#i need to stop writing metas at 4am nothing makes sense

[lingeringscars]

given the antagonistic interaction between lydia’s parents during the student teacher conference, i find that it’s safe to say that prior to the divorce, the two of them fought in the house. it’s fair to say that the two have a contentious relationship, and natalie does very little to hide her disdain of lydia’s father from her teacher ( who will eventually be one of her colleagues if not already?? i don’t remember if natalie is always the counselor or not / i know she filled in as a teacher in s3?? ). there’s an animosity that is palpable, and they are unable to be cordial even for the sake of the meeting. on top of that, their perception of lydia is so off base; now...lydia really is brilliant in more ways than one, and one of them is her ability to fool people, but we also frequently see cracks in the façade that people like allison were able to see through. she doesn’t try and hide her intelligence when completing a math problem in front of the class, while conversing with scott, showing the ease in which she’s able to do this. she also corrects jackson on what a mountain lion is before remembering to play it off. she’s good at fooling people, but it’s more because people don’t push her on it than because she’s a brilliant actress. 

i think this really did start at home. lydia wouldn’t respond well to an ultimatum, so her dad forcing her to choose which parent to live with would automatically result in her choosing natalie. tbh i think she also likes the freedom that comes with that because natalie is more absent than dismissive. while lydia’s dad expects the worse, natalie just doesn’t care. lydia takes medication to ease her nerves after the wolf attack at the video store, and natalie just shrugs it off as normal behavior.

while she easily could have given up because her family didn’t care or think she would amount to anything, lydia really does like being the best. she hides her intelligence for a number of reasons, one of which is the oodles of internalized misogyny she has to work through, but she doesn’t back up the act in her schoolwork. if anyone took a glance at a test or a paper, they’d know; later on in their academic careers a teacher actually tells her to do less work because her own theories won’t get her extra credit. she’s a genius; she knows it and eventually she owns it for everyone to see not just the school. 

the downside is that lydia is really bad at being bad at something. those negative comments her dad makes that she could just let slide because they couldn’t be further from the truth come to play then. she can pretend to suck or decide to show off and it gives her a level of control, but when her powers start to come in, nothing is in control. nothing had been for a while before that either, with her friends lying about the true nature of the attacks. she felt out of the loop and like things were happening without her consent, and then she has these powers that she can’t control and that she’s actually bad at deciphering. people keep dying because she shows up too late, and that has a physical and emotional toll on her because she’s not used to failing and now the failures have a body count. this coupled with the fact that she has little control over her own actions because she keeps sleepwalking to crime scenes does little for her mental health. she’s extremely tough on herself and she’s never had a genuine support system until scott’s pack. 

#domestic abuse tw #emotional abuse tw #abuse tw #to be safe #yes i am rewatching tw don't @ me #me watching s1: i miss kira #anti natalie martin #drug abuse tw #i need to stop writing metas at 4am nothing makes sense #muse: lydia martin #meta: lydia martin

[valeriemperez]

Do you think the effects of Barry pushing Iris away in the last episode may still be felt going into next week? I kind of got the sense that the scene in Ralph's office was meant to hint at that (otherwise why not just show Barry packing up without any appearance from Iris?). And in the 4x19 promo it almost looks like they're both a bit on edge (even in the scene where Snart and Barry are leaving the cortex and Iris is at the console).

I didn’t notice them looking on edge with each other in the promo, but I’m sure they’re generally stressed given the circumstances. As for there being effects of him pushing her away or not, we will find out in a few days. I think it makes sense for them to have a conversation about how they’re in this together, as a refresher for the final showdown and juxtaposition against the Devoes. But I don’t think it’s gonna be any kind of extreme angst.

½ I get that people weren’t happy with that last WA scene, especially since it was over Ralph of all people, but some of the reactions I’ve seen from other wa fans have been a bit over the top. Not only are there people now insisting Barry doesn’t love Iris as much she loves him, I’ve also seen a few fans call him abusive. I don’t know maybe it’s because WA has had the least amount of drama out of all the couples I’ve shipped, but as much as I didn’t like the scene, it didn’t bother me as much2/2 as it bothered other people. I do hate that sounds like him pushing Iris away is going to continue though, but I guess it has happened every season in some way or another. On another note, I’m really hoping that them having Barry (& the others) having trouble dealing with Ralph’s death doesn’t lead to a twist where he ends up alive again. Though I suspect that’s exactly what will happen since the writers really seem to love him for some reason.

