#i just wanna write and rp again

[tvrningout-archived]

so here's what i'm thinking -- i'm gonna remake this blog. i've wondered for a while if i shouldn't just remake and start over ( with some exceptions ofc ) bc i've felt overwhelmed whenever i try to be here. it's my fault bc i let things pile up too much, and that happened bc i think i've just been biting off more than i can chew at a time.

that's why i'm going to attempt to make my blog a lil more private/selective this time around. i probably won't follow everyone on my new blog who i follow currently simply bc i want to focus more on my mutuals than i have been, and there's just no way i can do that if i'm following 100+ people. obviously if we're long time mutuals or we've interacted ic or ooc, you're stuck with me <3 but otherwise, pls know there's absolutely no hard feelings if i don't follow you!! i just want to be sure i'm surrounding myself with people i'm comfy with, especially when my social battery is low all the time lately. i promise if i could write and talk to everyone, i would ;n;

honestly!! it's gonna take me a while to remake bc it's gonna be a lot. it's gonna be a slow process bc i gotta set up the blog, the muse pages, reblog headcanons and whatnot, so it'll be a minute before i start all of this thanks to school. i just wanted to go ahead and get this post out and circulating so y'all know why i might be kinda silent aside from being busy.

#me making a longwinded post just to say i'm eventually remaking? yes ofc it's my brand #asdfg #but thank you all for being patient with me and i'm sorry if i disappoint anyone! #i just want to get back to writing more consistently like i used to #and maintaining conversations with my mutuals without making them wait a whole week for me to muster the spoons to talk #i want rp to be something i look forward to again rather than feeling bad bc i have a million things i owe #and mutuals who don't hear from me bc good gosh i just feel bogged down #yeah i just need to do this ;v; #get ready to ramble | ooc #weeps i need to go study now but i'm so sleepy y'all i don't wanna

[catboii]

@techdeckgodhood

>After a while of exploring your boss's new digs, you decide to take Dave up on his offer of heading over there. You can only handle meeting so many new people in one go, but Dave said he'd be happy for you to just hang out and chill there, and you do kind of want to get away from anywhere that your boss is.

He even said he had an xbox he didn't really use that you could play Minecraft on! You get yourself ready, this time taking your generic black cat form. Dave said he didn't believe that you were really a shapreshifter, so you're going to have to prove it! You head over there, sneaking through the weird hallway that he keeps his transportalizer in, and head to the kitchen. If he's not in there, you're going to meow really loud over and over until he comes and looks for whatever is making the noise.

#posted ooc. #para. #2nd person. #I'm trying to do the thing! #time shenanigans tho bc it's supposed to be with someone else rn and probably wouldn't wanna see anyone else for a while #its easily overwhelmed. it's been locked up in a small room for like maybe a year ok. give it some space. #jk. it wants to meet literally everyone. #on one hand I'm kinda anxious abt doing proper para RP again but this muse is so energetic to write I can't help but get swept up in it lol #readmore. #just to save the dash.

[aterlupus]

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#just saw cor from ff15 in the ff mobile game and immediately went to go play again #spent all day today just powering him up #i miss him so much :< #i used to write him a lot #was reminded of a weird rarepair i shipped and i miss it #to the point that i verbalize it on my blog #anyway #again. i am sorry for being busy #can't get on my computer often #i want to RP more #i used to write cor so much and it's all reminding me of how bad i wanna write #ooc #ignore me #mun speaks

[swanqiu]

thinking more about the longevity of this blog, and while i don’t think i’d ever /delete/ it, i do think it’s difficult to be my writing partner for threads since i am either 0 or 100 on the here-not here scale.

i’m thinking i’ll just default to writing drabbles or mini fics for any mutual who sends in memes/starters, and that mutual can then choose to reply/turn it into a thread (knowing and keeping in mind that *my* reply date is a big ol unknown).

and idk, maybe one day i’ll finally make the full leap over to writing cho and/or a multimuse on discord but. for now, i’m just trying to do my best with getting this blog together and present something that’s still collaborative and a two-way writing street. 🤷🏻‍♀️

#again i get if this is not the way you envision your rp experience and wanna unfollow. it’s cool!! just trying to figure out what #works best for me and what would also be fair (???) for my mutuals and/or potential writing partners (???) who still wanna offer their muses #idk maybe i’m just thinking out loud here. nothing really set yet. just. going with vibes for now. (as always.) #( OOC. ) — this is an ESS OH ESS.

