#i stayed alive for this

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 1x09 - "The Monster You Created" ↳ "I thought maybe you could love me like you used to. Even though I'm… different. But you changed too. So… Here's to the new us."

#arcane #arcaneedit #arcane league of legends #league of legends arcane #netflixedit #animationedit #jinx #mel #mel medarda #sevika #jayce #jayce talis #caitlyn kiramman #caitlyn #ekko #heimerdinger #ambessa #ambessa medarda #singed #8 more months till we find out who survives jinx's ult lmao #i still think all the non council people who showed up in the last montage will stay alive and will also be “new” #aka what the writers said that everyone in s2 will be a lil bit of the opposite as they were in s1 #as a caitlyn simp... i cant wait to see cuntlyn in s2 sorry not sorry lol #media: arcane #s1 ep9

[parisoonic]

Rubbin it in.

#tf2 #tf2 fanart #tf2 medic #tf2 heavy #team fortress 2 #heavymedic #im a heavy main and my boyf is a spy main but i've been teaching him heavy and ill go medic to help him stay alive lol #and he's CONVINCED that he carries me as heavy when im working my arse off to keep him alive as he thunders around #i never have the heart to argue though as he's SO proud

[norrizzandpia]

WHO DECIDED TO FUCKING WAKE UP THIS MORNING AND DROP THE HOTTEST PICTURES OF LANDO AND ISCAR IM FIGHTING TO BREATHE OUT HERE YOU GUYS SEND HELP PLZ IM NOT OKAY IM SHORT CIRCUITING

#LIKE??? #I NEED IT IN INCRIMENTS TO STAY ALIVE #still blessed tho #i dont want anyone but these men right here #the absolute banger of fics im about to go start writing bc im no longer stressed with school bc its the weekend and these pics j dropped #mclaren #mclaren formula 1 #lando norris edit #lando norris #ln4 #oscar piastri #oscar pastry #oscar piasstri #op81

[luyo-mi]

These 2 omg

#when deuce dropped a damn cauldron on ace I choked #like how is ace alive run #I love them so much #please tell me they stay by my side throughout the story😭 #ace trappola #deuce spade #twisted wonderland

[opikiquu]

more Penacony memes!!!! (yeah its still mostly aventurine)

#Im doing better! theres ONE non aventurine meme! #arent you all so proud of me? 🥹🥹🥹🩷 #2 if youre counting the ratio one #but anything ratio related is indirectly related to aventurine #i mean Look at him. Hes probably thinking about aventurine as we speak #★ arin rambles #★ memes #aventurine #star rail aventurine #hsr aventurine #aventurine honkai star rail #dr ratio #veritas ratio #ratiorine #aventio #hsr dr ratio #hsr misha #text posts #hsr memes #hsr penacony #penacony spoilers #references to The Note counter: Idk 700 at this point. I never shut up about it #‘do stay alive’ (Immediately collapses onto the floor clutching my chest) OH DEAR LORDDDD AAAHHHHH AHHH sOBS #<- thats positive i promise #★ arin makes stuff

[autisticmight]

well you can tell by the way i use my walk. i'm a chicken man. bawk bawk bawk bawk

#helen stfu #every time i am reminded of chickens or the song 'staying alive' THIS HAPPENS IN MY BRAIN

[mcspicey]

Colored Simon sketchessss ft winter king

Also Betty design by @/roshou_ on twittar

#fanart #adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #betty grof #winter king #marceline #HI i am very much alive and intend to stay that way 0u0 #just yhat im crazy busy w school

[nearlydark]

Along the Merced river

#film photography #my film #35mm film #stay broke shoot film #35mm #film is not dead #canon ae1 #california #Yosemite #yosemite national park #Merced river #light leaks #kodak ultramax 400 #i shoot film #film is alive #35mm color film #kodak film #nature #naturecore

[demigods-posts]

i have this headcanon that annabeth is completely nonchalant in her day-to-day life. and it makes so much sense to me because this girl dedicates all of her brain power/energy toward surviving, ensuring a future as an architect, and toward living the rest of her natural life with the people she loves, that mundane things like whether or not to wear her slippers on the correct feet are pointless to her. like, to me, annabeth dips her bagels in a jar of cream cheese and bagel seasoning because fuck it. to me, annabeth steals percy's pants and throws on a hoodie because she doesn't feel like walking across the room to retrieve a bra and a shirt from her dresser. to me, annabeth uses an office chair to transport herself around her and percy's apartment because free will.

#i'd just like to say that this is in no way diminishing annabeth's accomplishments or work ethic or anything #i just feel like annabeth doesn't fixate on excelling in every aspect of her life #since she spent the first eighteen years of it just trying to stay alive #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #annnbeth chase and the olympians #annabeth chase #pjo headcanon #annabeth chase headcanon #annabeth chase textposts #we stan annabeth chase #we love annabeth

[ruporas]

☀️

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. It’s two 3 panel comics that illustrates the same sequence. The first focuses on Vash. In the first panel, he’s in a hurried motion with a worried expression. In the second, he’s stopped, huffing a breath out as he’s scanning for Wolfwood (not pictured). In the final panel, he breaks out into a relieved smile, eyes lighting up with warm cheeks.

