#i never want to post anything ever again

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

wear headphones :)

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As much as I'd love to witness more of your prowess, I'd very much like to have that body of yours.

Is that a strap-on?

Machine, I'll cover you in more than blood.

Fuck. *exhale* Shit. Fuck-God! mmmm-ohohoho. fuck. fuck. h-Harder, Machine. Mph! *whimper* Hah... Come on!

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Sorry for this. I promise this is the worst thing I'll ever post. Unless he somehow manages to do something worse.

I can't really provide the audio sources in a neat way because this is 6 clips stuck together.

#ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #gabv1el #WEAR HEADPHONES. PLEASE. PLS. SAVE YOURSELVES. #suggestive #<- if i use a 'stronger' tag than that im 99% sure the post gets shadowbanned from showing up in the tags? #never ask me for anything ever again. #why did he say any of this #i dont know. #surely this will make people unfollow #or will it do the opposite #at this point. i have no idea #animals. all of you. ANIMALS. its ok im one too. we're in hell (together) #i didnt make the gif im sorry all i know is that its from twitter #yeah sorry for the recycled audio. i only have the 2 whimper clips...... so far. #but the actual talking parts are all new #i want to see that angel obliterated. send tweet. #smiles. evilly. #i dont know about you guys but im normal #anyway #if he somehow ever finds out about this blog im krilling all of u............. pls............ #he cant know we are farming clips #(mostly joking) but yeah id prefer if this didnt spread past tumblr pls omg #we are past 700 followers now. idk what to say other than. wow. #ok surely no one is reading to this point. bottom gabe real. canon. true. thanks. #lets never speak of this again

[milfygerard]

but fr outside of my contracted madness i absolutely refuse to give joe alwyn gold rush like how is that song at all related to their relationship the lyrics clearly spell out a relationship that either never existed or only existed in implication and fantasies and maybe-maybe nots and its so bitter and yet desperately soft in the bridge where it almost projects a sense of envy, of wanting to be them as much as you want them. It continues an interesting oft ignored lyrical trend of taylor wanting just as much to be her lover as to have them, envying their easy charisma (you were flush with the currency of cool/i was always turning out my pockets) or quiet dignity (your integrity makes me seem small) dating back to her earliest songs (the kind of flawless i wish i could be). Theres a projected self hatred and yearning to be better that twists itself into both romantic and sexual lust for her partners thats so fascinating and speaks to how all of her songs regardless of who theyre about are also an act of self reflection on who she is and who she wishes to be.

#barry.txt #taylor swift #putting this in the tags as a form of self protection but make no mistake this is a gay thing to do especially in gold rush #which through simple context clues is Obviously About A Woman or maybe even women in general #whivh is a totally seperate post on how taylor constructs and uses gender identity in her music #her girlhood and femininity are earnest but also so carefully constructed and so high effort and kind of desperate #shes a deeply self concious and obsessive person who never looks comfortable in anything ever unless shes #onstage or like. by herself in loose jeans and a tshirt #i think thats one of the things that subconsciously irritate ppl when it comes to her shes constantly and clearly putting in effort #to appear As The Celebrity Taylor Swift and struggles not to self censor or overperform in interviews (when she gives them) #especially present in pre 1989 interviews where the interviewers really didnt have to respect her or worry abt how they frame her #if they didnt want to. Like the fearless era rolling stone interview where she almost has a meltdown over her mom buying eggnog instead of #milk. That whole interview is strange looking back not just bc of the weird misogyny but also because of what it does share #taylor is....weird. She has a strange and desperate vibe and always reacts slightly too much and uses slang poorly #shes media trained and has learned how to socialize but you can feel her discomfort whenever she doesnt have a guitar in her hand #idk these tags have once again gotten so unweildy. i just find it interesting that she finally feels some level of comfortable #in sharing that construction w us in songs like mirrorball and mastermind and imo gold rush #and scene #should i write this up and put it in the swiftieism zine #i should write something and put it in the swiftieism zine

[liquidstar]

wait speaking of getting isekia'd via truck, a couple weeks back me and a friend on were talking abt portal fantasy/isekai tropes (mostly bc i was infodumping abt rz again), and it made me think abt a fun concept for an ocverse. tho its possible similar things have been done obvs with just how inflated the genre is, just hear me out OK

story starts in the normal world, with a typical Nerdy Guy going about his daily life, expositing about how he feels bored and longs for adventure and magic, just like in all of his favorite media. as he's crossing the street, distracted by his mobile game, he doesn't notice The Truck(tm) coming straight towards him. except he's not hit by it- he's pushed out of the way in the last second, saved by a passing girl who gets hit in his place. this is who the story is about now.

