#i really need to try adhd meds

[in-tua-deep]

You know people don’t tell you this but apparently when you are actually on meds for your ADHD you suddenly gain the ability to just… make spreadsheets

Two years ago me barely even touched google sheets. Today me is constantly like “hmm you know what I could do with all this information I’m gathering? Make an intense multi tab spreadsheet as a quick reference guide :)”

Wild shit

#personal #adhd #spreadsheets #seriously though I have never been simultaneously more and less organized #currently my latest hyperfixation is my desire to get into doll customization #I have one spreadsheet dedicated to documenting doll YouTuber videos to reference for things like hairstyles #another tab for listing all the articulated doll brands I might want to look into getting #another spreadsheet dedicated to listing all my ocs and what supplies I might need for each #like trying to decide if I want to go nylon/Saran doll hair or yarn hair #a separate master list tab of YouTube video tutorials for specific things like making doll wheelchairs #so yeah!! my brain really has said ‘it’s spreadsheet time babie’ #genuinely though the first thing I really noticed about my meds is that I could like. actually work on organizing my thoughts #and apparently the way that manifests is: spreadsheets and lists #highly recommend

[caffeinatedopossum]

I'm learning that the normal things that bore people (long car rides, stereotypical chores like cleaning, waiting in a line, etc) are actually things I tend to be perfectly content doing, which makes me wonder if maybe when I say I'm bored, it's actually something else.

Like for context I'm disabled and because of it I don't have school or work. I also don't have any public activities I participate in recreationally like clubs or something. So I'm just sitting alone at home all day, no money or car because of my disability. And I can only focus for so long on things like Netflix or YouTube. I can't get into video games anymore, I can't focus on drawing usually.

It's to the point that I've started getting annoyed when people talk about how "everyone" has stuff they need to do because *I don't* and I fucking hate it. I don't know, maybe it's just a lack of meaning in my life? Like there's no real reason for me to do anything... no one *needs* me to draw, to watch TV, to play video games... the only useful things I do are talk to other people and clean, but whenever I can't do those things, I think I may as well be asleep

#first world problems again but yeah #i know i complain a lot but i am genuinely trying to problem solve #id love to say 'i wont die if i cant fix this' but that might only be half true since this constant feeling of boredom and meaninglessness #can really trigger sh and suicidal urges for me #im supposed to be getting adhd meds again soon and thats great and all but why do i even need them?? #theres nothing i need to accomplish. nothing i need to focus on #i really am just here cause a handful of people like me

[aropride]

school is like Yeah we know youre in a title 9 investigation and its taking up 90% of ur brainpower UNfortunately you have to do assignments. like Well what if i Dont Want to.

#text #i need to email my professors . honestly i might just tell my psych professor like #hey girl im so fucking sorry about the essay um. you see my essay about ptsd hasbeen hindered by my real actual ptsd #and i thought i could get it done once my case was over but my case isnt over and idk if it will even be by the end of the semester atp #so basically i banked it on being less stressed at the end of the semester but that didnt happen so now im extra stressed and my essay isnt #done and im sorry. and thats SO EMBARASSING but i have to do it #bc i need her to know I Am Trying and it is just. reallt really hard #and i was iut of my adhd meds for a mo th and. fuck man i wish it was easier #when are they making it easier doe anyone know #neg #🗒️

[orcelito]

Oh yeah, I'm going to get into crochet. I'd been thinking knitting originally, but in looking it up, I realized crochet would be more in line with what I want to try to make. I want to learn how to make cute little yarn animals. & I need to learn a hands-on hobby besides Legos, bc as fun as Lego model building is, it's not exactly sustainable as a main hobby 😂 too expensive. Fun treats when I get a new model! But I'd like smth to just Do with my hands while I'm watching things or w/e. It's calming. I think it'd help me a lot.

#speculation nation #if it helps me enough with focusing maybe i could do that during classes or smth instead of just zoning out #im gonna be trying to be a good student these last few semesters. gotta get the focus time #what i Really need is adhd meds tho. hmrhmng. i need to set up that appointment already. #.... next week. i'll set up an appointment next week for Sure.

[desultory-suggestions]

This is your reminder not to stop taking your meds! You are better because you are taking them! Ask yourself why you’re taking them in the first place, whether they helped with that at all, and how you can manage side effects. If the side effects are bad please do contact your prescriber and work on a new plan! But do not stop cold turkey, it will only make you feel worse!

