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porcelain-rob0t · 8 months

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thinking about Serge again

#the Jewish-Romani solidarity is real bc i feel for him so much #to be persecuted for centuries and still have so much hope to follow your dreams im jusg AAUGH #i love serge i love my silly little son #in a perfect world he could have embraced and celebrated his culture more #i would have loved to see him in his cultural clothing or anything like that #my family had to assimilate hard when we immigrated to America to be safe from antisemitism but we lost our culture #so i just get so emotional when a character has to assimilate to stay safe and doesnt get to experience their culture #kaze to ki no uta #kazeki

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slinky-skater-rat · 10 months

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I'm so fucking excited for the 3rd Troll movie like you don't get it Branch has abandonment issues now??? Hell yeah!!! and obviously his brothers will ask about Grandma and when he reveals that she died its going to be the most important scene in Trolls cinematic history. How will they respond? Will they even feel guilt? How would Branch feel that his brothers were out living their lives while he was depressed, grieving the loss of his grandmother? This is all on the assumption of two scenes with Grandma's picture. (The flashback where the band breaks up and the Poppy and Branch leaving to go to the wedding)

#trolls #dreamworks trolls #Trolls 3 #Slinkys words #If the movie doesnt align with my headcannon I shall boycott all Dreamworks movie for the next 10 years #my wishlist is that the brothers are found in different genre areas of the troll world like on is found in rock or country or something like #that I just hope we see some cameoes of Queen Barb or other troll species because the troll world building is super cool!!#In summary I just want some family drama #and more broppy :3

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silenthillbunni · 3 months

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#just a little diary dump:#i've contacted my school therapist again. asked for help regarding anxiety abt schoolwork since i dont get any other treatment #she said she can help me go thru if there are other options since neither psychiatric nor healthcare center will help me #+ she said that she and i can talk abt my anxiety regarding school etc. so in two weeks i'll see her #school starts next week. 4days a week rip... lol thats much for me. a bum. a cellar dweller. i've decided that im gnna go to all my classes #and always work while im there since its harder for me to do it at home. and i will also talk more w my teacher nd ask them for help #then im looking into an online therapy service. it miiight be possible for me to do that. but then i have to contact them and focus on only #1 or 2 issues. in my experience it just doesnt work to go to them and be like everythings bad :(( they wont help u then. i have to narrow it #down for them. nd i'll think i will talk 2 them abt my extreme feelings of loneliness and also my procrastination behavior #but yeah i have no idea if it's possibly bc idk if i can get financial aid for that service. im still in contact w the healthcare center so #i hope she will come to some sort of conclusion nd not just leave my high nd dry (she sent another referral to the persobality disorder -#clinic. even if they rejected the first one. so i'll see)#hmmm yeah. the situation w my sisters is sooooo rough. i hate it. they make me feel so so bad #and the housing situation is roughhhh. it's impossible to get an apartment lol.#so i need to find a way to shut it off and try to not let it bother me #just focus on finishing upper secondary school. nd i've been thinking abt taking out a loan for it and take german/french/spanish classes #instead of doing what im doing now when im actually poor and stressed bc they can choose to cut me off anytime #im meeting my highschool friend on tuesday. she asked if i wanted to hang out for a bit c:#im a bit anxious but like yeah.. it's nice to get out and talk to someone besides my family. which is just my mom lol #i messaged my other old highschool classmate on insta and said i saw her in my neighborhood #she replied but i had lowkeyyy hoped for more... like maybe being able to befriend her T-T but she didnt seem so interested in talking to me #which is ok ofc. it just made me a bit sad bc idk how to make friends and i thought she was rlly nice. but oh well #im rlly sad atm. maybe heartbreak prob. even more sad bc it was my stupid fault but yeah #im still grateful for all that it gave me. nd how i got to experience feelings of warmth nd love nd appreciation i didnt know i could feel #so even if im just contantly heavily sad bc i keep being like oh. i wanna ask this. say that. wonder what theyre up to. etc etc. i just have #to... be sad and just keep going forward #hope and try to not fuck everything else up. even if it feels like... what do all the other things matter when what i rlly rlly wanted got #ruined..... thats life tho. i know. im just so bad at handling life :((#i feel so broken and confused and i hate that i didnt get to be normal and healthy #im so illequipped at dealing w myself nd my emotions nd there seems to be no professional help for me

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pocketramblr · 1 year

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i cannot believe you people voted this man as both the most tragic backstory and ending. this guy. least tragic linky boy. are yall kidding me.

