#i just didnt get a good look at the sabre

[luobingmeis]

warning 4. i am going off abt a jgy post from 2020 bc it's basically "tell me u didnt understand the character without saying that u didnt understand the character" and ik it's from 2020 i am just flabbergasted. i dont usually do this but it's almost midnight and i saw red for a little while

first things first, obligatory "i love jgy and he is one of my faves" tagline. bc im abt to tear a fraction of a take apart bc it talks abt jgy as the villain in an incredibly incorrect way

second things second:

[id: a text post saying, "some facts: nobody likes jgy unless they're fucking him. he's not charming! he's a sycophantic lil snot whole platitudes and niceties are transparently hollow. the really skilled act comes out when he appears to put down the nervous hostess schtick and turns into someone vulnerable and wronged." /end]

not 2 be that person who screenshots posts from 2020 but this is driving me up a wall. this is quite literally not even in the way of "the novel literally states that jgy was overall well-liked bc even if someone didn't love them, they didn't hate him" but also like. a lot of the people basically pre-parlor-room-reveal who didn't like jgy, didn't like him bc he was the son of a prostitute. it was classism. they only "accepted" him bc he made himself palatable so he would not be scorned. bc he was the son of a prostitute. that's it. and if u pull the "well wang/xian knew he was the villain" im going to remind u that wang/xian had a fucking corpse arm (or sabre, depending on the adaptation) literally leading them to jgy. that was their fucking red flag, not wwx in his first life being like "hm i dont think jgy is genuine :("

im not even gonna comment on the "he isnt charming" bc that's just quite literally not true. like im sorry, i will look past my own personal favorable thoughts on jgy and tell u this: u literally cannot manipulate that many people without charm. that is kinda how manipulation works. this should not be news.

also why is it so hard for some of u to get through ur skulls that "victim" and "person who does harm" are not mutually exclusive like jgy can be--and is--both. if u stop seeing these two things as The Binary That Cannot Intersect then ur media analysis will be so much better i promise

there is a post that goes around occasionally that talks abt how sc/um vi/llain is mx/tx's self-fulfilling prophecy based on how people treat md/zs and honestly sqh was so right for saying that no one knows how to treat villains normally. the moment someone is like "hey the villain had pitiful things happen to them" y'all start shitting urselves. bc obviously, good things can only happen to good people, and bad things can only happen to bad people, so if a bad thing happens to a character, it must be bc they are a bad person who deserved it and should never receive any sympathy ever for anything that has happened in their life.

i swear 2 god some of this just feels like mx/tx is the one writing cool, nuanced, multi-faceted characters and then u guys are like "i knew this character was going 2 be evil bc they are so obviously gross and bad and everyone has always hated them for good reason. no i am not at all affected by knowing that the protags are tailing this character. wait what do u mean the protags found out this character was the villain through Tangible Evidence and didn't just go based off of vibes alone?"

like im all for loving ur villains and saying "hey they did stuff that was fucked up" but jgy is a narrative villain who had shitty stuff done to him that made him the way he is. things that, honestly, are very pitiful. and i, for one, love him! i feel bad for things that happen to him, i say "hey jgy what the fuck," and most of all, i just love the character, vices and virtues and all! it is possible to feel bad for a character and love said character and also not be like "so thus everything he did is fine and should have no narrative consequence." i am begging u guys like please these stories are for adults can we move past analysis we would do in high school

(also "nobody likes jgy unless they're fucking him" like okay yeah just throw out the whole nuances of 3/zun as a whole and do ur analysis through shipping. i would write this off as a joke that isn't funny if it didn't precede. everything else here. this is why people say that viewing everything in media through shipping leads to flat, one-dimensional analysis. <3)

#listen i know i came to md/zs thru c/ql but like. c/ql did do jgy dirty

[chanelfunnell]

More mail.

A) Matthews looks more than 25 but so Slafkovsky more than 18-19. Marner looks 20 baby face not 25 lol.

B)#she tries to stalk Pens wags' sectof now. Shd covers 3 NHLers 30+ but her cray obsession is Crosby.. She prepares herself for her drama around Winter Classics..Leutner, Windsor women, Crosby, clothes, her sci fi dream lifestyle, attention seeking.beware.. Crosby Interesting is her ,foagsbip,

C) i didnt see any skating Tazer or Tazer with Megan B so far..i did not search it but other blogs will have it. Little Kaner is cute but the Shaws are just better in many ways..the little Shawzie picked up confidence and craft quite quickly but Cgaunette also chucs them into the saddle, baking mess or costumes. The younger Danny learns from.Andy, so the ginger cutie of Caley eats with fork as one year old because her older suster is a good example.. Many mothers are important factor in the sll aspects of development of the kids. Chaunezte is good.

C) id not drag it oitside of ice hockey or commenting Russian players in NHL..we are ruled by politicians..Panarian got smear by Putin, Ovdchkin for not commenting Putin. Lets sgree Russia is sn avgresssor and on other hand we know that USA is ok but our last presidents are really baaad. British royals neef to shup up about Trump and Congress or posing with Ukraine. I mean Crown Prince and Kate, not teosome gruesome in California. M did not comment anything, senf food to Ukraine and said shut up to dx goalie of Sabres Hssek for ban on NHLers from Russia. If Zeldnsky found out ghat M rules a rooster not dim Kate brfriendedd by Olena and blovked his spies on UK naval bases well. Hd is knoem for blocking independent press . Not just different culture. M is good comedian as well and commdnts uk political bs like Zeldnsky did during vampaign but M is oitside 9f press but brave in the feal and verbal battles if needed. Zeldnsky loves his media posing, monologues and he is coward for any discussion or debate. He run off vrkm.national.service as a conscript and Trump. So they are agressive showing balls in media rhetoric and poses..M does not court,block,bully media or people. She app deal with anybody crossing her but not in cruel way or smear. Its also difference of uk arny with biz capable M starting from scratc and gdnerals and screaming inept bullying female upstart ex Homeland secretary using a bfutal forcs to match pplice that had thdir balls ripped off. Woman just a auasi PR into media spin bs than work, no dxperienve from any work. M built and runs huge companies, 15 years trained by uk army. No drugs or sect zo ignore her people or facts ghat she has bedn livjng in uk for ages. Best of bith worldd, trained well and as a young dog. By the best. Supertalented, eager to learn. Like Draisaitl she ddveloped to dpecial level next to super McDavid. You cant buy her like Charles shes a beauty to be honey trap, she looks naive to believe shes supersmart. She keeps mouths and legs shut. Shd does not nedd to pose as a soldier or use titles or media publucity.. Lile Z she promissed fight corruption, with huge arests snd hefty charges, law snd order, tight border protection, uk as a superhouse, sulf suficient, shs knows how argue and use facts snd real exmples from maths how cuts wkll work..Army works like a clock, their police is mess like in Seatle with crime. Tale of two ,leaders, and two women. M vyn dkate play but keeps quiet, Zelensky cant and run off so all his media sperches and photos about skates snd hockey. Monologues bcs he has no clue in the case of iscussion.so Trump. Hunter Biden messsed with oil in Ukraune, Trump tried to get him and old Biden, Zelensky on both sides. It shiuld be a buffer zone for Europe..weak UK economy is nit good fir falling Chinese economy - M's words. But i am not ruling royal or M to state it. Uk senior royals need to shut up and stop posing with showbiz and no real work. Next Boston tea party. Free US PR advice.

[zackcollins]

I'm watching a video on r/murderedbywords. Something about the Islanders and Sabres came up. The Islanders beat the Sabres 3-0. The dude that commented said he bought a cardboard cutout of his aunt because she passed away. He asked if he could go pick it up because he didn't want her to watch the Sabres lose anymore. I'm--

#i just #why was that so funny to me #the picture was of tito and i think dahlin?? #it was tito for sure #i just didnt get a good look at the sabre #rip to that #and rip to the sabres this season #buffalo sabres #tw death #hockey #r/murderedbywords #youtube #robin talks #new york islanders

[silverskye13]

Hell-Raising!Gaster is literally just Matt Sabre from Ride, You Tonto Riders and I'm flabbergasted

#the barking writer #Hell-Raising #i finally broke down and grabbed some L'Amour books on audible #for one: do yourself a favor and never get L'Amour's short stories because rheyre never that good #but anyway Tonto Riders is one of his short stories #and jesus christ Sabre is just... really just like that huh? #gunslinger who gets mean and impulsive whenever he smells trouble coming #literally a faster draw than anyone else alive #also it always cracks me up when L'Amour tries to shoehorn a love interest in his short stories #like this man doesnt write romance for shit on a good day #and in his shortstories it literally comes outta nowhere #Sabre layed up at his love interests house: Maam i killed your husband sorry i didnt tell you on page two #love interest: you literally told me how he looked when he died i figured youd done the murder #Sabre: Guess i should leave town then? #love interest: no wait stay youre hot

[mousehole5000]

 this is it... the final post.... 226 through THE END!!!!!

this shit with mu qing and the river of lava is SOOOO dramatic im loving it

oh my god theyre on a FUCKING bridge of course they are okay let’s go boys

“You’re right. We’re alike. You think me odd, I think you to be rather weird too.” - so what im getting from this is that xie lian and mu qing are the only characters in this book with working gaydar okay yup got it this checks out

god... the fact that xie lian is ready to be like “look mu qing we can just forget about the past it doesnt matter we dont have to be friends i know you dont like me but im not gonna let you die over it” and then mu qing is like “.... god i really do admire you huh”

“You...certainly...are rather amazing. You’re...also...a better person...than me. Long story short, I...very much wanted...to become your f-f-friend.”  - going to think about this for the rest of all time im about to become utterly unintelligible im overcome with emotions

“And, at the end of the white silk band, Feng Xin was gripping Ruoye with one hand while the other was holding on to a steel-faced Mu Qing, and he shouted towards him.” - the fucking IMAGE of this im gonna cry this is everything i could have asked for im so happy also mu qing dangling there like “ welp. guess ill live“

“Feng Xin was almost burnt by that pillar of fire, and he shouted in outrage. “WHAT’S WITH THIS BAND OF DOG SHITS, ATTACKING PEOPLE WHILE THEY’RE DOWN, SO VILE! FUCK YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY!” Xie Lian responded, “IF THEIR ENTIRE FAMILIES ALL LOOK LIKE THAT, YOU SURE YOU WANT TO FUCK THEM??” - theyre so funny!!! and theyre best friends!!! theyre joking together now in the middle of all this i could cry theyre back!!!