#obviously sometimes you have to #but try not to pretty please #I started taking adzenys for my adhd #and I forgot #not kidding FORGOT #I was taking it for the mood benefits bc my adhd causes me depression from under stimulation #and I was like ‘eh is it really helped me focus?’ I’ll take it when I need to #NO EVAN #ITS FOR YOUR MOOD DISORDER #anyway #take your meds #I’m taking mine :) #medication #medication reminder #accidental withdrawl #ssri withdrawal #mental health #self love #suggestions #depression #anxiety

[demo-ness]

i think this website may be allergic to the idea that most medications aren't for neurological stuff

#just saw a post that was an image with the text ''don't forget your meds!'' (this part is good) #next to the autism creature on top of a bottle labeled '''brain helpies''' #and i'm trying to parse my hatred in a way that spares the cringe. i am full of rage #but i will dabble in hating on the cringe a little. what medication is for the autism creature exactly?? #i thought the ''brain helpies'' for autism were universally dangerous and/or scams sold to horrid parents #it's comorbid with adhd but jfc it is SOOOOO inconsequential to forget a stimulant for a day #even compared to other quality of life meds. i'd rather remember to take my thyroid medicine and not be lethargic #and then. do i need to get into my health anxiety. please fucking GOD do not forget something that keeps you healthy #forgetting a stimulant makes you less productive in a day #forgetting something like a cholesterol medication will SLOWLY KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #is it REALLY health anxiety to think one is more important than the other???? #sorry i'm in a bad mood today. take your brain meds congrats on having a perfect body otherwise

[lucyvaleheart]

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#sigh. another vent post.... #almost getting tired of making these but. I'm just.... I just don't really have much else I can do without botherin people #uh pretty big trigger warning for this one BTW #don't read on if you're low on spoons and whatnot. genuinely it's fine and I will be fine I always am #but like. yknow. when shit sucks it fucking sucks #anyway. uh. I just can't stand the idea that I might be bothering someone #so at least this way my stupid cries for help have a possibility of getting me some without making any specific #person feel obligated. yknow? maybe you see the post maybe you don't #Maybe you don't read all the way maybe you do. either way you can choose if you have the spoons to reach out #without feeling guilty either way. I hope. #.......i kind of want to fucking kill myself again #.....it used to be a much rarer thought. and I used to be much less struck by intense loneliness and longing like this #but I just feel so fucking needy. so desperate for attention and love and it hurts so much if I don't get it #and like. it's realistically nobody's fault but my own yknow... i need to ask for it more. i know that. i just suck at it #and then I can't ask. so I don't get attention. and in turn I feel neglected. secondary. like I'm not anyone's primary focus #and it just fucking hurts so much and it's just my own damn fault and I don't know how to fix it. #......i do. I need therapy I need meds or something. that's the answer here really #picked out a psychiatrist. need to call and make an appointment. but adhd and executive function and anxiety (that last one I need meds for) #mean it's very hard to both remember and then actually perform the task of calling the fucjing Dr #......believe me I'm trying.....like fuck I'm trying so hard.... and I started bawling having seen sparkles and ms robot girl reblog that #post from me about letting prev know you're proud of them. bawled when quinn called me cutie last night. bawled when #ginny said they wished they were here.... fuck me I do too I want to be the focus of someone's attention so so so so badly #fuck #...............it's redundant to say at this point a second time but. goddess above its a little scary how much I wanna kill myself #........sigh #....anyway. please do not feel obligated to respond to this in any way. do what you got the spoons for. #thank you for even reading all of this shit if you've gotten this far. i love you deeply and with all my heart. I'll be fine I promise #won't act on it no matter how strong the feeling is. just.....hurts in the meantime. but I'll be ok. I promise #................fuck. im going back to bed

[craycraybluejay]

Me if I ever get a really bad psychotic episode and think my friend is a hulking scary monster so hit them with a chair: whoops, had a psychotic aggression moment after being psychotic this past month. Might want to find a better way to keep myself and other ppl safe in case it happens again

Some people: no!111!!1!! That's just regular aggression!!!1!1 stop talking bad about psychotics!!1!!!!! It was ur fully lucid and self aware choice to hit ur friend with a chair!!1!!!! Literally there's no such thing as psychotic aggression1!!!!1! Kys op!!

