#i looked back on my convo with my friend and

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: SUR'KESH

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Urdnot Wrex With: Lt. Steve Cortez, Dr. Mordin Solus, Major Kirrahe, and Urdnot Bakara And a Special Guest Appearance by: Adm. Steven Hackett Alliance R&D has officially begun construction on the Prothean device. The team has dubbed it: "Project Crucible". We're throwing everybody who knows how to throw a hammer at it. This is gonna be the most ambitious undertaking in human history. I'm not saying it won't be a challenge- but we can do this, Shepard. You can do this. Never doubt that. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

+BONUS (the smirk™️)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #sophie shepard #james vega #EDI #urdnot wrex #steve cortez #mordin solus #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #i feel like i probably should have split the actually sur'kesh set in half like i did with mars #but i got lazy after i split out the normandy summit gifs and i wanted to keep the rest of the mission together lol #wrex having small conversation moments with james and EDI was everything to me #bc with both of them it felt like wrex passing on some of his old kid on the block knowledge to the new kids on the block and i just 🥺 #like i didn't get it in the gif but the second part of that convo with james he says something like #'you're one of shep's new recruits? hang on kid- it's a hell of a ride!' and when i tell you i SOBBED #like the entire first half of this playthrough is soph taking her newer squadmates out to help her build the army for the reaper war #so running into all these old friends/teammates and hearing them share their wisdom with james and EDI as new recruits is everything to me! #also EDI and james look very cute in their armor (ESPECIALLY EDI IN HER HUNTER HOOD I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR) #i'm just gonna say wrex's little tongue out at the salarians in the background of padok's gif sent me so hard i had to include it LMAO #and i'd write something about the mordin cameo but the mordin cameo on tuchanka is better so i'll save my thoughts for that one #ig thanks for being wrex's inside man mordin you were real for that one #the real salarian homie of this mission was kirrahe and i love him (he's my favorite and i adore him thank you for coming to my TEDtalk) :) #and i will also say that i adore bakara and she's the highlight of this mission for me bc of the lines but also like??? #her grabbing the shotgun from wrex to take out the cerberus troops is everything and his expression afterwards is *chef's kiss* #and SOPH'S LITTLE SMIRK LMAOOOOOOO i had to include it bc i saw it in the back and it sent me to the next dimension lol #and since i just use the tags to share all my annoying little thoughts on a final note: #i included the elevator bomb scene bc in soph's canon she gets injured during it for the shenko angst pre-coup bc i'm an angsty bitch :)

[rosekasa]

it kinda sucks that my biggest fear over the past 2.5 years was that all the people that i spoke to and considered as friends actually would just forget about me if i disappeared and then it kinda like. came true

#vent post #idk i just. think about this sometimes #i feel like i had so many friends in the fandom since 2020 #and like. i dont talk to anyone anymore #i know it's not a big deal but like #i took a break to try to calm my anxiety and be like look. you can step back for a while and people will still remember you. dont worry #but then like.... the worst case scenario Did happen. #anyway idk why im sad about this again lol it's been months #i just sometimes look through old convos and remember how i felt back then and how i hoped that anxiety was wrong and to just push through #but like. the anxiety was true #anyway #i think the worst part is that i just feel like i cant trust myself when i care about people because im always anxious and #clearly i cant tell if that anxiety is actually false #>>dont listen to your brain everyone actually cares about you<< but like. there's evidence that's false LOL #sorry it's midnight shdjs #alizeh talks

[evansbby]

the chris meet and greet pics 💀

#idk why I find them so cringe #like ofc do what makes you happy!!! #but like… #250 dollars just to take a pic with him while he looks all disinterested and he won’t remember you or care about you??? #I NEVER understood this about meet and greets #with any celeb of any calibre tbh #there’s no meaningful convo either #ur paying him to be forced to take a pic 😭💀 #and he looks all half assed and uncomfortable and like he does not care #IDEK sorry I really don’t mean to offend anyone who’s ever paid for a meet and greet #my best friend paid for a meet and greet with one direction back in the day #I mean her parents did lol #but like… I say the same thing to her #so pls I don’t mean this in a mean way #more like I’m utterly confused by this concept #like…. I personally would hate to meet someone so inorganically #I’d never pay to meet another human being #for a fleeting few minutes #ugh idek