“Using sticks as arrows, he held the bow with one hand and used his teeth to bite back the bowstring.” - no clue how practical this is but okay archer boy. hot

i actually have so many little quips between the three of them highlighted but we’d be here all night if i included them all. im literally so delighted by this omg worth the wait

“Each sabre strike slashed to the bone. It wasn’t like Xie Lian had never seen Hua Cheng use the sabre before in the past, but his style had always been easy and leisurely, nonchalant and casual. Rather than say he was handling a weapon, it was more like he was toying with a small knife. Yet those blade marks were filled with killing intent. It was easy to imagine just how skilled the one exchanging blows with him was, and how perilous this battle.” you have no idea how mad i was when i read this and thought we missed witnessing the fight between hc and jw omg

“Behind him, Feng Xin muttered, “Dear fucking god, may all the gods and buddhas grant their blessings, that better absolutely be Crimson Rain Sought Flower, otherwise he’s gonna go mad!” “Stop your rubbish,” Mu Qing berated. “We’re all the gods and buddhas ourselves and we can’t grant shit, just keep up with him! Look at the stumbling way he’s running, he’s gonna trip and fall to his bloody death before he even sees the man!” - okay i know i said no more quips but this is literally too funny i just wanted to read it again

“ However, for whatever reason, that vicious ghost, in its muddled state, took that large group of live mortals under its wing and fled for many days. In the end, they were still surrounded by millions of ghosts, trapped in a dead end, and it was going to be eaten along with those humans.” [...] “That vicious ghost almost made a move against those humans, but for some reason, in the end, it didn’t. It instead used one of its own eyes as the price to forge a blood weapon. That vicious ghost was already forcibly hanging on with its last breath; after digging out its eye it should’ve broken apart completely. Yet somehow something had shocked it, and it instead woke to its senses completely. “ - THIS IS AMAZING ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? IS THIS ALL WE GET ABOUT HIS GHOSTLY LORE?????? HUA CHENGGGGGGGG

“What a terrible offence, his old habit had come out, and he quickly apologized. “I’m sorry! You don’t have to listen to me!” Hua Cheng, however, only smiled happily. “Everything gege tells me is the best advice, so why wouldn’t I listen?” - this isnt the fucking time afjdkfjsdkl they really never stop

“So you can hold the illusion of a perfect Crown Prince of Wuyong to face and dismiss the Jun Wu now. Isn’t that your objective? Did you think I don’t know what you’re thinking?” “THAT’S NOT IT!” Guoshi cried. “Stop getting tied up in right and wrong, victories and defeat, I’VE NEVER THOUGHT THAT WAY BEFORE!” - jun wu only being able to see xie lian as his successor and believing that thats all anyone else sees too... okay

honestly this whole final showdown was a blast i cant put everything in but it was so much fun to read. the DRAMA the LAVA the SHOUTING t

“Hua Cheng had poured too much spiritual power into him. There really was too much, so much that it was completely outside the amount the cursed shackle could withstand.” - okay.... okay... the love you give will set you free... okay....

“With Jun Wu in his grip, he carried both their bodies and forcefully slammed into the incomparably-solid rock wall! He used all of his power in this smash, and in the rumbling and crashing of rocks, he also heard the sound of something breaking.” [...] “A moment later, Jun Wu suddenly asked, “That move. What is it called?” “...” Xie Lian raised his sleeve and wiped away the blood on the side of his face. “Shattering boulders on the chest.” YES!!!!! YES!!!!! xie lian actually lived that life!!!!!! i loved this detail so much

“After a moment of silence, Xie Lian took off the bamboo hat carried on his back, took it in his hand, and covered it over Jun Wu’s face.” - xie lian... good... another detail i love. a hat that protects from the rain, given in a moment of need, even to someone who has caused you hardship... we do not forget the kindness granted to us

“There was gratefulness, there was shame, there was heartache, there was wild joy, but above all else, there was incurable love.” - :pleading: i wish it was just that easy tbh. “i have to tell you about the worst parts of myself” “ive already seen them and i dont care i still love you“ truly the dream

“ It’s been so long since anyone listened to me talk, won’t you stay? Don’t...actually do this. I won’t be able to take it. Twice, it’s been twice already! I really don’t want there to be a third time!!!” - the bit about just wanting someone to listen to him talk... xie lian... :(

emily corpse bride moment.... i knew it had to happen.... butterflies.... death and rebirth.... inevitable

xianle trio bickering about ruoye..... mu qing complaining but not letting anyone else fix it... im so happy

“The Rain Master sat down on the spot, looking like she was going to perform a passing service for her. After all, Xuan Ji was the only one left of the Kingdom of Yushi besides herself.”  - xuan ji you sure the hell were... a character. this little moment tho..... yushi huang... many thoughts

“ Who hasn’t made promises, or swore to the mountains and the seas when they were young? Talking of affection, of love, of forevers. But, the longer I hang around in the world, the more I understand, something like ‘forever’ is impossible. It’s never going to be possible. Having it once was already good enough. No one can truly achieve it. I don’t believe in it anymore.” - jian lan im happy for you bummer it didnt work out with feng xin but yeah that was looooong ago. also this quote me same mood kin but its chill. having it once was already good enough

although yeah tbh if theres anyone who can have a forever like that... it would be a ghost and a god

fasdfjadklfj GOD... pour one out for ling wen.. but is that not the truth of this world? the one can be pardoned for being good at paperwork that no one else wants to do? isnt that the plot of the shawshank redemption?

okay but the fact that all xie lian’s friends come to visit him while he waits for hua cheng is making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.... fengqing coming together to try to get him out of the house but get scared off by his cooking... amazing

“Last time, they spent eight hundred years running towards each other. This time, it only took an instant to fall into each other’s embrace.” - im completely unaffected by this. im not lying i swear (i am lying im very emotionally affected)

okay i love this final wrap up chapter party its so fun. mu qing moving on from the broom thing!!! good for him!! the beggars get their reward!!! the fun ghost city chefs!! SQX!!!! and he xuan is?? here too??? he’s hungry??? fjadlkfjsdl

“The grounds that Feng Xin and Mu Qing had just swept were once again filthy from that giant crowd of muddy feet. Mu Qing gripped his broom, looking like he felt someone had infected him with fleas, and his eyes were wide.” - me when my dad comes into the kitchen when ive just finished washing dishes i get it king

the little folklore bit... fun!!! oh my god its over..... :(

that was really fun i had a blast reading it and on the whole really liked it i WISH soo badly that hua cheng had gotten more outside of being cunty and devoted even tho those are both important i just wish there was more about like how he got by during those 800 years and like did he ever have doubts? what shaped his worldview was it all xie lian or was it his experience as a mortal as well? why is he so mean to e’ming? theres bits and pieces here and there and i know it was already SO long but that really would have been great if there was more about hc cuz tbh by the end, at least for me, the hualian relationship didnt actually feel as fleshed out as the xianle trio relationship like i still liked hualian’s dynamic and it was really sweet how much they clearly really liked each other and  everything but i kind of wish some of the other subplots had been dropped or diminished in favor of more hc development i think that would have been cool

but anyway thats some of my thoughts and i really did enjoy the hell out of book 5 that was a riot and uhhh thanks to everyone who read these or commented *lends you spiritual energy through a high five*

#tgcf liveblog #it is Complete i can move on now #i actually have a lot more thoughts about hl because i uhhhh relate. to things. and have opinions due to my experiences #but its also quite Personal soooo i might just keep them tucked away #anyway im freeeeeee #mouse mumbles

[bordeleaubeau]

my season predictions: RECAP

italicized = season prediction

bold = what actually happened

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the metropolitan division.

the flyers will shock most people, pulling a surprisingly decent cup run, possibly making eastern conference finals or the stanley cup final. if they go to the cup final, they will win. since the cup final hasn’t happened yet, we don’t know if the flyers won obviously! but they definitely shocked a LOT of people this season (including myself.) and i’m really confident in my boys and that they’ll go far in the playoffs.

there will be a huge trade within the division that causes an uproar i mean, taylor hall?

kaapo kakko will have more goals than jack hughes - but jack hughes will have more points overall yeah. this didn’t happen but i thought it did. kakko had 10-13-23, meanwhile hughes had 7-14-21. (format goals-assists-total points)

jack hughes will win the calder. lol wishful thinking! still between q. hughes and makar, will definitely end up being makar.

a team expected to be extremely good this year will do the complete opposite and tank. (possibly team that makes big trade?) say it with me: THE NEW JERSEY DEVILS!

columbus will fall to the bottom of the ranks after suffering the loss of duchene and bobrovsky. john tortorello? not happy. columbus didn’t fall to the bottom of the ranks, but they were in the bottom half of the division.

the flyers new young core will start to make an early impact. one of the defensemen will suffer a long-term injury, allowing one of the phantoms to come up and make an instant impact shocking fans. sam morin suffered an injury riiiight after coming back from a torn acl, and tore it again! he wasn’t up with the flyers, he was still in the minors, but he was on the official roster at the start of the season.

joel farabee will make the flyers lineup and be in the calder cup running. (bold. i know.) wishful thinking, again.

sidney crosby will suffer an injury, but it will not be expressed until after the season is over. tba

ovechkin will retire the end of this season or the next. tba

the new york rangers will suffer from the loss of kevin hayes and mats zuccarello – kakko will not be able to fulfill their space. yup! hayes and zucc both thrived on their new teams and the rangers were at a .564 point percentage

standings predictions. (bold prediction is where that team placed and their points)

1st: washington capitals - 94 points 1st - 90 points

2nd: philadelphia flyers - 89 points 2nd - 89 points (spot freaking on)

3rd: pittsburgh penguins - 88 points 3rd - 86 points

4th: new jersey devils - 86 points 8th - 68 points

5th: carolina hurricanes - 81 points 4th - 81 points

6th: new york islanders - 79 points 5th - 80 points

7th: new york rangers - 75 points 7th - 79 points

8th: columbus blue jackets - 72 points 6th - 81 points

the atlantic division.

the florida panthers? yeah, they’re gonna explode. with bobby luo out of there and bob in, they’re gonna be a serious threat. however, bob might suffer a few injuries here and there. i mean, yeah. this happened. but i don’t recall bob having any injuries!

spencer knight will sign his elc at the end of his first year at boston college, starting next season and so forth in the minor league. wishful thinking

this will be a tough division this year! usually the metro is the really close division, the one that you never really know whos playoff bound until the end, but the atlantic might be giving the metro a run for their money. nope! not one bit!

