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utilitycaster · 10 days

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The thing about Otohan is that she had an awesome mechanical build and she served a narrative purpose in that the party lived in fear of her for nearly 60 episodes but she truly did die as she lived, with a personality replaced by frogs and murderous intent. And the thing is I suspect there's plenty of interesting stuff about there. I've been there as a DM, having built a super cool NPC with worldbuiding ties that the party simply did not give a shit about, and I think that's the same situation here.

Legend of the Peaks isn't particularly meaningful since only two party members have any recollection of the Apex War and neither show the slightest interest in the politics thereof and they haven't really been relevant to the story. We don't know why she worshiped the Raven Queen once nor what happened to make her stop while still using that symbol...and it hasn't really been relevant to the story. We don't know if the backpack came from her or was from Ludinus...but it's not really relevant to the story other than tracing the potions of possibility back through Treshi and Jiana. We don't know what specifically drove her towards the Vanguard other than lacking answers as a Ruidusborn - which may have simply been enough - but again. Not relevant. We have Liliana to represent the perspective of a Ruidusborn who went through the Omen Archive study and whose motivations warped and twisted from a place of genuine worry and fear, and we have Ludinus to represent the centuries-long architect of this entire plan (plus he can't stop monologuing about his motivations, and that is a compliment). That's plenty.

And so Otohan consistently fails the Sexy Lamp With A Gun Attached Test, and it doesn't really matter, and I'm sure there was a backstory there but there's quite literally been no reason to care about it at any point, and I think most people do not. Her entire purpose within the narrative was that of a sentient evil Jersey Barrier that ultimately had to be blown up. I'm infinitely more interested in the loot drop that resulted from her death (and obviously the emotional ramifications of FCG's sacrifice) than any of her repetitive zealot bullshit.

#sam should play an apex war veteran #having further Thoughts re c2 character creation vs. c3 here #bc like. fwiw due to the ties to jiana? i suspect if the party hadn't been able to call in the VM favor for laudna #otohan might have become rather more relevant #OR if treshi/bassuras had been paced out differently and they had to spend more time in the Paragon's Call #like again i think the campaign mostly recovered post-solstice from the slog of the 20s-40s infodumping #though the scars remain; but i think otohan's intrigue was absolutely a casualty of the issues at that time #as i think i said recently had the party gone to yios first i think that would have fixed a LOT #anyway. last hanging thread of plot from that has finally been severed thanks fcg you were a real one. rest in piss otohan #cr spoilers

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 11 months

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if graham thought the used to be a man thing was just joking and like 5 minutes earlier she said she used to live in the outback for 123 years, he also definitely doesnt have ANY idea how old she is does he

#oh the fun they'll have in support group trying to figure out the doctor's age #graham sitting there just staring for the first 10 minutes like 'oh IMMORTAL immortal. like immortal? like. okay. uh huh. thats. okay.'#thats gotta rewrite like at least half your idea of a person right #im not convinced he or ryan really have an idea of what regeneration means #i think yaz a little more #but not like. really #and yaz was also so taken aback meeting ace and tegan like #other companions get that 'oh youve had lots of people like me' usually kinda early on #get their little jealousy moment #but they NEVER had that #like meeting all these old companions first already must be a bit of a........like rearrangement in your brain #like 'oh but if youre me. and you did this 40 YEARS ago. then uhhhh. the doctor is older than she looks'#and then someone drops a 'yeah when i knew them they said they were 700' and youre OH. OKAY.#like you thought you were travelling with just sort of a weird fucked up guy but then it turns out it's a weird fucked up guy #who has been doing this for longer than your country exists #12 voice: im old enough to be your messiah #fgkjghjkgh #like thats your bud! dfgkjhgjk thats just your fucked up little pal who cant drive what do you mEAN TWO THOUSAND #two THOUSAND years and you still drive THIS badly???#i hope clara comes to the support group some time #she could blow at least the fam's minds a little i think #she knew the last one!#she can provide CONTEXT #between missy and 12 she can provide some GREAT context #also bill i think bill + yaz would be FUN #like hoo boy #bill can fill them in on the master too #feel like missy definitely gets wind of it 'ive been up and down your timeline' and drops by. a couple of times #trying to pass herself off as a companion #doesnt work for super long mostly bc shes just there to Cause Problems On Purpose but it does work for a Bit