mc gets sent to that sort of intermediary dimension that some isekai have, where she meets the Goddess Lady or whatever that was in charge of the whole isekai situation. goddess lady proceeds to freak out, because she nabbed the wrong person, and she's going to be in SO MUCH TROUBLE. she starts questioning the mc, only to find out that this kid has a good social life, does well in school, is in sports, and has barely ever played a video game. basically the opposite of the socially introverted, underachieving, repressed, genre-aware guy she was supposed to have reincarnated. for the sake of fulfilling somekinda hero prophesy or whatever. and the mc kinda bargains to be sent to the fantasy world anyway bc, well, its that or death i guess. so the two of them kinda have to team up to course-correct this mix-up.

mc is kinda given a list of tasks to do that basically mirror how a typical story like this Would Go, expected to fall in line with the tropes in order to achieve the ultimate goal, but kinda ends up failing at all of them... or not? failing backwards, maybe. doing it in a way different from how its meant to go- using the wrong formula, but somehow getting the right solution. while sort of continuing to question the insanity of the whole situation, and the nature of this whole fantasy world. just fucking up all the tropes.

but a layer i'd wanna add on top of all that is the fact that the hero prophesy (or whatever) called for a man. so upon arriving to this new world, the mc is basically put into a "gender swapped" body and... doesnt seem to mind. this isnt an uncommon isekai trope either, but i hardly see it tackled with much care to really explore whole Gender Thing beyond gags about the "mismatch" (which can be in poor taste) or the conclusion that "well because their Body is now this gender, their gender identity changes to match" which i feel is a pretty shallow and binary take-away to draw abt bodies and identity.

but i think there can be more to explore w the prospect if you actually wanna get into gender stuff. in this case, i'd particularly wanna get into the idea of imposter syndrome. the main character was not MEANT to be... the main character. seen as a phony fighting tooth and nail to meet expectations, and constantly fumbling. not a real hero, or a real man. but its meant to be an act anyway, so why does that bother her? it was like that back on earth too, trying as hard as possible to be the perfect girl. a good social life, does well in school, is in sports.... but that good girl thing always felt fake too. or desperate. what was she trying to prove? how long as this BEEN bothering her, actually? why does it feel easier to breathe in this body, despite everything? the way this whole act makes her happy is scary, because its fake isn't it? but wait, which part was fake? the before or after? is it all fake? isn't this all just a mistake?

was it really a mistake? who is more heroic; a guy too focused on a mobile game to pay attention to those around him, or the person who risked their life to save a stranger? but the hero prophesy was for a "man," right? what does that even mean?

#the end is all questions bc if i ever did anything w this i would want to explore them basically #i dont know if i ever WILL its mostly just a concept im throwing out there for rn. brainstorming #but i think it could be fun #the only other isekai/portal fantasy type ocverse i have is the one w the dream traveling ocs. i wanna get back to them also #so many small oc projects that ive posted abt very briefly but i have not forgotten abt any of them i still think abt it #same w this even if i never really elaborate more on it im sure the idea will stay in my head #its obviously very much in its first draft baby phase rn a lot of ironing out the creases to do if i did wanna follow up in some way #like again its basically just a concept i dont have concrete characters or worldbuilding or anything just ideas. thata all

[fourteenthz]

VIERAPRIL 11 - LONGING

Maybe I can't go back, but they can't either.

#vierapril #ffxiv viera #ffxiv #6.0 spoilers #ffxiv oc #vierapril 2024 #wol posting #ofc i gotta do longing abt about places and homes #I already did thingie for minfilia and papalymo and moen but I wanted to add thesa's little brother...... anyway some other time #i can never be normal about homes and cities. ever. #this looks all over the place and it's more abstract than anything but just in case someone misses it: #her home > camp dragonhead > amaurot #that last one has more to it. like I have a continuation on alie reaching for thesa's hand #to snap her out of it and her looking back and seeing the rest of the scions #but I couldn't pose thancred well enough with how I head in my head (pretty similar to ffxii fran leaving scene) #and it wasn't following the narrative of this prompt well enough so I'll try it again someday lol #i wish I knew how to pose more ppl. and had more patience with it. I really wanted to add more ppl #also sorry abt world's most boring vierapril ever. maybe i really peaks at day 10 and it's all downhill from here.