The second comic focuses on Wolfwood. In the first panel, he’s looking downwards to the right with a cigarette in his mouth, wearing a neutral expression. On his face are notable scratch marks to indicate him being in a fight prior. In the second panel, he turns towards the viewer, lifting his head as he notices Vash (as from the previous sequence). In the final panel, he smiles warmly with teeth and holds up a peace sign. END ID]

[ID: Sketchy black and white drawings of Vash and Wolfwood, continuing off the comic. Wolfwood’s back is to the viewer while Vash’s profile can be seen, now by Wolfwood’s side. He has a bright smile as he says to Wolfwood, “You’re safe!” Wolfwood responses, bearing a grin too, “Who do ya think yer talking to? ‘Course I am. Look, I got them alive.” He points to two figures who are tied up and have comically large head bumps. Vash looks to them with an uncertain expression as he says, “Oh! You did, huh… Are you sure they’re alive?” Wolfwood, with a more irritated expression, responds “What, didn’t think I could do it?” Vash says, “No, no! I knew you could!” and pats Wolfwood on the cheek and his head comfortingly. END ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vw running around towns doing little odd jobs and getting caught up in townsfolk conflict when someone gets taken hostage or smth... #solving it with a little bit of violence but ultimately everyone is alive and well and it's over in like 20 mins before they go about the #rest of their day. i feel like that kind of mundanity or chaos if something that vash is a little used to but probably not wolfwood #i dont think he'd be getting dragged out on assassination quests like every 2 days prior to vash but i also think he'd have left towns #quickly. chatted with townsfolk but ultimately stayed in his lonesome. had more time to stew in his own thoughts and when he does get a job #to kill it's something that weighs on his mind for days. regardless of how chaotic is with vash i like to think it's a lot more healing #then what he's been accustomed to. at the end of the day they get a few scuffs and brusies but theyre alive!!! and no lives were lost #and theyre within reach of each other and get to chat about the stupid shit vash dragged them into. in another life wolfwood would #probably be happy doing just that #ruporas art

[fanfic-gremlin-ft-trauma]

they won :)

#sokka and katara #sokka and katara fanart #atla #atla fanart #water hazard siblings #there’s just so much I have to say about these two #but I’ll stay context specific #something about the fact that Sokka and Katara both won their respective battles #not even knowing whether the other is alive #not knowing if they’d lost another family member #but when they see each other all injuries are forgotten #they run even though they’re hurt and tired #the hug they share is one of relief #they don’t have to say anything because the unspoken #‘thank spirits you’re alive. thank spirits I didn’t have to lose another person.’ #is clear to both of them #I have a lot of feelings okay

[olasketches]

jjk 223

#he only lost his HAND what the hell #sukuna my love… what the heck are you made of?? #team sukuna btw (is actually team megumi) #I want my son back #so I kinda need sukuna to stay alive until I get him back #jjk #jjk 223 #jujutsu kaisen #it was funnier in my head #ryoumen sukuna #gojo satoru #my art #jujutsu kaisen fanart #ryomen sukuna

[bamsara]

hot take but i think if someone's parent(s) have died the government should support the remaining child/adult children with financial stuff to the age 26 (the age it is for other adult children to remain on their parent's healthcare plans, car insurance, ect) because I should not have been paying bills or losing healthcare at 17

#personal #woo nelly some real life stuff is happening #and i am bitter about life #we STAY silly tho #sara shush #“but you get money when they die” no tf i did not we went into debt he didnt have life insurence #this is america you stay alive to work work work and if you die you burden your family

[carehounds]

I love how lesleys face has stuffing coming out of it implying that she, the most human looking person on the show, is made of stuffing compared to the main puppet trio who have organs and blood.

#dhmis #puppet talk #if that was on purpose i think its absolutely cool as hell #horrible thought popped up in my head right about now what if she is also dead but is staying alive via puppet magic #ohhhhhg makes me cray i love this #i fucking love contrasting design and implications they showed enough to make us think and just enough to make us imagine the horrors of it #so fucking cool lesley muah

[atlasdoe]

things that Remus Lupin didn't do:

Care about music

Smoke

Drink heavily

Call Sirius stupid or talk down to him

Physically fight anyone in his human form

Threaten anyone in his human form

Hold a grudge

Befriend a Death Eater

#hot takes with ace #this is just my opinion yall i ain't saying that you can't think differently #but some of these i am very passionate about #like the fighting and the threatening #Remus' entire character is that he didn't want to be like other werewolves #he didn't want to be a violent monster like he is stereotyped to be #SO WHY WOULD HE GO ROUNG FIGHTING AND THREATENING PEOPLE #THATS THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT HE WANTS TO DO #and by fighting i mean like as a teen not during the war where he had to fight to stay alive #the marauders #harry potter #the marauders era #marauders #wolfstar #remus lupin #sirius black