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camifornilla · 9 months

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Uhhhh I watched My Adventures With Superman and

Honestly, to summarize:

Additionally,

#for legal purposes this is a joke #I’m gonna have to add this addendum to all of my posts so I don’t get more bullshit in my DMs #white haired anime boiz are my KRYPTONITE #(pun intended)#If you thought I wasn’t gonna go cuckoo bananas over this man y’all were WRONF #slutty Slutty hoe behavior in the Camille realm rn #I’ve spent like 3 episodes on my phone looking for Slade Wilson content #(from this show)#(grown ass child molesting slade can stay 40 feet away from me)#comic bros plz stay away from my post do not talk to me #I will report you for harassment so fuckin quick #Slade Wilson #Deathstroke #DC Comics #my adventures with superman #Superman

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bunnyb34r · 4 months

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Facing my fear of movie theaters by going to the first showing of the day sgdggdgd

I think I'll be the only person there which would be awesome tbh

AND I dont have to break my streak of having seen every hunger games movie in theaters :D I'm excited man

#marquilla #first one i saw with my friend from middle school and her weird ass family sgdgdgdggd second and third was with my ms/hs best friend who #also loved the books (we would have 'arguments' over what character was the best cough cough finnick cough cough which drove my dad insane #listening to every single time we would pick her up to come over (40 min drive one way atgagagsg)#and the last one i saw with my first boyfriend who really didnt have any thoughts one way or the other ab the books but he DID think gale #was better than peeta which lead to an 'argument' in the parking lot while we were looking for his moms car sgdgdggdgd we both #agreed that finnick was better though sgdggdg #and by arguments i mean they were those goofy 'my fav is better than YOURS' debates you have with friends that are always in good fun #now this time im going alone bc i really wanna see it and mom didnt read the book yet/isnt really interested (more like eh ill get you the #dvd when it comes out and we can watch it) this is my first time going by myself though which is kinda exciting sgdgd #did you know you can order food ahead of time and have it delivered to your seat?? thats wild to me #id feel so awkward doing that especially since it's probably just gonna be me today shhdhdhdhd

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the-headless-horsedude · 3 months

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just was curious, if it's ok to ask, do you have any headcanons about flywheels + his interactions with the rest of the scavs!! im so curious to find out what kind of person people think he was/is...

I THOUGHT I HAD WRITTEN SOME DOWN, i had SEVERAL thoughts, but i can't find them (i've been looking for over an hour) but all i've found is a little blurb/ramble about the scavs post-flywheels' death, which, hey, for the hell of it, i'll put it under a read more

how do you think the scavengers grieved flywheels' death? do decepticons have different practices for mourning a fallen comrade than autobots, was the scavengers taking parts from him their own way of mourning him, of giving him some sort of a send off? does krok occasionally tell someone to pair off with him when scavenging, before remembering that flywheels isn't there anymore, did misfire save a bit of flywheels' inner most energon for when krok woke up, does spinister ever miss having to fix flywheels after he got stuck midtransformation due to not getting enough space before he lied and something got caught, does crankcase miss having some company when he's piloting the wap, as flywheels was great company, is fulcrum ever haunted by the presence of flywheels and what happened to him because he was the reason the djd showed up on clemency

#hayden answers #i swear. i had so many flywheels thoughts. and i cannot find where i wrote them dOWN #because he's such an interesting character and what info we get from the comics is SO LITTLE like #why was he put on the list. what did he do that made tarn want to kill him. why was he working at grindcore #when did he convert to neoprimalism. who was he closest to in the scavengers if any #its just!!!!#we needed more flywheels content i honestly feel like when they got to the flashbacks in mtmte 48 they were like #''hm. what decepticon would our readers possibly recognize that we could add in here'' and they picked the guy who died 40 issues earlier #because honestly ? with how little info we got it isnt really in line with his character to be there #tho ig it is a war and thus you cant always do things you want to do

