#i need to know which is cursed

[invinciblerodent]

"I'll make a save here and try breaking up with Astarion, just to see the dialogue- I could see him get kinda nasty about it, but I honestly don't know what to expect so---"

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#-ke me back but that didn't fit #astarion #squirrel plays bg3 #when i tell you i reloaded so fucking fast..... #curse my curiosity #jesus fucking christ he's so RESIGNED #it's such an “ah; there it is. yeah can't say I'm surprised but it was nice while it lasted” #it sounds a bit mean but i fully thought he'd get at least a bit nasty about it #(the breakup also doesn't seem to have any options that nets disapproval???) #(which is just..... sad) #(it'd be so much less painful if he could at least hate you for it you know) #(this boy's self-esteem is -as we say in my country- beneath the miner frog's asscheeks) #(and now i need to go spend some time kneeling on the floor sobbing please do excuse me)

[hawnks]

The fact that True And Mutual Love Domain ….. looks like that. The fact that Yuuta’s idea of love in general looks like that. Everything he does is for the sake of love. His whole understanding of the world is about love. He’ll do anything for love. He’ll die for love. He intends to die for love. Love is careful and caring and diligent and powerful, but most importantly love is a graveyard.

#the more I think about it the more I’m realizing that Yuuta is not the inverse of gojos ‘love is the most twisted curse of all’ but….. #I don’t even know if he differs from that mindset at all tbh? #love is a BURDEN. he knows that. he readily accepts it #but it doesn’t seem to hurt him the way it does gojo #he seems almost numb to it in a way #I think I just need to mull it over a bit but it’s like…. I don’t think the story wants us to believe Yuutas idea of love is the answer #I think there’s something very dark about the way him and love work together #not least of which that Love is a tool for him in several ways #it’s almost a contract? it’s like love equates to moral obligation to him. it seems to be entirely ABOUT sacrifice. not just that sacrifice #is a biproduct of love. sacrifice IS love #‘it’s not sacrifice if it doesn’t hurt… you can let go of anything. but first — you have to love it’ #ect ect

[wu-does-art]

au where mike narrowly escapes the upsidedown while on patrol and gets an obscure curse to be a catboy for a month. this is amusing to everyone but mike.

#catmike au #dont know if people will like this au of mine or not but ill keep posting doodles of it cause its funny #dustin is very interested in the curse and is also conveniently the onely one who has owned a cat #hes tests things almost immediately in such excitement #basically its just him seeing mike in the living room and running quickly to his house because he needs to grab some things #its also set vaguely post s5 so some of the byers share the wheeler house #lets just say the wheelers went off for the apocalypse #dustin comes back with a laser pointer and catnip (to the others it honest to god looks like weed) #then of course hes inspecting him and asking questions like seeing if his human ears are gone and if he can move his tail and all that #they find very quickly that he can purr when will comes over next to him curiously #this def disturbs other upsidown meeting because imagine nancy's talking and in the middle of it its just *LOUD PURRING* #mike does chase lasers (out of his control) and he can in fact get hopped up on catnip #which makes him go zoomies or purr crazy loud and it makes him shove his whole body all over will like a strange clingy 5 yr old #also his pupils can go big and small and as expected it goes massive when hes on catnip #everyone finds this hilarious and they make a game of who can secretly get mike catnipped #will is the unwilling victim because he's the cat's (and mike's ofc) assighned so he'll just be sitting and then he'll #hear running qnd suddenly mikes holding his arm up and rubbing against it while purring very loudly #anyways i may have written that for no one in particular but yeah theres some cat au! #st mike #mike wheeler #stranger things #stranger things fanart #byler #st mike wheeler #mike wheeler stranger things #will byers #byler fanart #st will #st will byers #its supposed to say that wills the cats favourite person idk tumblr deleted it cause something something formatting

