#i thought i got all my stuff done

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out. #and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day? #or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative

[becca-e-barnes]

Sub!bucky is so needy for you after you denied his orgasm a few days (he is so whiny 😩🥵)

And at night he’s having a wet dream of you and he doesn’t know that’s part of you evil plan… while he grinds his clothed dick at your palm you whisper some sexy things in his ears. When he cums he wakes up and you made his look like he was not your good boy 🥵🥵🥵🥵

I've actually been thinking about something similar recently! I just really love subby men eugh 🤤

I like to think you could make it a little more intense though because I prefer to imagine that you've been making him edge for a few days. You don't let him edge inside you, you both know he'd struggle too much. Instead, you lube up your hand and stroke him for hours, letting him fuck your fist until he's dribbled so much precum over you, your hand is unbearably slick and then you kiss his forehead before you tuck his aching cock back into his underwear.

No matter how much he whines and begs and pleads to be allowed to cum, you don't give in. He's not just being denied his orgasm, he's being worked towards it until he's right on the edge and then you give him absolutely nothing. Repeatedly. It's torture but fuck, he gets off on knowing his dick is yours. He doesn't cum without your permission. You completely own him.

He breaks after the sixth night of being relentlessly edged. You'd stroked his cock nice and slowly for hours that day, swirling your tongue over his tip and reminding him that he's the best boy. He was practically shaking by the time you both made it to bed.

His little whine of "Oh fuck, please." was the first thing you remember hearing when you woke up, quickly followed by "O-oh, oh yes."

At first you thought he must be touching himself; giving in to his own slutty thoughts when he thought you wouldn't find out.

As your sleepy brain slowly wakes up, you realise he's grinding against you, rubbing his throbbing cock against your bare ass, gripping your hips like there's no tomorrow. "Gonna cum. F-fuck, gonna cum." He's frantic, his head tucked in against your neck, his breath hot and erratic against your skin.

You can't have that. Absolutely not. You shuffle away from him, determined not to let him have what he needs and the second the contact between your bodies is broken, you hear him whine pathetically.

"Did you really think that would work out for you?" You tease quietly, turning to face him but that's when you realise his eyes are still closed. His brow is furrowed, very clearly still asleep.

You can't help but pity him. He's so desperate to cum, he's grinding against you in his sleep. He's done his very best to do as he's told but his body can't take it. He's been the best boy for you all week. The least you could do is grant him a little relief.

"You're such a good boy, Bucky." You whisper, pressing him gently onto his back, grasping his cock and letting the tip glide between your slick folds. Nothing feels better than this. You've missed it more than you thought you would this week.

"Such a pretty little slut." You line his tip up with your entrance and ever so slowly lower yourself down. "You're a mindless little fuck toy for me when you're like this. So horny, you can hardly even think straight. You've been like a needy fucking puppy for me all week. You just let your dick think for you, isn't that right? You know I could tell when you were zoning out and daydreaming about fucking me? You're so cute."

As you start to really fuck yourself on him, Bucky seems to moan himself awake.

"Please." He begs, and it sounds so pretty when he says it. "Please, I'm so close. I'm gonna cum. I can't cum inside you. There's gonna be so much."

"Oh sweetheart, that's what I want. I want you to fill me. Stuff my cunt full of cum. I thought I told you how badly I want a baby."

#asks answered <3 #anon #becca writes spice #sub!bucky #subby!bucky #this ask is from ages ago #it fit what I wanted to talk about almost perfectly #I'm up at 4.30am tomorrow #and I've got that same excited feeling I used to get as a kid the night before a holiday 😂 #I feel like I've slept all weekend #but I got my lashes done!! #things at work went so well this week #I've been planning this past week since November #and it literally couldn't have went better #I ordered WAY more stuff than I thought we'd need and we literally ran out within 3 days #I can't believe how well it went #so I'm probably gonna talk about it forever and I'm not sorry #tw: somnophilia #tw: somno

