#i miss dancing

[onceuponaroast]

So small update for yall: after a fainting spell at work (I'm fine) I finally bit the bullet and got a smart watch to monitor my heart and went to see my doctor again. Turns out that ~130 is Not a normal resting heart rate, and neither is spiking wildly from 80-120 just because of like. Standing.

So we're doing some more testing for symptoms I thought we'd gotten figured out like. 4 years ago. Which on one hand is nice to get closure and some answers (hopefully) but on the other hand has fucking terrifying implications, because before I thought I just had some chronic pain but that if I pushed hard enough I could exercise and get my body back to being active and normal eventually. Now that we have reason to believe it's heart and blood circulation related, it's a lot less likely.

Like it is nice to know that I'm not just weak and these symptoms aren't normal, but it's also hard to grasp the fact that that means everything I do is going to be harder and more dangerous than for healthier people, and that there's not much I can do about it.

Right now my doctor is looking into POTS, and they're having me get more blood drawn again (I thought we were done with that). I'm also going to wear a heart monitor for a bit which will be neat. I'll try to update yall with any official news but I also want to say for all the other people who might (like me) not realize: despite what funny memes on the internet may tell you, feeling dizzy when you stand up too fast is not normal. Feeling nauseous or light headed when you stand for too long is not normal. Vision bluring/blacking out and feeling like you're going to faint because you walked up one flight of stairs is not normal. Swollen red feet after walking too long is not normal. And finally, uncontrollable sweating/burning hot face even if the rest of your body feels fine or the room temperature is mild is also not normal.

I love you so much, please don't try and just push through it because you think you're just weaker. Get help if you can afford it, and keep pushing if doctors blow you off. You're worth it.

#fi talks #i thought i was just like #out of shape #and that's why i was always out of breath/sweaty/ why exercising was so hard #but noooooo my blood just fuckin loves to pool in my feet ig #now they're gonna strap me to a table and flip me around like a pancake i guess #(a tilt table test-very common for pots testing) #at least my manager is absolutely amazing and helped me out when i was unconscious on the office floor #anyway #tw medical #tw medical gaslighting #medical #physical health #pots #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #yayyyy #i miss dancing #i miss hiking. biking. rollerblading #i miss being active

[jonlybonlyfromboldlygo]

Had* to do a pirouette today for the first time in 20 years** and considering how out of shape*** I am and that I was doing it barefoot on a moss covered cement patio I did not fail too terribly****.

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*'had' no one was making me but there was a debate between a pirouette and a plie and there's no way I wasn't gonna show off a little bit

**my last dance class was in... 2002 maybe? I may since have done a casual pirouette in my free time but I honestly don't remember

***5 foot, 5 (AND A HALF) inches and 200 pounds and I'm comfortable with my size but a lack of physical exercise/activity has really shown in my endurance and flexibility

****I didn't make it all the way around but I didn't fall over and my arms/carriage were impeccable

#ramblin #i miss dancing

[scooplery]

i miss tha club :(

#i miss dancing

[house-of-slayterr]

Nostalgic for the days where my legs weren’t fucking useless and this shit took up half of my time:

#i miss this #i miss dancing #pre disabilty days #i wish my legs worked again #i hâte that i can’t dance like this anymore #ballerina #retired dancer #retired ballerina #ballet #dark ballet #dancer #pas de deux #only in my dreams

[ripdragonbeans]

I genuinely want to dance it out but I have no place to do so

#i miss dancing #it got rid of so much negative energy in me #and i hate that I didn't start until college with classes required for my degree #i want more #bean speaks

[emsgoodthinkin]

I’ll always miss doin this. I always Aced that shit :/ 😌 something I will brag about

#black pink #bbhmm #rihanna #hip hop dance #the royal family #royal family #i miss dancing #e talks

[anotherobsessedfangirl]

Every time I see someone dancing bachata it makes me want to devour a girl on the dance floor…

#sadly my bachata skills are lacking #I miss dancing #dancing #bachata

[toothyspoonie]

it is so frustrating to be able to do something so easily years ago and now i can barely partake for an hour without almost giving out

#spoonie #i miss dancing

[georg7na]

THOTS&ANALYSIS

the overuse of tricks in dance and the lack of dynamics in certain performances

although tricks allow for a more jaw-dropping moment, it doesn’t normally play out that way. especially for competition. judges have seen it all. what would a simple backflip do for them??

i’m not implying that involving tricks in a set would be absolutely useless. but rather than trying to impress the audience with the trick itself, it would be more conducive to utilize that trick into making a bigger picture? i may be stating the obvious but i find it so obvious when watching some performance videos on yt. when they involve the other dancers who are not doing the trick into making a bigger picture, it always results in the audience giving a better response than just one dancer doing a trick.

#⭐️🐰💌🩰 #i love dancing #i miss dancing #missing uprising hours

[pjthedaft]

heeheehoohoo upon further research i have discovered that there ARE indigenous vendors in my city!! there is a little gift shop not that far from my apartment, and there’s a stall in a market a bus ride or two away. once i move out of this stinky apartment and have some money to spare, i’m spending it all on a new hand drum, moccasins, and some medicines. yayayayayayayayayayayayayay!!!

#still wish i could go to powwows though #i miss dancing #but the nearest one is 40 minutes out of the city #and i have no transportation #sucks bc it’s happening on the rez i grew up on :( #oh well #a win is a win

[saxigenouscorviform]

local man goes to burlesque show, invents a whole new kind of dysphoria, news @ eleven

#i miss dancing #most dancing is actually pretty antithetical to my stupid fucking joint issues #so instead i just stand in 3rd position waiting for the bus and remember what it was like to move with grace

[ashstfu]

I THROW MY HANDS UP IN THE AIR SOMETIMES SAYING AYO GOTTA LET GO I WANNA CELEBRATE AND LIVE MY LIFE SAYING AYO BABY LETS GO CAUSE WE GON ROCK THIS CLUB WE GON GO ALL NIGHT WE GON LIGHT IT UP LIKE ITS DYNAMITE

#i miss being a kid..... #my friends & i danced to this at the 2nd grade talent show #personal

[crsinclair]

Looking up ballet dance videos for a completely self-indulgent project of mine and came across a ballet school's recital video and 😭💞 oh the babies... They're barely managing tendu and keeping their knees straight when they jeté and they're running across the stage instead of prancing and they wobble when they try to piqué and they're all out of sync- Bby ballet dancers are so cuuuute and these babies are all trying their best and I loved watching them!

#ballet #bby ballerinas #oh they're so tiny and cute #ravyn rants #i miss dancing

[inklessletter]

Baby.

Yeah, just--trust the very slow process with me, yeah?

#inklessletter #trust the process #steddie #dirty dancing redraw #dirty dancing #steddie fanart #fanart #stranger things #work in progress #wip #steve harrington #eddie munson #i just realized i never posted this one #sorry i lost my mind temporarily #i missed you so much #and these two #love you all