#wild got voted second place for tragic begining #and wars for tragic ending #whats CRAZIEST THO #is that TIME #GOT VOTED LEAST TRAGIC ENDING #YOU KNOW THE GUY WHO IS SO HAUNTED BY HIS REGRETS IN LIFE HE IS CURSED TO REMAIN A SKELETAL GHOST UNTIL TWILIGHT CAN EASE HIS TROUBLES #LEAST. AMOUNT. OF VOTES. IN TRAGIC ENDING #my boy rulie got 11% on both. he did not get hunted by a cult for his blood to be so low. weeping #yall picked the one link who has a dad who SURVIVES and HELPS HIM IN THE LAST BATTLE and who has had ONE breakup #ONE BREAKUP. ONE. and MAYBE they do see each other again one day ANYWAY WHO KNOWS #because his ending is so not tragic i had to put 'nobody knows lol' as the option #COWBOY LINK RIDES OFF ON HIS PONY #HE TRAVELS TO SEE FRIENDS AND FAMILY #AND YALL SAID THAT WAS MORE TRAGIC THAN #'bearer of the curse's sky or hyrule #or agaIN THE HERO OF TIME #yall. yall.#linked universe #but im hoping it doesnt make it to the main tag lol

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hecksupremechips · 17 hours

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Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit #i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it #very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically #some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like #AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE #and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to #and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded #it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me #i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me #and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him #away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt #feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like #aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family #hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs #his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage #and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them #HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM #and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is #but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK #and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way #or hes like ‘haha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he #doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnally’#yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them

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the-jam-to-the-unicorn · 2 months

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Because the week wasn't sad enough, there had to be a new Lenny interview that broke my heart a lot more. 🥺😭🥲

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capaldiera · 1 year

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it was so not the point of mash and would have been jarring tbh but like rn i'm wishing father mulcahy had actually talked about religion in more than just little quips. girl what are your thoughts and what things do you like to focus on. btw

#thinking abiut this rn because i was wondering if theres any particular saints he likes but i think it was kicked off by when i was thinkin #g earlier today about. well i was thinking about heroes again. specifically about the men he grew up around and didnt want to be like and t #he places he looked to for the kind of man he did want to be (reading plato; what he saw of gentleman joe cavanaugh)#and i was thinking about the ways he differed from the other kids (who bullied him) and the kind of kid his dad wanted him to be (to me the #subtext in emphasising how much he used to sit inside reading directly before talking about going to the match with his dad is that his dad #kind of dragged him along and wanted him to be into boxing instead)#and so i was thinking about all that and in listing the plato thing and the boxing match thing. i thought about jesus and how like the chr #istian bible descibes him as gentle and kind and patient and whatnot. and how he fits into that list and like obviously one assumes he is a #role model for mulcahy. lol. but the show doesnt really go there bc thats just not the tone its not what the show is #(not complaining about that it would most likely be done sooo obnoxiously and like its literally not what i want to see on tv)#and then i was wondering about when his religion became really important for him. like given what he seems to feel about his family #and how much he doesnt talk about them. i would assume its a connection he more or less found/established as independent from them #which leads me to think of it as either something he got into later or something which was a refuge for him as a kid.#and like ive thought before about how the things he mentions in heroes Dont have to do with catholicism. and maybe thats just bc it wasn't #part of the story. or maybe its because he just wasnt really looking there for guidance and hope at that point #anyway i dont have answers to any of these questions i was simply turning them over in my head like smooth pebbles in my mouth #me.txt #mashposting #oh i got soo distracted here but ALSO the reason i was thinking about it when i made thsi post is bc i was wondering what stained glass he #likes Lol #for potential use in a joke post i might make

