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splintered-emotions · 10 months

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For the fanfic writer asks, every question with a 2 in it, please.

hi jay! thank you for the ask!

this is going to be a long one so the read more's going on it

2) What fandoms do you write for and do you have a particular favourite if you write for more than one?

so i've written for a lot including marvel, the maze runner, the hobbit and lotr, the dream smp, and of course the legend of zelda, but currently there's a distinct focus on the dsmp because of a multichapter that i started a few months ago and loz because of totk and the series that me and @yellow-faerie are writing together. i don't particularly have a favorite, but the community for the hobbit/lotr has always held a special place in my heart.

12) Who is your favourite character to write for? Why?

oh this is a difficult one because i like all of them so much. i think the top three have to be bilbo, pogtopia!wilbur, and beedle. i don't really have like concrete reasoning but they're the ones who i had the most fun coming up with plot details for and fleshing out in my own stories.

20) Are there any stories that you wished you’d ended differently?

see i haven't finished enough to have wanted to end one differently. and the longer things that i have written and wanted to edit have just been to make writing style edits rather than real plot changes so i'd say no.

21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?

i admire a lot of writers' drive and motivation. like i know an author who is Churning out words for the pure enjoyment of it and he's absolutely insane for his 5k a day word count.

22) Do you have a story that you look back on and cringe when you reread it?

the middle school writing. just all of it.

23) Do you prefer listening to music when you’re writing or do you need silence?

music for sure. i cannot focus without music honestly

25) Have you ever cried whilst writing a story?

yeah a couple of times during transported and i was very close to it several times during all i ever wanted was a life in your shade

27) Do you make a general outline for your stories or do you just go with the flow?

depends on the story honestly. i have a six page outline for one fic and then another has like 10 bullet points with a ton of space between

28) What is something you wished you’d known before you started posting fanfiction?

what certain terms meant because there's a couple of them that i misused pretty early on that i've learnt about now

29) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?

honestly most of the stuff i've written in the past year because it's just not as well received as the lotr stuff i wrote previously

32) Are any of your characters based on real people?

yep! courtesy of being a dsmp writer

#sorry fizzy i finally got to this after a While #kinda forgot due to some irl stuff but here!#ask

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mcrmadness · 2 years

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I have always thought of myself as a good reader and a bookworm but I think my ADHD might affect my reading more than I thought.

Currently reading a fanfiction, which I do find interesting, but still having problems focusing on what I read. And the length of this fanfic feels overwhelming despite most good fluff fics, on the other hand, being too short.

But yeah like. I have always loved reading and books especially, I was one of the first ones in my class to learn to read properly and so I was in a smaller group of kids who were good at reading so the rest in the class could practice theirs, meanwhile we did not get bored with something we already could handle. I started reading books immediately after I could read well enough to get through a book. So I have been a bookworm since my childhood. (I've read most if not all of my books in Finnish btw.)

Yet people often ask me if I even am a bookworm really when I have not read that many different books. I don't buy and hoard books that I don't know when or if I ever will read those. I have never touched a book that is considered classic ever in my life. Apart from maybe like, Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit. And latter was originally a children's book but it was so boring to me somehow that it took me years to finish, and I read maybe like 5 Harry Potter books (6th wasn't out yet) in the meantime - but eventually I finished reading that one but I still don't remember a single thing from it. Apart from that one scene about the war that Bilbo was watching from afar. And I never managed to read The Return of the King - I started LOTR when my summer holiday started after 7th grade and it took me 2,5 months to read the first two parts. I was reading it every night for a couple of hours, but still ran out of time and only started to read the last part, but then didn't have more time after school started again.

Oh and I've been reading the same Sherlock Holmes collection now for maybe 8 years and I still haven't finished it.

My list of books looks weird because altho there are not many books on it, some of them on my list I have read multiple times. So it's almost twice the amount of the books on my list despite the list itself being very short. Plus I cannot remember majority of the books I read as a kid anymore.

Anyhow, I am very slow at reading, too. Mainly it's because I get distracted and have to reread several sentences, sometimes even pages before I understand what's going on. I constantly find myself reading but not really reading. My eyes are just using the text as a visual stim for my brain to escape into other thoughts meanwhile. It's a talent but not really that good of a talent when you'd wish to pay attention to what is said in the text.

A couple of nights ago I finally felt like continuing the Edgar Allan Poe short story collection that I originally started reading maybe in 2008 or something, but for some reason couldn't finish reading and then continued again in 2018, and still haven't finished. Sometimes I have skipped stories if the theme has been completely uninteresting. Also with this one I was reading, I found it interesting, but I also found it so difficult to focus on. I counted it's 20 pages, and I had read something like... 7, and wanted to finally finish reading it. But I had to reread the same sentences over and over again cos I just couldn't focus, and then I started to notice I had my eyes closed and was already dreaming and not reading, cos I was so close to falling asleep (I can only read in bed before sleep). Changed my posture a bit and then eventually managed to finish with the story.

I also have, again, the biggest urge ever to start rereading Hitch-Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy. It's my favorite book in this whole universe and I have read it (I speak about the whole 5-part trilogy now) once, and ever since I have wanted to reread it because it's just so damn good!!!

But I have to actually manually keep myself from doing so, because I currently have three other books I'm reading. Wait no, actually four. The Sherlock Holmes collection I mentioned, the Edgar Allan Poe story collection I also mentioned, and the last book of Rick Riordan's The Heroes of Olympus series. And the fourth one is a small biography-kind of book about my fave band but that one is in German.

The Heroes of Olympus books are the easiest to read, they are so light reading it's quite easy to focus, which is why I have already read... 2 or 3 of these in a span of maybe 2 years? I have so long pauses from reading, and it looks like I read during summer the most. Maybe cos we get thunderstorms and usually I can do only two things meanwhile: draw, or read.

Both the SH collection and Poe collection need more brains. I like the SH one and I'm actually already past the beginning of the 3rd (?) part so there aren't that many stories to read! But I need to be in a certain mood, in a detective mood, to actually be able to focus on those. And Poe's stories in general are so damn analytics most of the time that you literally cannot miss a word or you lose the plot completely. So I have to actually focus and work hard to focus on his stories. They are super fascinating and I love the insights, but damn does it need brain power to actually ingest and digest anything he says. I like the horror-type stories more than the science stories (the former need less brains), even tho the science stories, too, are very fascinating because they are very much representing the early 1800s knowledge over science.

I guess I stick to YA books, and books familiar to me, more because they literally are easier to navigate through with my ADHD. But now I think I go back to reading that fanfic. Needed a pause which apparently meant me talking about my adhd's relation to reading and books which I never noticed before.

#mcrmadness' deep thoughts #adhd

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