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#i used to keep stuff in my underwear drawer but itd be searched through too
20cm · 3 years
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time to continue my room project ^_^ i'm getting rid of so much and it WILL be great
tl;dr i havent been in or slept in my room for just over a year for a lot of different reasons, and built up over the years. but im finally taking control and im happy:)
bc i kinda feel like oversharing rest is in the rest of the tags LMAO
#tw for abusive situations and stuff#----------------------------------------------------#---------------------------------#------------------------------------------------------------#-------------------------------#when i moved to the US my stepfather had set up the room for me and stuff and it like. over the course of 6 years really became a prison#both bc i stayed in it a lot for my own safety bc the rest of the house felt unsafe and also because i wasnt allowed to leave + what i did-#was regularly controlled. but it was like.... also never MY space#like my room was regularly checked. i kept most of the things i cared about hidden as best as i could but theyd be found anyways#i used to keep stuff in my underwear drawer but itd be searched through too#all by my step father to be clear#and i mean like. writing. journalling. drawings. idk what he thought he'd find like i never left the house bc he didnt let me#the number of times he went through my computer or my phone. he'd check my phone to make sure the texts lined up to what the -#phone plan would say like. Inbox/Outbox. and all the numbers. to make sure i didnt delete texts i guess?#theeee number of friends i lost because of his behavior lmao <3#anyways what im trying to say is that i couldnt have a lock on it if i wanted. i asked. and it was never my space despite it being#the only place i had a semblance of control. and even then it was regularly taken away from me#and then i went to college. so it became more like a storage room when i was away ... and i also have hoarding tendencies#birthed from the fact that i tried to keep everything i owned all the time because i was afraid of losing it all#so its become a mess to the point that it gives me claustrophobia and it was unlivable. so ive been sleeping on the couch#but ive been cleaning and working thru the trauma <3 therapy on my floor. throwing stuff out!! idk. we'll see how it is when i just like#get the floor cleared LOL im sure i should still be throwing out stuff i have in hte 'keep' pile#anyways <3 its a process and im proud of myself#if u read all this thank you i love u#caleb.txt
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fangirl1029 · 4 years
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Going home pt. 5
Sam uley x Jacobs sister reader
Warning: smut
Part one
Part two
Part three
Part four
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Y/n was sprawled out in Sam's bed. Her y/h/l hair messy. She never wanted to get up and when she was surrounded by Sam's scent it didn't make it easier to get out of bed.
Today was one of those days she didn't care if the guys were around. She pulled on one of Sam's y/f/c shirts over her black Lacy bra and put on her Jean shorts that were pointless due to how large Sam's shirt was on her.
First thing that happened every morning after staying the night was the search for her man. She couldn't remember if there was ever a morning he had been in bed when she had woken up. The cool feeling of slightly damp dirt felt good between her toes as she walked into the back yard bare footed. It looked like Sam had just gotten back from somewhere. It was odd that the entire pack would be here this early though.
She tilted her head and looked at sam who had nothing but Jean shorts on. "Good morning my moon" he mumbled before kissing her lightly. " It would've been a good morning if you had been in bed alpha" He sighed knowing that the girl in front of him would be the end of him one day. "There's something we need to talk about isn't there?" She had seen worry painted on all the others faces. He nodded and took her hand leading her into his bedroom.
Moments later there was screaming. Jacob's eyes met Paul's who looked like he was gonna pee himself. Y/n walked out of the room and rage filled the room as she stood chest to chest with her brother. Itd be hard to say it wasn't funny seeing a girl at least 2 feet shorter yelling at the muscular man as if he was a toddler, but nobody dared laugh. "YOU COULDVE TOLD ME ABOUT THIS TOO!"
She was beyond done with the Bella swan and her games. She was so selfish to ask them to fight against a new born army. Sam had apparently agreed without even thinking what this would do to her. She already had to deal with Jacob jumping Everytime she said jump but now Sam could get hurt because of her.
A few days passed and Sam had given his imprint space like he knew she needed. That was until in the middle of the night he felt his bed dip and had her body next to his closely. He chuckled "should've known you'd be back" he didn't have to see her face to know she rolled her eyes. He could feel her coldness as she nuzzled him and pulled her closer. "No talk just sleep" was the last thing he heard before y/n was snoring lightly most of her body on top of him. He couldn't even think of words to describe how much her missed her. Not so deep down he was worried he would lose her or get hurt in this battle.
