#i stand by what ive said

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

Theo for the character bingo <3

I should have known <3

#ask #liv answers #my friend faye #i dig his dynamics better than him just on his own personal preference hes just sad on his own #he is a horrible person and you know it. i still dont like him in season 5 i almost filed in the active dislike square cause of it #i stand by what ive said

[babydarkstar]

im smh everyone implies that harrowhark nonagesimus would listen to death metal and grindcore and all these super gritty music genres and imlike….shes literally a teenage nun raised in a religious cult by people who have long suffered from a death rattle. sugar water is too much for her. she cannot even handle salt in her soup. she is both the most intense and most pathetic human to live. babygirl is not listening to anything with rhythm but the clicking of her bone rosary and the sound of her own breath. and if she ever starts listening to music you can bet your ass it’s obscure 2hour gregorian chant with binaural beats on a portable cd player that she rewinds ad infinitum and plays on the lowest possible setting so as not to interrupt her racing thoughts

#this applies to pretty much every au im not discriminatory #harrowhark nonagesimus #tlt #the locked tomb #im like……did we read the same books #it’s funny bc i feel like everyone who reads them has a wildly different interpretation #which is actually cool to me i think it’s neat #but im right. #because of this post ive been listening to gregorian chant for like an hour #reigniting an old spark within myself #the only reason harrowhark knows about metal as a music genre is bc griddle is a metalhead i said what i said #she might be the goth and g might be the jock….. #but harrow cannot even stand the headache of her own pulse sometimes. noise sensitive autistic girl #gideon tho. she listens to everything at least once methinks

[kabutoden]

bug trolls… i am interested in kankri vantas. if that isn’t too much trouble. your buggy guys are so silly and interesting and i am a fan

here is kankri and his baby brother…. they don’t get along!! i wish they did though id love to see these two go on an adventure together where they look out each other. since kankri is a beforus troll and a vegan, his shell is pretty thin because he’s not getting enough iron. on the other hand, karkat’s shell is heavier then it should be due to stress. thanks for the RQ!! im soooo glad ppl like my sillies :D

#kankris picking up karkat because karkat said fuck you im going to come over there and cram my scythe down your ignorance shaft #kankri said no you arnt. you’re not going to do that. im not letting you do that. #karkat vantas #kankri vantas #homestuck #trolls #buggy trolls #want to see these 2 depending on each other to survive in alternia. i think it would be very hard for them to do #but i think they could grow and develop in interesting ways if they got to be brothers who fight #enrichment in the isopod tank #redbloods #these two are natural drama that’s engaging story!! ive never really read a fic i liked that rlly got into their companionship as brothers #like there’s quite a few abt dirk and dave as brothers #most fics that have both of them focus more on their bonds with the sufferer #if anyone has a recommendation I’d love to hear it #give them crabdad no sufferer make them struggle in this cruel world. highly protective kankri grumpy wrathful karkat #they can’t stand each other but also rely on each other. redblood moment #given that isopods are comparatively social and good natured to many of the other troll buggy species I’ve picked out #that’s what I’m SAYIN #^silly #ok bye

[pcktknife]

astarion was lying about the true vampire thing cause i may not be afflicted with vampirism but i am afflicted with shitty rolls

#got a crick in the neck and now all my rolls are bad which i guess is true to life #i was like ohhh itll be fine its just a -1 and im not even blaming the lil debuff my rolls are just BAD now #i drafted this just this morning so ive overcome the hardships and terrors (mostly) but i still stand by what i said at the moment #kae.txt #bg3 spoilers #ig

[fallenangelvexed]

Another day, another cover

Links under the cut

#ghost songs database #i can already hear met fans screaming at me #but i stand by what i said #enter sandman #ghost cover #ghost band #the band ghost #ghost bc #ghost #tobias forge #cardinal copia #copia #papa emeritus #papa emeritus iv #papa copia #papa emeritus 4 #nameless ghouls #ghost analysis #song analysis #Youtube

[obihoe]

thinking abt this screenshot of madara looking down on tobirama after attempting to take out his hurt over izuna's death on him .. but tobirama cannot die, he cannot feel pain and izuna is dead anyway so its not enough