THE TORONTO MAPLE LEAFS WILL MAKE IT OUT OF THE SECOND ROUND. there, i said it. tba!

the leafs will finally break the curse - however, they do not play boston in the first round and will lose to the b’s in the second round. tba... we shall see.

boston will go onto the eastern conference finals but will lose to the philadelphia flyers in game 7. tba... obviously i didnt predict a pandemic happening

tampa bay will be a powerhouse like they were the previous regular season, but once again will fail to show up in the playoffs. they will not be swept. powerhouse indeed... but not best in their division.

ottawa will have a (slight!) comeback season! they will not be amazing, but they will not be as awful as they have been. i think i just felt bad and said this. this did not happen.

buffalo will have a MUCH better season this year. ummmm kinda?

montreal will have an above mediocre season. carey price will sustain another injury, leaving montreal to rely on one of their prospects. pretty much mediocre. i think i remember price being injured.

cole caufield will sign with the canadiens the end of this season, or will sign if wisconsin loses early in the playoffs and the canadiens make it. wishful thinking... caufield to wisconsin for one more year.

detroit will fall to the bottom of the standings. yes. very much so. #getlarkinout

john tavares will have the c in toronto. auston matthews will have an a. toronto will be set on fire. not literally lmao yup! this happened and i’m proud of it:)

standings predictions. (i am VERY proud of this)

1st: tampa bay lightning - 115 points 2nd - 92 points

2nd: boston bruins - 108 points 1st - 100 points

3rd: toronto maple leafs - 103 points 3rd - 81 points

4th: florida panthers - 99 points 4th - 78 points

5th: montreal canadiens - 94 points 5th - 71 points

6th: buffalo sabres - 89 points 6th - 68 points

7th: ottawa senators - 86 points 7th - 62 points

8th: detriot red wings - 79 points 8th - 39 points

the pacific division:

honestly the pacific is really iffy for me. i dont really like any of these teams besides the flames and the ‘nucks. this is a really mediocre division overall.  yes, they were mediocre.

matthew tkachuk will sign with the calgary flames. will suffer an injury early on in the season. he did sign, but no injury for tkachuky early in the season. it was in december.

edmonton will be mediocre. #getmcdavidoutofedmonton connor and leon will carry the team once more, the team will start off weak but make their way up in the standings as the season progresses. by the time they make their way up the ranks it will be too late. nope! edmonton shocked us ALL this year, and even before the pandemic they were on track to make the post season.

phil kessel will have almost no impact on the arizona coyotes whatsoever. he will have a horrible season without crosby. yeeaaahhh. kessel had 14-24-38 this season, but last season while playing in pittsburgh he had 27-55-82.

the vancouver canucks will be significantly better, however, quinn hughes will sustain an injury midway through the season, causing the canucks to suffer. the canucks were actually doing really well! quinn hughes did sustain an injury, but at the beginning of march. 

los angeles will still suffer to rebuild their franchise. jonathan quick will be injury plagued. with the signing of turcotte, who really knows however quick did not sustain any injuries this season.

anaheim will be a little bit better than they have been! not amazing, but not bottom of the league rankings. i’m saying they could end up being from 22nd - 18th ish nope! anaheim finished 27th.

viva las vegas! vegas will have a bit of a comeback season similar to their inaugural season. yup!

san jose will fall in the rankings ever so slightly. they will make a decent trade at some point in the season. san jose fell HARD in the standings. 

standings predictions.

1st: calgary flames - 103 points 4th - 79 points

2nd: vegas golden knights - 99 points 1st - 86 points

3rd: vancouver canucks - 92 points 3rd - 78 points

4th: san jose sharks - 89 points 8th - 63 points

5th: edmonton oilers - 80 points 2nd - 83 points

6th: anaheim ducks - 73 points 6th - 67 points

7th: los angeles kings - 70 points 7th - 64 points

8th: arizona coyotes - 68 points 5th - 74 points

the central division.

dylan strome and alex debrincat will light the league up again once more - but this time, even more so than last season. they are the toews and kane 2.0 and will certainly be able to hold the fort down in chicago when the two retire. dylan strome had 12-26-38 and alex debrincat had 18-27-45. not awful.

dylan strome will have a 65+ point season. keep in mind strome was traded a few months into the season, imagine what his stats would look like if he had been with chicago the entire season? wishful thinking. but if we had played a full season i believe he would’ve at least made 50.

patrik laine will be traded from the winnipeg jets, but the jets will pull a new york islanders. they lose one of their franchise players but will still manage to kill it. nope! this did not happen, however there were many rumors of laine being traded. fortnite legend.

colorado will be a powerhouse this season. with the addition of andre burakovsky, burky will find himself in denver and will be back to his normal self. yup! colorado managed to surprise everyone with their run.

the reigning 2019 stanley cup champions will suffer the post-cup summer. they will not make it past the second round of the playoffs. well, we shall see.

minnesota will have a slightly better season - they will start to make their comeback. with a new general manager hopefully they will be able to start conspiring a new plan to get their team back up. hopefully they will be better at drafting players they really need. umm... no. but they did make the playoffs with the formatting.

the wild and the flyers will make a trade. nope!

dallas will pretty much stay the same. they wont be much better, wont be much worse. not a lot will happen with the stars this year. pretty much! the stars finished 4th last season and 3rd this season.

nashville will possibly make the playoffs but will have an early first round exit. duchene will be a problem. tba, but dont think duchene is a problem.

standing predictions.

1st: winnipeg jets - 104 points 5th - 80 points

2nd: chicago blackhawks - 96 points 7th - 72 points

3rd: colorado avalanche - 93 points 2nd - 92 points

4th: nashville predators - 90 points 4th - 78 points

5th: st. louis blues - 85 points 1st - 94 points

6th: dallas stars - 83 points 3rd - 82 points

7th: minnesota wild -  80 points 6th - 77 points

final predictions.

eastern conference finals champions: philadelphia flyers

western conference finals champions: colorado avalanche (bold)

stanley cup final champions: philadelphia flyers

i’ll update after the post season:)

#my season predictions #the recap #nhl #hockey #philadelphia flyers #dallas stars #winnipeg jets #calgary flames #edmonton oilers #anaheim ducks #san jose sharks #los angeles kings #arizona coyotes #tampa bay lightning #florida panthers #carolina hurricanes #washington capitals #pittsburgh penguins #boston bruins #vancouver canucks #toronto maple leafs #ottawa senators #montreal canadiens #minnesota wild #chicago blackhawks #new york rangers #new jersey devils #new york islanders #vegas golden knights #st louis blues

[jesspeonwrites]

Silencer AU: Part 22

AND BY SOON I MEAN NOW!!! SKFDJGHDFKJHG IT’S BEEN 3 MONTHS I’M SORRY I JUST DIDNT HAVE ANY IDEA HOW TO GET TO THE NEXT PLOT POINT (ALSO I LEFT YALL ON A CLIFFHANGER MY BAD)

Someone slapped the bars of the cage only to find out that somehow, they weren’t an illusion. 

“Chat Noir, the cage is real!” 

“Don’t use your cataclysm yet Chaton, it could be another trap.” Ladybug called back, not taking her eyes off Volpina. She was busy draping herself over the bars and smirking at everyone. 

“This was almost too easy, Ladybug! Are you sure you’re not losing your edge? Getting all the heroes into one convenient spot and trapping them… Now I just have to wait for Hawkmoth!” Lila’s voice morphed into Mayura’s as she spoke, and Volpina turned into a puff of orange smoke. Mayura stepped out of the shadows, only she wasn’t Mayura this time. She was a new fox akuma, and she had two flutes. 

“One for illusions, and one for the real thing. You were right about this being a trap, but you just couldn’t figure it out, could you?” She simpered. 

Ladybug looked around the cage at all of her friends and classmates. They were poised to fight, just like she was. 

“What do you want, Mayura?” She dead-eyed her. 

“The same thing as always, insect. Hand them over. All of them.” Mayura held her hand out just inside the bars. 

Ladybug launched herself, grabbing her hand and pulling Mayura straight into the bars. “Someone find the akuma and help me hold her!” Luka and Kagami came to the front as everyone latched onto Mayura’s arm. She couldn’t play a flute one-handed.

“Wait, find her brooch!” 

“It’s not on her.”

It became apparent why a second later when a blue feather landed, creating a gigantic nightmare of a peacock INSIDE the cage. 

Luka grabbed the akuma just as the peacock started pecking, allowing Mayura to take off before the transformation wore off and revealed her identity. That was well and good, but now they had to figure out who she was to defeat the senti-peacock. 

Or, they would’ve, if it hadn’t been destroyed seconds later. 

“Dammit!” 

“Chat Noir, are you alright?” Ladybug called over the sea of heroes. He’d been in back fending off the peacock while everyone else tried to keep Mayura’s hand inside the cage. 

“I’m fine My Lady, just a few pecks.” He worked his way through to proudly display the cut on his forehead where he’d been hit. The suit was already healing the damage, but there would probably still be a scratch when he detransformed. 

“Do we go after her?” Ryukko brandished her sabre, looking for all the world like she was about to make a peacock roast the second Ladybug gave her an answer. 

“She’ll be long gone by now, ‘Yukko.” Roi Singe put a hand on her shoulder in sympathy. 

In a rare display of emotion, Kagami stamped her foot on the ground. 

“Sorry everyone. I messed up.” Ladybug sighed, rubbing her temples. They’d been so close! “Just… go get some sleep. We’ll have to try to lure them out another way.” 

“If we knew their identities we could use someone as bait…” Pegase muttered, clearly annoyed with the lack of data. 

Ladybug looked at Chat Noir in silent question, and he nodded. “Can everyone meet up tomorrow once your daily activities are over? I… might have an idea. And if it doesn’t work, we should all be training even harder anyways. I feel like we’re going to be having a big showdown very soon.”

The next day had everyone suited up and seated patiently on a secluded roof listening to Ladybug explain that they’d been tracking Hawkmoth and Mayura for a long time now and that she and the Guardian had theorized that the villains were somehow connected to Adrien. Everyone took that rather harshly, as expected. Adrien was their friend, and for him to be connected to something like this was unthinkable. The relief on their faces once Ladybug explained that they knew he wasn’t directly involved was palpable. 

Carapace’s grin was by far the largest. “There’s no way someone as cool as Adrien would be working with Hawkmoth.”

“Pardon me, Ladybug, but are you suggesting we use Adrien as bait?” Pegase asked, adjusting his sunglasses.

“I did ask him, and he’s volunteered to be bait. That’s why I called you all here. We don’t want to draw attention from anyone but Hawkmoth. Y’know, for Adrien’s safety. If he really is connected to Hawkmoth somehow, there would be a huge scandal.”

“What’s the plan, LB?” Guard Dog asked, arm looped protectively around the Bee holder. Watching Guard Dog train Sabrina with the Bee had been the highlight of Ladybug’s week when she’d finally handed it out. Stinger was very adept and always had Ladybug’s back.

“Well, we need to go somewhere that Hawkmoth can see us, but no one else can. We don’t have to do it today, either. We just need to come up with a plan.”

As Ladybug was finishing her sentence, Chat Noir slunk out of the alley and onto the rooftop. Everyone went silent.

“Chat!” Someone whisper-yelled. The smiles on everyone’s faces at seeing him went very far towards mending Adrien’s shattered heart.

“Is it safe for you to be out? Ladybug told us you weren’t going to come out for anything but akumas!”

He shot Ladybug a grin and shrugged. “Have any of you ever tried herding a cat?”

“You heard about the Adrien plan? I can’t believe he’s actually going to let us use him as bait!”

“Oh, I’d believe it.” Chat responded, sharing a look with LB. 

“Got any ideas for where to contact Hawkmoth that’s private enough that Adrien wouldn’t be exposed to the public?”

