#i just cant understand why i cant have a break

[deargravity]

akashi is actually not as good at everything as people like / want to believe but let me not get into that today

#i think people are missing the entire point of his character arc when they believe him to be perfect and good at everything #you have fallen for the image he’s projecting without noticing the cracks in the facade and the secrets they reveal #in my opinion people still have a largely one dimensional understanding of him #we have so much material to work with why do we refuse to discuss more than his supposed perfection #less about how perfect he is at something and more about the trials and tribulations he experienced in trying to be good at it #less about how calm and composed he is and more about how easily he breaks down in secret because he cant do it in front of everyone else #more about him being comfortable enough around his friends to risk making jokes #if you heard any of the headcanons i have about akashi you’d go into shock #give me more messy awkward akashi #or i’ll do it myself #Whatever. I don’t want to talk about it anymore #but it’s ok… i will be crazy abt him in silence #i just love him #knb

[batcavescolony]

comic writers are in the comic business so you'd assume they've...You know, read comics. but from what I see they don't do that apparently.

#they cant keep continuity and its kinda annoying. its litterly your job? imagine going to a restaurant and the chef did know any of the #recipes. they were just winging it. you order a steak and they give you a hamburger. you order mashed potatoes they give you cauliflower. #you'd be pissed. or the chef just hates their job and doesn't care so people are getting under cooked chicken and raw vegetables. #why would you write for a character you dont like or know anything about? would it be so hard to summarize each character? #like make a character sheet so eveyone gets the general idea and highlights of said character. or have a list of rules heros cant break? #its just annoying. its your job to write these characters and you cant do it? i get if you dont lie them but you still have to do it #its part of the job. do you think chefs like doing every part of their jobs? NO but its something thats got to be done. #comics #dc comics #marvel comics #marvel #xmen #the avengers #justice league of america #superman #batman #spiderman #iron man #whats your least favorite instance of writers just not understanding the characters they're writing #mines yj dark crisis. just say you dont like 90s comics you dont have to ruin it for those of us who did like it. #red hood #hea got alot. he wasnt a bad robin he was just hated because people didn't like that he was a copy of dick and then poor. #robin #jason todd #young avengers #comic #comic books #to like comics means you gotta ignore some comics because they're BULL SHIT

[hella1975]

hi hella I read the first 2 chapters of aftg and this is how it went

ok tbh I was planning on going further than two chapters like I said I'm in a mountain shack rn internet isn't always great and also my dad would prefer that I'm not constantly on my phone so I was SUPPOSED to do more reading. but. tee bee h. I got through 2 chapters and was like oh I'm so fucking bored let me get on tumblr again

okay but your commentary is so fucking funny

#half the things bugging you are making me want to bash my head into a wall bc im like. you cannot even begin to fathom andrew joseph minyard #but then the other half are totally valid points bc alas this series is INSANE so i literally have no right to be here like 'ACTUALLY-' #goddddd i cant do this i quite literally fucking cant #'tf does he mean aaron's mother' THE VOICES THE FUCKING VOICES #book 1 is objectively boring like fuck all actually happens until the last chapter but oh my godddd i want you to keep reading so bad #like one of the best things about how andrew's character was written (NEVER thought id say that. fuck you nora) #is that we dont actually understand WHY he's like that until like. a good way through book 2 and we're still figuring it out by book 3 #like his backstory is ripped from his bloody hands piece by torturous piece while he actively tries to bite the reader #esp bc he does not catch a fucking break. like it's not past-tense 'this is why he's like this'. bad shit continues to happen #so book 1 andrew just does not even compare to the full picture like i want you to know him SO BAD #but i also totally understand the desire to Not Want To Read These Godforsaken Books #im in PURGATORY #ask #aftg

[bl00dw1tch]

