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welcometogrouchland · 1 year

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[ID: a digital sketch of Eda and Raine from the owl house. They're in their designs from watching and dreaming, pre epilogue. Raine holds out their arm for an injection (given by a disembodied hand and labeled "magic rabies shot") and Eda lays a hand on their shoulder and leans her head on theirs. She says "you're doing great Raine! how'd you get rabies tho?". Raine stares dead eyed at the viewer as a thought bubble connected to them shows Belos biting down on their arm. End ID]

I was gonna post a request today but I feel like it's gonna flop and this is funnier. So request tomorrow, Raine Whispers Rabies doodle today

#the owl house #toh #raine whispers #eda clawthorne #raeda #you guys have no clue the stupid shit i doodle when alone or in the company of my irl friends. this was partly their suggestion #you guys haven't even seen baldlos (he was just born today and also no one should see him ever)#anyway I'm so mad that THIS FUCKING DOODLE is the best raeda I've ever drawn. repulsive. why would god do that to me #anyway..enjoy #raine and hunter both being rushed to like. makeshift hospital tents after the finale on account of getting possessed #except when they're there they end up getting treated for completely unrelated shit #hunter had a growth spurt w/ insufficient stored energy/food in his body so he's kinda malnourished atm. raine has rabies (obv)#fun times all around #luz is perfectly healthy after death and resurrection tho! suspiciously healthy one might say...

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uncanny-tranny · 6 months

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It's just... odd to me, I suppose, going from "what is in my pants is completely irrelevant to most anybody else's life" to the expectation that you must be completely open, essentially, about what is in your pants.

I think a lot of people understand the general idea of why it's bad decorum to demand people offer explanations for private information like this, but they don't analyze exactly why it's bad besides, "asking directly is just rude" and not "asking in any way still enforces the often violent nature of gender and sex, and putting people in the 'right box' is a part of that violence."

It's especially odd when seeing other trans people enforcing the idea that "what's in your pants?" is a genuine, good-faith basis for interacting with others.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #what i mean by the last paragraph is... WHY does it matter?#if i lied to you right now about what is in my pants... how would you know OR how would you change how i am treated by you?#and also. i would absolutely rather lie about my *own* body than be put in danger because it is a trans body #if worse comes to worst i genuinely don't care if somebody is mildly insulted that i didn't 'trust them' enough with that information #it's just weird to see people go from 'only tell doctors that info; it hardly matters outside that!' to...#...'you need to tell ANYbody - even in social and platonic situations where you don't think it matters'...#...can you see how believing in the fundamental idea (that your sex and to extent gender is not your own and belongs to everybody else)...#...doesn't really mesh well with the idea that trans people should be able to live an autonomous life wherein their information is *theirs*#and can you see how for people who aren't trans but have an 'its complicated' with the broad 'what's in your pants?' would ALSO be hurt?#because even if you don't word it as such you still present the fundamental idea that - again - your sex and gender are required informatio #and that it must be judged to be 'accurate' so others can place you in whatever direction they want to treat you with #anyway lying about this shit isn't Inherently Evil and the idea that it's like. a boogeyman is weird actually

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rat-presenting · 6 months

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My only wwdits prediction at this point is if they’re gonna double down on having Guillermo stay mortal then the setup for endgame is going to be a kind of Gregor situation where every lifetime from now on Nandor will find Guillermo, they fall in love, stay together until Guillermo keels over from old age or related vampire shenanigans, and then finds him again when he reincarnates.

That or they do the thing someone else mentioned where he does end up a vampire but Nandor just does all the murdering for him and brings him blood and stuff as a parallel to how Guillermo waited on Nandor for years as a familiar or whatever..

#I obviously hope it’ll be the second one but I know the first one is probably closer #I refuse to believe Guillermo is normal enough actually be a human forever #just because he never *technically* killed anyone doesn’t mean his body count is not easily in the thousands by now #honestly at this point I won’t get my hopes up for anything come s6 #but all I can do is PRAY that they stop treating Guillermo like the shitwork familiar because honest to god.#there’s no way that’s what the relationship he has with anyone is anymore #if they go back to weaponizing the status quo I will honestly probably quit watching the fuckimg show #I’ve been watching 4 years of situationship hell where everyone treats the one half of the party like shit it’s really getting old #like the writers surely aren’t so incompetent that they CANT READ THE ROOM and do something with YEARS of buildup #textpost #wwdits #nandermo

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wiisagi-maiingan · 10 months

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If I died a painful and terrifying death somewhere my body was unable to be recovered for a proper burial and all that could be done was let me rest where I was, I think my spectral ass would be pretty damn pissed if a bunch of people traveled to my gravesite to gawk at my body and post photos of it to their travel blogs.