Chat tapped his chin, looking around. He hadn’t been home in almost a week, so he still wasn’t sure where his father’s lair was. He figured it had to be somewhere connected to his study, since he rarely left. 

“We might need to do a little recon before we can--” Chat started.

“-CHAT!!!” Ladybug hissed, grabbing his arm and shaking him suddenly.

“What?!” 

Everyone drew their weapons, instantly forming a circle around the two heroes. 

Ladybug looked around at everyone, then at her yoyo. “Hhhhhh, hang on, I’m going to text you this. It’s between us only, got it?”

“Of course.” Chat nodded, looking around the circle at everyone. He didn’t think anyone would read over his shoulder, but he couldn’t be too safe. 

‘Are you cool with leaving the ring at the Guardian’s and going home??’

‘W H A T’

‘Hear me out!! We know the Rabbit can move through time and rewrite memories, so what if you pretend that your memory was wiped???’

‘...I’m not really a fan of leaving Plagg behind?? Also?? This is insane????’

‘Ugh come on, it gives you a chance to get back in the house and collect intel!’

‘And if my father quarantines me or uses me as bait to get you guys to come rescue me??’

‘Uhhhhh there’s like 16 of us and 2 of them. Also Mayura’s getting destroyed by the Peacock, so like, really we just gotta fight HM.’

‘M’lady. No.’

‘Party pooper. :p’

‘:p’

‘Wait what if you used the Snake and just kept second-chancing’

‘Still don’t like it’

‘You’d only have to do it once and you could keep the ring on you, too’

‘And viperion??? Have u asked him???’

‘Not yet??? Duh???? If he says yes tho would you do it?’

‘UUUUUUUGH  F I N E. u owe me big time if this goes south.’

‘I owe you big time anyways’

Chat’s baton and Ladybug’s yoyo clicked shut at the same time. She was beaming at him. The sight made his heart hurt a little, but it was well worth it. Now, to figure out what he was going to say to this father… “Rena, Viperion, we’re going to need both your miraculous for the first part of this plan. Is that alright with you?” “Definitely, LB!” “Sure.” 

“Alright, I’ll meet you both at your usual spots. Once part one is over, I’ll return your miraculous and call everyone back to let you know what our next steps are.”

“Is Adrien going to be alright? He’s my classmate, you know.” Alya rubbed her arm nervously as she handed the Fox necklace to Ladybug. “His family life isn’t the greatest, either…”

“I’ve seen your class. He has a good support system. His best friend is Carapace, after all.” A soft laugh escaped Ladybug’s lips. “You’re a good friend, Alya Cesaire. Your entire class… they’re all good people.” 

Alya smiled, flushing before her eyes turned steely. “You’d better take good care of him, or I’ll send Carapace after you AND Chat Noir!” 

The girls laughed and exchanged a brief hug before Ladybug swung off to retrieve her boyfriend’s Miraculous. 

He was whispering something to Sass when she landed, but promptly shut up and held out the Miraculous. He seemed… pained.

“Is he going to be alright? Last time…” Luka shuddered, thinking back to what Ladybug had told him after his first time as Viperion. How Adrien had tried to rescue her thousands of times and continued to fail.

“He’ll be alright. I promise, Luka. And if we need you to wield it again, I’ll come get you right away.” It felt weird, to be taking back her boyfriend’s Miraculous to give to Adrien again. His failures as Aspik still kept her up some nights. How many times they’d failed. Realizing that they’d only succeeded with Chat Noir. She swallowed and shook her head again, clearing the thoughts away before they took a darker turn. “Yeah. He’ll be fine.”

Luka placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder and quirked his brow, just like he always did when she was Marinette. “Are YOU alright, Ladybug? You seem stressed.”

She gave him a strained smile and nodded. “I’ll be better once this is all over.”

#silencer au #silencer #marinette dupain cheng #luka couffaine #lukanette #adrien agreste #hawkmoth #mayura #nathalie sancoeur #gabriel agreste #lila rossi #ladybug #chat noir #viperion #rena rouge #carapace #aspik #alya cesaire #wang fu #master fu #pegase #max kante #sabrina raincomprix #chloe bourgeois #dog!chloe #bee!sabrina #ryuko #Kagami Tsurugi #roi singe #kim le chien

[blookmallow]

and heres a pile from That Time I Journeyed Across Half The Continent To Try To Get To Solitude To Buy My Daughter A Dress But Then Somehow Ended Up Involved In A Vampire Conspiracy Instead 

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i was just MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS when i suddenly got attacked by TWO dragons, ran into that house there to try to get away, but the house was owned by some kind of mage who was very, very angry at me for being in his house so then HE started trying to kill me and was a lot stronger than i was prepared to deal with so i ran away from THAT 

and then immediately ran directly into an angry sabre cat 

what are the ODDS

i forget exactly what all ended up happening here i know i killed the cat and at least one of the dragons. i think the other one flew off somewhere. i killed the mage guy and ransacked his house lmao

it didnt have to be this way buddy you decided it was murder time before you even gave me 2 seconds to explain 

i dont even know this guy he was bragging about being The Best Fighter and challenged me so i punched him a lot until he gave in and now we’re friends. i appreciate him

anyway so this town has a house that recently burned down and the family who lived there all died in the fire except for the husband, who then immediately moved in with a new girlfriend, which everyone in town thinks is Very Suspect but nobody can prove anything so i went to investigate that situation 

oh he fucking did it 

A GHOST!!!!!! I FOUND A GHOST! A REAL ONE THIS TIME

:( she gave me some clues to help find out what happened to her and as excited as i am about ghosts its. really sad

i dont know why the daughter is a ghost but the mother’s spirit doesn’t seem to be here 

i wasnt getting any useful info out of the father other than that hes shady as fuck and i realized i couldnt find his new girlfriend anywhere, i tried waiting outside her house for a while but she just. either wouldn’t come back or wouldn’t come out. i HAD to know what was going on and finally picked the lock and broke in, which was a bad idea bc hroggar and the girlfriend were both there at the time and very, very angry at me for breaking in, hOWEVER,

I FOUND HER SLEEPING IN A COFFIN IN THE BASEMENT SHE’S A FUCKING!!!!! VAMPIRE!!!!!

not sure why a vampire has garlic in her house though

i got killed and debated trying to break in again and be more prepared to kill them this time but decided against it and went back to following the leads from the ghost child. i definitely found this out before i was supposed to lmao

found the kid’s grave, which. had been dug up. im still not clear on why 

ah. yes i see 

anyway so it turned out the girlfriend was a vampire and she had another woman in town who was also a vampire set the fire and hroggar was under her thrall the whole time, which was why he was cool with all this and was acting so weird, they were trying to slowly take over the entire town for their coven but i fucked it up, killed the vampires and released hroggar from her, set the child’s soul at rest, as you do. hroggar didn’t do it and was under alva’s control the whole time but i still kinda dont trust him that much. he later thanked me for saving him from her though 

then we went after the coven leader to make sure they wouldnt come back again

IVE GOT A WHOLE MILITIA COMIN AFTER THIS VAMPIRE WITH ME

or i Did lmao they all enthusiastically followed me out to the cave where the vampires live and then like, almost all of them left me  

only these guys stayed. my loyal followers

thonnir stayed because his wife was one of the vampires (probably turned/taken by alva, i dont think she joined them on her own will or at least he doesnt believe that) and he wanted to get justice for her 

and then, of course, Guy Who Fights For Me Now Because I Punch Really Good 

we killed the leader and i was SO afraid one or both of these guys were gonna get dead in there (i dont rly know them but still) (also thonnir has a son who already lost his mother so like, ) but i managed to complete the quest with both of them alive by the end of it 

i mentioned this adventure to my dad (skyrim is like the Only thing we have in common so its like 90% of what we talk about now lmao) and hes just like “you know it is a Pretend child,” and im like yes father i understand the concept of a video game i am aware it is not a real child but i still dont want his pretend video game father to die at my side and make him a pretend video game orphan let me live :’ | 

also alva’s corpse is still just like. there. in the basement. hroggar’s still living there bc like. his house burned down, alva’s dead, i guess this is his new house now, but. just. didnt bother to do anything about the corpse in the basement. ok 

I FUCKING FINALLY MADE IT OUT TO SOLITUDE THOUGH :’) it is a beautiful city i like it very much. i havent explored a whole lot yet though its big. apparently there was a big execution scene happening when you first enter the city but i came in through some weird side door and couldnt figure out where all the yelling was coming from and just kinda ignored it and missed the whole fucking thing lmao  

ok you’re the one out here with a hairstyle that makes you look like you’ve got two horns growing out of your head but go off i guess 

the palace is really beautiful too 

please im gay 

forget the men though ive been out there in the taverns and let me tell you there is nobody you want to talk to in those 90% of the time

,,,thank you thats very threatening 

boots boots boots boots boots boots boots boots b

BABY GOT HER DRESS IN THE END THOUGH :’) 

i brought a doll or something back for lucia i forget. i like her green dress i havent seen any other kids wearing that one 

as much as i love my daughters the kids in skyrim all. look. kind of the same :’) lucia’s hair is different but like. gonna be honest i like being able to tell which kid is mine lmao i might get sofie another dress that stands out better 

i dont rly like the yellow one as much but it’d be. distinct. i dont want to make them both wear the same clothes so 

#lucy plays skyrim

[gargoyleofhumankindness]

some initial thoughst on star wars rise of skywalker

- this movie is great 

- i really liked it 

- everytime they said rey is a palpatine i laughed for two reasons 

1. friendpatine 

2. i never considered that palpatine was his last name 

what is his first name 

its so funny to me that is last name is palpatine i would have assumed it was either first name pal last name patine or that palpatine was his first name i never even considered it was a family name thats so fucking funny to m e

- general, general. that is the gayest thing ever genuinely. saying comrade is gay saying general is next level gay respect for the boys 

- when rey got two lightsabers i was so stoked for some doube wielding and was low key disappointed to only get a cross defense but still cool i guess 

- so disappointed rey killed k*** r** only to instantly bring him back to life let the piece of shit die 

- and then he did so thats fine 

- leia’s jedi training made me so happy 

- rey calling leia master made me so happy 

- really good bants 

- really happy to see squad squad squas

- r2 calling cp his best friend made me cry 

- THE MOMENT WHERE ALL THE SHIPS COME IN AND THE MUSIC PLAYS

THAT MOMENT IS THE REASON STAR WARS EXISTS 

IT IS ALL THAT I HAVE EVER WANTED FROM STAR WAR

FUCKING PHENOMENAL MADE ME CRY MADE EVERY OTHER SIN OF THIS MOVIE DISAPPEAR I WOULD BE HAPPY TO JUST SEE THAT SCENE AND NOTHING ELSE FOR LIFE 

- when they fall into the sand pit all i thought was that photo set of ps where hermione avada kedvras harry and the end credits roll. what if that was jus tthe end of the movie 