[gazelessmenagerie]

(more thoughts beneath the cut.)

( ..and that’s not touching on my ideas for broly’s power don’t align to other folks ideas sfnalsnfknflkjg tbh i think he can totally square up to a lotta things. the main reason why i just have not want to really ‘fight’ hard is bc he totally can beat tf outta so many things so its more of a ‘ I dont need to express my energy too much ‘ deal with him. but thats not to say he wont use his brawn for threats and follow them up when he doesnt get his way. He has the capability to destroy the universe if he wants to and no i will not be persuaded that he is anything less than that. But you know.. its hard to find food if he destroys everything. )

( im not saying he’s invincible but he sure as fuck isn’t meant to be a pushover and I try hard to juggle that with him not murdering muses but keeping his animosity and hella threatening aura as close as I feasibly can. )

( putting into perspective that amount of raw power is both fascinating and yet so infuriating bc his entire reason to NOT do that is bc ‘ lol fuck you dad. I’m living my own life........................ ............................... that I’m figuring out. ‘ and thats it. afldsjg its not a bad reason in my view, his inactivity or lack of ‘ambtion’ is part of his journey to figure out what it is he wants bc he never had the chance to think about it till now. What does Broly want? What COULD he want...? He has all the power he could ever have. He has free reign to do was he wish but he’s got things to work out on his own. ruling an empire is nothing new, he’s been worshipped, he’s killed, he’s destroyed. what good would starting another empire do for him than to give him some luxuries he finds temporary use for until he gets bored. Living out in that desert has been something of a strange conundrum in a way..

He could totally take over earth, make people worship him but what will he do after..? he doesn’t... necessarily have the ability to Rule as a king would. He knows the basic order but to keep it running is different bc that was Paragus’ entire shtick in a sense. Broly was just the means to enforce those rules when he was under control. On his own.. I dont think Broly would honestly care too much. He’d want food, be decorated in lavish things but he’ll grow bored of it on the eventual. 

Now living out on the harsh lands. thats where he feels more at home. Facing down tooth and claw, testing his strength against the elements and beasts of varying kinds. It just feels more natural to him as much as it is lounging around doing nothing and enjoying the sun and wide open air. Just... so many small components come into play and they totally go ignored or they aren’t “noticed” by him or anyone unless someone pays really close attention to the way he acts and reacts to things. 

as it was Pointed out before.. ‘ he’s never honest with himself ‘ and that just drives such a hard fucking stake in my heart bc its true. for all the power he has, he just... denies something in him that’s as equally in part of him as it is his rage and power. and yes this is totally me inserting my HC on Legendary Saiyans if I haven’t yelled about it enough. I just.. .really enjoy duality and opposing natures being at war with one another. Its just that survival specifically favored one side over the other but the diminished side has never left.. its just dormant but it resides still. Its just.. really good and such a fun little thing when I get to write on those rare moments he finds himself at a certain loss with his own feelings. )

( of course this goes without saying he wont ever show that to just anyone. anldfsjg just. i cannot stress how fucking hard it is to get through his shell. but the more people he meets and cares for, the worse he’ll be off bc his paranoia will be off the charts and it’s going to cause him to lose control over himself. As great as his power is, it comes with a heavy toll bc he never learned to control his own power and manage it beyond getting overwhelmed with power and outright Needing to expel the excess energy in a violent burst before he tears himself apart from the inside. To reach that equilibrium within during his Legendary state.. just.. whoo man. he’s got.. some good reason why he doesn’t always go Legendary both bc there’s a pretty good chance he won’t remember what he did during that state and the immense amount of strain it puts on him physically and mentally afterwards. )