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kennabeth · 6 months

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dustfinger: I love all of my children equally, brianna, farid, and [looks at smudged writing on hands] john

#tcor spoilers #HATE that there was no actual resolution this #i understand fully that it can be difficult when your partner's child (who is not also yours) looks like their other parent #feelings are hard to change! sure!#but: roxane is friends with her husband's affair partner. atp he has no right to show any hurt over her remarrying #and that includes taking it out on jehan #he doesnt say himself that theres any resentment (which is odd bc he loves telling us all his shitty thiughts usually; too stressed out #for self reflection right this second?)#but nyame talks about how obvious and infuriating it is #not to say jehan's making it up (i would never never never doubt my babiest boy) but it's bad enough that people outside the family see it #('outside the family' it's his uncle but outside the home ig)#where was i going with this #having a was-hoping-id-find-the-end-of-this-thought-when-i-came-to-it moment #oh right the lack of self reflection made me wonder if dustfinger knew he was acting like this at all #and i was PRAYING for nyame to chew him out over it #there were so many good spots for that conversation too #when df was practically dead for the third time and jehan stayed with him to make sure he didnt actually die #i expected 'i dreamed about you burning alive every night for ten years' levels of dustfinger being yelled at from jehan #and we literally?? didnt get a single chapter from either of their povs at that time?? what the actual fuck man #okay not to be like 'i could write this better' but a way more satisfying conclusion to everything that started #with nyame saying the two of them are so similar #would have been [jehan rightly makes dustfinger feel bad about continuing to be a terrible father] -> [jehan storms off to orpheus' to #'offer' dustfinger in exchange for the book but the adults dont know where he went] -> [nyame comes back and also yells at df #for letting his kid run off and drive home that he really is failing jehan and points out to him their similarities] ->#[df goes oh shit i also tried trading innocent people for a book] ->#[whatever. resolution]#do u see what i mean #his ~apology~ to meggie in book 2 is so good while being in character #and he cant apologize to his stepson? he barely fking knew meggie lmao #says kenna

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nomaishuttle · 5 months

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What would you consider to be middle class though? Cus I had an American Girl doll but I think I was still poor lmao credit card debt

tbh i dont think owning like. A american girl doll makes u middleclass or anything i think i said that lol. bc its like.. a big purchase you save for. but the girl i was talking abt and didnt seem to realize that was like ... not the same for other ppl she was just like "LOL i was just soo into american girl doll i know more abt american girl dolls than you do" when its like No your family could just afford to buy you a rly extravagant gift a couple times over.

#sry this doesnt rly answer the question Ill admit my idea of middle class is a bitt skewed bc i was on that poverty grind as a kid #hashtag living in a hotel hashtag both parents working multiple jobs hashtag going weeks with no food LMAO. so in my mind middle class is #like. can afford to go on an out of state vacation every year. WHICH IS NOTT MIDDLE CLASS RLY IK. but we only went on a big out of state #vacation like... Max every 3 years and that was only road trips. ive never flown b4 lmao... thats another thing is if somebody says Oh ive #flown multiple times im like ohhh oil tycoon parents? richboy over here ? (joking)#like yk. ik that doesnt necessarily mean middle class. my like. for serious definition of a middle class family would beeee. ig if one #parent could afford to be unemployed and the family would still be able to live relatively comfortably (bills paid enough food etc) i thin #id consider that like. at least lowermiddle class...#sry this is a jumble KJABJDBKN yk. i think theres still an inate instinct in me to see anybody living comfortably and go like wowww ok #old money over here... yr parents only work 1 job each your mom isnt even fulltime? which is silly obviously. but yk #basically. i have a hard time distinguishing between like.. any classes above like. poverty. and lower class. bc my brain is automatically #like well they have more money than i did growing up ig they r bourgeoisie scum #JOKE. but yes #that rly was just like a quick Ugh this yter is kinda annoying post LMAO i hope u dont take it too seriously lol.#i had a couple american girl dolls that were my moms when she was little #so im not like Oh you have ag dolls ? guillotine now. LMAO. so yes #SRY AGAIN THIS IS SO RAMBLEY IM TIRED LMAO