#narcissistic abuse #discourse #mental illness #actually psychotic #actually schizospec #literally yes mental disorders can drive u to do bad or stupid things. why do you think people seek help for them. #because theyre sad sometimes? #even low grade depression or anxiety can make you suicidal. and being suicidal can make you careless and stupid bc u stop caring ab shit #so like. maybe stop pretending mental disorders cant drive u to harm ppl and start addressing how to stay safe #and make sure others r safe around u #me if i say i got mad jealous bc of adhd related rsd and was mean about it bc adhd related impulsivity #people: OH NO UR SAYING THAT ADHD MAKES PPL ASSHOLES GO DIE RN #literally. go away. mental illness is an illness and not a quirk. bad shit happens. people do bad shit to themselves and others driven by #disordered behaviour and thought patterns #and you know what helps prevent this? talking about it honestly and spreading awareness so we can all get the kind of help and coping skills #that we need. so those who need meds or therapy can. so ppl can realize #'hey i felt super offended over this thing someone did that wasnt about me and hurt them! thats a pattern for me!' #'maybe i should talk about it with a therapist that specializes in stuff like that or try to use calming coping methods- #to calm myself down when i get really angry and see if it's worth hurting someone over!' #please take a moment to reflect #who are you helping by denying the disordered nature of mental illness

[ihathbenobiwankenobied]

How dare my career get in the way of me writing fanfic

#I have two fics I am trying to write but Im working 60 fucking hours #oh how I love being an auditor #and of course I have another week of it to go #and client visits #and did I mention Im planning my wedding? #this is one hell of a year #but I have star wars celebration to look forward to in april! #right after another three months of overtime #but I am super fucking excited regardless #oh and Im starting adhd meds again #life is really coming for me #anyway if you got fic recs send em my way I need to comfort myself with a good fucking fic #sorry just need to complain into the void #vera speaks #vera complains actually

[robothipdips]

I can't believe I went from barely being able to stay out of bed, passing out so frequently they MRI'd me to check for narcolepsy, to needing to make a conscious effort not to stay up 20+h at a time. All because I finally have the one medication my family went behind my back to block me from trying over 10y ago.

#a #ADHD #finally being medicated really helps me understand why I'd seen people describe it as a #disability #it's like #I finally feel like I have the right to cut myself some slack #because the burnout I'd induce trying to keep up without meds #was damaging and now half that effort has me productive and simply needing extra sleep #unbelievable tbh

[selkiecoded]

and now i have my autoethnography essay due tomorrow technically today ouuughhhh wounded animal noises i hate talking about myself in any depth im gonna drop out

#its really difficult bc um i have repressed so much that its basically force agendered me does that make any sense #wow! gender is so interesting! too bad whenever i try to think about mine it triggers an involuntary burst of static i cant shut off #this too is dysphoria (wise voice) #doesnt help that i am really really bad at remembering large swaths of my own life in detail. okay im gonna go cry and go to bed now i thin #i didnt get ANY knitting done today aboohoohoo fuck i need adhd meds but my appmt to get my appmt (i knowwww pukes) isnt until monday

[cinnabeat]

im too aftaid to google it but i hope to god the next ffvii game isnt on the ps5

#im living in ignorant bliss #i still need to play remake actually #i didnt get very far #but i know a Lot abt the plot #it makes me upset #vut cloud and his giant ass sword brings me joy #so i meed to play #itonically just like ffxv it was the incomprehensible magic system that made me not play it #kh is just so intuitive and easy to understand i wish all games were like that #i told myself i wouldnt get a pa5 until a kh game gets announced bc thats a lot of momey for a console that i wouldnt even play games on #unless ff7 is available as a computer game? #god i hope so #michi tag #im rambling #honest to god btw i think i really do need to get adhd meds #maybe just to try #im kind of tired of not doimg the things i want/need to do #that sounds like it came out if left field but i prommy its all connected in my head

[orcelito]

I was so very good and finished my taxes and paid some things so I could reassure myself that I can put in my 2 weeks notice even tho I don't have a job lined up yet (I'm Working on it...)

I dont imagine it'll take me long to find Some kind of job, though it likely won't pay as much as I'm used to. But. So long as I have Something, I'll get by.

What matters most right now is getting out of this stupid fucking job bc it has been Killing Me.