I’m thankfully blessed to have avoided most of those reactions. Like I said before, it’s not my favorite scene but I don’t see it as wildly OOC or even that terrible on Barry’s part. The music and poor Iris’ face made it hurt my heart, but I think Iris knows Barry is dealing with the loss in his own way. I do hope that next episode points out that it’s a loss for Iris too, because I think that’s where the fan discontent stems from. It’s more about Iris not getting to be comforted and supported as much (although she has been a lot more this season, and I’ve loved it. see 4.01 - 4.03, 4.10 - 4.11, 4.16) than it is about Barry asking for space.

But you’re right that WA is the most drama-free couple I’ve ever shipped, and I’m sure they’ll have a talk about supporting each other soon. As for Ralph being alive again? It’s definitely gonna happen in the finale, no doubt about it. I just hope he leaves the show after.

I feel like barry regressed as a character last episode in s2 when his dad died he opened up to iris immediately now ralph dies he needs space? they are married now barry needs stop this nonsense it’s getting annoying your wife was just stabbed and you’re asking for space? And ralph (ugh) was iris’ friend too but whatever terrible writing again

To be fair, Barry also asked for space at the end of season 2. And then he quite literally created it by running back in time and saving his mom. The difference here is that he didn’t give Iris a long speech justifying that space, probably because it was only going to last the duration of his packing.

This is his default move when he experiences a setback, though. We agree on that.

Given that they actually gave Iris a sling that she’s still wearing next week, instead of brushing her stab wound off as if it was nothing, do you think her injury have a storyline or at least a subplot?

I’m sure it will be brought up, and it also shows not much time has past so the latest loss is still fresh in their minds.

So Grant is filming tonight and it looks like Candice’s stunt double is too. I’m intrigued by how much her stunt double appears to be in the finale so far.

Yeah, Candice wrapped for the season at 4am today. Her stunt double (@rochelle_okoye) was filming something last night, but I’m not sure if she specified Flash. Either way, Candice filmed a nice chunk and I hope she gets a cool scene like this week’s again.

Looks like Grant, the Danielle's, Candice, and Candice's stunt double were all filming last. I'm intrigued by why her double was there.

I wonder the same. We can assume Cecile will be important to the battle against the Thinker because of her mind-reading powers, and we can also assume she will give birth. So my guess is they were filming one of those two things yesterday. Or both, lol.

So even in death, we’ll somehow won’t escape Ralph. GG mentioned in an interview that Barry will spend the next few episodes repressing his regret on Ralph’s death.

LOL, we will never be free. But in all seriousness, it makes sense that Barry would be affected.

Personally for me, I don’t like it when Barry goes on his high horse about the morals of killing. It’s like he’s saying killing is black and white with no grey areas. I know it’s suppose to make him moral superior and special than the other heroes in the Arrowverse but I can do without it sometimes.🤷🏾‍♀️

He did say “It’s not self-defense if you’re already thinking about it,” so  he gave his grey area there. He’s certainly never tried to make Joe feel bad for killing anyone as a cop or Iris for killing Savitar.

But I totally get that a lot of people find this side of superheroes to be silly, and I think Flash could explore it a little better than they do.

Barry has so much of his own story in the comics. If they didn’t give him so much of Wally’s story, then maybe they wouldn’t feel like there’s nothing else to tell. Why do I feel like amateurs are running this show? Lol

Because most active fans feel the creators of their favorite shows are amateurs, no matter how experienced they are. But there’s still Barry story to tell, and I’m guessing they’ve been holding off on it. Tornado twins next season, though, I believe!

@eboniangelvibez said:

2/2 When and how will the team discover they’re being watched? Will that factor into WA’s move? How will Marlize escape DeVoe? Will it involve The Weeper and Amunet Black? How will Team Flash find out that The Thinker has been drugging his wife? Since Ralph is the final bus meta consumed by DeVoe can they get him back? When will the symbols that Barry and the Mystery Girl we’re writing be revisited and explained?

I definitely think that they’ll discover it before the finale, just don’t know when. Maybe episode 20 because the title parallels 7, which is when Barry first suspected they were being watched? I imagine Team Flash will discover the drugging first and hopefully Iris will be the one to convince Marlize to leave. 

I think they will save all the bus metas, but they will save Ralph at the bare minimum. I don’t know if the writing will be explained this season, unless it’s connected to defeating Devoe. Otherwise, they’ll wait until next season.