[todayisafridaynight]

having my Art Specialty be described as 'daddies' is technically not wrong but also its very hard to not scream when being told so to my face in the dorm lobby regardless. like im just supposed to accept that description with a smile and nod as if i dont know we aren't thinking of the same kind of daddy

#snap chats #HEEEEEELP #like its one thing to be told that online but right to my face where im looking professional and Not Terminally Online is a whole new thing #i went to watch spiderverse with my dormmate and her friend- the friend that wanted to comm me last week #and because our mutual friend fucking sucks dick at being on time we had to wait for her even tho she invited us ANYWAY-- #last time she was looking to get one of her gal oc's drawn but then she went to look through my other art #and she really come back to me like 'ive noticed you draw really 'daddy' characters SO :))' and i heard NOTHING ELSE AFTER #LIKE. LIKE YEAH BY TECHNICALITY YOU ARE RIGHT. I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT DRAW FATHERS FOR FIVE MONTHS #god has it really been five months 🧍‍♂️ #but anyway..... //screams// ive been profiled as a dilf specialist by someone at school i need to leave NOW #i thank god every day ive essentially stopped postin my saucier works cause THAT woulda been an even more awk convo #its just so funny cause i really havent drawn anything particularly 'attractive'. like im just drawin these dudes bein silly LMAO #im just grateful she doesnt have a twitter or tumblr so she doesnt see me post EVERYTHING in real time yk #anyway... im gonna stare at the wall until i relent and go to bed #spiderverse was great 8/8. its really funny that i've watched both spiderverses multiple times cause of school events LMAO #ok bye

[kyuala]

hmm

#having Thoughts that maybe i shouldnt be having #so i have a friend who's handsome hot nice kind sweet funny etc he's like the whole package #yesterday one of our friends told him i didnt have his contact saved on my phone and we (jokingly) made a whole thing out of it #so he took the convo from our gc to our private messages to let me know he had mine saved WITH A SUNFLOWER EMOJI NEXT TO MY NAME #bc ATTENTION according to him i am little flower and im radiant like the sun so = sunflower #like 🥹🥹🥹🥹❓❓❓❓ #n then he told me i didnt have to change my pfp bc i alr looked pretty in it then he called me his love and today #we're all going to a party our friends' cheerleading squad is hosting right and he won't go bc he'll be busy that day #i was moping in the gc bc i wanted the promotional prices (im the only one who doesnt go to their uni n non student prices r higher) and #they weren't available anymore so he messaged me to tell me he'd help me go?? i said how he said he'd pay me the difference i was like 💀 #so i said okay it's only like 10 bucks and he sent me 20 like hello? i know this doesnt sound like much but we're all broke college students #so like? why did he do it #he said if he wasn't able to go he'd like to at least help me go then sent me extra w a cute little message telling me to enjoy the party #and have fun and calling me a sweet pet name now im like . Confused #bottom line is idk if he's flirting and i probably won't bc a) he's already said he doesnt know to make a move on pretty girls and b) here's #the catch: we have a mutual friend who confessed to me like 3? months ago. i turned her down for a number of reasons n i also knew they had #hooked up before so when i said no ig they started hooking up/going out again? and i wasnt fully aware of that until like. last month #and prior to that i hit on him at a party at our friend's house and all he did was stand there kinda speechless 💀 #so i took it as a no n moved on but now idk if its bc like. he was alr w her or he just got shy or if he actually just didnt want it at all #and im just imagining things. and circling back to it: i guess i wont find out bc 1) he won't do anything 2) idk whats the current status of #their relationship (ig over bc they weren't all over e/o at our last function) and 3) even if theyre not together anymore i absolutely would #not try anything behind our friend's back or w/o her knowledge or consent bc they did have something doesnt rly matter what it was and #shes still my friend above all so i gotta be mindful of her feelings for me AND for him and abt us or whatever #so yea thats something thats been on my mind since yesterday #im not like. suffering over it btw its just something on my mind that i wanted to share #i probably wont even do anything about it and then forget abt it next week lol #mari.txt #but also feel free to like comment on this or something i love it when yall r nosey lmfao

