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#i remember my ex used to compliment my small waist (which i dont have anymore)
mxwhore
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3 years
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hello dear followers i am having thoughts
#babaradeep babaradoop
#these are very personal so i am making space
#3........2..........1............ go
#so i have some self esteem issues that much is obvious
#and ive been thinking about my relationships before reaching my 20s and they follow a very... constant line
#in which im not seen as person?
#i have a very particular way of loving people like
#i learn what they like and i try to make them feel like they matter by bringing them my little raven gifts
#like OH this looks like something youd like! i watched that show you told me about! lets do this together!
#and so on
#and i feel like
#no one has ever shown me that level of care?
#i mean my close friends do all the time but a partner?
#i remember my ex used to compliment my small waist (which i dont have anymore)
#and she used to say i was smart like it was a bad thing? cuz it made her feel stupid somehow?
#i dont think she ever learned something as stupid as my favorite color
#or my other ex that wrote me a poem that praised me for always being there for them?
#both people that later went and treated me as an object
#and i dont know! i dont know what is like to be seen by a partner and actually liked by the person i am
#its always just... how i look or what i can do or what im not doing for them
#which is like a big part of why sex makes me so miserable
#i dunno. i feel like im not worth knowing most of the time
#and that makes me so sad. and so angry!!!
#i bleed love all over but i dont think there was a time where i wasnt performing for a partner in some level
#like
#the me i am isnt likeable
#id love to get a letter from someone saying all the things they like about me
#or something like that
#id like to feel loved
#OK EMBARRASING
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