#i just need to write my conclusion

[aauroralightss]

i love reading peoples' opinions on trigun but sometimes i will see an opinion that is so like. bewilderingly wrong it actually makes me doubt my own interpretation of the source material

#rora rants #AND THIS IS ON ME. #because sometimes i assume something is obvious when maybe it requires a bit more textual analysis #but then sometimes people TEST me and it's like #i need to write my 200k vashwood character study ten times faster clearly #because what in the world are you people talking about #granted i'm not often fully devoted to the most popular ship in a fandom so the experience of people constantly #banging them over the head with pots and pans #isn't a familiar one to me. because usually in the rarepair fandoms people are OBSESSED with the characters in a #really textual analysis way #so you dont get that #unfortunately vashwood is more popular so... more margin of error #and frankly i'm not incredibly picky i can still enjoy things when i dont completely agree with them #some of my favourite vw fics are ones where i'm like he would not fucking say that but... this is so good #but then other times i'm just baffled! because how did you come to that conclusion #sorry HAHAHA i just had to get this off my chest

[just-gay-thoughts]

Spending my Friday night reading ADA Standards for Accessible Design not because I don't have friends or nowhere to go but a secret third thing (procrastinated on finishing writing a speech and it's due at midnight)

#gay thoughts #im doing it #ive got the visual aid mostly done (can be turned in at any point but might add quotes) #and i rewrote the intro and conclusion #i just need to read enough legal shit to write my first main point and polish the others #and then i can refine it later if needed

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm gonna lie down for 30 minutes again, then check if everything looks good and then we'll go get the stupid thing printed. it's very likely that it's not enough to pass but at this point I really, truly, honestly do not care. I want to never think about it again, so actually it wouldn't be such a bad thing if I fail. maybe it'd be good, really (trying to convince myself I won't have a breakdown when I find out :') )

#it's not enough pages. the content is not good. I just realised I stopped writing the conclusion in the middle of a sentence so I'll have to #somehow finish that too #but fuck I tried #I did my best. it was very very bad and inadequate. but it was all I had. #it's fine. it's as good as it's gonna get. this is the only attempt I'll get and if I fail.. well that's that then #now. I need to close my eyes for a little while #so unbelievably tired

[martianbugsbunny]

To Convince You That I Love You (A Kalluzeb Fic): Chapter 4

*spinning around slowly whilst dabbing* This is the last chapter of this fic! I never said it was going to be a long chapter fic, and four is more than I usually get to, but I'm still kind of sad that it's done already. I am, however, considering basically doing an AU of my own fic so I can have this short and sweet version and potentially (don't hold me to it) a longer version full of much more miscommunication and angst before Kallus and Zeb get together. (Hehe.) But for now this is where the buck stops, so read on and enjoy the finale!

Kallus could feel the fog in his brain even while he was unconscious. He was drifting, somewhere in a deep darkness, and he couldn’t see so much as a beam of light to lead him out. Maybe there was no out.

Then he felt a vibration in his marrow. He knew it before he even recognized what it was.

A deep voice cut through the fog. “Wake up, Kal,” it said. And since it was in his bones, how could he refuse?

He opened his eyes. Right there, standing beside his cot, was Zeb. Kallus let his ISB training fall to the wayside as his eyes filled with tears, and he did nothing to stop them spilling out.

He would’ve expected Zeb to be uncomfortable with such a display of emotion. He had, in fact, seen that in action before…regarding other members of the crew, that is. But Zeb knelt down next to the cot (he was so tall, he was still about gut-level with the low frame) and, leaning his head on one hand with his elbow on the cot frame, laid the other on Kallus’s shoulder.

“It’s alright, Kal,” he said, and his voice was so unbelievably tender, yet filled with so much pain, Kallus wasn’t sure whether or not to believe him—for a second. Garazeb Orrelios was the one man, the one person, in the galaxy who could tell him even that the sky was green, and Kallus wouldn’t argue. He had put his life into Zeb’s hands back on Bahryn, and to be honest with himself, he hadn’t taken it out of them since.

As he sobbed, it felt like he was crying out the fog in his mind, releasing the confusion and the haze with his tears. He became sharply aware of the way Zeb’s claws dug into his flesh, each singular point of contact distinguishable from the others.

