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taikk0 · 2 years

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omafucking god they fuckin dead

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mochixkisses · 2 months

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to be loved despite.. despite, despite, despite. i think this idea only exists in books, in movies, in my dreams. i want to be loved despite the risk, despite the hurt. please?

#mochi's musings #yandere #lovesick #obslove #yandere gf #yandere community #yandere thoughts #soft yandere #yanderecore #yancore #yanblr #i could be so good #i promise im trying #i'd do anything #to be loved despite

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bones-of-a-rabbit · 2 years

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long defeated sigh

okay. here it is. au #23847387834: the Mythological Beastie Rehab AU

(yeah this one is over explained i have a bunch of ideas for the story for this one sdjfh)

(BIG WARNING this is so long. it’s like 1000 words on its own. im so. so sorry

The Mytho Rehab AU: (Sun, Moon, Eclipse x reader)

In this au, all of the boys- and every animatronic from sb tho they may or may not be relevant- is a mythological creature of some kind! Eclipse is a BASILISK, massive and writing and very distrustful of humans. Sun is a HARPY, all feathers and fluff but strong and unused to humans and how easily they damage. Moon is a KELPIE, sulking and contemplative and clever, it’s impossible to tell when he’s being serious or mocking, or when he's telling the truth or fooling you with a lie.

The three end up at a Mythological Entities and Creatures Rehabilitation Center- where humans rescue mythos who have been injured or rendered unable to survive on their own, or whose homes and native habitats are becoming dangerous and unlivable, and take them to a large zoo/aquarium type facility with several different designated (massive, imagine ‘bigger on the inside’ type rooms) biomes in which they can recuperate and heal while feeling relatively ‘at home.’ In return, the humans ask that they be allowed to study and document the habits, lifestyles, and general experiences of these different, dangerous creatures- who mankind has cast in the light of being mere monsters, despite them being INTELLIGENT and CAPABLE OF REASONING.

Reader is a volunteer working at the rehab center- very new and sometimes referred to by the fellow staff as ‘freshmeat.’ (yes this is a slight foreshadowing and a bit cruel but reader thinks its just a silly nickname jsdfhk)

Eclipse is captured and brought to the center against his will- he is partly trapped and entangled in a long steel chain meant to be tethered to an anchor, and if left alone would eventually perish as the chains dug deeper and deeper and restricted him more. (He is captured before Sun and Moon are, since he threw himself between them and the approaching, seemingly threatening, humans, and attempted to ward the humans off long enough for them to escape. They DID escape, but only for a little while; maybe they LET themselves be caught in an attempt to see their brother again?) He fights fiercely against the humans, convinced they want him as some kind of trophy, but eventually falls sullen and silent, spending long periods of time simply laying half submerged, almost as though sleeping with his eyes open- but snarling and seething at anyone who comes close, choosing to stay mostly hidden in the lonely waters of his habitat.

Reader is, after being the intern-who-does-everyone-else’s-menial-tasks for a bit, assigned to Eclipse. Why? Well, he’s clearly very unhappy, which isn’t helping him to heal any faster, AND he refuses to let anyone close enough to even examine the gouges the chains are digging into him. So, your task: get him used to humans. Just hang out, attempt to feed him, just EXIST in the same space as him- sooner or later he’ll grow numb to your presence, and then they can try adding more people to the mix.

(What no one tells Reader is that they’ve tried this with four other humans so far. Three ended up in the hospital, one was forced to retire early due to the severity of their wounds.)

Slowly, Eclipse and Reader grow a bond- Reader is the first one to talk TO Eclipse instead of demanding him or instructing him to do things or treating him like a beast as low as a dog. And they bring things to show him- small things, like a MP3 player with a few of their favorite songs, a checkerboard they eventually get him to play, books and Kaleida scopes and whatever they can think of that he might be even SLIGHTLY interested in. They learn about things he likes and doesn’t like, and learns to tell when he wants to be talked to and played with and when he just wants the company. Some days he wants no one, and they respect that- respect him. Slowly, he opens up to them, even allows them to touch and pet him and sit on him and examine his wounds and scars.

Technically, Reader’s task is a total success! Unfortunately Eclipse has bonded with them and ONLY them and is very attached to them in particular. Everyone is very frustrated, so they get Reader to try and gather some information about him when they go to see him since he’s too irate and uncooperative for anyone else to do it. They do, but they always ask if he’s okay with it first.

(fun tidbit:) Sometimes he rests his enormous head in their lap and refuses to move even when they need to leave. He smacks his tail against the water when they give up and decide to stay a little longer- a happy gesture.

Later, when Sun and Moon are brought in, after some squabbling (they don’t really share a habitat with Eclipse, Sun belongs on high mountain slopes and Moon belongs in a foggy, gloomy swamp), they are put into the same habitat as Eclipse. Eclipse is overjoyed to see them and they swap their tales of whats happened since they last met- Eclipse, of course, absolutely gushes for hours about this wonderful HUMAN and how CUTE they are and so SMALL and AAA IT WOULD SO EASY TO JUST PICK THEM UP AND CARRY THEM AROUND FOREVER and they have this VOICE you just HAVE to hear it and when they’re really happy they make this LOVELY ADORABLE SOUND and they’re so nice and warm and safe, really you just HAVE to meet them, they’re so wonderful, there’s nothing like them, no human quite so incredible and kind and

(moon gets tired of it real fast. Sun is increasingly curious, and gets caught up in Eclipse’s excitement.)