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skrunksthatwunk · 3 months

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fuck offfff poor audio processing makes ppl flirting with me so stupid they'll be like hey you're pretty and I'll go ah 👍😐. or omg yeah! 🤘 or i just laugh bashfully without even knowing what they said until like a minute later. help help my default responses are making people confused and unsettled. and those are the same responses i give when ppl talk shit about me too it's not good

#ah 👍😐ahaha☺️yeah🙂#met a girl in my childrens lit and bio class who called me beautiful (n) and love (n) and like we have said 2 sentences to each other #i dont thiiiiiiiink it was flirting? but my response was still the 'ok 🙂'#come ON man get it together #the other day the cafeteria guy. oh god the poor cafeteria guy. im so glad he thought i was cute bc i was failing that interaction so so bad #it's actually sickening. just blank staring and hm-whuh?? huh? oh sorry um. [doesnt answer question]#agonizing experience only to get the worst saddest chicken nachos of my life. yhey were so bad #like just staring at him trying to figure out how to ask for food and form sentences for like 40 secs per thing #yk like 4 little tub things. with food and sauces and stuff. head in my hands ughhh embarrassing #not his fault i dont think but somewhere in the middle of that he told me i have a pretty face and i think i just said like #'oh yeah' [actively mid-turn to my friend] [kind of half process it after] 'ahahha aww. thanks! (delayed)'#anyway if i was not mentally tapped out all the live long day a girl telling me 'move over beautiful' woulda like. destroyed me goodstyle #but again it doesnt sink in so like. it didnt. anyway if you're that girl ummm sorry lol not your fault #also your makeup is cool go crazy. if we become friends you will experience this more so. prepare #just. dying. tbf i'd been wandering underprotected in like 12°F weather for 20 minutes so my brain was like. reeling #wuhh-uhbuwhah? wh- ... OH oh yeah uh um like x and y are the (so true) um the. yeah 👍👍#<- average you telling me things irl moment

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birdy-bird27 · 27 days

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I think I need to go to sleep soon my brain is once again is being haunted by the sad thoughts

#the evil thoughts are invading againnn #thinking about when my dogs will die #I can’t fucking handle it I can’t #snowball and cotton #I got them both 5 years ago #they were both around 3-5 when I got them #that must mean they are around 8-10 #I mean they are small dogs so they are more likely to live longer #but still #I need to prepare for when the time comes #snowball is already going blind #and I think deaf as well #it’s freaking me out #I never had a dog before therefore never had a dog die either #in fact I never had a close family memeber die really #other than my great grandpa #the rest are all distant cousins #I don’t think I can handle it #I’m only still here bc when I was legit planning cotton came up to me and fell asleep on me #I knew I needed to stay alive for at least my dogs #honestly though I am so much better mentally and I actually have learned to actually enjoy life #but I’m scared I’m going to fall back to that way of thinking #why must my brain torture me so #why can’t my dogs life forever #I need them in my life #what do you mean I won’t have my babies around when I’m like 40 #LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL BUT CRUEL AT THE SAME TIME

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biteapple · 3 months

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the perspective of looking at new jersey apartments again makes me glad im living where im at now, honestly ... ^^ ''

#i SO wish i could hop over there though ... the price of living is SOOO high and the pay doesnt match even a little #its bad everywhere .. but new jersey's got a special kind of sickness like that because of its nyc proximity #everyone lives there and commutes to the city like 1.5hrs away for the better pay . but i just lived there lol #i feel like compared to here everything in jersey's tinged an ''old'' way ..#i dont know how to describe it but EVERYTHING from the stores to the apartments has a ''grandma's house'' feel #a ''hasn't been updated in 40+ years'' feel #and austin's so new and booming. apparently. but i agree it doesnt have that old tinge to it #the apartment im living in isnt new. but it isnt old either. it doesnt have the feel to it #i thought it was just nostalgia speaking but looking at nj apartments today was like. oh wow. its nice to know im not going crazy #this same apartment in nj would be SO SO SO much more expensive. people here complain about prices (they SHOULD. its bad)#but looking at where i was and why i HAD to move elsewhere .. i remember now yknow. this place is a luxury i could never have had in nj #which doesnt mean its good. its sad. i wish things were different. i DO .. sort of .. wish i never moved out here to begin with #but im glad im here. i feel like ... you know when a hero goes on a quest and makes friends along the way and then .. doesnt return home ..#even though the quest was supposed to be a transitory period .. yknow .. maybe im just home now #atleast awhile longer. im happy calling here home awhile longer #i do kinda miss that old tinge to it. i always said everything in nj was like .. ''tinged yellow '' .. and it really is. yknow.#i just need to put some antiques and lighting into my apartment. lol. feels just like home