#the idea also makes me want to scream and cry and throw up just thinking about it #but that's beside the point #i will haunt the ever loving shit out of anyone who treats my body like a tourist trap

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rosesandthorns44 · 6 months

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My toxic trait is only doing things that are *bad* for me when no one else is looking.

Like, if no one sees it, it didn't count, and I'm perfectly fine. No problems to be seen here, folks.

Mental illness? We don't know her.

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givemewallywestorgivemedeath · 1 year

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okay weird q incoming but what ways do you think speedsters can get sick? Like to my understanding, they can’t really come down with normal virus’ like the flu, right? But they could get things like chronic migraines?

NANOBOTS!!! This is one of the best pieces of canon lore ever. I did a whole post on it but TLDR: normal human metabolisms have so much shit going on that they don't even notice nanobots in their body BUT speedsters have hyper accelerated metabolisms that are the equivalent of the straight A's overachiever in school on meth. So speedster metabolisms do notice nanobots and they attack full force, triggering all of the body's defenses and responses.

But the nanobots are metal so it obviously doesn't do anything. It just leaves the speedster lethargic, feverish, vomiting, dizzy, with a headache, sore muscles and a runny nose, ect. It's basically an allergic reaction.

Now, poisoning them can work depending on what the poison is/what the dosage is. You would need a 100% fatal poison and you would need a fairly high dose. Because speedsters heal fast and they have a hyper accelerated metabolism, so any poison that is based on toxicity (alcohol poisoning for example) would be out of their system faster than it could even take effect.

But poisons that can't be cleared out/processed by the body (take cyanide for example, it binds with the chemical receptors in your body making it physically impossible to use oxygen) wouldn't really be affected by their metabolism at all. So while the speedsters could heal the damaged tissues from these poisons fairly quickly (making it seem as though they were only slightly affected) they would ultimately need time to do so, time they would not have if it kills them first. This isn't technically what you are asking because there would be no substance that 'makes them sick', there would only be 'fine', 'not fine for like a minute and then fine again' and 'dead'. (... unless they were hooked up to a steady supply of the toxin)

Likewise, (this is getting more into theoretical territory, less canon) there might be some illnesses that would affect them? Not for long but if you got something super fucking fatal like Rabies, it might make them display mild cold symptoms for a day or something.

I don't know though. They have really fucking good immune systems. And even super fatal diseases can be fought. Take my example of Rabies, while it is commonly thought to be 100% fatal once symptoms show up there actually have been cases of people surviving it. Rabies is a very stealthy and fast disease, so the main problem with treating it is that your body's immune system isn't fast enough to stop it. People have survived by being placed in medically induced comas (slowing their bodily functions and thus the disease) for long enough that the medication can eradicate it. So for a speedster? That's gone in a minute tops. You would need an insane disease that I'm not sure even exists.

There's also like... pregnancy and menstruation. Growing pains, muscle pain from running is a BIG ONE, being dehydrated/starvation, blood loss, ect. Lots of ways to fuck with a speedster in a way they can't immediately fix.

There are also speedster specific ailments. It's basically 50/50 if a natural born speedster gets a weird highly fatal aging disease. Sometimes speedsters can be born without a kinetic energy shield which makes using their powers at all incredibly fatal to them. All speedsters will have connectivity issues at some point that can be fatal. Sometimes Time Gets Bad™ (shout out to when Barry kept chronically stealing time from people/things every time he used his powers). Sometimes they have too much energy and can't maintain human form (shout out to when Wally didn't know what the speedforce was and was accidentally cosplaying Ghost Rider). Velocity 9 is a highly addictive drug that works on speedsters and makes them display typical addiction behavior (and withdrawal). V9 can also cause a speedster to 'overdose' (burst into flames/lightning/energy). They all have the constant urge to yeet themselves into the speedforce. Ect.

