#i just wanna stab people without legal repercussions is that really soo much to ask

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Maybe I should talk to a psychiatrist or something, maybe they can tell me what is weird with my brain…

#idk anymore #im just procrastinating #i should be doing my maths homework and I have no clue what I’m supposed to do #every time I’m in class the teacher could be talking radio static and I would probably understand it better than wtf is going on rn #why the fuck do I need maths to graduate #that shit is literally the reason why I keep joking about offing myself #school in general is torture rn #everything kinda is #even fencing training #im just the worst one in my group by far and it really demotivates me #like i hate the competitiveness every sport reaches after a certain point #i just wanna stab people without legal repercussions is that really soo much to ask #maybe I do have a violence problem now that I think about it #another thing I should talk about with someone than knows their way around psychology #in like a medical Setting #i kinda feel like I’m experiencing all of my emotions through a veil or a fog or something #even things that brought me joy like music or tv shows or sports or spending time with my friends #now feel draining and I don’t like that #being is already draining #i might just be describing the symptoms for depression or something like that but ok #idk at this point anymore #maybe I’m just exhausted because I haven’t slept that much recently #idk #anyways sorry for my weird tag rant #i kinda went of the rails #I’ll probably continue on not doing my math homework #stuff