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clone-bar-79s · 2 years

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Brown girls dont show up on american TV much. As someone who wasnt living in the US but was still consuming media, I loved seeing black girls on TV. I related to them to some extent because well... I looked much more like them than I ever would the standard white actor. And let me tell you, when I saw the doctor decide to be the universes biggest prick to easily the smartest prettiest kindest and most genuinely wonderful human being ever seen on TV aka Martha Jones it wasnt fun. my throat still blocks up everytime i recall just how perfect she was. and this is not something that is characteristic of the doctor. he doesnt just sideline companions the way he does martha. it happens to one companion and she happens to be a woc and i hate that it did. woc deserve to be treated the same way he treats every other person he comes across. fucking sucks

#martha jones #my throat was blocked up even as i wrote this #i am not articulate enough to begin to express just how bad it was to see a season with someone who you finally relate to in some way #and she gets treated as an intruder instead of a companion #the word itself doesnt fit her and i wish she had hurt him more when she left #i hate hate hate that the season didnt give her the love and happiness they offered others #she chooses to leave him at the end and its teh one thing that offers me some solace #and while she does leave because of all the harm her family suffers i hope she had told him much of an outsider he made her feel like #god im mad #doctor who #ali txts

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egoarc4de · 1 year

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#if i see one more succession discourse post against my will..... its lights out for me #i love community i love shared creativity i love injecting passion into media #but it's hard to navigate that without being forced to see all the uh. the other shit.#granted i love seeing a good analytical post #but for the most part it feels like people just reinvented the trauma olympics.#and i think mayhaps i am not in a place to be looking at discourse surrounding abuse and family trauma....#esp in a fandom setting where all nuance is flattened #and one must be Good and the other as such must be Evil.#it has the potential to prompt really interesting and intimate discussion between friends!#but instead it is just........ catholic heaven and hell in tumblr post pills #i want to talk about it but alas there is no space to </333 so i will just think about it in my brain #succession #rambling #hello friends how are you all #hope u are well. i am... behind on work. so i am cramming.#chanting UR SIMPLISTIC DYADISM DOESNT SCARE ME as i shake in my boots #however i have seen some very interesting things.........

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kingmaximusboltagon · 2 years

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ok so these are pretty jumbled thoughts because i keep thinking of making this post while im at work and then forgetting what i was thinking about. but anyways.

ive been off and on thinking about maximus and blackagar and their status of king/prince. although the show version of maximus does seem to enjoy being king (more on that... eventually, in a different post), in general, it seems like neither of them particularly want or enjoy being king.

maximus spends a pretty significant amount of time trying to steal the throne, yes, but whenever he actually has it he doesn't seem that happy. as he says in uncanny inhumans,

he gains more enjoyment being a menace than anything else. being king is a large responsibility, and when blackagar isn't actively fighting to get it back, there isn't chaos. attilan's citizens don't seem to mind maximus as king, at least not enough that i can remember it being brought up, so he doesn't face much in that regard. and typically attilan isn't under some outside threat while he's king - or if they are, he doesn't show much interest or take charge, and the rest of the family deals with the problem.

then there's him allowing blackagar to reclaim the throne without any fight at all in,,, war of kings? silent war? one of those space war comics that all have similar titles, iirc.