God. God. God. Holy fucking shit i love Avatar so fucking much

#horse.txt #im being so real right now it breaks my goddamn heart that so many people hate it on principle and go into it waiting to be disappointed #like. god. seriously? how do so few people seem to see the shit im seeing? how do people not GET its RIGHT THERE??? #idk man im like. high and the hd release is out so it feels like Christmas but this shit has been on my mind and its at like a precipice #its one thing when ppl just aren't into it but the absolute LOATHING and DISDAIN people harbour for these movies is just. baffling #i cant understand it #i hate statistics. why did it have to pan out this way #how can anybody hate this production literally decades in the making? the fucking DEFINITION of a Passion Project? #the labour and love and inventive GENIUS that has gone into these films--and #you know what? the writing ISN'T that fucking awful. its not perfect because no movie is ever fucking perfect and sometimes you #have to give a script and characters breathing room. room to make mistakes!!! because this fucking obsession with #'characters dont have to be realistic!' is BULLSHIT. and NO saying that does not conflict with the idea that Characters=/=real ppl in #discourse!the ideas can fucking coexist! having realistic characters is GOOD its fucking GOOD when theyre stupid and do shit you dont like! #because thats what REAL PEOPLE DO thats what makes them fucking COMPELLING thats what youre SUPPOSED to let draw you in!!!!!! #but noooo no no no no keep repeating your smurf pocahontas jokes and roll your eyes at anyone who does like it like theyre stupid #because you can't be assed to give something a chance just because everyone Else is calling it stupid #and you dont want them to roll their eyes at /you/ #i know this is dumb to be so heated about but im just. im sad man. im happy im having a great day!! but im sad #about how few people i can share it with yk..???

[rinovarka]

been having Skyfire brain rot for the last few days due to That One Comic Variant Cover and rewatching Fire in the Sky on repeat 72/21

Skyfire a dense mf because surely the Decepticons were NOT even hiding their intents about Earth and its people. Bruh said “hmmm the guy calling himself Supreme Leader and saying how they are going to conquer the universe is a nice guy” . Surely Starscream and Skyfire had SOME talking time at least?? 

Skyfire @ Spike and Sparkplug like nooo “Why are you frightened :( ?”  * is literally a giant robot whose first words were YOU MUST BE DESTROYED was just shooting towards them like a minute ago and decided the best thing to do is pick them up many feet off the ground and towards his face*

But also. Ough. Starscream’s voice performance in the episode...Im a SkyStar truther there HAS to be so much more going on there

#transformers #maccadam #skyfire #starscream #sky is just a lil slow hes kind he means well but he just woke up. give him a break. but also. bro....you cant be this dumb and survive LKFJ #hes so cute. hes book smart but life stupid #hes so funny like he just strolled passed enemy fire like nothing bc he wanted to talk to da humans. doesnt care as it doesnt affect him LOL #also i know the autobots only came back in another episoe to use him as a space taxi but tbh i can understand why they didnt save him. #they didnt have the resources to save a big mf that day and if they cracked the ice sosomeone else might drown too #but #LKSFJLKFJLKF #starscream angst real can you imagine. being close to victory but ur old friend who you wanted to rule with. chose to side with nobodies

[beautifel]

seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂 #AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪 #at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

[lesbiandatekaname]

"Wow, Rosamund really broke out of the princess loop pretty fast, the horror must come from the princess union being flawed in the future" I, a Thing of culture, have watched Revolutionary Girl Utena and know just how horrifying it can be to even try to break out of the narrative loop of princes and princesses.

#anyways rosamund turns into a car and cinderella drives her out of the Neverafter when #dimension 20 #d20 #neverafter #anyways i understand why people hold reservations about the princess union #it does seem like a very saccharine arc end Very early in the season #but i do doubt (and kind of hope) that either snow or cinderella are gonna betray ros #like it is JUST as horrifying to have something you believed to be a spark of hope ripped away from you #like the fairies dont want the princesses to be dead. they want them to Obey the narrative #imagine this scene of cinderella or snow or maybe even ros when they have been forced back into the role made for them #completely broken because they cant remember that desire to break out #or because this is the best they can do

[guinevereslancelot]

i don't care abt spn and didn't watch probably the last ten seasons but with the way death was so often impermanent i think it would have been really funny if they just brought back jess in the last episode

#not necessarily as sam's endgame romantic partner but i understand they replaced a well liked one with a rando in the epilpgue #and i just think it would be really funny if the og dead sam love interest came back and was endgame after all 🤣 #i cant remember if her name was jessica or jess for sure but you know the gf from the pilot #forgive me for spn posting in 2023 its not even november 5th im so sorry #supernatural #spn #mutuals avert your eyes #this has been a shitpost #spn crack #listen every main character died and came back like ten times why not a woman for once why not one of sams ten dead gfs #in fact sams gf curse should have been treated as a real literal curse that they had to break that should have been an episode lol #maybe jess was a Creature all along

[skybluekoneko]

I'm so full of anger. I just want to cry or scream or break everything in my vicinity. I guess the anger is mainly frustration deep down, but that doesn't change the fact that I feel so hateful towards myself and the entire world.