When he stopped crying, he also became aware of the way he had completely emotionally compromised himself. Even though he wasn’t in the Empire anymore, it was still hard to not think in their terms, and baring your bleeding heart to someone you were in love with wasn’t exactly Empire-approved protocol.

“I’m sorry,” he started.

Zeb rolled his eyes. “You don’t need to apologize, Kallus,” he said. “You’re hurt, of course you’re going to cry.”

Kallus tried to focus on the pain in his leg and not the irritation he was discovering in Zeb’s eyes. “I’m sorry,” he repeated. “If you worried.”

Zeb snorted. “If I worried? If? I know I’m not the easiest guy to read, Kal, but come on!”

Kallus’s throat constricted. “I wasn’t sure if you…it’s hard to judge how much you….” He trailed off and didn’t bother trying to finish. He wasn’t about to say something stupid and prideful and drive Zeb away.

“Who is it, Kal? I know you don’t love me, and I have no right to worry about you like I do, but I can at least give him the shovel talk.”

Kallus grabbed Zeb’s hand, despite the pain that shot up his arm at the movement and the accompanying spike of nausea. He simply prayed he wouldn’t throw up as he spoke. “Now who’s not doing his reading right?” he asked. He thought his voice sounded slightly hysterical. He wondered if it sounded worse to Zeb. “It’s you."

Zeb stared at him.

“You’ve been doing all those stupid, risky things because of me?” Noticing the look on Kallus’s face, he raised one barely-existent eyebrow. “I’m good at guessing,” he said dryly. "Actually, Sabine figured it out, but I should've seen through it myself."

“That girl's the only one with any sense around here,” Kallus muttered. “I had to be sure you would believe me when I said it. That you would see I’ve worked hard to be a better man, maybe not one worthy of you, but I think I am a decent man now and I really do love you.”

“Kallus, I would’ve believed you if you said it in the middle of the jungle after taking a few days’ leave—which, by the way, the doctor’s ordered you to take. Doing your best for the Rebellion and killing yourself for it aren’t the same, and before you started taking those risks, you were doing your best.”

"I can always do more," Kallus said. "I would give my life to convince you that I love you."

Zeb sighed, taking Kallus's hand in his. "But I'm telling you, you don't have to. And I wouldn't want you to. What's the point of telling me that you love me if you die and leave me alone?"

Kallus was now aware of nothing but those bright green eyes and the warm, strong hand in his own, which felt weak from unconsciousness and pain. It finally reached the processing part of his brain: Zeb wanted to believe Kallus loved him because....

That was why he'd seemed strange before. He'd thought Kallus was putting his life and limbs on the line for someone else—and there was only one reason why that would change his behavior so.

"Say it, Garazeb. I need to hear you say it back."

Zeb didn't hesitate, only pausing to study Kallus's face as though he never wanted to look at anything else as long as he lived, before repeating Kallus's words and making all of the sacrifice and recklessness worth it.

"I love you."

#kalluzeb #garazeb orrelios #zeb #alexsandr kallus #star wars #Star Wars rebels #fic #chapter fic #fic finale #I hope this is a satisfactory conclusion I only just now wrote the very last bit idk why I didn't get around to it before #I don't personally adore it but it's not bad #it just isn't my best work #and idk what would've made it be #but you know what not everything can be the top of your game and I need to work on accepting that #so I'm okay with it #(you know like a liar) #martianbugsbunny writes fic

[shrews-studies]

I think I mentioned here an upcoming C1 level Russian exam? Well it's over! It was last Friday-Saturday and I have high hopes that I passed, though I'll only find out in about a month :')

Anyway special thanks to everyone on here who posts Russian resources or just study motivation stuff, y'all kept me going 💕

#personal update #langblr #I'm currently working on finishing my thesis #only the last touches to go! I need to write a conclusion for it and an abstract in Russian #also gotta format it properly and stuff like that but I did most of that as I went #it's strange that #since my exam is over and all that pressure is off my shoulders #I find even more motivation in myself to study and practice Russian #it just goes to show that I work best from passion not from pressure #anyone else find that relatable?

