#i just hate it here

[saspitite]

i really wish i could relate to posts other autistic people make of their childhood where they actually knew they had autism. it's like a different life. i wish i could've figured myself out as a preschooler, as a kid, as a teenager, that i was different and there was an explanation and that it was okay.

but like. i dunno. i never got that. every time the possibility of getting tested came up, it was always "no, you have friends" or "no, you don't have a completely flat voice" or "no, you can speak in full sentences" or "no, girls don't have autism"

girls don't have autism

i learned to mask for my survival and now its being used to discredit my struggles. sometimes i wish i never had to deal with this. but i don't know, i can't imagine myself not-autistic. i literally can't imagine it. that's me.

i'm just not allowed to be me

#sas says #autism #actually autistic #autistic experiences #maybe im just dramatic. i dont know. im not claiming to have the worst experience in the world #i just hate it here #also just in case this breaches containment of just my followers: #i call myself a girl but i don't use she/her pronouns jsyk. gender things

[ineffablejaymee]

fives died believing echo was dead

#im sorry but thats the only thing i can think abt rn #i just hate it here #fives and echo have one of the most tragic stories #add rex and cody to that and its even more tragic #im not ready for season 2 of bad batch #star wars #arc trooper fives #arc trooper echo #the bad batch #captain rex

[snekthedemonnoodle]

i hate it here

let me go home

#i am home #i just hate it here #im fine guyss lol #just a horrrrible day #snek talks too much

[batboi13]

School is making me "set goals" and i think that i might set one as "hang myself"

#i just hate it here #suicide mention

[icharchivist]

hxh being back for the first time in years while i’m an a3 consummed person at heart is going to give me a heartattack, i scrolled peacefully on my dash to a post going “so now here’s what’s going to happen with Hisoka on the murder boat” and i was just “why would Hisoka be on a murder boat he doesn’t murder people her- oh fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you” this is the worst experience ever

i lost my banner from back then so another one to protect this post

#on the other hand i AM happy to see my hxh mutus go back in form on my TL #i just hate it here #ichatalks

[stormikins]

Why is it that horror genre women (or just like action women) always get the two tank top outfit

#I know why #I just hate it here

[dionysianfreak]

the autistic fun time of throwing up in the school bathroom because your boxers are too tight and touching you in the most wrong way possible 👍

#yes i am okay #i just hate it here #now i have to go commando when i go to work so that i dont melt down or puke again 👍 #personal #vent #freaky ramblings #freak no

[dolfin]

I just want to go home

#this is home tho #i just hate it here

[toasteaa]

Back in the office so you know what that means

Ignoring all the tasks I need to do in favor of answering ask and drabbling here and there about ideas I had when I was spoonless

#toast talks #I'm a good employee I swear #I just hate it here #and Tumblr is an escape

[thenerdcommander]

Really wish I didn’t have impulse control issues rn bc I promised myself I’d wait a couple months to really think through and thoroughly plan my move with the goal simply to be out of this state and working on my new state residency by the time the overturn of Roe gets voted on...but the urge to jump ship NOW after a mere week of research and planning is so fucking strong.  I want OUT.  I don’t even have any kind of ID anymore to make it feasible at this present moment in time but I need away from here ASAP.

#oversharing on main yet again? couldn't be me #I've just been hit with this strong feeling of being trapped and caged #it's suffocating #not only because this is a red state and I know I'm in danger #but also because I'm sick of living with my shitty family #they haven't even done anything today to make me want to run #I just hate it here #I want to be free with full autonomy over myself and I want to be able to go to therapy and I want to be out of the closet in REAL places #that aren't the internet and I want to wear binders and transition and I want to be able to have partners that I don't have to keep secret #and to love them openly and loudly where everyone around me can know I'm a simp without putting my mental health in jeopardy and I want to #be somewhere I don't have to abide by unnecessarily strict rules and schedules and don't have to perform to receive love from people who #expect me to be a perfect little lady that'll give them grandchildren and provide for a cishet white husband that I'll definitely have one #day and I want to wake up in the morning knowing I'm safe and that I won't be judged for merely existing #that's all I want #I can't stand it here

[coffeeborneaddict]

Is it Postpartum Depression? A Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder episode? Stay tuned!

#lol #I’m not suicidal #I just hate it here

[xenopuslaevis]

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#how have they seriously not gotten my transcripts yet #i hate this so much #and then they just tell me to be patient and wait #like does it really take a whole month to gather an email? #seriously #rant #and im sure i sent it to the right places #so this whole thing is just making me so anxious #but the fact it is taking so long just makes me think i did something wrong #which is the worst #and th dedline to get them there is may 1st #i just hate it here #if i don't get into university becauseof that #i will actually go crazy #i will go crazy even if i get in though #cus of the prices #:) #i cant wait to take out 100s of thousnds of dollars and not be able to pay them back cus interest rates are so high #im so exhausted from this society #i have been on the verge of a major emotional breakdown since 2022 november when i thought i would have been able to get a job in vancouver #clearly i am an idiot #a right fool #the court jester

[restinpeas]

if germany has a million haters, then i am one of them. if it has ten haters, then i am one of them. if it has only one hater then that is me. if germany has no haters, then that means i am no longer on earth. if the world loves germany, then i am against the world.

#no context needed honestly #i just hate it here

[theghostofbean]

”Men think about the Roman Empire” “What’s the female version of the Roman Empire” SHUT UPPPPP. SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPP. AS A WOMAN I LOVE THE ROMAN EMPIRE. AS A WOMAN I LOVE ANCIENT HISTORY AND BATTLES AND POLITICAL INSTABILITY. THE “GIRL VERSION OF THE ROMAN EMPIRE” IS THE ROMAN EMPIRE. IM GOING TO STAB YOU 23 TIMES

#why do we have to gender history ffs I hate it here #sorry just had to get it out my system #roman empire #history #classics #tagamemnon #ancient history #ancient rome

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF puppet and Michael Afton got beef,,

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #mike schmidt #the marionette #the puppet #charlie emily #fnaf #fnaf 2 #fnaf movie #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #I don’t think the puppet likes Michael much pff #doesn’t hate him just knows what he did #I like how the puppet is seemingly more aware than most haunted animatronics #so it makes sense to me they’d talk so forwardly to the others #she’s mostly just joking and teasing here #I also think about how violent they were as lefty #so this blunt attitude + hostility in the games towards Michael #just adds to this personality #PUPPET MENTIONED 🔥🔥 #we love the puppet

[muggle-born-princess]

Reblog if you're LGBT and are against MAPS/Child Groomers

#i kinda want to prove a point to certain people #i don't usually post my personal problems on here unless I need to because I find it unecessary and childish #but this bullshit has been eating me the fuck up and I need to vent #LGBT does not equal groomer #Child groomers are not LGBT #MAPs are not LGBT #TW: Child Grooming #Tagging it that just in case anyone feels uncomfortable with said topic #fucking hate Texas and religion extremists and conservatives #LGBT #LGBTQ #LGBTQIA #reblog bait