#the 'i want to break sth' thought is pretty strong rn but tbh i wouldnt dare break any thing since that would just cost money to be replaced #plus i would be the crazy one in my family's eyes since im at my parents place rn #also dont worry i wont actually hurt any person either.. i never have and never would #but dear god the fact that i cant release those feelings like that makes me actually feel like im going crazy #and the worst part there is literally no reason at fucking all #like wtf @myself what is going on why am i like that?? #my family is annoyed by me as well since they dont understand what is going on with me.. again #cant blame them #still waiting for this to pass and for myself to be not such an unapproachable asshole towards everyone and everything #and that brings me back to my anger and frustration at myself and the urge to scream #cant escape the vicious circle it seems #i dont think the solution is isolating myself further but anything else feels like an impossible task i cant manage to do either

[pois0ncandy]

to everyone here 25+ how do you do it? how do you live? and continue living? how do you handle it? going to work, daily hygiene, eating, proper health practices, social interaction, going outside, maintaining relationships. how do you do it?! how do you live?!? please tell me i can’t figure it out and i’m going insane. someone please just tell me what to do.

#i do everything that i’m supposed to yet i still feel the #exact #same #i cant even handle having a simple food industry job #i legit had a full blown break down in front of my boss just now because of how mentally ill i am and can’t handle it #he wasn’t mad he was understanding and gave me the weak off despite me saying i want to quit #but i’ve only had that job for a few weeks now… #even my own father said how am i going to survive in this world if i can’t handle anything?! #why don’t people understand how hard it is for me?!??! #i take all the advice my therapist and doctors say #but i still can’t get better #why won’t i feel any different? #am i really just a lost cause? #i don’t want to end up homeless #what’s wrong with me #i just want someone to give me an answer #just someone tell me what to do #i need to be told what to do or else i don’t know how to be a person #agoraphobia is ruining me #i wish someone would just hold my hand

[kicksnscribs]

So seeings how ai work still fucks me up at the mere thought of it maybe just maybe i can get over it if i vent my frustrations out on it here?

#art hasnt been fun for me for a while for a different reason but with the introduction of ai work its just made my mindset worse #like what the fuck how dare you take the one thing im good at and make it meaningless #the only thing i may be capable of doing as a job and its being threatened with obsoletion? #“oh it helps speed up work flow” ok but why do you need it now? #why cant you just wait? #thousands of things to consume already but you want to have more? #and then when it turns out to not be good then ppl riot? #i just dont understand the push to have ai work be used in the industry #i couldnt give a rats ass if you use it for personal use but i give a mighty fuck about it being used in the industry #bc while some ppl still commission artists larger corps will not bc theyre too busy trying to scam every goddamn nickle and dime out of - #their consumer base #and goddamn if the govt is moving fast enough to mitigate the damage #and thats not even a guarantee bc lobbyists exist and you KNOW they are doing their damnedest to try and find loopholes #idk i dont know how ai systems work and unless they are related to gaming ai i really dont care #but i really REALLY care about being able to make a living off of one of the few skills im capable of doing #bc lord KNOWs im fucking worthless at everything else in this bitch ass society im forced to comply to #like fuck me i can't catch a fucking break can i? #ranting #personal rant #i aint anti but ill be damned if i view it in a favorable light #dni i just need to fucking scream

[n4b3]

and it seems to grow more and more. and it makes me question now how much truth is in that amount of people hating this specific section

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i mean like in a way that, it reached a point that at least for me, it became kind of unavoidable the amount of people that hate on dream, no matter how many "not interested" i hit, something always comes up. his situation is sadly a complex one that a person who isnt in the fandom will hardly believe even with all the context.

but its insane how many people dislike him overall, like a lot, even with new interest i developed joining new fandoms new faces new interest when the topic comes up, almost everyone dislikes him (in my personal experience)

i know everything he has done in the past is not something everyone would forgive and specially when then grooming allegation came, the stigma grew even more.

just makes me question overall how much truth is in that hatred, why so many friends turned their back on him... just overall thinking, its sad to see a person go through all of that. even with evidence proving his innocence, its not enough for this amount of disliking

#it just kind of shocked how many people just hate dream and even the justifications make sense in a 'logical' way #but its just so much its ridiculous i cant even escape it #it breaks my heart #kind of a personal story but recently i sprained my leg and while talking with my physiotherapist she told me that her husband just #got falsely accused of being a sex offender and the man got thrown in jail bc in my country if a person has those charges they go to jail #right away. and shes been collecting proof of his innocence and yet is not enough. he'll be free but told me since then. hes scared to hug #his own children due to the stigma it has in jail. even when hes innocence #i understand why theres this stigma but what about the innocent people who have to go through that?

[munamania]

something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.