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harleybarbarahandler · 4 months

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stumbled across this thread from 2020 yesterday… holy shit margot is a real life metahuman

#this is why she does so many of her own stunts #reminds me of when they were doing i tonya and they were like ok margot start th routine and we’ll bring in the double when you need to stop #and margot would do like. 40 seconds of the routine before she had to stop and they were all like. I thought it’d be more like 10 seconds #insane woman she can just do everything (except sing apparently but I want to hear her sing anyway)#margot robbie

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nomaishuttle · 5 months

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one thing abt my family is we ARE going to pretend my papaw is an ancient proto-human man whos been alive since the big bang even tho hes objectively not old. Hes like 60

#sry i judt saw a rly funny post it was adventure time edited but i saw it and went MY PAPAW CORE 👍#it was the one where its like How old are you !? 47. did you know him (picture of the dinosaurs)#literally on the wya up here this was funny. we passed by a roadside dino statue it was like a caveman skeleton walking a dino skeleton #and we were like oh thats cool but i went I didnt realize papaw had been out this far west....#n my dad thought that was so funny that he legit called my papaw to make fun of him DNJFJFNFJFNG #WE ALL CALL HIM OLD MAN HE ISNT EVEN OLD. but its funny #dw its not like my papaw is like crying screaming tormented by us he thinks its rly funny he plays into it #its just very funny to pretend a guy who literally watched scooby doo as a kid is like Ancient.#his nickname is scooby even... thats the name he had on his work jacket #which i inherited but then SOMEBODY fucking STOLE IT even tho it was SO COMFORTABLE. whatever #idk why i said inherited my papaw is ALIVE AND WELL. i meant to sya i stole it from him after he retired/his company closed down #its crazy. he was literally like among the very first employees of his company like hed been there from the beginning #and then he was with them for like 50 years n then the company shut down #so now hes just enjoying retirement... him n my granny both retired around th same time bc my granny had been at toyota for like ages.#50 yesrs probably not more like 40. ykwim. esp bc my papaw was navy for like a while ..#but ya. they had both retired n they got a couple years b4. well. idk if yr aware of the connor lore but my granny Did die #it esp sucks bc like. it was covid the year leading up to her death. so they didnt get to travel at all they rly loved traveling #they were always on a trip one thing abt them. they had so many trips planned #WHATEVER. major shoutout to pulmonary embolisms Much Much love to fucking blood clots ITS AWESOME ITS SO COOL!#sigh. i miss my granny tails.

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burinazar · 7 months

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It's funny stepping back into fandom spaces where most people are within my general age range or older after making so many younger friends in MiAbyss fandom* so when i go back to my old stomping grounds of LOGH or T&B or Star Trek or Vorkosiverse or the BJD hobby or just the whole entire SFF/genre fiction reader+writer sphere and it's like oh ok yeah. i'm not really thaaaaaaattttt humongously old i guess. because to be honest with you sometimes in other contexts i feel like the club penguin 18+ elderly penguin

*not to erase those of you in there who are older! it's just that something with MiA that was a brand new experience for me over the last year is that I sure did accumulate some treasured fandom friends a decade-ish younger than me and i feel somewhat protective of them slash occasionally ashamed of not being a more impressive role model or something but okay look you guys don't want a mentor you want a draw-er of shitposts and a writer-er of decentish fanfics and That I Can Do