AND him not caring even slightly when medusa has the throne in new attilan, claiming it's a boring headache.

whenever he's king, he's miserable. whenever medusa is ruling alone as queen, he shows no interest. the only time he actually cares about or shows signs of wanting to be king, is when blackagar is. and ive been trying to come with why. jealousy? does he just think he'd be better at it? believing bb is just too dangerous?

probably yes to all of that, but i think it might also have a lot to do with their parents. because yes, they died, and max blames this on bb (also more on this later), but i think it also has to do with how they ruled.

as much as blackagar has questionable morals and some really shitty behavior throughout a lot of his ruling, he clearly doesn't think or act exactly like his parents. his thoughts on the genetic council, on exiling vs killing, his constant willingness to forgive those who have harmed him, even at the cost of putting attilan at risk, the alpha primitives - all things that are pretty significant to their society that bb doesn't treat in the same light his parents did.

and as shitty as their parents were, bb and max do seem to love them. bb never really knew anyone else prior to being let out, and though max kept his powers hidden, his parents surely knew, making them the only people he could confide in. both of them were extremely isolated from anyone but their parents, and had extremely high expectations put on them from birth. they both, even well into their adult life, never seem to question or acknowledge this mistreatment, and hold their parents in extremely high regards.

royals even implies that his part in their deaths is the one thing maximus truly regrets doing:

(is this even implying? this is basically outright stating that he feels guilty about the deaths he's caused trying to oppose bb, and his parents are the ones telling him this. even if it only lasted five seconds, under the assumption he's telling the truth about this time-frame, it still existed for him)

royals also has a panel of maximus initially blaming himself for their deaths, something once and future kings also includes.

although he does end up placing heavy blame onto bb for this later, more than once it's shown that his initial reaction is to blame himself. he's definitely pretty messed up about these two deaths.

these strong regards he holds his parents in, paired with his guilt about their deaths, probably left a lot of unresolved guilt and a need to make them proud, to fufill what they wanted, even if they couldn't be there to witness any of it. max seems to think they're great rulers, and wants to do right by them.

blackagar, on the other hand, has a lot more support, from his family and from society, and although i do think their deaths affected him very heavily as well, he seems more secure in not placing it on himself. max seems to do it more as a coping mechanism, while bb just logically knows it was an accident neither had meant. he loves his parents, but he's more concerned with being a good king than being what they wanted him to be.

and if blackagar is a good king, and blackagar is doing different than their parents did, then there's some poor implications being created about their parents. if bb is a good king, and he does the opposite of their parents, if he changes the laws and allows exceptions, then whatever their parents did might be classified as wrong.

so maximus has to either confront the idea that their parents weren't perfect and all-knowing, or take the easier way out and say bb is just a bad king. i dont think maximus wants the throne because he truly wants it, but rather he's trying to preserve his parents' legacy by keeping everything exactly as they left it.

(plus, he seems to be much more chill with bb whenever they're working against a common enemy and bb is willing to harm or kill in order to protect attilan. something im sure agon would do.)

#theres also another post in here somewhere on how max rationalizes his guilt. or moreso how he doesnt #ive been reading by right of birth and his relationship with the professor has given me many half baked thoughts #obviously bb never really wanted to be king. it wss just kind of thrust upon him #but he treats it much more seriously than max. and he doesnt really know anything else #max can compare being king with being prince. bb was born with the expectations he'll be king and got the role way before he was ready #he worries more with the weight of that than the weight of being the product of their parents #maximus never *stops* thinking about their parents #no idea if any of this makes sense or not. its pretty late rn and ive been thinking on this for several days now #and ive forgotten most of my points by now #actually. as far as ive seen none of the family ever really acknowledge what those experiments put them through #which is sad all on its own #do any of them even realize how messed up all that was? for bb's own parent to lock him up for two DECADES?#for him to never be allowed to cry as an infant or toddler? for him to be expected from birth to lock all emotions away forever?#i really hope there's dome acknowledgement of it somewhere as i continhe reading #there's a lot to unpack amongst the relationship those four have with each other #and im very interested to see how developed it actually gets in canon #maximus boltagon #blackagar boltagon #king agon #queen rydna #undescribed

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synchlora · 2 years

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anyway fuck that psychologist i may have gotten Undiagnosed of OCD??????