#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love #what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it #why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties #of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often #so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk #and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore #i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them #. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec #but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd #but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE. #OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL. #and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness #but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart. #this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it #that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too #and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch #now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it. #because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do #something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope #and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude #this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post #ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting #all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

in some fandoms, mostly media whose audiences skews younger, theres often an annoying minority who latch onto a comfort character so hard, they genuinely get mad at other fans for putting their comfort characters in situations that make them (the characters!) upset in fanworks. most of it’s, like, kids and teens who haven’t learned how to interact with people yet and theres a smattering of unhinged adults and either way theyre not like. the joking or ironic mad most fans get seeing those kinds of works. these fans’ vibe isn’t “fuck you op /lh” its more “fuck you op /srs/kys”

anyway i already think the concept of judging a work solely based on how its characters feel as if they’re real people with agency, instead of judging the work based on how it makes the audience feel/what the work is trying to say, is uhhhhhh braindead! but also if you look at the comfort characters some of these ppl have its like. most of them follow fandom trends. and by fandom trends i mean most of them favor the angsty, usually white and male, characters who have rly tragic backstories. they don’t have to be particularly well written characters though some of them definitely are. but they’re usually edgy and, i cannot stress this enough, very tormented by events that happen in canon.

anyway i think most of it boils down to people not knowing how to mind their own damn business and just avoid angsty fanworks if they’re not feeling it. but it’s like. buddy, if you can’t stand people making content about your comfort character Going Through Situations, then why did you pick a comfort character whose entire job in canon is to Go Through Situations

#shut up pandora #im not kidding go into any big fandom that has a large teen/young adult population #and pick out the fandoms most prolific often pale twink whos kind of fucked up and sad #if the fandom is big enough thats the most likely place where these kind of ppl will spawn first #not that other characters dont also get fans like this #the uwufication of some characters if you will #like infantilization but more annoying #the way fandoms do it for pale twinks is different from the way fandoms do it for women and poc but its annoying in both directions #but yeah in fandoms big and young enough theres always a pale twink that a bunch of ppl worship and woobiefy and write bad angst for #and eventually some ppl step back and think this saturation of angst is distracting from what i liked about the initial character #and the normal fans decide to explore non angst facets of this character to deepen their appreciation or just explore other characters #but some double down on the woobiefying until the character is a teddy bear no one else is allowed to look the wrong way #lest you face the wrath of them complaining about people 'being mean' to their favorite character like this character has feelings or smth #oh and the harassment dont forget they'll get onto the comments and replies of every fanwork that has a modicrum of angst #and yell at the creator for being angsty because 'WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE ANGSTY CANT THIS CHARACTER GET A BREAK' but theyre serious #anyway luckily this is usually a very small part of most fandoms because most people understand its unhinged behavior and not in the fun way #but its very annoying when i see it!

[siobhanromee]

For the blorbo bingo. Drumbot brian

Brian isnt my favourite mech but his story is really compelling

#I think the morality switch thing is so interesting #I also wish we got some more of him being a mechanisms with the others #Like Marius and Ivy and Jonny and Nastya all get banter within the albums themselves #And gtp and jonny and nastya and ts all are very talkative during live shows #I just with we could have gotten more dialogue with brian and ashes and raphaella #Although technically speaking I understand why they dont talk as much in live shows #like from experience it's hard to play drums or bass or synth whilst speaking. #And I feel like like those specific instruments drive the music so much that they cant just take a break from the music like a violin could

[romanken]

Compilation of. Something

#still in hell in case ur wondering. #its all a journey of understanding. trying to know and learn new life. trying to overcome barriers of language and culture. trying to #discover the truth of the mission gone wrong. trying to understand a man who fears he can never be understood! #it all happens because they sing... because they sing and we have to know them. because in the whole wide expanse of the universe there is #something like us and we have to know them. we have to understand #i will learn if you teach me! emilio is so full of hope and joy for the future he wants to know and learn and understand. and then it all #gets turned on its fucking head. and originally everything that grows wrong is because emilio wanted to understand. and then its because he #fails to. he eats children because he cannot understand. marc dies and his hands are destroyed because communication fails. #jesus. and then. it. happens and he is desperately trying to know why this would happen to understand why god would allow it and it breaks #him. and all he wants is to stop understanding to stop learning to make it all go away. 😁🔫. and then when he finally gets home and its #supposed to be over everyone just wants. they want what he used to want: to understand and to know. and how can he possibly give that up #how can he communicate that in any way that matters. because it wont make anything better and it wont fix what happened to him #and they cant they cant understand all they can do is offer forgiveness. absolution. and hope that can be enough! #the sparrow