#posts #madara #sorry i feel like ive said this exact thing on some post already a while ago .. but i came across this picture again and it brought up #some thoughts #this scene's like the only instance during the entire war arc where we get to see him display any emotion #smth other than lust for battle or excitement etc #we can actually see that even for him as free of emotion as he comes off most of the time #there's quite an amount of hurt for him at the source of it too #mdr also kills sasuke after this. first tries to avenge izn's death but then goes and stabs a stand-in of his right thru the heart #and he looks so unhappy w this afterwards #cuz he feels like he Has to doesnt want to kill him but has to #we also see him remember hsrm's backstab and this time it is not a romantic memory #contrary to the first time when he talks abt him to the 5 kage #here u can see that it did hurt him and he remembers every single word hsrm said to him .. #repeats them to sasuke and then applies that same logic to him as well #hsrm had to kill him for the village so now mdr for his version of peace. has to do the same thing as well #kill his own kin as a sacrifice to achieve what he wants #but also sfdgesfdfsd #just this interaction here w tbrm alone .. its so dissatisfying for him cuz like he wants do SOMETHING abt his grief over losing his #brother. but he cant. he cant even fuck up and hurt his killer anymore over it #its too late #he shouldve done that earlier but couldnt and now its too late #just like everything else is too late for him too. no way back anymore no way to reverse anything thats happened

[blueskittlesart]

I know you're not fond of Twilight Princess, but what would you think if they brought back worldbuilding elements from it (the Twilight world and Midna, mainly) to a newer game? I'm not familiar enough with the series to know a whole lot, but that stuff at least seems really neat to me from my secondhand knowledge, but if Twilight Princess was as bad as you say... I would love to see them revisit it somehow with the BotW/TotK continuity.

i have this. thing about twilight princess. we know this. but genuinely even looking at the lore from an objective standpoint i think trying to pull any of it into other games is a bad decision at best and actively detrimental to the new game in question at worst. there are two main reasons for this:

the first is that mainline, non-sequel zelda games have a general rule about standing alone. in order for the games to remain accessible to players of all ages and backgrounds, every original (non-sequel) zelda title has to be able to function as an introduction to the franchise, meaning any lore required to understand the story must be exposited WITHIN the story of that game. the few lore-points that HAVE been adapted from other games (sacred realm, oot ganondorf, talking sword) are generic enough that they can be explained briefly within the story without taking too much time away from the player's journey. while those of us who ARE versed in the lore might have a deeper understanding of the overarching implications of these elements, NOT understanding the history behind them isn't going to impede your understanding or enjoyment of the game. for example, this is likely the practical reason why fi was never named or appeared in botw beyond her generic sound effect and the glowing of the sword, because even players who don't KNOW fi are able to tell from context that the sword is magical and is speaking. not knowing who fi is doesn't impede your ability to understand how and why the sword is speaking, given the rest of the context of botw's story. the two elements of tp that you mentioned, the twilight realm and midna, are VERY difficult from a writer's standpoint to work into a game without requiring the player to understand the plot of twilight princess. neither element easily fits into a new cycle's story without requiring a ton of expositional explanation which will inevitably take players out of the story, and relying on convoluted lore that new players won't even be familiar with to drive your story just sets you up for failure.

the second reason is that, from a writer's standpoint, neither midna nor the twilight realm were well-written enough in TP to be compelling. lmao. If you're going to adapt world-altering lore like the twilight realm into consistent canon, you need to have a firm grasp on the implications of adapting it. even the writers of TP had no fucking clue what the twilight realm was or where it came from or how it tied into the existing world of hyrule at all. literally the first sentence on the zelda wiki for twilight realm history is "The Twilight Realm's full history is incomplete." adding something like a new dimension to your consistent canon is world-altering. when you do something like that, it HAS to be thought-out and for good reason, or you're just confusing your audience unnecessarily. IF the twilight realm was to be brought back, it would HAVE to be with explicit knowledge of of how it effects the narrative and theming of the story its being written into, something that wasn't even present in the game where it was introduced. the same goes for midna; if you bring her back, she needs a reason to be there. she needs narrative weight and thematic consistency with the entire rest of the game, things that were barely present in her original story. ripping these elements out of their own game and tossing them into another only makes them more likely to feel out-of-place and confusing to players. And to be completely honest, almost anything that writers wanted to accomplish with the twilight realm could be done just as easily utilizing the sacred realm, an element which is already in consistent canon and is much easier to write into a given story than something as mysterious and confusing as the twilight realm. with midna, almost anything that she would accomplish could be accomplished by a game-specific guide character, which is already staple of loz anyway. using a game-specific guide character would also remove any potential confusion for new players who lack the context of midna's past appearances. the only reason you might NEED midna as a character is if you ALSO have the twilight realm and specifically require a twili guide character to explain it, but. for all the reasons stated above. you shouldn't have the twilight realm. lol