[coquelicoq]

actually natori has some kind of tracking talisman on matoba at all times. that's how he knew where to abduct matoba from for Operation: Kitty Cat City. matoba fully knows about it; it's why he wasn't at all surprised to find a paper doll in natsume's hair after the mask youkai debacle (matoba internally as he watched it fly away: classic mother hen shuuichi-san momence 🥰). because this is matoba "boundaries? what are those? can you eat them?" seiji we're talking about, he's not bothered by this "violation" of his "privacy"; rather, he finds it fittingly clingy (it is, after all, only right that natori should be keeping tabs on him obsessively). sometimes the talisman gets confused and sticks to yesterday's outfit, so he always checks to make sure he has it on the way out the door (his pocket patdown is "keys, lighter, wallet, exorcism supplies, shuuichi-san's cute lil tracker he thinks i don't know about <3"). i wouldn't be surprised if he's figured out how to uno reverse it and now uses it to track natori's location as well. this may not technically be canon but it is probably all 100% true in an important way that transcends canon, we just never hear about it because it isn't relevant to natsume's journey 😌

#matoba: a natori talisman. sure wish i had one of those 😇 #<-knows that he has one on him at that very moment and also that natori doesn't know that he knows #convince me that he didn't say this on purpose to make natori sweat. you can't! #in response to him saying that natori side-eyes him and has a dot dot dot speech bubble (my favorite vol. 26 ellipsis btw) #which is exactly how he would react if he had secretly planted a talisman on matoba #and was trying to figure out if matoba knew and was alluding to it!! #check and mate. game set match. QED. i rest my case. #i've connected the dots i've connected them but also i feel like it wasn't that hard. the truth is out there you just have to believe #natsume's book of friends #natsume yuujinchou #horrible exorcists #matoba seiji #f #homura cats arc #my posts #btw i do not think the head of the matoba clan actually does anything so base as to carry keys on his person #he has people for that. he has a driver. he has servants who open the door when they see him coming. what possible need could he have #for such an object #he also may not need to carry a wallet (or equivalent) for similar reasons #but it was the best shorthand i could think of to make what i meant by 'pocket patdown' readily apparent #especially since 'cell phone' isn't an option either since this is set in the 80s #i figure he must have some kind of lighter or firestarter bc he uses smoke to find the source of the locked-room curse #he also seems to carry a brush & ink and various & sundry tools of the trade that i decided to call 'exorcism supplies' #matoba-san drop the 'what's in my purse' youtube video 👀

[zeb-z]

idk it’s like. yeah Bad, you should be talking about the cursed team. yeah Tubbo, you’ve got an excellent theory crafted here, a super solid argument that your team is cursed. but it’s no surprise that red will not hear you out, because blue’s relationship with red is just in such shambles. Bad has burned bridges and destroyed any sort of love, any sort of trust, any sort of anything. Pierre has spat on the flames. The fact they managed to have a genuine talk about the enchant agreement is a miracle (and only because it was half OOC in my opinion, and because Phil is the only one on red who will extend a bit of trust because he just doesn’t want to fight), but still hasn’t done much for blue’s favor.

everything that red has suffered when they have tried to talk, everything Bad has done to them specifically with ruthlessness in the name of victory, has now shown to have consequences. so yeah, blue could so be the cursed team, and Tubbo could be right to a terrifying degree and have it all figured out - it’s not gonna stop red from fighting because they can’t hear him out. how can they trust a thing he says? why would they talk to Bad now at the final hour? why would they sit there and show mercy when so often none has been shown to them?

it’s the name of the game. to tear them all apart and see just how far they’ll go. the eye wants them to burn bridges and turn on eachother in the name of victory, and Bad played very well. it’s a shame he represents more than himself, but an entire team. it’s a shame those bridges he burned might have been the ones they needed now that red is in the lead and has a chance of winning. yeah man, blue might be cursed, but red has found evidence in their own favor - and why on gods green earth would they take blue’s word when Bad has proven time and time again he will abandon honor for victory?