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neonacidtrip · 1 year

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[image ID: a screenshot of a discord chat with username “wenge (when-gay)’ carrying out a one-sided conversation expressing her reluctance and fears regarding driving at 1:08 a.m. the other person in the conversation’s responses are not shown]

#when your boy politely suggests you move to the next difficulty level in driving #we were both speaking but i was typing my answers because i dont have my voice right now #i think in order he said 'you need to learn to drive faster' & when i asked how fast he said first 25 (wont kill me) then 40 (will kill me)#he then said we move from 40 to 65 to which i hit him with 50 50 50 what happened to 50 #the keysmash happened when he told me to drive to his house #in other words you can see the moment my brain short circuited #i normally feel bad sharing text conversations but i dont feel bad here because its only my responses #the only one being blasted is myself for being a cant drive gay #i get that there arent many 30 zones but 25 to 40 is a lot okay #i went on a 40 road exactly once and it ended quite terribly. scared the driving instructor #why do highways have to exist why do highways have to be 60+ zones why me just why #i said merging because i thought that would be the next difficult skills to tackle and he was like um no #and hit me with the 'you need to learn to make turns at more than 2mph before you worry about merging lanes neo'#25 to 40 is a lot and im not even on 25s yet i am still in 10mph zones. i have to graduate up to 25 still #we started on 25s and he was like hmmmmmmmm maybe i over estimated you lets go to the 10s #like a disappointed teacher discovering the kid who bragged about ice skating actually cant ice skate at all #i cant drive i cant dance i dont know karate.... face it... im never gonna make it #neo rants #photo post #i know i need to drive and not hide behind mcr references but i just really dont like driving #i will get there slowly but surely but that doesnt mean i cant whine and cry about it on the way there #like sailor moon intended #also i took 3d6 psychic damage because after all the fighting about the plans for the car he suggested my own original idea to me #my idea was to leave the car with my mom and now hes presenting this idea the very first idea i suggested as if he came up with it #i cant live in this society

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nexus-nebulae · 1 year

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thinking about how not only my brain problems but also the way i was taught history in school has just completely fucked up my sense of time

#watching a video and was shown a picture of a person in colour #and then was told that it was like 40 years ago that that was taken #and it felt like i just got kicked in the spine like. what? colour photos? that long ago?#and then i realize that 40 years ago was only the 80's #and then like. how some things in history classes were framed to be older or more recent just to fit a narrative #like how most pictures you see of MLK are in black and white to put the thought in your head that this was Forever Ago #there are photos of that man in colour. they just never show them.#because this is Ancient History of course #but then things that were split by centuries are framed as all being homogenized Oh Here's Those Three Ancient Guys #bc they Only teach egypt greece and rome bc obviously nobody else fucking existed around then #what do you mean humans have been in north america for millenia whites were the First Ones To Find It #and it was So So Recent ago that sometimes ppl still call this place The New World (it's not. fucking. new.)#but also slavery was So So So long ago look all of that was in the past and it's history and we don't need to worry about it bc It's Over #(no it's fucking not. prison labor and outsourcing labor to countries with a lack of labor laws is still fully slavery :)#i love how sometimes the shit the right complains about is also the shit they fucking caused #like 'everything's made in china nothing is American™️ anymore >:('#but then immediately 'why should we pay people to work >:( i'm gonna make other countries work for me bc they're cheaper >:('#i hate this shit i wanna just become moss

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sodrippy · 2 years

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one of the funniest things to ever happen to me is when i saw a therapist for the first time ever and i was so so annoyed that she spent all our sessions focusing on my anxiety disorder when to me the most pressing concern was my depression, only to later realize that i am like. SEVERELY anxious all the fucking time and actually maybe professionals know what the hell theyre talking about<3