#tp critical #like. i know we all love the overarching lore and are obsessed with consistent canon and game callbacks #but if the game can't stand on its own it cant stand period. consistent canon is less important than a legible standalone game #ive said this before but i NEED you guys to remember that up until skyward sword there WAS no consistent canon. #for almost 25 years the zelda devs were making standalone games tied together by a few consistent elements of gameplay #and then AFTER they made 25 years worth of games they sat down and connected them all. #thinking about how the game fits into the overarching lore isn't usually a priority for these devs. and i don't really think it SHOULD be #their priority is telling a good story and giving players a good gameplay experience. #where it fits into the overarching lore can be figured out after the fact the same way it was for every game pre sksw. #pulling WHOLE GAME-SPECIFIC CHARACTERS AND SETTINGS into a new game makes little to no sense. that's not really what the games are about #anyway. rant over

[doctorwhoisadhd]

okay im thinking about midnight burger <--> doctor who now.

#listening to doom coalition and ive only just started the red lady but COME ON THAT IS CLEMENTINE RIGHT THERE #and it would make sense for the creator of midnight burger to have listened to this since theyre both. you know. audio fiction #ari opinion hour #fav midnight burger characters btw are probably terric and caspar. and effie and zebulon tbh #its funny usually if theres an insane woman with a love interest whos just like Some Guy i am FAR more interested in the woman #(source: gwen cooper‚ jordan from scrubs‚ annika strandhed) #but its actually the exact OPPOSITE way here #although me being a terric enjoyer is... highly unsurprising. #as for caspar though. what can i say except he said he likes birds that one time #really though there isnt really one midnight burger character im that obsessed with i think theyre all fascinating but theres none that #stand out to me as Blorbos™

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[thisloev]

i just came out to a real life person and i think im having a heart attack

#IT WAS SO UNPLANNED I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT AT ALL I DIDN'T EVWN THINK WE WERW FRIENDS?? #she lives in the building next to mine and we go to tui together to divide the auto fare and we've been walking home 2-3 dino se #and she likes kpop and kdramas #but like there isn't that Spark yk like oh ny god i love u best friends forever its a little awkward and formal still #but we were talking about something and oh my god #when we reached home we were standing uski building ke neeche and she was like i want to introduce you to my childhood bestie i think you #two will like each other #and i was like kinda weirded out like um are we that close yet i thought we were just classmates 😭😭 #so i asked ki oh why all of a sudden #and she's like 'i like you' and i look at her and laugh and she said STOP LAUGHING i don't meant it like that im straight ok #and idk something in me snapped i was like oh are u homophobic too? #but pls she didn't know what it meant 😭 so i explained ki do u hate gay people then #she said no no ofc not SO I JUST BLURTED OUT KI good cause im bisexual #THE SHOCK ON HER FACE OMG im saying this now in freaking out now but at that time i said it really coolly and proudly without fumbling #my voice didn't drop down to a low volume or waver or anything (which im so proud bc she's like the first irl person ive come out to face #to face??????? i mean obv childhood friends don't count they're all gay #but anyway she was like OH and then SHE FUMBLED she was like oh nice i respect u very much and it was so awkward i was like haan haan shut #up just don't tell anyone very few ppl know 😭and she wasn't done she was like so as i was saying #we're growing old and real good friendships are getting harder to find and i like you (stop laughing!!) and i hope we don't jinx it #and she literally touched a wooden table lying there and said touchwood???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #now i am thinking why did i tell her she's so extroverted she talks to everyone we go to the same tui this town is tiny #she could tell everyone my parents could find out #but also a part of me is relieved cause im so sick of hiding something that is such a small yet imp part of me #and if she tells everyone then cool maybe there'll be more queer people i can't ve the only queer person in this town and we could be #friends and my parents eh they'd never believe something like that they'll ask me if it's true and ill say nah just rumors dumb kids #and they'll believe me because they'll want to believe me so bad #so no harm #i still don't feel very bestfriendy with her but maybe my standards are too high 😭 idk ig i can't see myself being friends with her #for a long time if we weren't forced by circumstances and i don't like her that much but im happy i got to say it #literally said it omg 'kyunki main hu. bisexual' FUCK THAT FELT GOOD