#it’s like yeah man. if only they had listened. who knows if blue or red is cursed but if only they could have talked #bad has spent this entire time burning bridges for blue and Tina and Tubbo try so hard to rebuild something but it’s just ash yknow #how can they possibly trust blue now. how can they possibly listen let alone give benefit of the doubt. give trust #now at the final hour diplomacy is near impossible because they all feel there are risks they cannot take #and red has such a resentment to blue and bad specifically #bad started with the mindset of ‘the underhanded tactics I use they’ll use too’ and abused it. now red expects underhanded tactics always #blue has gotten the reputation they’ll do anything for the win. bad has proven it time and time again. now at the final hour they have a #genuine reason they feel they need to win and they’d have to convince the other team to stop trying. diplomacy and trust #which they are severely lacking. and it’s sucks it does because bad is not the entirety of blue #and if blue really is cursed and red wins. the difference could have been having been on better terms earlier. whatever happens happens #sorry Tubbo was the fallout for today kfjsjfjd #mcyt #qsmp #q!bbh #q!tubbo #qsmp purgatory #z speaks

[a-s-levynn]

Don’t know if you’ve done something like this before, but maybe Vessel holding tiny Vessel in his hands and being shocked by how small he is? If not, just tiny II going like “👁👁” with those stunning blues of his <3 Love your art!

#dude.. whoever you are i'm platonically kissing you on the lips with tongue #thank you for making me draw the most cursed funniest tiny one i probably will ever create #i was giggling the entire time #behold: photoshoot tiny ii #y'all know which one #THIS is what i see when i look at that picture #but i'm saving this ask because the first idea is awesome but it's a bigger piece so i need to postpone that one #but rest assured it is going to be made along the line #tiny token #sleep token #levynn tries to draw

[fortunatelyenchantingtaco]

I might just be insane but with Geto what’s always made me feel weird is that, in practice, he could be stronger than Gojo. Curses becoming stronger with Gojo’s birth is effectively benefitting Geto cause then the curses he can use are stronger. He doesn’t have any restrictions for his technique aside from the horrible taste. He can send curses off with a command with unlimited distance between them, he can use an unlimited amount, if the curse is strong enough he can just use its abilities. Like the world is your oyster quite literally my man idk what your problem is (its a joke i know his issue is depression, im just saying if i had the option to eat and then use a hyperspecific creature i would not refuse)

To reach this point of strenght Gojo had to train since birth and also die

Instead of learning Reverse Cursed Technique you can just consume a curse that can heal. Just saying dude your progression is objectively easier to achieve. Gojo out there has to bend physics and write equations while you can just go eat some curses I—

#jjk #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #dont come at me im just jealous okay #im sure yall know who i relate to in dungeon meshi #listen #I KNOW that geto hated curses and everything im not dumb #i just think its ironic that he has a much more linear progression towards power #but makes a point that he’s weaker than gojo #which he might have been at that point but dude #in the end it all comes down to the fact that he needed a reason to do all that #curses dont taste so bad when you have a goal #he just has shit taste in goals

[silveredsound]

How you go from harry styles to hockey I will never understand.

I was going to make a little joke, as I do, (would have been v hilarious, best joke ever pls know this) and leave it at that. But like, it's been raining for over 24 hours, it's 2am and it might be good for me to reflect a little.. So sorry anon I am going emote all over your ask (which (the ask) sounds a bit judgey tbh but the written word is NOT a great conveyor of tone so that might be on me.)

On one hand it's just fandom. And, I think it's been pretty clear that as much as I love Henry Stars, I'm not like, a 'Harry is the be all and end all of all music creation and creativity and actions.' I like him for the good and the bad, and I don't leave critical thinking at the door. (Not saying I'm the only person to do this, just that it's hard sometimes in fan spaces and Stans definitely do..)

Which, can make it hard to participate in fandom as a lot of people are not great at irony, or accepting that someone else can say, god damn that is a terrible song - and that it's okay for that to happen. It doesn't mean that the person who expressed the neg opinion is not still a fan of the artist they were speaking about. Same with if the artist you are a fan of does something that gives you the ick.

I def learnt this when Harry went to Google Camp the first time. Like obviously I've been around 1d fandom in some way since 2012 ish I think it was - and it was my own reaction to Harry going to Camp Douchebags the first time that made me go, oh jeez Silv, you are a bit too involved in the parasocial relationship here. Like I was genuinely upset that he'd done something I thought was so dumb and wanky.