[dancing-with-stars]

guys. guys !!!!

#vanu is rambling #ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence. #like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me #but like for these past couple months things have been different. #i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone. #like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or #i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey #where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment. #today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me #and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during #those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears #and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg #and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that. #because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call. #i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends. #it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time #they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable. #someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did #and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent #stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable. #like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter. #they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl. #they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in #friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool #people really. really cool people

[skitskatdacat63]

My most toxic trait is that I feel jilted when someone doesn't reply back to me, but at the same time, I constantly have the urge to have the final message

#me making sure i have the final reply: where did my friend go :< why arent they replying :< #ill look back at msg threads and be like hmph cant believe im the last reply #as if i dont strive to have the final reply.... #how am i supposed to live laugh and love in these conditions #big thanks if you end our convo with an official goodbye djkfkflf #i think thats the only thing that can satisfy both instincts in me #catie.rambling.txt

[mywitness]

still dunno what to do with my giant backlog of au stuff. it's fine sitting in patreon where supporters can see it, and shared amongst my closest friends, but ive had some....weird interactions about it online. and generally speaking feeling like there will never be a right time to share it or method of doing so

#and half of it is ugly to me since ive continuously raised my standards for figure drawing and the like over the last 2yrs #but i try to look past that lol #bio.txt #destiddy things #+ multiple convos w friends about how unhinged this fandom can be wrt content that they didnt make #posting is somehow both shoving it into a back alley and putting it under the worlds largest magnifying glass #anyway #cool of me to have known this whole time this would all be irrelevant past the joy it brings in my ipad screen and word docs for 5 minutes

[0tul1ss]

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#mannn i literally assumed he ghosted-- why on earth would he text me after so long???? #i was fully like 'ok the last msg i sent literally makes me cringe a bit to read but its been months so ig im never opening the convo again #it was simpler before when there felt like there was nothing else to do and easier to move on. i even had a little crush on someone else ! #now i have a whole wheel of decisions to choose from #and idek what i truly want from this guy anymore bc even just platonically he kinda fucked it up like. idk #or rather i want a lot of different things and idk what to choose #i want my friend back. i want to never see him again. i want him to know every truth of what ive felt and i want him to know none of it #i want him to miss me or maybe wonder about me sometimes down the line. i want him to not spare me another thought for the rest of his life #i want to reply only 'go fuck yourself' and i want to write him a letter and i want to ghost him better than he ghosted me #i want to tell him i love him and i want to tell him i hate him and i want to say nothing at all #i want the closure i was denied. i want to protect the closure i now have #<-going insane #anyway its soooo stupid like i already grieved for this shit bro. i accepted the end of this years long close friendship #anyway idk why im doing so much processing of this in a vent post nor do i know why i always feel compelled to post these when i do #good thing i keep a small presence on here lol. but yea uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh send post #ok wait i saved this as a draft and went to go look for what i had been tagging vent posts with #[couldnt find one i had been using consistently even tho the whole point is so ppl can blacklist it if they want whoops!!] #and i saw another vent from another time he just kinda disappeared on me #and while this time was a lot worse for a lot of reasons i think its important to say this-- #that the last thing that i want is to go back to square one of this stupid awful cycle #vent

[heavenknowsffs]