[cathalbravecog]

QUACK QUACK QUACK QUACK

#my brain treats these things the same as it does spamton. almost. i want to see them dead i want to chew on them. i want to kiss them gentl #y and tuck them in bed and sign up adoption papers for them. i want to hit them with a baseball bat. i will take a bullet for them #yknow? #you get me. #again an experimental fun quick drawing #that i ended up ... popping off on. oops. #i have... 0 self control in art #fun fact originally this was gonna be a painting but i went hmm what if i do the thing #ive been doing with sketch lineart on paper but... digitally? angular and sketchy and sharper #aw yea #guz art #toontown corporate clash #low baller #also i had to post this on clashcord and bail instantly because the second i see angst for stuff i like that i havent made myself #i lowkey start breaking down oops #i dont do well with other fans of things that im not familiar with.... my brain works in mysterious ways ! #i say this as my next drawing i plan is literally oc angst ... oops ! #something i aint done in a while....i only ever do vent stuff i never post if anything. i try not to be like.... venty edgy like that it #just. aint for me. well i say while i ramble on and vent constantly. oops. but yknow what i mean - not let my art reflect that? be goofy #with the stuff i do? but like yeah either way. lore gettin angsty. have we gotten to the point in our lore / rp yet? no. is it kinda an #inescapeable point? yes. i loooooove making my characters suffer the consequences of their actions #WHY AM I TALKING SO ELABORATELY ABOUT THIS. THIS IS A LOW BALLER DRAWING. #BY TALOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BRAIN!! OH WELL if you like these. thanks for reading you are swag. you probably went thru #like. 5465465341564 thomas 'fights' now havent you #oh well gotta have a place to dump my thoughts somewhere!

[heartscrypt]

something about literally everyone understanding that azul is horrifically head over heels down bad for jamil except for azul himself and also jamil. its so funny.

#jamiazu #jamie talks #txt post #floyd being like Have fun with your crush or wtever and azul going FUTURE. BUSINESS. PARTNER #and then both jade and floyd snicker ominously behind his back #on jamils side of things hes way too convinced that azul wants something From him #no bro he doesn't want something from you he wants YOU! #i think kalim pesters him about it and then jamil just refuses to process it as a logical option #he no longer has to listen to anything kalim says. hes never taking that guy seriously ever again

[skylarbee]

if any of you are still feeling weird about that infamous interview, here is what alex said about it (and why that ashley girl doesn't like him). i really want to point out that what alex says here is the exact same thing us, miles fans have been saying since forever. so, if you are a fan of alex, but throw shit at miles, just remember that your favourite also supports him. and maybe think twice before starting arguments with miles fans and keep in mind that alex has the same opinion about it all.

Alongside Arctic Monkeys, Turner has a long-term side-project called The Last Shadow Puppets with his best friend, the Birkenhead singer-songwriter Miles Kane. During the promotion for their last album, the two did an interview with a female journalist from the music webzine Spin. Turner was being his usual unforthcoming self, so Kane attempted to break the ice with some groan-inducing banter. This included inviting the journalist up to his hotel room when she asked what he was doing after the interview, which, in hindsight, was pretty stupid (he realised as much the next day and emailed her to say sorry). The result, though, was a lengthy op-ed calling out Kane’s unprofessionalism and the misogyny of the music industry at large. Personally, I found some of her complaints against him a tad flimsy — holding eye contact for too long, high-fiving her, “yanking” her in “for a not entirely consensual kiss on the cheek” as she said goodbye, and not least the idea that interviewing a rock star is ever supposed to be an exercise in professionalism. What did Turner make of it all? He sighs. “I think he made a joke he shouldn’t have made and realised he had misjudged the situation.” I thought it was a bit OTT, I tell him. “Yeah, I’m not sure it was deserving of that response honestly, but you just can’t make a joke like that.”

(from 2018, this interview)

#also he didn't exactly invite her; just joked about inviting her (which was still wrong) #also pointing it out that i also think that his 'jokes' were wrong. i also would've thought he's a dick. but alex said it brilliantly. #there was a misunderstanding between the two of them; he made the joke; realised he shouldn't have and that he misjudged the situation; #apologised; never did anything similar to this again #let. it. go. he's proved countless times ever since then that he is a decent human being. open your eyes; look it up; do your research #or if you don't want to then don't interact with him/his fans at all #btw this interview is absolutely horrendous #only read it if you want to lose your mind a bit #imagine getting alex turner to let you into his home and then only ask him questions about his gf; bf; taxes; what he spends his money on; #etc. my god. #also he talks about not being in taylor's ig posts: and says he #“doesn't recall submitting that request; but he's not sorry about it if he's not on there.” #makes you think #(and then the fact that this is from may and he talks about being 'settled down'; then they 'break up' in june. smh) #alex turner #miles kane #ashley reese #tlsp

[cold-neon-ocean]

Posting this by itself because :) I just feel like he should have gotten to wear the mech pilot suit at least once..