[novadorks]

finally finished orv after two years . . . what do i do with my life now

#started in junior year hs dropped it for a while then started reading again at the start of this semester and now im finally done ! #dont know whether to cheer or just crumple up and start crying bc wow that was a ride #i thought the ending was tragic but then i moved on to the epilogue and oh my godd #the way kdj was crying and miserable bc he missed his companions and he wanted to be with them so Badly #but when kimcom finally Finally chase him down and come back to him theyre too late and hes already disspitated into other world lines #and after that like. whenever kdj pulls some shit and dies the next chapter always starts with an ‘i’ #and hes back and alive and kicking and Thinking but after that epilogue chapter there isnt a chapter in his pov theres no more ‘i’s and. #it just made me incredibly sad bc we dont get to see his pov ever again bc hes truly gone unless we as a reader can imagine him alive again #anyways sad things aside it is Incredibly funny that lee hyunsung just became a wanted man in the 1865th round lmaoo #+ uriel sun wukong and black flame dragon forming a band together ??? truly the most randomest thing in the epilogue #++ yoohankim need to stop beating the shit out of e/o and learn to talk their feelings out Please #+++ sooyoung’s love for dokja has me miserable o-|-< she would wait for him an eternity write for him an eternity im so sad #three times she endlessly wrote a novel for him to read three times she waited to see him for so long <//3 #you bet im imagining the happiest conclusion i can for them #they WILL live happily ever after in that big house together as long as i have something to say about it! #orv

[fluffydice]

Why am I always so tired after school now. Anyways I’m thinking evil Kusuo and Kusuke thoughts, so maybe I’ll work on the Kubosai marriage fic or my Aren-centric one

#I need Kusuo to hurt rn #my brain is so fucking foggy… #but Saiki k still fucking prevails #yes Bloom’s conclusion is being written but I need a break from it after that chapter I just posted lol #fluffy writes a fic

[brucenorris007]

@generic-sonic-fan

If you’re writing Sonic, a character with so many iterations and variants across comics, anime, cartoons and games as to rival and even surpass some mainstream superheroes, his motivations are perhaps the most reliable facet to keep in mind as a near-constant. Said motivations, in order of how he prioritizes them, read as:

1. Doing what is Cool

2. Being a Friend

These two are the mainstays and always juuuuuust neck in neck, occasionally switching places depending on the circumstances and which moment in Sonic’s storied career you’re working with. And finally

3. Being the Hero/good guy

Which is such a distant third to the first two that it probably isn’t actually what he ranks third in terms of motivations, if you see what I mean.

The exception is Fleetway, who, on appearance, puts Being the hero 2nd instead of 3rd.

Granted that’s just how it appears; it’s more about his ego and that he likes having that reputation. In a crisis that makes the mortality of his friends Too Real and Apparent to him, his true feelings shine through. He’s not nice, but he very obviously cares immensely about their safety. That’s actually a significant, if not the primary, facet of his character arc.

ANYWAY, you can pretty consistently grab most any Sonic from any point in his history and those motivations will fit him pretty well. The reason Being a Hero rates lower than Doing what is Cool despite Sonic’s status as Mobius’ hero is due to his priorities and self-image. He identifies as just Some Guy, not a Hero with a job to do; that he does heroic things is almost incidental. By his own definition, smashing robots, adventuring, stopping bullies, protecting his friends and saving people are Cool; his definition of what Cool means just happens to coincide with most of Mobius’ image of a hero. But he doesn’t follow any kind of black and white moral compass. He does what HE believes is right in any given situation.

Note that this list is comprised of his motivations, which are separate from his priorities, ideals and personality. The list informs his actions, they don’t dictate them. It’s hard to say that any one or even three things dictate what Sonic will do, because he’s all about freedom; his self-image as Some Guy provides him that freedom.

Freedom from things like Duty or Fate. Not that Sonic’s necessarily irresponsible, but he doesn’t fight Eggman or any of the rest of his rogues out of some belief that he’s the only one who can or some love of justice. Stomping bad guys is cool, ergo, Sonic is cool. If he’s a hero because of that, hey, all right. If not, he’s probably not gonna lose sleep over it, barring any instances of people getting hurt as a direct consequence of his actions. Even then, he’s the fastest thing alive, he can course-correct and sort things out in time for chili dogs.

Again, Fleetway is an exception with regard to Fleetway Super Sonic, but as he’s treated as both a unique character and as Sonic’s chaos-induced alter-ego, that falls somewhat more under accountability than responsibility. I love both characters, but Sonic is not Spider-man.