Been dying my hair natural red/orange since 2016. 2016. And yesterday my redhead friend was telling my ex fwb who she was trying to get to bed "it's funny how much she's trying to look like me by dying her hair and cutting it like me and curling it"

2016

We're in 2023

It's been 7 years i didn't even know you then

#i'm actually pissed about this i was dimbfounded #bc we were in the bathroom and i was inside and they were outside and talking really flirty #which i honestly don't care #and then i hear this and i'm like?????? #and then she's being all friendly and nice to me and says this #and then he is very drunk like barely standing and i give him a water and force him to drink it #and we talk for a while and yeah we talked about our past together and etc #and she was pissed and took my other friend with her to talk and i bet she was bad mouthing me saying i still like him or something #when the entire convo was us apolozgizing to each other for shit and me saying again that i love him but just as a friend #and then we went back next to everyone and she was giving him mkre beer #and he was like 'no i think it's best i don't drink any more' and she kept buying him beer #that really got me in a bad note #and like .... she had been mean to me and another friend before but only when we were alone #and we told the rest of the group and no one believed us bc she was so nice in front of the others #💀💀 the mask has falleb #don't reblog pls #edit: i cut it in like a mullet but it doesn't look exactly as i wished #and i curled it to see how it looked if it looked better AND bc it was an 80s themed party

[foolishjellyfish]

NEW CRUSH NEW CRUSH NEW CRUSH NEW CRUSH NEW CRUSH NEW CRUSH THEY BLEW ME A KISS LAST NIGHT AS THEY WERE WALKING OUT THE DOOR AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#diary #well not new new crush per se #I met them at some random party thst I was only at by accident this one time in dec #and then we saw eachother at this event in feb and it was like omg hey it's u!!! #started convos that never got finished bc ya kno #there was a lot going on at the event and i had best friend duties #and then i went to a poetry event last night anf she was there anf she told me she liked my poem and gave me lil cheek kiss and #bc everyone was writing feedback on lil scraps of paper and then putting them in paper bags for everyone who read #she told me at one point 'i wrote u a lil love note' AHHHWEHHHEWHJWFE #AND THEN THERE WAS A FLIRTY MOMENT WITH ME AND THEM FLIRTING ON THE COUCH AJSNENIUDAWUINUIWA #AND at one point all these ppl came over to talk to me and say they liked my poem #at the same moment as that #she got pulled away by some ppl to a diff convo #and when i had had a bunch of exchanges with all these cute humans and was like now alone on the couch #I went over and gave her tHIS LOOK #AND IMMEDIATLEY SHE DITCHED THAT GROUP THAT SHE HAD SAT DOWN AT AND CAME BACK TO THE COUCH TO CONTINUE CHATTING WITH ME EEEE AWDAHBAUYBDWAYG #and then after a few moments of chatting and me giving her my number (I DON'T HAVE THEY NUMBER YET THO BC RELYING ON THEM 2 SEND ME A TEXT A #they were so kind and considerate and let me know they needed to leave soon and that they were gonna start doing the goodbye rounds and like #'i give u ur goodbye hug now' #so it waS A WHOLE ASS MOMENT WHEN THEY WALKED OUTTA THE DOOR AND BLEW ME A KISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS EHBEFWHJQWDBDWBIUWBIUDWIUDWBKDWBKWDBKDWBKWBKD #so also i learnt the other month that theyr lowkey famous hahahahahaha #the second time i ran into them i was talking to a friend after the event and was all 'omg who was that cutie who rode in by bike etc' #and said friend was like omg they're a well known cutie and proceeded to show me ttheir insta #i followed immidiatkey and they didn't follow me back HAHA #but last night they initiated the insta thing and i was like 'shIT I already fOLLOW THEM' - briefly considered unfollowing them so then #so then i could 'follow them back' #but then I was like yolo why should i play pretend #but nOWWWWW #big connundrum #i don't have their number but I DOOOO have their insta

[footnoteinhistory]