[sketchy-scribs-n-doods]

i'm a little sad at how sparse steddyhands and stizzy art and writing is on here now after the finale (thankfully, i am still digging through the couple thousand fics up on ao3 so i'm not totally bereft)

because during the airing of the season there was new stuff in the tags every day, sometimes even every few hours, but i think the finale really punched all of us in the face

there's lots of good stuff from before s2 to go digging through of course, and ao3 and twitter still have some new art and fic and memes if you go looking for it, but the difference from before and now seems a bit stark

don't misunderstand me, this isn't me being defeatist, just being a bit melancholy (and mad at the s2 finale tbh lol) about it. shout out to the regulars i see in the tags still making stuff and posting jokes, ya'll are doing the most and i wish you all the passion and motivation and time to create in the world <3

#obviously in this day and age ppl seem to drop fandom right away after the media in question is done so it's not totally unexpected #but the stark difference between so much new art being shared during airing vs the sudden quiet after the finale was. damn. #the izzy tag and regular fandom tags are still pretty active but i have a very specific love lol and it is #stizzy #steddyhands #gentlehands #even the ed and izzy tags are a little more active tho that's mostly because of the meta and angst enjoyers (mood) #anyway as soon as i'm done with finals and have some free time during the break i am going to draw so much old man yaoi #and maybe finally do more of and share my steddyhands mermaid au lol #also one more thing #if i'm sad about how much less steddyhands and stizzy stuff is happening #i am sending so many thoughts and prayers ™ to the frenchie and izzy and lucius and izzy shippers bc goddamn #they also got fucked over this season #we all thought we were winning and then suddenly we all got smacked in the face about it adfgfkj

[akai-anna]

I thought it might be interesting to share the process of making this particular piece...🥺

And yes, I do use both sides of the paper. *puts on sunglasses and flips canvas in traditional style*

#my stuff #yeah it's very messy #but i wanted it to be perfect ok? #also perhaps i put way too much effort and thought into it... but who cares when i just wanted to pour all the love and care into this #god you can see all the colour and material testing lmao #also which lines i wanted to use............ #well anyways i love seeing how other ppl do their stuff #and i just wanted to share in case anyone might be interested #the first page is literally just about finding the right reference ksfjgvndfkjvnjkd #i needed a pose to click with #and the rest is fairly... similar... #just detail perfecting ksjdnkjdfnvk #ok i'm done bye for the night #(god now i'M itching to draw... perhaps this weekend...) #(also i want to frame this so bad but haven't got around to that yet shame on me) #(i'm done i'm done i'm really done good night everyone!)

[b4kuch1n]

the legends speak of it as a kind of enthrallment: the life ended by the tiger is tied to the tiger. in this way there is a line of souls following the beast, for no reason except to show that they were killed. that they could be saved - if only the beast would die [...] in the dark of the wood you see it walk, shadow to shadow, followed by loss after loss after loss, a tail trailing seemingly into the deep death of night [...]

#bakuspecial #cw: body horror #cw: nudity #ask to tag #hi. this is actually not at all the piece Ive been sitting on. I just suddenly really wanted to sketch this at 4 last night #and now. it got done before the one Ive been looking at for uhhhh four days! awesome #this legend I only know like colloquially but it is real btw. iirc #like if a tiger mauls u ur soul has to follow it around until it does #dies. I mean dies. when it does anything is kinda why ur there in the first place #this is very divorced from its full context tho lol tigers and most big animals were generally thought to be long lived and uh. magic? #like they become sapient. when they live long enough. and they start learning spells n shit #so when u become tiger thrall its assumed the tiger actually has stuff for u to do. ur not just following it doin nothing #granted the stuff its assumed it'd want u to do's probably fucking up people's lives or find more stuff for the tiger #greed is also assumed for these beasts generally. so yeah #okay holy fuck I should NOT be awake rn. my brain is not working anymore #have a good night lads. had a really fucking good beef stew tonite. here's to many more of those and for u guys to have some

[skenpiel]

@eebie DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the dance is from this video ♪(^∇^*)