And this is why, when writing Sonic, if you try to knock Doing what is Cool down from top of the list or at least neck-in-neck for number 1 of his motivations, you start to run into a disconnect, particularly if you try putting Being the Hero in the number 1 slot.

So much of what makes Sonic Sonic stems from his confidence, his attitude, his initially inflated and gradually more mellow ego that lets him identify as not just Some Guy but the Coolest Some Guy ever. Like I’ve said, he doesn’t go around humiliating Eggman and decimating his machines and bases because he thinks no one else can, but because he wants to do it, because he thinks it’s cool and fun; though he does enjoy having a partner or two working with him, or even making a party out of a good throw down. It’s half the reason why you can-and in the 2000′s, SEGA more often than not did-toss him into any scenario for a story and he can carry it.

He doesn’t save people who are in trouble because it’s “right”, but because not saving them would be Lame.

#Sonic #Writing Sonic #I have more to say about this guy #but I felt this was as close to a conclusion as I could get #without stream-of-consciousness taking hold #and writing half a novella's worth of brainrot #PLEASE understand that I have zero interest in telling anyone how to enjoy Sonic #nor engaging with whatever pocket of his fandom is interested in that #I just have thoughts #and need to clear my head sometimes #otherwise it gets clogged up #Bruce talks about #call this On Writing Sonic part 1 of Xty-X #or sumn #so. tagging users in tags DOESN’T work #well. Measly asked. Nay. DEMANDED.

[officecyborg]

ADHD affirmations: I can keep writing through the boring bit

#(boring to write. it's actually not a boring scene I just want to have finished it already.) #I'm trying to be a bit more realistic and understanding of my actual writing process instead of trying to work against it #BUT nonetheless. sometimes you do just need to take your meds and push through to the conclusive finish line #annoying bc I'm a fast writer but it's like I have a 3 strike rule for scene rewrites. once it hits 3 then BAM my momentum is gone #all or nothing. well not this time!!

[magicaldreamfox1]

u know. if u gain more confidence in ur writing then it'll be more fun and less miserable

#i just feel like this has to be said #it's not easy to do ofc it's not and i had help #but it's never wrong to try and work on urself #bc being miserable is just not worth it #stop overediting stop trying to be perfect just post ur writing and then write a lot more #it's not easy but it's simple #if that doesn't work for u then find smthg that does #bc genuinely u guys Need some confidence #bc that's ur hobby and u shouldn't be miserable while doing ur hobby #gain confidence set boundaries put it down when it needs to be put down go to sleep when u need to sleep #it takes a lot of time and a lot of trying but so much can change for u if u just try #and i am trying to take that advice myself in a lot of other areas im not perfect #but my writing improved so much since i gained more confidence and now i just have so much fun writing #where i had to sit myself down and make myself write previously it's just part of my routine now and i do it nearly every day bc i like it #idk if that makes sense but conclusion: y'all need more confidence in ur writing so u can stop being miserable #dni if this post doesn't apply to u and u like being miserable or smthg idk #this is also not abt mental illness so don't start #this is abt insecurity making u miserable #and ruining the joy of creation #thank u for coming to my ted talk #dreamy talks

[bookwyrminspiration]

i've been having some discourse thoughts recently and going back and forth, and I don't really have a final conclusion at the moment so I'm just writing it out to try and make sense of it. I am not intending to get into heated arguments or cause problems, I'm genuinely just trying to question thoughts and beliefs I've been holding to that i picked up from others to be certain whether or not they're solid and I want to continue in that manner because reflection, introspection, and critical thinking are good practices. and posting it because consulting and engaging with others and perspectives outside your own is helpful. so don't mind me trying to sort myself out it's a genuinely earnest attempt to properly reason it through

the crux of it is that I realized it seems hypocritical of me to say I firmly believe in shipping and letting ship, supporting fiction's right to be fucked up and unhealthy, controlling your own experiences, for people to do what they want with fiction because fiction is not reality and should be a safe space where you can explore fucked up things, agree that policing what you can and can't do with fiction is a dangerously slippery slope, and then also turn around and condemn wylinh/wylinh shippers

I don't like the ship myself, I've made numerous posts discussing why I find it harmful--the main thing being its an adult x minor ship (Alden and Della's relationship is completely different, do not bring it up here as a counterargument. you can ask me to explain further if you don't understand). But people are allowed to engage with things that would be harmful or predatory or questionable or etc. in fiction; it's fake. People have said it before, but writing about murder doesn't mean you want to commit murder and all that.