Anyway, clearly I still loved - love - him and I celebrated him and spent a fuckload of money on him and engaged in fandom and etc etc. But I just did at that point I think turn a little from heading in a very blinkers on version of fandom to one that's def more me - where you just get to have fun, make fun be creative, make friends! and have a bit of a perv depending on the silk cream vanilla ice cream outfit Harry might be wearing in Nashville.

I like RPF. I mean I like all transformative works and fandom extending and enhancing source material via creation, but I don't have an issue with RPF. I believe in 4th wall. And I clearly have written 1d fic. A lot of my good fandom mates, and real life best friend(s) are people I have met through sharing a love of writing in fandom spaces. Obviously all the best writers in 1d went to Hockey. And I stayed here. And I tried. I wanted to be where my friends where. I had fomo and I was lonely! My fandom had changed in a few ways all around the same time.

But Hockey is very confusing, (for starters as I often say to Angela or Joanna, snow is fake) and nothing clicked for me - it seemed large and I had no idea where to even start and I didn't really try.

But I think the change in some fandom fellow participants, and also anons being mean when they would get even a glimpse in their peripheral that I might have vaguely indicated that Henry did something that I thought was dumb or embarrassing, or just not that good, (it's no fun sharing a thought and feeling chatty about it, and wanting to engage with other people's thoughts if some random is going to anonymously tell you that you are a dumb c*nt and should delete etc etc so I stopped sharing any thoughts at all.) Of course Nick leaving breakfast and then R1 altogether - as well as obviously my whole life narrowing to a point that was just tend Mama- work - tend mama - work - tend mama - sleep - grow a tumour - tend mama left me not so much time for proper joyful engagement.

And then, in Jan/Feb this year, I think as I'd been looking at book reviews and as soon as you search for a book on tik tok they push book tok romance reviews into your feed and I think then that pushed an actual hockey clip (which is a really shite 4th wall issue as is the whole Kraken thing etc) and I can't even remember what it was but I know I then swiped through and watched other videos on the account and like 1d being adorable shites repeating stock answers and sitting on top of each other I was intrigued by what seemed to be very dumb and very entertaining.

But Silv, you cry, what about the emotions! You need emotions! Ah, yes, see, because I am nothing but devoted I had followed Angela and La's hockey blogs, and something La posted grabbed my attention and I followed a link and read an article and I was like. Oh, I want to read more about these kids. So I did. And after a little while I reached out to La and was like, um, I think I get it. And I posted something about the Fantilli Bros and then Max reached out and tbh I don't think anything says it better than my wide eyed enthusiasm reply. (You are probably by now thinking, Silv why is your answer to Max so short, why didn't I just get a paragraph? This is an endless essay with no conclusion or indeed a thesis statement, (that is if you have even made it down to here) & anon I can only apologise.)

I am really enjoying learning so many new things, being welcomed into a new space of connection and joy and silliness and emotional breakdowns. It's been so lovely to meet new people who are so excited to share their niche interest with you and no one minds how many questions I have and everyone searches out Primera and Important Past Instagram Posts from the archives - and of course reconnecting with people who I have always been friends with, fandom changes didn't change that, but it's delightful chatting much more often. The other day Angela and I watched an Avs game together via Tumblr chats, which was delightful, to learn about the team and to talk about random other things, and I've spent my last month of Saturdays watching umich with lovely people who La introduced me to, and having MANY EMOTIONS. (It's like hanging out all posting about a show's fits and one liners and if he's going to sing medicine but it's many pantomime gooseberrys. The performative homoeroticisim, wild hair, jokes, punching (only now during not pre show work outs ) and very goddamn impressive skill and physicality is actually pretty similar). Meghan and I have been able to chat through our very similar horrible experiences with cancer and mums with cancer and it's been so lovely and strengthening to be able to share that experience with a person who beyond gets it, and then also I've been able to announce to her that I want to write a fic about 5 ways Nolan saw god with the UMich Bible Study Group but didn't find faith. which is obviously a completely ridiculous concept but equally worthy of discussion. It's this that I love so much about fandom friendship - you share SO much because you are sharing something that gives you intimate joy, so the relationship always starts from a place of an automatic mutual understanding and empathy - and from there we make it our own.