( afnlsdjf which.. idk, i’d like to explore somehow if he would be willing to learn how to control his own Legendary power, i think that’d be fun but also so aggravating bc he’s stubborn and it’s gonna take months for him to get anywhere.. but he’d be better for it in some way. Not ceasing being a menace but at least he won’t destroy the earth in a fit of jealousy or outrage (possibly) )

( just.. anfalsdjg idk man.. I see and write a lot of facets for this bastard that really only get to show when he’s observed long enough but lmfao he doesn’t let people in that close on a usual basis. I just want him to have a better life at time and other times I just want him to drive himself up the wall with his senseless self destructive habits bc he just doesn’t know better than what was instilled to him and what his power does to him if he lets it take over. )

( he doesn’t know how lonely he is in truth or how much pain and sorrow he has beneath all the anger. again.. lots of feels anflsjg but jfc thats my tedtalk on like a tired and anxious brain. apologies if this made no sense bc i sure as fuck didnt proofread it and I wrote whatever came to mind. )

#|| Tag: OOC #|| Character Study: {Broly} #( ...i guess this is just Kuro spills out his thoughts bc Hw broke him and he has no brain at all to write but still has Thoughts(tm) #( lowkey thoughts. im tired and i want to sleep but i dont want to go to class anflsfklgjkjg ) #( i think just the stress of getting assigned not only 2 thigns due tomorrow and its a shitload of questions. ) #( but also having some mock-interview thigns to prepare for really got me over my usual threshold so ) #( idk thsi is just how I try to deal with it bc stupid space gorilla is my fucking blorbo ) #( and thinking about him kinda helps. now if only he can do my hw or at least blow it up. i'd be forever grateful ) #( BUT ANYWAY. back to my thoughts. ) #( tbh I think he shouldn't have been killed by the sun in the second movie anflsdjfsjg ) #( bastard survived a exploding planet as a baby. can't really tell me he won't be strong enough to face the goddamn sun fully grown. ) #( bUT AGAIN. plot reasons. anflanflkajg ) #( Not really like.. /complaining/ just kinda splurging out thoughts bc trying to measure anything in this godforsaken fandom over power lvls #( is just a fucking nightmare and I dont wanna deal with that. ) #( i just go by what my thoughts feel bc its my blog and I get to dictate how I want to make my interpretation of broly. ) #( not to say i wouldn't be opposed to just plotting it out???? cause fuck man. I'm not here to try and overpower everyone ) #( I just want a good story/rp experience as opposed to fighting over who's stronger or whatever db fans do typically. ) #( idk AGAIN. TIRED BRAIN IS JUST TIRED AND SPLURging. anway thx for my tedtalk. )

[fceriestcrdst]

the brain is thinking of trying rp again

#i feel like this is part of why i want a nonnie but haven't made the post official yet #bc i wanna rp again. i miss it a lot more than i think i od sometimes #i may try making a whole new main blog just for rp--just to see how it goes. #i also may not--i may just stick to fic writing but the desire to rp steven is incredibly maddening as of late #hm hm hm hm we shall see i think

[l1ghtn1ngstr1kez]

haven't posted much today but i think at least some of y'all would appreciate a small update on the grand prix situation from yesterday

good news! i'm normal now. also i got my skates working again! i found some kinda chip stuck to one of the soles which is most likely what caused them to malfunction. dunno how the hell the babylon rogues stuck that there without me noticing but whatever. what's done is done. at least my skates still work. i don't know what i'd do with myself if they were actually broken

also it looks like the people running the whole thing caught wind of the cheating and are looking into it. they also sent all the racers that had to forfeit a consolation prize so that's nice i guess. doubt they'll be able to catch the rogues though. they probably already ran off with their prize and there's no way they're getting caught. but maybe they'll be barred from entering future races? who knows. i don't care as long as they leave me alone