#here's the thing: they are made of speedforce but its not a skin deep thing. you feel me? like their CELLS are made of speedforce #so all shit still affects them #i keep saying that they don't need oxygen or food to survive and thats true but its only if they're actively compensating with speedforce #cause they can get energy from the speedforce or they can get energy from oxygen and food or both. they can't do neither #and they don't really *know* or understand that theyd be fine with JUST speedforce energy. they still think they need oxygen and food #so if they were suffocating or something they might instinctively crank up the speedforce to compensate but they're also very stupid #so they might just die. idk it really depends on who it is how much they know and how much SF they're drawing on #cause like... energy beings need energy yo #i hope this makes sense #the muscle pain one is interesting cause Wallys early runs are really big on the whole hitting the wall thing #he would hit a wall that he physically couldn't break through and it caused him a lot of pain.#some of that was not being hooked up properly cause Wally wasn't hooked up properly until he was an ADULT #because he is FUCKING INSANE and he just went 'huh i guess this is my limit and i will stay below it' liKE AN INSANE PERSON #anyway some of it was SF issues and some of it was mental but he actually got really really hurt anytime he got close to the wall #REALLY bad muscle pain. and like... it was potentially extremely fatal. 'breaking down your body into little bits' fatal #he doesn't get that anymore because hes properly hooked up now but jfc that man treated 'entering the death zone' like it was #the high score to beat at his local arcade. he took it as a fucking challenge. absolutely insane dude right there

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box-dwelling · 6 months

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trick or treat !!

Boo!

Never mind it's just a baby

#i will do more of these with things other than just my kittens i swear #they are just like 90% of my camera roll #anyway this is peep #he is very stupid and has no brain and hits things if he likes them #i think he has cat autism because he cant read other cats body language for shit #trick or treat ask game #cats #Halloween

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socialbunny · 11 months

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the masculine urge to want to catfish a cc preview with stuff that's not an actual part of the download <3

#chat #I JUST LIKE THIS BODY SHAPE IS ALL.............except the arms them skinny shits r killing me #this is my wife btw dont come near us i'll beat each and every 1 of yall #she can have a little clipping. as a treat to me #literally doing this for a default replacement......crying

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daz4i · 6 months

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funniest (/s) irony about my pains is that the only painkiller that actually helps (mostly, not entirely) likely also makes them worse in the long run. i just love having a body and being alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i don't know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow ig I'll ask him #since i don't have an actual diagnosis yet idk if it's actually a big no-no like it is for ppl with the disease i MIGHT have #but given my symptoms match up and keep coming back despite me supposedly taking medicine to help #i think it's safe to assume i should at least treat my body as if it has it #(also when i say symptoms i mean more than pains like. i mean actual internal inflammation n shit like that)#god. god I'm so tired. i have to take a painkiller every day bc it's just so unbearable #but ik taking them this often isn't a good idea. and i can't mix them up with others bc like i said it's the only one that helps #I'm so so tired of being in pain. and being scared to do basic things my body needs in order to function bc they make the pain worse #fucking drinking water makes the pains worse sometimes 😭😭😭😭 but it's not like i can avoid that #and every source i read said an unstable mental state makes it worse so that's just great.#bro the pains make my mental state worse!!!! this is a neverending cycle!!!!!! i want to fucking dieeeeeee #vent #medical //#ask to tag

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uncanny-tranny · 11 months

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The normalization of misogyny to the point that you are expected to self-censor/censor anything related to what people think of as "women's health" is so fucking infuriating.

Like, not only is it infantilizing as hell to be forced to couch everything you say in ~flowery, feminine language~ it also fucks up people's perspective about what healthcare for women* looks like. Suddenly, the only part of women's healthcare that matters isn't related to the woman, it's related to how she can be a woman of Good Breeding.

Women's healthcare matters - not because it might affect if they can be barefoot and pregnant but because these women are people. Women are inseparable from humanity.

#feminism #misogyny #misogyny tw #also like it makes being trans a fucking warzone #trans liberation 🤝 women's liberation #i'm still reeling from this time i was buying diphenhydramine and the ~feminine multivitamin~ was called hoo-ha or something to that affect #like... if i were a woman trying to buy vitamins i would be fucking insulted #like why are we calling normal human body parts by eldritch summoning chants #i dunno it's pretty harrowing when your humanity and body is locked away behind a prison of fear and hatred #(speaking as a trans man it fucking infuriates me when my manhood is treated that way - and it is often the case)#it just makes me feral every single time i see that shit y'know #and fostering that shame within other people is fucking awful #also if people want to use this to be anti-trans: you are an ouroboros #you are eating yourself whole with the hope that you can be liberated without including those you want eradicated #trans right do not happen without women's rights and vice versa 👍

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unholyplumpprincess · 10 months

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If I do not have sex and break this dry spell soon I will simply fucking die

#princess talks #it is sooo hard being a girl with a high sex drive and hypersexual and treats sex like a love language bc like #already A makes u feel dirty and gross bc all ur life u hear girls can't like or want sex bc it makes u undesirable #and B surviving that sort of shit makes u feel broken #n blahblahblah i could talk years abt it and the puritan stuff coming out recently #but wanting sex like i do now bc above + love language VS that ugly feeling in my body of feeling Gross is SOOO hard #there are two wolves inside of u vibes #stomps my little feeties #i wanna be princessified and equally objectified like YES i am ur darling baby girl and YES i am just a fleshlight for ur pleasure #but then yeah circles back to Oooo gross don't u feel sooo gross for wanting that ooo #like brain shut UP it is a perfectly normal healthy and beautiful thing >:I

