting hours #its nailahposting hours #its zenposting hours #its yomiposting hours #...there we go thats all the headcanon tags covered lol #'vague series of events' = full ass timeline i guess orz #the dates are a lil vague for my benefit just in case i wanna adjust things later #anyways this should be the framework i'll work with #this just hits major events #any skipped dates are... somewhat intentional? i might've missed some #but there are a few intentional omissions (such as zen's actual age range) #(the biggest date i wanted to solve was verre's age anyways - she's now 10 years younger than she started lol) #(her age lines up better with imperial tech advancements now) #(i also treat viera like dragons in the sense that they have a warped perception of time due to their long lives - #and she feels that her village's death was far more recent than it actually is - #despite it being 30 years prior to game events)

[zenkaiankokuart]

So I saw @shandzii's OC Roto, and the timing was just too perfect. I was literally already drawing another picture of Zen with suspicious hand shaped dents on her arms. xD

Due to having robotic limbs that she can repair or replace herself, Zen isn't as careful as she maybe should be. But it means she can be closer (physically and emotionally) to the animatronics than other employees. For better or for worse!

It doesn't hurt her, unless the internal mechanisms get damaged. But even then she wouldn't hate Roto, she knows the risks she takes working at (and often breaking the rules at) Fazbear's Pizzaplex. She signed all those waivers after all.

Version without text under cut:

#zenkaiankoku #fnaf oc #roto #fnaf self insert #i'll take this down if you want #i just thought they'd be friends if they ever met #cuz i was literally drawing and thinking about zen and robots grabbing her arms too tight #honestly she's an idiot and loves animatronics who can't control their own strength #like me xD #no wonder she lost her arms #but it wasn't because someone held her hand too tight believe it or not xD #(thats because i haven't really come up with the backstory yet >_>) #anyways last tag but i fucking love Roto I mean just lookit 'em

[useful-boy]

Today was a good day... Nice and slow, easy work flow, good selection of food to take home, plus I got to hold a little creature and pet a wiggly one. What more could you ask for

#still thinking about the cricket i caught and released earlier #they are so friendly... i love how they always crawl up your arms when youre trying to put them down. this one even jumped on my jacket #silly little guys #and the puppy... the doggy... they were such a sweetie i dont care if they walked on the counter. baby baby baby #im also really glad everyone at this store is so cool about us taking home food. my old one cracked down hard on us clerks #for taking home subs and the like because 'were not allowed'. okay but like suck my dick maybe? let me eat the food #that we would otherwise throw away for being 'expired' that we all know is perfectly good to eat. its just stupid how they would rather #waste all the food we write off than let us eat anything other than roller grills and grab and go items #here all the managers ask us if we want Anything thats being written off and theyre so based for that. foods way too expensive #to Not be eating for free you know? anyway im rambling #good night #zen texts #food mention

[depresseddepot]

gritting my teeth I have tried to get zen's bad story end 3 THREE FUCKING TIMES AND I JUST MESSED IT UP AGAINN

#i think i have to restart completely from day 5 because i got too many hearts from seven for the game to allow me to fail #GRRR I WANT IT #IM SO CLOSE I CAN TASTE IT #bad end 3 and then normal end and then good end and then i can do it all again with yoosung lmao #i will say tho: i took a 2 day break in between bad rel 2 and starting bad end 3 and I literally thought to myself at one point #''i miss zen :('' i am not immune to anime boys saying nice things to me #anyways. grrrr at least I know now that i should WAIT to 100% everything until the very fucking end #bc otherwise it fucks up my bad endings #i know zen's route up down and sideways but yoosungs will be much more methodical #*shakes fist at god*