#HI EEBIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL #i made this beccause i was listening to that penis song i sent you and i thought it sounded like a song gobou would use #also i wanted a dancing eeber gif ^___^ #keep in mind i ummm. have only animated once before and that was years ago and very very very short #and also it was totally sketchy and stuff. as in it was just a sketch there was no lineart or colors or anything #and also csp apparently dosent let you export transparent animations!?!?!?!? and also it doesnt let you use more than 25 frames!?!?!?!? #its stupid. so i just made a gif on EZGIF.COM instead<333 #which is why the edges look kinda. um. wack. sorry about that but maybe itll go away when this posts? i dunno but i doubt it #btw i think i have eeber poisoning or something. because i draw her all the time everywhere........ #ive drawn her so many times in some stupid little sketchbook we have in our kitchen when i wait for stuff in tha microwave #her design is just sooooo. Yeah!!!!!!!! #anyway this took Ummm significantly longer than id hoped and my back hurts sooooobad #so im going to bed!!!!!!!! but anyways here u go babygirkl <333333 #my art #oh and btw i only listened to the penis (eek!) song while drawing this and nothing else #just. the same penis song for hours on end #and i said i was gonna take abreak when i was done with the lines before i started coloring but 😀👍 i forfot #OH WAIY ONE LAST YBING. i got cery noticably lazy like halfway through so dontt look too close at the frames or youu might get scared 😨

[danothan]

everyday i log onto the internet i am forced to fisticuffs combat the halbarry default yaoi allegations. THEY’RE NOT A BASIC BRUNETTE/BLONDE JOCK/NERD DYNAMIC THEY’RE MORE THAN THAT (coping)

#i can’t talk to certain dc fans some of them are too immersed in fan conversation that they lose their fresh perspective #yk krillers doesn’t know anything abt superheroes and actually told me that they thought halbarry were the opposite #bc hal’s got that plane autism and barry is basically a track star #and i think that is far more enlightened than some of the stuff i see in my peripherals #but they can’t be reduced to fanfic tropes like that either way… they are special… TO ME #it’s just wild to me that i’ll see 2013-style yaoi fanart in 2023 #they’re not twinks!!! they’re not twinks and they’re not seme/uke substitutes!!! #i think a good rule of thumb is that most of their dynamic goes both ways #<- not referring to seme/uke but that too ig (does not know which word means what) #but you’ll especially notice this in older vs newer iterations of their relationship #does ‘i won’t let you get lost to the speedforce. don’t let me get lost in the stars’ mean NOTHING to you ?! #they’ve done it all! #older hal used to be the one to reach out and bridge their early friendship while barry was the stick in the mud #and newer hal struggles to adapt to barry’s way of friendship while barry is the one to usually initiate their bonding #also i love hal annoying barry bc that is honest to god his love language #but i never see the reverse in fanworks? #ig bc barry’s way of being annoying is more understated but it’s still pretty egregious #hal is annoying bc he likes attention barry is annoying bc he likes to see hal’s reaction #thank god they have each other so they can (relatively) contain their annoyingness to themselves 💚 #except the pda is rly just shameless. why are they always all over each other in front of the justice league. #i’m not even rly complaining anymore i’m honestly just waxing poetic abt their relationship #they have a sedating quality abt them (when they’re not riling me up in a fit of passion) #halbarry #the flash #green lantern #barry allen #hal jordan #dc #danbles

[minqueee]

hiii i made a little animatic for my hero :> (wip bc i am tired and take so long to make stuff like this)

+ nx's room in serenity's inn [and dog bed for nemesis] and also nem making biscuits my silliest guy

(Audio: 9 to 5 by Dolly Parton)

#dragonfable #que back at it again with the unfinished animatic B))) #i just wanted to post this bc i thought the effects were funny... they were on the free video editor of my laptop #oc: nx #oc: nemesis #i wanted to post wip stuff before but i suddenly felt embarrassed abt it only now did my manic energy force the cringe out of my body #to post oc content #also nx is just bothering nemesis at the part they like stretch its that gravity is increasing on me? then they like lean heavily on someon #as a joke #sometimes i do not kno if im even comprehensible at this point im just saying words (english as second language squad) #also yeah bald nx got lazy just wanted to get more done before my brain is like no more drawing just watch video essays all day mode #df oc