#its just so so funny to me like i viscerally remember being so dismissive and annoyed about it #i really didnt ever realize how anxious i am all the time i thought 40% of my physical symptoms were personality traits #i was like im only SOCIALLY anxious this is bull why wont she help w the other stuff #babygirl the other stuff is nothing relax #in other news my dads response to me telling him my doctor suggested i get medication for my insulin resistance was.#just exercise more.#ok girl its not WORKING though thats WHY she suggested this? hello?#i get it but its the fact that he exercises heaps and is otherwise fit but he fucking. has the same genetics as me AND IS ON THE SAME MEDS #like. practice what you preach leave me alone

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britneyshakespeare · 2 years

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three thoughts

1) drawing myself in the mirror, i expected, would be very hard w my body image issues. they are deeply ingrained from childhood and though i cope w them better nowadays they are not gone, and they have taken me to very dark places before. i’ve mainly coped w it by not looking at myself for too long since fixating on my appearance can make me spiral. but once i sat down and actually started drawing, it wasn’t that bad at all. i didn’t have the fear of whether or not my arms were too big or my belly too folded since i was only thinking about how my shoulder was aligned with my collar bones and at what angle those are in relation to my elbow, etc. looking at the plain contours of my body in relation to each other, objectively, that wasn’t so bad at all since i wasn’t worried about whether the product was “beautiful” as much as if it was accurate. and, i wasn’t looking at my body as a whole until i finished the drawing. i was looking at parts of them, though not the parts i normally fixate negatively on. i was just trying to navigate the landmarks. it was kind of healing to realize i could do this. normally when i feel detached from my body, it makes me resentful of the fact that i live in one. today i was not resenting my body but just looking at it for what it was. a thing that exists. like anything else.

2) wow, i mean. i always know i’m flat-chested. but i’m flat-chested.

3) my back hurts.

#body image cw #tales from diana #the flat-chested thing is not an insecurity of mine btw i don't need anyone commenting on it.#i didn't think about it while i was drawing since i was just focusing on the form #perhaps because it was only contour lines and didn't really have any shading to give any more dimensions #idk #and i did two drawings. but the first one was waaaaay better than the second.#we were supposed to take an hour to an hour and a half on each #the first one i took almost two hours on but i think it looked pretty good #it didn't end up looking like what i thought it was going to but im satisfied w the result. not proud but satisfied #the second one... i don't acknowledge that bastard #my back was hurting and the adderall was wearing off and my pose was way less comfortable. a lotta factors at once #that resulted in it being a worse drawing. inferior. you can still tell there's effort but i was compromised #and i clocked out at about 40 minutes bc i felt stuck #i had done all the major body parts and it was also not turning out how i thought it would #but whatever.#maybe i should ask someone to model for me bc modelling one's WHOLE BODY for oneself is rather difficult and compromising #like you can only do so many poses and i only have so much space and so many mirrors #my mirror was on the ground which was another thing that made it hard #and i was cold from being in the attic in my undies for so long. whaddaya gonna do

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abluescarfonwaston · 2 years

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I would like to be sad a little more.

#Hey im not looking for advice right now and its very much rubbing me the wrong way #i just. i worked on that fic for months. and i get that you cant write for others and i like it so whats it matter #but 23k. 23k and the only person who thought it was worth a comment was my friend #and i get that im being a whiner and and ass and snapping at someone who's offering advice in good faith is rude #but i just want to be saf about it #thats probably more than 40 hours of my life #if you spent fourty hours on a cake and you and a friend were the only one who enjoyed it you'd probably think you should have been doing #literally anything else with your time #and i dont want advice on what i should have done or what i should do next or how i need to not write for others-#I KNOW OKAY #i just want to be sad about it #ive had plenty of posts and fics flop and it sucks. we regroup and move on #but God Damnit cant i be upset and mourn the time spent (spent not wasted) when its more than six months of work #thats not even worth a fucking <3 #yada you dont owe writers your comments or time Look i get it.#... its not even porn. at least then you know why no one says a word. it just sucked.#i just wanted to commiserate with my friends for a few minutes and now i cant even do that because i snapped at well meaning advice #instead of just saying right off the bat #*big inhale* okay. times up time to go do something productive #because i cant change it and laying here wont change where im at #back to it.#i got my clothes ironed ill make my bed and lie in it i think

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