But also, I really like the game. Like I love watching them play, all of them! It's fast (obviously - and oblig have to say - ice is slippery) and it's hard - and they make it look easy. When one of the special players (they are all special, but one of the ones who play almost with innate ability) makes a pass or a turn sometimes it's almost almost magic, like how the fuck did they see that gap between four players, and did you see how they kept the puck a moment longer so they could release it perfectly into the lane !! Hot.

The game can be all encompassing and it's SO SO SO silly. Like it's the dumbest sport. It's The Show. I'll put on ESPN and stream a match while I'm working during the day (the time difference is perfect for once) and I'm spending time cos I want to, learning the rules and the logistics and business side of it all. And of course, the differences between college hockey and the show. Idk. It just clicked on so many levels for me.

And so, I have no idea why it took me so long to transition from Henry to Hockey, but I am not surprised I did now that I have - it def wasn't something that I was bloody expecting. And Anon I will say this, the last few years of my life have been sad, hard, and tbh shitty. Now, I know what it's like to have fucked years, so I am not saying this to try to be and show off but 2024 feels a bit better. I feel clearer, I have started to lose some weight (15ish kg so far depending on the time of the month) and now I have a meeting w a PT on Tuesday as I actually don't care what I weigh but I want to get stronger and reduce my visceral fat as it will be better for hormones which is better for lessening my cancer reoccurrence %.

God knows it's (2024) not all roses, I literally had surgery again a fortnight ago and the cost of living in Sydney is giving me so much anxiety. I am still a terribly disorganised mess, my work is undergoing a complete restructure (thanks NSW gmnt) and my clean washing is NEVER folded and put away, it's always in the basket - but I feel so happy and entertained and creative - I am writing again! like it's joy. It's ye olde you are who you are at this moment but you are also the 4 year old you and the 15, 27, 34 year old you - girlhood (non gendered concept of not literal interpretation) and I love it. 💛🩵🌱

#sorry anon this is very much non con silv thinks about fandom and emotions and processes on main #there's a boy who has harry energy although more spoiled and sarcastic and this is delightful as i do actually think #which also i got a rude anon about once #that harry is not as nice as eveyone thinks #i think hes professional as fuck definitely #but i think hes a sarky little perfectionist and this delights me #but chemistry with everyone - thats the harry curse and blessing and the **** ****** one #sorry anon i know this was annoying #but i genuinely just really needed to get this out of me and acknowledge it all #fandom and fandom participation is something that is so important to us all #otherwise why would we have a little blog #let alone create posts of fic or gifs or edits #and god last year i said multiple times to shifty that i wished i had a fandom that i could wallow in as a happy place distraction #its very nice to feel engaged and delighted by something #i hope we can still be mates #i am a popstars and radio dj lover for life #i didn't even touch on teams i like and players and such cos not the point #tw: cancer #tw: death #tw: weight loss #sorry! i should have added those tw before!

[completeoveranalysis]

[5]

Ooh the curse is even similar in nature! A future curse that they carry with them until a certain point in time, at which point DEATH. 

Also that sleeping beauty parallel comes storming right back in with a vengeance here. Evil Wolverine is Maleficent riding in on Sakura’s birthday to curse her with a future death once she hits her late teens. 

(And then the eventual softening of the curse, where instead of dying she falls asleep instead)

OH AND ALSO the little wings that grew on people in xxxHolic? Until it gathered enough of their soul and just flew away with it, giving Evil Wolverine what he wanted and leaving them empty behind? The same thing here with Sakura, but more advanced!

Though can I just say that it’s very lucky that Evil Wolverine fucking LOVES to explain himself at every given opportunity? We know he has no friends, and so this is really the only time he gets to actually talk to anyone, but WOW he really will just take the chance to do an evil little speech EVERY time. 