[secretsimpleness]

The Mercenary Tier List (bonus theme: Let Me Sit Down to Admire the View, Thanks.) Part 2/4 Assassin’s Creed Odyssey (c) Ubisoft

#assassin's creed #ac odyssey #ac fanart #ubisoft #kassandra #mercenaries #sketch dump #comic #I did basically _everything_ in this game #even got all the achievements (my greatest pride) #but I was N O T prepared for 4 extra levels of mercenary tier-climbing #thought I was done!! #but I found the last ones eventually and got all the perk stuff so all is well

[3amsnek]

ending aro week with a special bonus cozy pride bean :3 an aroace friend!

I couldn’t find a specific event/day to draw them for but I really wanted to make one of these guys for our sunset flag so! here they are <3

and as always here’s the links to their now quite sizable horde of accompanying pals: trans, ace, lesbian, pan, lgbtq+, nonbinary, bi, & aro :]

click for better quality

reblogs > likes! please don’t like if you don’t rb!

#aroace #aroace pride #aroace positivity #ace #aro #acearo #ace pride #aro pride #aro week #asaw 2023 #aromantic #asexual #aromantic pride #asexual pride #my art? #lowkey cannot believe I got this done.. snek finishing every single piece they planned for this week on or ahead of time???? unreal tbh #apparently absolutely nothing motivates me like the thought of my fellow arospecs not seeing enough cute dragon positivity for them #i try to do as much as possible for all pride events but aro and ace ones specifically.. makes me big sad when I don’t see us in pride stuff #so that’s what im here for babey >:3 #the tags on my other posts this week have genuinely made me weep I love seeing y’all like. feel seen by my lil creatures n creations #btw if there Is a specific aroace pride date event pls someone tell me I would Love to know but have had no luck finding one so now it is #cozy pride beans

[icewindandboringhorror]

Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample #around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!' #or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then #the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later #HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone #if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours #of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof #people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed #that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional #except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see #it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk #And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests #are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just #chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac #ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was #too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them #quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol.. #ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof #of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the #tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character #focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about #people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol... #This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough... #yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah.. #Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe #that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you #entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like #''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that #in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did #do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..

[puppyeared]

footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia

#this isn’t about anything in particular btw. I just have to add a lot of memos when I’m doing things because some things are done a certain #way and it isn’t explained well in the instructions. like my mom has instructions on her baking recipes right #but when it says stuff like add dry ingredients to wet ingredients it also means you don’t dump it in one go you add it slowly by portion #this is probably why I find videos and demonstrations the most helpful when I learn something. like I almost always ask someone to show me #how they do it because there could be something they do that’s already second nature and wouldn’t really be considered in an explanation yk #I don’t think I’m an exception either. when the rice is done cooking I divide it into 4 quarters to bless it #but there are a million ways to divide rice and it makes me think that one persons way of doing it or not doing it all is just as valid #theres also technically no wrong way to divide rice afaik. this means either all ways of dividing rice is safe or valid until we find some #universally terrible way of dividing rice. until that happens nobody really thinks about specifying HOW you divide the rice #source: I have anxiety starting and doing things for the first time because I got way too many people yell at me NONONO WHAT ARE YOU DOING #THATS WRONG while I’m in the middle of doing the thing. I would rather have people think I’m either very stupid or overly specific #than go thru the panic inducing fear of ‘YOURE DOING THIS WRONG OMG WHY DIDNT YOU ASK AHEAD OF TIME THIS WILL BE FUCKED UP FOREVER’ 🧍 #nothing wrong if you don’t give something a second thought because you’re so used to it. but I can and will ask about it and I don’t think I #really should feel bad about it if I don’t know enough to dispute it. idk #the other way around I try to be as specific as possible and word things in a way that people who might not get where I’m coming from will #understand. but the problem with that is my explanations tend to be lengthy and I lose them either way 🗿 #Im. trying to work on that using examples and stuff because they seem to work the best #but if I could write everything down on a word doc and beam it into your melon that would save both of us time and embarassment #im rambling the short version is I have adhd #yapping

[charmac]

I know it takes me 500 years to write anything, but when I do finally get it down I am really happy with it and proud of what I've been able to put together, so that's gotta mean something.