#still not sure if that was official or not LOL hope it wasnt! :Fear:#yknow. nothing like having a deep family history of OCD on both sides and going to a specialist for three years and seeing improvement #for that to be erased in *checks watch* three appointments and abt 6 hours worth of communication with someone that doesnt know Shit on OCD #but what do i know <333 #im just a dumbass mentally ill bitch that doesnt know shit abt my mental health noooo #definitely not more than a neurotypical w outdated training <33

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technicolorxsn · 20 hours

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love how there are pretentious video essays that just repeat the book and meander and ramble about house of leaves. it's what zampanó would have wanted. it is not, however, what I want

#anyway i finished the main portion of the book #all i have left is the poems and a few other small things i think? ive read pelafinas letters #im thinking of getting the full book of her letters #but also they severely messed with my head so we'll see #i will say. i do get why ppl say the book is pretentious and frustrating #there was a lot of stuff where i couldnt tell if it was supposed to be satire or if it was genuinely just that dense and pretentious #and a lot of the codes were rly obtuse imo?#like... idk. some of them were super obvious like the sos stuff or pelafina outright saying what to do #but others like. man how am i supposed to know johnny waxing poetic about pussy was coded #i mean that one is also pointed out though much later but i know i missed a lot just like it that werent pointed out #and ive heard theres a lot of shit where the message you get is just danielewski????? which gonna be real. kinda dumb.#but i did also really enjoy the book #there was a lot of stuff in it that was just so compelling or poignant or whatever other word #the minotaur stuff is good (ofc id say that though i love me some minotaur themes)#also a lot of the scenes with johnny just...... christ #idk how ppl say to skip them hes so fascinating #yeah i could do with him talking about his possibly hallucinated sex life a bit less but also his story is just plain interesting #i still think about the part where the girl he was talking to runs over a dog they had picked up........ it was fucking chilling #and his hallucinations of dying are so descriptive in just the right way to get under my skin #the uncertainty with him and his family..... did pelafina try to kill him? did his father just send her away for being a bit too overbearing #over an accident? was there something else? what was the deal with his foster family? with lude? gdansk man and kyrie?#how did it get published? who are the editors? why did the band know of the book before it should have been published?#why does his journal section end with a story from a man he admits to making up completely? the doctor from seattle doesnt exist #the chronological end is more hopeful with him saying things will be okay but then he puts a previous entry after that?#i think the burning of the book parallels the story nicely #johnny said his piece; he nurtured the book as much as he could; but it was hurting him and he had to give up on it #idk!#this book does make me feel a lil dumb ngl

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homo-house · 6 months

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hey uh so I haven't seen anyone talking about this here yet, but

the amazon river, like the biggest river in the fucking world, in the middle of the amazon fucking rainforest, is currently going through its worst drought since the records began 121 years ago

picture from Folha PE

there's a lot going on but I haven't seen much international buzz around this like there was when the forest was on fire (maybe because it's harder to shift the narrative to blame brazil exclusively as if the rest of the world didn't have fault in this) so I wanted to bring this to tumblr's attention

I don't know too many details as I live in the other side of the country and we are suffering from the exact opposite (at least three cyclones this year, honestly have stopped counting - it's unusual for us to get hit by even one - floods, landslides, we have a death toll, people are losing everything to the water), but like, I as a brazilian have literally never seen pictures of the river like this before. every single city in the amazonas state is in a state of emergency as of november 1st.

pictures by Adriano Liziero (ig: geopanoramas)

we are used to seeing images of rio negro and solimões, the two main amazon river affluents, in all their grandiose and beauty and seeing these pictures is really fucking chilling. some of our news outlets are saying the solimões has turned to a sand desert... can you imagine this watery sight turning into a desert in the span of a year?

while down south we are seeing amounts of rain and hailstorms the likes of which our infrastructure is simply not built to deal with, up north people who have built everything around the river are at a loss of what to do.