#I'm just going back to the wings and going #Oh! Of course they were a curse the whole time! #They have the exact visual imagery of a curse! #And they even made it look like Lava Lamp's tattoos when he was in prison #Liveblogging the reservoir chronicle #Tsubasa #Vol 196 #Lava Lamp Guy #Sakura #Which Sakura? #A Sakura #Not Sakura #Evil Wolverine #Do people write Evil Wolverine fanfiction #I suddenly need to know #And how many speeches does he give per fic? #It's for science

[niuniente]

Me: oh no, my stomach has been acting up a lot for 2 weeks already, and I have a trip to England in a few days... Google: You can't use Imodium for more than 48h!!! Me: Ah, shit. A literal shit! Me: Doctor, please, is there any medication for IBS? Doctor: No, unfortunately. Imodium typically helps. Me: I've been using it and it does help. How long can I use it in one go? Doctor: Up to 3 weeks. Here's a prescription for you. Just take less when your symptoms start to subside. Me: Oh heaven's bless QuQ

#if you don't know how it is to live with a stomach #which will shit out everything you put inside when the flaring happens #when eating ANYTHING is like playing Russian roulette with diarrhea #where you NEED TO go to a toilet in THAT INSTANT and not 5 minutes later #be SUPER HAPPY #this is a genetic family curse from both parents' side #this is what happens when your families live in the same fucking 200km area for at least 650 years #breeding with one another #I've been really stressed out lately with everything #with finances and the job #the company I work in has gone to bankruptcy and I'm pretty much waiting for them to kick me out #Patreon income has dried to 1/3 since I stopped drawing FUZZY #PMS isn't helping this at all #the IUD has been a blessing but it hasn't taken all of PMS away #which it apparently even doesn't do #tmi #niu's life #i need the new job #something where I can operate despite by diseases

[probablyaseamonster]

I'm so glad Pirates SMP invited Puffy, if they hadn't I would've felt so cheated

Now all I need is for Captainsparklez to show up for a cameo as an important character

#coming from someone who only knew Puffy from dsmp back in the day and doesn't know anything about her as a cc #same with captainsparkles #all i know about him is the captain's mcc curse and how apparently he could fit white diamond's role in gemcyt #which is interesting to me #sparkles could interact with puffy but imo it's not necessary #it would be awesome though #i really want puffy to make lore for pirates smp #if she doesn't get a uniquely cool or angsty moment I'll be so sad #I need it for my imaginary ship in a bottle animatic #pirates smp #psmp #captainpuffy #psmp captainpuffy #captainsparklez

[hydrangeyes]

I really do love how the fandom has their ship but man do I wanna see a bit more of the rivals to codependent to lovers route more

#satosugu #in which them beefing in the gym was hilarious to me and i wanna see that be a part of their early friendship stages #and THEN it turns out theyre both so stupid they just wanna kiss each other #you know that whole yakuza vibes where fighting definitely means more than just fighting #idc what anyone says #alot of yakuza could have been solved if they'd shut the fuck up and talked in some cases kissed even #anyway #i need fics where they talk about how fucked gojo's mental state must be over all #cause your telling me someone who was born so powerful and is hated because of it and only treated well (in a distant sort of way) is okay? #like damn geto had him snatched with that one scene #i need more shoko love frfr also #also does geto ecen eat given he has to eat curses and shit like they cant put that shit in some soup or a smoothie or something??? #i need a fic where gojo cries but like the quiet kind cause he's always been the stronfest and strong people would never cry like a weakling #type shit #i want a fic where gojo learns new emotions as he's taught to unlearn the damage his title and family have given him #like genuine joy or non deadly fear or or crying is okay #i need geto to have a support system thats not just gojo like theyre each others number one's but theyr both fucked up #they needed adult nanami in their lives imo cause my guy seems to be the only one who got it

[do-rey-me]

can anyone help me ive been searching for ages for the um, actually episode where trapp and (i think?) brennan fuccking rag on the ents for "losing" the entwives by being so goddamn annoying

#my posts #may be remembering this bit wrong #um actually #dropout #mike trapp #brennan lee mulligan #you know how normal people get songs stuck in their gead and need to listen to them to reset their brain?? #well unfortunately i get comedy goofs stuck in my head which is the biggest fucking curse

[beevean]

Dracula: I have made a Devil Forgemaster Rosaly: You fucked up a perfectly good man is what you did. Look at him. He's got anxiety

yeah that's a good summary of the MF manga lmao

"I feel comfortable here… For the first time, I've learned what it means to feel comfortable. But eventually... you and the children will realize that I am an abomination."