#the flash #barry allen #eboniangelvibez #anonymous #tatiana's thoughts #more asks under the cut #long post for ts

[keagan-ashleigh]

Just started watching Being Human (UK version) and after ONE minute in I thought “oh no, not again, I’m gonna ship them hard and suffer because this will never happen for real, isn’t it? yes.” This is about George and Mitchell - I mean they’re so fucking cute and adorable together this is deadlier than their “condition” I tell you. But it’s making me real mad too because it’s not gonna lead anywhere. And also I think Aidan Turners smile is slowly and efficiently killing me, that is also true, this guy is radiant. But that’s not the point.

Now I’m gonna scream a bit (metaphorically, I’m not gonna scream my lungs out at 4am). This is gonna be a massive rant, you’re warned.

can show please stop selling me fucking bromances I WANT LOVE AND HAPPY PEOPLE LOVING EACH OTHER OK I’ve been spoiled, I know who dies so I’m already pissed by the fact it’s not gonna happen. I know it’s not gonna happen, I know it’s two blokes sharing a flat and having “gay moments” and everyone literally telling them they’re gay but this is just for a good laugh. I know it’s not gonna happen because to spare me the pain of hoping like I did before I fucking Googled it. YES. I KNOW. AND I’M PISSED. LET SAME SEX PEOPLE LOVE EACH OTHER FOR FUCKING CHRIST SAKE I’M SO DONE I like the show. It’s a good one, it makes me laugh and I like the story. And I know I’m gonna love the little moments between them and I’m gonna love Mitchell looking so desperate because George literally screams in pain and he can do nothing about it and I’m gonna love the big deadly smiles he gives him because he loves him no matter how. I’m gonna love those moments between them and I’m gonna smile like an idiot because it’s so damn cute, because it’s all about the beautiful chemistry two persons can have. But I know this is a fucking joke to them. Just a joke. “They look gay but they are not! what a gimmick!” I hate them. I hate that I smile and laugh and roll with it, thinking about how cute and adorable they are. This is a fucking joke to them. Just like apparently it was a joke in Sherlock, and in so many shows I love for the beauty of a good chemistry. Is this SO unimaginable to present male friendship without turning it into a “everyone think they’re gay” joke, with people LITERALLY shouting “gaydar!” at them?? and to have two men just plainly loving each other without it being a joke? IS THAT SO FUCKING HARD? DAMN are ALL the shows I’ll be watching be about two men sharing a flat and loving each other but in a bro way ? Thankfully there was some good ones like Sense 8 but none of them are gonna last more than two seasons and a special closing ep “offered” to calm people down amirite - well there’s at least one or two exceptions I know and watch and enjoy but let me be bitter right now.

I’m so done. FUCK. Do I needed that so soon after Sherlock finally unravelled as the English King of queerbaiting? hell fucking no because it’s just salting an open wound you know. I didn’t know what Being Human was about but if I did knew, I would have waited to see it. It’s just so much like Sherlock, the only difference here is that there is no surprises, no expectations, no hopes - it still hurts, but not in the same way, with Sherlock I had hope. I read a lot of metas and theories and even write some in the hope that I can find it again, but it’s not working that great, it still hurts, especially when I hear people around me who don’t see the problem. Maybe I fooled myself for four years is what I tell myself sometimes when I hear them saying that I basically imagined stuff, even though I know it’s not true, and it hurts that they don’t understand and wave it off with a “there is nothing there about romance, there is no problem, why don’t you accept that and see things for what they are?”. And I hate myself for staying silent, I wish I could find the way to make them see, and to make them understand it’s not about me or what I wanted, this not my pain even though I feel at pain; but I can’t, I’m tired of arguing so I say nothing and cry when I’m alone instead. This isn’t gonna heal itself easily, it seems, and I’m so frustrated that I can never share this with my friends, because they don’t understand and only see me overreacting, nor with other people close to me who would never understand why a tv show can make someone feel so bad. Sharing it with you matters to me because you understand but it’s not the same as someone you’ve known since forever telling you “I’m with you. I understand you’re sad and angry.” without a “but” following. Doesn’t alleviate the loneliness to shout it here.

This is silly isn’t it, that an old show is reviving this pain. I’m gonna swallow the tears and finish it though, because it’s too late, I’ve started it, I like the show in general, I love their chemistry, I will like rewriting their story even though it’ll make me cry that this isn’t the real story, that it never is, and when I’m done I’m gonna cry a little bit more and even more so until someone finally makes things right and stops treating queerness as a running gag while throwing an actual gay character in the middle of it in a shitty attempt to discharge themselves of being accused of homophobia.

#fuck it's 6am. #I'm sorry for the cry but I'm just so done with this shit #all of it