- starting the movie with kylo is a fucking travesty 

- cutting to shenanigans and rey meditating with rocks and leia almost makes up for it 

- it felt like there were more female characters and i like that 

- the final scene at the farm honestly tears 

- when she says rey skywalker i punched the air so hard i have no investment in the whole who is rey’s parents the controversy of skywalker etc etc etc but i felt that moment was earned and awesome 

- chewies reaction to leai was my reaction also and made me sob hardddddd

- WHEN ALL THE JEDIS SPOKE TO REY THERE WERE FEMALE VOICES AND I HAVE DECIDED THAT INCLUDED ASHOKA THE BABE 

- bb8 making a friend 

- the shot of the two suns and bb8 was some cinematic beauty 

- when rey force jumped and chopped the wing off kylo’s buff tie fighter 

- kylo’s buff tie fighter is hilarious to me 

- rey burning it is excellent 

- rey wearing the helmet and flying the x wng big happy

- omg huge shout out to the yak things fucking here for them 

- also for the ex-storm trooper idk her name but icon 

- there were a lot of shots of trooper dead bodies, and on the death star all the empty helmets. i think its really good that they were showing the aftermath of the rebellion’s battles, bc the fact is you cheer when they blow up the death star and the destroyers but there are hundreds of people on those ships and we never see an acountability for that, its just lets go blow up the bad guys even tho a few months (years? what is time in the star war univeres) finn would have been on the ship, any number of those people had potential for good or where good and trapped in a system where this was their only option. i think showing the helmets really brought that into view for the first time and i think thats really valuable 

- hux being the spy and immedietly getting killed is fucking hilarious 

- leias sabre is so pretty i want one 

- storm troopers getting jet packs before poe gets one is a betrayal 

- who doesnt watn to see that pilot go fucking off with a jet pack 

- seeing the ewoks made me really happy also YUB YUB 

- goddamn it kylo why didnt you chuck the sabre in the first movie could have saved us all a lot of trouble 

- the knights of ren made me laugh every time they appeared 

- why where all their weapons so mediavial and shit 

- they were murdered in less than a minute they are clearly really shit 

- i mean no suprise but still fucking funny 

- skeevy still looks skeevy and with all the med stuff just made me think of davros in withces familiar low key was expecting pcap in a dalek to scoot in and start shooting exterminate 

- also i was haunted by calling skeevy lightening mcgee idk where that thought came from but every time he used lightening i would think lightening mcgee

- at the end of the day when you hear the music and the STAR WARS logo appears nothing else matters that is just something that brings me so much joy. we can complain and deep dive and metasise about these stupid movies but you cannot take away the feeling of the first beats of the theme and the opening credits that is something incredible and special and so many people have felt that in their lives and that is amazing

#star wars #star wars spoilers #rise of skywaker spoilers #rise of skywalker #please dont be spoilered by my ramblings #also i dont know anything about star wars do not respond if you dont like this movie i did and i dont care to know why its shit #you can view it as terrible but you cant taint the fact that i went and watched it and enjoyed it

[queencryo]

cdda:

so. today i honked a car horn, cuz zombies keep spawni g on my property (big ol farm im hopefully gonna start building walls arounf soon) bc i have wandering spawns n such on (this also means my two remaining horses and two dogs are all cooped up in yhe chicjen coop so that zombies will stop truing yo fight them)

so an6way. i honk yhe horn yo get zombies to spawn, tjinking yeah. lets kinda clear out this area a little (iirc once you kill enough zonbies in an area it stays empty).

next day: like five shitheads spawn inside my greenhouse, and destroy basically every planter in there and most of the greenhouse itself!!! ugh. i clear up the wreckage and.... leave most of it sitting there. maybe ill rebuild at some point? i also move my mostly-intact electric car (with solar panels! :) ) far away from my property, that way it doesnt get roughed up in any scuffles

next day: jesus fuck. i swear two hordes got spawned in different parts of my property. it was. not a hard fight at all, actually (linsey has hells of dodge skill, is fast, and has a cavalry sabre). i had to make like three seperate burn piles, because my corpse/burn pit filled up before i had even a quarter of em in there. so fhat was fun. i didnt even really loot much ofd the bodies, iirc there was basiclaly nothing of interest unless i wanted to clean blood and guts off leather pants to be cut up for raw materials. they ddid almost tear apart like. my backpack AND my utility vest tho, so... was lucky i managed to get those off before they got torn up irreparably.

current plan is to get palisades around mpst of the property (logs are easy, if time-consuming, to get. wire to tie em together with has mostly been from chain-link fences from the nearby town). that... hasnt really started yet, but i5s ginna be a multi-week project, id not more, to actually get all that set up (each one will need about 1/4 - 1/2 of a tree, and i will need.... idk really, but probably over a hundred palisade walls). maybe itd help to get some help, but the only humans ive seen were bandits outside the mansion i was holed up in, anx they... didnt really seem friendly (also last time i went near bandits it took me ~15 quick saves to actually live theu it. so.... fuck guns btw). so. all on my own, lol... might do some packed earth in a few places? that needs a wood frame under the dirt, tho. oooo what if i placed one od those every like 5-10 spaces, so my entire wall doesnt go up if it catches on fire? good idea good idea...

on the bright side, i do have a forge and such set up. i dont have an anvil or like... any tools for it but a hammer, but. we're getting there, lol. need to head into town sometime and get a frame from somewhere (probably cutting up another car wreck lol). need to find a hack-saw, would make that a lot easier... no luck finding such a saw thus far tho. hardware store was useless; some fertilizer, some concrete, not much else. push comes to shove maybe i can make one once i get the forge completely ready? still need an anvil and a swage/die set.

((also apparently taking apart a split rail fence gives you 1000 nails? thats... probably a bug.))

i kind of wanna burn that mansion down. gotta make sure its picked clean first, though. not really a *reason* to burn it down, even, hell whoever owned it probably saved my fuck8n life considering my other options i had at the time (none, basically). not to mention the sword i found in it thats prolly saved my life a half-dozen times. but... i still kind of want to burn it down? maybe i can burn eown that bandit camp instead. that DOES sound pretty great. buuuut then theyll probably come kill me. so. maybe ilk just burn down the mansion lmao.

really wish i could find a decent sidearm somewhere. well. i mean i HAVE one, but its chambered in the one pistol ammo i dont have. so im kind of carrying around a flintlock pistol eberywhere i go (what tje fuck was the up with the dude who owned that mansion? some kind of obsession with history or something? thatd explain the stone axr and the clay pots, too... and the swords...)

Oh! also a few days (weeks? idk) ago I killed one of the horses that were on this property. I then... spent a solid 2-3 full days frantically trying to preserve all of its meat before it rotted. I think I got around 2/3s of it, though a lot of that is smoked. So... I’m gonna be eating smoked horse meat for the next, like. 3 weeks, as much as I can. Before all of THAT rots. I think I’ll be able to ma- wait, fuck. There’s like. 20 lb of sausage that’s on the same kind of cloooooock... well. I mean I guess at least I’ll be the only fat survivor? Kind of a shame I can’t keep this good any longer, though. (oo, maybe I should dig a root cellar? I mean, it’s not really “warm” here this kind of year, but like. Root cellars keep things even cooler, I think? Maybe I could do that, idk. I haven’t really looked at a thermometer in a few weeks lol)

#why did this transition to an in-character journal halfway thru #god #cdda #warbling #now with readmore

[clockworkkatana]

emoji review: fencing

as someone whos held a rapier maybe twice in his entire life i feel exhaustively qualified to be conducting this experiment in meme revivification

apple starting us off nice as always. excellent form, excellent kicks, we even have some whiffling effect on the foil to demonstrate the motion of the piece. overall a nice piece, 7/10

less than inspired would be putting it kindly id say. stiff form, blade is too short to be effective in dueling, and the mask looks like a microphone, 4/10

didnt realize mr game and watch was a fencer, or that the stick figures that tell me which bathroom to go in had recreational activities other than conforming to gender roles, 2/10

not bad! if your middle aged slightly-pudgy dad took up beekeeping and went postal with a scimitar, 3/10

now were getting somewhere. fantastic pose. going in for the kill. this is what murder looks like folks, 9/10

now here we have whatsapp showing us everything you need in a good fencing emoji. note that the smaller size of the piece doesnt mean a lack of detail, something our friends at samsung and google could learn from. good sense of motion, good color scheme, good shading, and good whiffle effect, 8/10

this is google after taking some fencing lessons and apparently purchasing some period-appropriate armor and a proper fencing sabre with a nice cup hilt. does look a bit like hes reciting shakespeare though, 7/10, good character progression

empowering. inclusive. a cutting figure, a cutting weapon. minimalist. a little stiff, but overall hitting all the right notes, 6/10

a passable form and bonus points for making the mask an actual mesh instead of some terrible void, but youre not doing anything with a sword that length, 4/10, try a blacksmith instead of a toy chest

‘dex and ‘pedia are tied for the top here, and id pay money to see their matchup, 9/10, is that julie d’aubigny or am i just projecting again

#long / #strife specibi #yeah its going in the tag you got a problem

[mabsj]

30/12/19

Hellooowww Tumblrr Diary... Late update I guess because my schedule is abit tight today.. (29/12).. I schedule myself spending time with families, they wanted to have their lunch at bedok Sri Bistari.. Should try and if you want to eat Roti John, Nasi Ayam Penyet, thats a place I can recommend.. If someone who loves to eat Pengat Durian, they are selling too.. But have to be quick because its limited only.. Well Diary, today was a tiring day.. Spend time with my family for lunch at bedok, then I went for my fitness to gain back not muscles, but strength.. ahahaha.. But if muscles would be fine.. hahahah.. Anywayssss... Supposedly I'm meeting my best buddy (Hisyam).. Well....Turns out I cancel it because He's somewhat late so I want to finish my fitness early.. So I texted him to cancel and we find another day Insyaa'Allah.. So after having lunch, spend time with my family, send them back home, change my attire bla bla bla, get to my car, drive off to ECP(East Coast Park).. Yeeeaaapp.. I decided to change the menu.. I mean...venue.. So I make some quick jog, and my cousin called.. This cousin of mind, He's a littllllee bit fetish.. Not fetish in that.. But fetish in riding up.. Yeah.. He pass his bike license and buy a 1st hand bike.. He loves bikes.. But for me,, I loves cars.. Not luxuries I supposed.. So I continue my jog and some push ups, pull up and I jogg back to where I park my car because Im meeting him there.. So he arrive and we walk to this so called like a foot bench.. Cant describe it but if you were a photogenic type of person who loves to take a picture with nice view scenery of the sunset, thats the place.. So he sat down having out nonsense conversations and he ask me if I would ever accompany him if he were want to ride up with me.. My answer is, I WOULD LOVE TO.. Like who doesnt want to travel right ?? Drive up, see the scenery, visiting neighbour country.. But he told me, Im much more faster driver than him.. But woah.. I have to stop that.. He know I've been to Thailand by driving up.. Border of Narathiwat.. So he ask me, whats the feeling like.. I said, wonderful.. Lots of Challenging.. He wants to try but he was scared.. Because his bike is R15 V3.. 2B bike.. But I said, my nephew ride X1R to thailand and he is also 2B bike.. Much smaller tank than yours.. But he manage..If a smaller bike can manage, why not you.. I said to him.. Your pitstop is mucb more than car.. I drove up, my only pitstop is top up some petrol.. Which is from full till empty lights on, it took me 450km.. Smaller bikes can reach up est 150km-250km depending on what type of 2B bikes.. Cars is more tiring even if we drive fast, even if we got aircon, roof, but once you fall asleep, thats it.. that car will turn into a bed of yourself..