[puppy-steve]

had my stepdad's funeral today (not my current stepdad) and hoooooo boy the abandonment issues are in full swing :)

#not a single mention of me in his obituary - as if the 15 or so years where he raised me suddebly didn't matter anymore - #- bc he and my mom were no longer married. all his current step kids were listed though :) (along with their partners/spouses) #i didn't even get to sit up front with everyone. i sat in the very back of the room in the very last row. #and you know what? i really fucking needed the comfort of my step brothers #like i was 10 again and they were the only ones standing between me and him when his temper got ugly #i got it at the end at the cemetery where we all three hugged really tight. but i still would've liked to sit beside them. #it was just like i was sort of overlooked the whole time - which in fairness i havent actually been his stepkid in 10 years #but. idk. it still hurt. #bc i also noticed it with my own parents #people are always shocked when i tell them that yes - this is my dad and this is my mom #bc they know their Other Kids. not me. #it's like a friend said: sometimes it's not the middle child that's forgotten. it's the eldest. #ok sorry rant over ive just been stewing over this all day #cj talks

[spamsandsuch]

i know this is mostly a spamton blog but its also a deltarune blog and i really really wanna talk about scc since theyre all ive been thinking about these past few weeks

#deltarune #scc #sweet cap'n cakes #scc posting #fun fact did you know when deltarune ch 2 came out i was actually a k_k fan first before a spamton fan #what not hyperfixating on k_k for two years does to a boyloser (silly) #i rly rly wanna talk about scc and i just might so if you see me posting/drawing them for possibly a good bit thats why #not to say this blog is turning into a scc blog but i did say this is a deltarune blog and i have and will post abt other characters #besides spamton on occasion #EDIT: actually its only been a week since ive been thinking abt them idk why i said a few weeks #My point still stands tho

[thedreadvampy]

walked out my front door and immediately dropped my coffee in the ground. and I mean cartoonishly fumbled it. no particular reason. just uhuhuhwaaaaaaah and it exploded on the floor and my cup rolled away under a bush entirely empty. full cup of coffee. hadn't even taken a sip. still frothy from the machine. on the floor now.

so that's how my morning's going how are we all?

#red said #caught the bus though so there's that. after standing there swearing then quickly dipping back into the building to stow the cup #i did successfully get to the bus stop before the bus pulled out. #which is only like the 3rd time since moving that ive successfully got the bus that gets me to work before 9 #because i am WHAT? not a morning person.

[anotherpapercut]

whenever you guys post about hating math it makes me want to hold a private class and teach you all how to love her in all her complex beauty

#once i made a post that said 'no one is inherently bad at math you guys just werent taught in a way that worked for you' #and a lot of people yelled at me lmao but i stand by it #ive been tutoring professionally for about 6 or 7 years and i have brought many students from Ds and Fs to As and Bs #students who've hated math their whole life and cried through their homework #also i hate when people are like 'well what about people with dyscalculia?????' #like. i have dyscalculia. 😒 we can also be taught how to do math we just need accomodations

[constantvariations]

I remember someone saying "there's no such thing as a good racism allegory" and it's been bouncing around in my head for a while. I'm someone who typically thinks anything can work if given the right circumstances, but then I really started thinking about it and I believe they're right

Because if you want to talk about racism, you should just talk about racism

(This is unpolished and ramble-y, so strap yourselves in)

Racism is deeply ingrained into our society, no matter where you live. Imperialism and colonialism has ensured that no corner of Earth has been left untouched. Choices from hundreds of years ago are still being felt today. There's practically no end to the discussion of its effects on the world and its people

So, why should anyone feel the need to dress it up in cat ears?