#⚡️.txt #man i'm still so tired #i went for a walk with my pet chao earlier today and it did make me feel a bit better #and knowing the cheating is being investigated is kinda comforting. a little. maybe #for a minute i thought they'd just. let it happen since they didn't say anything right after #which just made me angrier #but i guess i was just being impatient. things like that take time #ugh. if i ever see the babylon rogues again they'll be sorry they ever messed with me #// #sonic the hedgehog #sonic oc #sonicsona #rp #the conclusion to the first arc of this rp blog (or mini arc ig since it only lasted for like. 3 days ig) #getting more comfortable writing for this blog :D #now to figure out what to tackle next #there's a certain character i wanna introduce. idk if now's the right time but. maybe soon :] #for now i'm sure livewire would like to answer questions. if y'all have any that is #anyways. isn't the gem on his chest neat? don't think i've ever seen another hedgehog with one like that #;) -mod

[carelesscuriosity]

mentally ill urge to design a wc clan…

#middle school haunting me like a vengeance rn jfc #i wanna draw cats again tho bc that made me unironically so happy as a kid #miss being able to rp (i have tried but i don’t have the time or energy anymore unfortunately) #like i could legit just take all my ocs (i have so fukin many) and just toss them in a clan or two #like i deadass have a coffee shop au for all of them (they’re humans and have vaguely intersecting lives) #so i mean it wouldn’t be too hard to reconvert them back into a wc story / au / comic #the way ive been wanting to actually write a webcomic for ages… wc story could be a fun way to practice 👀

[rebelcliche-archive2]

i say it every time, but i am going to write today. i'm going to respond to memes and drafts and get myself out of this rut i've been in. i'll be dividing my attention between here, my multi and my mike blogs!

bc i really do miss writing with y'all and i end up feeling bad bc i don't want anyone to think that i don't wanna write with them!

#i wanna write with everyone it's just between work; seasonal changes; & my fluctuating depression that i'm not rich enough to be medicated #for it makes being here hard. but i feel like if i throw myself into rp and give it a try and not think too much about dumb shit that i can #enjoy being here again. anyway yeah- i know y'all gotta be tired of all the ooc posts but i'mma try to post more actual rp content here i #promise! lmao. thanks for being patient with me! #💖 𝑮𝑬𝑵𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑳 : * out of character .

[fox-on-the-moon]

i will say making fics with character.ai is like, a lot of fun and it somehow works around my executive function but like... it really doesn’t save any time. if i want it to be an actual fic i have to rewrite it a lot and i often need 5+ different versions of what the AI tries to say to get Somewhere Close to what i wanted.

The big difference is that I can do it for hours, unlike writing fic and I think part of the reason is just how small bite-sized it is. I think that’s the part that would rly help me with executive dysfunction. now i wonder how i could use that to regularly make it easier for me to write fics

idk just thinking out loud i suppose

#like man yeah. i used to write 5 hours a day and more no prob #dont think i can get there but i do think i can write More again #if i change some things up #i wonder if i can just like. use discord maybe lmao #like sure i could just. see it as little bits and pieces but a visual distinction i think would help me #also its so much more like rp'ing which makes me wanna rp again lol

[starslung]

hello i turned in a full draft of my thesis yesterday

#ooc #if it needs more than general revisions i will throw someone off a building #i just wanna be DONE WITH THIS SHITTT #anyway how are y'all sorry i abandoned you #i just saw bones and all and it made me want to write on tunglr rp again

[abrushwithdeath]

((Hey! If anyone wants some ic interactions with faster reply times, add me on di.scord if you wanna!  SapphireInsomnia#0271 

I probably won’t be around too much over the next couple weeks because I’m back on the whole “work 5 days, have one day off, work 5 days” bullshit, so I’m bound to be tired and/or grumpy ^^; But I’ll get to stuff on discord off and on <3))

#ooc. #((Except ooc stuff bc I've felt solely like a nuisance ooc and it's made me anxious about talking to people lmao #But ic stuff I can get to! #So feel free to bother me for threads on dis.cord!)) #((Then again despite how much muse I have especially over here I've also been feeling like a fuck up with my writing in general. #Mostly Rogue and my other girls tbh bc like... idk I don't wanna get into it lol #But it's made me consider just taking a week or two to totally walk away and see if I even want to be here #bc even tho I'm involved in no drama (as far as I'm aware;;) rp feels like high school sometimes #and that's definitely not a good thing.))