So he ask me why dont I change my car to drive like bigger CC cars example like BMW, MERC, AUDI, VOLKSWAGEN, JAGUAR, ESTIMA, VELLFIRE, ALPHARD.. And I told him, thats is what every single person dream of to have.. But mine is different.. I dont dream of having that car.. I dont like is.. My favourate car is sports car.. Not exotic supercar like skyline gtr.. nope.. Thats not me.. I prefer sports car like Subaru Impreza, Mitsubishi Lancer GT, Colt plus Turbo.. Those legally modified cars.. Eventhough they aren't that luxury, but the interior you can make it luxury.. My mindset of buying a car is not about luxury or feeling luxury.. Its about traveling with ease, comfort.. Its how you change to make it comfortable.. Yes I drove a red Subaru.. Its loud.. I named that car Sabre.. Because its loud and fast except not blow off valve sound.. And I save that my money and bought that car and pay full cash.. But I have to let it go due to lots of mechanical failure.. So I change to Mitsubishi Colt Plus Turbo.. Not so sporty and big.. Just a small zippy white car looks like a hatchback.. But the engines ladies and gentlement.. I was shock by with its pick up power and withstand power.. Its incredible.. Much faster than my Sabre(Subaru).. With Mivec Turbo, Smooth engine, Loud blow off valve sound, Turbo installed and thats a beauty.. I fall in love to that car and I trade in my Sabre to that.. And I named is, Beetle.. It looks like a beetle to me due to the body size and the face of the car..

Yeap.. Thats the beauty.. My longest journey with this lady is to Narathiwat Thailand.. I know Singapore cars heading to Thailand can only cross border at Kayu Hitam(Perlis).. So no choice.. I head there visiting my late uncle family there as we unable to visit him when he passed away.. So there was me(driver), passengers is my mum, cik rasid(Uncle), Cik noi(Aunty) and Ramdhan(Cousin).. 5pax in this car travelling to Narathiwat.. We depart at night around 9pm Singapore at my Aunty house.. So we go through via Tuas-Second Link and stop at gelang patah for them to buy food, snacks, cigg whatsoever.. we departed at 10pm.. I was the main and only driver.. I make calculations before the trip on how many times I need to pump, how many pitstop, and total KM journey, est total hours and est time arrival.. Initially it goes as plan as what I plan on hardcopy.. 1hr break on every pitstop.. Total hours including pit stop is 18hrs estimated including pit stop.. total journey, going there took me 1256km.. not counted as going back to singapore.. thats times 2..

So we depart from gelang patah at 10pm.. My first pit stop is Yong Peng bus terminal pit stop where every busses stop there.. We arrive there 1hr 15mins as what I clocked in inside my stopwatch.. But sadly many of the halal food is closed.. so we head to next RnR.. And gladly its open.. so we had some food to eat.. 1hr.. I finish my food, I go to the massage chair for massage.. insert in Rm10 and all mine.. but halfway I let my mom continue because the massage chair beside me spoiled.. hahahaha.. And we departed at 11.15pm.. I decided to have additional pit stop for me to had my cold bath to wake me up and drink some coffee, have some cigg.. not sure whats the pitstop name.. Because i've been driving for 2hrs and 30mins non stop and I feel sleepy.. Time was like around 2am plus.. I had my bath and drink strong coffee because normal coffee still makes me sleepy.. And smoke some sticks.. So time still shows 2am plus.. And I continue the trip.. The rest all are asleep.. Only me are awake.. In order for them to sleep peacefully, I plug in my earpods.. ahahaha.. So I played hip hop songs with full blast.. We reach KL RnR pitstop at around 3.45am.. shock huh.. I was driving 140km/h with 5pax inside.. hahahaha.. So they all had their meals whatever.. 4.30am, we continue the journey.. Same as usual, everybody was asleep.. I continue driving.. Drive about 2hr30mins, we arrive at Penang.. Slightly above penang.. ahahaha.. Time shown is 6am.. so me, my mum, my aunty went for our subuh prayers.. I felt fresh after my prayers.. so I grab myself some coffee and some fruits so we head on to our last RnR pit stop.. the Northbound i forgot the name is.. Its 45mins drive.. And there we had our morning freaking cold bath, and had our breakfast.. They thought its 1hr still.. But I told them, make it 2hrs.. Because we are early and ahead of our Schedule.. They are shock.. ahahaha.. I was shocked too.. Had my 2nd petrol pump and we buzz of to Changlun.. Still at malaysia but thats were I do my 3rd party insurance for thailand, white card and details of the pax inside my car and details of my car.. We reach Kayu Hitam at 9am.. And its fast.. Then we reach at Sadao border, thats where it my turn to get off from the car to get my export vehicle permit done.. total we spend there almost 2hrs including chop our passport.. Once done, we continue our journey in Thailand.. Welcome to Thailand..

The journey is not as comfortable as malaysia or singapore.. Its really rough.. Dont even think your car will be clean.. Its dirty with sand and muds.. We head on to Narathiwat Via Pattani.. Thats the highway for them though.. And the journey took us 3hrs by right.. BUT !!!! It drag till 4hrs.. BECAUSE !!! The waze GPS shows speed limit is 90km/h.. But actually they are driving 40-50km/h.. Skip the journey we reach narathiwat school at 4pm(Local Time).. Thailamd timing is 3pm(1hr behind).. We had my cousin to fetch us infront of the school and guide us inside.. Finally we reach..

We arrive at 4.15pm to our Late Uncle family house.. She cooked for us actually.. She knows I love tom yum and she cook it spicy for me.. hahahaha.. But sadly didnt get to.. Because, upon arriving, we greet and see them hug and cry, and me unloading all the stuff from my boot, and we chit chat, laugh, and on ome point, I lie down and poooofffff.... I was fast asleep.. My mum told me I was soundly asleep from 5pm(Local) till next day 10am(local).. ahahahaha..

Alright Diary..Will continue tomorrow as I need my sleep because Im working.. Good nighty..

[illidria]

Hi! Can I ask you for n°4 (for short sentence prompts) with Olivieer?

Here it is, finally! I`m sooooo sorry for the long wait! But thank you for the prompt, albeit not turning out too happy, it didnt turn out to be a total bummer either^^

I hope you like it :)

“I`m telling you, I had shivers running upand down my spine!”

“I`ve never seen something like that! Nowonder the General always gets what she wants, if she greets everybody likethat!”

“Not enough that we must endure bittercoffee and awful rations, but this?! I should file for a transport.”

Major Miles could barely believe what heheard. Briggs men were loyal to a fault! The General was revered amongst hermen, some even speaking of her as the Queen! While inwardly furious, he decidedto calmly and subtly question them, gauging if mutiny or disloyalty was to soonbe expected.

“Gentleman.”

Three soldiers snapping into a salute, notone of them any less than a Briggs veteran. If they spoke like this, there hadto be some good reason to.

“At ease. Something new to tell?”

Their demeanour changed from relaxed toslightly nervous again in the span of two sentences. Looks were exchanged, then1st Lieutenant Ewing started to talk tentatively.

“Major, if you do not mind the question,but have you ever seen the General smile?”

His anger evaporated, making way forbafflement. He`d been asked plenty of things about the General. Ranging fromtame things like haircare to if she could read your mind of if she reallykilled recruits for fun. Good brush, maybe and no were the answers. The men hadsomething else on their minds.

“Indeed, I have. On several occasions, why?”

Through all three of the men run a shiver.

“She greeted Major General Gardner today,with a smile like they were old friends, Sir. Permission to speak freely?”

He nodded, tense.

“It was almost sickeningly sweet. Not atall like the one many of the others told us about, when she`s about to engagein battle. She is aware of what Gardner has done to us, Sir. We would have notexpected her to seemingly be an old friend of his.”

Their fears and worries were legit and yetMiles could hardly contain the relaxation he felt. With few words, he explainedthat even General Armstrong can act very convincingly and then left to findher.

Gardner had just left her office, when shestepped inside. After a quick talk about what their visitor wanted and what hadto be hidden in accordance to that, he told her of the three men and theirfears.

She scoffed.

“My old friend Gardner, sure, next I inviteMustang over for tea. If I could have it my way, I`d shoot that ass-kissingprick right in the head.”

A smile pulled on Miles lips.

“Not with your sabre, Sir?”

“Tch! My poorsabre!”

“You know, the men wonder if you walk aroundCentral Command with that fake smile of yours? You know, the one you pull offwhen guys like Gardner, or Raven visit.”

Walking through the cellar of the Armstrongmansion, as always a step behind her, he heard her breath in deeply, as closeas she`d let herself get to sighing with her cubs near.

“High command knows what`s going on,there`s no need for me to fake a smile.”

Buccaneer took the answer as it was,knowing her better than most. The tank had been completely assembled by now,the two of them headed for it. Last things had to be talked about.

The technician looked up immediately whenshe stepped inside the deep-level garage, walking quick to meet her.

“Everything is in perfect working order,Sir. There only remains the question if we should tear down the hedges beforetomorrow, or simply drive over them. If we would tear them down people mightget susp…”

“You will drive around them!”

She spoke with force, brooking nocontradiction.

“There`s no use in saving Amestris, if mymother kills us all anyways after finding out that we ruined her prized hedges.Make sure the operators are aware of that and get your people inside theirbunks, it`s well past curfew.”

He kept himself from laughing loudly, oneof the few who`d ever met her mother, who`d ever seen the pained smile of anembarrassed daughter. Quickly the soldiers and technicians field out of thegarage, leaving him alone with her.

Casually she leaned against the tank. Itwas her favourite one, known for almost driving over Roy Mustang once. Shesighed and without preamble he stepped up to her.

“Are you nervous because of tomorrow?”

She huffed.

“I`m nervous about them brushing thehedges.”

He grinned widely and when she joined himwith a slight smile, it turned to a full blown, all-teeth grin. Mismatchedhands found her waist, his automail due for an exchange in the morning.

“If we survive, we survive. If we die, wedie.”

He said it almost softly, his smilechanging to the somewhat solemn kind. Two serious for her liking.

“Smile again, don’t look so gloomy, likewe`re some kind of Central pussy`s.”

His brows lifted in good humour, his handswandering further up to rest against her ribcage.