#speculation nation #i dont say that lightly btw this job has been. ugh. #ill miss the mundane administrative duties. as strange as that is to say. #i like feeling productive and valued. #but it's been coming at the cost of my health and happiness #the stress would kill me by 30. and thats assuming my goddamned ankles didnt give out first. #continuing my work on the Unfuck My Life resolution. maybe after i get a new job i can try to get on adhd meds #and also Maybe do smth about my probable fibro. i would love to not be so fatigued all the time thank u #and then . going back to school. i logged into my school email for the first time in too long #i need to actually email my advisor soon. tell her whats been up. maybe that can be a goal for next week. #i also wanna get a haircut. short hair. chop it all off. new hair new job new me. #it's. it's a lot. it's really scary actually. but im working on it. im trying to get to a better place. #ive been suffocating for too long. i want so desperately for life to not feel like treading water at the threat of death. #so. we'll see. whatever happens im going to pull through.

[sharkieboi]

it’s my weekend and I don’t have any appointments and it’s been snowing since like 2am so I’m having an indoor day to keep slowly organizing the new apartment and on purpose didn’t take my adhd meds (only have a few left and I’d rather save them for work if I’m going to have trouble refilling with all the weather closures) and Soup Brain certainly hits different when it’s not a workday. the lack of focus and memory still isn’t helpful but at least it doesn’t feel harmful when I forget what I’m supposed to be doing for an extended period of time.

#shhh sharkie #idk how to write anything simple without rambling so this is what you get #been slowly working on making big unorganized piles into smaller more organized piles and putting Away away what I can #it’s been a work in progress!! #at some point I need to go get furniture to replace what I left at the old place but we’ll get there when we get there #and to fill in new needs gaps #i’m still kinda mad I left the table cause I really liked it but I was so tired and frustrated trying to take it apart and it wasnt worth it #but anyway. I like the new place and it’s doing well for me and Sansa and I can’t wait for it to be acceptable enough to have people over!! #OH YEAH ANYWAY. SOUP BRAIN. #sometimes i wonder how i functioned at all before meds. my life is so much better and easier now. #it’s still difficult and sad and hard but! it’s so much easier to deal with all that stuff!! it doesn’t break me like it used to. #even on a day like today where i only took my anxiety meds and not my adhd meds #i haven’t gotten any of my written down tasks done (dishes and changing my sheets) but i have organized the crap out of several piles #(all of my costume stuff is in one box now! most of knick knacks are in the same box or on display!) #(I took out the trash! I put all the laundry in the laundry bag!) #little victories add up

[reserwrekt]

I don't like my list of mental diagnosis :/

#ppd #adhd #bipolar #bipolar2 #ocd “tendencies” #ptsd #bpd #but not diagnosed with asd yet #im not saying i don't like people with these diagnosies #i just honestly dont know which are right for me i don't know that i have or dont have these things #gad #mdd #sometimes i think i don't need psych meds and go off them #im still on them but i dont feel any better at all and i haven't gone off them for 3 months #im still not creating or doing things i used to enjoy #im very cripplingly lonely but cant get along w people #ive been feeling even worse since ive been sober #i cant stop myself from talking but i have no one to talk to really #i cant stop pushing people away and im not trying to #im not s but im just sad i guess

[roaringroa]

i am devastated, i read a book today and didn’t realize it was part of an ongoing series until like halfway through this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me

#it was delilah green doesn’t care btw #a book i really enjoyed!!! and i really liked pretty much all the characters!!! #but it wasn’t until like 100 pages in that i was like wait astrid… iris… i think i heard those names around sapphic booktok #and then i searched the author and turns out both of them have their own books and ughhhh i wanna read them so badddd #but 1.astrid parker doesn’t fail is out in the us but not in brazil yet and i really wanted to buy the brazilian ver to match my delilah on #and 2. iris kelly doesn’t date isn’t even out yet and the ppl i heard talking about it had read the arc #😩😩😩 #now i have to wait but i fucking hatee it i hateeee reading books from series that are yet to be completed #cause by the time i read the sequel i always forget what happened in the first book #also today i was supposed to use reading as a stop in between studying #as suggested by my psychiatrist to try to focus on studying with my adhd #did not work 🤪 #i suspect i need medication but he’s very careful with prescribing it so we’re trying alternative methods #for like a year before assessing if i really do need it #you know i think it’s very fair to be careful with meds and seeing as my adhd isn’t debilitating #i think he’s doing the right thing to be sure that i need it so as to avoid making me dependent on something i might not need #but… i think i do need it lol