(my AU black version and the og green)

#Legend of Korra #Baatar Jr. #LoK #WIP #[ since this is from something silly I wanted to post this bit because he is serving very cunty #even if you know he's talking about accidentally ingesting caustic chemicals lol #this was def self indulgent but also why couldn't he have worn the suit at least once sobs #we had one chance #I don't actually think he uses the mech suit hardly ever even though he has his own personal one #but on rare occasions he does and gets in this outfit and Kuvira are you okay? Are you good? Has anyone checked on her? #I feel like this outfit is what causes her to take a serious sanity hit LOL #she just drags him away by the hood and no one sees them again for like 4 hours #or she's just like “You know what I think he could use my help :)” and proceeds to be everything but helpful #idk how anything in this regime gets done I swear #the most Baatar ever used the mech suits was when they were first being built #idk dude I love a man in a working uniform sobs #I knew someone would recognize the mech pilot suit hehe that made me smile because yeah :))) #it felt good to draw Baatar again sobs I love him so much I've missed him #I do kinda wish this sketch was cleaner but I wanted to at least post it now in case I never did lol #I should to a proper illust of him in the pilot suit one day just for the pure self indulgence of it all #give myself a lill treat you know? ] #Neon Ocean Art

[crescentfool]

happy birthday to my favorite horseboy 🥳

#fe3h #sylvain jose gautier #lizzy does art #IF THERE WAS ANY CHARACTERS BIRTHDAY I DIDNT WANNA MISS THIS YEAR IT WOULD HAVE TO BE SYLVAIN. I LOVE HIM TO BITS. #its still the 4th in my timezone but like it's practically the 5th everywhere else so mine as well post now right? #i dont know if i ever want to draw a horse with armor ever again. that said i would do anything for my favorite horseboy. #shoutout to sylvain for being one of my favorite characters like ever. i will never forget how insane he made me last year #going through his supports was such an experience!!! i would infodump and theorize and analyze soo much about him on discord like for- #several weeks straight as i would play through blue lions. ohh sylvain how i love your fucked up little brain of self sabotage ohhh yeah #also fun fact about my playthrough i made him like. a really busted dark knight. he looks really good in that class me thinks #i'll see if i can write a proper sylvain appreciation post bc i do Enjoy Analysis. but for now enjoy horseboy art everyone !!

[mattodore]

i think they could have been friends :)

#.............this is a lie theo would've lashed out at them at some point and they'd never speak ever again 😭 #dandelion is too soft for theo i'm so serious he'd eat them up #i just think they look like they'd hang out together #they could study together....... probably #if dandelion was quiet the whole time and didn't do anything to make theo react like...... chew....... or breathe too loud kjdfghdfnkgh #.........i did really turn on my computer just to open the sims and take a quick pick of teen theo for this #i also wanted to look at my screenshots #river dipping #ts4 #theodore doe #dandelion puck #my sims #i should go back to my inbox but . #also did i ever post a screenshot of what theo looked like as a teenager??? after i did the birthday edit?????? idk but anyway #this is him <3

[seth-burroughs]

I will not stay silenced any longer. I really cannot relate to the badass girlboss Yomi truthers crowd. I'm sorry but constantly being so obsessed with proving your prowess and supposed superiority via [gestures at every single time he appeared in the game only to act like an insecure manchild who has to continuously reassert his authority he feels entitled to with continuos self-praise, lashing out with petty insults, violence or even pettier wackier violence] are not the acts of someone who is at all secure and confident in their abilities and themself,

#''ok but what if [x character] was truly THAT confident and cool and not overcompensating for anything'' you are so boring. begone. #Yomi to me reads like a very miserable man (which tends to be a side effect of being a deeply unpleasant person) #control is a comfort. power is security. make people do anything and punish everyone who makes you feel bad #powerful people can take anything they want from you. he KNOWS that #now he has that power. he's the director of the peacekeepers the quite literal top dog of kanai ward. the one whom the world revolves aroun #now he's the one who bargains and makes others grovel. people flock to him and he can make them do anything he wants them to do #now no one can make him scared or powerless ever again. And that is STILL not enough and will probably never be. #god. i want to wring him like a wet dishrag and smack him on the counter so he makes that PLAP sound. #anyway...... like and subcribe #mine #rain code #yomi hellsmile #oh wait one more thing - not vaguing anybody here actually nobody here. not talking about anybody in particular #i feel like im gonna need to say this. you know. gut feelings and the like. #girl god damn it the tags are longer than the post itself again. #The ''I DID proofread this but like only once and not that patiently'' tag

[wri0thesley]

"Haven't I seen you somewhere before?" "I'm sure I have absolutely no idea where, your grace."