“Is that anorder?”

She said thefirst thing that came to her mind.

“It`s arequest. Please never stop smiling.”

The moodcould`ve changed back now, from happy to solemn again, but Buccaneer new plentyof ways to keep that from happening. Wanted to utilize them desperately, their possiblelast night alive something that should be celebrated. Still hands started tomove again, their intention clear.

“If you wantthat, I`ll smile until the very last moment.”

Their lips met.

“They say Captain Buccaneer was smilingwhen he passed.”

Falman had looked weirdly at her, whenshe`d asked him to confirm that for her. Had kind of looked squinty, nervousand would probably tell Mustang of that as soon as he could. She wasn’t sure ofhis absolute loyalty, couldn’t be, but she had to make sure.

It was a crumb of comfort to her in thedirect wake of the promised day. He`d heeded his promise, heeded her orders andhad taken her request to heart. They hadn’t been Central pussy`s, but being aBriggs bear could not keep you from dying either. They all were soldiers, plainand simple. Death could take them any time.

Sitting on the edge of her thrice-damnedfamily mansions roof, she let herself fall. Back against the roof, looking upinto the sky, she raised her glass to it, knowing better than to take a swig ofit now.

He`d proven himself cheeky, even in death.

And she honoured his last little jab with asmile, albeit a sad one.

[andrewuttaro]

New Look Sabres: GM 63 - PHI - Brandon Montour

The Flyers tonight are a really tough pill to swallow. Ugly mascots that end up changing the game aside, overly optimistic Sabres fans such as myself have been looking up in the standings at who these guys can catch, rather frustratingly so as of late. With a Flyers win tonight they surprise the Sabres from behind and hop ahead of them in the standings. Can you imagine that violent, orange cookie monster impersonator surprising you from behind? Want to hear another surprise from behind, no this isn’t a sex joke: Marco Scandella paired with Brandon Montour. OH VETERAN, MY VETERAN! WHATSOEVER WOULD COACH HOUSLEY DO WITHOUT YOU! Housley’s prioritization of veteran minutes is going to be a whole paragraph in the Season Retrospective isn’t it? Yea, THE SEASON RETROSPECTIVE THAT WILL HAPPEN IN APRIL IF HE CAN’T PROPERLY UTILIZE THIS ROSTER! Ok, stop, Andrew. Optimism; remember the optimism with which you started this blog. Ugh, what different days those were. Speaking of not making the playoffs, let’s talk trash about the last team the Sabres played in the playoffs! Philadelphia, the past of this match up it that old ballad about working class cities just smashing their blue-collar lunch pals at each other as hard as possible. The world and the NHL has changed and now a playoff matchup between these two teams looks more like it would be a speed-skill bonanza then any kind of grit-for-grit hockey men party. The Sabres are building something new while the Flyers are copying the Penguins model: yeah, I said Penguins! Sabretooth wasn’t wearing pants when Gritty wasn’t even a sparkle in Jakub Voracek’s eye yet! 2011’s rematch is a going to go for the Sabres in 6, you sloppy copycats. That was fun; too bad it’s going to make this next part harder. This was the night the playoffs died. But no, you’re New Look Sabres, you preach taking a New Look at this team time and time again! How can you say its over!? Well, eight points with twenty games left will do that to you. Luckily, we’re not focusing on that tonight.

New Flyer Ryan Hartman set the tone of this game leveling Rasmus Dahlin along the boards early. Zach Bogosian and the old-time hockey alliance came crashing in like you know and instigator penalty, other penalty, whatever-whatever it panned out to nothing. Want to know why contemporary hockey fans don’t give a shit about keeping fighting in the game old boys club? It doesn’t help. At best it gives your team a moderate morale boost at worst it chops years off dudes’ lives. Whatever, it didn’t help the Sabres win this game. If the Sabres weren’t outshot each period they were certainly outplayed. By eight minutes in the Flyers were already up 2-0 on the backs of Oskar Lindblom and Jakub Voracek. Let’s get something out of the way: this loss wasn’t because of Carter Hutton. He was left out to dry and when we look back on this season their will be poetry in that. More and more every year this club is Jack Eichel and friends. Our favorite Patriots fan put this team on his back and made us believe again like Tom Brady! Ok, that was gross to write. I’m sorry you had to read that. I’m going to collect myself now. Jack Eichel did get the puck from Skinner and did toe drag a fucking bullet in there, but the period ended 2-1 and even the grossly optimistic types like me still kind of felt this crap wasn’t going to get much better. Like the cold, cruel march of time closer to death the Sabres would get scored on once they began to give us hope. 15 minutes into the second period James van Riemsdyk redirects a puck in front and gets the orange boys up 3-1. What is that? This is one of those game Casey Mittelstadt flashes the kind of brilliance we’ll get from him on the regular in a year and a half or so? Awesome, New Sabre Brandon Montour gets the play going in the defensive zone that would eventually end in Casey Mittelstadt tapping in a goal via Evan Rodrigues and Conor Sheary. 3-2 Flyers would be the high-water mark of this game for the Sabres as the only positive highlight of the third period would be Travis Sandheim doing his Sabres ten game winning streak impression and crashing the net less then a minute in to get the Flyers their two-goal lead back. Whatever whatever, Claude Giroux, whatever whatever, can you believe they eliminated Caelynn on the Bachelor, whatever whatever; Sabres lose 5-2 in regulation and give up another spot in the standings falling to a full eight points back. The Panthers might still win their game at the posting of this and they can hop over the Blue and Gold too because irony has no bounds in the season of the ten-game winning streak that saw no playoffs.

So yes, it’s not over until the fat lady sings. There is a ridiculous scenario where the Sabres win 65-75% of their remaining games to sneak into the playoffs. As I began saying last night, start cushioning the blow now, fam. Enjoy what’s left of the ride but start thinking about what’s for dinner. I’m letting my soccer side out starting now. Hell, I just posted on my politics blog for the first time in like a month. Let loose, Spring is officially 21 days away even if playoffs aren’t. However, this is not how I’m ending the blog today. No sir: we have a new player to celebrate. Brandon Montour had about as decent a game as you can have in a loosing effort on the road when your new coach insists on putting you with a negative player that is really only in because he’s been in the league for a while. I mentioned Montour being the catalyst of the Mittelstadt goal play earlier, but Montour made some good moves in this game. He broke up a lot of opposition passes in the defensive zone, more than you expected before with this Sabres defense. For all you suburban hockey dads he also laid out a decent hit or two in the third period that feels right in a game against the Flyers. He made his mistakes too, struggling in the offensive zone shortly before the JVR goal. Nonetheless Montour is a clear addition to this team and if shit ever gets better here for a Sabres fan I have a feeling #62 will be a part of it. This one just hurt, and I very much look forward to turning my attention to the Rochester Americans for tomorrow’s Amerks Angle update. I’ll be discussing banners in that one so if you need a palette cleanser check back tomorrow.

In fact, cross-promotion city here because how long can we talk about this dreadful team, if you got an eye for Soccer, I have a whole soccer blog at Rochester Rhinos Outsider if you want to check in on that. I also have a politics blog but let’s keep it in the sports family for right now. Right now: I just want you to like, share and drop a comment on this post. Let’s commiserate together because now, with the deadline past this is the bed we’re sleeping in from now until April 6th, fam. I’d love to hear from you. If you’ve read this far you probably won’t mind a conversation with me either. Reply or @ me on twitter or DM on twitter or Tumblr. If you’re only on this blog because I posted that neat little graph last night, stick around, there’s another one of those coming Saturday! No matter what you’re here for, it’s the Sabres that brought us all together and no matter how ass they maybe they can’t take that from us! Let’s Go Buffalo!

Thanks for reading.

P.S. In all the busy-ness of the last few days I forgot to mention Kyle Okposo is back already. Evidently his concussion was only slightly worse than Jeff Skinner’s ankle injury and he’s already back! I like to think fan support helped that along.

[youropiniondoesnotmattertome]

A Note To Myself

What am i going to write here is a voice on my own of which your remarks,judgment,thoughts and opinions are not necessary to me. Every soul has its own story and journey to tell, so if you are thinking i am just overreacting and being such a drama queen...then i can just tell you to...FUCK OFF! Thank you.

This note is written by me to myself if i ever get out of this messy current situation I’m having..So, in 5 years time...dear me, please take a look at this note again and evaluate yourself.

Dear N******,

22nd March 2017, 11.22pm.

I never feel such a total wrecked as what i felt today. Waking up today feeling quite miserable after receiving a phone call from a headhunter saying my application could not be entertained because i was not qualified for it.(they didnt specify it in their advertisement anyway...so not my fault)

Feeling a little low while the morning is still early then i decided to go back to sleep...i didnt sleep quite well though..even had a dream about my ex/bf, Afiq.

The morning didnt go quite well...feeling depressed starting to consume me..so i’ve decided to take my little sisters to House of Cats...maybe that will distract my mind a little bit..it does but not for long...once i reached home...the pressure starting to swell up inside me...I received an email from a potential employer but turns out the location is just beyond considering..so i have decided to decline although i am entering the ‘desperate’ phase of searching my job...Then its where i’ve started to feel my pressure and stress reaching its maximum point.

I didnt do anything. I just lay on my bed. Tears started to flow over.Prayers didnt help. I was gasping for help..but there was no one.None. I never felt so alone and helpless in my life.I reached Afiq but i know he is so occupied with work.He didnt say much.A sign that i am just a disturbance in his life at the moment. My friends? They are all friends during easy times. Its true when they said what matters are those who stick by you through your hard times. But they weren’t there. None of them even remember my birthday after 8 years of friendship. But i try to forgive all of them by thinking everyone has its own issues..but i will always be there for them, in a bit...why cant anyone be here for me?

Lessons Learnt During The Hard Times.

1. Depression

When you are jobless or dont have any purpose of life, you will start losing yourself. It might be okay for some, but definitely not for me. I am not able to utilize my brain. I am not able to make use of my *** degree after years of hardwork. It will consume you day by day. I was so much worse now compared to my DAY 1 of jobless. I am now in my DAY 41 of jobless and i am like piece of shit.My advice to myself is always secure a job before resigning.But in my case, I didnt resign because of no reasons, i resigned because i have to.

2. Fuck your, dear former boss.

I was employed for 1 1/2 years. I like my job. I can handle the pressure. Some even looking down on me because they think my job is easy. But try running the firm on your own (while you are still lack of experience), making decisions on your own, clients looking after your boss but because he never came to the office so you have to face them instead. Try having your office being splashed by red paints by gangsters because they are looking for your boss but he was never around and you yourself have to go to the police station and lodge the report. Try having being paid late for every single month. Try not getting your last month salary because your boss is fucking mean and want to have revenge on you. Try having keep begging your boss for your last salary amounting RM4K+++ because you are in desperate need of money and your boss just laughed it all out. Everyone keep saying, you should have left earlier...i want to but because of considering that my boss has to work alone, i dont have the heart and look how he repays me.Dear Mr.**, i hope you rot in hell and may your life never be at peace for all the wrongdoings you have done.