Y/n had been connected to Sam the last few days. He had a hard time telling her to stay home when the pack went to the Cullen's house to train with Jasper. Sam knew how much she'd miss him but he wanted to do it for her safety and Bella's safety he didn't know if his imprint would soccer punch the swan girl.
Sam had gotten home to see y/n on the couch half asleep in just his shirt and underwear. This had become a normal occurance around his house. She normally waited for everyone to be gone and it just be them. Luckily they had the house to themselves for most of that day.
Sam slipped his arms around her and kiss her neck lightly. Y/n breathed in a large breath and looked at her lover. "Hey kujo" she smiled using a nickname she recently had come up with. Sam growled lightly burying his face into her neck. She giggled lightly until Sam bit into the skin on her neck sucking lightly to form a dark purple hickey on his imprint causing her to moan lightly." Sammmm that's going to be super visible" "that's the point" he mumbled kissing down her neck. Once he reached her shoulder he started leaving more smaller and lighter hickeys. Sam knew she wouldn't mind and she knew he was doing it just to get her worked up. "Sam-" he cut her off before she got another word out. "If you think you can wear stuff like this and not end up marked by me you're mistaken" she blushed. Sam normally was super sweet and protective to her but this was a side she hadn't seen in the whole year they had dated.
Sam kissed her lips roughly y/n bit into his bottom lip as she pulled away. By now she had been pulled into his lap and was in a straddling position. She smirked and rubbed her hands up and down her boyfriend's rock hard abs glad he hardly ever wore a shirt.partically because she wore most of them. His hands were at her hips as he looked up at his imprint. Y/n pushed her hips down causing Sam to growl " don't start what you can't finish" she leaned in close so their chests were touching and whispered into his ear." I think I can handle you ...alpha" she bit his ear lightly and felt his erection grow against her. The grip he had on her hips tightened. "Are you sure of know what you're doing y/n?" She pushed her hips down against his and she moaned a yes into his ear. " I want you." That was all Sam needed to lift her up by her ass and take her into his bedroom slamming the door shut with his foot. He tossed her onto the bed and ripped his shirt off of her body to reveal her wine red panties and bra set. she pulled him down to her for a kiss that quickly turned into a hot make out session. She rubbed Sam's erection through his pants. So maybe she hadn't known what she was getting herself into. As He pulled away from the kiss she whined. Y/n looked as he went around looking through drawers frantically. "What are you looking for." She laid down huffing " a rubber honey , we haven't real-" she cut him off " just fuck me raw SAM!" His eyes widened, he wasnt going to question it. He started undoing his Jean shorts then in one swift motion was naked. Y/n's eyes widened. Oh she really didn't know what she was getter herself into or rather what she was getting in her. Sam propped himself above her and kissed her running his hands down her body until he reached her underwear. She squirmed against his hand as he pulled them down slowly , teasing her. "Sammmmm" "shhhh let me enjoy watching you squirm and want me." She obeyed as he ran a finger into her folds until his finger stopped to rub circles on her clit.y/n moaned his name lightly. Sam's finger moved down and he pushed one finger into her causing her to open her legs wider and push against his finger. " Youre so eager but I'm in charge" she looked up at him wantingly. Sam tried his hardest to keep his control intact but he wanted her as much if not more than how much she wanted him. But he had to make sure she was ready for him. He slowly started working his finger in and out earning soft moans then he added a second finger. He pulled them out and licked her juices off of them. "Are you ready?" She nodded looking into his eyes. "Let me know if I need to stop" he pushed himself in her slowly until he bottomed out. She pushed against him wanting him to move. He got the message and started thrusting against her slowly at first and speeding up a little not wanting to hurt him imprint.
The sounds of skin on skin filled the room and moaning filled the house. "Sam you won't hurt me..." Y/n said looking into his eyes asking him to let go and relax. He thrust against her harder and got into a rhythm he could feel her walls tighten around him and pulled out. She groaned not ready for him to stop. He flipped them over so she was on top. Y/n started riding him until she felt the knot in her stomach form again "Sam I'm going-" he grabbed her hips and thrust into her roughly pushing her over the edge. He started to pull out when she stopped him.He looked at her confused. "I told you not to wear a condom because I want you to cum in me." They had talked about wanting a family some day but he didn't think so soon. Sam nodded and flipped them over and he started to pound into y/n hard enough to earn some loud moans and came inside her moments later. She smiled up at him and kissed him still feeling him hard in her.y/n wrapped her legs around him and mumbled for him to keep going. Oh was it going to be a long day.
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