#ok ill write now i am just. i have the brainrots sorry #dfgnvkjkjfgnb #wrionat #self ship postin #genshin impact posting #i never want to draw anything close to wrio's outfit ever again <3

[spocks-kaathyra]

what if I kill myself

#/j /joke I don't care that much. I don't even care. it's not like I care or anything #<- guy who cares so so so much #it's. um. fine. there's. next year #what if I go to one of the fuckass horror cons he's going to....... guy who has watched like 2 horror movies #I'm still going to stlv. and I might still make pythas this summer... I'd just have to wait another year to wear him. #god what if I like. kill myself. shuffles away sadly. hits my head on a low hanging branch and bleeds out in the snow #<- referencing an unrelated post that the wording of resonates. #but what if he doesn't go next year.... what if I can't go next year..... what if he never goes to another trek con again......... #well. if that were the case. I would get into horror movies and go to one of those cons to see him LMAO #what if he never does any convention ever again. what then. what if I kill myself #fuck. god. fine okay. this just means I have an extra year to work on pythas. and if I never get to see him again. I can make peace w that #I've already met him twice I know I'm very lucky. I just didn't really get to talk to him..... I want to talk to him about asit........ #ugh it's like fine it's like whatever I don't even care. it's like fine I don't care #well. stlv cosplans r open then. definitely still doing hologram kira. but the other 3 r a mystery #maybe I do seven then... maybe gray tal again...... maybe emperor georgiou...... maybe spunnysuit v2 #narcissus's echoes

[simcardiac-arrested]

i can’t believe it ….. i’m free ………….. (spreads my wings and immediately flies into a brick wall)

#just drew my last artfight attack. GOODBYE BITCH! #jesus christ man this was such a wild artfight for me. 31 (the most i’ve ever done!!!) finished pieces all in different artstyles #i need an oscar. a grammy. anything #oh my god i cant believe i can actually draw other stuff now #realistically i’ll probably never draw again for like 2 years after all that #crammerposting #ouhhhh auehghhh #probably gonna start posting my attacks tomorrow #i SO didnt draw everyone i wanted to draw. but it’s ok <3 we ball

[betasuppe]

🎶Feels like a failure & never added anything to fandoms anyways~

#i am so so so so so so so tired of myself #you have no idea how much i want to draw but anything i do is utter shite so im losing the energy to keep trying♡ #i feel like a fucking failure & let down #but tbh never added anything valuable to conversations at all #im so ready to delete my blog & vanish into the ether #im so sorry about this all #i dont know why ive tried to do something here #what a fucking wasteeeee lmaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo #whyp do i even try #why do i even try #whyyyy do i even tryyyyy #about to step out & not post here ever again #sorry for just being annoying in the first place♡

[mymp3]

not gonna do one of those "year in review" art things. but i will say this, even though this was a tough year, im really happy and the things i did end up drawing. lots of little things and comics. just doodles and the occasional piece. just things that made me happy. next year i want to continue that, i just wish and hope i'll continue to draw and that i'll make things i genuinely enjoy. i wanna go into 2024 with a smile. :)

#mikutimetalk #happy almost new years everyone! #i have some other things i could probably say regarding what i want for my art #like to learn perspective again #rundowns on anatomy #brushups and whatnot #coloring and experimentation #and to continue drawing things with backgrounds #but other than that i just want to draw #theres been a couple of times this year where ive just sat and considered the fact maybe i'll never make something ever again #maybe i won't be an artist #and i dont think i could live with myself if that were the case #i dont want anything standing in my way #i dont want any hardship or tough time hindering my relationship with self expression #i want art to be with me for the long haul #not just to talk about it but to actually show off what ive done #i want to be an artist in 2024. my goal is to not quit. #i'm gonna make another new years post that isnt about goals when the clock strikes 12 #but for now. its just about art