So then since its okay to ship fucked up things because this is fiction, the problem with wylinh seems to become that people ship it in the same manner they do other ships without adult/minor dynamics, not with the understanding that it's got questionable elements. That it's okay to ship fucked up things but you have to do it a certain way that I think is acceptable (you have to know its not really healthy irl), and I don't think that's a mindset I want to have? That people's shipping needs to meet a standard I set? Even if I don't like it? I'm not arbitrator I don't get to decide those kinds of things for others, I just get to decide for me

And another big argument that's been made (including by me) is that children/young teens read these books and find fandom spaces even if they're not supposed to be here, and that that exposure could normalize a harmful age dynamic. Because while Wylie and Linh may be lovely people, they're fictional and it's not reflective of how an age gap like theirs would look irl and children could end up missing red flags of predatory people in real life by thinking of it like idealized fiction. But think of the children rhetoric is one that has been often criticized as cover for more malicious intentions (such as in politics) with the convenient safe fail that if you disagree, you must not care about children.

Part of the critique of that rhetoric is also that the actions being defended don't actually help or protect children. So I'm now wondering, does trying to stop (I can't think of a better word at the moment) wylinh shippers actually achieve that goal of protecting impressionable kids from idolizing an unrealistic relationship, or does it just motivate them to hide it and not trust the people who are, to them, unjustifiably criticizing them?

Wylinh is a widely disliked ship in the fandom, and that's okay, we're all allowed our opinions including negative ones. I just feel as though I'm contradicting myself on some points and want to straighten them out for myself. I don't like Wylinh, I don't ship it, I don't engage with any Wylinh content because of the aforementioned reasons. But my personal dislike shouldn't shape fandom spaces and others' actions, and making sure people are shipping things the "right" way feels like a much more harmful slope.

And if the best course of action to align with that is to just focus on myself, not engage with what I don't like, and politely share my thoughts without forcing them on others or trying to control their actions when the opportunity arises (though maybe this isn't the best course of action, there may be others), that makes this whole post feel redundant because that's...already what I'm doing. I suppose this is just to change my internal perspective not my outward actions? My intentions?

There's no real final conclusion to this, it's just me going "hmm, I've been criticizing wylinh shippers for shipping what I think is a harmful ship, but I also believe in shipping and let ship and allowing fiction to explore harmful things and not controlling others. can these co-exist or do I have to rethink something?"

and I think the answer is I have to rethink something? and that something is criticizing people for shipping wylinh. i still maintain my critiques and dislikes of the ship, but that's a separate thing. i find it more important to maintain and respect individuals right to engage with fiction of all sorts how they want to, without control from others

there's probably a million ways to negatively misinterpret things I've said, so just know all of this is genuine reflection made in good faith. i am earnestly trying to figure it out, and if anyone has input or opinions or perspectives they'd like to share you're welcome to, provided its also in good faith.

alright cool that's all, please do not be mean to me as I try to be a better person because I know its a discourse heavy topic :)

#kotlc discourse #discourse #i can't help but feel like I haven't worded this well and its all going to go wrong if I post this #but also. i am not going to let myself be ashamed of questioning things. even if I come to a similar conclusion at the end #so. don't be like 'how could you entertain these ideas--' because you need to think through both sides to best understand your own position #and i'm trying to figure out what that is #i don't want to just go along with what others say I want to understand where I stand and why #and right now its that I think I thought of wylinh shippers in a way that contradicted other beliefs and values I hold #and I want to correct that #so. this post is me trying to figure it out #i keep writing tags to stall because I'm nervous you'll all hate me for this #but like I said. won't be ashamed of questioning things #also am open to other perspectives and changing my mind #i can learn #augh this is. stressful. be nice please I'm trying to be a good person #long post

[culmaer]

