#i rehashed a lifetimes worth of trauma and struggles 4 TIMES AND FOR NOTHING

[lunarianbeams]

so you’re telling me that:

my mental health has gotten so bad that i withdrew from my school to focus on my mental health and do outpatient therapy so i don’t have to hospitalized

only for my insurance to be terminated because it’s through my uni and now am unable to get any of the services i need in order to literally survive

#my life is a joke #literally a joke #i want to [redacted] what the absolute fuck #i was so sure that my insurance was for the whole year not quarter by quarter what the fuck #so what this means is #i won’t be able to get my meds #i won’t be able to attend therapy or go to the doctor to follow up on any of my medical stuff #i rehashed a lifetimes worth of trauma and struggles 4 TIMES AND FOR NOTHING #ARE YOU SERIOUS #i am in one of the worst depression of my life and barely functioning daily #and am on a sliding scale of passive/mild to active/severe suicidal ideation and intrusive thoughts #and i’m just supposed to fucking rawdog life or what? get institutionalized? #damn and i really believed i was in a stable enough place in my life to be able to start t #anywho #hospitalization// #suicide ment// #tw #cw