#writing #fanfiction #etc... #no not etc this is specifically about writing fanfiction lol #ok sometimes i feel this was with work stuff but #i dont write contracts much anymore #this is about my sugar daddy au if you are reading the tags wondering #yeah yeah its coming #i got a little bit more to do but its kinda just like #gonna be a little montage-y #and then a little sprinkle of smut #and boom done off to my beta #hopefully to you in time for some pre-christmas reading #this is like not what i thought this chapter would be #but they all kinda go like that... #in a good way

[skrunksthatwunk]

went back to the sketchbooks around when i was going through yyh for the first time in 2019 and found a pile of near-yearly sticky note updates about my relationship with the series next to my first yyh doodles, a page full of kuwabaras. thought it'd be fun to share

+ more thoughts and old yyh art below

(it's crazy i didn't find any kurama-centric pages for months bc i think he's the one i doodled in the margins of class notes and stuff the most. his hair's pwetty and he gives me the least trouble outta any of the main 4)

something i noticed while skimming the two sketchbooks i took these from was how mean i was to myself at the time about my art. i guess it hit me more because i don't really spend hours going through my old sketchbooks over and over to track my progress and growth like i used to quite often. i guess it was only a little after when my self esteem was lowest (8th grade, tale as old as time), but... idk. i knew back then that i'd grown a lot in the few years since i started drawing more seriously (that's why i looked through my art so much), but like... i guess that never translated into being nice to myself about it. i ended up going back through about ten more sketchbooks to find more yyh art, and in the coming years i'm glad to say that negativity in the margins went away. hell yeah

but even so, my love for yyh was a constant and effusive thing, as it is now. it's probably the oldest of my current media interests. i watched myself get into rgg and develop my ocs and watched others fade in and out, watched my style loop back on itself and go all over the place, passed by pages of writing about crushes and album releases and gender discoveries and my grandparents dying, all surrounded by little drawings of the characters i love. including kuwabara in a maid dress right next to my dead grandma grief rambling that one time (no i'm not kidding. my grandma died in like late 2020 and the page where i poured my heart out after finding out she was gone just trying to process everything had one with catboy maid dress kuwabara directly opposite it, who i'd drawn like the evening before she died in her sleep. he killed my grandma from like 100 miles away he was that powerful. that wasn't even the last time i drew him like that and i don't even care about catboys or maid dresses much. i think it was just a bigger meme and he was the guy i most associated with cats. i put that man in a situation and he fucking got her because the book couldn't contain him. some victor frankenstein shit. anyway)

i took about 150 pictures, most with multiple sketches. i decided not to add any more though bc 1) i posted some of them on old accounts but i don't remember which ones, and tbh i value my anonymity a little too much 2) All Of The Pictures Turned Out Bad in ways i don't feel like getting into but just trust me it's like 6 layers of fucked up illegible image bullshit 3) i found it hard to narrow it down to things i felt were indicative of the development or interesting or anything like that. idk. i figured it was an interesting exercise for me and it probably wouldn't really mean anything to anyone else. and that's ok :) it was nice anyway. i mostly mention it to be like Oh My God i've drawn these guys a lot and i STILL don't know what i'm doing... :| it's fun

however i did transcribe the notes i left:

7/9/19: yo it's been less than a week & i'm on ep. 80 wtf i love this show

8/14/20: 1/2way thru my 3rd watch (first dub, first [with older sibling]) & honestly still love it & kuwabara being the first one i drew makes me happy

7/28/21: i'm watching it w/ [younger sibling] now! 4th(ish) watch, 2nd time through the dub, which is so much better than the sub really elevates the text. we're at the semifinals of the DT, which means this is technically my 5th time through yyh up until that point but eh semantics anyway i still love & obsess over yyh! <3

1/14/24 (present day): hey, i'm rewatching yyh for the.. idk 5th or 6th time. still love it & never stopped. now i'm writing fic & drawing & posting about it. i have friends i talk to about it. [both siblings] have seen it. so much has changed, and so little, but it made me sad seeing how much i insulted my own art. i love you 2019 me. god knows you needed it