¶

#nothing is more depressing than working on my cv #because I just don't feel like I have marketable skills #and so many of the writing and research posts I come across on job sites are like ''you'll be working alongside ai'' #I even saw a copywriter post that said ''you won't be doing any writing or editing. you job will be to refine and improve ai prompts #so that the ai can more consistently produce the texts we need'' #like hello #the person doing that job is literally making themself more obsolete by the day #so here's the plan #I need to take any job that pays vaguely well #and use that money to either do short corses #or save up to go so my masters #that conclusion is inescapable #just. for now I'm still stuck on step 1 : finding a decent job #and (perhaps I'm being too picky) but post covid I do not want to go back into anything in the tourism industry #it's too precarious and honestly just comes down to entertaining rich people which pushes me further left every time i think about it #I considered joining the communist party. but 1) they're still part of the tripartite alliance with the anc... which is a no from me #and 2) communist révolution should spontaneously happen in industrialised countries with surplus wealth when the proletariat arise #south africa does not have surplus wealth nor class consciousness really. it's still filtered through post apartheid racial groupings #which is unhelpful because the black bourgeoisie are not our allies just because they're black #and trying to impose communism in a society without the surplus wealth didn't work out too well throughout the 20th century #so what does that leave you with #parties like cope ? plagued by the same issues as the anc ? no thank you #(I did also study politics btw which is why I've even considered these career paths) #(although I haven't worked in politics or governance since graduation so maybe that doesn't even matter anymore it's been years) #all I want is a job that pays fairly and leaves me with enough free time to do my hobbies #I do not have the grindset I'll admit that #which is why I've enjoyed the art industry #but again. it just comes down to entertaining rich people in the small galleries which is needlessly stressful #and the larger non-commercial galleries and musea aren't hiring atm... #and that's it. rant over I guess since this is the 30th tag

[musical-chick-13]

"This show is SO good, you should watch it!!"

I gotta be honest. If I look at a character list on Wikipedia and get five characters down without seeing a single woman, it's probably not for me.

#I have no patience for 'there is exactly one woman in the main/supporting cast' anymore #unless the writing is INCREDIBLE and the themes are explored with a type of depth and nuance I can't get anywhere else (like shiki) #(daily media plug for shiki) #then I just. probably will not vibe with it. if there are no women. (also shiki DOES have interesting female characters in it) #and this isn't to say that like. things involving men or talking about men or that have a male protagonist are Not Worth #My Time that is NOT what I'm saying at all. I just want like. several women. who show up and affect the story. like LITERALLY that is all I #am asking for. I feel like that's just. the bare minimum. but alas. #mel screams about fictional ladies again #there are plenty of things that are male-character-focused that I enjoy and even genuinely think are good! but I do want people to #ask themselves why they aren't willing to go to bat for media that DOES have more women in the cast than men. #(I mean. the answer is misogyny. but I want people to be. aware of that. and evaluate accordingly) #(evaluate meaning 'acknowledge I have some biases I need to continue deconstructing' not 'drop interest in everything tumblr #user musical-chick-13 personally doesn't like') #I feel like so many times we get trapped in this space between overcorrection via 'don't like ANYTHING that's pRoBLeMaTiC in ANY way' #and people taking the 'it's fiction it's not that deep' to the conclusion of 'because I cannot actually hurt fictional characters because #they're not real that means I am incapable of hurting irl people when they talk about those characters' #like there is. nuance here. there is a middle ground. and most people have NO interest in finding it lmao #and like...if you carry your biases from irl (which EVERYONE HAS. INCLUDING ME. COURTESY OF LIVING IN A PREJUDICED SOCIETY.) into a #direct and one-to-one evaluation of stories or characters that allow you to exercise those biased ideas. then that reinforces those biases #like. no hating...for example every anime lady isn't the same as structural misogyny like the pay gap or anti-women violence #but if you automatically associate the idea of 'female character' with 'lesser-than' it strengthens the already-present societal idea that #women are not as important or dynamic or worthy of support and attention as their male peers. if you are willing to see every (white) #fictional man as having interiority and depth but struggle to see that in any fictional woman then it adds to the things society is already #telling us about women. it creates an association of 'women' with 'inferiority' and uh. that's what misogyny is. #it is not the same as misogynistic crimes against irl women but it IS a reflection of the rhetoric and societal impulses that lead to them #and even if it's a reflection and not the actual thing. it's still important to break down and examine and reevaluate because #if we don't examine our OWN biases. then even if we tear down the greater oppressive structure we'll just end up building it back up again #no your thousands of words of m/m fanfiction or liking late 2000s shonen anime isn't responsible for misogyny nor are these things #inherently misogynistic. I just want like. some acknowledgement that something being 'for fun' doesn't automatically mean that bias/ #prejudice is nowhere to be found