3.  Broke

My bank is empty. My wallet is empty. I have my savings.But you shouldnt touch that, arent you? That is for the house deposit money i’m planning to buy by the age of 30 since i am not going to get married, so i will buy the house using my own hardwork money. I am going to buy a house, stay on my own and probably getting a cat. Until i die. Might opt for free sex if my faith is so shaken by then, who knows. I want to adopt a child and i will raise her on my own. I will be a good mother, thats one thing i know for sure despite of my depression. Looking at a young child’s face soften and melt my heart. So yeah, i am broke. And seeing everyone having such a good life didnt make any easier. I restricted myself from going out..restricted myself from buying food i want. Restricted myself from buying or going anything/anywhere.

4. Family

Broke.No friends. Boyfriend out of picture. I just have my family. My family. I wouldnt say they are my safety net but they are all i have now when everyone left. I know my parents will be there for me. But for how long? I should be the one taking care of them and not the other way round. I want to take care of my family. But now it seems they are keeping a big fat old maiden pig in the house.I tried to help as much as i can.Cleaning, washing, cooking, being driver to my sisters. I’m trying everything that i can. But sometimes, i know i do disappoint my family.

5. Afiq

My boyfriend? My ex? I dont know. We fight a lot.Like really a lot. Depression starts to sweep in and he is the one that i can talk to.But he said he is getting tired with all the whining. Somehow job didnt just landed at your feet. So it has jeopardized our relationship. And he seems to drifting away too. Not sure if there’s a new girl in town. So we fought again last week. Very big fight until i dont think our relationship can work out again. Its just seem done.I met one of my dlsa classmates yesterday, and she was asking how are we? are we getting married soon...I just dont know what to answer...its really heartbreaking. 

Dear *****

1) When you are depressed, you tend to be over sensitive. Over sensitive that no one talks to you, your close friends didnt wish your birthday. You tend to get very emotional about it.

2) Understand that everyone has their own issues. You are not the centre of the universe. But i didnt think its too much to ask for someone just asking how are you...just listen.

3) Friends come and go. Although you are truly hurt by their actions, learn to forgive and takpayah layan dah.

4) When you are at your lowest you will see who will be by your side. For me, I have my family and Afiq. But Afiq is just a stranger. His patience has limits. As much as he said he loves you or want to stick with you till the end of time crap, he has no responsibility towards you. Thats why next time if you ever fall in love, Love moderately or better if you dont fall in love at all. They will leave. They will all always leave. Think about it, why do you want to be stucked in a relationship with a depressed girl when there are plenty dozens of more emotionally stable girls outside??? Think. And you have seen the signs that his love towards you is deteriorating. I can foresee another heartbroken episodes coming.Honestly, i dont know if i can handle all of this.

5) Appreciate your family. Thats all you have. Money cant buy families.

6) Learn to forgive.

I am mad at my fate.I am mad at my boss. I am mad at Afiq. I am mad with everything.

7) Suicidal has always been on your mind. I keep imagining knives and knives. I was stung by a bug yesterday. It was painful. My hand was numb temporarily. Now i wish the bug was poisonous.

8) Your faith will deteriorating.

You tend to be angry at Him. Dont believe in Him. So mad at Him more than anything and start to question where is just in all of these shits? Why me? I was a good student..a good friend.. a loyal girlfriend...why everything didnt work out. I never missed a single prayer eversince i was in primary school..obedient to my parents...my friends some i know didnt even pray..had fun with their boyfriends more than it should...but they are all having a good life..married. While i am still here..broke..jobless..and no chance of getting married soon. I questions a lot till my faith is shaken. I tried to do the daily prayers with pure heart...but sometimes i failed. Prayers seem to be just like a daily routine. Afiq told me to Sabar..sabar...sabar.. but have you ever feel that you just cant handled it anymore..that you feel the pain stucked in your throat while your tears keep flowing..Yes. Sabar and Sabar...now everyone has left me. Maybe this is one way for Him to teach me that you should only rely to Him and not humans. So that is why I am on Tumblr...i motivate myself by reading all the Islamic quotes from Quran and Hadith. I should be thankful for this test. After all, we are all His creations. 

9) Wait and Sabr.

Cry all you want. Never missed your prayers. Read Quran everyday. Be good to your family. And forgive. 

Ya Allah, i hope i pass this test well. Please don’t let my faith slipping away.

[ronaldreghan]

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bruh

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

well that would be dani and i would be very confused. “why was i naked?” i would ask. i have no reason to be naked around dani. or anyone, for that matter.

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

well i found out he was a trump supporter (rip) so i deleted him from everything. i still feel gross and its been almost 6 months.

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

honestly depends on the drug. weed? i dont care. shrooms/lsd/acid? id be a little iffy, but i ultimately wouldnt care. heroin/cocaine/opiods? id immediately try to help them get help.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

ya its 7 lol

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

sober (unfortunately)

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

no? i dont think so

7. What does your last received text say?

“i like that color”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

idk we made out for like twenty minutes because i was too chicken to say “hey you were fun for ten minutes but id really rather be with my friends”

9. Where was your last kiss at?

some shitty halloween rave

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

i dont have a sister lol

11. What do you drink in the morning?

water

12. Where did you sleep last night?

in my bed? where else am i gonna sleep? the dumpster behind my dorm? a clown car?

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

yeah. its constant work, but it shouldnt be annoying work, you know? its work thats hard but you enjoy doing it

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? 

ya i wouldnt spend so much money lol

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

YES GET ME OUT OF THERE AWAY FROM TRUMP BOY

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

rainy!!!

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

nope

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

jeans

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

wish i fuckin knew. probably not.

20. Does anyone like you?

no i dont think so.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

nope

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

fuck no

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

the boy i last kissed

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

i already have one lmao

25. In the past week have you cried?

yeah i cried in the airport because i had to call my mom because i didnt have enough money for the uber home and i was freaking the fuck out

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

i dont know! but he was littleand cute and i love him

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

out of the shower

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

no all the football players i knew in high school were gross, and my current school doesnt have a football team

29. Do you think you’re old?

im not 20 yet so no

30. Do you like text messaging?

yes! i love texting! it makes it so easy to talk to my friends back home and also its so much easier to put things into writing

31. What type of day are you having?

eh, its ok. i met with my schools career service center and we talked about what i have to do to get my dream job, and also an actual job.

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

yeah, but i cant do piercings.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

WARM

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

my dad! even though he annoys me sometimes hes still my dad and i love him a lot

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

a fling. i dont have the time, money, or desire for an actual Relationship rn

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

id like to think simple, but i also know that my logic doesnt always make sense to other people, which can make me seem complicated so *shrug* idk

37. What song are you listening to?

im listening to the sabres/sharks broadcast sooooo

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

usually39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

dani, anishka, brooke40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

well he plays for the sabres and hes super cute and i love him hes softe. he doesnt know i exist because why would he but i lov him.41. When did you last receive a text message?

well since i wrote the beginning of this post i have received two (2) texts, the most recent of which was 3 minutes ago42. What is wrong with you right now?

I NEED MONEY. I HAVE $6 IN MY BANK ACCOUNT AND I HAVE $100 IN FRATERNITY DUES AT THE END OF THE MONTH.43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

dani is one of my best friends lol44. Does anyone disgust you?

myself, mostly. but like, ACTUAL disgust? anyone who is alt-right.45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

probably not46. Are you in a good mood right now?

relatively, yeah47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

my roommates48. What color shirt are you wearing?

its a black parade mcr shirt...................49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

yeah, that im poor lol50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

myself51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

yeah, i honestly hate him so much hahaha but yet were still facebook friends so 

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

the buffalo sabres53. Do you like rain?

yes!!! i love rain so much!!! especially thunderstorms!!!! 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

no55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

all the time in high school. i knew they didnt like me back, so pair that with crippling shyness and nothing ever happened.56. Do you like to cuddle?

YES. CUDDLE ME.57. Are you shy?

GOD YES. i Cannot talk to new people. 58. Do you get along with girls?

i gotta. us women gotta stick together.59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

yeah dani and i dated for like almost 3 months lol 60. What do you carry with you at all times?

my phone. i always, always have my phone with me. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

oh fuck yeah. i love ghosts gimme some ghost love. 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

eh. sure, lets say yeah. 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

nope, but i wanted one. and now i am Here, single, bitter. 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

OH MY GODDDDDD FOREHEAD KISSES KILL ME AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ALSO TEMPLE KISSES GOD I AM SO WEAK FOR THOSE65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

yeah, i surprised brooke and dani and they both screamed which was probably cute, but mostly made me warm inside.

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

uh 19/20, 18, and 16 (at the time)

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? 

id do them myself lol i dont fucking care.   68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

...zebra?

69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

no but i want some70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

lil wayne, i dont fuck my cousins.71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    

iphone bith!!!72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

like two-ish weeks ago?73. Do you like diet soda?    

yeah i like diet coke more than regular coke? idk it tastes better74. What color are the walls in your room?    

here theyre an ugly beige, back home theyre sabres blue and gold (i was in seventh grade ok bye)75. Are you 16 or older?    

ya im 19 now76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

nope.77. Do you have a job?    

not yet, but i applied for a ton! please send positive thoughts my way that i get one!!!  78. What are your initials?    

MMR79. Did you ever have braces?    

yeah, for two and a half years :/80. Are you from the south?    

do i fuck my cousins?

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

my most recent activity was me sharing the article about harrison browne retiring, but my most recent original activity says “ED SHEERAN IS COMING TO BUFFALO THIS IS NOT A DRILL”82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    

nope. he re-followed me on twitter in november tho lol83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

probably my mom, but it used to be the other way around.84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

no but i wanted to so bad when i was younger!!!85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    

the lego batman movie lol86. Do you smoke?    

nope. both of my parents smoked cigarettes and i dont fuck with that. as for weed (which i assume this is actually referring to), i smoked it once over the summer,but i dont really want to again? idk i just have no burning desire to get high.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

flip flops.88. Is your phone touch screen?    

ya89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    

my hair is limp bitch90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    

yeah lol once i snuck out at 1 in the morning to go to noco and buy chocolate milk it was an Adventure91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    

pool. im not about to get some fucking parasite in my vagina, which would happen to me with my shitty luck.92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

ye93. …Had sex in a car?    

no, im a version94. Are you single or in a relationship?    

single95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    

what WAS i doing last night at midnight, thats actually a good question.96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    

uh new years. in person? fourth of july i think.97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

yeah. i mostly take my picture through snapchat so98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    

I FUCKING WISH99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

no but ive thrown up.............100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

a few101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

bitch do i look like im stickin dicks in my hoo ha102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

her cover of true colors? iconic, show stopping, brilliant, amazing, never been done before103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    

yes! its amazing bc that never happens104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?    

FUCK. NO.

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