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#sometimes I still message Jareth if I see a post or anything I think they’d like #and it’s so. #I don’t know. something about digital grief and how nothing is different. our DM interface looks the same as always #the only difference is now it’s two years of unanswered messages instead of our frantic back and forth convos #part of me expects a reply any day #especially when I’ve just sent something so they’re in my recents and I see their icon every day. every time I forget. every time I remember #same type of vibe as IG suggesting I add Phil to my close friends. I want to scream forever

[cherrysnax]

#how do I make the self loathing n depression stop. i feel like I’m drowning n like I’m pulling my loved ones down with me #I’m trying really hard to be a person but it feels like ky progress is gone. i have a hard time standing up for too long so it’s rlly hard #cooking for myself even though one of my goals was to cook more. i keep forgetting what day/month it is #i feel like I’m so far away and everyone is just . millions of miles away from me #i just. want living to not feel like a chore. i have so many things I look foreword to #n I don’t want to quit on myself #and part of me thinks it’s the stress from our constantly sinking money sitch due to comic deadlines — that are only here to help motivate #the world won’t end if we don’t make them. i think that’s something we forget #but yeah I’m worried abt my mom and my health is declining I’m always dizzy and forgetful b I have problems holding convos #and I’m tired all the time and my libido is gone and it’s either my depression or my antidepressants but I’m worried abt it #idk what if I’m dying. my family can’t afford me dying. and I don’t want to cut a life short that has so much potential #but golly gee has my mental health not gotten the memo. i wanna do things for the ones I love but mh body seems to be shutting down #i want to be a good friend or lover or child or adult but I mostly feel like I’m stuck a few years back #but I will be okay. i will learn how to navigate my newfound issues. make sure to go outside despite my general adversion to it #learn to let myself feel freely about the present. while also think past tommorow uh positively #if I give up on myself what more do I have?

[hologramhitgrrrl]

Today is the day i bravely open my self-employed work email inbox for the first time in over a month and deal with all the shit i’m avoiding

#prayer circle for me in my hour of need #the last part of stopping being self employed is cleaning up my messes #had a really good convo with a friend yesterday about cutting and running from situations and never talking to anyone from then again #we both have done that multiple times and she was saying ‘babe just delete the whole inbox never look back’ #and i was like ‘babe i have a responsibility to the people in there and as much as i want to i have to face it this time’

[keiphoria]

yknow what??? ive always hated the way other people have butchered my name and ripped it to shreds and taken it away from me. you will call me what i tell you to call me and that’s that! no stupid fucking nicknames!

#was looking for smt old in a convo w a friend and found a nickname i ‘went by’ like twoish yrs ago #i never liked that nickname. i never wanted it to be my nickname! #but someone shortened my name to that one day and kept referring to me that way publicly and everyone else followed suit #and didnt i look like a fool saying ‘that isnt my name’ when EVERYONE calls me that? #i wish i’d stood up for myself a little more back then #but i won’t repeat history at least. no more stupid fucking nicknames! #cece chit chatz

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

was thinking about how to make irl friends and of things i should say to make them like me and what i said here that so many ppl love me and if i should even be friends with them cause like yeah it would be fun to have friends but they seem kinda loser ish and boring and play video games all the time and then you're your own kid started playing thank u taylor for solving my problems for me 👍

#like yes ok ill just do my own thing and my people will find me (?) #srsly tho it's fucking hard #like we talk about studies and the job and like. things like shark tank #but how to take the next step???? how to like want to talk and hang out after work too???? #bhai tumblr pe it's so easy #i think with saumya we became friends cause i gave her spotify premium and then teased her about [redacted] and made a hashtag of their #names and then we exchanged numbers and no looking back #with winnie she commented under a ventpost and i said i love u in the first convo and then she wrote a poem and no looking back #with anya under winnies posts about folklore triangle and then movies and gay songs and taylor swift and family trauma and #yeah u get it #none of these situations are possible irl 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #mes