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aroacedavestrider · 1 year

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while im thinking about it why are people so weird about acne scars. like i get the concern surrounding like. an open scab getting infected or something? but idk all anyone ever says to me when im picking is “stop it youre gonna get scars. do you really want to be all splotchy” like why is that everyones go-to issue surrounding skin picking. fuck if im splotchy. who give a shit

#nothing actually prompted this im just zoning out and i saw my reflection lmao #but like. idk??????? thinking about how everyones immediate worry is that youre ‘gonna become ugly’ or some shit #no im not <3 mind your business #if youre concerned if im like hurting myself or smths gonna get infected #then yeah let me know im picking and ill stop #but for some reason its just normal to treat having scars as these horrible ugly burdens #ive already got acne scars. am i already ugly then. five seconds on the clock give me an answer #the answers no btw. im literally balling. idgaf #dermatillomania #bfrb #body focused repetitive behavior #my post #dave speaks

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akkivee · 1 year

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i feel very seen as someone who draws buff kuukou lmao

#this is vee speaking #the arb chronicles #i also feel very insane looking at this but that’s just the usual vee perogative at play lol #kuukou seems to get put into loose fit clothing but one day the official artists will wake up and draw the snatched waist i know he has LOL #it’s actually funny i’ve been wanting to compare waistlines between bat because it genuinely looks like kuukou’s bigger than hitoya lmao #whereas what i visualise while drawing them is that hitoya is bigger on principle of being both a bigger man and a stocky body type #and kuukou has an hourglass figure lmao #jyushi’s upside down triangle to me lol and once his body starts developing muscle it’ll be more apparent and less twig lol #but anyway lol the chuuoku women have rightfully claimed my brain but i really like the event!!!!!!!! kuukou’s outfit notwithstanding lol #like kuukou invited himself to stay at the dohifu abode for a month lmao!!!!!! hifumi taught kuukou how to pose and walk the catwalk!!!!!!!#in an odd tabled the turns hifumi was the one apologising for someone else’s behaviour lmao!!!!!!!#i finally got the saburo kuukou interaction of my dreams!!!!! saburo the prickly kid and kuukou the one who ignores that shit lol!!!!#the way kuukou could tell saburo has performance anxiety issues and talked him thru it #while also addressing saburo hiding himself behind ichiro’s name and telling him to be proud of who saburo is I AM— I CANNOT— HELP ME—#saburo: i literally don’t want to hear something like that from you!!!!!! 🤢#kuukou: lol a prickly bastard til the end huh? well i don’t hate that kinda stubbornness 😈#saburo is now bad ass temple’s baby brother i’m sorry i don’t make the rules #AND LOL after some terrorists crashed the show and ran off before anyone could fight anybody since they got scared seeing bat bb mtr #kuukou invited everyone to a meal at a temple on hitoya’s dime LMAO #hitoya: WHAT??? jakurai: thank you for treating us hitoya 🤗 hitoya: NO YOURE HELPING ME PAY 💢#c: kuukou👑

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whoviandoodler · 7 months

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Actually eating food to feel better or to lift your mood or 'drown your troubles' or whatever is great!!! It's amazing and good and does help!!! Like yes obviously you should think abt the cause of your bad emotions if you haven't and stuff, but there's not a single thing wrong with eating food- including carbs, sugar, and everything seen as 'bad' by diet culture- to cope with them. Eating is good and morally neutral always and forever, and fuck diet culture for making me think for years that it's a moral failing to eat when I'm down. Sometimes you just need to have some chips or some pasta or some chocolate or literally whatever, food is love, food is comfort, let it be there for you when you can't deal with something in the moment.

#dan talks #like the shit ive done to cope when food was RIGHT THERE #just soups and rice w veggies and onion and chips and candy and everything else #beautiful #blocking anyone who tries to be 'um actually its bad bcs-' shut up i started listening to my body and it tells me what it wants when it #wants it. asshole #just UGHHHH the years i spent not listening to my body when it said it wanted sugar and salt so i couldnt hear when it wanted something els #either #fuck diet culture #always and forever #going to treat myself to a packet of chips after the exam tomorrow for doing my best #just have to go and do it first lol

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caterpillarinacave · 1 year

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Autistics love Henry Branwell

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