[fateopposed]

also here’s a really specific thing i’d love but that would probably never happen-

i’d love to write aizawa with someone who like... he used to know really well, maybe a sibling or a close friend, but who’s memory was erased from his (and everyone else’s) minds through quirks and/or magic. so he has no idea who they are and they are just. suffering because he doesn’t remember them.

#ooc #i don't think people generally like doing pre-established oc/canon relationships though so alas #i just thought of the idea of ''sister who he doesn't remember at all'' and i kind of wanna rp this oc now.......... #but like. again i think it'd make people uncomfortable writing with a 'long-lost sibling' esque oc (understandably!) so maybe not #being the one writing aizawa in that scenario would be really fun too but... #the tl;dr here is that i need to learn to write fic. ajfhsdkjfhdjk

[healersadjust]

man i love writing! would love to do it someday

#vent #i feel like such a disappointment to my rp buddies rn!!!! #i just can’t focus on words rn #i have one i’ve really really enjoyed writing with but i’m worried that i’m just becoming an annoyance #i got covid a week ago and i still haven’t recovered from the brain fog. #i wanna write so so bad but every word feels wrong #sigh #i will try again. #delete later

[killuaisaprincess]

SPECIAL DAY SPECIAL DAY 👏🥳

#personal #TWO YEARS SINCE I GOT BACK INTO THIS FANDOM BUT MOSTLY JUST MY BABEY IM HERE FOR MY BABEY AND GK #I didn’t write anything till sept #ember my first real ever fic I only ever RP wrote before that point really and! 😤👏 #LOOK #ITS SO MUCH BETTER NOW #As I kid I didn’t have the option to curate shit #even if I did I didn’t know how I #literally was G’s and Ki’s age of 14 when the show stopped airing the 2011 ver and #the reason I just jumped shark is well I can’t recall for sure hyperfixations don’t last forever true true but 😤 #I WANNA STAY LONG AS I CAN #And even if it ends I’ll be back cuz I came back again to my babey 🥺 but anyway it was hard seeing all this kg and not any content I wanted #so I stopped trying and it was hard okay it hurts me now to watch how chars in the show treat Ki I was like I was like infuriated and done #NAH I WAS DONE WITH THE WHOLE CAST I WANTED KI TO HAVE BETTER I WAS DONE WITH ONLY FINDING KG AND I WAS DONE #but I’m an adult now I know how to use this clunky internet and 😤 #I don’t see any of it no main fandom no kg none of it and I probs have either a billion haters or no one knows who I am but I am ok 😤 #I like my little corner 😤 nice and the content that I still want that doesn’t exist or has very little of #I AM MAKING IT WHEN I CAN SO 😤 #I am og fan who was worried sick and waiting to see if Ki was ok for WAYYYYY TO MANY FUKIN EPSIODES BEFORE THEY SHOWED HE WAS IN CAA OK LIKE #MY HEART FUKIN STOPPED I WAS ABOUT TO DROP THE WHOLE SHIT #plus as a 14 year old I didn’t have a job sooo no crunchyroll sub I was waiting doublethe weeks cuz there was a star for new episodes for #premium I OMG #god ol days of ff net and having to take the chance on a fic and hating myself after cuz it’s all what I hate #Nowadays I can use a script to block authors stuff I don’t wanna see which I do 😤 getting there someday I wi #ill only see Gk or other random stuff on ao3 #Poor kid me didn’t even know of pixiv and GK EXISTS IN NON WEST FANDOM Still wish there was more but 🥺 #even if I did miss some chances to curate man ff net does not have that shit and that’s what made me really throw in the towel on I’m never #gonna find stuff I wanna read #BUT NOW I CAN MAKE IT TEENAGE ME DIDNT KNOW OK I can make the food I wanna read but yes 😤 ID STILL SELL MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL FOR ART AND #FIC OF MY NICHES OK