[vxctorx]

[ is it really too much to ask for someone to write the granada/book version of sherlock holmes? ]

#[ i just want the version of holmes that is very much human and acts like one ] #[ and although a factual person has actual emotions and can feel joy and sorrow and fear ] #[ and can show affection with words and deeds and can feel for other people ] #[ and who isn't an omniscient god and makes conclusions based on physical evidence that he actually provides without being a pompous ass ] #[ and doesn't treat everyone like a dummy and isn't like 'i'm so much better and smarter than you everyone look at me i need attention' ] #[ and he only assumes others to know as much as he does about things because that's what smart people generally assume in real life ] #[ and although he's a little eccentric for his time he's not just a weirdo who collects body parts for no reason ] #[ thank you for bearing with my rant lol i just fucking hate bbc sherlock with a passion ] #[ and to this day i believe the writers were just trolling from start to finish because they were too dumb to write a cohesive narrative ] #[ and too lazy to even read the books. the show literally reads like a fanfiction ] #; out of tea

[mcybree]

man I wanna get in fh related fandom discourse but in like a quiet way where we all go around and directly share notes with one another. maybe a power point presentation is involved

#^ this is literally just. a debate. or a discussion. There are words for this #Ive noticed there are more or less like. Three distinct stances on fh people take depending on who they gaf about #I dont want to start Real Petty Discourse is the issue I just want to have a conversation… I want it so dearly… #I see fh fans get mad about toxic!fh takes and state that its wildly inaccurate. and I feel the need to argue but then its like well #I take a step back and go okay I see where theyre coming from actually. because a lot of toxic!fh takes are made with like. #only sad jimmy angst in mind. and so scott becomes the villain for those fics and I look at them and go. he would not fucking say that #BUT THEN ALSOOO I get where THATS coming from too because he’s very mean to jimmy in DL so when people want to write their sad jimmy fics #of course that’s where they’re going to go. because something is off about traffic!FH its true #so rancher shippers and such see that and go oh okay and run with it #Its just. Very interesting all around? #deranged.fh.posting #idk if anyone gets what im talking about. I look at the fh tag pretty often and used to be pretty into rancher fics myself so— #My conclusions are based on that #bree barks so fucking loud

[quietwingsinthesky]

like. okay. i have no real horse in the race of “which brother is the secret bad abuser” because the show does not actually care about that or think that either of them is actually treating each other that badly (except for when sam get manipulated, which is always his own fault and he should suffer for it /s)

but what i will say is that the way dean is written sometimes manages to make me more uncomfortable than any of the villains on this show. dean scares me. completely unintentionally, they did write a guy who only gets Worse over time, and it’s compelling, and it’s upsetting for me to watch.

#I don’t really mean this as a criticism because To Me it is just like. a part of the show. #it’s a feature. perhaps a Bethesda’s bug of a feature but. it’s a feature. #dean’s change in character feels natural. watching him get worse feels like the logical conclusion of where he’s going. #(the logical conclusion could also have been ‘dean makes an effort to not be so controlling’ but they didn’t do that. they leaned into it.) #so it isn’t much like. say. Lucifer. Lucifer is a character who just flips. motivations and character completely changed. #so disregarding his later appearances just? makes sense? to me anyway. that’s Not My Wife #but Dean’s character degradation is completely different in that it builds on what’s already there. #and whenever I write him I feel the need to. idk. grapple with that. with that potential to become Worse. #he is controlling! he doesn’t ever really trust sam that much post-s5! he does treat Cas his best friend like he doesn’t matter unless #he’s acting more human! these are just facts about him that show up long before the later seasons and idk! Dean is! he’s a lot! #he and Lucifer have a lot alike in the way that they’re driven mostly by love. and that love can easily go rotten. and it’s terrifying. #spn #dean winchester #sry watching s6 makes me think about. things. #actually no. not sorry. I’m going to get worse about this if I keep watching so stay tuned.