[+ this drawing]:

anyway. forever fornever. if you even care

#that's all. just kind of a personal post i thought was neat. skrunklore #skrunkart #yyh #yu yu hakusho #you can really feel the 14 y/o in a lot of the little notes and stuff but that too is part of the growth and change im trying to celebrate. #ripping my fingernails off about it but it needs to be done #also the hearts are because they love each other. and also me in like a cheering you on kinda way #ok more lore but around jr year i started feeling like my art was getting worse or at least stagnating and i kind of wished i could go back #to the era where a lot of that art is from bc there were little things i was better at and also bc i was much more prolific and adventurous #and while i'm sympathetic to it looking back after another couple of years it's like nah. no i was still growing i was just too close to se #like i'll be like oughh i haven't grown at all in years >:(( and then i'll look at the art i made over the course of 2023 and go oh nvm lol #some of it was more 'getting back into the swing of things' + traditional and tech issues being resolved but there was also growth #there is also stuff to be proud of and there always is and there always will be. that goes for you too reader #no matter what your art does or does not look like. i guess that's part of why im posting this too #part of what got me into visual art was seeing how people's art changed (sketchbook tours). it's cool and seeing that learning process so #well preserved and so easily analyzed kinda activated something in my brain. i think it got me past a lot of the 'im just not talented' #stuff a lotta ppl have that keeps them from drawing or sharing it or whatever. anyway art's cool i love art. gonna go draw now probably :D #ALSO really funny watching the way i drew myself change. all in ways that make sense but still funny to me. long hair glasses girl you'd #probably keel over if you saw what we look like now. hell yeah

[albatris]

I'm in ~that mood~ again (the mood to shove rentalcar at people to read)

#i got six chapters done in full #n most of the ending but y'all can't read the ending yet fjrjskd #desire to hear people's thoughts on what I've written so far vs desire to wait to share things like i know i should vs paranoia..... FIGHT #i worry if i send ppl my stuff they will STEAL it all sneakylike #if I've sent u rentalcar chapters it means i trust n value u. congrajulations <3

[tvckerwash]

hmmm I'm thinking about wash's stance on the training accident and I think it would be so funny if he gave maine a lecture about it afterwards

#they have a whole moment together that essentially boils down to wash telling maine that he's should know better and that bad orders exist #and maine is genuinely sorry because he knows it was a bad call and he tells wash that #and wash replies with “I know you are but I'm not the one who you should be apologizing too.” #wash treating maine like he's a human being with thoughts and feelings instead of a mindless weapon my beloved #maine is not happy about having to apologize to york btw. idk why we all decided that maine hates york but it's so funny #maine is a man of few words and he cannot stand the fact that york is incapable of shutting the fuck up lol #rvb #red vs blue #agent maine #agent washington #mine #lina lectures wyoming later after she knows that york is going to be okay #I really like the idea of wash being beta squads field leader and when he and ct get bumped up he shares leader duties w lina #lina is probs a commissioned officer so she technically outranks wash in under regard but she's probably fresh out of the academy when shes #recruited for pfl and commissioned officers are expected to learn the ropes from enlisted nco's so I like to think that she #really values wash's opinion on stuff and she feels confident knowing that she can look to him #the other freelancers could've done the same thing but they're all kinda. you know. so wash got the position by virtue of being the only gu #who had the balls to go up to lina and make the proposition of *gasp* cooperation #i actually have a hc that when wash and ct were first moved up and were on their first mission w alpha squad #stuff was bad and wash sort of undercuts lina by giving south and maine different orders (bc they were also both previously beta squad) #and said orders ended up being the right call and carolina is kind of mad about wash ignoring her authority #so after they get debriefed wash apologizes to lina in the locker room for it bc it was not his intention to steal her thunder #and he asks if they can start over and maybe work something out #and lina accepts his apology and york is kinda balking bc the way wash words it sounds vaguely like he's asking her on a date #york gets no bitches and cannot complete with wash's earnest rizz bdhshj