Anyway eventually Sun and Moon (Sun very easily, Moon requires almost as much convincing as Eclipse and is verbally much more prickly and cold and unkind) warm up to Reader, then like absolutely fall for Reader like they PLUMMET into love with this big stupid barely-qualified-to-be-a-mythological-handler idiot. Everyone else at the center is like ,,??? Sh,, should we do something,,? I mean that one is obviously attempting the beginnings of a courtship ritual,, wait that one is too- oh my god they’re all trying to swoon them what do we do. Like this is really really good for our research but,

Anyway it’s cute but also potentially angsty thank u for ur time

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httpsserene · 1 month

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Are we gonna get Toasty pt.2?? Cause I’m itching like a crackhead for it😭😭

✧*̣̩⋆̩☽⋆゜omgggg u toto wolff fiends are out of your MIND! nah, yes—toasty part two is in the works. i can’t exactly promise when it’s going to drop or anything, but just know that it’s third on my list of works right now. i have a tracks limits short-story add-on type thing coming out soon (!!!), then my danny fic, and then toasty part two!

but here’s what i can tell you about it: the title of part two is “bun in the oven”, very baby-fever core, horny!reader like hornyyyy, a lot of baking, and maybe….the birth control goes to waste 😈🥴🤭

^^and if that all sounds interesting to you…reply or send me an ask/message to join my taglist? perhaps? it’s just a message, but truly completely up to you 🥱

hope you’ve been having a good day babes, thank’s for the message xxx ✧*̣̩⋆̩☽⋆゜

#serene’s monologue｡｡｡||.#reader’s rambles.#half of my inbox is y’all begging for this #i promise im trying

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sprnklersplashes · 6 months

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Planning out time won't fly chapter by chapter is weird and also deeply funny to me because on the one hand you have martha having a sweet coming of age story about identity and first love and self acceptance

meanwhile veronica is living in a psychological thriller trying to recover from the death of her ex boyfriend while dealing with ptsd from being tricked into killing three people

#im sorry for constantly talking about twf and then taking ages to update byw #i promise im trying #áine for ts

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live-laugh-love-the-archivists · 4 months

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"You can't keep making memes about other archivists aus and still not draw anything of your au!"

My honest reaction:

#the owl house #toh #the collector #toh the archivists #send me asks #I PROMISE IM TRYING #ART TAKES TIME TO LEARN

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sunflowers-and-a-tardis · 11 months

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i have never once listened to “hello, my old heart” and not found myself with at least the barest of misty tears forming in the corners of my eyes. i find myself thinking both of them, of my closest friend and greatest treasure, and of myself. i think about how i have found love, in the form of the family i have already begun to make for myself. i think about how i am not sure of much, but i am sure that i can love, oh, i can love, and that has to be enough, it must be.

...this got to be far too sentimental and personal for what was supposed to simply be a mindless ramble about how much i adore yet another song. however, i suppose that is often the way of things.

#the oh hellos #romanticism #hello my old heart #how i love to love #i promise im trying #rambling in a way

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theladyofshalott1989 · 2 months

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That awkward moment when you have a title and a 6 hour Spotify playlist for the third installment of your series, but you haven’t even finished your outline.

#writer stuff #hogwarts legacy fanfic #i promise im trying #It’s practically all I think about #brain rot

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kasdan · 3 days

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i would just like to apologize for my lack of posting much of anything recently, i'm still in the process of working on things i have started in like january and never went back to. however! i promise to try my best to get more out by the end of the month and ty for those being patient waiting for things, ily all<3

#frank castle #frank castle x reader #marvel #loki #carol danvers x reader #captain marvel #mcu #the punisher #i promise im trying #ill try harder #🥲

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writinginthesecrettrees · 1 month

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sometimes i wish i could fool myself into believing that my family wouldn’t care if i was gone

but i can’t

because i would be devastated if my mom or sisters weren’t here anymore

sometimes i wish i could disappear and they wouldn’t care

but they would

and the weight of that care both supports and smothers me.

im just so tired of existing sometimes

This too shall pass.

Tomorrow i will feel the sun on my face, tomorrow i will hear birds singing, tomorrow i will still feel the weight of everything but I’ll be stronger. Strong enough to carry their care and love, strong enough to hold up under my own self-loathing, strong enough to maybe not hate myself quite so much. But tonight…

tonight i wish my family didn’t care about me. i wish i could disappear and know they wouldn’t care. Tonight i can be weak, because tomorrow i will be strong. And i don’t need to be strong to make it to tomorrow.

My family can be strong for me tonight.

#i promise im trying #i promise im safe #i promise I’ll be here tomorrow

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phantaloon · 2 months

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i know its bc of the misogyny i was taught, as a woman, to believe its okay, natural and allowed for me to put down women who are frankly just being happy, enjoying life, being successful

but goddamn its a work in progress to destroy that thought sometimes 😭 i have to actively remind myself, no, we dont put down women for nothing, no we dont hate on this woman just bc she's popular, we hype women up!

#i promise im trying #everyday im trying #sometimes women annoy me simply for existing tho #and i think its valid as long as i recognize that its wrong #hopefully one day I'd have grown enough to not think like this anymore

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edgesalad · 2 months

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The amount of hitchannie wips in my drive is mind boggling. But I gotta fix up my life first before I hit that publish button.

And therapy. Gotta follow thru with that instead writing chaos fics.

#oh and theres plenty of levihan too #i promise im trying #hitch dreyse #hitchannie #shingeki no kyojin #fanfiction

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monn-i · 4 months

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going to get my medication dosage raised again :333 horrors persist but we stay silly :3

#are you. are you proud of me :3 #im doing my best #i dont know if it’s enough but still #i promise im trying