I've consumed a lot of media where writers have consciously echoed in part some aspect of racism in their fantasy story: Bright 2017, Dragon Age, RWBY, the MCU, Harry Potter, Detroit: Become Human, etc. The biggest thing they have in common is that the narrative is told to side with the victims, but it somehow always ends up against them

It always sides with the status quo

It's confusing, maddening even, because the narrative oft goes out of its way to show how horrible the system is and how these folk don't deserve their treatment, so why are we going back to normal as if it's a good thing? Why are the people actively working to improve the system decried as annoying at best and monstrous at worst?

Then you look at the people who write these storylines. The beliefs they hold, the people they vote for, which charities and organizations they give to, and it all makes sense. Centrists (at best) trying to look progressive are the ones who need to dress racism up in cat ears and rainbow freckles. They set aside the long, brutal histories and crushing systemic realities to play pretend that racism is Not That Bad and is only done by Those Bad Individuals

That's why Velvet's ears are tugged instead of culled. That's why the Mantle drunkards say mean things to Blake instead of attempting to assault her. That's why everything surrounding the SDC's labor practices is so vague as to be useless while the biggest evidence of their malice is hand-waved away by a writer who says the victim "had it coming" as if someone can deserve being branded by being too much of a brat

These stories aren't meant to make the audience question why our society works off the bloodied backs of the exploited or demands we take good, hard looks at ourselves and how we've been duped into believing so much garbage about entire swathes of people. They're meant to satisfy the people who only feel bad that these things are happening because they (white folk) look like the bad guys. It's a self-congratulatory wank about how "I'm not like THOSE guys, therefore I'm a good person!"

And then there's the characters meant to convey this story in the first place: always inoffensive, mostly aimless, "not like the other girl" types that pander to that delicate palate. Blake - a conventionally attractive, pale skinned girl in fashionable clothes - used to be passionate about equality but only in the right way, and demonizes anyone who does not conform to this mindset despite having no reasoning to back it up while never once demanding better of the privileged people around her even when they do racially insensitive things

The biggest downfall of these racial allegories, be they about cat girls or orcs or elves or robots, is that they do something that marginalized folk have been forced to endure since the dawn of time: literal dehumanization. There are tangible differences between humans and whatever the allegory is, which undermines the very fundamental fact that black/asian/queer/neurodivergent/disabled/whatever folk are unapologetically, undeniably, exceedingly human. By dressing up their plights in cat ears or spottled blue skin, you're creating theater not for the people who actually live through these struggles as a means of connecting with them and providing them a safe outlet for their feelings, but giving the people who benefit from passively allowing the system to enforce said struggles a pat on the head for not being the grand wizard

I don't really know where I'm going or how to end this, so I'll just sign off with if you're going to talk about racism, just talk about racism

#rwde #like i said this is pretty all over the place bc i know what im Feeling but not how to word it yknow? so hopefully i got it somewhat across #i am whiter than sour cream tho so if i got anything wrong DO NOT HESITATE to blast me like team rocket #this did get me thinking abt star trek specifically the ep w the dudes who are black on one side and white on the other #and they hate each other because the colors are on different sides #that might be an okay allegory since its so on the nose its dancing on your sinuses #but its not my place to say one way or another so who knows #ive only seen people play detroit but holy fuck david cage should be tossed into a pit for that absolute nonsense #this dude had robots standing in the back of busses and quoting mlk jr but had the audacity to claim it wasnt the 60s civil rights allegory #this is just a really weird thing to happen over and over again #can they just not connect w people of color or whatever their target allegory is? #its almost always black folk tho james camerons avatar had LoAdS of fun w that indigenous parody #and theres like. never any sensitivity readers to double check this shit or the target group actually doing the writing #who said 'white people love talking about race as if they got something to say'? bc that should be the slogan for every one of these deals #yeehaw ig :?