the houses there that are built to float are just on the ground, people who depend on fishing for a living have to walk kilometers to find any fish that are still alive at all, the biodiversity there is at risk, and on an economic level it's hard to grasp how people from the northern states are getting by at all - the main means of transport for ANYTHING in that region is via the river water. this will impact the region for months to come. it doesnt make a lot of sense to build a lot of roads bc it's just better to use the waterway system, everything is built around or floats on the river after all. and like, the water level is so incomprehensibly low the boats are just STUCK. people are having a hard time getting from one place to another - keep in mind the widest parts of the river are over 10 km apart!!

this shit is really serious and i am trying not to think about it because we have a different kind of problem to worry about down south but it's really terrifying when I stop to think about it. you already know the climate crisis is real and the effects are beyond preventable now (we're past global warming, get used to calling it "global boiling"). we'll be switching strategies to damage control from now on and like, this is what it's come to.

I don't like to be alarmist but it's hard not to be alarmed. I'm sorry that I can't end this post with very clear intructions on how people overseas can help, there really isn't much to do except hope the water level rises soon, maybe pray if you believe in something. in that regard we just have to keep pressing for change at a global level; local conditions only would not, COULD NOT be causing this - the amazon river is a CONTINENTAL body of water, it spans across multiple countries. so my advice is spread the word, let your representatives know that you're worried and you want change towards sustainability, degrowth and reduced carbon emissions, support your local NGOs, maybe join a cause, I don't know? I recommend reading on ecological and feminist economics though

however, I know you can help the affected riverine families by donating to organizations dedicated to helping the region. keep in mind a single US dollar, pound or euro is worth over 5x more in our currency so anything you donate at all will certainly help those affected.

FAS - Sustainable Amazon Fundation

Idesam - Sustainable Developent and Preservation Institute of Amazonas

Greenpeace Brasil - I know Greenpeace isn't the best but they're one of the few options I can think of that have a bridge to the international world and they are helping directly

There are a lot of other smaller/local NGOs but I'm not sure how you could donate to them from overseas, I'll leave some of them here anyway:

Projeto Gari

Caritás Brasileira

If you know any other organizations please link them, I'll be sure to reblog though my reach isn't a lot

thank you so much for reading this to the end, don't feel obligated to share but please do if you can! even if you just read up to here it means a lot to me that someone out there knows

also as an afterthought, I wanted to expand on why I think this hasn't made big news yet: because unlike the case of the 2020 forest fires, other countries have to hold themselves accountable when looking at this situation. while in 2020 it was easier to pretend the fires were all our fault and people were talking about taking the amazon away from us like they wouldn't do much worse. global superpowers have no more forests to speak of so I guess they've been eyeing what latin america still has. so like this bit of the post is just to say if you're thinking of saying anything of the sort, maybe think of what your own country has done to contribute to this instead of blaming brazil exclusively and saying the amazon should be protected by force or whatever

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silverislander · 9 months

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ok maybe tape binding isnt a great idea for me. sigh

#thats on me i really shouldve researched it more before spending money on it. ill try to do that next time #a bit disappointing tho ngl #if i cant take it off for several days and i have to do this that and the other just to make sure it doesnt rip my skin off. not great #trying to explain why i have oil in the shower (to remove the tape) just isnt gonna work in my house. someone will see and ask questions #maybe ill give it a shot in the fall when i can at least wear a hoodie so nobody asks why im not wearing a bra #levi.txt #also just. damn. i was really hoping i would be able to do smth abt it #the only big kind of dysphoria i get is my chest and i cant do anything abt it really #ive only been able to bind until now by wearing underclothes that are too small for me and that irritates my skin if its day to day #and i cant get a binder bc 1. poor 2. my mom can see my purchases anyway bc of how my bank acct is set up #like yeah i guess theoretically i could look into free programs or whatever locally but. idk i feel like theyre not for me #there has to be someone who really cant afford one and has so much worse dysphoria who really deserves that resource #and id hate to feel like i was taking that from them when i can manage 90% of the time just fine #like. i dont Need it. on the worst days ill feel gross and then the day afterwards im p much back to normal! its not even consistent #i am incredibly lucky i live in a family who love me and that i have minimal non life changing dysphoria to begin with #it would just. be nice #at least to see if it works

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