«Strange. The words are flowing... This is just like that time...»

"I’m scared."

Hope Dracula's proud of his hard work :)

(love that you could also replace Rosaly with Julia, but uhhhh anxiety doesn't even begin to encompass what's wrong with the other guy :P)

#castlevania #akumajou dracula #curse of darkness manga #hector castlevania #yeah yeah i know that he felt hated since childhood #but you can't look at me and tell me dracula was free therapy to these poor boys #he absolutely exacerbated hector's fear of being hated #because he kept him sheltered in the castle #and because he forced him to go against his very morals which made him abandon his safe home #as for isaac. well. i don't even need to explain how dracula broke him :)

[crossbackpoke-check]

a junkyard dog ain't always pretty but you always love that toothless smile

#i miss tyler bertuzzi #liv in the replies #the absolute way i just got bodied by shake it out coming on as i uploaded the pictures to this post #um. sorry not sorry. the google doc/pdf of the quote that i used for this was literally titled #god fuckin curse the notesapp i wrote two years ago #directly referencing the note i have (pretty sure from when the maple leafs seemed really serious about wanting bert) & i remember #being slammed out of NOWHERE by the sudden thought (because i've been preparing for years for bert to leave) (andreas in feb moe in april) #verbatim: if tyler bertuzzi ever gets traded or retires it's catalog of unabashed gratitude the heart part and i will sob #S T O P #tyler bertuzzi #detroit ride or die #this does actually rival we don't have a future we have a dog for some of these for me which. fuck u past me for being so right about this #things that i need you to know for the narrative: oh dumbstruck is tyler's first nhl game (vs the flyers) #thank you every day is from tyler's hat trick & yes the bruins on knucklehead is intentional because it hurt my feelings #also should note. i'm sorry is from when tyler broke his hand this season & no i'm not okay about the narrative of who is he w/o his hands #yeah yeah yeah. the last five make me want to throw up screaming crying shaking wailing #i made it so much worse by looking at dyl's post #dylan larkin #anthony mantha #andreas athanasiou #catalogue of unabashed gratitude [abridged] - ross gay #my sincerest apologies to fabs i simply could not put him in here he was in we don't have a future we have a dog that was all i could take #should i have abridged the last one to say 'for every day'? yeah probably. did i think of that too late? also probably. wait hang on #ooooookay so i did it so now that tag doesn't make sense but it's fine i also have an alt for dumbstruckand pelican heart :))))))) #what i wish i could've made for u but the pictures don't exist is tyler running down the drive barefoot on the phone the day he got drafted #do you really believe in him? is he a good kid? no problems? you're gonna love him. you're gonna love him. #i'm also fully not even gonna talk to y'all about vrana. i can't do that red string tonight. we're also ignoring sunny #STEVE WHAT FUCKING TEAM ARE WE GONNA HAVE TO PLAY WITH #yes i made this exclusively for me no i don’t care yes i am a lil sorry i love him u’ve heard it all before. dilly i’m kissing ur forehead

[setewbro]

About that thing of bad autistic representation, I noticed that, even being autistic, after some time writing my first original fiction I realized that I unintentionally wrote my character that who is the one who makes robots as someone autistic-coded and now I'm wondering if I'm writing stereotypical representation.

Yeah, I get that... I do think there's a lot to explore with robots and autism tho! Like an autistic person who has more attachment to robots because they anthropomorphize objects. Autistic people who feel like robots because of masking - hiding my stims actually made me very stiff and I kinda lost my ability to dance freely, which makes me feel like the guy from Oz. And you can explore the stereotype from different angles.

#I think to avoid bad representation I study a little about common ableist tropes - #curing the charater or killing them at the end #the disability is a curse or curse to the parents #disabled character exists to teach a lesson on parents etc #stuff like that #I liked a book called disfigured about disability in fairy tales #but also like this is more easy said then done bc not every disabled character that dies is bad representation you know #uh this is a complicated topic actually bc I wish I could say that you need to feel the vibes of the story which is nonsense #but sometimes its about the compassion the writer has towards its characters? #laughing with you vs laughing at you